#i cant express how it’s not just me being shippy and them just caring about each other a lot lmfao

[sunlightfeeling]

WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS TURN AROUNND 😭

[fantasyfandommaiden]

The Many Kisses of Carmine Regal

Carmine is completely fine with physical affection, she is a serial cuddler, is always open to give hugs, and kisses on the cheek. However, sometimes certain kisses means more than others…

(AKA What happens when Maiden wants to write some fluffy shippy stuff. Anyone have a favourite or thoughts on who else my OC could possibly be shipped with?)

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Carmine was looking at her Nathalie with a raised brow as she continued to throw dress after dress out of her closet and onto the bed, clearly not impressed. 

“Nathalie, why do I have to wear a dress?” Carmine asked in a bored tone as one said dress landed on top of her head, the red haired woman making no attempt to move it.

“Because as my plus one to this event, you need to wear formal wear.” Nathalie stated in a matter of fact tone, examining one of the dresses before shaking her head and tossing it. “Gabriel wasn’t exactly pleased with me informing him you were my plus one, so I refuse to give that man more ammo than necessary…”

“Not my fault your boss is a paragon of a scum and an all around dick.” she muttered, pulling the dress off her head as she looked at her friend. “Besides, I was nothing but cordial with him when he visited me for his session after the whole ‘Collector’ incident.” 

Nathalie turned around and looked at Carmine with an unimpressed expression “Really? So you didn’t throw shade at him about his career and parenting style?”

“Can’t throw shade about a parenting style if he doesn’t have one Nathalie.” Carmine stated simply “Parents need to have an even balance of care and discipline Nathalie. Gabriel is all about discipline and punishment for Adrien when he is anything less than perfect, and that's not healthy for a boy his age. Heck, you are already more like a parent to him than Gabriel is.”

Nathalie, who had been looking into the closet again, span around, her eyes wide. “That’s not funny Carmine.” Nathalie stated simply. “I’m an assistant, not his parent.”

Carmine and Gladiolus looked at eachother, than at Nathalie “Oh really? Tell me, who calls me every other week for articles about childhood development and mental health?” she asked, looking straight at Nathalie “Or at the beginning of the school year how you asked for any and all thesis papers and articles about the benefits of public schooling over homeschooling? How you fight tooth and nail just so that kid can have a few spare hours a week to hang out with friends and be a normal teenager?” Carmine looked at Nathalie with a softer, more understanding expression, even as the dark haired woman remained mostly expressionless. “Or for that article about the grieving process when Mme Agreste’s disappearance reached the one month mark, and you asked for therapist that specializes in it that knew how to handle children going through loss.”

Nathalie remained silent as she turned back around, going through the closet “... Why do you own so many cardigans?” she asked, clearly looking for a change of subject. Carmine rolled her eyes not saying anything.

“Wait, what is this?” Nathalie asked, bringing something out. Carmine looked over uninterested however her eyes widened at the garment that Nathalie was holding. 

Nathalie was holding a white, off the shoulder floor length dress that had a slit that went all the way to the mid thigh, the sleeves went all the way to the floor as well. The dress has ornate gold trip along the sleeves, and around the neckline, as well as a wide strip of it that went around the waist just below the bustline. Overall the dress had a mystical feel to it, as it should; it was one of the dresses that Carmine would only wear for rituals or for gatherings with other magical people. 

Carmine was usually careful with keeping her mundane clothes and her ritual clothes separate. Normal clothes in the closet, rituals ones go into a tote under her bed. It wasn’t that the clothes themselves were magical in anyway, but the dresses were so unlike anything Carmine wore that she just kept them separated so her friends wouldn’t ask questions about it. Carmine must had finished washing this dress and hang it up in her closet without even thinking about it. 

Nathalie was still looking at the dress, examining the inside of it “There’s no tag. Did you make this?” she asked, looking at her with an impressive expression.

“Yes.” Carmine stated truthfully. The red haired woman was no Marinette, but she knew how to work a sewing machine and had an abundance of patients for the craft. “I needed a dress for reasons.” 

Nathalie looked at her with a raised brow “... Reasons?” 

Carmine looked at her friend, her friend of almost twelve years who Carmine could tell anything, except for the fact that she was a mage. Not because she didn’t want to, or couldn’t but the fact that Carmine was waiting for the opportune moment… but this wasn't it.

“... I’ll tell you about it later.”

“Later when?” Nathalie asked, her eyebrows still raised. 

Carmine looked at her friend, thinking it over “... At Christmas.” 

“I’ll hold you to that.” Nathalie stated, walking over, still holding the dress “Your wearing this to the event.” 

Carmine looked at her with wide eyes “Wait, why?! This isn't a designer, and you said you didn’t want to give Gabriel more ammo than necessary!”

Nathalie rolled her eyes “Well, this isn't a designer but it IS gorgeous, and has excellent craftsmanship. If Gabriel cant see that then he really has lost his edge. Besides, it will look amazing on you.”

Carmine blinked, looking at her friend with a slight smirk “Flatterer.” 

Nathalie sighed, shaking her head as she leaned down and gave Carmine a soft kiss on the forehead, lingering a second or two longer than necessary before standing up and looking down at her friend. “Shut up, and show me where your shoes so I can see what I am working with.”

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At any given time during the school day, nine times out of ten Carmine could be found in her office. The only exception to this was during an akuma attack, staff meeting or if she was going to get her kettle filled with water to make more tea. 

This wasn’t any of those times luckily, as she was at her desk, writing down some notes about the latest akuma victim when she felt SOMETHING enter her office. Carmine sat up straighter, her eyes narrowing at the door. One of the perks about being magical was that when someone entered her office (which she considered her domain) she could feel it. 

When the door didn’t open, Carmine stood up slightly, looking down at the ground only to scowl as she saw just WHO had entered her office. A small grey dwarf hamster; also known as Zeus, Adrien’s familiar. 

Carmine sat back down as the hamster climbed up her desk and crawled over the surface to stand at the edge looking at Carmine. Carmine just looked at the hamster with an unimpressed expression. “You know your not suppose to be away from Adrien for too long.” Carmine scolded him lightly, sipping her tea. 

A soft light emanated as the hamster turned into a fair skinned and blonde haired man, wearing black dress pants and a matching vest over top of a white button up shirt. Her wore a smirk on his face as his striking blue eyes seemed to shine with mischief. He was leaning against the edge of Carmine’s desk, right beside her, looking down at her in his usual mischievous way. “He’ll be fine for a couple of moments. You shouldn’t scowl my dear, its proven to lessen your mood… although your grumpy face is adorable.” he lightly teased. 

Carmine rolled her eyes, however a small smile was on her face. “What brings you here Zeus?” she asked him, sipping her tea. 

“I wanted to know about the laws regarding killing.” he asked in the same tone you would use to ask someone what the weather was like. 

Carmine froze for a moment, looking at the man who looked at her with the same smirk on his face, however Carmine could tell he was being serious. Carmine ran through a list of people he could mean, knowing that it had to be someone close to Adrien, since those were the only people Zeus could observe. After thinking about it for a moment, only one person came to mind.

“... It is still very illegal and Adrien would hate you.” Carmine said shortly. “He’s the only parent Adrien has left, even if he is a dick.”

Zeus rolled his eyes “Understatement. Besides, it’s not like anyone would notice right away, the damn reclus stays in his office most of the time. It’s no wonder Adrien is able to sneak around so much without anyone noticing.” 

“Zeus, you can’t kill Gabriel Agreste.” Carmine stated in a more firm tone, looking at the man in the eyes. “Even if you don’t like Gabriel, that doesn’t mean you can kill him.”

Zeus let out a soft snort “Oh, my dear, I most certainly CAN kill him.” he said, his eyes flashing something dangerous for a moment “However, Adrien told me not to. I was just wondering if it was still an actual law or not.” 

Carmine gave him an unimpressed look, sipping her tea “Not ‘your dear’.” she stated simply “And what exactly has Gabriel done to make you so upset?”

Zeus let out a soft hum, leaning back slightly as he looked up at the ceiling “Where to begin… He doesn’t keep his promises, he allows other people to make him uncomfortable for his so called ‘fashion’, the only time he pays attention to the kid is when he wants to scold him, he hasn’t taught Adrien that he is allowed to have boundaries, doesn’t even hug the poor kid and those are just the things I can think of off the top of my head.” he said, letting out a sigh “Honestly, I haven’t even been with him for two weeks and I’ve given the kid more physical affection his father has in the past month from my understanding.” 

Carmine looked at Zeus, a small sad smile on her face “... that still doesn’t mean you can kill him.”

“Not even lightly stabbing him?” he asked with a slight pout.

“Not even lightly stabbing him.” Carmine replied to him, pausing for a moment to think “... If, however, something were to happen to make his day more of a hinderance, like, say, his computer short circuiting, or his sketchbook falling into water, or other minor things that just make his day simply awfully, I wouldn’t complain.” Carmine said, off handedly, looking at Zeus with a slight smirk. 

Zeus returned the smirk, leaning down so that his face was barely two inches away from her face “Why, Carmine my dear, that is simply a wicked thought, don't you think?” he asked, his blue eyes dancing with a mischievous glint “I knew there was a reason I liked you~” he said, lightly kissing her jaw line.

Carmine simply brought her hand up, pushing his chin away as she looked at him with a raised brow “Didn’t Gladiolus give you a warning about kissing me?” she more told him than asked.

Zeus gave a coy smile “Oh, I thought that was only meant for when I kissed you on the lips! Terribly sorry!” he said, smirking “May I kiss you again~?” 

~~~~~~~

Later that night, in Carmine’s apartment, Gladiolus was not a happy familiar. He was pacing back and forth in the living room, clearly in a huff, as Carmine sat on the couch in her pajamas, writing away on a notepad. The ferret finally stopped pacing, looking at Carmine.

‘Why do you let him get away with it?!’ he asked for about the tenth time that night.

“Because he doesn’t mean anything by it Gladiolus. He’s a flirt, once he sees that he doesn’t get a reaction from me, he’ll stop.” Carmine stated simply, not looking up from her notepad as she wrote. “It was just a kiss on the jaw.”

‘Which is a very intimate place and you know that!’ the ferret chirped back. ‘This is why I should be with you at work! Than this kind of thing would happen-’

“Gladiolus.” Carmine interrupted him, looking at her familiar who looked straight back. “... This isn’t like when I was a teenager and Dustin Northcott wouldn’t take no for an answer. I’ve spoken with Adrien about Zeus and he has assured me that although Zeus is a flirt, and somewhat of a perve, that if he won’t cross any lines ones they are drawn, and currently he hasn’t crossed any of mine.” she told him. 

Gladiolus didn’t utter a word, simply slowly crawling over to and climbing onto the couch to sit next to her. Carmine gave him a soft smile, gently bringing her hand up to gently pet this side of his furry face with her knuckles “... I’m not some fragile flower that needs to be guarded Gladiolus. I know when I need you, you are just a thought away, you will always be the first one I call when I need help. No one could replace you.” she said, smiling softly. 

Gladio glanced at her, a flash of light occurring as he transformed into his human form. He gently linked fingers with her, brining her hand to his lips as he placed a soft kiss on it “I know… Still hate the guy.” 

Carmine smiled at him warmly “I know, but try to play nice.” Carmine insisted, the familiar only rolling his eyes as he placed his chin on her shoulder.

“What are you writing anyway?”

“Well, this is some new information that was gathered about Hawkmoth…”

[ship-ambrosia]

Heavens Bringer, part 5

Can you believe this idea started out as a one-shot? Yeah, me neither! Here it is, the final chapter of Heavens Bringer! I’m so proud, and relieved it’s done, but thanks to everyone who read this! Not only is it my first big multi chapter fic, but it’s also been a blatant showcase for the type of writing I’ve really been practicing - action and fights. This is the shippy chapter though, fair warning. I wanna dedicate the nalu to @a-fairy-tail44, the gale to @mountain-c (even though you cant read it yet boo), the jerza of course to @sweetmemories2606, little taste of albis to @allie-and-her-fandoms, the gruvia to both of them, and the kinabra to myself~ I’ve gotten a lot of new followers recently however, especially since posting the last chapter, so I’m leaving the link to Heavens Bringer on AO3 both this chapter and chapter 1. Chapter 1 Chapter 5

  Demons were powerful beings, that was undeniable. But this was at the loss of a sense of caring, honor, or will. The instant that Keyes recognized those mortals he had so amusedly looked down upon had backed him into a corner, he began to crumble.   “You foolish, weak humans!” He growled, though he stepped back as Jellal narrowed his gaze at him. “When will you learn to quit when faced with overwhelming, superior strength?”   “There is no such thing to Fairy Tail!” Erza yelled, having re-equipped into her Adaraxia Blade Wing armor. The impressive swords that made up her wings fanned out around her as she stepped up next to Jellal. “When we stand together, we overcome anyone who calls themselves our enemy! Haven’t you learned that by now?”   “We beat your ass once back in the war between us and Tartaros, so really this shouldn’t have come as a surprise,” It was Gray who was the first to step forward. Though his chest rose and fell at an elevated pace expressing his exhaustion, he still looked willing to fight some more. “Even if you’ve gotten stronger, you’re still alone. Natsu and the other dragon slayers proved the will of your heart combined with those around you can overcome any amount of power when they beat Acnologia.”   Keyes followed Jellal’s gaze, where the resurrected body of Hades was finally fading away into nothing. With Levy’s enchantment negating his demonic powers, his seemingly-permanent Necromancy curse had also finally been canceled out.  “We’re gonna end this now! For real this time!” Natsu slammed his fist into the ground, a burst of flame erupting once again from the impact. “I’m sending you straight back to the Book of Zeref!”  From around him, a blazing dance of flames rushed at the demon, congregating into a single pillar that consumed Keyes in a brilliant display of magical power. Wordlessly, Gray created a bow of ice just as he had when they fought Mard Geer, and the excellent marksman that he was, saw his demon-slaying arrow fly true. Erza spread her arms, and her wing blades all at once converged on him.  “We still need more magic? Damn!” Gray grunted in dissatisfaction.  “That’s fine, leave it to me,” he turned back just in time to see Jellal take off into the sky once again using Meteor, darting across the sky in a familiar pattern as he drew magic circles at his breakneck speed.  “May you be judged by the seven stars of the heavens!” Jellal’s voice echoed through the courtyard with iron-clad conviction while casting the spell he was most recognized for. “Grand Chariot!”  The intensity, the measure of Fairy Tail’s combined hearts beating as one, finally was too much for Keyes to take and Jellal’s Heavenly Body magic, as the one to start the fight, was also the one to end it. The Demon Gate let out a roar of agony, but instead of dissipating into smoke this time, melted into the ground as shadows before they too, scattered and disappeared under the light.   Each wizard could feel it in their chest as the bane particles ceased to exist with the demon who had created them. Despite this, a silence hung over the courtyard as the walls of Levy’s enchantment came down, as if they still couldn’t believe everything that had just occurred.  “Oh my gosh! You guys! Natsu! Gray! Erza!” A young voice suddenly called from the sky, breaking the silence. “Gajeel! Are you all okay? Jellal! Erik!”  Jellal rose his head at his name and spotted three silhouettes with wings descending from the sky. Wendy was the first to land, having been the one who yelled for them. Carla appeared beside her as the other two wizards landed. To everyone’s surprise, it was Lyon and Chelia of Lamia Scale who joined her, carried by Pantherlily and Happy respectively.  “Natsuuuuuuuu!” Happy wailed, rocketing himself like a missile into Natsu’s chest, sobbing.  “Hey little buddy. You’re okay!” He exclaimed. “I was starting to get worried about where you were!”  “What do you mean ‘starting’? Natsu, you’re so mean!”  “Lyon!” Meredy exclaimed, a comically exaggerated blush had appeared on her face when she realized he was standing in front of her. “Wh-what are you and Chelia doing here?” She shot Erik a glare and elbowed him hard when the dragon slayer began chuckling beside her.  “Carla, Happy, Lily and I got away when Hades first started attacking the guild,” Wendy explained to the confused, battered wizards as she and Chelia dispersed to heal the injured members of Fairy Tail. “We flew to Lamia Scale because I knew Chelia could help me heal everyone, and I thought Lyon might be able to help fight him off.”  “I’m quite relieved to see you no longer need my assistance,” Lamia Scale’s ace wizard replied while still looking at Meredy, before his attention was diverted to his rival ice mage and brother. “You too, Gray. I can’t help but get worried about you, my little brother. Especially when Juvia is unable to help you.”  “Shut up,” Gray grunted, but the smile on his face gave away his true feelings. He turned back to the glacier holding her, Laxus, and the Thunder Legion, pushing both of his palms against the ice as he worked to take it down.  “Gray, what is this?” Lyon asked, studying the ice as he walked up beside him. “I’ve never seen anything like it,” it was then he noticed the wizards suspended within it, noticeably the water mage who was carrying Gray’s child and whom he previously also had feelings for, and his expression hardened. “Why is Juvia in there? Did Hades do this?”  “No, I did,” Gray huffed. “It’s some sort of healing ice. It protected them from bane particles and caused them to regain consciousness. I still have no idea how I did it. Keyes tried to attack Juvia... and I just remember feeling furious, that I couldn’t let him touch her.”  “Keyes?” He echoed in confusion.  “That’s right,” Jellal grunted, from where Wendy was working on healing his injuries. Levy was also casting another ‘PURIFY’ solid script over the group for good measure. “It was Keyes who attacked Fairy Tail. The Hades we fought was just a reanimated version of the true Grimoire Heart master. Hades is still dead.”  “I thought all of Tartaros was gone! Especially Keyes. Juvia killed him,” Wendy was shocked to hear the news as well.  “Yes, but he said it was because of Zeref’s death that he was able to use Necromancy to revive himself,” Erza answered. “Hopefully now he stays that way.”  With a sound somewhere between crumbling rock and shattering glass, the icy cocoon protecting the wizards within it opened. The onlooking group watched in awe as Laxus and his Thunder Legion appeared, unscathed, as Laxus reached up to help the three of them down off the ice.  And all the gathered fairies watched as Juvia slumped forward into Gray’s chest, who had already been rushing to meet her the moment he opened the glacier he’d put her in. She looked up to him, smiling as Gray shifted his arms to slip one under her knees and lift her off the ground.  “Wendy, will you check her out for me?” He called down to the dragon slayer with some desperation. “Can you make sure Juvia and the baby are okay?”  “Of course!” She waved back at him. In response, Gray slid back down the ice with her before letting her down back on her feet at the bottom.  Juvia reaches up and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek, whispering something in Gray’s ear that caused both him and Wendy - who had been standing nearby, along with her enhanced dragon slaying hearing and perpetual bad luck in always overhearing the wrong things - to blush across the entire width of their faces. She smiled innocently at him as Wendy nervously got to work.  Jellal let out a bit of a chuckle, watching as the rest of his guildmates gained their wits again, reuniting with relief for one another. Gajeel and Levy had joined back up with Lily, and all three were gathered around Jet and Droy as they came to. The Strauss siblings had joined Laxus and the Thunder Legion not long after they all woke up, with both Mira and Lisanna beginning to examine the group’s injuries.  He saw as Erza made her way toward the doors of the guild hall where Alzack and Bisca had appeared, the former cradling their daughter in his arms. Asuka was still unconscious from having what little magic was in her drained from her body, but because neither parent looked extremely worried he figured she must be okay, perhaps even just sleeping after waking from the whole ordeal. It was a moment of relief for all who had experienced the pure terror Keyes had subjected them to, as life had been breathed back into Fairy Tail.  “Damn it’s loud again,” Jellal turned when he heard Erik speaking, and he saw the dragon slayer and Meredy nearing him.  “Oh stop pretending like you aren’t happy everyone is all right,” the petite wizard scolded him.  Erik yawned, indicating he was purposefully ignoring her statement. “Even though it’s loud again, I can still hear what you‘re thinking, pinky. Why don’t you go talk to Lyon instead of bothering me with both your lovesick voice and thoughts? It’s too bad he didn’t get to play hero for you, huh? Although, I must say you’ve got quite the imagination.”  She blushed again. “H-hey, that’s...! You’re horrible! Agh, get out of my head you ass!”  He rolled his eyes and looked to Jellal, a look of bored annoyance on his face. “Look, if we’re done here Jellal, I’m just gonna-“  “Erik!” His composure, however, was caught off by the sharp cry of his name that also echoed from the guild hall entrance. And there stood Kinana, the very sight of her which immediately stripped his indifferent facade away.  “Kinana...” he gasped, and Jellal couldn’t help but chuckle at him too, as his mind seemed to instantly stop, relief flooding his face so quickly that the Poison Dragon Slayer looked as though he were about to cry. The next instant she had crossed the courtyard and flung herself into his arms, nearly knocking Erik over in the process. He held her tightly though, wrapping a hand around to cradle the back of her head like he couldn’t believe she was all right.  “You’re okay... you’re safe...” he was mumbling. “Kinana...”  Meredy rolled her eyes and continued over to Jellal’s side. “Can you believe him? Such a softie when it comes to her.”  Jellal smirked and turned his gaze to her. He was about to ask her if she was all right when a sudden ignition of flames erupted from where Natsu stood. Surrounded by so many reuniting couples, it was blatantly obvious what had him so upset when Jellal realized there were still two members of Fairy Tail who were not amongst the joyful crowd.  “Lucy!” Natsu’s despairing exclamation immediately darkened the mood of the celebrating guild members. “Where’s Lucy? And Cana?!”  When no answer came, only stunned realization from his friends, Natsu whipped around to glare at all of them. “We defeated Keyes, right? His curses should be broken too! Whatever he did to them, shouldn’t they be safe now?!”  “Calm down man-“ Gray started, but was cut off by another furious eruption of flames from the dragon slayer. Instinctively, he pushed Juvia back.  “How can I calm down when I still don’t know where Lucy is?!” He roared, causing the air around him to heat up and expand, his guildmates groaning in protest. “I promised to always protect her, and I did it, didn’t I? No... I fought Keyes with everything I had to bring her back, and it still wasn’t enough.”  When no one responded again, his shoulder slumped forward and the heat suddenly disappeared. “I-I promised,” This time when he spoke, his voice had dropped and he had never sounded more defeated. “I promised... I would tell her today.”  Upon realizing what he meant, Erza’s eyes widened. “Natsu...”  Despite being forced by Gray to stand behind him, Juvia pushed past her boyfriend and was the first to approach Natsu. She placed a cool hand on his shoulder, the effect instantaneous as all the tension began to disappear from his body, leaving him trembling. He rested his forehead on the water mage’s shoulder, pushing his nose into her. Happy, who had started to cry, flew over and landed on Natsu, clutching tightly as he sobbed for their missing partner.  “I- I’ve never seen him like this before,” Gray mumbled in somewhat of a state of shock. He knew the extent of Natsu’s feelings for Lucy, but he had never expected to see him so distraught.  “Could Keyes have done something to them that wasn’t a curse?” Erza wondered aloud. “But even then, wouldn’t anything he have done been canceled out when he was slain?”  “Yes,” Jellal drew their attention upwards with his face to the sky. “It just took some time to be undone. Look.”  A crack ran across the clouds itself, much like it had when the dragon slayers fell from the ethernano dimension just outside theirs after defeating Acnologia. The very fabric of time and space, opening up as Keyes’s power completely and finitely faded from the world.  And from that crack came the screams of two girls as they plummeted from their inter-dimensional prison. One brunette and one blonde, the members of Fairy Tail who had been missing when Jellal and his team had arrived. While most of the group on the ground were stunned by their sudden arrival, two of the wizards leapt into action.  “Lucy!” Cana shrieked, reaching for her friend, but the two of them separated quite quickly in free fall.  “Happy!” Natsu exclaimed desperately, and his partner gave an intensely gleeful ‘Aye, sir!’ as he spread his wings and pulled Natsu from the ground. The combination of Exceed and dragon slayer, familiar in its own right, rocketed through the sky toward Lucy faster than anyone had seen either of her boys move. Natsu plucked his partner out of her free fall effortlessly, and Happy was already a mess of emotions when he set them both on the ground gently.  Lucy screamed and gasped all at once, in shock that it was all over so suddenly. She stared up at her partner for a moment in silence before speaking, her voice trembling.  “Natsu...?” She sounded as though she didn’t believe it was really him.  At the sound of her voice, the tears that had been so close to falling, that had threatened him before spilled forth silently. But there was a smile on Natsu’s face, a smile of so many emotions all at once. Relief. Guilt. Anger. Frustration. Protectiveness. Love.  He placed a hand on the top of her head, reminiscent of the gesture he had once offered the Lucy of the future during the events before the dragons descended upon Crocus. And he pressed his forehead against hers as he closed his eyes and revelled in having her so close to him once again.  “Lucy,” was all he whispered, before she too, crumbled into tears.  It was Jellal who rushed to catch Cana before she struck the ground. With no Exceed to take him into the sky, Jellal positioned himself beneath her; he crouched, leaning his hand down in preparation as he gathered the little magical power that had returned to him.  And then instantly Jellal sprang up, surrounded by the blinding light of his magic. Like a celestial body, he swiftly met Cana in the sky and landed with the Cards Mage safe in his arms. As quickly as the moment had occurred, it was over and relief flooded his face with both Lucy and Cana finally safe.  “Thanks, big guy,” Cana planted a kiss on his cheek, which left Jellal stunned. “But ya might wanna put me down, wouldn’t want to make Erza jealous would we?”  With his face turning the shade of the aforementioned wizard’s hair, Jellal gently set Cana down on her feet.  As the guild took that cue to surround both girls and tears were shed, Jellal couldn’t help but realize he would’ve never felt like he did now if he hadn’t joined Fairy Tail. It was pride, but a pride that burst forward as magical power over the family that was their guild. His eyes settled on the flash of scarlet that wrapped around Lucy and shoved Natsu out of the way. He had protected this family.  It was a guild - a family - that he now belonged to.

~  “We do have something very serious to discuss, however,” Erza spoke authoritatively to the guildmates before her. Once the tearful reunions with Lucy and Cana and the rest of the guild had been calmed down, the wizards had all moved back inside Fairy Tail and several of them had left to fetch Porlyusica. “And that would be the information Keyes told us about why he had attacked our guild in such a manner.”  Erza had then gathered a group of the wizards who had been involved in the incident, including those present at the guild who had learned the secret of the Fairy Tail previously.  “Right, that there is a new Fairy Heart amongst our members, which someone could potentially use to create another Lumen Histoire,” Levy agreed.  “It troubles me as to how Keyes would have come across such information,” Jellal muttered darkly, his face concerned. “And how he even knew what the Lumen Histoire was. He believed that Lucy or Cana have the same abilities as the first master, because they’ve both learned one of the sacred Fairy spells of the guild.”  “But didn’t that happen because Master Mavis had the Ankhseram curse cast on her?” Gray crossed his arms. “She was immortal, but was left somewhere between alive and dead because Zeref’s curse had been around far longer, and was stronger than hers, and also because he loved her but she hadn’t returned that same love for him. That’s what we learned from Master Mavis and Zeref during the fight against Alvarez. The curse of Contradiction worked on another immortal because she was the one he felt for most in the world.”  “Realistically, he couldn’t make another Lumen Histoire with Cana or Lucy even if they were the next Fairy Heart either, because neither of them had the curse set upon them,” Mira expressed softly. “And I don’t think that curse is something you could force upon someone. It seems to me the person themselves has to wish to defy death or the cycle of life. Brainwashing, or mind control, that wouldn’t change the fact that the target wouldn't truly feel the way that makes Ankhseram punish people.”  “I think we’re giving Keyes too much credit,” Erza answered. “I can’t imagine he had the entirety of his attack planned out. If I had to guess, this is what he knew:  One, that Fairy Tail was hiding the secret of the Lumen Histoire. The only explanation for this would be Zeref telling him at some point, or he heard it from one of the Spriggan 12. Two, that the Lumen Histoire is created from a member of our a guild. Three, Mavis could perform all three of the Fairy Spells, and only passed down Fairy Law. No one besides her has ever used Fairy Glitter or Fairy Sphere, until Cana and Lucy,” She gritted her teeth. “I think he was going on a whim with what he was going to do to Cana and Lucy. He had no idea how to make them into the Lumen Histoire, only believing that one of them has the potential for it.”  “But we have no way of knowing which one it could be,” Gajeel pointed out grimly.  “Is there any proof that one of them is it at all?” Erik suggested with a cynical sigh. “Or are people just gonna keep coming after them for no reason?”  Jellal was especially disturbed by this thought as he glanced at Erza.  There was the soft sound of whimpering, which drew everyone’s attention. It was Lucy, trying desperately to hide the tears that were coming down her face. Every member gathered there understood why. Both she and Cana had described the dimension that Keyes had locked them in. The unending darkness had made time stretch on forever. If they hadn’t had he each other - grasping hands the entire time so as not to float apart - they could’ve easily been driven insane. Undoubtedly, she was upset over the thought of having to go through something even remotely like that again. That the lust for power was so great in some people, some dark wizards or corrupted masters or something of the like, that there was a very real possibility of having to endure worse. Though she was already tucked against him, Natsu pulled his partner in closer to comfort her. Jellal sighed. “Unfortunately, I don’t really think there’s a way of determining which of them it is, or if either Cana or Lucy are truly the Fairy Heart.”  “You’re kidding right? It’s obviously Lucy,” Cana got on her feet, leaning over the table. Everyone’s attention immediately went to her. “And I’d bet she really is the new Fairy Heart! There’s no one else who’s ever been in Fairy Tail more similar to Mavis Vermilion than her. Not only did Lucy use Fairy Sphere against Acnologia, which is what made her the target, but she loves Fairy Tail more than anyone else I could ever know. She believes in Fairy Tail more than anyone else. Remember during the end of the Battle of Fairy Tail, when everyone was arguing, yelling at each other even while Gray made it apparent that we were running out of time?” She threw her thumb in the direction of Lucy. “She was the only one who rallied everybody, because even though she hadn’t been in our guild all that long, she loved it more than all of us back then. She showed us all up, I even remember Macao congratulating her on getting all our heads out of our asses. During our war against Tartaros, she saved all of us by herself! And after the guild broke up... she kept track of everyone, was the only one willing to reach out and ask everyone to return to our home. She barely knew me as more than a guildmate, no where near the level at which she knew Natsu and Gray, and yet she partnered up with me against them for the S-class trials on Tenrou Island. We might’ve ended up fighting Freed and Bickslow, but we could’ve very well been put up against Natsu and Happy, her damn partners! Lucy went against them for me, because I asked her! Because I needed her help!”  When no one said a word, Cana sneered and crossed her arms, continuing her point. “This isn’t about just the damn spells... what makes Lucy the Fairy Heart, what makes the Lumen Histoire such a powerful weapon... is the love she has for the guild. No one alive loves Fairy Tail like Lucy Heartfilia.”  The aforementioned female stared in shock at her friend, listening to her long speech. After a while, she drew in a shaky breath. “You’re right... I love Fairy Tail more than anything. But that makes everything so much more painful,” her voice was soft, but when she spoke again it got even quieter. Jellal had to strain his ears to hear her. “If I’m the new Fairy Heart, then I’m putting everyone in danger by being with the guild.”   Immediately, everyone around the table began to protest. Even Jellal himself; Lucy had been part of the light that saved him, too. He’d just as quickly put himself between her and danger as he would Erik or Meredy. The protests seemed to only hurt Lucy more, however, as he saw her bite her lip, holding back something whether that be tears or anger. He understood her frustration. She didn’t ask for this. When Lucy joined Fairy Tail, she wanted a family that she could live with, laugh with, love so wholeheartedly and where she could be herself; none of them could anticipate it would only lead to making her a target for those who might learn of the Lumen Histoire.   Natsu got to his feet, instantly silencing everyone. Lucy looked up to him, and in that moment Jellal wasn’t sure what they communicated to one another but he saw Lucy’s eyes widen. Her partner clenched his fists, and Jellal was almost worried he would burst into flames just as quickly as he had while fighting Keyes - he looked so furious.  “After everything, we would never give you up Lucy,” Natsu answered through gritted teeth. “We wouldn’t do it back against Phantom Lord, and we sure as hell wouldn’t do it now. If anyone other than you even suggested it, I’d torch them on the spot!”  Lucy looked down to her lap, smiling gently to herself. “You’re right, Natsu... I shouldn’t have even thought of it. I would never want to leave, I... will always fight to protect Fairy Tail.”  The group of wizards were silent for a moment, until Erza cleared her throat.  “We’ll have to be extra vigilant in who knows this information,” she concluded. “The secret of the Lumen Histoire was exposed by Zeref, but that doesn’t mean people have to know it can be created again. And, if at all possible, I’d like to keep the people who know Lucy is the new Fairy Heart to those present in this room.”  “I’m the new secret of Fairy Tail,” Lucy said softly. “But I can’t promise that I won’t give myself up if something like this happens again. This guild means everything to me. My family means everything, and you all got hurt because of my love for Fairy Tail.”  “And we love you too, Lucy,” Mira answered in her melodically sweet voice, reaching over and putting her hand on top of Lucy’s on the table. “That’s why we won’t let you do anything like that.”   “You really are just like Master Mavis, Lu,” Levy shook her head. “Willing to do anything to protect the guild. You’re more important than the secret. You’re our family.”   “I suppose we’ll just have to protect Lucy from anyone who might come looking for the Fairy Heart,” Jellal smirked, looking at the dragon slayer beside her. “Think you can handle that?”  Natsu clenched his fists at his side. “I’d already do that. No one’s ever getting through me.”  Lucy got to her feet, grabbing his arm. Natsu looked down at her for a moment, and for the first time his expression softened. When he spoke again, the same determination was there, but his voice was gentle.  “No one’s ever gonna hurt Lucy again.”

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 “You should be celebrating with everyone else, Jellal.”  Jellal broke his gaze from watching the other members of the guild. He was particularly unable to keep his eyes away from the dragon slayer and his celestial wizard, who couldn’t have separated for more than a few minutes since being reunited. He looked up to see the source of his strength, the brightest beacon of hope in his life, join his side. Erza gave him a sly smile.  He groaned and leaned back against his hands. “Nah, think I’ll leave the celebrating for the people who weren’t at the real party. Wendy’s magic is getting better and better all the time, but I’m still almost too exhausted to stay awake.”  “Hm, you could lean on me then. I don’t mind,” he heard her laugh.  Jellal made a slight guffaw in protest. “Are you making fun of me?”  “Hardly. I don’t think anyone fought more than you did. Natsu and Gray might have fueled their magic with their fury, but there was one point at the beginning where you were the only thing standing between Keyes and our guild.”  “They were driven like that because Keyes had hurt the girls they love,” Jellal glanced up at her. “I was furious like that too, at first. When I saw you had been hurt.”  There it was, that sweet blush she did that he found so endearing. Erza was always so confident, but he found she shied away a bit when he was as open with his feelings as he wanted to be. His smile widened a bit more when he felt her take his hand.  Jellal looked back toward the guild again, toward the wizards he had been watching before.  “I’m sorta disappointed. I thought Natsu would’ve taken the opportunity I gave him to confess how he feels to Lucy like he said he was going to. So he chickened out in the end, did he?”  “I knew he wouldn’t be able to after that,” Erza spoke fondly of her guildmate. “It seemed like the perfect moment of course, especially after what Lucy said about leaving Fairy Tail to make sure no one gets hurt again. But Natsu has never been one to do things the same way other people do. I think it’ll happen either in the middle of a guild brawl or while he’s on a job with her, just the two of them.”  He chuckled. “Still, it would’ve been something rather nice for the guild to celebrate after the day we’ve had.”  “We are celebrating; that everyone is safe now. Besides, I can’t imagine Lucy is completely unaware of how he feels,” she continued. “When Natsu first confided in Gray and I that he had feelings for her, he actually wasn’t that bad at hiding it. However, as time went on he became more obvious and once Mira knew pretty much the entire guild did. So I think that Lucy has at least some idea.”  He turned his attention toward the two of them again, where Natsu sat next to Lucy with his arm around her shoulders as he argued with Gray. His rival was sitting with an arm drawn around Juvia’s waist. Honestly the only difference Jellal could see between the two pairs was that one was dating and expecting a baby.  “Lucy isn’t exactly subtle with how she feels either, but Natsu isn’t well versed in social cues like that,” Erza noted with a smirk.  “Unbelievable,” he shook his head. “They both told you, and you aren’t going to do a thing about it?  “I intend to let it happen naturally.”  Once again shaking his head at Erza’s answer, he waited a moment before speaking again.  “She’s his strength... just like you are mine.”  Erza stumbled over her words in response, but Jellal didn’t even notice as he sat up, brushing his hand over her cheek. But he kept going, leaning over and  stealing a kiss from her.  When he pulled back, her face matched her hair and there was a dreamy look in her eyes. It never mattered whether she was in the middle of a fight, scolding Natsu and Gray for their antics, or simply caught flustered in a moment like this; she was always the most beautiful woman in the world to him. It was almost embarrassing how much he was enamored with her, if Jellal wasn’t completely sure of himself and their relationship. All was well - perfect, even - until Erza gathered her bearings again.  “Shouldn’t you not be kissing other woman, lest your fiancée finds out?”  Jellal choked on the very air. “Are you ever going let me forget about that?”  “Not for a little longer,” she teased, before boldly returning the gesture.

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     So @maskedl0ve and I did a shippy questionnaire thing for our two muses. It was very fun and hilarious! Especially since they aren’t even dating. Basically Link found this girly magazine with dating questions in it and he dragged Claus along to answer them with him.

I encourage you and your ship partner to do it too!

What was your first impression of me?

Link: Hmm...lemme see. Ya seemed so skeptical! Dunno if it's 'cause I look different or my enthusiasm...Either way, ya looked cute uvu ♡ Claus: Well....i was cautious, to say the least...I wasn’t used to anyone greeting me the way you did, much less a complete stranger...I thought you were teasing me or mocking me, or that you wanted something out of me. So I guess my first impression was just ‘Who are you and why are you acting that way?’ he feels a tad guilty now rip

How accurate do you now think it was? On which counts do you think you were totally wrong and on which were you right?

Claus: Wrong on pretty much all accounts. You weren’t teasing me or mocking me or trying to gain my trust so you could manipulate me. You actually...did want to be my friend. Despite what I looked like you were genuinely happy to meet me...I guess that’s a way to describe you, you’re genuine and kind and caring and brave, the opposite of what I was afraid you might be. Link: Aww that's sweet! Yo're no longer skeptical 'bout me maybe the choices I make buh might point still stands, yo're still cute

What is your idea of a truly romantic evening?

Link: I dunno...Claus, do ya wanna take a romantic nap with me? Claus: Uh...I dunno how a romantic nap would work but...sure, that sounds good to me. I cant think of anything fancy for a ‘romantic’ evening anyway...just eating a cozy dinner and then resting

If I promise not to get upset, can you tell me something that you'd like to change in me but don't have the nerve to tell me?

Claus: STOP BEING SO RECKLESS. PLEASE STOP PUTTING YOURSELF IN DANGER FOR ME. And please, tell me when something is wrong...okay..? Link: ...haha....No promises ;3 buh somethin' I would change? Gosh...I wish ya would smile more!

Apart from the most obvious one, which other two areas of your body are the most sensitive and responsive?

Link: O-oh...I can't say my ears? U-uh...my stomach 'n'.... he's too embarrassed to say the second one Claus: S-Sensitive and responsive??? UHH— I don’t kNOW??? A lot of my body is mechanical and for the rest of my body...I don’t know???????? Distress.png

Which three parts of my body are your personal favourites and why?

Link: 👀 Claus: U H............ blushing d-do I have to..? I-- uuughhh. well....I guess....Your eyes, your hair, and your smile...does a smile count? I-I don't know...A-AND STOP STARING AT ME LIKE THAT! Link: Very flattered Aww those are my favorite too! Actually, I love all of ya! Buh...if I MUST pick three, it'll be yo'r hair, eyes 'n' freckles! Oh I love yo'r freckles! They're like stars!!! ♡

Which is your dream destination and why?

Claus: is blushy from the last thing dream destination..? Um...I dunno...sorry Link: Trick question! 'Cause I don' got a dream destination. I wanna keep explorin' everythin'! Aaaaa, I nevah wanna be at a point where I have walked every inch of th's earth. Findin' new Hyrule 's a good enough answer too, I guess.

Which fruit/vegetable do you think I resemble and why?

Link: Either a carrot, for obvious reasons or a pepper. Angriest lil vegetable Claus: s t a r e s ....honestly, I dunno again. I guess a pineapple? I don't really think it resembles you but it's the first thing I think of when I have to think "Link and fruit” Link: I was expectin' ya ta call me somethin' green, buh pineapple works too

Can you remember your earliest childhood memory of happiness and that of fear?

Claus: goes dead silent ..... he lowers his gaze ...i don't know if i remember my earliest memory of happiness...but......of fear..? ......yes..... Link: .... these aren't very romantic.... Claus: yeah....

Your favourite aunt/uncle/cousin and why?

Link: Don' have any :/ Claus: neither do I....

If I discover you lying to me, what will be your reaction?

Claus:.................... his expression is actually pained. I'm sorry........ Link: Ah.... he looks pretty hurt too. I'd also say sorry.... 'n' ....It was for t-the better ehehe.... otherwise, I'm terrible at lyin' Claus: is dead silent w e lp

What are the qualities that draw you to people that you can base a friendship on?

Link: Not tryin' ta kill me????? I GUESS?¿ Claus: I keep saying I don't know for these questions but... I don't know. I'm not exactly...the best at making friends. and he doesn't exactly feel worthy of having friends rip

Your first crush – what drew you to her/him?

Link: Funny story 'bout that. After I left my home island the world was so much bigger. I saw so many new thin's...in other words, I liked them 'cause they were someone not on my island Claus: fidgets .....um.....well....he uh.....he...despite what I was he...cared about me, even when being shown what i was, what I could do, he cared about me and tried to make me happy...he wasn't afraid of me... looks to the side Link: He sounds nice !!

How would you characterize a perfect girlfriend?

Claus: y-yeah.... STILL TRYING TO HIDE FACT RIP but uh-- now this question um... i don't know..? wow i keep saying that... someone just...nice and caring, someone who won't be afraid of me or won't hate me, someone who...despite everything about me won't...think i'm a freak....someone who i can be around and...not be afraid..? Link: gasp Claus!!! If I wore a dress ‘n’ said I was a girl, can qualify for yo'r girlfriend? 👀 Claus: WHA--!? S-STOP THAT! Link: laughs Ya didn' say no~! Okay...buh no one 's perfect so I cannot answer th's question u-u

Your first date – where did you go, what did you do and how long did the relationship last?

Link: Never been on one! I'm probably way too much ta handle as a date too, haha. Claus: never been on one too.... just looking to the side

In your next life, would you want to be my lover once again?

Claus: falls silent ......... in a next life..? ....in my next life...I hope I can meet you without all these broken pieces... and maybe...I'd be able to smile a lot more for you... Link: for once, he's blushing O-oh...ya know, I like ya jus' the way ya are now, right? I wouldn't want ya ta change. Buh, 'ae...it would be really nice ta see ya again...who knows what kind of dummy I'd be then. Claus: blinks a bit when he sees Link blushing. Honestly, he does want to change...he wants to be different, he wants to be better, he wants to be able to breathe without always feeling like there's some weight crushing him. He wants to meet Link like how he was before he had his world shattered. He wants to be someone who could maybe admit what he feels without feeling severe guilt... of course, he's not gonna say a word of this... Well, if you end up similar to how you are now, then I'm certain I'd be happy to meet you again Link: AHDJENTEKSK N-NEXT QUESTION He is red oh lord

If you were asked whom you would like to be born again as, the answer would be…

Link: I-I can answer th's for Claus! He'd be a dog again! Claus: HEY! I ALREADY TOLD YOU I WAS NOT A DOG! The teeth aren't natural. crosses his arms and frowns a bit Link: HOW DO YA KNOW? Actually...! Ya act more like a gruffly cat more than anything. They might not be real buh they fit! Claus: groans If my teeth aren't natural then that means it's not linked to ''''whatever I was in my past life'''' Link: Fine. Next question :T

Would you like to enjoy a bath with me amidst the yellow and pink rose petals?

Link: wiggles eyebrows Claus: N O Link: Baaaaaby why do ya gotta break my heart like thaaaaaat? fake cries Claus: NEXT QUESTION!

Can you narrate to me your proudest moment? plus fake sobbing between the question

Claus: U H......U H HE ACTUALLY DOESNT KNOW HELP Link: ...Well for me it was fi--- keep it vague climbin' up th's suuuuuuper big tower! So high it probably touched the clouds! No one really believed in me makin' it all the way up. Buh I did it! Aw man, I wanna do that again sometime.

Which is your favourite flavour of ice cream, your favourite junk food and your favourite dessert?

Link: Rocky road! Claus: hmm...I guess I'd have to say...sherbet? Junk food though....I can't really eat that much anymore without getting sick....I do like french fries though so maybe that? And my favorite dessert....I don't know. Link: Yo're so unsure of yo'reself

Do you feel alone, when I'm not around?

Claus: uhm......depends... Link: mmm...'s lonely out sailin' all the time. Go without seeing people for days. So...in a way, yes, I feel alone

What has been your scariest dream? Which has been your most frequently recurring one?

Link: U-uh.... looks away I'd prefer not ta share...sorry, Claus. Claus: ..............I'm....not sharing either.........

Which has been the best decision you ever made?

Link: Leavin' home to save my sistah, definitely. Claus: U h...... DOESNT KNOW ONCE AGAIN ...........there's....one, maybe but....I don't want to say it

Which is the decision you regret the most?

Link: ears lower Mmm...I wish I grabbed his hand...I could have....I could...have...everythin' would be different... Claus: his expression becomes pained and he watches Link. He's silent and starts to reach a hand towards Link but seems to hesitate a little. ....... moves his hand back into his lap I'm sorry, Link... Link: hes holding out his left hand while the right holds it and rubs his palm with the thumb 's fine... looks at Claus with a pained smile Guess ya can't always help someone...I did my best though. Claus: he looks sad, though he gives a small nod yeah...you did everything you could, that's what matters...

If you won the lottery, what are the first three things you would do and which are the five things you've been most longing for, that you would buy?

Claus: There's not really much that I want that money could buy...I would more than likely either give the money to my family and friends. Link: Aw that 's sweet! I was also gonna say that. I have everythin' I want 'n' money 'sn't what I'm after. So I spend it on people I love~

If your house was on fire and you had a chance to grab only five things before leaving, they would be…

Link: Easy. My photobook, Puko 'n' my family shield. Claus: As long as dad, Lucas, and Boney are safe. .....My jetpack, maybe the book I'm reading and....and.... he trails off, looking to the side The scrap of mom's dress.... Link: .... doesn't say anything, just stares at the magazine with a sad expression

What can you cook for me?

Link: I'm not the best at cookin' buh I can cook fish at least? Do ya like fish? I can make fish 'n' put a lemon slice on top of it. Claus: I...don't really know how to cook...I want to learn though..but I do like fish, so if you ever made it I would like it. Link: 's okay if ya don' know! If ya ever do, ya should let me be your food tester. Buh looks like I gotta make ya some fish the next time I come~

Will you ever doubt me over my loyalty?

Claus: we'll see. I need to learn first. And, a h... hears the next question. This is...hard. It's not that he thinks Link would ever be disloyal, not that he thinks Link is bad, he just...feels like there are so many other people better than himself. People who actually deserve Link... I wouldn't doubt you. but he'd still worry over if Link ever realized just how terrible of a choice he was... Link: Tilts his head at Claus in curiosity...he took a minute to respond, which was a bit worrisome I am glad ya have faith in me! I'm more loyal than yo'r dog. If I could, I'd give ya my whole right arm! 'n' for my answer, no, I don' ever doubt ya. Claus: his lips pull into a thin line and after a few moments he gives a little nod alright. But...please don't give your right arm. It's not a pleasant thing. after all he knows from experience--

The one argument your parents had, that you would try and avoid with your partner, would be over…

Link: ... fiddles with his thumbs mmm...sorry...they...I never seen them fight before. I'll have ta ask the next time I see them...buh, I guess that means I wouldn't want ta argue with ya at all. Partners or not Claus: I...don't know if I remember any arguments my parents had...maybe...playful ones but...I don't remember anything serious... his brows furrow a bit, he seems concerned then he shakes his head a little but, I agree, I don't want to argue with you if I can help it.

Which is your favourite asset/body part on a man/woman and why?

Claus: That-- I uh-- well-- rubs the back of his neck with his left hand I...I guess I'd say the eyes...Eyes are just...nice to look at... Link: The face. I lovd everythin' 'bout someone's face. Says so much 'n' 's the main place ya stare.

The most embarrassing thing that ever happened to you was…

Link: OH NO...NOT SAYIN' Claus: I'm not saying either. Sorry.

If our relationship doesn't work out, do you think we can remain friends? If no, why not?

Link: If our relationship didn't work... looks at Claus, then back at the magazine ...I would want ta...It'll feel weird without ya in my life. I dunno...everythin' 's a lot happier with ya around. he's coyly smiling with a light blush Claus:  blinks and his eyes widen a little bit. He actually looks...surprised ....you're...happier with me around..? Link: looks back at him with a smile 'a-ae! I hope that isn't cheesy. Haha. Ya really did make my life a whole lot funner Claus: ......I... looks down no you don't I'm just... hes just surprised Link actually is...happier with him around... ....I'm happier when you're around too... his cheeks turn a very faint red. Link: !!! YAY Jumps up to hug him, nuzzling cheeks I'm glad! Claus: YELPS, BLUSHING H-HEY--!

Who are you closer to – your mum/dad - and why?

Link: ...My grandma :/ Claus: freezes and goes silent can....can I just skip this question?

What upsets you most in a relationship and what makes you the happiest?

Link: Hmmm.... I dunno, somethin' that would upset me 's arguments. I don' like ta fight. 'n' jus' bein' around that person makes me happy Claus: i think it would be similar for me too. Fighting and the person I care about being hurt.... especially if he's the reason it happens.... and being around the person would probably make me happy.

What is your perception of how people see you? I.e. what do people think when seen you two together?

Link: The perfect duo. Maybe we should change that ta perfect couple Claus: I know what they think when they see me...I don't know what they think when they see us together. But...perfect duo? Are you sure about that link? Link: shrugs I can't read people's minds buh I think we are a fun duo! We make people laugh. Claus: We make people laugh..? actually looks a tad confused and surprised by this. claus...please....stop  doubting that you can actually make people happy Link: Yeeees. 's like yo're the grump that everyone loves 'cause yo're easy ta get worked up 'n' I'm the idiot who makes get that way! Haha

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh feel rly inferior to lesbians AGAIN because they can love women properly and I can’t........ :’)

and literally everything to do with not being attracted to men adds stuff about ‘overcoming internalised homophobia and learning to love women is hard!!’ and ‘but once you realise how great it is to date a woman you’ll never want to go back! :)’ and the like and it’s just..... h aha............

and then there’s this weird subtle resurgency of biphobia on this site where bi women are okay but ONLY IF they hate that they’re attracted to men and constantly put men down and are only attracted to like two men anyway and constantly go on about how much better women are.

ughhhhh it’s just cause my silly happy subaru/hajime post from recently got a like the other day from someone with a bi icon so I got really pleased to come across another cool person in the fandom but literally four posts down theyd reblogged something super aphobic... all about how aces need to be ‘’’’’super careful’’’’ at pride (as tho we’re constantly being homophobic or something) and then when someone got angry and suggested they respect aces in turn they got super fucking mad like that was so unreasonable??? and it especially pisses me off because the ace was literally just talking about overy sexualisation which is literally what exclusionists complain about kink at pride all the time?????

but nooope I literally cant even make happy fluffy shippy posts anymore without being exposed to aphobes. 

and it just makes me so angry and bitter that there’s like NOTHING out there for people like me and yet there are thousands of people on this site getting frothing mad over ‘why are y’all including the asexual flag and not the lesbian one!!!’ when a) the lesbian flag has only existed for like 2 years and almost no-one outside tumblr knows it, b) it was repurposed from the lipstick lesbian flag so plenty of non-femme lesbians don’t like it c) this isn’t a zero sum game... you can include both.........

I just ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! I just wish I could just be a lesbian so fucking much lmfao it would be so much fucking easier just to love girls and not be into dudes and everything would make sense and I would have a place I could actually go to that would at least be mostly inclusive of me (given all the ableism on this site I can’t hope for FULLY but at least I don’t commonly come across people in my likes/reblogs making posts about how they hate all neurodivergent people or whatever lol) and I could know that there was more than like 5% at best of the population that knew what I was and understood and I had a good chance of seeing them expressing them support out there... but at the same time there is sooooo much toxicity in the lesbian community on here right now (not just exclusionists but terfs, anti-sex-workers and anti-porn people, and just straight up women who think oppression against women is the ONLY important oppression and everything else is just inconvenience) so. yeah.

but thinking all that is really mean to the lesbians who are really hurt by all that too... especially ace lesbians....... (tho id still rather be an ace lesbian than whatever i actually am :////)

lmao this is why I was dreading this month. 

[syndianites]

Family

Ship: Syndianite (Tom x S1 Dianite)

Summary: Tom wants to know what happened to his friends and family.

AN: Less shippy, more of a self-indulgence fic. Oh wait, all of these are. This mostly focuses on other people Tom cared about.

He had been meaning to ask for a while now. Giving himself prep talks, hyping himself up, just for the words to be stuck in his throat. Dianite seemed to know what he wanted. But he had to say it first. It wasn’t the first thing on his mind when he woke up. Hell, he hadn’t even remembered them. Now he did.

He remembered his parents, they hadn’t been together for a couple of years, but they were both happy. His older sister, sweet, hardy Alice, she had been engaged. He never got to give the fiancé a shovel talk. Adam had been playing around with his crush, giving him the old Dianitee I love you: Blowing shit up in their name and stealing priceless items for them. Of course, this hadn’t sat well with the Mianitee, but he didn’t seem deterred. Jess was working on picking up a man for herself, held grand dreams of a strong man, one who could rival her, protect her when she was having kids and who she would protect otherwise. His town, so many people, they were just gone. Centuries old.

Nearly a month passed before he was able to ask. Not a month of worrying relentlessly. Wondering if they lived happy lives. If they survived the invasion. If they had missed him. Oh no. He wasn’t that beat up over it. He was just…… curios. Yep. Super fucking curios.

And yet again, he stood there wanting to ask the question, only to distract himself. Avoid it. But he was going to ask. That, and Dia was looking at him expectantly, waiting. Just, words. It’s just words. “Hey, so, um.” Great start. Absolutely fantastic. “What happened to…... what happened to me family?” He finally squeezed the words out. It took far longer than it should have.

Dianite didn’t seem to mind the wait. (He had taken to finding out as much as possible when Tom tried to ask the first time). “Your father died in the same battle as you.” Dianite cringed at the crestfallen look that passed over Tom’s face before being replaced with a hardened expression. “However, it may have you feel better to know he took many more with him. He died valiantly defending the nursing women and children within the church. All but one survived. He was given the title of a hero, just as you had.” Tom’s shoulders released the tension the had taken hold with that information.

“Now your mother,” the god continued,” Lived much longer. She was old and remarried by the time she died, happy to see her great-grandchildren before she passed. Despite her years, she didn’t stop her work as a nurse until a year before her death.” This brought a small smile his champion’s face, however wistful in nature.

“Though you may have gleamed this already, your sister lived a long enough to have children, long enough to see grandchildren, however never saw her great-grandchildren. She had gotten with her fiancé of the time, and Ianitee if you don’t recall, who was surprisingly happy to keep up with her adventurous nature. The two sailed across seas, found new lands, met new people, entered new kingdoms, they saw as much as they could. They eventually settled down in the town you grew up in to raise kids. Alice died to disease at an age younger than your mother, but still lived a bountiful life.”

Tom felt better with that information. Not perfect, it was hard knowing you missed the lives of your loved ones, and he couldn’t bring himself now to ask about his friends, his comrades. Many had died in battle with him. “Perhaps,” Dianite proposed,” We could spy upon your sister’s descendants one day.” That brought a genuine smile onto Tom’s face. “Imagine the chaos they bring about.” He snickered half to himself,” Being related to Allie!”

With a beaming grin, he pulled the god down closer to his height. Standing on his toes, he placed an uncharacteristically shy peck on his lips, as a soft thank you. After a moment, he pulled away. “Is that really the best you can do?” Dianite tossed a smirk to his companion. Tom gave an affronted look, “Well if you weren’t so damn tall!” He laughed, “It won’t matter when you’re on my bed, beloved.”

  (AN 2: I cant write smut~ I cant write smut~ I don’t know how~ To write smut~)

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I don’t know where else to put it, i know i just cant keep it pent up anymore and its hurting me

stuff regarding an old fandom and my anxiety i guess

cw for abuse, drug and suicide mentions

i dont even kknow where to start, i guess when i first joined the fandom that i wont name for personal reasons, like a year or half before joining the dbz rp scene i guess i was just looking for a place to cope because around that time my brother was an extremely heavy drug user and we’ve had an extremely unhealthy and abusive relationship thatd been going on for about 5 years, im not comfortable discussing this out in too much detail publicly

i was skittish and nervous about joining in at first, because everyone seemed so much better like theyd been doing this longer? it was my first real experience in the rp community with like, rules, abouts and other stuff but anyways

it was where i spent most of my time to just...keep everything locked away and ignore my problems. for the most part it was pretty fun and i met a lot of people who emcouraged me and this was back when i wrote like, 6 or 7 paragraph responds, and my writing would improve.

then shipping started happening. it was fun, i had so much fucking fun being happy with my favorite otp and shipping partners. the angst was fun, but i guess thats where it all started to kinda...come out?? i guess

people started like, throwing discourse about there being too much shippy stuff and angst ( we were a fighting video game fandom to give a hint why they were salty but who cares ) and the discourse started becoming more and more apparent. the fandom became more toxic and i guess thats where all my pent up anxiety started to come out

my shipping partner who was close to me become more manipulative and decided to do...unhealthy, abusive threads to spite like, all the discourse about fluff, angst and i wasnt uncomfortable with it bc of the stuff with my brother? and then i started seeing them to other cute fluffy things with someone with the same muse as me and i guess thats where my discomfort with seeing certain pairings come from because it just. reminds me of that partner and im so fucking scared to ship because i dont want people leaving me again, and i understand its perfectly fine to have multiple shipping partners and multiple ships but my anxiety just grew worse and worse over time

more discourse started coming up about people needed mundane things tag and i just, i got so afraid to ask people to tag things and my anxiety grew worse and worse because i was being constantly exposed to things that triggered my anxiety and just

it got so bad where i got constant anon hate for being one of those shippers and id eserve what i got from my brother and it got to the point where i tried to overdose on pills and the cops were called ( it didnt work obviously it wasnt effective enough for me to go to a hospital, my parents are...distrustful towards therapist and all that it fucking sucks )

so i never really got a hold of all that anxiety that came out during that time that i had been surpressing, i left that fandom and joined this one to get away from it but theres some things that just...get me to think about those times and it stresses me out whicfh os why im so...nevous to post about wanting things tagged bc it was such a discoursey thing back in the old fandom??

i dont know what else needs to be said, i guess i just really needed to write it all down, because i know it helps when people read what ive been through it gives me a sense that people are telling me its okay, if that makes sense??

im gonna try and make an effort to be honest and communicate with people to make myself feel better. i know i often try to be as nice as possible because im well aware i can be harsh and mean, but thats also not who i am. im not someone who’s 100% happy all the time so im gonna try to be more honest, if i can? i wont be a downright bitch, thats not who i am either but im gonna try to make myself more assertive

ive just been having a very hard time expressing myself and coping healthily for the past two years and its all coming out in sporadic and almost frequent anxiety episodes and its not something im used to handling and i just

wanna thank everyone who’s been with me and talked me through them it means so much to me and words cannot describe how much i appreciate you

thank you if you stuck through this wall of text, i just needed to write it down