#i didnt draw anything digitally in sooo long and i just wanted to fuck around a bit. so i thought Why not draw fanart for my own fan content

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supplementary art to my fic still think of you:

After weeks of radio silence, someone turns up at Doug's work. 

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[meitanreax]

day 5

hi ho bebu!!! 

i hope ur doing well!! thanks for waking up early the past two days to call with me :D i really appreciate it and luv u so much!! i think these notes really help a lot and contribute a lot to our relationship :> it really shows how much u and i are both willing to work!!! dude we r now in the single digits!!! HURRAYYYY OMG we can do this!! a little bit over a week, by wednesday for me itll be a week left!! fuck ya!!!

help me find series or movies to download on my flight back ^.^ ur almost done with new mexico too!! woooo

it’s 9 PM and i FINALLY got fucking back...from the road trip...dude we took the long way like i told u,,.. and it literally went around the coast and we took so many pit stops we deadass took 12 hours to get here...im so tired AYAH

today wasn’t that interesting, we were just on the road majority of it!!! thank god for my hotspot. here are some photos!

we literally went around... i woke up at 6 am and then we left the bed/breakfast around 8 am!!! we made a pit stop at like my uncle’s relatives house?? idk and it was a farm so i was like whot is going on!! there were baby goats and stuff and it was kinda funny LOL 

we went back to the car and started driving again!! it was rlly long, we had lunch at my aunt’s friends place on the way and it took A G E S oh my god. and here are the dogs i saw there :D it was trying to get close to me but my parents were like no stAY aWaY and i was just like wtf..there were small kittens too ;_; i just want to pet them

dude so the fucking baby

started talking and it wouldnt SHUT UP bro it kept going weh weh weh and i was auxing and playing illenium and it just kept TALKING and i was like dude wtf. like the first 5 minutes i was like haha baby talk wow haha

and then this thot kept going on!! and i was like DUDEEE PLEASE LMAO SHUT UP i kept turning back at the mom and glancing at her to see if she got the hint but dude, no. she kept going WEH WEH WEH WEH AHHHHHH for like 2 hours and dude by the 2nd hour i literally turned around and i went SHHHH holy fuck LOL i got so annoyed

we drove by the ocean!! it was cool, nothing much. LOL idk why we took the coastal way, u can see my portable charger trying to ~charge~ by the sun HAHA

i literally was in the car the entire day, but dude the baby is so annoying. but today i realized that wow! actually illenium is probably my second fave after porter (ur influence,...) and also babies r fucking annoying holy shit i would stuff a sock in its mouth for it to stop going wEH WEH WEH WEH FLKSJDLFKJ PLEASE. THE MOM DIDNT DO ANYTHING AT ALL UNTIL I LITERALLY GOT SOOO ANNOYED

we stopped at some random lil food place, and i had stir fry noodles and idk why it’s a thing here but milo is rlly popular?? i always get it cuz its hot cocoa so its nice :3c

i passed out after dinner, LOL thank god!! and now im just sharing a room again with ez at her house cuz i hate. parents LOL gg 

anyways i finally got here around 830!! and now im here..restign...thank the lord and i have wifi and air conditioning and im a floor above my parents!

that’s all for today, p uneventful cuz it was just traveling!! i miss u lots :3 our comm should be coming in soon and i excited for ur drawing ^.^ with realistic pupy! and buny LOL

for ur challenge for tomorrow:

take a funny photo(s) of urself in the airbnb with pupy!! since ur staying home. the funny photo can be doing anything or include anything!! note u MUST be in the photo AND pupy has to be too!! take at least 2 photos !! u should use timer mode and just run into it instead of a selfie, itll be more interesting :D 

that’s all for me for today!! i hope you have a good day bebs! i think ill be relatively chillen tomorrow so i might be able to call at night for a lil bit too ^.^ (hopefully) thanks for everything that you do! we are now in the double digits >:) T-9 days left!! we got this!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! FOREVER!! MORE THAN ANYTHING YAY hehe !! 

[teydious]

a month of quarantine

since everyone is talking about #quaranthings on social media, you name it, facebook, twitter, ig, tiktok, a week ago someone even sent me a group message (i mean bruh who does that nowadays) i might as well crack some thoughts instead of yet another episode of lying and mulling over nonsense things on bed, so now im in my desk to what i assume an office-corner in my room, pretending that im absolutely focused and have nothing ever to distract me from writing this entry - sooo here it is, my hashtag-quaranthings.

i think i’ve reach the point of letting myself to go mad and do whatever my mind tells me to, i’ve been basically a slave to my own mind. yep, since i peaked teenage life there was not a day i dont protest doing what my whole being is against with and still end up doing it because im such an idiot without self-control. this apparently has led me to horrible, horrible decisions coated with a massive energy of remorse and humiliation. yay, congrats to me; a person who always been dragged by wants and spontaneous impulses. really, how do i still show my face around?! 😭

a week after lockdown i was at tug of war between my body and my screwed sleeping schedule. i literally slept between 2-3 am, wakes up around 10am and sleep again for four hours at 3pm. this was on loop for about two weeks until i mentally beat my ass and decided to get my shit together and fix my routine. ahh, yes routine🙃 that word has long been astrayed since i entered college. my high school phase was calm, too timid and organize, seems all things was in my palms and i get to dictate my good and bad habits, but boy when i came to college, it was a different level of stupidity. my time management, my habits, routines, my schedules were fucked up and tossed to the other side of the Pacific ocean - i was at loss. mentally, i was drained; physically, dehydrated and always always tired; my will and passion seems limited and i was always profoundly unmotivated; i didnt know i am and these strange people keep pushing me to cross the line, they seem to bring out something i didnt know i had in me.. or was it always within me and i’ve been concealed all my life? either way im still fucked up. now came to my terrible choices, after two weeks of lockdown, well i kind of tried to do productive things - i draw, i read books, i actually read 3 books(heh be proud self), i fixed my room, my closet and did some reformations, i wrote couple of things, i watched educational films - i basically TrIEd to iron my crampled routine. but i wouldn’t say i’ve done everything because obviously im still slacking off, not a surprise anymore. the funny thing is though im aware of my shit, i still not do anything about it😬 god i am forever be a shitty person with shitty decisions in life. im trashy than raccoons. my life has been digital, insecured, unable to write a proper piece, hang out in twitter and bragged my filtered habits, plus ignoring people who reach out and onlyrespind to selected few i feel like talking to. i know, i know stab me in the back, im a terrible friend.

i did keep track of my emotions though. i was coming back and forth with my feelings, and desperate to have someone to flirt with(because trust me, thats what everyone i know seems to be doing in quarantine). last night, someone i like drop a bomb at me. i mean, it happen so fast til now i still dont know how to digest the information. to give a little backstory, i like this guy for around 5-6 months now i guess, whoa thats long for a crush; we dont talk much especially now that social distancing have been the absolute rule of all time. we do chat sometimes, brief conversations i still squeeled about, however last night he, out of knowhere, told me he and his girl friend already called the thing off, “split na kami” he says, and i was like bruhhh what u say? u cant hust drop that to someone who’s secrelty infatuated by for months😳 trust me i was hyperventilating the moment he said that. i couldn’t breathe properly, my mind is thrown in different places, and hand itched to slap my face to knock some sense. it was a bomb i didnt know would drop so abruptly and so fast! you know, when you predicted that something will happen eventually and it did happen, only that it was sudden and terse and you were unprepared but the bomb just come dropped off at that exact moment, boom! i didnt die, but i sure am breathless, figuratively and literally. to be honest, i didnt know of i should be happy, i didnt know what appropriate emotion should i be feeling even. i didnt feel sorry for their relationship, it would be sounding hypocrite to say that. i was unconvinced, but i felt giddy. partly, i wanted to believe it was true, that they broke up and that i should be happy, but what would this happiness leads me..? false hope? because suddenly they broke up and it was my turn? that night, i dreamt about him. he’s even haunting my dream now.

anyway, this has been long and i must admit that it was a good thing that i was able to write this much instead of abiding the limited characters when i tweet. my #quaranthings aren’t finished and i’d like it to surprise me whatever it brings me.