#i didn't know most of that thank you for telling me nonnie 😭

[churipu]

can i request the reader being gojo's younger (or little, if that's what you prefer) sister during their highschool days? i think the dynamic between her and geto would be really cute and sweet! meanwhile, shoko would be the tired aunt that has to watch every stupid thing that stsg and the reader does 😭

๋࣭⭑ A CHAOTIC FOURSOME ₍⑅ᐢ..ᐢ₎

featuring. gojo satoru, shoko ieiri, geto suguru + gojo's little sister

warning. time sequence is during their highschool days (2006) and i'd say the reader would be younger than gojo by a year, so she's as old as nanami and haibara :D

note. i'm actually like so ecstatic to write this because i have so many assumptions of gojo with a younger sister, thank you nonnie for requesting this, ily <;33

the mother x the dumb x the dumber x the dumbest

no doubt that shoko is the mother of the group, without her the whole group is just well, plainly chaotic. satoru will come up for stupid plans, hence the dumbest. you will undoubtedly follow him, hence the dumber. and geto will think it's stupid, but will follow him, hence the dumb.

"okay, so what if we just — find a way to summon a curse, and sell our soul to it for something in return?" satoru asks with a cheeky grin.

"sounds cool, i'm in!" you replied with a large toothy grin.

"that must be the stupidest idea i have ever heard in my life," geto sighs out, "but let's do it."

"i don't have a soul," shoko mutters out of the blue, sighing out, "and you guys are incredibly stupid, you know that?" at the end of the day, the plan didn't even commence nor did you all talked about it again.

you are the closest with geto, he treats you like a little sister as well — except he's a little less of an asshole than your actual brother.

satoru is an asshole. he's a pain in the ass, no doubt. all three— you, geto, and shoko— can and will admit the fact that out of you four, satoru is the brattiest. however though, being related to him by blood, you were his target most of the time.

"ouch! satoru, did you really just shoot me with a nerf gun? that fucking hurts you ass!" you hiss, rubbing your nape— where satoru just shot with a nerf gun.

"take that, peasant." satoru sings out, attempting to shoot two more bullets at you, one hitting your arm and the other barely missing you.

you ran to shoko who immediately flee, leaving you open to satoru, traitor. before you eventually seek shelter behind geto who was sitting down on a bench, sipping a drink; and oh boy, the bullet managed to hit his face.

"oh shit." satoru mumbled, "it was an accident, suguru."

"damn." you look at geto, before laughing lightly.

geto smiled at your brother before standing up, and the cat-and-mouse chase between them both begin. geto made sure you were alright after, and satoru was— yeah, he survived, just a little bruised here and there.

being siblings is funny, satoru's closet is your closet too.

"y/n, is that my shirt?" satoru asks, pointing at the white shirt you were wearing and you hummed softly, sipping on a carton of milk.

satoru began lecturing you and how you shouldn't snoop in his closet, "lord, save me." you muttered out, walking in between shoko and geto while your brother constantly turned towards you to lecture you about asking for permission.

"are you even listening to me, brat?"

shoko grunted, "make him shut up, please."

"it's not her fault that she looks better in your shirt, satoru," geto laughed lightly, and that somehow managed to shut your brother up for the rest of the day— until he opens the door to your room late at night with a pout on his face.

"my shirt does not look better on you, for your information."

"oh my god, satoru you're so childish!"

as much as satoru teases you, when it comes to protecting you— he's number one, and he will always worry about you. he will not hesitate to tell someone off if they're bothering you.

"so, who is it?" satoru asks, his eyes not leaving the television screen.

you sat next to him and hummed in confusion. earlier you had gotten home with a small bruise right next to your lip, and as hard as you tried to cover it with make up — satoru still noticed the bluish purple outline of the bruise.

"what do you mean?"

"who gave you the bruise?" he asks again, calmly. way too calm for your liking, to be honest.

"i fell."

satoru finally turned to look at you, "doesn't look like you fell, just tell me what happened, it's not like 'm gonna do anything—maybe." he mumbled out the last part under his breath.

you sighed out, knowing the male won't drop the topic unless you tell him about it, "you know that one guy who wouldn't stop bothering me just because i beat him up in middle school for ruining my comic book?"

"the one i already try to tell off last time?" you nodded at him, "damn it, i should've gotten rid of him that time. want me to hollow purple him or do you prefer a more friendly approach?"

you chuckled, "i can fix this myself."

"nu-uh," he rolled his eyes, "hollow purple it is."

"'toru!"

"sheesh, fine friendly approach it is."

shoko and geto tries their best to look after you and satoru, but they don't get paid for this and always ends up giving up halfway and just joins in the "fun".

"oh, come on satoru, this is like the worst plan ever!" you tell him, crossing your arms.

"what? why? is it because i made it?" he argues, crossing his arms as well.

"no — okay, yes, maybe. but still it's a shitty plan, right?" you look over to geto and shoko who only nodded in forced affirmation, in all honesty, they didn't know what was happening between you and your brother or whatever you both were talking about.

"suguru, even you?" satoru whines out, "traitor."

"see? what about we go for my plan instead?" you offered, and satoru immediately declines, arguing with you.

it took you both two hours to finally settle on doing nothing because you got tired, and satoru got too angry that geto had to drag him away.

when satoru was supposedly "killed" by the sorcerer killer, toji. you were fucking destroyed. until he actually shows up, looking more alive than ever.

"oh, you're alive?" you asked slowly, although in disbelief.

satoru chuckled, opening his arms for you to fall into, "don't say it like that, might think that my own sister doesn't love me," not like you spent the whole time crying over him.

"fucking ass. i hate you so much." you hugged him.

"i love you too."

satoru spoils you. and when he does, he makes sure geto and shoko gets little of it too (because you told him to do it so they would feel loved).

"i was thinking — satoru treating us three to shabu?" geto immediately agrees with no hesitation, no thoughts, he just agreed to what you said.

satoru looks at you and smiled sweetly. a fake one. but it was fun watching him like this so you didn't care, "shoko?"

"free food? hell yeah." shoko nods her head with a smirk.

satoru ended up feeding all three of you like a mama feeding her child, and you ended up getting a scolding from him and a threat that goes a little like: "that's the last time i'm spending my money on you, loser."

but you know he didn't mean that. just watch how he'll probably get you something the very next day.

© CHURIPU 2024 , DO NOT COPY OR REPOST ANYWHERE

[snickerdoodlles]

📖 for kinnporsche the series? your ideas are just so good!

thank u nonny!! 😭❣

this one took me a while to type because it is my weird whacky fic child who i love very dearly but struggle to explain. so, uh.

✨ Necromancy AU ✨

Big dies in the warehouse. Porsche gets Arm to get his body out, gets Kinn to delay the cremation, and gets Chay to reanimate Big.

(because reanimating the dead is just something Chay can do, because he figured it'd be a good skill to learn and he's my most specialest boy.)

Kinn (who's at the morgue for Porsche) is flabbergasted, Khun (who's at the morgue by a miracle) is stunned silent, and Kim (who's here because Khun texted him but didn't say Chay would be here) is more shocked by Big than Chay's abilities.

(Kim is the only person other than Porsche to just accept necromancy as A Reasonable Thing For Chay To Know. this is why they're Chay's favorites.)

anyways so Big is now awake and surrounded by this family. this is hell. not just for him, his sudden undead status is causing a lot of problems:

Porsche just had Chay bring Big back, he didn't like...tell anyone what was happening or make a plan for what to do with him.

Kinn just figured out his new guard roster, and now he has to redo it to accommodate one very grumpy and very loyal Big who now doesn't need trivial things like sleep or food.

there's the looming specter of Khun's upcoming dry cleaning bill because he won't. stop. poking. Big.

Big is trying very, very, very hard to ignore that not only do people know he knew about Porsche and Kinn, but that he loves Kinn so much he died protecting Porsche.

speaking of, Porsche just thanked him for saving Chay and (in a quieter voice) for saving him.

Big is in hell.

despite all that, Big's plans for his new life are to just go back to being Kinn's perfect guard. he is ignoring the awkwardness, none of this is fine, none of this will be fine, but it will be NORMAL.

this is hampered by the fact that whoops, turns out the undead need to hang around their "masters" for at least a few hours every couple of days to "recharge" so to speak, as discovered by Pol when he screamed so loud he set a fire alarm off because he stumbled over Big's body face down in front of Kinn's door at 2am.

this is even further hampered by Korn, who will absolutely not stand for his preferred heir being guarded by someone who might be more loyal to someone other than him. Korn uses the "recharge" issue to force Big out by way of making him Chay's permanent guard.

so now Big, the perfect bodyguard who only got better at his job in death, is now stuck hanging around a high schooler who doesn't get into trouble and just wants to make music with his bitchy boyfriend.

(because oh yeah, mr. the untamed nerd Kim is obviously ridiculously into Chay being able to resurrect the dead and leaks feelings before he can run away and sabotages all future attempts to ghost Chay (insert necromancer joke here). Kim's fears of love and hurting those he loves will cause different problems.)

anyways, Big is suffering. not only is he stuck guarding Porsche's baby brother (who! he's realizing he likes as a person! will the horrors never cease!), Chay keeps being nice and thoughtful and looking out for him as a person and asking after his happiness and shit (the horrors!! are not ceasing!!!!). when Big finally has enough of all this Being Treated Like A Human Being business and asks Chay why he even cares, Chay blurts out "Big, do you even want to be alive?"

because this has been eating at Chay ever since he brought Big back at the morgue. because he never knew Big and never asked if he'd want to be alive again, Chay just did it for Porsche, who wasn't doing it for Big but for his own guilt. and then Big's old life was like an ill-fitting glove, because he and Porsche can't be bitches with Big's sacrifice hanging over them but don't know how to act when they aren't being bitches, Korn won't accept him back because he only sees his own paranoia and none of Big's loyalty, and Kinn might appreciate Big's loyalty but he won't fight for it either, not when he's trying to juggle the rest of Korn's messes coming to fruition. Big's been completely forced out of his old life and any ties he might've kept to the other guards (as few as they were) are ruined by the others' guilt and discomfort, because Big might not have died in the first place if literally anyone had listened to him during the Tawan debacle, which they could ignore when he was dead but can't when he's alive and there in front of them.

and the whole confession draws Big up short because no one's ever asked him what he wants before. Big was just the son of a mafia enforcer who got scooped up young by the main family as a personal guard for Kinn. Big's never even considered that what he wants could be an option. even when he first came back, his main considerations were on the ways he was a better guard for Kinn. Big's chosen more things for himself in his weeks with Chay than he has in his life, and he never stopped to think how he feels about that.

he does now. kinda. this is Big after all. but after both forty-three excruciating minutes and three days, Big finally answers Chay, "i never lived for me before. it's...nice." Chay, who's gotten quite good at reading between the lines after all the exposure from Kim and Big, beams and makes him help him pick his electives for his first semester of university, because Chay's determined to help Big find a hobby and he's overcome far tougher things than emotional constipation.

[[ ask me about fics im not writing ]]

Bonus

small scene snippet from shortly after Big's first brought back to life, right after Kim's walked into screaming, stolen Pol's gun, and shoved Chay behind him for protection, because i love themm

Kim opens and closes his mouth silently before sputtering, “But you— I heard— What…?!”

Chay worms his arms around Kim’s waist to get his attention and his head pops over Kim’s shoulder. “It’s okay, phi,” he says soothingly, “I brought him back.”

Big gets an eye full of Kim’s face flashing through four emotions he recognizes and thirty he doesn’t, which is thirty-four more emotions than Big can deal with. Kim twists around in Chay’s hold, just enough to squint at him from the corner of his eye without letting Big out of his gun’s sight line. 

“You know how to resurrect the dead?”

Chay drops his chin onto Kim’s shoulder with a huff. “Why do people keep asking me that? It seemed like a useful skill to know!”

“Obviously,” Kim scoffs, which is the first original response Big’s heard to that all day. “I meant you can do it? What, we’re you bored and just googled ‘how to make a zombie’ one day after school?!”

Chay rolls his eyes and pokes the undersides of Kim’s ribs. Shockingly, Kim pushes further into his hold, rather than away. “Don’t be silly. You have to be trained by a shaman to make a zombie.”

Kim actually turns to look at him dead on. His gun is still trained on Big. 

Chay cocks his head to the side. “What? I just googled ‘how to bring back the dead’ and went from there. It’s basically CPR!”

“That worked?”

Chay looks genuinely baffled. “Why wouldn’t it?”

Kim stares at him incredulously before suddenly going boneless in Chay’s hold, squishing him back against the wall. Chay does not protest being squished between Kim and a hard place. He actually looks delighted by it. Big would like to go throw up now. He doesn’t know if corpses can do that, but he’s willing to make an effort. 

“Of course it works, you’re you,” Kim grumbles. He knocks his head against Chay’s and rubs in a move so cute Big will throw up, death be damned. “If life worked for me like that...”

Chay beams and pats his stomach. “I’ll teach you!”

Turns out corpses can't throw up, but they can gag so hard they choke.

[twdmusicboxmystery]

You most definitely already answered this-- but I was really wondering what are your thoughts about Rick's line to Daryl "It's been 3 weeks since Atlanta, I know you lost something back there". Daryl changes topic, but do you think maybe he understood Daryl found something (aka someone) he had never found before? That's just how I interpreted it but idk.

Side note - what we're seeing in 5x10 it's obviously 3 weeks later the events, and that's also when Carol is telling Daryl "You have to let yourself feel it." and gives him the knive. That means Daryl still hadn't grieved properly until that moment, it's kinda crazy to think about. In those 17 days missing footage we're probably going to see him slightly grieving but also not wanting to let go of her? And he's def going to be devastated. I'm rambling rn lol but just a though that crossed my mind.

Yeah for sure. I mean, even considering how he acted in the hallway of Grady, it was pretty obvious he cared for Beth and about what happened to her. And then he cried, of course, when carrying her out.

It also makes me wonder about the missing 17 days, because obviously Rick had not approached Daryl about this until this moment. What had he been busy with that they didn't have this conversation 2 or 3 days after, you know?

Anyway, I agree that Rick had some inkling of what Daryl felt. We also saw it at Alexandria when Rick talked about him and Lori looking for houses. It was like he was equating his and Lori's relationship (marriage) with whatever Daryl was feeling. That's very telling, both about what Rick thought and about what the writers wanted us to think.

I also agree with the second part of what you said. I think when we finally get those missing days, we'll see Daryl being robotic, as he was after the prison fell, sad but stoic, driven, and even angry. Anything but actually falling apart and feeling the grief. 😭 Which is why he had to do it in Them.

Thanks Nonny! Xoxo! 🍁🍂😍

[msfbgraves]

(to punish him for not accepting Terry's apology earlier.)

Of all the Knights and Pawns revelations, this one is the most hurtful. By far. Punishing your own spouse—after you have raped them, with your own children only rooms away, because they didn’t forgive you the next day—by fucking someone else. Just. OMG. That’s so terrible on every way. Drunk or not that’s not the point; that’s the excuse for being so incredibly, disgustingly vindictive. Then, after, keeping the cheating hush hush for several years, and having your spouse—who by then has forgiven you, given you two more beautiful kids, and still continues to love you—find out by having someone else, an outsider, tell them at a funeral. Out of the blue. So now, another person knows, so now there’s embarrassment and shame too that this domestic issue is known outside of the family. 

I don’t think there are words enough for how disgusting and foul and most of all—incredibly cruel and deeply abusive—Terry is for doing these things. It’s beyond awful in every single way. The sheer amount of emotional distress Daniel has to go through because of this total asshole. 

I suppose Daniel would only become the perfect spouse if he had just forgiven Terry the next day after what happened that night—then Terry wouldn’t have had to go off the rails even more and punish him!! See, it’s all Daniel’s fault of course. 

🤢 🤮 

Makes me almost wish Daniel had ended up with Kumiko or Johnny or even Chozen in this verse. None of them—not even Johnny—would ever do something like this, canon included. Hell, I highly doubt canon!Kreese would stoop this low. 

(He always asked himself if he wasn't good enough, somehow, but he's not too bothered by it) Arghhhh. I know he’s not bothered by it, but just the fact that he asks himself this question in the first place is awful. Clearly the poor thing who does so much and really is a wonderful spouse is either not being shown and told how much he’s loved, how good he is—or he has some deep insecurity thanks to Terry. Maybe all at once.

(But that fear soon proves unjustified.) Uh, okay. So Terry is nice to him after spilling the beans. How kind of him. 🙄 I hate that Daniel even felt scared, that he wondered if Terry was gonna act like a dick after…well, acting like a dick. Honestly, the parts of the fic where Terry gets nasty gives me domestic violence vibes. He sucks. 

(It makes him feel lonely and unappreciated) 😭 😭 😭 Ooof that stings. Daniel of all people, even in canon, needs to be shown and told that’s he’s loved and appreciated. The moment those affirmations are taken from him…

(the puppies are BIG MAD at Daddy for that. Not. Again.) No no, puppies, by all means! He deserves it. Which makes me ask—do the older puppies know what’s up? Or do they at least suspect? Sam maybe. Even Robby considering how he’s a Mama’s boy. 

Arghhh. I just wanna give Daniel all the cuddles and snuggles. He’s too sweet for all this misery. 

Anyway, those are my thoughts. And I just wanted to say this is 1000% not hate. I very much enjoy this story, very much enjoy all the installments (even when they hurt!), and very much enjoy the world building, and still want them to be happy, curse my nasty Silverusso heart. I also very much enjoy your writing, and again, love this one in particular! So thank you very much for writing it, even if I now dislike Terry a lot lol.

Anyway, Daniel could do much better than Terry Silver here. That man will never deserve having this cutiepie in this life. Not one bit. 

Nonnie, first off, thank you for this incredibly kind and heartfelt message. Writers always want to evoke a response in people, and it's entirely fine if that response is anger at one of the characters. I do the same! So no hate, I get it <3

As for Terry - he married Daniel at gunpoint, knowing full well the boy didn't want him and the family wanted him dead. You'd need to be a certain kind of entitled and dismissive of other people's feelings to do that. Truly considerate people don't do that. They don't. So, did I expect that to never rear its head?

But he's sweet and loving and kind - yeah, because he wants to be. He wants a home, he wants genuine love, and he's arrogant enough to think that he should get it whatever he does. Oh, sure, he'll apologise, if only for himself, because he does feel guilty. But this whole marriage was begun on his turf, and he completely expects it to stay that way, because... Well, because he wants it to. And what Terry wants, Terry gets, that's how it works!

And then Daniel doesn't play. He straight up leaves, and that is not allowed. Like Michael standing up to him wasn't allowed. And he can't do anything and he feels bad and worried and vulnerable and other people are supposed to make that right for him and they're not. If he can't take Daniel, he'll take someone else that'll show him....

(Did Don LaRusso expect this would happen? He factored it in, he can't not have. But he needed a few years to get his strength back, after which he'd dispose of that Irishman and take his family home if need be... Conveniently forgetting that caro Daniele would again have to be hurt in the process!)

But now, there's love. Such profound love, because you can't marry Daniel LaRusso and not open up a well of love inside yourself you had no idea existed. Doesn't happen. And when Terry bodily feels the difference between his Danny and some other omega... after feeling the absolute shock in his house without that sweet boy.... How shaken his pups are without their Mama, how bereft he feels without his baby son, too...

Finally his ego shuts up long enough for his heart to feel "You dun fucked up, you lowlife." Nobody save John Kreese would ever tell him this and John Kreese he also doesn't always heed.

Should he have known this before? Of course. But people who understand this, in their soul, don't become Mob bosses, and if they do, they don't force people into marriage with them. In fact, a lot of people like that don't even realise what they're doing then, they simply go "huh?" when their wives put rat poison in their food.

The biggest issue now is that Terry knows he's had a change of heart - he really has - but in the ten years in between, Daniel can't know that. At any point, Terry can do something like that again and then where will he be? So in a way, it is a blessing in disguise because not only has Terry not done something violent to him again, after this happens and Daniel again decides to wait and see - he doesn't change. He doesn't have a tantrum, he doesn't try to get back at him, he doesn't get dismissive, he sincerely apologises and explains and in a very backwards way, this is actually a relief to Daniel because at least it gives him the opportunity to say: "Hey asshole, what did I ever do to you?"

And Terry is scared out of his mind because he knows, viscerally, what he stands to lose, he knows what it cost to get it back and he knows that he probably couldn't do it again.

So yes, Daniel is hurt and puppies are incensed - by now, the eldest are 16, 15 and 14 years old, Robby is nearly 13, and people at that age don't accept any excuses. They haven't had to compromise and they definitely don't understand why anyone should have to. If Mama inexplicably doesn't murder Daddy in his bed, they're not letting him get away with it. Sammy, Yasmin and Eli remember very well how Mama and Daddy had a huge fight and had to go away forever to make up. And they remember the feeling of being so upset when Mama was. No, in their way, they're tearing Terry a new one. For Daddy to endanger their safe haven, they won't have it and there's four or them and only one of him.

[bookishfeylin]

So a little story from me because I feel really impacted on your topics regarding POC so I wanted to share this with you because I feel more comfortable telling you about this.

So I had a friend who was black-american who was really, really bullied alot because of his skin when he used to live in America, he's been my best bud for years ever since he came to the Philippines a year ago and honestly he is literally one if not the most important person in my life, he's an amazing person who is kind, smart, and so generous and loving I sometimes couldn't believe I was friend with a great guy like that.

His impact on my life made me push for my goals, he made me feel safe when I'm at my lowest, and he always sticks up for me whenever someone was being an asshole to me. (Pardon my language)

So being friends with an amazing guy, this amazing person who became so important to me for just a year of friendship, made me feel so afraid for him when I found him scrubbing his skin so raw the skin was starting peel and bits of blood came out. I remembered how I grabbed the scrub and threw away and helped him calm down and just making sure he's okay, I was heart broken when he kept telling me to leave him alone and keep trying to scrub himself raw.

I was utterly terrified, devastated and so, so sad at how he hated himself, how he said that he didn't like the color of his skin, he didn't like how he was born black and that being black was what was wrong with him. He told me stories of how he was bullied before but my heart literally broke when I realize those assholes actually convinced him, manipulated him into thinking that him being black, him having a dark skin tone that everyone always describe just to be factual or polite to POC, is the problem.

I was so, so, so furious that these awful people manipulated my best friend, my best friend whose a one in a million, whose so important to me, Into hating himself. I spent that entire night at his side being there for him, talking to him, supporting him at that low moment where he felt awful and self-loathing to himself.

That was a year ago during new years, and honestly one of the most heart wrenching night of my life, Now I spent my time being the friend he deserves, I made sure he always knows he's loved, cared for, and him being himself is not the problem. I will spend the rest of my life telling this person I love everything about him, from his skin to his smile to his personality and more, I'm gonna keep reminding him that I got his back and can always count in me.

This guy, my best friend means so much to me, bookish. And I'm so lucky to have an amazing person in my life, and I'm going to work hard to always make sure he knows I love him and his entire being.

Also I'm so sorry for just dumping this one you 😭😭😭, A lot of your posts pulled my heart strings so much and impacted me so hard. A lot of them made me cry because of how true they are. And honestly a lot made me cry and sob and I got so emotional I just had to write this. Again I'm so, so, sorry for dumping this story unto you 😭😭

But I would like to thank you for being such an inspiration to me and to my friends, my best friend always loves your posts whenever we scour Tumblr. Your an amazing person bookish and I wish you best days and regards.

Have a nice day! 😊😊😊

Nonny this ask really hurt but it fully encapsulates why it's so important to me that we keep talking about things like this. Why we talk about racism and colorism and whitewashing, because of how absolutely insidious and deeply rooted they become in our psyche. It's wonderful that you're such a supportive friend to him, and I'm sure your friendship helps--but the nature of internalized racism is how deeply rooted it is due to systemic racism, and its an insidious plague that takes years of self-love to unlearn (if ever). When I was a little girl I prayed to God that I would wake up white and "pretty." The self-hatred that's instilled in POC and especially in Black people for our race and our skin tone in particular, believing that our skin makes us incapable of being attractive or that having darker skin than white people and nonblacks makes us "dirtier" than other races of people (something I heard a lot of attending a mostly white school in American suburbia--), takes YEARS to overcome. THAT is why representation matters. THAT is why more diversity on screen and in books is a good thing. And THAT is why we must have these conversations about racism and colorism and whitewashing, no matter how uncomfortable it makes people. I'm glad my posts were able to resonate with you <3

[chronic-ghost]

Aww that really was such a bittersweet chapter 🥺

It was so nice to see them together like this but also sad because it’s all so wrong. It should be right but it just isn’t with their situation.. with Chloe (even tho I don’t like her, she’s still Dieters partner) and the drug… I just want them to be happy 🥺🥺

Im glad Dieter didn’t immediately regret and pull away from her after the last chapter! I do still expect him to spiral eventually.. I’m also a bit sad that he relapsed but I guess relapse is a part of recovery.. hopefully eventually they can both let the drugs and addiction go and find recovery together! But tbh, you did write their drug trip beautifully!

And he loves her 😭😭😭 him saying it while high af makes me weirdly sad. And that he doesn’t remember if she says it back 😭

Pls don’t ruin him Natalie 😭

Also this moment made me 🥺 “He’s being overtly playful, the low lighting and single burning candle at the center of the table as the only nearby light source making him even more daring. But he knew he’d be admonished – it was too much in public and –“

Because you know he feels like that because of Chloe, because she admonishes him when he just wants to show off his love. And he has so much love and affection to give and I’m so glad he didn’t feel this way with Natalie 🥺

They’re perfect together and I’m so glad eventually it will end well for them. But the road to get there is gonna be rough.

I already can’t wait to read the next chapter!! I loved looooved this one! Thank you (: (also btw, i don’t know how exactly AO3 works but while the chapters are all there, the update date is still June 28? Idk if that’s on purpose or not but just wanted to tell you! Because even tho there’s a new chapter, the story doesn’t show up as just updated on AO3 so people may be missing some updates!)

Much love you you! 💕💕💕💕

Ahhhh nonnie I was waiting for your thoughts!!! 💗💗💗

I'm so sorry I didn't get to this sooner but these kind of long, thoughtful, insightful asks always honestly make me tear up a little and I never know how to respond with the appropriate amount of gushing!

As per usual, your insights are totally dead on -- they finally get what they both want, but at rather big cost to both of them. for now, natalie is a new drug for him, one he has no pre-established tolerance for.

i am SO GLAD YOU NOTICED THAT ONE BIT!!! I was really hoping someone would call it out because yes, while things are trending toward bad things, there is some fundamental connection that these two exist in space that they are their most comfortable in. There is something there, but neither one are equipped to handle it.

This was the chapter that I was probably most nervous for, just because most people are turned off by drug/dream sequences but they were all important to show a different side of their relationship.

As for the Ao3 date . . . I am hanging my head in shame. I cannot believe I haven't noticed that. The original publication date was messed up because I had saved it as a draft, but I definitely didn't realize it was 😳Thank you very much for pointing that out! Since I update on Thursdays, I'll go back and change them to the correct dates.

Thank you again for your weekly comments and fantastic character analysis and let me blather on about my favorite little blorbos 💞 See you next week!

[kalims]

Congratulations for 3k!! ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧ i hope for more happiness and love going your way!! you're amazing and i love your work!! but if it's alright with you, may i request prompt 4 & 16 with Riddle and Deuce? thank you so much, congrats again!!

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includes: riddle rosehearts, and deuce spade.

4. true face — how they act around you.

16. intimacy — little intimate things.

thank you nonnie! <3 I just noticed I made a word error for the prompt and just fixed it now 💀

my fingers actually hurt writing this as I'm writing on phone + I'm a thumb player and I played project sekai 😭 save meeeee

✧ riddle rosehearts.

4. true face

since you basically were stranded in twisted wonderland with no known companions, excluding grim since you didn't even know him and he was trying to grill you alive when you met. riddle takes up the role of someone you can look up to, and rely on just like he did for everyone else.

it just to happens that you're a tad more privileged than the average student. getting off the hook earlier and easier due to his not so subtle favoritism. trust me, riddle really does try to treat everyone equally but he can't fully succumb to the wishes of his mind. the other half following his heart <3.

heart <you3

I don't really think that he acts any different but he pays attention to you in a way like actually asking how you feel, including you in conversations, and keeping your opinion known and valid. it's as though you're the sole white rose sticking out a bunch of red ones.

—unconsciously drawn by your uniqueness in general, and yes. even if you don't believe you are unique, you really are. your resolve, no matter how strong or weak opens his eyes since you always manage to come through despite the level of its intensity.

by attention I mean like noticing something new faster than someone else. maybe a trim to your hair, a change of your tie, or a wrinkle in your clothing. he will notice it sooner or later. if it's wrinkles he'll just unconsciously reach out :)

16. intimacy

fixing up your posture. i can't tell myself if it feels intimate for everyone but I imagine the feeling of a hand pushing up against your back, straightening your spine from its previous slouched position. the action alone required riddle to squeeze near you and hide it by slipping an arm behind you like some one sided quick embrace.

using his fingers to grip your wrist when he's off to drag you somewhere. you can quite literally feel the fabric of his gloves from your hand and it's hard not to get flustered when it seems to be like some unconscious habit on his end. the grip is loose, but tight enough to secure his hold on you. almost as if he's intent not to lose it.

leaning over just enough to feel his fringes brush against your forehead, or tickling yours if you have one instead. he mainly does it when he can't see a notebook from his previous position so he obliviously leans in closer, too absorbed in the notebook to notice how close he is exactly. he retreats back unaware as usual, meanwhile you're having an inner crisis.

✧ deuce spade.

4. true face

more or less. deuce himself in the first place doesn't even realize the feelings are actually well,—feelings. he's stuck somewhere between mistaking it as something platonic and borderline confused about how giddy it makes him feel, is this what having friends does? well he didn't have a lot in the past since he was basically all delinquent-like and everyone else got scared. :(

deuce just acts the way he always does and most of the time he doesn't even realize that he's forgetting about the feelings since he's too happy with you and aside from him, there's always some kind of chaos revolving around you and with all that you can't blame him for forgetting.

speaking of forgetting. if he does end up realizing it it'll be like a: "wait what the fuck." moment cause it genuinely baffles him, was it romantic all this time? god he's so embarassed.

deuce tries to set up goals, as weird as it sounds sometimes he practices things to say to you in front of his mirror and there's a 50/50 chance that ace would end up barging in and witnessing him pathetically compliment the mirror.

but actually leading up to the moment, all that confidence he tried to built up from before disappears and his mind goes blank, heart racing. basically he wimps out at the last second, he swears he blinked and suddenly he was watching you walk to ramshackle.

aaaaand back to square one. but with a little more extra cursing.

16. intimacy

not hesitating to throw a punch when he feels as though you were treated unfairly, or downright disrespected. the thing about deuce is that he's probably one of the guys in the school that has genuine kindness. other than kalim of course, with his outstanding sense of justice you bet he's pitching in some revenge for you.

letting you do whatever you want. another thing about deuce is that he can't exactly say no, so if you politely ask him to lay down on your lap he will. he will not question when you start fiddling with it and pull out a hair tie? or when you start smoothing out the middle part of his hair and twist it inside the tie. he wants to remove it to save his manly dignity but doesn't have the heart to so he walks in class with that get up. not affected by the snickers, but in fact. proud of it.

literally listens to you about everything and takes it all seriously. atleast close to everything, again I'm not sure if that's intimate for you but it's funny seeing him actually take up your advice or the times where he'd fearfully nod when you're in a mood. oh (band name) is really good? he hasn't heard of them but they must be the best if you said it. someone is an asshole?? where are they, do you need a punch for them? oh you make a joke? he does it literally.

[ichigomis]

hiii :D so I was wondering if you could do osamu, suna, Kita, akaashi if their s/o was an kpop fan (: like how would their reaction be etc just head cannons of it

HIAKYUU BOYS WHEN YOU'RE A KPOP FAN

with: osamu, suna, kita, akaashi

notes: aaaaAAAAAA ohmygod this really brought me back to my kpop days when i'd cry over pcs aka a card with a face printed on it :') this was really fun nonnie thanks for the request!

❊ OSAMU

definitely learned how to make you an inkigayo sandwich when you asked him

and yes you slipped your number in there just for fun

he didn't understand why smh

caught you staying up to catch the release of a music video more than once

"why can't you just watch it tomorrow?"

"you don't understand, it won't be the same."

you showed him this picture of wonho and told him he looks exactly like that when he's working at the restaurant

he was so happy about it and started wearing more clothes like that for you and it's so rogebrnuighreiughidsjuigh

still wonders why you have a whole album dedicated solely for your bias and why you don't delete those photos despite you having no memory on your phone,,

once heard you screaming because your bias changed their hair color and he doesn't get what's the big deal rognriuhgure

you've definitely asked him to try a more daring hair color like maybe pink or bright blue

he will never go down that road again

will actually dance with you to some songs and you'd teach him the choreo and he'd try his best and it's juST SO CUTE 🥺

❊ SUNA

accidentally (not) stumbled upon your fan account and followed you under an alias just for fun riuegneurhguer

and yes, he's seen your thirst posts he gets it

and yes, he's also seen that fic you've been reading smhh

lowkey actually listens to kpop and explored korean music after you introduced him to it!

OKAY HEAR ME OUT BUT HE LISTENS TO DEAN, DPR LIVE, AND RAD MUSEUM I JUST SEE IT

once used your lightstick as a back scratcher just to spite you LMAO

saw you watch the same MV for days on end and he's just so done

he lets you use his phone for streams 💪

LAUGHS at you when you start singing in korean because he knows you're most probably not singing it right

actually sings with you when the english lyrics come on

IS SO ANNOYED THAT YOU SOMETIMES ANSWER THE PHONE WITH "YEOBOSEYO" 💀💀

goes with you to buy merch when there's a pop-up store and everyone just stares at him because he always dresses like an idol in the airport 😭😭😭😭😭 he's so hot

❊ KITA

does not understand the logic behind photocards and is genuinely concerned by how much you spend on them 💀

heard you practicing your fanchants once and he thought you were rapping HAHAHAHAAHA

knows who your bias is and also knows their birthday, blood type, favorite food, and position. he doesn't know what the info is for but he just knows

watched a stage performance with you once and was so confused when you'd watch it again and again

"why are we watching it again?"

"i didn't see the others last time! i need to focus on each one ㅠㅠ"

you brought him to one of your fav's concerts once and he has seen this whole other side of you frhuigrehger

he finally gets what fanchants are for

"ah so that's what you were rapping before" 💀💀💀

sometimes glares at that pillow/poster/picture of your bias when you're not looking hhhhhh

nothing serious he's just like "why tf is that there"

actually got into korean skincare when you introduced him and now he uses that aloe vera gel and face masks you got hm

listens to your favorite kpop songs on the daily so he can sing them with you 🥺

❊ AKAASHI

cannot tell your favs apart but knows all their names like ???

"oh yeah, i saw a poster of mark earlier."

"which mark..." 💀

is actually really fascinated you learned hangul just for fun like honey that's a whole language

HE PROOFREADS YOUR FICS UR NOT EVEN SHY ABOUT IT ANYMORE

"i don't think it's possible to pin someone so hard on a door..."

"what? but it's hot,,"

got a bit pouty when he saw that you had a pc on your phone instead of a picture of him PUT HIS PICTURE INSTEAD THERE THIS BABY WILL BE SAD

once bought you the latest album of your fav and you love him for that like he actually took the time to research and it look for it 🥺

LOVES WATCHING KDRAMA WITH YOU

he said he was there for the plot

mhm okay plot you two have been binging park seo joon i don't think he's just there for the plot rgnrognrjgner

YOU MOST DEF TAUGHT HIM HOW TO DO AEGYO AND HE'S SO GOOD AT IT LIKE RIOGNROEIGNO

but he'd never do it in front of anyone else rgenrgnrgerjg

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[navybrat817]

It's not necessarily that we wanted to leave but the fact he could leave us so easily without so much as a word and show back up months later as if nothing happened. Theres only so many times a girl can feel that heartbreak, and I'm not talking about the times he actually tells us he's going on a mission for however long and warns us of the possible radio silence. But the time we saw his hotel on the news after an evacuation because of an explosion and months later hes on our doorstep and it wasn't the first time it happened.

The last straw was recieving an anonymous envelope with pictures on his undercover mission. Private moments with a redhead in his hotel, them making out in public & the damn Eiffel tower all lit up in the background. Was it the the fact his last mission, before the agency called to tell you he was no longer with us, was in the most romantic city with a gorgeous woman or that he never explained he would have a partner and she'd be beautiful and he'd have to pretend to be with her (it wouldn't explain the private moment in their own hotel room). Well screw the mourning period this time, he's probably off somewhere with his new partner. Was it like that the last time?

And then you met Bucky months later, so damn fine, protective, an old school gentleman type who could take control in the bedroom, and everything was laid out on the table. No secrets, ops were always shared with you, and of course that dreaded radio silence because he never wanted his enemies to find you, and he always came back, bruised and bloody, but he always came back. Even when he was taken to the medbay in the compound, he'd have his childhood best friend pick you up and when he's gone someone would always be keeping an eye on you.

Nonnie, why?! Why would you hurt me that way?! I asked for it though, didn't I? So I can't be upset with you.

The thought of opening the envelope and seeing those pictures of Nick and Mace. I don't think you can hear the sound of my heart breaking, but it did. 💔 Who sent the photos?! I agree, screw that. I'd box up everything and tape one of the photos on top of it for someone else to find. Especially with that feeling that you didn't mean much or anything to him. 😢

And Bucky. 😭 Laugh at me if you want, nonnie, but I'm actually tearing up over him being so understanding and considerate. And knowing what you went through before he would do his best to make sure you'd never have a reason to doubt him or his feelings for you. You'd check every bruise and cut as he smiles because he simply made it back to you. ❤️ Steve being almost like a brother to you, knowing how much his best friend adores you. Nat and Sam checking on you, too. And they're happy because Bucky is happy.

I just. I'm soft. My heart. That's the kind of love you deserve. 🥰

Love and thanks! ❤️

[galvanizedfriend]

hi yokan i hope ur doing well!! i just wanted to say... if you have more baby/toddler eve outtakes please please please post them!! i am THE biggest baby eve fan i swear 😭❤️

Hi, nonnie! 😊 I'm good! Hope you're doing well, too! ✨

That's so sweet, nonnie! 💖 I'm so happy when folks tell me they like the baby. 🤣 I was sorta terrified when I got to a certain part of TW2 because that's when the baby really comes into the story more. Honestly, I sometimes get conflicted over whether or not to have more of her because I know most people are not into the baby plot (me included) when it comes to canon, so Baby Eve is there but she doesn't really play that big a part as Hope does in TO 🤣 and I end up with a lot of baby moments as outtakes lol

I was actually just this week reading through some of my outtakes! And I have three, I think, baby outtakes, but one of them is an extra scene of a future chapter, so I won't be posting that until we get there. The other two are cut scenes from TW2, so it should be ok to post them. Although I was planning on posting a different one because I think it has some vague connection to stuff that we will see in the next chapter. 😬 SO I DON'T KNOW, I'M CONFUSED lol I'm the worst decision-maker ever 🙃

but tbh this is very nice of you because i was indeed wondering whether I should be posting more outtakes and if anyone wanted to see more fluffy/family moments lol so thank you! 💖

Also, you didn't ask, but chapter 8 of TW3 will have loads of Eve moments, so there's that!

[georgiapeach30513]

Honestly I feel like Iris needs a friend, someone who she can trust and vent to, someone who won’t feel the need to justify stuff about how story was hurting too, just a friend who she can cry in front of and finally spill our everything that is hurting her, including the fact that she can’t get pregnant at the moment. Someone that isn’t part of the drysdale family, maybe yelena or little princess or even a new character

Also I know James is going trough a lot with his ptsd but I was reading you were holding her and I was so mad with the way he said that story was the one taking care of posie when Iris couldn’t bare to look at the baby like WHAT THE FUCK YOU ASSHOLE that’s your wife you’re talking about ?????? Do you think she choose to have postpartum depression and not being able to properly take care of her daughter????? He made me so mad I swear to god! I understand he cares about story and is worried about her but the fact that his wife is struggling mentally and going through so many things regarding her fertility and he isn’t realizing that she is not alright because he is too busy being worried about her sister is just not doing it to me. I wish Iris would tell him they need a break because they are just not seeing eye to eye but I’m afraid that maybe it will be the thing that will either take her to the path of finally healing or the last drop for her to fall into a full blown out depression

Iris needs a friend 😭😭😭

Honestly your writing is so good that I am feeling many many emotions

You're not wrong. Iris needs an outsider to an extent. Her friendships have always been based around Aster. Most of their friends were guys, and most those guys hurt Story. She has turned to her other family a lot during this time. Especially the Adler/Levinson side. And who does she have there? We also know that Iris does like sex a bit more rough (there will be some insight to this tomorrow 😉)

James definitely didn't react well to that. Iris, like her mother, is a big believer in therapy. So don't worry those two are going to work on learning better communication skills. They're both struggling and going through so much individually it's hard for them to be what the other needs. And Iris is a perfectionist. On the outside she will act like everything is okay, and on the inside she's hurting so much more than she's showing.

But Iris does find a friend in Little Princess (much to Ari's chagrin). For age references, Little Princess is around 40 at this point, Ari is 62, and Curtis is 51. Iris is 26.

🥺 Thank you so much nonnie!  I’m happy you’re enjoying this mess!

🖤🖤🖤🖤

Can I Give You a Hug

Summary: Iris bonds with you

Pairings: Iris Drysdale Rogers X Little Princess!Reader

Rating: cute

Warnings: daddy Ari, D/s dynamics, 18+ ONLY

Word Count:  400

Desperate Lives AU Masterlist

Iris Drysdale Masterlist

You open the door to see Ari's youngest niece Iris there. Ari had explained that it was complicated what was going on in her life, and had mentioned the weird relationship with her, Frank, and Ransom. You had met her a few times and even her family. Despite the past, everyone is relatively close. But seeing her there, without her daughter, as she quickly tells you, "She's at my parents. James is at Carter's. Can I come in?"

You open the door for the dainty girl, walking her to the living room, you can't hide that chair fast enough. Iris's eyes go wide, and you just pretend that nothing happened. "What cha doing sweetheart?"

"I just needed to get away for a moment. Thought Uncle Airy or CC would be here."

"I'm sorry, they're not. CC is still at the station, but Ari should be here soon. Are you sure there's nothing wrong?" you watch her flop down on the couch with a huff and she starts to talk about everything that's happened since her sister went missing.

Her words coming out in almost a long slur and you just listen. Her talking about how she feels that Andy has poisoned her blood, and how she can't get pregnant, and it must be all her fault. How she wants to forgive her sister, but for whatever reason she can't. The conversation going on forever, and you just sit there listening.

"Can I give you a hug?" tears spring to her eyes when she nods her head yes. Ari coming in at the moment confused, but chooses to walk into the bedroom to change quickly.

"Um, Y/N?" she asks with a bit of curiosity, and you hope that he doesn't hear. Ari always hears. "What's the deal with the chair?"

"That's enough. Iris, you want to stay for dinner? We'll order pizza."

The night goes by easy. Curtis has his least favorite shift and doesn't return, until much later. Iris already fast asleep on the couch when he arrives. But when Ari leads you to the bedroom, his dark eyes looking over you. "You'll pay for her seeing that chair."

"I didn't think who was at the door was coming in, Daddy."

"Still getting punished. Curtis won't save you. And if you mention anything about our lifestyle...well."

He never gave you the answer, so it's fair game to talk if she asks, right?

Masterlist

[synchronmurmurs]

1, 12, 13, 25 for that author meme! Ps I did really like the line you sent in response to my rose for that last meme you did!🌹🥀🌹

Whoaaaa nonnie, thank you for these!! 😭 And I’m really glad you liked it!! It was definitely a fun piece for me to delve into. I’ve even got a (short) Dante sequel for it lined up. 😌🙏

1) is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

ksjdfh honestly this is such a loaded question, I have a To Write/WIP/Project list that’s currently 6 pages long, and still growing, because I think about writing a lot when I’m at work. A gal needs something to occupy her mind during those quiet opening shifts. 😔

But I think the biggest one I’m holding off on, aside from the Dark Souls inspired multi-chap, is probably Punchy’s entire storyline. I’ve given a lot of it away here and there, I even wrote up a very barebones structure for how it plays out, as well as a few out of context one shots and ficlets about what’s to come, but what stopping me is all the extra worldbuilding I have to do for it, and everything else I have plans to write in the near future. It’s just a constant struggle of neverending projects.

I love all of my OCs equally I promise

12) your weaknesses as an author

Probably in the way that I can’t seem to keep from posting something almost as soon as it’s finished. I find that I can build so much more on a piece if I let it sit for an extra few days after I deem it “complete” - because building off of a foundation is one of my strengths imo - but there’s this really irrational part of me that needs to get it out the door ASAP.

13) your strengths as an author

I think the only one I’m actually proud of myself for is, like I said above, how I can build on and expand on an already existing idea. I love adding extra details to worlds and cities that don’t have much on their own, but lack the creativity and knowhow to build the actual foundation. This is why I write about Fortuna as much as I do. I just have so much fun adding to pre-existing ideas and drawing my own conclusions.

Maybe this is why I had so much fun with FromSoft games; lore is incredibly open ended in SoulsBorne, and you’re pretty free, for the most part, to fill in the blanks in whatever way you want to. Like most pertinent item descriptions tell half a story on their own. That other half, and how it connects to everything else in the game is purely up to you, and I just love that.

To be pretentious, I think my strength as an author is the way I tell a story about what’s left between the lines.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

Wahhh more of this kjsdhf thank you nonnie. 🥺🥺 Rather than pull something from a piece I’ve published, I’ll grab something from a WIP I got going. This is from a uhhhhhhh Punchy/Higashi AU because look, they’re both people of Crime™, both lost their respective family heads, and both tried to make things right in their own ways. THEY EVEN DRESS KIND OF THE SAME, I CAN’T NOT SHIP THEM... But yes, this is from an AU, and they get matching back tattoos of komainu, because they both warded off evil, and komainu come in pairs and it’s ✨ symboooooliiiiiic ✨ or something like that.

He smiles. "I didn't think you'd actually do it."

"Toru." His name, his first name, is spoken not as a warning, but simply for emphasis. It was strange coming from her at first, not knowing its significance, nor the effect it had on him, but now… now he doesn't want to be addressed as anything else. Doesn't want another's name to pass those lips; a part of him that exists only for her.

She meets his eyes over her shoulder, neutral, but half-lidded and almost sultry. "I always mean what I say."

He hums his answer to her, a quiet grunt from deep in his throat, because his mouth is busy, lips pressing against her shoulder in a soft kiss. He follows the steep curve of her neck upwards where he holds, just behind her ear. Breathes her in. Feels her lean into him. She's subtle like that; her affection has always been measured and dosed with great care and deliberation. Sparse, some would say, but always unmistakable in intent.

"Sit," he murmurs, not intending to let his voice take on that husky air that raises goosebumps on her skin, but relishing in that anyway, "don't know how you managed it so far, but rubbing lotion on your own back can't be easy - let me."

She leans more of her weight into him, head tilting so that their temples touch.

"Sure."

And for something a bit less self indulgent and more DMC flavoured, a little bit of an introspective Credo one shot I’m still very slowly plucking away at.

He'd kept his eyes forward as he marched the streets, bearing upon his shoulder the coffin of his father, surrounded on both sides by solemn, sympathetic looks. He'd kept his eyes forward as he was ushered down that same winding path not even a week later, walled in by smiles and cheer as Fortuna celebrated its new Supreme General. He can't distinguish the two events anymore; the funeral procession of the previous General, and the celebration of the new one merging in his mind with a profound and overwhelming numb at its base. Were people giving him their condolences, or were they congratulating him on his new position? Is the pressure upon his shoulders a coffin, or is it a grand ceremonial cape?

He can't remember.

All he can recall is that the road ahead of him was long and winding, and the sunlight that reflected off the pavement was too bright for his eyes.

He wasn't ready for either of the events he was forced to partake in.

Thank you so much nonnie 😭💖💖

[kazuwhora]

hi kc!! ♡ how are you? ive been interacting with you as an anon for a few times and you've been nothing but kind and outgoing to me. and i wanna thank you for that. getting replies from you makes me so happy and giggly. you're one of my favourite writers here and i do hope the random hate you got didn't bring you down.

do send my regards and kith kith to your cat, god he/she is so cuuute AAAAA

AHHH NONNIE this meant so much to me that I screenshotted it and put it in my notes you have no idea!! it made my whole week 😭😭😭

I spent most of my life thinking I was just mean to people bc thats what people would tell me AND I JUST SOMETIMES LIKE BEING NICE YOU KNOW esp when people share the same interests and support me SO I WILL ALWAYS APPRECIATE YOU

fiona says she appreciates you as well heheh