#i cannot keep seeing the same takes every day i'm tired y'all | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bittersweetmorality · 4 years ago

Text

— aizawa boyfriend headcannons

☾ genre: headcannons

☾ pairing: aizawa shota x gn!reader

☾ warnings: none !! all fluff ! (hints at manga spoilers, but no details or anything about it is actually said)

☾ a/n: HIHI ! i have like 9 other drafts that i’m working on and they’re all for Bungou Stray Dogs 😁 but enjoy this Aizawa brainrot i love him gn.

☾ ALSO ! NSFW headcannons for aizawa will be coming soon as a separate post !!

☾ W/C: 1,373

— SFW

okay i’m sick of all the mfs that say that aizawa is just an emotionless asshole

HE. IS. NOT.

ON MY MAMA HE IS A SWEETHEART DEEP DOWN. IN HIS OWN WAY.

he’s not really outwardly affectionate— especially not at first

mostly because his love language is acts of service and words of affirmation

no i will not take criticism because i am right

HOWEVER of course i shall elaborate 😁

he is a bitter man because of his past (if y’all read the MHA manga... you know 😐.)

but he would not insult someone he genuinely cares about

and obviously he cares about you bae

so words of affirmation is a constant with him— and honestly it just comes out naturally, he doesn’t even force it

and it’s a lot of reassurance too— reminding you that he does care about you despite the fact that he isn’t very good at expressing it

he also doesn’t explicitly say that he loves you most of the time, just ‘cause he’s afraid of the term yaknow

he kinda plays around with words that basically mean the same thing tho 😁

“i’m very proud of you”

“you’re the only one i want”

“how are you feeling?”

“do you need anything from me? are you tired?”

speaking of which

his love language of acts of service said HELLOOOO

he just wants you to be happy and comfortable

but he’s also pretty lazy 😐

so it’s kinda acts of service but in the back of his mind he hopes that the things that make you happy n comfy are easily attainable 🧍

but when i say he’s lazy and that isn’t gunna change for ANYONE .

🧍.

yeah sorry

my mans wants his naps regardless if you want attention like just nap with him

he’s very very okay with that

AND UHHH CUDDLING .

he isn’t big on like hugs or pda or holding hands when it comes to physical affection

but CUDDLING WHILE NAPPING AND SLEEPING?? YES.

he loves that so much omg

like he knows that you’re alone and he’s allowed to be vulnerable around you, and no one is around except the two of you

and your cats

but we’ll get that later

he’s always the big spoon

not because he’s embarrassed or anything he doesn’t really give a fuck about shame in this situation

he just finds it more comfy to hold you rather than the other way around

because he cuddled his pillow for so long that’s just his natural sleeping position

you can tear that headcannon from my cold dead hands and i don’t want to hear it outta any of you

anyway

he’s such a heavy sleeper that he does NOT move an INCH at night

so if you ever have to get up to pee or just generally move around a lot while you sleep he doesn’t care

it literally cannot bother him 😐 he is dead to the world

also he doesn’t dream at all he just 😐 he sleep

he likes to hear about your dreams though if you have them ^_^ you guys talk all about it in the morning and the way he looks at you when you talk ☹️🥺

like in any situation ☹️🥺 he just listening to you talk about things you enjoy— he could listen to your voice all day

he doesn’t really reply much, but you know he’s listening

ANYWAY back to the CATS !!

you have two cats

one cat favors aizawa and one favors you

it’s no surprise that the cat that likes aizawa more has the same personality as you, and the cat that has the same personality as aizawa likes you more

obviously they love you both but like, if they had to choose a lap while you’re both on the couch, you can guess what happens

he loves the cats so much

genuinely he worries for them all the time

the only time he calls you is to check on the cats when he randomly gets anxious about them

“hi. are you home right now?”

“yes hun, i’m on my lunch break,”

“are the cats okay?”

“...yes they’re with me right now?”

“are you sure.”

“.....do you want me to put them up to the phone?”

“yes.”

anyway DATES.

they’re mostly lazy dates (obviously)

he likes the casual aspect of relationships, so that extravagant shit is wasted on him, especially when it comes to dates

he likes to order in, or cook (preferably with you) and watch a movie with the cats

the cats are in fact a requirement

and yes he will cuddle you on the couch while the movie plays, and honestly sometimes he finds himself barely focusing on the movie, just looking down at you laying on his chest and simply admiring you

he's a softie deep down

a big fat softie

also kisses with aizawa???

soft. so Soft™

he's just a very delicate person at heart, so kisses are just the same

he cups your cheeks and plants kisses on your lips and nose all. the. time.

he loves kisses but usually he doesn't initiate them, so you better grow some BALLS and kiss your man

he will kiss you right back instantly

he also isn't very private about his life

but also?? kind of??

like he definitely doesn't make any effort to hide his relationship with you from the rest of the UA staff and students, but obviously he isn't parading you around and shouting from the rooftops

he finds it really stupid for someone to actively hide their significant other from people

like??? make sure to tell people they're yours?? why would you hide that you dumbass

speaking of which aizawa is super protective

he DEF isn't possessive, like "don't you dare talk to that guy or i will kill him" type like some of y'all make him out to be

i see you and i hate you .

he just wants to keep you safe, so he looks out for you constantly

he trusts you not to be possessive, but his natural instincts from past trauma (again, manga reader know) make him look out for people he cares about

and that always includes you

OVERALL

100/10 boyfriend someone kiss him for me </3

"shota?" you called from the kitchen, trying to gather all of the snacks you had organized onto the counter in your arms. there were too many bags, so many that it would definitely be impossible for you to carry them all in one go-- and that was obvious, since every attempt to gather everything was futile. you groaned as the items tumbled out of your grasp for the umpteenth time, "shota, hun can you help?"

"hm? what's wrong?" you heard a monotonous grunt from the living room.

"i can't carry everything myself, and i really don't feel like taking multiple trips," there was no response. you sighed, "pleeeaaase??"

"i'm busy. my hands are full too."

"ugh, he's sitting on the couch, what could he possibly be busy with?" you mutter to yourself through your teeth.

finally, you decide to simply create a makeshift bag out of your shirt, flipping it up inside-out. you quickly place all of your snacks, and speed to where your lazy boyfriend sat in the other room to stop anything from falling.

you aimlessly let everything tumble out of your grasp, the sounds of plastic hitting your wooden coffee table in front of the couch.

"see? you didn't need my help," you could hear the smug smile on his face even if you weren't looking.

"well, you know how much easier it would've been if y-" you begin to whine, but as you look up to face aizawa completely, you realize why he refused to get up. two little cats were curled up on his blanket-covered lap, their bellies rising and falling gently. you tentatively made your way to sit beside him, carefully plopping onto the cushion.

"so you really were busy then, huh?"

he wraps an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close to lean your head into the crook of his neck, careful not to move his lap in the process, "well, you know i wouldn't lie to you."

masterlist

286 notes · View notes

kanesthirstblog · 4 years ago

Text

NSFW ALPHABET: ABE HARUAKI

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Requires lots of aftercare but also wants to take care of you. Very clingly, like, will latch onto you and cuddle you for the rest of the night clingy. You should probably give him some reassurance or comfort, he seems like the type to stress about whether or not he was any good to you once the fun is over.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Hmmm... Totally the sappy kinda guy who tells you he loves all of your body and thinks it's beautiful and 100% means every praise he sings you about it. He loves everything about you from your soft hair to the tips of your toes.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

God. Just imagining him sprawled out on any surface with an exhausted yet dopey look in his eyes, covered in his own cum (and/or yours of course!) after a few rounds of sex really makes me feel satisfied. Really can't explain this one

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Secretly a bit of a masochist but also scared of being hurt so he never asks even if he really wants to.

Also secretly owns a couple erotic novels he used as "research" when you first brought up wanting a sexual relationship. Since you are his first, he would want to see how he's supposed to act in that scenenrio so he could please you properly. (But damn was he shocked when you wanted to be the dominant one. That wasn't in his books.) Haruaki learns the importance of communication that day.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Dudes a canon virgin y'all. This also excites me.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Secretly loves it when he's on his back so he can see your face as you ride him or peg him. He just thinks you're the prettiest person he's evermet and loves watching you even as you tease or toy with him.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He's a sappy guy. Would probably look at you like a puppy who sees someone they really love. Besides that he's have that dopey look like he's never been happier than he is in that moment, smiling up at you.

Once you've had sex a couple times he might start opening up more, cracking jokes and asking shy requests from you.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Yup. Makes sure he's nice and clean especially

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He really tries hard to be romantic but he has 0 experience in this area and often fumbles his way through it by trying to be sweet and make you feel good. Very bad at saying romantic things and would probably give up after a bit before he dies from embarassment.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Tbh I actually think he'd barely masturbate if he did at all. This is partly because I actually have an asexual headcanon for him and partly cause in canon he seems really put off by sexual things if not being outright afraid of them.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Contrary to some of the fandom headcanons, I don't really imagine the sailor uniform thing as a kink. It just seems like a typical fixation or something that gets played up for laughs to a strange degree. But maybe thats my ADHD dumbass brain projecting my ADHD onto a fave. (Off topic but him knowing everything about sailor uniforms, from design to creation, being able to make them himself, getting happy any time he sees one, ect. Are headcanons I have because his weird fixation with them reminds me of my fixation on rocks, mushrooms, and jewelry.)

HOWEVER

Praise kink. Body worship. He'd love to be pet gently while you tell him how pretty he is. How you love his soft hair or his long legs or slender form as you lightly trail you fingertips down his body or card fingers through his hair. And he would do the same for you too.

Might at least try pegging, and then realizes he actually likes it when you hold him down and pound his ass.

Would be too embarrassed and a bit scared to bring this up but actually likes the idea being treated roughly. If you could pull at his hair and bite him even a little bit he'd practically melt in your hands.

Might try bondage if it's light. Soft hand cuffs or silk ropes are the way to go.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

At home. Anywhere is fine as long as its at home

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

The fastest way is probably being physical with him or just stripping for him. He gets embarassed and tries to hide but you know he's aroused, you can feel it when you sit on his lap.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He'd probably not be okay with having more than one partner. You might frighten him if he starts feeling like you guys are ganging up on him.

Public/semi-public sex is a no go. Especially since he is a teacher, he wouldn't risk his job on the off chance you both get caught.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

I think he actually might no be very into oral at first. But will give or recieve though you may have to hear some complaint about it being kind of unsanitary or something. He's also kinda bad a giving oral but what did you expect? He's a virgin.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Personally prefers the slow and sensual kinda sex but you set the pace regardless so ultimately it's up to you. He won't be turned into a stuttering mess right away if you guys take it slow.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Alright with it as long as it stays private. You'll be the only one asking for these but try to get him in the morning before he leaves for work so you can corner him against a counter. Its best when his back is turned so you can grab his hair and lick along his throat, nipping here and there. He'd shiver in your arms as you trail a hand down to undo his pants

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

As long as it isn't a risk to him (would probably be too scared to try knifeplay) or job (no public/semi-public sex) you could probably talk him into it.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Hmmm... Depends I guess. I feel like he might only be active for a round or maybe 2 before he starts slowing down. You could still pound the guy into the mattress but he'll have those half lidded doe eyes cloudy with exhaustion. He'd wrap his arms around you loosely as if you'll help ground him to the waking world and try to hold you closer to him.

At that point you should definitely ask a few times before you start another round to make sure he's okay and reassure him that it's alright to stop now. Strikes me as someone who could easily fall into a place where he'd hide his desire to stop just so you can use him for your own fun since it makes you happy. That could be kinda bad for his mental health.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

You'd be the one with all the toys tbh. But you can sure as hell use them on him.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He's not much of a tease but if he's feeling playful, he might play up the innocent look of his. He really is a pretty innocent guy actually, but he knows you love that sweet look he's got to him and he will use it on you.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

So damn loud. This guy would moan and beg loudly, scream your name and plead for mercy, for relief as you all but eat him alive. Might even cry and whine and beg. Oh, but he tries to be quiet so he doesn't risk disturbing anyone. He'd purse his lips and turn away from you while you play with his body in an attempt to stay quiet but he always gives in quickly. It's easy to turn this guy into a whimpering, begging mess no matter how many times you do this.

You'll know when he's tired because he will be unable to make much noise besides low pants and gasps. Probably best to wrap things up at that point before ya fuck him unconcious.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

I have a few actually.

-Has a hard time saying no to you. He's a bit cowardly and overthinks and he would be afraid to lose a first relationship. This is potentially hazardous to his mental health because he might say "yes" to something he doesn't want for fear of losing you. Consent is important though so even if it's difficult at first, keep checking to make sure he's alright.

-I actually headcanon him as a sex indifferent asexual. He can 100% live with sex or without it. Doesn't matter to him, though he's terrified of trying it for the first time.

-The first time you tried to get him in bed, you pinned him to a wall and he was terrified because he thought you were trying to shake him down or harass him. (Well, the latter part was true but not the way he expected.) And then you kissed him and he straight up broke, wrapped himself in blankets and hid under the futon for the rest of the day. Disappointing? Sure, but damn was it cute.

-I'm actually caught up on how he would take to dirty talk tbh since a lot of it I've seen or heard involves some form or another of calling your partner a slut or whatever. Seems to be popular. On one hand if he's secretly a masochist, he might be into it. But on the other, he also seems like he might take anything you say to him to heart and beat himself up over it and would ultimately not like it. Also probably would not be comfortable if he did the dirty talking and assuming he manages to make it through the night without apologizing to you for everything he says, then you'll hear it when you finish.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Mandragora patterned briefs. You cannot change my mind on this one.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Not very, so he's pretty chill about it.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Depends on how much you exhausted him but it usually doesn't take that long.

Bonus:

Some more cute Haruaki.

#youkai gakkou no sensei hajimemashita #a terrified teacher at ghoul school #abe haruaki #haruaki abe #nsfwheadcanons

24 notes · View notes

emachinescat · 4 years ago

Text

II've decided to watch MacGyver from the beginning (again), and I'm live tweeting the experience with every tweet tagged with #savemacgyver. I thought it would be fun to share my collected thoughts from the episodes on here as well.

My Thoughts on S1E3, "Awl"

You're not only going to make it to 30, Mac, but you're going to make it to season 6. #savemacgyver

I love that Jack's bucket list includes finishing the Harry Potter books. Guess he's not a one-trick pony after all with sci-fi. A healthy blend of science fiction and fantasy is just what the doctor ordered.

Dylan Thomas reference! That poem was written about the poet's own father, and is about how everyone, no matter who they are or what they stand for, fights against death in the end. He's begging his dad to "rage, rage against the dying of the light," to not give in to death so easily, to keep fighting. Just taught this poem, actually, so I'm vibing with this reference super hard. Though to be fair, I'd be vibing with it anyway. Love Dylan Thomas.

Oh my gosh, this is the one with the fire extinguisher and inflatable escape! I'd forgotten which episode that came from, but I see GIFs of it all over Tumblr. Poor Mac especially, that looks like it hurts. Why is Lucas Till so good at being whumped?!

Jack hugging the fire extinguisher: Iconic.

I'll never get tired of seeing that polar bear! Do we know if he has a name?

I cannot get over how small and excited Bozer is, not a care in the world except for his movie. It's exciting to think about what's to come for his character growth, though I do wish he wouldn't have to go through all the things he does. :(

Jack's conversations with his dad at the grave are just everything. And I feel cheated that we haven't gotten to see Mac have the same kind of conversations at Jack's grave (though I firmly believe it's a regular occurrence off-screen).

Seriously, the way he talks to his dad is so familiar, so comfortable, so natural. It's like Daddy Dalton is right there with him and it fills me with so many emotions that I can't even.

The smile on Jack's face and the pride in his voice when he talks about Mac to his dad is the purest thing ever.

Also, that's a big-ass tombstone Jack is leaning against.

"Hi, Mr. Dalton. How's... life?" MAC! 😂

I can't tell you how much I love it when other characters talk about how smart Mac is. "He's a genius..."

First mention of Mac's dad. It's sweet how invested Jack is in Mac rebuilding his relationship with his old man. Also, I really wish we would have gotten a flashback of Jack's dad at some point. He seems like such an amazing man.

"If I could have one more day to sit and talk to my dad instead of that hunk of rock, I'd do anything." Jaaaaaaack 😭😭😭

Good old Ralph Kastrati. Single-handedly the most annoying character in all of cable television. Y'all have no idea what you're getting into with this one, dream team.

PUNCHFACE.

"My mom dated a guy like that once." Ouch. I'm about to start a Riley Zinger Counter for each episode. Her comebacks are 🔥

It's not just his face, Jack. Everything about this dude is punchable. Especially the way he says "yo."

Ewwww tightie whities no thanks imma head hom now byyye

Mac just snatched that can right out of Jack's hand as he was about to take a drink. Classic.

If I didn't hate Ralph before (spoiler: I did), then I extra hate him for the foie gras comment.

Yes, Jack, "asshat" is the perfect descriptor for this guy.

Is Mac seriously about to just make him some noise-canceling headphones? Who am I kidding? Of course he is.

I need more of Mac punching people in the face. For science.

Poor Jack didn't get to punch the punch face.

🎵 Snipers gonna snipe, snipe, snipe, snipe, snipe 🎵

Between the foie gras and the calfskin, they are really making this guy so easy to hate just sayin'.

"As soon as you're done saving his life, I'm gonna kill him, you hear that, smart-ass? I'm already dressed for the funeral." 🤣🤣🤣🤣

"He's g-good. He just... got kinda shot." Is that the medical terminology, Mac?

Jack using country music as a form of torture 🤣

"You're going to be seeing Yelp stars if you don't shut up!"

Have I mentioned how much I love the music in this show?

"I don't wanna die listening to country music!"

I love how bossy and grabby Mac gets when he improvises.

Another belt grab! I can’t get over Jack trying to keep his crazy partner from falling out of the window – it gives me life!

Actually makes me wonder if he does it because Mac’s taken a tumble out of a car window before. *fanfic brain engaged*

“You know how I feel about your puns.” C’mon, Mac, pus are the greatest forms of humor, bar-pun. (Geddit?)

Mc made a C in biology? I’m not buying it.

Dwwwwwww the sounds of the surgery. No thanks.

Though I will say this is one of the coolest (albeit grossest) things Mac’s ever done on this show.

What the heck is with that elevator door? It took a whole 10 years to close! I wouldn’t trust it. (To be fair, I don’t trust any elevator, but that’s neither here nor there.)

Sir Bleeds-a-Lot lol

Riley stepping in and taking charge once again. No idea how these two functioned before she came along.

Some seriously cool MacGyverisms in this episode. The whole process of “killing” Ralph and bringing him back with office supplies is so OG MacGyver and it gives me all the warm fuzzies.

Ralph: “You’re not a scientist, you’re not a doctor. So how the hell do you know all this stuff?” Mac: “...I read a lot of books?” I love Mac so much.

“Now go die.” Lolololol

The moment with Ralph wanting to call his mom and grow the hell up is surprisingly genuine and heartbreaking. Character development for a character in only one episode, hello, is that you?

“He’s dead, but he’ll get better.” MacGyver, 2016

Riley’s comeback about Jack’s plan to take out six guys if Mac takes out two is another winner. (Riley: 2, Jack: 0) Still, I love the whole, “Sure it does [count as a plan]. First, I’ll take two. Then, I’ll take the other four.” This is why Mac is the plan guy, not Jack.

“Or I can take them all out.” Mac’s confidence = 🔥

I might need to start a Mac sass counter too. Jack: “You seriously want me to put this on my face?” Mac: “Only if you like breathing.”

Jack’s left fist getting jealous 🤣

They really liked choking Mac in the early episodes, didn’t they? Not that I’m complaining. Actually, why did that stop? That strangled, panicked cry of “JACK?!” is music to my fanfic writing, hurt/comfort obsessed, whump-loving soul.

That cough - it actually hurts me to hear it! They should have given us some more repercussions or aftercare for Mac breathing in that gas!

Ralph fell asleep. Of course.

“You know, it’s weird. I’m glad he’s alive… but I still want to kill him. 🤣 I’m with Jack on this one!

Ralph: “A fresh start. I could use one of those right?” Riley: “Or a whole new personality.” ZZZING!!! Riley: 1 million, the world: -10

Oh he did not just call Riley “little hottie.” I’m back to wanting to kill him, character development be darned. So diminutive, dehumanizing, and objectifying. This guy has more than won the douchebag lottery. Riley can more than stick up for herself, but still. The way he speaks to her here makes me feel all kinds of gross.

He just said “ya heard” unironically. Can we let Jack punch him now, please?

Jack offering to let Ralph keep the cash he lifted if he gets to punch him is great, but even better is Mac and Riley offering to chip in money for The Cause.

Oh, yeah, Bozer was in this episode. I’m excited for when he is utilized more!

Bozer’s monster Mac is nightmare fuel!

“A letter? That you put in the mail? It’s 2016.” Hey, as someone who has an actual, old-school type pen pal, step off, Jack.

Mac: “You just gonna watch?” Jack, offended: “Not anymore.” How is it Jack is like Mac’s dad but they also bicker like 5-year-olds? This relationship is so strange, so wonderful, and the heart of the show in so many ways. I love them.

Mac’s words of wisdom about the nature of life are actually super encouraging and exactly what I needed to hear today.

I’d forgotten how much I love this episode – t’s so fun! Although the Codex storyline in season 4 is probably my favorite plot-wise, coming back to these early episodes is like a breath of fresh air! Excellent, excellent episode with so much to offer!

What are your thoughts on "Awl?" I'd love to discuss! :)

#macgyver #jack dalton #riley davis #wilt bozer #macgyver rewatch #my thoughts #episode review #save macgyver #we can still save our show #emcatreviews #spoilers #s1e3 #awl

26 notes · View notes

shutupdevvie · 2 years ago

Text

i need y'all to understand. how truly fucked up this got me. i literally laid down to read this and after i was finished i put my phone down and stared at the ceiling for ten minutes in complete silence, replaying it and trying to process.

so first of all jake moaning her name while getting himself off i am going to SCREAM fuck that's good.

and she had the strength to walk away and get her water and move on (for now)

"I think you need more practice swallowing..." that's a bit of an innuendo for sure "You also need more practice with shutting your bedroom door..." AND THERE IT IS. and the fact that he knows straight away what she's talking about because of course he does

"I would say the same to you, but I could hear you through the door, and now I can't get the sounds you made out of my head." i am freaking out. i am losing my mind.

"You know, I try my best to keep my voice down, but it's just so hard to keep quiet with Josh" I BET IT IS. I GUARANTEE IT.

"...So to hear you, almost every night for a week, moaning his name. Making those sweet, sweet sounds... It's been torture." "And I think it just might be my turn to get what I want..." ABSOLUTELY JAKEY. TAKE IT. WHATEVER YOU WANT.

"Do me a favor, sweet thing, jump." god damn even just this has me quivering. my knees are wobbling.

"Was that enough for you? Or do you want to hear it again?" "I will never not want to hear it again." no problem. i can make jake the only word in vocabulary if that would make you happy

i don't know if i said this before but.... angel...... is one of my favorite names.... like i love it and i cannot explain why

"You poor thing... I haven't even done anything exciting yet and you're already a mess." i'm sitting in my kitchen writing this and even I AM a mess so what does that say about me? and fucking POOR THING. get me outta here.

"Let me hear you, baby. I've waited this long, don't make me wait any longer." he uhhhh.

"You're God's most sinful angel." FUCK Y'ALL FOR WRITING THAT. HOW TF.

"Are you gonna fuck me Jake?" "Or should I call Josh and tell him to come back early?" damn. hit him where it hurts.

"You've got a real smart mouth, angel." "You gonna do something to shut me up Jake? Or are you just gonna stand there staring?" she is doing such a good job talking back rn. i would be SILENT. no peeps. not a word. i would be nervous af.

"I've been desperately wanting to fuck you all week. Now that I have you, I'm going to make it last as long as I want it to." this man. this man. he's savoring the moment and it's making me feel all tingly.

"Oh? You need me to fuck you faster, angel? How about this, if you ask me again, real nicely, maybe then I'll consider fucking this pretty pussy as fast and as hard as you want me to." i like- my brain is completely blank rn. it might as well have melted out of my head.

............josh..........

josh being impressed by jake getting her there twice is so funny to me. like him just sitting in the living room metaphorically patting jake on the back for a good job.

"If he's going to have a taste of you, he can't be sending you home all bruised." "If I'm going to let him borrow you, I want you returned in the same condition." WHAT DID HE SAY ?? he can fuck her but he can't leave marks. honestly i support. also josh implying that her coming to him is her coming home is making me want to die.

"Might wanna quiet down, angel. Wouldn't want Jake to wake up would you?" god DAMN. i forgot for a sec how hot this josh is because we were in jake mode but FUCK I JUST REMEMBERED.

"So gorgeous for me, angel... Never gonna get sick of seeing you like this." he is the praise king and i love him for it.

"The day I get tired of seeing such an astounding sight, will be the day I die, angel." "And even then I'll be marveled by you from Heaven." remember when i said fuck you for that other line? well i hate y'all for this one. what the FUCK IS THIS. what the actual fuck.

he spit on her. he spit on her. he spit on her. he spit on her.

"Did he make you feel good, angel?" "Did. He. Make. You. Feel. Good?" josh. please don't do this.

jake being on the outside of her and josh again parallel. my favorite voyeur <333

hand over part three. please. you know i only ask with love.

In collaboration with - @earthlysorrows

Part 1 - Shake My Faith

Josh Kiszka x Reader x Jake Kiszka

Words - 5845

Warnings - 18+ONLY, explicit sexual content, NSFW, smut, fingering, oral (f!receiving),unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it)

a/n - Part 2 anyone? Thank you again Madi for indulging me in this dirty thought as it quickly unraveled and developed into this beautiful, filthy, lovely fic we have created together ♡ ps. @tpwkkabby you really hit the nail on the head with your comment on Shake my Faith. No need to sue, it had a name half way through writing the first part ♡

It was past midnight when you woke up, mouth dry and body tucked tightly against another. Warmth radiated from Josh’s chest to your back, and his arm was wrapped securely around your torso. His fingers were splayed across your skin, and even in his sleep, you could feel the slow drag of his thumb against the skin below your breast.

He fought against you as you tried to shimmy from his grasp, pulled you tighter against him.

“Josh, please let me go.” His only response was a grunt of protest, wrapping his free arm around your waist.

“Josh, I need water, please. I’ll be right back.” You had stopped squirming, but the tone of your voice got to him. His arms loosened around you and Josh turned to lay on his back with a defeated sigh.

You giggled at his dramatics, turning to press a light kiss to his cheek before slipping out from under his blankets and tiptoeing through his bedroom door. You had heard Jake playing his guitar quietly for a while before you and Josh had fallen asleep, but it had stopped since, so you assumed he had also gone to sleep, but as you passed his room you noticed the dim light of his bedside lamp pouring through a crack between his bedroom door and the frame.

You peaked in as you walked by, thinking maybe he was awake watching some cooking show. Instead you caught a glimpse of Jake with his back turned to the door, his bare back glistening with a thin sheen of sweat, one hand planted on the edge of his bed while the other arm moved rhythmically in front of him.

You knew what he was doing, and you knew it was wrong to stand and watch, so you turned to walk away. You spun on your heel, taking one step away before you heard a raspy groan that made your knees buckle, and your head turned to see Jake with his head thrown back, his eyes squeezed shut, and his lips parted as a barely audible moan passed through them, but you heard it.

“Fuck- Y/n.”

It took everything in you to fight down the gasp that wanted to escape your throat. You were a million miles away mentally, hearing the way he moaned your name replay over and over in your head. You stepped back, lifting your hand towards the doorknob just a little before realizing what you were doing, and immediately fell into a should I, should I not situation as you watched the movement of his arm slow.

You swallowed the lump in your throat and let your hand drop back to your side, turning around and trying your hardest to quietly make your way to the kitchen, where you promptly downed a glass and a half of water before making your way back to Josh’s room.

Curiosity overtook you as you glanced back through that same crack in Jake's door, but instead of his lustful position, he was sleeping in his bed curled up with his blanket. A look that was all too peaceful for the activities he had just partaken in. It wasn’t too long before you were warmly welcomed with Josh’s embrace and snuggled against him as you fell back asleep.

The bright sun beamed in through Josh’s window and illuminated your eyelids. Blocking your eyes from the sun, you rolled over before uncovering your lids and waking up for good. Surprised to find yourself alone, you threw the covers off of your body and shuffled down the hallway to make yourself a cup of coffee and whatever breakfast you could muster up with the food in their fridge.

As you walked down the hall you could hear the patter of water bouncing off of porcelain and the soft humming of what sounded like Joshua in the shower. You paused your steps momentarily to listen in before heading back to the kitchen.

The triangle of light from the fridge was the only light illuminating in the kitchen, and with Josh in the shower that meant Jake was the one rustling through the miscellaneous groceries. “Good morning.” Your murmur raspily, taking Jake by surprise.

He tilted his head slightly in your direction, giving you a quiet ‘morning’ in return before pulling the orange juice from the fridge and pouring it into his empty glass.

You walked up to the space beside him, hopping up onto the empty spot on the counter as he lifted the glass to his lips to take a sip. “Sleep well?”

His head turned once again to look at you, his eyes catching the bare skin of your thighs. The sight alone had him momentarily forgetting that when you ingest liquids, you swallow, not inhale. So as he met your eyes to respond, a sputtered cough came from his throat instead.

You grabbed an apple sitting on the counter and casually bit into it as you watched him struggle to sip on his drink. When the coughing continued you hopped off the counter and made your way to gently tap between his shoulder blades. “I think you need more practice swallowing…” You whispered playfully against his ear. “You also need more practice with shutting your bedroom door…”

You let your finger slide across his back as you walked away and hopped back up on the counter, apple back in your mouth to observe his response.

Jake placed his glass on the counter just hard enough for a couple drops to spill over the edge onto the counter. You could tell by his movement that he was about to do something, but a creak in the floorboard stopped him before he could take a step. The two of you both knew who it was, but as you shifted your gaze to meet Josh’s eyes, Jake’s gaze remained on you, watching the smile on your face grow, and a slight blush creep onto your cheeks.

Josh sauntered from down the hall, leaving the bathroom in just a towel hung deliciously low on his hips. He caught your gaze within a second of hearing you speak, and he shot you a wink before slipping through his bedroom door and shutting it behind himself.

The second he heard the door latch, Jake stepped in front of you, planting his hands on either side of you, his thumbs just barely brushing against the bare skin of your thighs. “I would say the same to you, but I could hear you through the door, now I can’t get the sounds you made out of my head.”

He watched as your jaw lowered, your lips parting as you tried to articulate a sentence to respond. By the time you even considered having something to respond to that with, the sound of Josh’s bedroom door opening had Jake retreating from you in milliseconds. Josh had his laptop beneath his arm as he made his way into the kitchen, seeing the half eaten apple in your hand and reaching out to take it from you. You let him take it, and watched as he grabbed his to-go cup of tea and turned to leave.

He turned back once he had his shoes on and was about to exit, smiling at the two of you, and giving Jake a small nod. “I’ll be back in a couple hours. Y/n if you're not still here when I get back, I’ll see you soon I’m sure.”

You could nearly feel the hole burning in the back of your head from Jake's stare, so with yet another hop from the counter you pranced your way over to Joshua. “Oh trust me, I’ll be here, I’m sure I can find something to do in the apartment while you’re gone.” You placed your hand on his chest and leaned in for a kiss. You purposefully let out a soft hum once your lips met before pulling away.

You weren’t sure if it was due to his brother's presence in the room, but Josh’s cheeks grew flushed from your kiss. “I guess I better finish this lesson plan soon then, hum?”

With just a nod as your response, Josh was headed out the door and on his way. As soon as the door clicked shut, you turned on your heels to face Jake. “You know, I try my best to keep my voice down, but it’s just so hard to keep quiet with Josh.”

You and Jake stood staring at each other for a minute, neither of you moving until Jake slowly lifted his hand and curled his index finger at you, beckoning you closer. You took a single leisurely step towards him, watching as his fingers tapped impatiently against the countertop.

Although being summoned, all you could do was stand still. It wasn’t until Jake lifted an eyebrow that you could feel yourself moving towards him. At a slow, antagonizing pace you walked until you were directly in front of him, refusing to break eye contact on your way. “Now Jakey… ” Your voice was low, “You also need more practice with patience…”

You lightly traced your fingers up Jake’s bicep and were astonished by the trail of bumps your touch left behind on his skin. “Now please, go on and tell me what was so important that you needed me standing right here.”

Jake huffed through flared nostrils at your attitude but the hidden smirk on his lips ruined the facade. “You know. Our whole life, it’s always been Josh. Josh gets to be the main youth leader. Josh gets the biggest gifts. Josh. Gets. Everything.” He let his finger glide down your lip, pulling the delicate skin to expose your bottom row of teeth. “But you? I didn’t expect him to get you first…”

Completely in awe by his confession, you stepped closer towards him, your torsos only a hair away from each other. You went to speak but he held up a finger, unfinished with his own thoughts. “...So to hear you, almost every night for a week, moaning his name. Making those sweet, sweet sounds… It’s been torture.” His finger was now tilting your chin upwards. “And I think it just might be my turn to get what I want…”

Jake leaned down slightly, his lips brushing the skin of your throat. You could feel the gentle touch of his fingers grazing your thigh, raising higher and higher until his hand rested on your hip, the fabric of his brother's t-shirt resting on his wrist. He turned the two of you around, pressing you against the counter. “Do me a favor, sweet thing, jump.”

You took one big leap off of the floor and somehow Jake managed to take you by your hips, and sit you firmly against the counter. As you landed, he quickly looped one hand around the back of your head, protecting you from the cabinets above. “Nice catch.” You teased, his fingers tangled within your hair.

Using his grip to his advantage, he pushed your head towards his and stopped right before your lips touched. “What can I say? I’m always thinking ahead.”

You took a deep breath, brushing your lips against his, his name cascading from yours.

His eyes seemed to darken at the sound, and when his lips parted to speak, it came out almost in a growl. “Say it again. Say my name.”

“Jake.” You enunciated the k in his name, letting it snap against his lips. “I. Want. You. Jake.” With each pause you could feel your mouth growing closer to his, and you allowed your arms to loop around his neck. “Was that good enough for you? Or do you want to hear it again?”

He chuckled, the rumble of his chest making your own vibrate. Jake placed the slightest pressure of his lips against your own before pulling away again, a pleased hum coming from him as you chased the feeling. “I will never not want to hear it again.”

“Jake.” It was a plea really, a whimper, the sound that came from you.

He smirked, and you could feel it in the grazing of his lips upon yours, the upturn of the side of his mouth. “Yes, angel?”

“Please just let me kiss you already…” You were weak and needy and had absolutely no control over the speed of your breathing as you sat there waiting patiently for his response. Jake loved that he could turn you into such a deprived mess.

“As you wish.” He was warm, as he leaned forwards and finally pressed his lips upon yours. All of that build up had you buzzing with just the first kiss, but it was when Jake separated your lips further with his tongue that you let out a soft moan that echoed from your mouth to his. His laugh of confidence was almost sinister as he pulled away, dragging your bottom lip out with his teeth as he gently bit into your skin. “You like that, angel?”

All you could think to do was give him a nod as you leaned forward back into him, begging for more. Once your lips reconnected, you felt his hips roll forward between your legs. The sweats he wore left little to the imagination, every shift of his hips pressed his thinly covered cock closer to your center. His kisses left your mouth and traced down your neck, stopping to softly bite at your artery. “Can you feel just how hard you make me?” He grunted against your neck. “Can you tell just how much I fucking want you?” Grabbing your sides he did one firm roll with his hips, ensuring that you could feel every single inch of the mess you created.

Glancing down at the scene before you, you couldn’t miss the darkened circle of liquid right above his erection, sending your mouth into a watering frenzy. “Fuck Jake…”

“You poor thing… I haven’t even done anything exciting yet and you’re already a mess.”

You whimpered at the statement as it left his mouth. You couldn’t help it, watching as his hand trailed from your hips to your thighs, slowly rubbing their way back up to under the t-shirt you were wearing. He hooked his thumbs beneath the band of your panties, brushing back and forth beneath the elastic. “Don’t worry, angel, I’ll take care of you.”

He pressed another kiss against your throat before tugging on the band. “Can I take these off?”

You bit your lip, watching as he pulled harder on the elastic before letting it snap back against your hip. He watched you as you nodded eagerly at him, and the smirk on his face only grew as he tilted his head up so that his lips were just below your earlobe. “Let me hear you, baby. I’ve waited this long, don’t make me wait any longer.”

“Yes Jake, yes you can take them off.” The slightly snarky tone you had adopted for your statement was wiped away when he nipped at the delicate skin of your throat before licking a soothing stipe over the mark he left.

“Good girl.”

The sensation, in combination with his words, had a moan slipping from between your lips into the otherwise empty apartment. Jake tapped your hips, urging you to lift yourself off of the counter slightly. Your fingers wrapped around the edge of the counter, peeling your legs just far enough off of the laminate for Jake to slide the panties off of your body, pulling them to your knees and letting them drop the rest of the way.

He planted both of his hands on your knees, and spread your legs apart to marvel at what was before him. “You are a work of art, you know that?” He groaned, slowly running his hand from your knee to your inner thigh. Jake let his thumb glide against your glistening lips before slowly pulling his thumb away, carrying with it a trail of your arousal.

It was to your utter surprise when he sunk his thumb down into his mouth, and pulled it back forward with a soft pop. In this moment your mouth hung open, and he placed that same thumb between your teeth, instructing you to finish off the mess he left behind.

“Jake, I don’t know much more teasing I can take.” You pleaded, pushing your hips forward to just try and get an ounce of friction out of him.

He let out another low chuckle. “Now imagine if you heard me moaning for a week straight.” He bent down and gently nipped at your inner thigh.

“You’re wasting so much time. You could be hearing me moan for you, now.” Your head fell backwards at his touch, stretching and exposing your neck. “Please.”

“Please?” He repeated back to you, now using his thumb to rub slow circles across your clit. “Please what?”

With eyes locked upon one another, you let out a shaky breath. “Please fuck me. I need you. Now.”

“You’re God's most sinful angel.”

The smirk that grew on your face was devious in nature as you placed a hand on Jake's bare chest, dragging between his pecs until your finger hooked around the small wooden cross hanging between them. You remembered watching him carve that at church camp the summer after your senior year, instructing a gaggle of small children on how to do the same.

You used the grip on his necklace to pull him closer, keeping your eyes locked on his as your lips brushed his. “Are you gonna fuck me Jake?”

You leaned back against the cupboard, the devious smirk remaining on your lips. “Or should I call Josh and tell him to come back early?”

He pulled back, nearly offended by your suggestion. His hands hooked under your thighs and in one swift motion you were lifted up, and your legs were guided around his bare torso. Once you were situated, he grabbed the nape of your neck and forced your lips to crash together as he took steps towards his bedroom.

He made it maybe halfway before stumbling over a discarded sock in the hallway, which resulted in Jake pressing you against the wall in an attempt to restabilize himself. A gasp escaped you, both from the impact of you back against the wall, and the feeling of his crotch rolling against yours.

“Really killing it with the seduction Jake, I didn’t realize I made you weak in the knees.”

It wasn’t long before he had pulled you from the wall and finally made it to his room. You were being tossed onto his bed within seconds of entering, the mattress squeaked in protest as he gawked at you from above. “You’ve got a real smart mouth, angel.”

You made it a bit of a show for him, staring up at him with the most innocent expression you could muster as you peeled the t-shirt from over your torso. You tossed it at him before leaning back on your hands. “You gonna do something to shut me up Jake? Or are you just gonna stand there staring?"

Mesmerized by the sight before him, it was now Jake's turn to nod silently in response to you. He took your hips in his hand and jerked you closer to the edge of the bed, smirking at your surprised filled gasp. It was then that he leaned forward to kiss you, and you could feel the wooden cross resting against your neck.

You got lost in his kiss, and as your fingers intertwined in his hair you didn’t realize that he was using his free hand to slide down the elastic of his sweats. You remained ignorant until you could feel his dick sliding against your cunt, and in response your eyes shot open. Your mouth opened to speak but the only noise that exited your swollen lips was a high pitched sigh.

“Seems like that did the trick nicely, huh?” He purred against your ear. One of his arms was planted firmly to the side of your head, his free hand holding his erection, guiding the head of it up and down your folds at an antagonizing pace. Your lack of response had him on a high. “Have anything left to say to me angel?”

You took a deep breath, your chest brushing against his. You took a second to contemplate your next words before allowing them to pass through your lips. “You talk a lot of shit for someone that’s been apparently wanting to fuck me all week.”

The silence after your sentence was the cue that Jake needed to slip inside of you, eyebrows raised as if that was the response to your attitude. He let his length pull out almost completely before granting you one forceful roll of his hips. “I’ve been desperately wanting to fuck you all week. Now that I have you, I’m going to make it last as long as I want it to.”

You clenched around his cock, forcing his eyes to shoot downwards and he stared, mesmerized. He was overstimulated from the sound of just how wet he made you, the warmth that encompassed him and the pure raw sight of his movements. He pulled his torso back a bit for a better view and let an animalistic ‘fuck’ roll off of his tongue and through his clenched teeth.

It was damn near agonizing, watching as Jake stared at the connection between your two bodies as his cock slid out of you to the tip before sliding back to the hilt.

Over.

And over.

All the while, Jake simply stared, watching it happen while you tried your hardest to squirm beneath him, buck your hips to meet his, but you were unsuccessful as he held your hips tightly in his grasp.

You groaned his name, reaching for his hand and attempting to wiggle yourself against him. “Jake, I need you to go faster.”

His gaze traveled from your center slowly upwards until he eventually met your gaze. “Oh? You need me to fuck you faster, angel? How about this, if you ask me again, real nicely, maybe then I’ll consider fucking this pretty pussy as fast and as hard as you want me too.”

Never in your life would you expect Jake to speak to you in the way he was, but something about how filthy it made you feel had your eyes rolling to the back of your head. “Jake. Jake please. I’m begging you to fuck me harder.” Your pleading seemed to only slow his hips more. “God damn it Jacob I want to feel you fucking the shit out of me. I don’t know what else I can say.”

The tip of his cock was right at your entrance as you continued to chant please like a broken record ready to be flipped. Having enough of your begging, Jake looped his arm around your back, grabbing at your side and with one rough shove you were flipped onto your stomach. “Get your ass up here for me baby…” His voice was lowered a few octaves as he stared down your now arched back.

It was out of his control, when his hand collided with your ass, and it was the crack that brought him back. Little goosebumps of his handprint rose on your flesh. He gave that area a good squeeze to help relieve any of the aching. “You’ve been a good girl, asking so nicely for my cock… I think it’s time you finally get what you’ve been begging for…”

The moan that tore through you as Jake slid into you was loud enough that you were sure the neighbors would know what was going on, but it wasn’t just the neighbors that heard the sound Jake would have given his life to hear over and over until the day he died. As you slid into the blissful feeling of Jake’s cock pressing against the deepest point it could reach, and caressing it with every snap of his hips, Josh walked through the front door of the apartment.

Josh walked in with his eyes locked on his hand as he tossed his keys into the bowl beside the door. He was babbling about how his dad had let him go early because he had already almost finished what they had met up to do. He didn’t have to travel that far into the apartment to hear the sounds Jake was pulling from you. He stood in awe beside the living room couch, staring at his twin's closed bedroom door.

“R-right there Jake. Please keep doing that.” You nearly screamed, fists grasping at the sheets ahead of you as he pounded himself as deep as physically possible. In response to your plea, Jake’s hands gripped down harder on your hips, indenting the skin.

“I want you to let it out. I want to hear you cum.” His words almost pushed you past your breaking point and you leaned forward to bite down on the sheets to muffle your sounds.

Jake released his hands from your hips, instead wrapping one around your torso, and the other around your throat as he yanked you from the soft sheets below you. He pulled you until you were pressed tightly to his chest, slowing his thrusts as he tilted your head back to meet his lips. “Nice try, angel, but I said I want to hear you.”

Your lips just spewed Fuck over and over again, your mind at an absolute loss for words as his new positioning felt even better than before. Your mantra only encouraged Jake to keep his pace and with one firm bite to your shoulder you were gone. Your whole body tensed and shook against him, high pitched fucked out moans vibrated through the wall and entered directly into Josh’s eardrum.

“You wanna try for another, beautiful?” His voice was low as it bounced from your shoulder. Yet, you were still too high from your orgasm to answer. Jake took his opportunity, the hand upon your throat tightening slightly as he sped his motions once more. The sound of it all was intoxicating, and your increased sensitivity had you tumbling over the edge of the cliff again in what felt like a matter of seconds. Josh heard yet another round of orgasmic grunting and lifted an eyebrow, impressed by the pleasure you were experiencing.

Once you were officially down from your high, Jake pushed you back upon the bed. It was only seconds later when he pulled out and finished on the crease of your back. “Stay right there angel.” He whispered, leaning over to grab the t-shirt you were once wearing, Josh’s t-shirt, and wiped his cum from your skin.

He tossed it to the side and flopped down on the bed beside you, causing you to bounce softly in the air. The two of you sat there for a moment with your eyes closed, but you were startled when you heard a deafening snore rumble from Jake. Your eyelids flashed open and Jake was before you, lips slightly parted and completely out of it.

Carefully, you slid off of the bed and walked to his dresser, pulling out a drawer and stealing one of his t-shirts to cover your torso. The shirt nearly covered your ass, but the bottom of your cheeks flashed as you took steps towards the bathroom to situate yourself before padding down the hallway to get water from the kitchen.

You didn’t remember turning the lights out in the living room, but when you walked down the hallway everything was dark. You cautiously searched for a glass in the cabinet, and once you found one you brought it to the sink and began to fill it with the tap water. That was until you were interrupted, the living room light clicked on, and you could see Josh sitting on the couch, eyebrow raised and a devilish smirk on his lips. His elbow was propped up on the end of the couch, your panties Jake had previously removed now draping from his index finger.

Josh watched you for a minute as you opened and closed your mouth, searching for something to say, before slowly standing from the couch. You felt like prey being stalked, watching as he took step upon step towards you. There was no more space between you and the cabinet, so your back was pressed firmly to the countertop.

“When, uh… when did you get home?” Your voice was shaky as you clenched the glass in your hand tighter, refusing to meet the eye contact you could feel burning through you.

“Oh, angel.” He chuckled, tossing the panties back towards the couch as he finally reached you. “I’ve been home for a while.”

His hands reached for you, landing on your hips and pulling you forward. He noticed the little wince you gave in response to his touch, and his brows furrowed. His eyes dropped to his hands, lifting the t-shirt to sit beneath your breasts. You watched the way his jaw clenched, and one of his hands brushed along your skin until his fingers touched the bruised flesh of your hip. “Are these from him?”

Completely clueless to his worries, you glanced downwards to see five purple circles laying upon your hips, and your first instinct was to bite down on your bottom lip. “Y-yeah. That’s from him.” You confirmed, and as you watched his nostrils flare you made a few soft shushing noises. “It’s okay Josh, I liked it…”

He tsked at your response, shaking his head slowly. “If he’s going to have a taste of you, he can’t be sending you home all bruised.” His complacency to what he had just overheard had your head spinning. Josh lowered his body, taking his hands down with him until his lips were facing those bruises, and he pressed a gentle kiss on each and every one of them. “If I'm going to let him borrow you, I want you returned in the same condition.”

You were speechless, watching his lips cover the purple marks. They travelled up your torso, nipping and kitten licking his way to your breasts. He pressed a long kiss against the bottom of both before standing up straight again, allowing the t-shirt to slide back down. Without a second of warning, he lifted you from the ground, his fingers pressed against the backs of your thighs.

You couldn't help the squeal that escaped you, and he smirked at the sound as he turned around and planted you on the island. “Might wanna quiet down, angel. Wouldn’t want Jake to wake up would you?”

You blinked at him, staring at his hands as they moved once again, this time placing pressure on your stomach. “Lean back for me, angel.”

You listened to his instruction, leaning back on your elbows. He pulled the t-shirt up just enough to expose your chest to him, and you watched as his gaze took the time to stare at every centimeter of skin from there to your cunt. He licked his lips, pulling his bottom lip between his teeth. “So gorgeous for me, angel… Never gonna get sick of seeing you like this.”

Your legs spread at his words, and you cocked an eyebrow at him. “What about this, Josh? Are you ever gonna get sick of seeing this?”

His eyes met yours, his head slowly shaking back and forth for a second before he began lowering himself. “The day I get tired of seeing such an astounding sight, will be the day I die, angel.”

He pressed a kiss just below your belly button, then lifted his eyes to meet yours once more. “And even then I’ll be marveled by you from Heaven.”

As if his words weren’t enough to make you weak, you watched as he let a trail of spit fall from between his lips onto your pussy. The feeling pulled a gasp from your throat, and he watched it for a moment before leaning in to lick a stripe from your entrance to your clit.

The sensation sent a shiver up your spine, and your arms gave in under you. You leaned the rest of the way back, moving one hand to take hold of the edge of the counter over your head, and the other travelling into the curls on his head.

“Fuck Josh… feel so good.”

One of his arms had wrapped itself around your thigh, but the other hand, that one was following closely after his tongue, teasing over your entrance. The last two orgasms you had left you sensitive, so as he sank two of his fingers into you, you clenched around him, a whimper slipping from between your lips.

His thumb replaced his tongue, rolling over your clit in time with the rhythm of the fingers he was pumping in and out of you. He straightened himself out enough to look down at your face as your brows furrowed and your lips parted, his name escaping from your mouth in breathy moans. “Did he make you feel good, angel?”

You lifted your head to look at him, an eyebrow cocked. “Seriously, Josh?”

He smirked at you. “Did. He. Make. You. Feel. Good?”

Every word was punctuated with the thrusting of his fingers, and each thrust made a choked moan fall from your lips. “He did. He did make me feel amazing.” Your eyes rolled in the back of your head because at your words Josh let his mouth encompass your clit, his tongue flicking rapidly against the sensitive bud.

Eyes locked on the performance before you, Josh hollowed out his cheeks from the extra suction he had placed upon you and he shook his head back and forth softly to only further the sensation. It wasn’t until you felt his warm tongue drop down and lick a strip upwards that you couldn’t help yourself and let a full chested moan escape through parted lips, your head leaning back so far that it was now hanging off the counter.

“Jo-Josh please keep doing that you’re gonna make me—“

As he used his one hand to continuously thrust his fingers inside of you, the other hand snaked up your body to grab your tit and hold you in place. He continued to work effortlessly with his tongue, and you turned your head to the side to let out yet another lustful song.

Jake was standing in the doorway to his bedroom now, one hand gently rubbing his tired eyes as the other held upon the top of the door, his weight leaning on it slightly. All he could see was you, naked on the island, breasts bouncing in rhythm to Josh’s thrusts. He let his tongue glide across his bottom lip and as you watched him, Josh pushed you to your release.

Managing to keep your eyes open, you kept eye contact with Jake through your orgasm, watching as his dick grew harder with every moan you released.

If you’d like to be added to the taglist, send me a dm, ask, or fill out my taglist form!

@amouratomique @godlygreta @castlebythesea @joshkiszkas @celestialfauna @streamsofstardust @fireandsaltydogs @vulture-withafile @lupinevanfleet @garagebandvanfleet @weightofdreams-gvf @silverstormgvf @somedayrikersomeday @allieboop @subtleintellect @chana-gvf @the-chaotic-cow @dannythedog @heatmyfleet @screechesincoherently @trafficwasabitch @fleetsonfire @xserenax-13 @doodle417 @gvfrry @agirlwithmanytastes @b3l1nda @gretavanfleas @brokenbellz @freckled-wonder @st4rdust-ch0rds @sarakay-gvf @angelbabyivy @irrevocably24 @basiccortez @s0livagant @grace-gvf @abbynotsonormal @ashabeannn @fetaransleet @gvfgroopie19 @the-weightof-dreams @kayleea122 @georgesstripedpants @carlybubs @ryegvf @obetrolncocktails @prophetofthedune

#devs recs #jakerecs #joshrecs

329 notes · View notes

survivorreelsmagicwithin · 4 years ago

Text

Episode 2 - “Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk” - Joshua (through Autumn)

I hate flag-making challenges. I will not be helpful at all, and I hope that someone else can take the reigns and lead us to victory. I honestly feel safe going into a tribal council, but I do not want to test that theory.

Next morning

With Chips and Jules working on the crest designs, I feel confident that we will do well in the challenge. Maybe not the best, but definitely not the worst. I still have the same anxious feeling that my tribe is not active enough for my taste, but I will just have to live with it for now. Besides, at least this is not immunity because that we increase my anxiety by so much. But, I keep forgetting to search the idol hunt which is my bad, but it is just so hard and long that I do not really feel like searching all the time lol

ART CHALLENGE <333 i love these challenges. Jess made my picture 110% better and its super cute. The note that she wrote with it is also hella cute and I love the whole HP aesthetics bc i never got to go to real hogwarts ;-; but i'm sure most of yall can related. The boys weren't too helpful but nick was better than jacob who is sick. Nick was way more active aka jacob said 3 sentences the entire challenge sooooo…. if we lose idk I might just save jacob anyways bc pregame relations.

Won reward, but now we have to win immunity again. I really hope that this reward helps us continue to survive. I don't want to have to vote anyone out. We've been getting first, but I really just want to survive this challenge, its known to be hard.

I think I have been stuck with the second most challenge inept tribe in the history of my ORG career. I literally said so many answers in my version of the story and Jules just fucked it up. And then they got the girl's name wrong. And then they started mixing up characters. I know I did well, but fuck these people. God. Now we need a tribe to get 0 which is very unlikely. I will just resign myself to tribal. I hope and pray that these people have some common sense and do not want to vote me out

Listen. Listen. Listen. I dang knew this story was going to be Harry Potter based. I knew in my brain and in my heart that I shouldn’t have been the one to start that thing. What do I do? Start the dang thing. Oh well. We did alright. I would be shocked if we won tho but if we don’t I’ll be relieved. I def don’t feel confident enough but I really had a lot of fun with my tribe. I really miss this and really hope that my time isn’t cut short! I feel really good about my tribe mates sincerely. And that’s kind of scary! I would hate to see any of us to go and how it’s going to affect the bond we have if we vote someone out. In this moment with Max sitting out, it may be him who goes if we go to tribal. I hope that isn’t the case. I’ve got my fingers crossed for us. Huff Puff strong!

Honestly Jules dropped the ball sis!! But it’s okay, I love her. She’s really nice and I know she tried her best. Plus she’s in an alliance with me and Owen, so we should have the numbers against Joanna or Miguel if we go to tribal. Personally, I’d prefer Joanna to go. She’s kinda domineering, but she’s also an asset in challenges thus far. She is organized and direct. I’ve also talked to her a bit more than Miguel, so I guess I don’t really care who goes.

I’m happy I didn’t fuck up the reward comp and the shit that I drew got us a win!

I really hope I don't bomb that challenge, I answered everything that Kevin talked to me about.... I think! The rest of them tried very hard but I am SOOO glad that I asked to do my part at the end because my memory of repeating things is horrendous but I'm usually pretty good at bullshitting test answers... too bad I got some of the multiple choice stuff wrong.

I think that if we do lose I am still in a good spot on this tribe and hopefully I won't be in danger. I feel like I'm on everyone's good side and Max kind of just disappeared so maybe we could just vote him out this round? Idk.

Hopefully we don't have to worry about it. I smell a swap coming up pretty soon and I just hope I'm either with Owen or with some of the people from my tribe. I have no idea if they know anyone or are close with anyone in the other houses.

I'm still feeling the closest to Lily and Kevin but I have been talking to Landen a good bit too these days so hopefully we'll be safe or we can all just agree on Max.

16 minutes later

OOOOOH IS LANDEN PAVING THE WAY FOR A MOVE TO SEND MAX PACKING???

He just told me that me, lily and kevin are precious angels that must be protected and that he likes Max when he's around too so that sounds like something... HMMM...

I can't get cocky, I always go home when I get cocky. But I like this.

my host chat saw this first (shout-out to Drewie and Dennis): Y’all I’m an idiot. I thought I only knew 2 people in this game (Owen and chips). Then I remembered I also know Jess, Autumn, and dan. Literally love and respect each of you my brain just don’t got the strongest memory no more. I’m so sorry!!!! I literally just told landen I only know 2 ppl. I’m just gonna try to not remember it happened.

Ugh.....I need to get it together.

I love my tribe talking to each other now that we have to!! Everyday I'm like damn either I'm on the bottom or I'm not the only one with piss poor social game. Ok so... the moment the hosts said we got 1 point, I started getting ready for tribal lmaaaooo. No sense crying over it either because all the tribes basically just had to show up in order to beat that

Like how could we not go to tribal with a score of ONE? That shit's embarrassing hahaha. That's like when your teacher passes the test back to everyone sitting around you but not you so you KNOW it's bad. But you know what? It's all good cause I'd rather us take the L now and get it out the way and we can all laugh about it cause losing won't be funny after long. The real question is: will Gryffindor do this the easy way or the hard way caaauusse we all know who the weakest link is. I just wanna see if someone puts two and two together without my prodding. Chips already said we voting together right and I'm like yes sir. There's no better place than being on the same page

WE WON OMG!! Jules basically gave me nothing, which is fine, i understand, but i'm so impressed that we pulled that off. Absolutely killing these reward challenges really helps!

"Y'all. Vote me out fr cause I'm inactive as fronk."

Tonight we learned Joshua is a feminist selfless man that I stan because he's volunteering to go home without me having to put his name out, which I was going to do. Like imagine if every guy had that kind of self-awareness, to recognize why he should be the vote and then embrace it instead of wreaking havoc. And wanting to see others succeed more than yourself? King shit! He knew when to hang it up and did just that. Like the number of times I've seen a vote get complicated for no fucking reason because everyone wants a fight to the death. Enough- I'm old, tired, and cannot exert too much energy at once. We got a long game ahead of us, not to mention quarantine. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you Joshua. We need more players like you and I appreciate your service

im back back BACK AGAIN with another confessional! not much has changed but a few updates for the sake of these being required :) 1. max has become even more inactive, he's not reached out to me personally since the first day and any time i messaged him after that he's sent me nothing back that i can build a convo off of, so we just have stopped speaking. Luckily this challenge only required four people and everyone else SHOWED UP!! or at least spoke about their availability, while he did not. However in his defense he said he was having some issues at home and i feel for him but his inability to connect has been an issue before he spoke about anything in our tribe chat with us. I'm trying to give him the benefit of the doubt but this point my relationships with the other 3 are leaps and bounds ahead of where I am at with Max. Maybe he can pick up some speed if we continue winning challenges but, it's not looking too hot. SPEAKING OF CHALLENGES, well first we lost reward AGAIN, but we won immunity.. AGAIN! thank goodness for not being first or second boot, i always love being able to avoid these early tribals and if i can get to a swap without seeing one that would be ideal, but also if we do go and maybe vote out max? wouldn't be the worst thing. Moral of the story we won and thats exciting! however.. if we didn't.. the first big push of strategic talk came up with landen when he hinted at being frustrated with max's lack of presence which I also share. I do believe if we lost me and landen could have most definitely picked up ruthie and lily to form a four against him, if he even came to tribal. That would be my ideal situation and if we continue on this tribes hopefully it gives me a nice cushion to fall on if we do lose so i dont have to entirely blow up my social game within the first few rounds by voting out someone i've built a connection with. If max can go and the remaining four hufflepuffs can make a swap I would feel good about that, and maybe in the right circumstances we could work together on the swapped tribes because i genuinely like all of these people (yes max too but in this specific scenario he wouldn't be included bc... well..) anyways to close this off i still absolutely ADORE lily, she is fun and our conversations are really good, and same goes for ruthie, hopefully i dont have to see either of them or myself go home before we can really start playing because i think we could do some damage. :) ok anyways this was longer than i thought it would be goodbye

I'm still not over the fact that I was able to answer 7 of those questions right. I have the memory of a plastic fork. I also love that we are SAFE!

I do kind of hope things get spicy and we swap this round and become two tribes of 9. That'd be cute. I don't want VI to get bored and crack on me. BUT ALSO I think I have solid enough relationships with almost everyone on this tribe... so who knows?!

Also... these hoes really out here trying to search for an idol in PUBLIC. IN PUBLIC. WHAT ON EARTH IS GOING ON HERE?

Dear diary, seems like we keep winning challenges, which is great but tbh i feel like every time i give a disadvantage to my team because english is not my first Language, and so far its been a vocabulary test and a listening and speaking test. I mean I knew I signed up for school but damn. Give me some macarena or drinking tequila challenge and I'll crush it

bippity boppity boo im back again with almost no content kdfasjhdskjfh

Ravenclaw working smarter and we keep winning, period!!! Thankful that y'all put Dan and I together....bc truly we will be unstoppable in these competitions. I kind of want to lose soon though to see how things would shake out, but I don't really have bad blood with anyone. Joanna seems passionate enough in the tribe chat and the challenges, even if she's dry in PMs. Miguel still won't give me anything other than a "how are you," but I hope the best for him in life lol

Still love Jules and Dan, and we made a three person alliance, but I haven't talked with either of them much one on one since it happened.... I really need to step the social game up eventually, but right now, I'm coasting, and maybe that's what I need before I find the time and resources in this game to strike!!

The idol hunt is hard but Dan seems onto something. Honestly he's gonna be a big threat sooner or later so he's sticking around as long as I can keep him! The last two games I've been in I've seen "goats" get dragged to the end and locked in final 3 positions, and then these perceived goats have ended up winning. so I want the big players in this game to rise to the top and fight it out in the end!

let’s say i am como we dice.. fed up with a lot :flushed: a lot meaning joshua starting to get on my nerves a bit! he’s genuinely sweet n all but.. the way he complained about us losing by putting down others work HHH pissed me off. which is why i will be voting him out hehe.. but so far my misting has worked because no one wants to vote me out! mwah

Slytherin killed the memory challenge. We thought we were all gonna flop bc all of us thought we sucked at memory stuff. um well we knocked it out of the park? Ravenclaw got 4 and huff/gryff got 1. We got 7 so oops. I do hope things turn out well for Gryffindor but no one I really know/care about is in that house so I'm not too worried. I hope they continue to lose or even hufflepuff since ravenclaw has 2 of my friends in it.

I have been TERRIBLE with confessionals but only because there's really not been much going on? I have an alliance with Dan and Owen, and even though I wrote off Joanna I was DEFINITELY wrong in doing that. Miguel is sort of the outlier. Our team is kinda iconic though? We've done so well on all the challenges. I might be the weakest link? More to come.

it's pretty sad but the whole tribe has agreed to vote max if we lose, basically he's just never around because of what's going on at home and like thats sad but... we gotta do what we gotta do *shrug*. I'm really feeling good about Hufflepuff moving forward, i've never bonded this much this easily with EVERYONE on a tribe and i just feel like if we keep winning or even if we lose and have to vote out max, we could be a great group for the future. especially i feel great about working with kevin, we dominated eve's game after eve came between us in 2020 that dastardly witch... :P (juuust kiddin. love ya!) but now we could totally do well in this game too i think.....

lily and ruthie are just so sweet and we really bond talking about pretty much anything,, especially lily is a great conversationalist and i just find it so natural to talk to them both. i'd love to work with any combination of people from hufflepuff in the future, hopefully i start sucking a little less at all these challenges. i think i did pretty great on memory :D

So here is the summary of what has happened since last time

We had a reward challenge that was drawing. Mine sucked. Apparently 3/4 so no reward.

We played Telephone. My team didnt realize that details are the most important parts of that and didnt share then with Autumn so Autumn didnt share them with me. Then I didnt know them when asked about them.

We scored 1 point and lost. Since I still have no alliance I'm scared that it could be me. So I kind of got an idea how everyone was feeling.

Juls let me know she wanted to vote Joshua and- it's not me so that's fine!

Then I was talking to Autumn about it and - OOP! Josh asked to be voted out. So unless he plays an idol I'm supposing he is leaving after asking to go.

woo my tribe won immunity!! we are safe! i’m glad bc i’m forming good relationships with ppl on my tribe. i think we all get along rly well so i hope we keep winning. the challenge was fun and i slayed bc i’m skinny mwah

Ya know what’s refreshing? Being on a tribe that actually wins!!! The last three games I’ve played I’ve been on flop ass starting tribes.

Now we’ll lose every challenge

10 minutes later

This sickening bitch just found a hidden immunity idol!!!! Good until f6 L A D I E S!!!!!!

HI BARBS SO I WAS GROUNDED SO I MISSED THE CHALLENGE BUT MY HUFFLEPUFF BABS SLAYED SM SO IM LIVING

CONFESSIONAL 2.1 —

Not much strategy has happened this episode, just simply tribal bonding! We are SlytherWINNING, getting reward and immunity this time! How wonderful.

Regarding my tribe mates, I love all three. I pray, pray, pray we make swap, i do Noh want to be a dirty bad guy and have to vote one out.. yet. Haha.

I was drunk during immunity, one full glass of rum & coke, so I am shocked that we won immunity. Honestly, I feel silly admitting I was drunk to my tribe because... if I can do that when drunk, imagine if I was sober. Competition Beast, duh.

I also gave up my run this round for the tribe to use. Was partially social, partially I just do not understand how to do the Hunt, so I might as well help the greater good. Either way, it comes off positively.

Hoping for a smooth journey for a little longer!

x nick

Joshue has basically quit at this point so I have no fear going into tribal

0 notes

trippz2ill2ace8itout · 5 years ago

Text

⭐🥀TRIGGER WARNING!!

Introducing Last Night At 3AM. I Lost Control. Yet Another Breakdown, I Had about 30 breakdowns. No pity sympathy or attention. && NO I WAS NOT ON DRUGS! I'm over 1 year sober. Alvaro took over (one of my demons/alters) && Dancing Fire (another one) possessed me to the point I almost got a cop call. I don't wanna be a burden &: I wanna save fix care support be there for everyone and everything. I'm sick of being alive. But I can't do anything stupid cuz of me getting concerved to a state institution (which is way different than a mental hospital) cuz I've been in 215 mental hospitals & got diagnosed Critically/Clinically Insane plus over 10+ mental hospitals. All I have is my mom. The breakdowns the vivid flashbacks the mental illnesses getting 10x worse. No treatment will take me cuz I've been to all of them to many times. I can't process anything. My mind imprisons me. I dissociate 89 to 99% of the day. I've been thru every single sorts of treatments/medication I've had trauma 24/7 from 2001-2018. I'm losing my mind. And everyday it's the same thing and people get tired of hearing it.I'm so done with dealing with this everyday. I don't need sympathy. I just don't know man. My mom&& lil brother doesn't want me home, I can't explain what's wrong or going on. I don't wanna be a burden. I'm sorry man. I wanted to self harm again but I didn't. Imagine all my mental illnesses multiplied by 10. Imagine EVERYDAY HAVING VIVID FLASHBACKS AND 22+ Mental Breakdowns a day. I.am sorry if I'm negative. I'm sorry. I just wanna save and fix the world. When people ask me "how are u" idk how much reply. I'm sick of my mind. I feel like darkness is controlling me. I pray A LOT. Alvaro literally possesses me and gets in my body. I have mostly every mental health diagnosis there is. And NO I'M NOT PROUD OF IT I'M NOT BRAGGING OR GLORIFYING It. I just wanna help everyone and everything. Along the my mental health, I have autism, narcolepsy anorexia Etc. My diagnosis list is so long and I don't wanna be known for that. I can't even leave my house. When ever I feel a lil bit better, here comes Alvaro. But again I don't wanna be a burden. It's my job to be there for everyone else NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND. I can't take this anymore. No pity sympathy or attention. I can't seek help cuz then they'll send me to a institution cuz I've been in to many mental hospitals. I'm doing the best I can. But I'm about to snap. I can't function. And I'm getting worse. I don't want attention I want to be OK. I've dealt with all this hell most of my life. It's hard to explain. On top of that. My physical state is getting worse. I'm finding more reasons to die than to live. I'm over 1 year sober. I'm a huge hypocrite when it comes out taking my own advice. I don't love myself. But i am over caring sensitive and I help obsessively. I repeat myself idk I'm just not OK. I'm losing contact with reality. I'm scared to keep going. But I got this.🥀⭐

🥀⭐Your Enough

Your Worth It.

Your Life Has Purpose

This To Shall Pass

Im here for all y'all in anyway I possibly can.

I'm sorry if I'm annoying. I'm sorry

Stay Strong && Keep Breathing ⭐🥀

🌙🌙🔥🔥🖤🖤🥀🥀HUGE TRIGGER WARNING🥀🥀🖤🖤🔥🔥🌙🌙

🥀🥀🔥🔥Hey my name is Izzy && I'm a recovering drug addict && alcoholic with over 1 year sober. This is the longest I've been sober being out of treatment. I've used mostly every drug there is. Being homeless 13 times. In 215 mental hospitals. In 3 foster homes (2 out of 3 were abusive) group homes, unlocked and locked treatment centers, rehabs shelters, crisis centers. Short and long term treatment centers. Which none will take me back cuz I've been there to many times. I've sold myself && got tortured abused raped drugged up for drugs and money to raise my unbio son, Anthony. I lost custody cuz of false accusations. I've had multiple near death experiences (some were suicide attempts && some were naturally done) my drug of choice was meth. I've had trauma 24/7 from 2001-2018, over 10+ mental illnesses. Some were caused from a few bad trips on PCP that I never came back from. I was sleeping anywhere I could rest my head, I had to be alert at all times. Tbh I havent been to a meeting in awhile. My sponsor is like family to me. I'm redoing all my steps. I'm on step 2. I've lost a shit ton of people to drugs and I was literally getting cop calls everyday. Drugs messed with my life. And having this much clean time is amazing. Most of my life I've gotten abused raped, literally tortured and drugged up. Sold. Prostituted, almost killed. But no pity sympathy or attention pls. Any clean time is good time. And I'm proud of all of you in recovery drug addiction is a special kinda hell. Drugs become your priority and your best friend. I got tortured on the daily by people coming in one by one torturing me from orders from Kimberly (my ex fiance who hung herself in front of me) it was one by one. I got so caught on in drugs that it was the only way I knew. I used to numb the pain. I'm so blessed I found God again. Now I have 22+ mental breakdowns a day every day. I found out it had a lot to do with my drug use.🔥🔥🥀🥀

🥀🖤Thank you for breathing even when u wanted to die. Drugs kill you. There's nothing about it to be proud of its serious. You Matter Yo Important Yo A Someone Yo Enough Yo Worth It Yo Have A Purpose, Yo Have A Story, A Message, A Voice, A Reason, Yo A Warrior, A Soldier, A Survivor, A Fighter. You Are U && NoOne Can Be You, But YOU. Your Life Matters YOU MATTER, Yo Life Has Value &% I'm Glad Your Alive. Thank U For Being Alive. People say that I help everyone and everything obsessively && I don't stop. It's very true. This is a shout out to my unbio son that I raised as my own, Anthony Castillo-Martinez, I met him at one of the many abusive foster homes. Where it was owned illegally by Andrea/Angela && Jimmy Miller. We got tortured daily. They were not licensed foster parents. I met Lil Toni there and I escaped with him to meet up with Kimberly. We lived in a run down hotel in LA. I became homeless again. Toni got me through so much and even tho I can't find him (he's been gone for years) your my lil baby. I will always love u. U are my world and one day I hope to see u again. I hope you have a good home now. Going to school. Just doing well in general. And I'm sorry for you witnessing what Kimberly was doing to me. I love u babes with all my heart. 🖤🥀

🖤🔥🥀I failed Cedar House twice. This was a rehab in San Bernardino, California. I lied my way out. And I regret it. Funny thing is I already read the entire NA Basic Text && The AA Big Book. I have multiple sobriety apps on my phone and I have an app that that has NA && AA Speakers on it. I'm reading the How && Why and I'm so proud of myself && I couldn't have got this far without my sponsor, Jaclyn. She understands me better than any sponsor I've had in recovery. Here's a list of my mental disorders, some were caused Or made worse by drugs and alcohol🥀🔥🖤

🌙🔥🔥Schizo-Affective, Bipolar

ADHD, OLD, ODD,

PTSD, Insomnia

Depression, Anorexia

Anxiety, Autism

Borderline Personality Disorder

Severe Brain Damage

Attachment Disorder

Dissociative Identity Fund..

Multiple Personality Disorder

Narcolepsy, Critically/Clinically Insane🔥🔥🌙

🖤🥀Listen I don't need your pity, sympathy or attention these were all diagnosed by over 5 psychiatrists, and diagnosed "Insane" by over 10 doctors. DO NOT SELF DIAGNOSE!!!! Anyways. I attempted suicide over 100 times. Self harmed in anyway possible. They say I'm the most high maintenance case in the system of California. And the next time I go to a mental hospital I'm getting sent to a state institution. I would do anything to get drugs. Jeremy && Izzie Baraz were my street partners. They both passed away. All I have left in blood family is my mom and brother. My mom. Says if I pick up drugs one more time I'm never aloud back in her house. My dad injected me with meth and heroin at age 9, he also tortured me daily. He passed away in 2011. I'm glad he's dead. But I take full responsibility for my drug and alcohol habits. And I hope I never go back. One Day At A Time.🥀🖤

🔥🥀This To Shall Pass, If Not Today There's Always Tomorrow

God, Grant Me The Serenity

To Accept The Things I Cannot Change

The Courage To Change The Things I Can. &&

The Wisdom To Know The Difference

Amen🥀🔥

🔥🔥Keep Coming Back It Works If You Work It🔥🔥

🔥🔥A Moment Of Silence, For The Addict Who Still

Suffers, In And Out Of These Rooms🔥🔥

🔥🔥Staying Clean, Im Never Going Back🔥🔥

🥀🖤I almost relapsed again on New Year's. I almost asked a stranger to buy me Vodka. But God told me to stop.

I'm Always Here 4 All Of You, No matter What.

I'd Do Anything To Keep Y'all Alive && Breathing. To Make U OK. to Save && Fix U && Take Your Pain Away. I Love Y'all. Keep Coming Back.🖤🥀

0 notes

choisgirls · 8 years ago

Note

Hey hey! I was wondering if you could do one where the RFA find out that MC is an underground MMA fighter? Like, they come home from a fight with a bruise or two because they allow one hit before K.O.? (I'm one, so I was just wondering ^^)

A/N: I’ve always wanted to do MMA, but I endedup sticking with boxing instead ^^ So it’s really cool to hear you’re a MMAfighter!!!!!! omg!!!!! ~Admin 404

*YOOSUNG:

-He noticed when you came home witha few bruises here and there

-But never thought anything of it!He’s clumsy and runs into things all the time

-It’s possible that you’re the sameway!

- secretly hopes you’re the sameway so he’s not the only one

-But one day you came home with ablack eye??

-MC WHO HURT YOU??? *HIGH PITCHED SCREAMING*

-You tell him that it’s no problem!It happened in your most recent match, you just weren’t expecting them to aimfor the face

-Match?? What match? You promise totake him to your next one so he can see just what you mean by“match”. IS IT LIKE AN LOLOL MATCH, MC???

-He was honestly so worried foryou!!! Oh my GOD WHAT IF YOU GET SERIOUSLY HURT, MC????? You did your ritualwhere you allow the opponent one or two hits, and he almost fainted at thesight of you getting hit, but, after those two hits though…. It was time foryou to finish it. One hit knock out, the opponent is down! HOLY SHIT MC THAT’SAMAZING WHAT???

-HE’S SO PROUD OF YOU!!! Omg his s/ocan kick some serious ass!! #1 fan from now on!!! Never worried about yougetting seriously injured, but does worry a little when you get black eyes. lowkeyexcited because wow so strong, you could be really dominant (did i really justbring that up im sorry)

*ZEN:

-He notices any bruises immediately

-whO OR WHAT DARES TO LEAVE THESEBRUISES ON HIS PRECIOUS MC???

-He’ll fight anyone who hurts you!!Or anything!!

- imma fuCK UP THIS TABLE FORGIVING YOU A BRUISE, COME AT ME TABLE

-So when you come home with aparticularly large bruise on your ribs

-Not only was he worried, but LIVID

-You didn’t really want to tell himabout you being an MMA fighter because you know he’d worry! And not want you tofight because you’re his angel and he doesn’t want you hurt!

-But you told him anyway and youswear his eyes almost popped out of his head. He wasn’t as mad about it likeyou thought he would be? Instead he stuttered out that he wanted to come watcha match of yours, ya know, to make sure you were safe and all

-HE LITERALLY STANDS RIGHT UPAGAINST THE CAGE! He wants to be as close as possible if something goes wrong!Not to mention he just really wants to see how good you are! When he saw youropponent get a hit on you his heart sank and his first thought was, “ohno, MC’s gonna lose”. But?? You hit the other person once and they hit thefloor? He knew he was able to land one punch knock outs but? You can too? HolyshIT THAT’S AMAZING? MC LETS WRESTLE SOME TIME if you catch my drift

-He was so proud of you!!! Likes totell everyone he can that the two of you are the Badass Couple™ and you shouldn’t be messed with. Though he still likes to fawn overyou like you’re his angel because!! You’re so precious to him! He likes feelinglike the knight in shining armour let him have this pls

*JAEHEE:

-She’s used to mysterious bruises aswell

-The girl does judo, come on

-The two of you honestly dancedaround the actual reasons the two of you had bruises

-Until one day, she decided sheshouldn’t need to hide it

-If you truly loved her, youwouldn’t care if she took part in a rough sport

-You completely supported her!! Youtold her that you’re an MMA fighter and that’s where you get your bruises from

- y'all are the owners of the Don’tFuck With Us Squad™

-So, after attending and cheeringyour heart out for her at one of her matches, she just knew she had to go beyour number one supporter at yours!

-SCREAMED UNTIL HER LUNGS GAVE OUTFOR YOU! Oh my GOD THAT WAS AMAZING MC, ONE PUNCH KNOCK OUT! The people aroundher were honestly a little afraid because as much as she screamed in support ofyou, she also got very angry at your opponent. “WHAT THE FUCK! DON’T HITMY MC LIKE THAT, THAT MOVE HAS TO BEILLEGAL!”

-She tries to go to as many of yourmatches as she can!! She knows what it’s like to relieve stress with judo, andassumes that MMA is your stress outlet; she’s 110% for it!

*JUMIN:

-He’ll notice any bruises on yourbody IMMEDIATELY

-He keeps a mental log of ones heputs on you during intimacy, so if there’s one that’s out of place in his mind

-He KNOWS it’s not from him andimmediately quizzes you on it

-MMA fighter? You? But… you’re hissoft little kitten

-There’s no way you couldparticipate in this violent sport. What if you got hurt? He couldn’t standthat. Nope. No way

-He tried to ban you fromparticipating but you’ve been a fighter for so long, you love it! You couldn’tjust give up like that, and you refused.

-You convinced him to come to amatch of yours so you could prove to him that you’re one of the best around!There’s no way you’d get seriously injured!

-He finally agreed after a few daysof begging, and decided to show up to your match. Might I add that he sTOOD OUTLIKE A SORE THUMB. Who wears a suit and is surrounded by so many body guardshere come on

-You decided to mess with him alittle, and allowed your opponent to get a few hits in to the face before youtook your shot. With a glance Jumins way, you could see him already pushingpeople out of the way to get to the cage, and you could hear his shouting foryou to stop the match over the crowd. After you’ve decided you’ve scared himenough, it was time to prove your point- so with one blow, you knock youropponent to the ground as they lay unconscious

-He was completely in awe?? Heimmediately ate his words and was honestly proud of how well you could holdyour own in something so violent. Makes a note to call you his feisty kittenfrom now on, and agrees to let you continue. also lowkey turned on at howaggressive you can be holy shit mc, waddup

*SAEYOUNG:

-Unlike Jumin, he…cannot keeptrack of what bruises he gives you during intimacy or…whatever stupid thingthe two of you were trying to do saeran begs the two of you to stop tryingto jump off the fridge he’s tired of cleaning up the mess afterwards

-So he doesn’t realize when you havea few new bruises here and there

-Well, until there’s one largebruise on your rib cage

-??? He’s never done anything togive you that bruise… did he?

-OH NO MC I’M A TERRIBLE PERSON I’MSO SORRY SWEETHEART I LOVE YOU PLEASE

-You have to calm him down and tellhim that, no, he didn’t give the bruise to you, you got it from the match youcompeted in the other day

-There was no stopping the gigglethat came out when you saw how cute he looked when he was confused

-You told him you’d take him to thenext match, so he could watch you!! He showed up decked out in gear with yourname on it. CHEERED SO LOUD WHEN THEY ANNOUNCED YOUR NAME!! Security had todrag him away from the cage a few times before the match started as well because he kept trying to get in and drag you out

-He knew you were strong-willed, butwhen he saw the other guy get a hit on you, he was worried? Did yourstrong-will not match your physical strength? That’s not possible. So, when youhit your opponent with the K.O., he screamed so loud!! Cheered louder than anyother person in the room!!

-“GO MC!!! THAT’S MYMC!!!!” Ran to you afterwards and hugged you so tight! But now he didn’thave to worry about breaking you! HE CAN HUG YOU AS HARD AS HE WANTS Y E S.He’ll still worry a lot about you, though! You’re his everything,that’s not something that’s gonna change, no matter how good you are

*V:

-NOTICES EVERY LITTLE THING ABOUTYOUR BODY AT ALL TIMES

-MC IS THAT A BRUISE OMG ARE YOUOKAY???? v, that’s dirt, im fine please calm down

-So no matter how hard you try tocover up a light bruise on your leg, he will still notice it

-Asks if you ran into the tableagain, and if he should just move it

-“Are you sure? It’s not aproblem to just move it a little…completely…out of the house so it stopshurting you” “V you aren’t getting rid of the table”

-You have to sit him down when youtell him that you got it in a match, and that you’re a MMA fighter

-FEAR IN HIS EYES

- Demands Asks if you couldtake him to your next match because he wants to see what MMA is exactly

-He had no doubts that you couldhold your own but still flinched when you took a few hits. His smile was brightenough to light up the god damn WORLD when he watched you knock your opponentout in one hit!! He’s not one to condone violence, but doing this made youhappy! And as long as you’re happy and safe, he’s okay with it!

-Goes to every match he can from nowon and takes pictures of you in action because?? Holy shit? It’s amazing? Thegraceful yet powerful way you move, your muscles, evERYTHING! But at the end ofthe day, he’ll kiss every bruise you get so you’re reminded that he still caresabout your wellbeing

*SAERAN:

-Hey, he might leave a number ofbruises on you when the two of you are intimate

-But NOTHING that dark

-Or painful looking

- who the FUCK AM I KILLING, MC

-“There’s no way you’re an MMAfighter, you’re too cute”

- what the fuck did you just sayto me

-You have to drag him to a match ofyours where he sits by the cage and looks uninterested

-But also highkey stressed outbecause whAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE, MC, YOU’RE GOING TO GET KILLED IN THERE

-One hit, two hits- your opponentstarts to think you’re an easy match to win, and Saeran is freaking out at thispoint. What did he say?? He TOLD you that you’re TOO CUTE TO ACTUALLY- woahwait a minute, did you just K.O. the other person?? wHAT? HOW?? MC?? mc imturned on now what the fuck

-Embarrassed as all hell when heapologizes for doubting you, and tells you that he’s really proud! He reallylikes it! He’ll come to every match and practically screams at your opponentwhen they get a hit on you people start wondering if maybe he should be in the cage

403 notes · View notes