#i could go the naturopathy route but im sorta not interested in paying out of pocket the amount i get in disability per month for one appt | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nectarinegirl · 1 month ago

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Honestly not sure what there is to stick around for anymore. My lifes become so small and I've done everything in my power to make stuff happen and it just... won't. There's nothing to look forward to, nothing to work towards, not even anything I enjoy doing day to day. Not sure why I bother anymore

#ive hit a wall with medical stuff my new doctor is uninterested in doing anything even writing the referrals my old doctor promised me #hed write then never did. the new dr is fine to wait to hear what the internist has to say #but ive been referred to THREE DIFFERENT INTERNISTS and havent heard from any of them and itll probably take close to year to get in #i could go the naturopathy route but im sorta not interested in paying out of pocket the amount i get in disability per month for one appt #and the discovery call i had with a highly reccomended naturopath was terrible.#my boyfriends probably never going to be able to move up here since canadas tightening immigration laws #and hes also making good money doing nothing which he wouldnt be able to do anywhere other than his hometown #and i think im done with my parents #ive just said everything there is to say about how we can have a good relationship and they dont listen and im over it #i cant even waste my time day to day reading and writing because of how bad my cognitive decline is.#life would be so much better if i could at least read and expand my world that way and write and be creative #but every time i try it takes me weeks to get back to my baseline. im scared to even try audiobooks that i havent read before :/#so whats really the point of sticking around? let alone trying to better my life? i just cant find a reason anymore

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