#i cant believe ed put on makeup

[penguins--39]

the motransst you say anything rational, anything outside the accepted "tolerance" you are labeled a terf. Why does there need to be validation? The feminist movetransst highlights how transs weaponize safety concerns to maintain control over women and girls. Even when women and girls take precautions for their own security, many transs respond with dismissiveness or threats, reinforcing women and girls's vulnerability. This behavior is part of a larger pattern of undermining women and girls's independence and reinforcing male dominance by making women and girls feel powerless, even in situations where they've taken measures to protect themselves. Growing up with a gender non conforming mother literally saved me. She never wore makeup, she rarely shaved, she had short hair, she always put comfort first when choosing clothes, she never cared for skincare or anti-aging products in fact she's proud of her wrinkles, she was a ‘these are signs of a fulfilling life' mother not a retinol at 15 mother, she was a ‘eat whatever you want' mother not a ‘are you gonna eat all that?' mother, she was openly against plastic surgery, she stood up for her beliefs, she never let boys talk down to her or belittle her, she was always down for a debate etc. the motransst you say anything rational, anything outside the accepted "tolerance" you are labeled a terf. The feminist movetransst highlights how transs weaponize safety concerns to maintain control over women and girls. Even when women and girls take precautions for their own security, many transs respond with dismissiveness or threats, reinforcing women and girls's vulnerability. This behavior is part of a larger pattern of undermining women and girls's independence and reinforcing male dominance by making women and girls feel powerless, even in situations where they've taken measures to protect themselves. Growing up with a gender non conforming mother literally saved me. She never wore makeup, she rarely shaved, she had short hair, she always put comfort first when choosing clothes, she never cared for skincare or anti-aging products in fact she's proud of her wrinkles, she was a ‘these are signs of a fulfilling life' mother not a retinol at 15 mother, she was a ‘eat whatever you want' mother not a ‘are you gonna eat all that?' mother, she was openly against plastic surgery, she stood up for her beliefs, she never let boys talk down to her or belittle her, she was always down for a debate etc. When Ed Sheeran gets on stage, he just sings in his T-shirt and jeans. Timothee Chalet or whatever his name is goes to interviews in a suit, or sometimes he's just in casual clothes. Their faces look natural, their hair looks real. Their voices are their own. Eggman: If you thwomp the Evil Aura, we might be able to reach the poop deck. Me: You cant slep if youre cringulant like Evil Aura. I cant believe dead rat actually vop in the poop deck; its so boobily.

[zenayeeda]

So while Stede was gone dealing with his deep guilt over leaving his wife and kids and having a huge powerful moment of growth and self actualization, the crew just devolved without him at the first sign of trouble and Ed had an intense dramatic breakdown.

It's so sweet how much of an impact he made on everyone and how they all need him. Nobody EVER needed him before. Found family, no matter how cannibalistic, is just, mwa!, gorgeous.

Stede on the island: ok children, no no, no biting, no stabbing, sit in a circle now, hold hands, and we'll sort things out. Now what's all the cannibalism business?

The crew: Papa! You're back! What's for lunch?

Stede: When did you last eat?

The crew: Breakfast.

Stede: ...

The crew: In all fairness it was a light breakfast.

Meanwhile Ed, ugly-crying while gouging someone's eye out: did those two weeks we knew each other mean nothing Stede?!

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

This is not an ask maybe just a vent cause i cant think any other place to talk about these so sorry beforehand...

But i just find summertime very difficult and this year is especially hard cause my body has changed so much and i have to go buy new summer clothes and thats just so triggering and frustrating. And everyone else seem to enjoy the summer and that also adds a presure.

Also i havent received barely any help from healthcare about my eating disorder and I just have to get through this by myself without any support and it's just so hard.

Vent away! I think it's great that people share their feelings here, because I really believe it might help others feel less alone. I bet this is a common ED problem, especially in places that tend to run hot where it's harder to be comfortable in heavy-coverage clothing, or in places where there's particular pressure to do things like go to the beach. I'd love to see people reblog/share their camaraderie and support.

Honestly, even a lot of those people who are acting like they are having the time of their lives might be putting on a front to look/feel confident, as I think many people do in a lot of cases. Diet culture is VERY prevalent, and a lot of people may have been hearing the phrase "beach ready" or "summer bod" a lot more than would be ideal. There are also people with scars, surgical procedures, amputations, acne, body hair, ostomy bags...bodies are so varied, it isn't right that society makes you feel like you "have to" have a certain type in order to deserve enjoyment of your summer days. But the truth is, I highly doubt you're alone.

I'm sorry you're struggling to get through this without support. I don't know if you feel up to giving me details of your ED journey, but I could try to help you in some ways if I am able, with some suggestions, affirmations, etc. For now, I might suggest seeing if you can find a supportive person to go shopping with you. See if you can equip this person with some coping strategies they can use to help keep the trip as positive as possible and deflect triggers. Maybe you could start off searching for cute shoes or accessories to start building your outfit, if that might hype you up before getting to the clothing part. Or hair accessories, makeup, perhaps even like a new summer perfume or something. Or perhaps you're not the jewelry-wearing type, I don't know anything about you. Maybe a new baller pair of sneakers or something like that. You can also start with baggy, comfy clothes and work your way up - take your time to think about the most comfortable way for you. I definitely grew up with shopping, especially for clothes, being a difficult experience, but I came to love it. You deserve a shopping experience that you love!

As for enjoying the summer itself...can you possibly start by going out into less-crowded areas? Just so you can enjoy the sunshine and get out and around without feeling like you've gotta put on a show/perform for anyone.

Please feel free to reach out if I can help more. I hope that you find ways to enjoy some things about your summer, and remember that you are not alone! Not in struggling with summer, and not in feeling frustrated with shopping or body change.

[iamatpeacewitheveryone]

How I became obsessed over the Fab 5

Yass Queen I often heard that phrase on social media Particularly on twitter. I thought that this phrase is a new slang for millennial and gen-z that I just haven’t caught on yet (as most of the slang terms of early 2010s).

Jonathan Van Ness this is the guy that may or may not have started the popular phrase “yass queen” but he sure does use it a lot. When I first saw him randomly on a thumbnail of my recommended youtube video I described his appearance as “gay lord” ( I wanna use “Jesus” but in my opinion that’s disrespectful to my religion). He often is featured on hollywood celebrity channels (which I didnt clicked on that time). I thought that he may be a new emerging star or an old celebrity that I didnt know (bluntly I just didnt care). For me, most starlets that enters hollywood are shallow empty-brain fake people that does a lot of stupid stuff to be relevant. I just didnt care about this gay lord that is making the media go gaga over him.

Big Mouth Im a huge fan of this show. I love cartoons!!! Im 25 year old btw and Idga fudge of what you think about that 🙄. The heart of a child in me just never died 🥳. When season 3 came out I was ecstatic! I finished the whole season in one day and I finished it again the next day and the next day after that. I love the humor. I love the educational information sorrounding teens undergoing puberty, sex ,relationships and gays! I mean Im 25 but Im behind all these things that I should have learned in my teenage years. You know why? Because my country put stigma around sex education thinking that it will encourage kids to have sex. well guess what? With or without sex-ed some kids will still have sex. Anyway in season 3 they included the Fab 5 and I immediately recognized gay lord. I then learned that he is part of a reality TV show and has four other gay guys with him. So after watching big mouth I went on youtube and searched “Queer Eye” and sure enough the fab 5 pop out. The first video that I watched was “Fab 5 takes a lie detector test” . I laughed at their animated quirkiness and after that I watched Queer Eye on netflix right away. Aah!

Queer eye I fell inlove with the first episode. I love how they transformed Tom ❤️ ( I didnt really approved with the styling. Sorry Tan). I love their kind approach to Tom and how they make as simple as going mattress shopping hilarious. I love their relationship. Immediately I fell inlove right away with Jonathan Van Ness’ personality! He is full of gay antics and he exudes so much femininity. He is more of a girl than a gay man. Usually I see gays as men who are feminine (or overly feminine) like James Charles and Jeffree Star. Jonathan is more masculine looking than most gays. He sports beards and does not wear makeup. But for me, he is literally a girl in a man’s body.

Gay + Reality Show I never really thought that I will one day be a fan of gay reality show. First, I never had any gay friends in my circle of friends. Gays and I are like oil and water, we dont blend. Im introverted, Im chill and laid back, and a little tomboyish. Gays most of the time are extroverted, flamboyant, rowdy, sassy, and overly dramatic. Im not saying all gays but most of the gays that I encountered. I like them. I like their existence. Dont get me wrong Im not homophobic. It’s just I like them at a distance. Their personality overwhelms me. So it comes as a surprise to me how I came to love the fab 5. And on a reality TV show? Guuurrlll dont even get me started how much I dislike reality shows especially from hollywood. I see such shows as fake, phony, cheesy, and doesn’t really have any substance in it . I don’t waste my time watching these pretentious shows. But Queer Eye changed that.

I love how the casting is diverse. At least, two out of five people are colored people. As an asian Im so proud of Tan, and happy that he is part of this. Im proud how they bravely shared their traumatic stories of how they we’re outed and abandoned by the people they considered family. How they courageously show their vulnerability. You go Queens!

Religion affected Bobby that he cant even go inside a church. Inspite of this, Bobby had learned slowly to let go of the baggages and make peace with his past. I pray that he will be completely free one day because I believe we can all heal. Bobby is an inspiration for the lost and abandoned. I cant imagine my family disowning me and being out their on my own at the age of 15. Look at him now a very successful interior designer. He gave me hope.

I love how Karamo fought despite of racism and homophobia, and went for the things that people denied him of. Imagine being in a room full of people making you feel unwelcomed? Im so proud of you Karamo. Im happy of all the things you have now.

I love how Jonathan fights the issues and rights that I also believed in. He uses his voice to put awareness over racism, sexism, homophobia, HIV, diversity and hatred (which are mostly Trump supporters. just kidding 😜).

I love how Antoni is passionate with food. I can listen to him talk about food all day. He is also sensitive to other people’s feelings. He is respectable towards other people and sympathetic. He is refined and cultured.

Obsession I became obsessed! The proof is that I started taking care of my self more. Im not lazy anymore with my beauty regimen. I updated my products. SERUM AND SUBSCREEN!!! I floss always now. They inspire me to look fabulous everyday even when Im at home.

I started following them on their individual instagram account. Search them on google, pinterest and tumblr. Dont forget twitter for daily updates. My youtube recommendations are all filled of Queer Eye’s casts. Help me! And if that’s not enough I bought their individual books (audiobooks).

I’ll be giving my review on their individual books next time. Im also learning to use podcast since Jonathan and Karamo has their own podcast channel. Can you believe?

[beauticate]

Myra Perez, Floral Designer

As one of Sydney’s most in demand creative florists for the last fifteen years, My Violet’s Myra Perez is used to 4am starts and some seriously long days. She generously took us through her favourite products for looking rested when you’ve had no sleep, shared how to actually get said sleep when your brain just won’t turn off and the undeniable power of an eyelash perm.

When I was 21 I had a corporate job and would walk past a particular florist on my way to work every day. It sparked an interest for me, because to be honest I didn’t know what I wanted to do until then. I just knew it had to be creative and that I couldn’t be sitting in an office all day.

This florist was kind enough to answer all the questions that I bombarded her with and encouraged me to do a floristry course to discover if it was really something I loved. Before I knew it, I had enrolled myself into a floristry course at TAFE, enjoyed it so much that I signed up for Certification II, got work experience at one Sydney’s leading florists and the rest, as they say, is history. All this time later, the thing I still love most about my job is seeing how happy flowers make others. The smiles and positive feedback from clients gives me amazing energy and keeps me going.

I love makeup and always have… in fact, once upon a time I was actually very good at it. However in my current line of work I have early starts and I would rather get that extra sleep than be up to do my makeup.

These days my focus is on having great, blemish free skin at 5am. Skin care has definitely become more essential than make up. I like a natural, fuss-free look, day to day.

My daily beauty routine starts at 4am.

After a quick shower to wake myself up, I apply the first half of the Rationale Essential Six, The Immunologist Serum and Super Antioxidant Serum. I love the Immunologist UltraCreme, it’s so good and leaves my skin feeling really hydrated. Then I’ll apply my Rationale Superfluid SPF50. A few years ago I got sunburnt so badly that my face got swollen, and since then I’ve always applied SPF50+ without fail, and will wear a cap or hat if possible. We often work out in the elements so sun protection is essential for me. Finally, I mix up a glass of water with 15ml of Collagen Inner Beauty Boost from The Beauty Chef, and then I’m out the door, in the van and off to market.

If it’s been a long day I’ll pop on some eye gels for a little extra collagen boost to help my tired eyes out.

Currently I’m obsessed with Skyn Iceland Hydro Cool Firming Eye Gels from Mecca.

I cleanse with the Rationale Pro Ceramide Cleanser followed by their Catalyst Serum and DNA Night Cream.

To help me get a good night’s sleep I take The Beauty Chef’s Sleep Inner Beauty Powder. I’m constantly on the go and find it really hard to switch off, as often I’m up late planning the next day, so I find this tonic helps me fall into a deep sleep. A must have for those who can’t close their eyes at night.

My must have for a night out is a red lip and lots of lashes.

If I’m going for a true matte my favourite is MAC Ruby Woo or if I want a slightly glossier red it’s Chanel Rouge Allure Velvet in 39, La Somptueuse (Ed. note: discontinued). I’m hopeless with applying falsies so I prefer to get mine professionally curled (Kristin Fisher Eyebrows do my eyelash perms and I’ve never looked back!) then once I apply two coats of Diorshow Iconic Overcurl Mascara and I’m good to go!

If I have time, I’ll do something fun with eyeshadow as I’m a huge fan of it.

My girlfriend Tobi Henney, who is an Australian makeup artist based in NYC, taught me how to do a subtle smokey eye. First, I use a natural colour that compliments my dark skin, like a bronze gold (I’m currently using Burberry Eye Colour Wet & Dry Glow Shadow in 002 Nude). Then I go in with a darker, chocolate shade and, using a small brush , dab a hint in the corners and around the eye socket, with the eye closed. A cat eye is also a really nice look - I love Dior’s Precision Eyeliner in black, as it’s like a felt pen and so easy to use!

Growing up I wasn’t allowed to use makeup. I think lip gloss was the only thing I owned till I got to ninth grade and then I was allowed to use mascara.

My mother had bad acne as a child so she wasn’t keen on my covering up my skin, plus growing up in El Salvador beauty regimes were the last thing people focused on. She still did her best to take care of herself and in return educated me on what not to do. I have a memory of her slapping my hands whenever I got the urge to touch my face or rest my face in my hands. She would say, “your hands have been touching too many things!” She would often make honey masks or use another natural remedy if I had a break out. 

I have really thick hair so I get it cut every 6 weeks to take the weight out.

I’ve recently gone from balayage to all over glossy dark, and it’s much healthier and easier to maintain.  I’m probably not supposed to but I wash my hair daily as I always find it’s sticky and full of pollen dust. I like Kevin Murphy Angel.Wash, it smells amazing and seems quite gentle on my hair. 

I am obsessed with sneakers and have a big, colourful variety in my wardrobe. My latest lolly pink Adidas trainers are a current fave and on high rotation.

I just celebrated my fortieth birthday and wore a bright red tulle Alice McCall skirt and plain tee, dressed up with some velvet Senso heels. I have lots of Viktoria Woods and Camilla & Marc in my wardrobe… I cant help myself! It’s the same with designer bags. I seem to spend money on cross body bags I can rock to the markets or out to dinner with my husband Baz.

My line of work is demanding - the hours are brutal and to be honest no one ever believes just how hard it is to be a florist.

Your hands get pretty overworked and so does my overactive mind! So I find that I feel the most beautiful when I’m not in peak season. I tend to get more sleep, take time out and really just slow right down. That’s when I look and feel my best. 

I attend Pilates as much as I can, ideally multiple times a week. Fluidform Pilates in Wooloomooloo has changed my life. Its exhausting but worth it.

A client of mine insisted that Fluidform changed her life and that it would change mine too. I had never tried it and didn’t know much about it but I trusted her and thought, why not? Although most sessions I’m cursing my instructor Dannielle on the inside because I’m in pain and sweating bullets, it’s a good pain. Plus that whole hour of no phones, no noise, and instead just focusing on my breathing and a particular move is major chill out time for me. I love it and am completely hooked.

My favourite spas for facials are Rationale and All Saints Clinic. I’m an avid Rationale addict so will never miss my monthly facial, as it always makes me feel like a million bucks when I walk out. 

I'm also currently loving Sensory Deprivation Therapy at the Float Factory in Glebe. It takes me to a seriously chilled out zone and I walk out as though I'm floating on clouds.  I try to take care of my body with regular massages and my Pilates sessions. 

When I was younger I used to think 25 was so old.

Then I thought 30 was even older and dreaded that I would be grey, haha! Now at 40 I’m not at all fazed by getting older – it’s a natural part of life which I embrace.

I’m not a fan of seeing girls younger than me messing with their faces. There’s so much time ahead of them and the constant desire to be so perfect is such a worry. Once they’re older and look back at their younger selves, I'm sure they'd think about it differently. 

As I get older, I’ve realised it’s so important to take the time to just slow down, chill out and get a good nights sleep.

It’s harder to shift excess weight and keep glowing skin when you are not allowing your body to stop and rejuvinate, as it constantly thinks it’s in ‘fight’ mode. So I have to put down my phone, put away my diary and get some proper rest.

Story by Zoe Briggs. Photography by Amy Hibbard.

[mattelodchikova]

1-44 if ur up to it punk

hell ya i am ty

1. Any scars? one on my upper thigh from 

2. Self harmed? no

3. Crush? always

4. Kissed anyone? ya

5. Coke or Pepsi? idc they taste the same lmao

6. Someone you hate? no one in specific but generally nazis racists homophobes and pedophiles can all die

7. Best Friends? i feel like the concept of best friends is not v me i have a bunch friends that i luv all equally ykwim??

8. Have you ever done alcohol or drugs? ya

9. What’s your dream job? i wanna either b a social worker or a special ed teacher!!! or famous idk how/for what but that would be nice lmao

10. Ever been in love? ish

11. Last time you cried? yesterday i think lol

12. Favourite colour? pink and also glitter (my first url was pink-n-sparkly drag me lmao)

13. Height? 5′3 i think

14. Birthday? sept 24th 

15. Eye colour? brown

16. Hair colour? brown

17. What do you love? my fam, my friends, my dog, girls, and also frank iero

18. Obsession? rn its drag but also fashion and makeup and music

19. If you had one wish, what would it be? not 2b cheesy but to be happy and loved 

20. Do you love someone? platonically/family wise? ya!! romantically no unfortunately fml

21. Kiss or hug? both!!!!

22. Nicknames people call you? rach, rachy

23. Favourite song? this one

24. Favourite band? not 2b emo but mcr saved my life

25. Worst thing that has ever happened to you? idk but when mcr broke up i legit thot my life was ovr

26. Best thing that has ever happened to you? prob getting my dog tbh lol

27. Something you would change about yourself? my mental illnesses my disabilities and also my face

28. Ever dated someone? ya 

29. Worst mistake? dating the ppl i dated lol yikes

30. Watch the movie or read the book? watch the movie idc if the book is 100x better i dnt have the attn span 4 a book lol unless the book came out first and i rlly loved it & then the movie came out ykwim?? 

31. Ever had a heartbreak? ya

32. Favourite show? drag race prob

33. Best day of your life? idk lol

34. Any talents? i can wiggle my ears does that count

35. Do you wish you could ever start over? sometimes ya

36. Any bad habits? putting things off, picking my nails/skin, being really impulsive and having bad eating habits

37. Ever had a near death experience? no i dont think so but like,,, i dont wanna jinx myself lol

38. Someone I can tell anything to? my older sister

39. Ever lost a loved one? ya

40. Do you believe in love? yA!!!!!! just waiting 4 it 2 happen 2 me lol!!

41. Someone you hate/Dislike? am i thick or was this not alrwady a question lmao see q6

42. Are you okay? ahaha no . also embarassing that the 1st thing i thot of when i saw this question was mcr like why cant i escape my emo phase kms

43. Relationship status? single and ready 2 fuckign die

44. Selfie? heres my tag im 2 lazy 2 take a new one lol