#i dissociated real fucking bad for like 7 hours tho maybe more. like actually no now im looking at the time aint no WAY its 5 am nearly
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#in denial about how bad his problems are ^#inthrum bickerman#system babbles#positive#vent#ok to rb#i showered and now im not ill#i dissociated real fucking bad for like 7 hours tho maybe more. like actually no now im looking at the time aint no WAY its 5 am nearly#what the fuck this has been going on since about 4 to 5 pm. its been like 12 hours not 7#holy shit why was i so messed up oh my god? im not like. great now but im BETTER. FUCK. I GOT SO BAD.#and suddenly was fine? what happened. it wasnt socialization bc i went back and forth with no affect#food didnt contribute. didnt THINK the shower did considering i was fucked up during it but like. right afterwards. idk.#wierd. im gonna be in denial about this#memory issues#dissociative disorder#im really. really struggling lately idk whats wrong with me#ptsd
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1: What are you wearing?im in tracksuit trousers and a mighty boosh shirt ayy
2: Ever been in love?yes ugh
3: Ever had a terrible breakup?yes, even more ugh.
4: How tall are you?5'7"
5: How much do you weigh?last I checked, 104 lbs?? but I’ve been sick so that might have fluctuated
6: Any tattoos do you want?I already have two (sloth on my right arm, three dots on my left ankle), but I really want like… a spaceman in space in a bottle with “it’ll all make sense again” on a ribbon around it.i want quite a lot of tattoos tho and I want the right side of my body to be in colour and the left side to be all in b&w dotwork
7: Any piercings that you want?again, I already have a few (left nostril, right bottom lip, two in left ear, and a stretcher in my right ear), but I want my right eyebrow pierced maybe a couple times and I want the cartilage of my ears pierced like. all the way down and I’ve been playing with the idea of a septum??
8: OTP?I legit can’t narrow this down to one ok it’s impossible
9: Favorite Show?right now it’s stranger things. but like, long term rewatchability it’s probably the mighty boosh just because it’s fucking insane.
10: Favorite bands?SO MANY um. the classic emo shit that I’m sure you expect from me (bmth, mcr, fob, p!atd, atl, and others), but right now I’m really into like. emotional folky music?? like bright eyes, the boy least likely to, pixies, mumford & sons, someone still loves you boris yeltsin, and like a ton more goddamn just add me on spotify
11: Something you miss?I… don’t know??? probably mardy and mick right now. I wish I could see them.
12: Favorite song?aaaaa right now you don’t know by kaitlyn tarver
13: How old are you?18 years and exactly 3 months tomorrow
14: Zodiac sign?leoooo
15: Hair Color?naturally I think it’s like. really dark brown/almost black but it’s dyed pastelish green rn
16: Favorite Quote?homosexuals are not interested in making other people homosexual. homophobes are interested in making other people homophobic (stephen fry)
17: Favorite singer?DODIE DODIE DODIE DODIE DODIE
18: Favorite color?red/black, but then like… separately, pastel yellow/blue
19: Loud music or soft?separately, both.
20: Where do you go when you’re sad?I hide in my room
21: How long does it take you to shower?like 5 minutes. unless I’m dissociating, bc then it can legit be 3 hours.
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?15 minutes on a good day! but it takes me about 3 hours to actually get out of bed
23: Ever been in a physical fight?quite a few!!! I only started one of them tho and I think a lot of them can be considered beat downs instead of fights
24: Turn on?people just. being. adorable.
25: Turn off?PEOPLE BEING DICKS THERE AIN’T NO NEED FOR THAT
26: The reason I joined Tumblr?originally? fucked up shit, but that was like 7 years ago and I was a dumb suicidal abused 11 year old. but I came back for the fandoms
27: Fears?not much??? the dark a little, mannequins, dolls, puppets, but only in real life. polystyrene, balloons, and bad quality felt pens tho? get tf away from me
28: Last thing that made you cry?flashbacks.
29: Last time you cried?yesterday.
30: Meaning behind your urleLEVEN HOPPER IS NON BINARY AS HELL FITE ME
31: Last book you read?im re reading IT rn bc I’m motherfucking trash !!!!
32: Last song you listened to?sleeping with a gun under my pillow - the boy least likely to
33: Last show you watched?stranger things 2
34: Last person you talked to?irl? mum. online? eddskaspbrak
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted?oh shit who did I last text// it was my step dad I had to edit this in my drafts for that
36: Favorite food?frozen sweet corn and pickled gherkins (separately)
37: Place you want to visit?Canada??
38: Last place you were?my… room??? like I’m there right now???
39: Do you have a crush?HFJFNKFKF I DON’T KNOW MAYBE WHAT ARE EMOTIONS
40: Last time you kissed someone?ummmmmmmmmmmmmm I have no memory but I’m gonna assume it was my last ex so like. a month to 2 months ago maybe
41: Last time you were insulted and what was it?my mum was being low-key transphobic
42: What color underwear are you wearing?I had to check but blue boxer briefs w/ red spots
43: What color shirt are you wearing?black
44: What color bottoms are you wearing?black
45: Wearing any bracelets?I got my fit watch and a dodie tour wristband bc I’m trash
46: Last sport you played?????????? I do not remember but probably boxing if holding the pads and flinching wildly counts
47: Last song you sang?seasons of love from rent
48: Last prank call you remember doing?I??? don’t know???
49: Last time you hung out with anyone?irl… halloween night bc Charlie came round and we watched movies and I’ve been sick since
50: Favorite movie?OH GOD UM I’m gonna like. do a few??? so the nightmare before Christmas, the rocky horror picture show, o brother where art thou, it (obvs), and deadpool
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