#i cant even have the companionship of a cat. pls my life is so sad | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

freebooter4ever · 5 months ago

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lupita making fan videos of her cat to glass animals 🥹🥹🥹 the strides this woman is making in sexy cat lady representation. gone are the days when getting a cat after a breakup over the age of 40 was seen as tragic and life ending

#jrnlsht #i have been hyper aware of my age this weekend #just a lot of little reminders that guys my own age or even five years older see me as totally lacking in desirability #like im totally invisible at this point except to old men #not that I was desirable in my youth either but i was aware that i was young and that made me valuable as a romantic partner in some way #it feels as if now im forced into an asexual role where looking *hot* is basically impossible ever again #which is fine bc my career is in such jeopardy that i shouldn't be paying any attention at all to my sx life but #that part of me that is so desperate to be wanted also feels worse than ever #which just seems backward #why the fuck couldn't that feeling go away along with my youth instead of getting stronger -_-#i was complaining about this to ethan and telling him about some of the things i had happen here in LA #and his advice was basically just give up 🙃 accept the old lady lifestyle #and then he teased me mercilessly about my crush on geno and how creepy im being with my hat and my sculpture 😭#and i was like fantasy is all i fucking got dont take that away from me #i cant even have the companionship of a cat. pls my life is so sad

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