#i cannot stress enough that my crimes were literally just being immature and ignorant

[valtsv]

wtf did you do to have that many people after you lmfao

i resent the implication that i did something to deserve being treated like shit on the heel of people's shoes for literal years, but if you must know i made a few too many cringe posts and liked problematic media (dream smp) back when that was a big deal. looking back i recognise that i was a bit annoying and that i could have been more reasonable in how i behaved, particularly in response to legitimate criticism, but i want to stress that none of the merciless unthinking cruelty i endured made me want to change or even think i could. i had to rebuild from the ground up after literally falling apart under the stress people were putting on me for their own entertainment because the alternative was fucking killing myself, which i genuinely thought was the answer because i'd been convinced by my bullies that i was a threat to everyone around me and would be doing the world a favour by letting "better" people take my place.