#i didn't think i was going today because nan and mom are going this morning so i would only be waiting outside the ward

[catinfroghat]

Wawa feeling a bit miserable I think my mom is in a bad mood with me and I can't even escape to sit in my room because it's christmas so I just have to sit in the bad vibes until she stops being annoyed

[wheelin-after-midnight]

32.

Are both of your blood parents still in your life?

Nope.

Were you tired when you woke up this morning?

Some part of me is always tired, man. Physically, emotionally, spiritually.

Have you ever made out on a couch?

Yes.

What does your last text say?

"Awww babe. I know you would."

Someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say?

Most deeply? Death. Otherwise to be able to stay here and not have to move next year/never worry about my living situation if I could stay.

When’s the next time you’ll be drinking?

Idk. I have some drinks here but it's not something I really plan. I just have one with dinner or a couple in the evening whenever I fancy.

Captain Morgan or Smirnoff?

Smirnoff.

What are you doing on Halloween?

I don't participate, so I didn't do anything.

Have you ever been drunk at school or work?

No.

Have you lost friends in the past years?

Not in a long time. I don't really lose friends. I have two best friends that I've had forever and any others are more acquaintances or we just lost touch or whatever. Life happens. I'm very loyal and it takes me a long time to open up and form deep friendships. Once those are established, I don't do things to screw them up or lose them. I'm not a messy person. I avoid unnecessary arguments and conflict. My ride or dies and I have literally nothing to fight about. In order to have and keep good friends, you have to be a friend. I show up and nurture those relationships as much as possible in any ways that I can, and they've lasted because of our efforts.

Have you finished school yet?

Long time ago.

Do you know anyone who still doesn’t have a smartphone?

I had one until I moved in here, then I got rid of it when my contract was up. This building/area is a bit of a dead zone for cell service. I got internet and ran a home phone through it, then eventually got a tablet. Ended up saving money and can do all the same stuff. Couldn't really deal with sporadic signal in case I fall or need to get help.

Have you ever been on a cruise?

I haven't. I might go though, if I had the opportunity.

What is your favorite kind of fruit juice?

I don't really have one. I'm not much of a juice person.

Have you worn a necklace today?

I always do. Never take it off.

Have you ever had an x-ray?

Too many to count.

Do your parents smoke cigarettes?

My mum does. Dad smokes spliffs, not straight up cigarettes.

Did you leave the house today? If so, where did you go?

No.

Do you know how to whistle?

Yeah.

Have you eaten cake today?

No.

Have you ever tried Turkish coffee?

I don't think so?

Do you know anyone who was born overseas?

I used to. No one in my circle currently.

What was the last hot thing you ate for breakfast?

Toast with butter, fried egg and cheese.

Do you have to go to school or work tomorrow? No.

Have you been to the movies lately? What movie did you see anyways?

I saw the remastered Whitney concert for a new south Africa from Durban, 1994, at the end of October and I saw Wicked at the beginning of December.

Have you ever used a muscle stimulator before? Did it hurt?

No.

Have you ever owned a pet bird? What was this bird’s name?

Babe does! He's an African Grey and she got him the same year we met. I call him my stepson. 😂 His name is Ruby because he has a Ruby red tail and she thought he was a girl at first. By the time she found out he was a boy, he knew his name and was used to it, so she kept it.

Have you ever seen the really old movie, The Birds? Did it scare you?

I don't recall seeing it, no.

Have you ever done anything dangerous enough to have risked your life?

I guess destructive behaviour like cutting, drinking every day for a year after my Nan died. Otherwise it's just stuff that I've been through that's happened to me that was risky or dangerous. Really though, living in and of itself is a risk every day.

Do you ever watch MTV? What shows do you normally watch on there?

Not as much as I used to. Catfish, Teen mom, Teen mom 2, 16 and Pregnant, True Life.

Do you consider yourself egotistic? Do people call you egotistic?

Absolutely not. I don't recall ever being called that.

Do you get embarrassed when your parents talk about when you were a baby?

They don't really do this much.

Do you have any children? If so, how old are these children?

I can't have children :(

How many times a day do you brush your teeth? Is that enough in your world?

I aim for twice. Depression has made me fall off at times. :/

Do you get horny a lot?

I have a fairly high libido and crave intimacy, deeply enjoy sex with someone I love and trust, but I don't think it's anything abnormal. A lot is relative.

What gives you anxiety?

Right now? Fucking leaving here and moving. I wish the whole situation was just a terrible nightmare I could wake up from.