#i didnt get to revise this much before posting it so sorry if it sucks also!! nobody let me post drabbles on the hnkn acc ill lose it over

[dailyhonakana]

HI admin 🎼 here for day 4!! almost forgot to post this today, but i wrote it yesterday while having thoughts about them in the kitchen. this card image isnt entirely accurate, but i couldnt find any other images of them in the kitchen together, so it works i guess! heres a drabble (which turned out slightly longer than id wanted it to!) about kanade being a lesbian

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Tapping her pen against the table, Kanade can’t concentrate. She can’t think at all, even when she knows the rest of her group is already full of ideas for their next song. She could blame it on the sunlight streaming in through the kitchen window, which she normally doesn’t open the blinds of, but that’s not bothering her all that much, and Honami seems to like it better that way (especially with how lovely the tone of the sky’s light becomes at dusk — Honami had pointed that out to her, and she can’t believe she hadn’t noticed it before). She could blame it on the fact she’s outside at all and not holed up in her bedroom, but Honami (ever-politely) insisted she come outside to do her work, and she doesn’t mind it; she does like making Honami happy, too. Maybe she’s not meant to be writing her ideas down on a notepad? No, probably not — that was Honami’s idea as well. Kanade’s been using the pen and the notepad since Honami gave them to her two months ago. They’ve served her well so far. So has everything else Honami has suggested, or gently pushed her to do, or brought to her home with a shy smile and a reminder that if she doesn’t like it it’s okay and she can give it back, even though she never does.

She glances at the pretty set of plates, neatly laid out on the table, that she’d found in her cupboard months before; the new towel that always smells faintly like apple pie, from Honami’s home, where it was no longer in use; the open blinds in front of Honami. Kanade stares at her, and briefly, she wonders how Honami must look to someone not tragically forced to only stare at her back. Strands of light shining on her softly smiling face as she hums, chopping something, as though it’s the only thing in the world she needs to do…

Kanade blinks, and quickly looks down at her blank notepad. The stray, traitorous thought that her one distraction is right in front of her passes through her mind. She shoves it down with the nagging thought that she needs to do her work. Then, she looks back up at her housekeeper, wondering how strong her arms must be. Stronger than hers, strong enough to chop carrots, although that probably wasn’t a high bar. But they were certainly strong from years of playing the drums-

Honami suddenly turns to face her, brows furrowed in worry, and Kanade flinches a little. She doesn’t notice. “Ms. Yoisaki,” she says hurriedly, “you do like carrots, right? I’m sorry, I only just remembered to ask you if you did, I know I should have beforehand, but I’ve already chopped almost all these…”

Oddly, Kanade feels a smile trying to make its way onto her face. She tries her best to force it away. “No,” she says. “I like them.”

“Oh.” Honami smiles in relief. “I’m glad,” she says, before turning around again to chop the last carrot. Kanade rests her head on her palm and just watches her for the little time she has before she’s done cooking.

[tragedyforthcoming]

Ok hopefully i should be back to posting abt my day alot more lmao; sleep caught upto me this week and I couldn't actually post much so really sorry abt that!!! Lets get into today then :)

So today like most of my weekends are basically das where I die for now, im gonna make a schedule soon to do revision on these days, cause when ur sk!nny you also need to be rlly smart and im eyeing up those distinctions grades I can get from my course :P

So my plan is probably gonna start next week, I wake up early and do a few hours listening to music and currently just reading through my textbook on what I need to know. So then I can be quite advanced/further in my classes!!! I think that would be so cool. I'll be sk!nny and smart! The best of both worlds. Also I'm gonna start eating by myself at college I think, no one is getting the hint atleast and I dont rlly wanna eat around others anyway. I'll just eye up a bench and dm my mate there (they go to my secondary schools sixth form ( ;´ - `;) ), that would be the life omg XDD

God I just kinda hate my life rn, Im ALWAYS so tired its insaneee, Like I need an energy boost or smth. I might try rlly bitter black coffee again; but most warm coffees make me rlly tired and I hate decaf. Like you'd have to strap me to a chair before I could actually drink that shit its so disgusting and doesnt work oml.

Also unrelated side tangent but I rlly wanna try monster!! I know I'd probably just be a jittery mess from it but I want that experience. God I want to try so many tings but I cant atm, life sucks (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

But yeah, now lets talk

⊹₊⟡⋆STATS⊹₊⟡⋆

ok so today I had 635 cals (a little disappointing that I didnt keep my 500 cal streak, but I can def work towards it!!). I dont weigh in till thurs so there's no stats there, but I did drink 1.5 Litres of water today!!

I'm so proud of myself 4 doing that like ive never actually done that b4 lmao. I rlly need to drink more, it makes me prettier!

But yeah that's rlly everything tbh, I'm quite sleepy so im gonna be going to sleep in a min, er but I am fasting again rn. I'm gonna fast 4 16hrs so I'll be done around 3pm, only liquids allowed. But this is a good time to fast cause my mum has wrk tmr so she wont be getting in my way until after the fast!!!

Also I think 4 lunch at college on Tuesday I might end up making pasta or an extra batch of porridge we need to see! I'll ask on my alt acc @traumatictrainwreck So see you there soon!!!

right now 4 the spotify song of the day/night