#i don’t gotta worry about using the demigender or demiboy flag and then later realizing that opp nope that’s not how i hc him actually

[gaymalcolmreed-blog]

I’ve been perusing the Gender Wiki (which I stumbled upon whilst looking up the nonbinary and demigender flags in preparation for drawing my nb Danny icon) and it occurred to me that I might be using Daniel to try to figure out my own gender. Last week, I started writing a fic where he comes out as nonbinary - I had somehow come to the conclusion that the Ancient language has separate pronouns for multiple genders, both binary and nonbinay, one being masculine-adjecent, and then immediately decided that he would use those, which is how I came to hc him as nb. [And then I made myself sad seeing as Ancient is basically proto-Latin and Latin only has masculine, feminine, and neuter forms, and also we currently live in a society that’s largely pretty queerphobic or at the very least cisheteronormative despite being influenced by a society that was much more liberal… but that’s beside the point.]

But the thing is, while I am figuring out how I see Daniel’s relationship to gender, I still have no fucking clue what mine is. All I know is I’m afab and consider myself neither cis nor trans. So if this was supposed to be an unconscious attempt to figure out what exactly my gender is, it ain’t working lmao