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[1overbaby]

You are the creator and the creation.

I am unsure of how to convey this, but I’ll do my best with examples <3 It’s something that clicked for me, and brought me peace and helped me realise I am the creator, I am the one, I am above all and I am on the pedestal.

You are the: I am, the desires, and the self.

When imagining, it is all you. It is only you who imagines and no one else. There is no one else in imagination except you. So, when you imagine another person, they are you. They are you and a reflection of you. Therefore, the entire experience in imagination is you.

I’ll dive straight into the examples to try and convey my perspective. I will use a materialistic desire as an example, and a specific person too.

Example 1: a home

I desire a home. This home has an indoor swimming pool, and a large kitchen with a beautiful island and a glass window touching from the floor to the ceiling.

I imagine this home. I feel what it feels to have this home right now, as mine. If I am able to create and imagine and experience this home, then I am the creator of it. Not the builders, but me. If I am able to desire and imagine such grandeur and luxury, then I myself am grandeur and luxury. I am abundant, I am wealth. These qualities exist in me - they are me - and I pour this into the things I desire. I am God who creates such luxury. I take a piece of my grandeur, my abundance, and I give it life in form of a home in my imagination. It is all mine. The materials to make this home was: I AM + wealth/abundance. This added together = I am wealth and abundance, that is why I have such a beautiful home that I call mine. That I own. Because it is all me. So when I imagine myself swimming in the pools, cooking lovely meals in the kitchen I so beautifully created, I am able to claim all of these because they are mine. They are my creation, they are a reflection of me, they are for me to experience. If I know imagination is the only reality, and the physical realm mirrors this, then this home is mine. This home means something about me, it reflects me and my qualities. Whomever you share this home with, or whatever experiences you experience in this home, you are the gift that created them!!

Example 2: specific person

I desire a partner. This partner takes me on cute dates where we have candlelight dinners, or sometimes we go bowling. (Lmao)

I imagine this partner. I feel what it feels like to have another be so excited and willing to take me on romantic dates, and fun dates. I am the creator of this. Now, yes they are their own person but they are also a reflection of you. Knowing you’d love these romantic dates and that you deserve to experience them means that you are so loved. In this scene, it’s not exactly about the fact that yes this person loves u so much to take you on dates, but it’s more about knowing - I am so loved, and so exciting to be around, they love taking me out on dates. You are creating this scene, you see!!!! When imagining these experiences you are literally going ‘wow omg i am such a romantic, look at me creating this scene!! Wow i am so loved here, this is amazing!! Let me also experience people showering with me love, so many love letters ! Wow i am so adored here, i am the one :)’ because you can imagine yourself being the one. Wanting to receive love letters means you lowkey know you deserve them because you know you are adored. Its not ‘i wish i received love letters, why do people never give me them?’ To me that makes no sense. In these romantic imaginal acts, you are the one declaring yourself to be the one. You are the one choosing to be adored with love letters. You are your desires - you are the sp!!! You are the prize. Look at you gifting yourself so many romantic experiences and love??? This is amazing! You are so adored because this is your creation! You go bowling with them and imagine yourself giggling with them - you are so free! You are so at peace! You feel safe and secure in your love!! Your inner child feels so healed!! Now who is creating this experience?? YOU!! Not another outside of you, and not your partner! This is all you. Look how loving you are to yourself. Claim it all. Because it IS within you! It is you! We just clarified that !! And imagining cute dates with another? They are so lucky, you create such lovely experiences and memories for you both because you are love! You created this gift! Maybe you imagine them proposing, but who created this scene? YOU. Because you know you are the one!!

Now yes, you are the abundance. You are your mansion. You are your partner. Now this will, by law, be reflected out. A mansion in the 3d? That’s you being abundant and successful and secure and fancy !! It is yours. Your partner in the 3d? That is a beautiful soul who sees how beautiful your soul is, how loving your soul is, and reflects it. They are you, you are them. They are your companion that you share life with. That home is your shelter that you can always return to, your abundance and your security.

I am not sure if i really got this across well but you are the desire! You are the creation! It is not reminding yourself that you own a home, or that you have a partner. It is reminding and persisting in the fact that you are abundant, you create so much wealth, luxury, and freedom, and security. You remind yourself that you love yourself so much to desire and feel deserving of these romantic experiences that you gift them to you, and your partner is you being full of love, being adored, being chosen, being the one because you can feel yourself to be it. You are whole and complete. Your partner is an extension of you, and a life you share.

[lovecuprite]

Caps on for this post so its easier to read because I'm serious today + screenshots/message included + if you plan on commenting, read the whole thing

I wasn't going to make this post but I actually decided it would be good because sometimes people need to take accountability and also so it doesn't happen to others. if you cba to read it, i've highlighted the key points

I'm sure you'll see this, in which case, I messaged you and I thought we could stop what you were doing civilly, but instead you continued to spam my inbox. And since I knew it was you, I blocked you anyway, but it's all good because you blocked me right after you realised I knew. You said I dragged your name through the mud and I didn't, I referred to you as 'x' and didn't even say anything, but in this post, I am going to name you as clitfilms directly. (if you message me to own up to it and apologise, i will honestly take this down)

I am not commenting on the role she did/didn't play in her own drama, this is merely about her bringing people into it that aren't involved and creating more drama herself by lying and spamming my inbox.

So, as some of you may know, recently I had someone in my inbox tell me that people were talking about me in discord servers and saying I was clitfilms. (see ask here) and then i defended myself here

This anon refused to give proof when I asked, just said that what they (let's call them a and b because i don't want to name them) did to clitfilms should be enough.

(black image next to it is just so it displays better on the phone)

But that's no proof at all. If you know someone's said something, you should have screenshots and yet you had none, so I already doubted this anon. On top of that, I messaged a and b and cleared it up with them myself, but as I said, the no proof was the main doubter here for me.

I then began to suspect that the anon was clitfilms, maybe she wanted an ally and thought if I was attacked in the same way, I'd side with her. I had no proof of this, aside from this timing coincidence.

A little weird that clitfilms posts exactly when I get these 3 anon messages, but maybe a coincidence. So I just think it to myself but I won't accuse her of it, right?

Okay moving on, I turned anon off because it was annoying but then after I cleared the 'talking about me' stuff up with a and b a few days later, I put it back on.

Then, 23rd of Oct I get this ask:

(click the image on the right to see the full image, showing battery/time etc. to show that timing wise, the post and ask were sent literally a minute apart)

I didn't know her name was Naya because I've only checked her blog to clear up rumours in that one post and didn't stop to get her name, but since her drama keeps popping up in my inbox, I decided to check her page after getting this ask.

There, I discovered that her name is Naya and on top of that, someone had sent her this post. Which means in the 1/2 minutes that post of hers was up, someone managed to see it, check my post/read hers, then comprehend it and then send that anon message.

Now maybe someone has crazy super speed reading and absorbed it all in 2 seconds to then send me that anon message but to me it seems like she had already copied and pasted a message ready for my inbox that she sent as soon as she posted.

& that was so suspicious to me and exactly when I felt I wasn't crazy to think it was her the first time.

After this, I was tired of getting these asks and honestly was just waiting for more to come in, they were spread out a little so it seemed like they were different people' (ha, how wrong that was) but I wanted it to stop.

In my mind, there's two ways to stop this, make a post saying 'clitfilms leave my inbox', or send her a message. So I decide to unblock her and message.

I'm not going to blast someone's name if I can solve it with them privately, regardless of if what she's doing is shady & downright hypocritical based on what she seems to be posting about. (Just something I don't want to do unless I absolutely have to)

And for me personally, spreading my name around in people's inboxes, acting like different people in my own inbox to convince me of your lies and then spamming me? I can't just ignore that.

I don't know if my message comes across as mad, but I was, so I don't really care. Getting constant anons for no reason is so annoying, especially when you know who it is.

Now in this message, I addressed the anon claims directly (no point beating around the bush when I know clitfilms typed them to me) Which is where my points 1/2 came from.

So now she knows that I know for certain it's her.

5 minutes later, another ask comes in and then later after that, another one:

The one asking for 'proof that I know it's clitfilms’ comes 5 minutes after I message her basically saying I know it's you.

At this point, I'm certain it's her but hey maybe that's a coincidence too and the anon was instead referencing that ask from earlier. again though, the timing is crazy coincidental.

I don't know how many times anon asks can match up with clitfilms posts/interactions on several different days over several different weeks and it not be her. There are only so many coincidences that you can brush off.

I didn't screenshot every single ask, especially not the original copy/paste ones that I think many people got because I didn't know I'd make this post and after blocking sender, they're gone now.

But, I know I got an ask defending her on the 7th oct, again don't know what time but she was posting about the drama on that day.

And also, I was tagged on a post with one of a / b and on the same day, that was when she was first mentioned in my inbox.

Which now kinda feels like, she didn't know who I was, saw that post, realised I might be mutuals with a/b and quickly messaged me to say they were bullies to prevent them from 'manipulating more people to turn against her'.

Saying that, I have never ever gotten a single bad ask about clitfilms. Every ask was defending her like that was their life's goal.

And linked to that, this ask from earlier came through on Oct 19th around 3/4am bst. One of a/b got a message in their inbox too, saying I was clitfilms (again, sorted now) & I didn't want to message them again because we don't know each other, but I wonder if they got that ask around the same time I got mine. That one I don't know because I haven't asked, but just a thought, wouldn't be surprised considering everything else adds up.

^^ since this little paragraph, i don't have exacts to prove it, you can ignore

Anyway, I'm going off topic.

Then finally, I had made this post, which I then reblogged. Which states that when I pressed 'block sender' on one of those anon asks, they all disappeared too.

So every single one of those anons was the same fucking person and at this point, like come on. Does she have some crazy fan that has singlehandedly been defending her honour in my inbox consistently over several days? Like how am I supposed to not think it's her?

Additionally, I feel like she'd be quick to say she's being 'framed', but in one of the earlier examples, where she was online at the same time as anon, the anon ask i got was a few minutes prior to her post. and how would they know she'd be online in a few minutes, to then decide to send me an ask?? They'd have to be some crazy mind reader that predicts when she posts, to perfectly time an ask to frame her.

That connected with everything else just makes it so blatant.

And so if I've messaged you and then you continue spamming me, you're a lost cause, there's no getting around it other than blocking you again.

So I reblogged that post ^^ (because I was honestly laughing at how crazy someone has to be to go to those lengths, on tumblr of all places), blocked her and in the same second, she blocked me too.

So you're not in my inbox, but you ignore my message, your chance to defend yourself and then block me after refreshing my page and seeing me confirm again that I know it's the same person sending those asks...hm okay.

Personally, if it were me, I'd want to defend myself if I was innocent. And I gave you that chance to have a conversation privately.

But instead, you block me, someone who's profile i'm sure you'll say you've never seen, on 0 grounds, other than the fact that I think you're harassing me, makes you look even more guilty. But hey, maybe it's just me.

In my opinion, with all of that, it's so painfully obvious that it was clitfilms constantly doing this to me, but take it however you want.

I just can't stand to see people doing stuff like this and then trying to act like it's not them. Take some accountability like damn girl.

On that post of hers (with my post linked), after her rant, she tags it with this, yet she's the one in my inbox.

If she can lie and do that to me, what else can she do? Which is why I feel the need to say something, before clitfilms does it again to someone else.

[rocketdive]

i cannot find my original weeb ranking post, and recent discoveries have been occupying my brain so i need to dump them in this post

current rankings as of oct 19, 2024 (subject to change as i update this post)

megan thee stallion - 110% would risk catching covid and being a fire hazard if she wanted to take me on an anicon date

nick r (bad omens) - this man is a fucking weeb (affectionate) and that crunchyroll interview is enough proof (also not my weeb ass watching that entire interview)

noah (bad omens) - demoted coz he wasn't caught up with aot

niko (blind channel) - i don't really go here but i have seen enough of this blorbo-in-law to know that this man is a weeb

alpha wolf - specifically lochie and sabian because my weeb radar is (unfortunately) stronger than my gaydar but that 2024 album most certainly contains certified weeb references in some song titles why tf do i know all this weeb shit when i don't watch anime

within destruction - currently lumping them into a group because i don't stalk their individual socials enough but pls see: 1) anime merch 2) more anime merch 3) technically not full weeb but still kinda weeb if y'all seen their drummer's back piece 4) vocalist is def a weeb on main 5) did i mention anime merch 6) also touring TWICE with the band that did the attack on titan themes was also a choice

will ramos (lorna shore) - prefers manga over comic art style? WEEB CONFIRMED (but he didn't show any anime related tattoos during the tattoo tour so he's here in the rankings)

bmth - i feel like someone has some degree of weeb influence but isn't heavy handed in it (cough oli and his animu drop dead shirts cough) but also all the jp game references and also HELLO MR. KOJIMA?????. update 1) nex gen happened

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[uhhhhhh we are moving into "not (heavily) weeb on main" / "casual anime enjoyer/probably not a true weeb" territory after this]

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stand atlantic - idk who is a weeb in this band but i'm pretty sure they had a naruto inspired tee at their merch table back before the pandemmy (factoring out their bassist since i don't think he was an official member at that point)

courtney laplante (spiritbox) - has publicly documented weeb references but i also cba to read the article so i'm putting her both here

vinny (miw) - tbh idk enough about his weeb tendencies so he's lower than courtney but he did mention that he likes attack on titan

jolly from bad omens - i don't have solid evidence except that one interview where he got mentioned in passing and i also get euro vkei copy band vibes from his earlier photos

knocked loose - they set off my weebdar but i haven't dug around enough. there is that pic of 2/5ths of the band with piccolo (or was it some other DB character, i can't remember) but i am ranking bryan over nicko unless someone has solid proof that it should be the other way around

turnstile - SOMEONE PUT AJIKAN ON THAT ONE SPOTIFY PLAYLIST but that's all i have for now

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basically anyone on this list has already set off my weeb radar to some extent (using the term weeb realllllly loosely in some cases)

honorary mention(s) - lupe fiasco

[nar-nia]

IM BBACKKKKKKKK

Live updates timeeeee

Men who confess whilst throwing up 😍😍 /j

I mean jake is the purrfect guys but likeeeee Heeseung 🥺

ALSO GONNA PUSH THE SUNJAKE AGEDA

If we ain't getting heejake we need sunjake agsjdhd

I love sunoo

Actually forget sunjake

Me and sunoo,, it always will be be 🥰

STOP SUNOOS STUMBLING OVER HIS WORDS 😭😭 HES SO CUTE

JAKE FFS SHUT UP

YEAH Y/N SPEAK UP

SPEAK FOR URSELF

JAKEEEEEEEEE 😭

NAUR DONT U SAY HEESEUNG DOESNT DESERVE HER

like I'm not saying he does

BUT SHUT UP

I love sunoo

"What? God, no. I meant in a platonic way. You're not in a fanfiction, y/n."

OOP

Omg y/n ans sunoo 😭 pls can they just run off into the sunset together and choose friendship over boys agsjsgd

NOT THE HOON SLANDER 💀

She told jake

NAUR I FEEL BAD NOW 😭

He wants her to be happy with him SOBBING

Yes sunoo go look after jake

Here we go 😃

Heeseung 😭😭😭

An apology, a confession and a kiss

Aaaaaaaaaaa

"Does that mean from now on I'll just leave the door open while showering?"

HELLO?!AISGWJHWHWJ 😳😳😳🥴🥴

HEESEUNG PLS

"Mhm. I didn't know one person could have that strong opinions about snacks."

Me 🤝 Jake

Talking about our love for sweet snacks

"Oh! Okay, how about this. We lock you and Jake into a room, Mochi ready on the table, a romantic movie in the background. That should make him forget about me!"

Sounds amazing. I'm in.

OMG SUNOO ACTOR ERA

he better get the mc

Omg and jake can be the main love intrest

Gsjshjdh

Jake's dropping out :((

But also phewwwwww

Go slay it next show king,, with sunoo

Stop I love them all being happy and friendly as a four 🥺

PAHAHA SUNOO WALKED IN ON THEM MAKING OUT

LMAOOOOOO

poor sunoo 💀💀

Yeah sunoo exploit ur trauma,, make them pay 🤩

So much has happened in such short time agsjdhd

SUNOO WILL SLAY THE AUDITION

HELP HEE KISSED HER INFRONT OF HOON AND TAE NAURRRRR

I'm embarrassed agshgsh

Y/ns crying 😭😭😭😭 I'm so proud of her agsjsgs

They are making out again damn 🥴🥴

Sunoo has been violated 🤡

OMG JUNGWON AND RIKI SOBBING

MY BOYS

STOP KISSING INFRONT OF SUNOO

HIS SWEET INNOCENCE EYES

SUNOO GOT THE ROLE AAAAA

HOLD THE FUCK UP WHAT

👁👄👁

WHAT THE FUCK

IM COMING FOR IR THROAT PARK SUNGHOON

Oh ig not hoon

IM COMING FOR YOUR THROAT KANG TAEHYUN

Omg slay hoon,, going solo 🤩

OMG HOON YOU GODSEND

I LOVE YOU

YES SUNOO AND HEE ARE HEREEEEE

Break y/n out of their depression session

YES GROUP WATCH

Awwww sunoo and Jake's show trailer

SOBBING HEESEUNG WHISPERING I LOVE YOU TOO

On the FLOOR

I'm so proud of them all 😭😭😭😭 they all made it

Ninaaaaaaaa

THAT WAS AMAZING

So much emotion and angst and love and fluff and sunoo 🥰 all perfectly balanced and well written

DAMN UR SO TALENTED

This was rly long and I cba proof reading it so i have NO clue if it make any sense

Anyways

So proud of youuu 🥰

Sorry it took me so long but honestly I'm so glad I could read it and appreciate every single moment and word because that's what ur works deserve !!

Love you mama <3

~M 🐝

HELLOOOO <33 my favorite child is back 🤧🤧

live updates my favorite 😍

now i love jake so much but hee is just 😩. Even if it was an up and down in that story. Hee supremacy 🤭

And sunoo 😍😍 the loml, he deserves the world and especially his own story at this point. Ugh he's so sweet.

Mooooooo <333

I'm so glad you loved it 🥺 thank you for all the support and the sweet asks and words during it, they always meant a lot <3 it doesn't matter how long it takes or when you read it, it makes me so happy that you did. And even happier that you liked it so much, aaaahh 😭😭

thank you so much for this ask, it was such a sweet surprise. I love you tooo 💖💖💖