#i could just. feed off of their light flirting. im fucking miserable man | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vo1dd · 2 years ago

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i hate being needy so i don't express any need and expect them to just know what i need and end up frustrated and upset because they don't know what i need. immediately see it as a sign that they don't care and won't make any effort. and then the idea of making them work for the relationship eats me alive because it feels selfish as hell. but i can't help it so im just completely miserable on my own, and they probably don't even notice it because we don't talk much anymore. great work, me

#bpd vent #bpd #my whole life's reduced to them and i just vaguely exist until i see them online #then it's just waiting and waiting for any kind of interaction #it's been weeks. i can't even cry for some reason. i can't really do anything. im so numb #atp the only emotions i feel is anger and boredom #i just want to go back to last summer before i told them they were my fp #it was easier. i didn't have this feeling of 'don't come off too strong they know how you feel it won't be like a joke'#i could just. feed off of their light flirting. im fucking miserable man

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