#i did a happy wiggle in my seat congrats smooch

[thegoldenshi-shi]

My brain has been in a massive nlock for about the past two months, unfortunately. I have been slowly adding details and such, but I am very perfectionistic about any art I make, so I keep starting over. I have a shape and pose set, now I just need to decide on details. So, tldr, I still haven't given him the tattoo, which he's fine with, he knows how my brain works, knows that I have periods where I can confidently do things, and says he'd prefer I take my time and make something that I am happy with than to have something I don't like. He's great 💜. I will also likely end up just popping into your discord with the finished product when I finish his tattoo, lol, I just love your art style too much not to gush to you about art things.

But YEAH! Halloween is almost here!! I can decorate my work station this year!! And we have ///soooo/// much chocolate at work, my stomach doesn't appreciate it as much as my taste buds. Halloween has always been my fav holiday. Used to go as a werewolf every year, lol. School didn't let me wear the mask, so for school parades I was just a very hairy dude in a flannel. Was still really fun and funny.

I will always love the golden floof!! Even if seeing your little Leo always tells me I should never ever be allowed near any type of lion for risk of attempting to hug the big kitty. (Will admit, any media that depicts cats, real or otherwise, big or small, tells my brain that hugging muscles are required. I will likely die trying to hug a hyena)

And I am just. Hyped on life rn. Had a good session in therapy, and got told I have made an incredible amount of progress growing and recognizing myself as a person in the past two years, which I am super proud of myself for. A lot of it has been friends (yourself included!) encouraging me and giving me safe places to learn and experience things. It's been great, and I can now confidently move to do things to /make/ myself happy, rather than expecting to never get to be happy for extended periods of time. Two years, and I genuinely am not the same as I was. That's not all that long in the grand scheme of things, but living it, it's massive. Especially cause I was still here to live it.

~Smooch

Ah yes, nothing better than your muse deciding to take an extended vacation when you're working on something *heavy sarcasm*

The same thing is happening to me atm, so don't feel alone.

Seriously, I can't even come up with fanart right now, what the heck?

Still, it's a good thing to take your time on art, you can't rush perfection. Having your basic idea/concept down is the biggest hurtle, so kudos to you for having that done! I'll be excited to see what you wind up with at the end of your process~

I hear you on Halloween. I used to be really into Halloween with dressing up and stuff (I think my most common costume was a witch), now I'm less exuberant about it, but I still LOVE the vibes. I love chocolate, but I also have a preference for high-end dark chocolate, so my wallet keeps me from splurging to much on candy lol.

It's so good to hear that you're doing so well. I will admit I was a little worried at one point when you seemed really down. I'm glad that you're growing and learning how to be your own person and how to enjoy your life on your terms. If I was able to help even a little bit, that makes me very happy and grateful.

On a less serious note, I'm glad you liked the golden floof 💕

Good to talk to you again Smooch~