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ello !

how the hell has it been 44 days since i posted ☹️ i literally . i. okay.

i have four drafts that are NEARLY DONE. one of them is the long awaited pt. 2 of the sub!chuuya fic, one of the is a ray (mystic messenger) x reader NSFW, a NSFW atsushi request (thank u atsushi anon and i love u) and the last one is an arcana bachelors fluff :’)

IM DOING MY BEST AND I LOVE YOU AND. AND. I HOPE YOU’RE DOING SO WELL :D

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did anyone ask for it? no. am i still writing a leorio roleplay smut?

next question.

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hii! i just read your one shot about Hawks and his nighmare about his dad and it absolutely broke me😢 could i please request one like that, but with the reader having a dream or flashback about their verbally abusive father? my dad is alcoholic and he can get pretty aggressive, so i could use some comfort from my fave birdboy😔❤

oh my gosh!! babie of course i can write that for you!! i hope you weren’t too upset by the hawks fic, but trust me, he’s going to make you feel so much better ^_^ i hope this brings you the comfort you deserve !! remember that me and hawks love you so much !

also i’m so sorry this took so long, my dear :( i hope you’re still alright, and my dms are always, always open!!!

☾ genre: angst, hurt/comfort

☾ pairing: hawks x gn!reader

☾ warnings: descriptions of verbal, physical, and emotional abuse, alcohol abuse

☾ w/c: 900

you wished he was with you.

god, you wished keigo was there to protect you right at this moment, just like he always did.

swooping in to save you at the exact moment you needed him, holding onto you for dear life and his arms tenderly snaking around your waist to comfort you-- or rather, to comfort and reassure him-- that you were safe.

but you were alone.

alone in your house, within your very own walls,

the ones you remember clearly despite the years you abandoned them, both in your life and in memory. yet, here they remained-- revealing themselves again in a wretched reminder that all but laughed in your face. alongside them, the memory of a plague of a man who had always made an effort to be latched onto you for far too long-- the man you thought you had finally escaped.

the thumping of his heavy, drunken footsteps proved otherwise, however.

he called your name, in the voice that caused so much fear in your soul for too many agonizing, terrifying years.

“do you— know what time it is?! you came home so— so— late,” he hiccuped. his smell filled your senses, igniting the dormant adrenaline rush of fear. and as if you already had no argument to defend yourself with, you had absolutely no idea what he was talking about.

“i- i’ve been here. i didn’t... go anywhere, dad,”

you’re shaking.

“what the fuck are you talking about?! i haven’t seen you all night, and suddenly you pop out-- out of nowhere?” his voice is so loud as he yells. god it’s so loud, “are you telling me i’m wrong?!” he spat.

“n-no! i-... i’m sorry, dad... i just-“

“you just what?!” he came into view finally, his figure sparking even more fear, more than you ever remember feeling, “spit it out, i wanna hear your-- your fucking excuse.”

you flinched, his body moving closer to yours with heavy, miscalculated steps.

“what’s your fucking problem? answer my QUESTION!” his voice boomed, his arm lifted in a position to come back down, his rancid breath fanning onto you,

...

...and he disappeared.

your eyes shot open as you sat up with a start, your breathing erratic to the point of making your lungs burn. you hadn’t had the chance to even asses your surroundings when you curled yourself up, hyperventilating and rocking back and forth. the wet stain of your tears sunk into your slacks as you brought your knees to your face. oh god.

he’s back, you thought.

the panic spiraled throughout your entire being, feeling as though you were right back to where you were all those years ago. suffocated, terrified, alone, cold, alone, alone...

alone.

“hey, hey... shh...” a soft voice called to you, trying to break you out of your trance. you jumped as a warm hand gently held your shoulder, your panic-stricken figure thrashing in response. the source of the touch, you found, was none other than your loving boyfriend, disheveled from his sleep and now from his panic for your well-being... his eyes wide in alarm, but his gentle caress ever so caring.

“shh...” he shushed once again, bringing you close into his chest now noticing how you’d calmed down slightly in realizing his presence, “...was it another nightmare, sweetheart?”

you sniffled, nuzzling your face into his night-shirt and wrapping your arms around his middle. the nightmare replayed in your mind... that feeling of dread seeming to swell as time went on rather than the opposite.

it felt so... real...

you sobbed into his chest, your fingers gripping onto whatever they could for dear life, for just some sort of grounding... some way to feel like you were back in reality.

“hey, honey... i’m here. i’m right here with you. whatever you thought you saw, whatever you thought you felt, it wasn’t real. you’re back in reality now, hm?” he stroked your hair as he soothed you, his voice radiating patience. “i’m always going to be here. no matter what nightmare you dream, no matter what scares you... no matter what. i’m here.”

when it came to comforting words, it was apparent that he tried his best. he really did. and, he also knew that sometimes just his presence held more weight than any words could. so he held you.

he held you tighter, making sure that if your brain couldn’t make sure it was back in your bedroom, that at least it knew he was there now.

and after a while you began to relax, finally being able to fully process the familiar surroundings of your bedroom - and more importantly - keigo. his head was still resting on top of yours, and his arms still remained around your shoulders, holding you as close as he possibly could. his breathing was steady, and you found immense comfort in hearing his heartbeat, and the soft rising and falling of his chest.

“i love you,” he whispered, kissing the top of your head so, so gently.

he saved you. he swooped in at exactly the right time. just like he always did.

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hi u haven't been online for a while, is everything alright? hope you are safe

hi babe !!

sigh. u do not know how much i appreciate this :(

i was expecting to get a lot done this summer, since school this year was absolutely kicking my ass. but i ended up realizing that the relationship i was in at the time was very unhealthy, and getting out of it and getting myself to cut them off completely took more out of me than i thought it would :(

but regardless !! i am fine ! i am here !! thank you all for sticking with me, and many of you for actually checking in on me ??? worrying for me ?????? gosh. i love you so much ^-^

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Hi love! i absolutely love your writing 😍 I was wondering if you could do like the dickcannons thing for the BSD men so like dazai, chuuya, atsushi, akutagawa… (if that’s too many people you can take some off) and like what their fav position is in bed? thank you! <3

HELLO ANON ! AND EVERYONE ELSE !! I’ve been away for a while, life was definitely catching up to me over the summer - you know how it is. Bad breakups and all of that jazz<3

BUT YEAH ! ANYWAY ! i included so much more than you asked for and i am not sorry <3

I also included Ranpo & Kunikida because self-indulgence is a wonderful thing

Bungou Stray Dogs dickcannons, and favorite position/activity in bed (dazai, chuuya, atsushi, akutagawa, ranpo, kunikida)

☾ genre: NSFW headcannons, 18+ loves <3

☾ pairing: chuuya, dazai, atsushi, ranpo, kunikida & akutagawa x gn!reader

☾ warnings: dickcannons, some of their kinks, relationships with them if you squint, just general nsfw what did you expect babes

☾ w/c: 1.8k

— dazai

☾ he’s a bastard for a reason.

☾ sigh.

☾ let's just say, when he's an asshole, it's not because he's overcompensating for something .

☾ he has a big cock, is what i am trying to say basically.

☾ anyway.

☾ and just like how he acts throughout his regular day, you can bet that his teasing stays in the bedroom

☾ dirty talk is big with him, both praise and a bit of light degradation so he likes it when he sees exactly how you react when he teases you

☾ "did i really get you that worked up? i only touched your thigh, bella..."

☾ yes, he calls you bella/belladonna (especially during sex), no, he did not 'only touch your thigh,'

☾ basically, his favorite positions are anything that lets him see your face, taking you from behind is definitely not something he enjoys at all

☾ up against a wall, missionary, lotus are his top three if he had to rank, but just having you at all is enough for him

☾ he isn't too picky, not even about the power dynamic between you

☾ he doesn't mind who's in control at the time, as long as you know that his teasing stops for nothing, unless you want to stop him

☾ and as for his cock, 7 inches, groomed but not shaved completely

☾ (he thinks being shaved completely, for either party, is unnecessary, and really does not care either way)

☾ we knew he was packing i mean :/ !! not 181 cm tall for nothing !

☾ not particularly thick at all, but makes up for it - he knows how to use it

☾ also has more veins than most, making him extra sensitive at times

☾ if you want to make him whine at a volume that will definitely cause your neighbors to file a noise complaint, focus on the tip <3

— atsushi

☾ sigh <3

☾ i love him

☾ anyway

☾ atsushi is so self conscious about his body, that much is obvious

☾ though, he has nothing to be self conscious about

☾ it took several months before you ever saw him fully bare, both of you surviving on dry humping and over-the-pants handjobs

☾ and of course, you weren't going to push him by any means, so you simply waited till he was ready

☾ and man. was the wait worth it.

☾ he was always self conscious because his size and thickness were never a number to boast about, but, would it be odd to call a cock pretty?

☾ that's the only word you had to describe it, at least

☾ the carpet matched the drapes, but there was never enough there that would prompt him to need to groom

☾ the head was always flushed a light pink, contrasting the pale skin that ran along the shaft

☾ he was about 5 inches, and all of it was so sensitive.

☾ that night, he discovered that his favorite position was you on top, in any way shape or form

☾ especially riding him, with him muttering endless praise between breathy whines and moans.

☾ "so - you're so beautiful-" his voice faltered into a moan at a when you bounced on him particularly harsh, "please - don't stop - you feel so good."

☾ that way, he knew he could watch you at all times, and he watched you like something purely ethereal.

☾ he was never a man to take too much control in anything, and that didn't change in the bedroom.

— ranpo

☾ it didn't take too long before ranpo couldn't keep his hands off of you

☾ it was only a few weeks before calling your makeout sessions "heated" was the understatement of the century.

☾ he was always touchy, but that just means there was much more opportunity for him to get carried away

☾ and that night,

☾ oh, he knew exactly how to make you feel good

☾ he was about 6 inches give or take, with above-average girth

☾ definitely above average girth.

☾ and with ranpo, sex is never something serious

☾ he never gets worked up to the point where he has to bend you over his desk right then and there and take you

☾ he has an amazing amount of self restraint

☾ so everything stays light comfortable with him

☾ he isn't a huge fan of taking you from behind, but he isn't opposed to it occasionally

☾ mostly because he likes to slap your ass way too hard and watch the way your body reacts in both surprise and lust

☾ he likes being on top of you, being able to whisper lowly in your ear, so missionary is his go-to

☾ he whispers just absolutely awful things, and loves the way you react

☾ "how many times have you come tonight, princess? hm? did i fuck your voice out of you?" he chuckled, thrusting cruelly once more and making sure it was angled at that spot that made you scream, "oh? so you do have your voice?"

— chuuya

☾ chuuya is also one who takes a bit to warm up to someone in that way

☾ not because he's shy or anxious someone seeing him in that context, but more so because he's afraid to let someone in emotionally

☾ so it was a while before he was ready for something that intimate

☾ and honestly, the night you finally slept together for the first time didn't start out as anything special

☾ it was a regular friday evening, and chuuya returned to his home earlier than expected, finding you lying across his sofa watching the television

☾ this was expected at that point, after all, what else did he expect after he gave you a spare key to his apartment if it wasn't to find you there almost every hour of the day?

☾ you greeted him with a broad smile, striding up to him and wrapping your arms around his waist

☾ he responded with a peck to your temple, both of you silent for several moments before he pulled back to look at you, telling you that he was ready if you wanted to.

☾ and yes, absolutely you were

☾ that was the only night he was particularly gentle with you, both for you and for him, since he hadn't been with anyone in an intimate sense for longer than he'd like to admit

☾ but regardless, after that he was much rougher with you, with your green-light, of course

☾ that night, every position he had you in made sure that he could see your face to gauge your reactions - to see what you liked and didn't like

☾ but, after that?

☾ oh, he likes taking you from behind, and likes to go rough.

☾ his cock is average, both size and girth, about 5 and a half inches (and the carpet matches the drapes)

☾ though, that's why his favorite position of taking you from behind is a blessing to you as well

☾ he always hits that spot in you just right

☾ it also makes it very easy for him to lean over and whisper in your ear if he wants to

— kunikida

☾ oh man.

☾ this man.

☾ 189 cm and it shows. in every way.

☾ though his dick isn't too thick, dear god does he make up for it in length.

☾ he didn't have the most experience before he met you, as he didn't think highly of sex outside of committed relationships, so hookups were never a thing for him.

☾ until he met you

☾ and he learned how to use all 8 inches of him in a way that wouldn't rip anyone in half from the inside

☾ he's a very serious lover, too

☾ sex is an intimate thing that should be scheduled, and done right

☾ you also teach him, eventually, that sex isn't something you put into a schedule, and it's something that's emotional rather than logical & punctual

☾ and, eventually, when he learned and accepted that sex is not, in fact, something you can simply slap on a schedule, he enjoyed it a lot more to his surprise

☾ he likes missionary, unsurprisingly, he's a simple man

☾ but, he also enjoys you riding him more than he thought he would

☾ dirty talk isn't common at all on his end, but that doesn't mean you can't ;)

☾ and he'll never, ever admit it, but god, he loves it.

☾ seeing the way his already flushed face turns into a deeper shade of crimson at your lewd words, oh...

☾ it was worth it.

— akutagawa

☾ predictably, intimacy at all to aku is so foreign to him

☾ patience is key

☾ but he felt safe around you, ever since the first time he met you, which was equally bizarre and frustrating to him.

☾ and almost everyday after officially having you as his partner, he wondered how he was even able to love someone

☾ so after roughly a year and give or take a few months, he brought up the idea of going farther sexually

☾ you'd never mentioned it explicitly, maybe cracked a few jokes which resulted in his cheeks to burn a bright red and him promptly covering his face with the collar of his shirt

☾ you were waiting for him, patiently

☾ and that evening was everything you both craved and so much more

☾ he realized that he really, really liked marking you

☾ aaaaand that he loved it when you praised him

☾ you were his first, which also meant you were the first person to ever see him naked

☾ and that is when he figured out he had a praise kink

☾ he was just above 6 inches, average girth, and the carpet did indeed match the drapes

☾ his face tried to hide the fact that he was nervous, but his body betrayed him - trembling slightly under your gaze, so very nervous that you would change your mind

☾ he would rather die than not be able to see your face during sex, so any position that would prompt your backside to face him was a swift no from him.

☾ he also has quite a bit of anxiety in the idea of giving up control, so if you ever wanted to have him under you, make sure you ease him into it

☾ he ends up absolutely loving it in the end

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hi !! may i please get some cockwarming atsushi nakajima fic/drabble/hcs which ever you are most comfortable with writing!! there are not enough smut about him and i am dying of hornee („• ֊ •„)

HELLO I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE . i will pay you to send in more atsushi reqs </3 i beg </3 he’s my favorite from the show and i agree that his entire nsfw tag is so criminally dry :’)) ANYWAY IM GUNNA KISS U THANK YOU

also hi !! i back :p thank you for sticking around after my mini break ^_^ i love you and i'm so glad to be able to write for you !!! and i hope your day is amazing and i hope you enjoy these shameless self indulgent headcannons :pp

cockwarming with nakajima atsushi (+ drabble)

☾ genre: smut, 18+

☾ pairing: nakajima atusushi x gn!reader

☾ warnings: sub!atsushi, cockwarming lol, soft seggs, dom!sub dynamics, mentions of pet play but just a mention, mentions of a lot of other things ??, lots of pet names for atsushi :p, teasing, dacryphilia ??? sorta ?????? kinda ?????

☾ w/c: 890 words <3

☾ okay so first off, USE COCKWARMING AS PUNISHMENT

☾ he’s always been so sensitive, so being inside you without being able to move, you clenching down on him, teasing him, caressing his body...

☾ as much as you insist on calling it punishment, oh, he never thinks of it like that

☾ he adores it

☾ ofc you know that, but who are you to deny him that pleasure :p

☾ but telling him that if he came while you were punishing him with cockwarming, saying that it’ll be the last time he does for the rest of the week

☾ oh he loves that

☾ because he's a little bottom bitch <3 we love to see it

☾ ALSO!!!!

☾ always praise him.......... the WHOLE entire time

☾ tell him he’s doing so good for you, that he just has to hold on for a little bit longer, that he’s such a good boy, that he’ll get the reward he earned...

☾ usually he isn’t that vocal during sex, only small mewls and whimpers

☾ but when he’s being cockwarmed.... lord have mercy

☾ he’s so loud

☾ high pitched mewls, his voice breaking every time he attempts to whimper or moan or respond to you

☾ his eyes are always screwed shut, head thrown back against the pillow, hands gripping the sheets below him until his knuckles were white, and his mouth agape in a silent scream

☾ cockwarming is definitely one of his favorites, although not his #1

☾ (heehee his #1 is pet play and i won't take criticism he literally morphs into a tiger hello)

☾ but he never needs much convincing at all when you suggest it

☾ he's so game

☾ even if it’s during movie night with the two of you

☾ don’t hesitate to plop right down on his lap and get him all hot and bothered before suggesting

☾ although the can almost predict it at this point— the moment you shift in the seat next to him on the couch— oh boy...... he knows what’s coming

☾ he doesn’t really like cockwarming in the agency or in public at all

☾ he’s too scared of getting caught for that

☾ if kunikida saw that 😐. he’d die of embarrassment.

☾ or god forbid dazai

☾ he wouldn’t enjoy it overall,,,,, too terrified to even be aroused in that situation

☾ but anyway back to vocal atsushi

☾ because no one is really paying any attention to moving and being precise in said movements, he just likes you to look down at him and caress his cheek

☾ just paying attention on solely him

☾ obviously as a kid he wasn’t given any care... like at all

☾ and he’ll never admit it, but he adores it when you just look at him with eyes full of love

☾ it’s easy to show him a lot of care and attention at that point so

☾ SHOW HIM LOVE AND ATTENTION AND CARE. PLEASE.

☾ atsushi is not very dominant as it is, so he doesn't need any sort of physical restraints-- and honestly, i hc that he doesn't really like them

☾ but pin his wrists above or beside his head while addressing him... sheesh

☾ he'll listen to everything you command him to do

☾ he also cries sometimes during sex, whether it be the overwhelming emotions, or the sheer amount of pleasure he’s feeling

☾ or even just because of how much he loves you and how much he appreciates you loving him too

☾ so it’s very common for him to cry during cockwarming

☾ he also does NOT mind teasing-- he loves it

☾ when he isn't listening to you, give him a teasing roll of your hips

☾ i guarantee he will listen to you instantly <3

☾ now because i can't express how much he truly loves teasing with cockwarming in headcannon format, please enjoy this drabble <3

“how are you feeling, baby?” you coo, leaning down to gently stroke away a stray tear that fell across his cheek.

“s-so good...” he whimpered in response, but the way he shuddered and bit his lip showed the evidence of his restraint.

you took notice with a sly raise of your eyebrow, “so good, hm?”

“yes- i- hahhh...” he sighed and his eyes screwed shut with force when you rocked your hips, clenching around him tightly.

“then why can’t i hear you, daring?” you leaned down once again and nipped softly at his earlobe. you reveled in the way his body responded to your warm breath fanning on that sensitive skin.

oh, he was always so sensitive.

"baby, don't you know that good boys get their rewards, don't you?" whispered, and made sure you stayed adjacent to his ear.

"y-yes..."

"and what to bad boys get?"

he looked up at you, doe-eyed and completely undone, "a punishment..."

"that's right, angel, and what are you?"

"a good boy..."

you bit his ear again, harshly this time as you spoke, "whose good boy?"

"yours! only yours...!" he whimpered out, almost thrashing under you, but restrained himself upon remembering his instructions.

"that's right~" you croon, tantalizing tilt present, "and you're doing so good, baby. i always knew you were my good boy... only mine."

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hi everyone!! so a bit of a more serious update post for why i’ve been absent lately—

i’ve been pretty bad mentally so i took a break for about a month, but i should be back soon. a lot of really stressful things have been happening and my ultimate goal is to make sure i’m safe and stay that way. i’m fine so please don’t worry! i just didn’t want you all to think i have left tumblr or abandoned this blog ^_^!! i love you so much and i cant begin to express how much i appreciate you all!

thank you for being so patient with me :)

- nina <3

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— Bookshelf 1, section G

[🥀 - smut

🩸 - angst (tw listed)

🌻 - fluff!]

Edamura Makoto

☾ 🥀 edamura makoto x gn!reader NSFW alphabet [+ drabble]

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give me makoto you fucking bitch 🔫😡

🧍 well that wasn’t nice of you 🙄🙄 but since i’m sick of all the horny posting you do in our dms i’ll give you what you want bestie <3 /j

i hope i feed u enough </3

NSFW alphabet with edamura makoto (+ a drabble)

☾ genre: NSFW, 18+

☾ pairing: edamura makoto x gn!reader

☾ warnings: just general NSFW?? idk bae just filthy stuff <3

☾ w/c: 2,000

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

☾ SO SWEET. SO FUCKING SWEET.

☾ literally so considerate to your every need

☾ he’s always handing you a bottle of water, a cloth to clean yourselves off, and/or suggesting to draw a bath for the two of you

☾ he also always has the biggest lazy smile on his face at the end, and you couldn’t slap it off if you wanted to

☾ he’s just so happy he’s with you

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

☾ he’s never given much thought about what his favorite body part is on himself

☾ but if you really wanted to press him for an answer he would probably say his hands

☾ just because there’s a lot he can do with them, and he knows exactly how

☾ and also he can hold your hand :p he loves holding your hand

☾ if you asked him, he’d say your eyes

☾ bc he’s cheesy and cliché and gross lol

☾ and while he does love your eyes so much, he loves your thighs so much

☾ certified thigh man

☾ he wouldn’t explicitly admit it to your face verbally, but you can figure it out pretty easily honestly

☾ he loves lying in your lap with your thighs surrounding him

☾ and in between them 😁

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum)

☾ pls i hate this category sorry guys

☾ okay anyways next

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

☾ he wants laurent to walk in on you and him

☾ he just wants to know how much differently laurent would treat him if he saw you screaming his name

☾ he’s just curious 😁

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

☾ oh man

☾ virgin 😐.

☾ this is literally cannon

☾ he’s a big fat virgin before he met you

☾ but yknow that’s completely fine because as we’ve seen, we know that he is a very, very fast learner 😁

☾ at first he has no idea what he’s doing though lord help him

☾ and he was super anxious, but after some reassurance from you (and some practice)

☾ lord have mercy

☾ he was absolutely amazing .

☾ he’s so attentive to you, sex with him is ALWAYS catered to you and your enjoyment, and he makes that his goal every single time

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual)

☾ missionary <3

☾ unsurprisingly

☾ he’s not super kinky ?? he just likes sex to be intimate, and what better fitted position is there than missionary when it comes to intimate sex

☾ nothing .

☾ except !

☾ lotus <3

☾ he also absolutely adores the lotus position

☾ he can literally hug you, hold you against him, and it makes dominance easily playable by ear

☾ if you don’t know what that position is, look it up and this’ll make a lot more sense

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

☾ half and half, but a bit more serious than goofy

☾ a healthy mix <3

☾ like he definitely makes jokes when he’s nervous, so it’s very common for him to crack a joke when he accidentally slips out or you knock something over by accident

☾ but for the actual act, he likes to take it pretty seriously

☾ it’s a really private and intimate moment with just the two of you, and he wants to savor every second

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

☾ eh

☾ he doesn’t care

☾ not on you and not on him

☾ he trims regularly but he never shaves completely

☾ he definitely doesn’t expect you to either

☾ he honestly does not care at all

☾ and yes the carpet matches the drapes

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

☾ SO ROMANTIC GN.

☾ he’s the type to light candles and moody music/lighting

☾ don’t be surprised if you find a trail of rose petals . no i am not kidding .

☾ he’s so intimate and romantic, especially with kisses

☾ his kisses are so deep and loving

☾ ROMANTIC ASS MF. I LOVE HIM.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

☾ um yes

☾ yeah

☾ mhm

☾ he’s very horny all the time dawg 😐 idk

☾ yeah

☾ at least 5 times a week

☾ but he always, always thinks of you. every. single. time

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

☾ like i said, he isn’t really kinky at all

☾ but, if it even counts as a kink, he likes marking and dirty talk

☾ he likes seeing the marks you made on him, and likewise the ones he made on you

☾ bonus points if they’re in noticeable places

☾ and for dirty talk, just talk about what you’re going to do to him, or what you want him to do to you

☾ and feel FREE to go in as much detail as you want <3 he insists

☾ possibly roleplay too if he’s feeling bold

☾ he’d go all out please

☾ costume, script, everything because he’s dumb

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

☾ bed 😁

☾ or couch

☾ he likes comfy places

☾ he also likes for y'all to be in like a private space

☾ honestly he doesn't really have a specific preference farther than that, like he likes it in the comfort of his own home

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

☾ teasing him. in any way .

☾ literally just wear a short skirt, give him that look, or purposely bend over to pick something up

☾ it’s really not that difficult

☾ explicit dirty talk always gets him SO ready SO fast

☾ he loves dirty talk so much lord have mercy

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

☾ threesomes . naw

☾ he wants you all for himself </3 he is way too insecure for another person to get introduced

☾ if you gave the other person more attention for just a few seconds he would literally get so sad

☾ too scared fo that </3

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

☾ MAN. LEMME TELL YOU.

☾ he eats pussy like it's his last meal.

☾ he has absolutely no issue with the whole mf session consisting of just him eating you out

☾ at first, he's very clumsy, because he has absolutely zero experience

☾ he goes very slowly and teasing with it at first, regardless of his current skill level at the time

☾ he also always starts by leaving teasing kisses, starting from your lips, all the way down to your inner thighs, then leaving gentle bites

☾ honestly, he doesn't even realize he's teasing

☾ he just loves giving you a lot of attention

☾ and he just takes his time until you're begging him,,, and he'll never admit it, but he loves it when you beg

☾ he also loves gripping your thighs while he eats you out too </3

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

☾ definitely not too fast

☾ but not slow

☾ he can be rough sometimes when it comes to individual thrusts, going very deep and harsh occasionally

☾ but just grinding his hips into you is his go to </3 it's just intimate and sensual to him, and it makes you attentive to every one of his movements, and it lets him know exactly what you like and don't like

☾ ask him to speed up though, and he most certainly will

☾ malewife </3

☾ he's pretty sensitive though, and if he goes fast for longer than he expected, he won't last tooooooo long

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

☾ mmmmm not his fav

☾ he likes to make it this whole romantic thing between just the two of you

☾ so pulling you into a bathroom and either letting you have your way with him or him taking you quickly is not his favorite at all

☾ he won't turn down a quick handjob, and he most certainly won't deny anything you might need from him

☾ but not all the way, yaknow?

☾ VERY rarely. like VERY rarely

☾ and he's super guilty and obvious about it afterwards, so it's not even a win for you lol

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

☾ he's down to experiment when it's just YOU

☾ like he's not that self conscious when it's just alone with you

☾ he's not afraid of being judged, so he'll try out new things with you

☾ but, obviously since he isn't really too kinky, don't go completely crazy with your requests

☾ who knows, maybe you'll unlock a secret kink of his

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

☾ eh

☾ yaknow, he's got the spirit

☾ he does his best

☾ he lasts for about 2-3 rounds max

☾ but when it comes to you, he'll keep going using whatever he needs to until you're completely satisfied

☾ honestly, he's content with him just coming once, but like i said, he'll keep going until you're ready to stop

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

☾ yeah lol :p

☾ not for himself, but for you

☾ he likes using toys on you

☾ like a lot

☾ particularly vibrators

☾ you didn't even ask, but he suggested that maybe you might want to use it sometime, and you weren't about to say no

☾ he loves using vibrators on those nights when he's just focusing on you, and noticing the way you react when you're overstimulated

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

☾ oh he likes teasing

☾ it gives him that sense of power honestly

☾ obviously he doesn't go far, and he stops immediately when you ask him to, but he just likes your reactions whenever he teases you

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

☾ so. loud.

☾ literally shameless

☾ does not give a single fuck who hears him

☾ as long as he's home, he's home. if neighbours hear him, not his problem.

☾ he moans the entire time, all while saying praises under his breath

☾ when he's about to cum, his voice gets noticeably forced

☾ his moans become scarce, and he mostly whimpers and mewls until he's finished

☾ regardless, he's still completely shameless

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

☾ he's a switch leaning dominant

☾ when he's on the bottom, he just loves you praising him

☾ and it's really easy to get him to bottom for that time around

☾ truly he has no preference, so it's whatever you want

☾ unless he's been particularly sad lately, then he prefers bottom

☾ also he loves petnames

☾ honestly, you'll rarely catch him calling you by your real name, especially during sex

☾ his favorite nicknames are angel, princess, sweetheart, dear, love, anything tooth-achingly sweet </3

X = X-Ray (Let's see what's going on in those pants, picture or words)

☾ edamame does not disappoint <3

☾ about 6 inches

☾ <3 as he should

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex-drive?)

☾ horny bastard

☾ his sex drive is HIGH

☾ he's down everyday if he isn't completely conked out and just wants to sleep that night

☾ down any day bae

Z = ZZZ (How quickly do they fall asleep after the deed?)

☾ pretty quickly if you're in his arms, or he's in yours

☾ he's usually pretty tired on a normal day, but after a night of literal exercise, he sleepi

☾ so after he knows that both of you are cleaned up and comfy, he wants to cuddle and fall asleep

☾ makoto doesn't care if he's the little spoon or the big spoon, but he says goodnight, he. sleepi.

"makoto... please..." you beg, your back arching off the mattress. you couldn't take it anymore. you couldn't even tell whether or not he was trying to tease you like that, but god, you just wanted him so bad.

"hm? angel, are you okay? what do you want?" he looked up at you, his lips glistening from the wet kisses he was planting all throughout your inner thighs.

you beg through pants, "you.. i want you... please..."

even through your lidded gaze, you couldn't miss the deep rose shade that painted his cheeks. no matter how many times he's heard that word cross from your lips, he couldn't help the way he blushed. he gave you a warm smile, leaning up to meet your lips with a passionate kiss before pulling away, and whispering in your ear.

"anything for you, angel."

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begging for an arcana anon </3 like pls give me arcana requests i will kiss every single one of you

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Hello! I hope you're doing well. I wanted to request headcanons of chuuya with a female s/o who plays guitar and is even in a band. Like the s/o likes to sing and loves music in general. If not, it’s totally fine! Thank you!

Btw sorry I messages this instead of requesting, I'm a bit slow rn

AHHH!! thank you thank thank THANK YOU for this req!! i’m actually a lead guitarist and vocalist in a band, and i’ve always loved music my whole life so i hope i can use my experiences to give your ask justice babie !! ^_^

also !! sorry for this taking so long :(( but i hope you like it regardless ^_^

☾ genre: headcannons!

☾ pairing: chuuya x gn!reader who’s a guitarist/singer in a band

☾ warnings: none !

☾ w/c: 900

☾ WEEE lemme start by saying he absolutely ADORES it

☾ like, he isn’t the most vocal about it to others but alone? oh my gosh you cannot stop him from raving about your band

☾ whether it be your performances, you having band practice, or just you singing and playing your guitar around the house for recreation

☾ he thinks it's so fucking cool

☾ he's as musically talented as a herd of street rats, so being with you is a huge breath of fresh air

☾ you bet your ASS he comes to EVERY performance

☾ at first, he was a quiet supporter-- no one really knew that he was your boyfriend, but eventually, he made it KNOWN

☾ he's the type to nudge random people in the crowd and say "look, see the lead singer up there? yeah, the one with the guitar? that's my partner."

☾ and then he'd give them a little side-look that says "haha, yeah, i know you're jealous"

☾ but in all honesty, sometimes he feels jealous

☾ like, he wishes he had musical talent, and especially because he’s around you basically 24/7, he envies you completely

☾ he WISHES he was as good as you

☾ but he heard himself sing once and got really upset because he did not sound good 😐

☾ if you ever heard him sing in the shower,,, lord

☾ he’s the type to grab a shampoo bottle and belt out songs even though he’s so tone deaf it hurts

☾ so sometimes when he’s in a bad mood he randomly gets jealous of your abilities

☾ BUT THAT’S NOT BECAUSE OF YOU IN ANY WAY

☾ he’s just a little baby about everything, so he’s just throwing a lil tantrum

☾ STILL !! that never ever stops him from supporting you

☾ sure he might get cranky very rarely about it, but he would never DARE discourage you about your talents and your band

☾ it’s more that he grumbles a low “... how are they so good. this isn’t fair...” as he walks by you/your band rehearsing when he’s cranky

☾ BUT ANYWAY !!!

☾ he absolutely adores your band

☾ you bet your ASS he orders your merch/your albums

☾ he’s your biggest fan

☾ catch him wearing your band tees under his vest and jacket for work 😁😁😁

☾ we already know he has an... interesting sense of fashion

☾ so naturally he claims this is purely a stylistic choice if someone from work were to notice and point it out

☾ he doesn’t like to be sappy or anything to literal members of the mafia 🙄 gross

☾ when you write songs about him, he realizes immediately

☾ this man is so smart,,, i mean you've seen the anime

☾ the first time he hears it he just knows exactly what you're talking about

☾ he can pinpoint the meaning behind every line that pertains to him, and he praises you so much about your lyrics

☾ he loves poetry, so he finds it all extremely poetic and simply impressive about how you compose each line

☾ he’s the one paying all your fees

☾ he has that mafia money he’s loaded

☾ you need to rent out a recording studio??? done

☾ you need to hire an agent????? done

☾ you need to pay to rent out a performance hall??????? DOOONE

☾ he wants to support your dream so bad

☾ he’s kind of embarrassed to talk about it much in front of everyone else in the mafia but

☾ still he supports you unconditionally outside of his workplace

☾ overall 100000/10 he loves and admires ur abilities so much </3

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request rules !! [please read before requesting]

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☾ mystic messenger [ coming soon . . . ]

☾ the arcana [ coming soon . . . ]

☾ mr. love: queen’s choice [ coming soon . . . ]

☾ obey me! [ coming soon ]

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sub!hawks smut is posted i’m waiting for my oscar or whatever idk i want an award

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heyyyyyy uhhhhh could i get like a sub hawks fic pretty please 🙏

literally kisses u . thank u . i have been waiting for a req like this thank u bae <3333 i have been very h word for hawks </3 thank u for letting me be self indulgent

it is a little rushed towards the end i am so sorry pls forgive me anon </3

shift in dynamic (sub!hawks x fem!bodied reader)

☾ genre: smut, 18+

☾ pairing: hawks x fem!bodied reader (no pronouns explicitly specified, but hawks calls reader “mommy”)

☾ warnings: *INHAAALE* PWP, sub!hawks (obviously), oral (f!receiving), dirty talk (m!receiving), praise..... so much praise, edging, PEGHAWKS2021‼️ (pegging), slight overstim????, a leetol bit of aftercare, kind of self indulgent idk i love he </3, (HARDLY EDITED)

☾ w/c: 3k !!

you don’t know how long you’ve been teasing him, been letting yourself get into innocent but compromising positions with him.

bending over to pick up a “dropped” pen in that skirt he oh so loved to see you in, going to “change” only to come back out with your outfit being no different whatsoever except with the new addition of his favorite thigh-highs of yours.

he was so sick of your teasing, and honestly? you lost track of time from how long you had it going on.

“angel... you’re hardly being subtle, you know~” he mused from his position on the bed.

you turn and smirk at him from the doorway, “who said i was trying to be subtle in the slightest?”

you slowly began making your way to him, watching closely at the way he drank in your figure. his eyes darted back and forth from your thigh-high clad legs, to the exposed section just under your skirt, to your breasts that were straining against the provocative, tight shirt you decided to wear this evening.

you wanted to give him everything he ever dreamed of right now, to utterly indulge him-- make him believe he would be in control.

letting him sit up for you to straddle his lap, letting him dominate your kisses. anything he initiated, you complied with. his hands began softly grazing your exposed thighs, trailing upwards-- higher and higher-- you purposely let out soft whimper.

you felt a smirk tug at the corners of his lips, “hm...? you like that, angel?” you felt his hot breath in your mouth.

“yes... oh yes... please kei...” your pleas a mere whisper, “please fuck me...”

he groaned deeply in response, diving back in to taste your lips again— a hungry clash of teeth and tongue from his impatience. you could feel his arousal despite the confines of his clothes already, him grinding against your hips with no shame.

oh, you loved riling him up, especially like this. getting him to get all hot and bothered, going this far to give him a sense that he’ll be in control...

only for you to shatter your façade instantaneously, pushing him down by his shoulders and pinning his roaming hands above his head-- trapping his legs in between yours and looking down at him triumphantly.

“angel?” he sputtered, looking up at you with wide eyes, “w-what’s with the quick shift, huh?” he quickly attempted to play it off as if he still had a grip on his bearings.

a smirk splayed your features in response. you said nothing, but let your gaze flicker back and forth from his swollen lips to his dark eyes.

“w-weren’t you just begging me to fuck you a minute ago, hm?~” he said.

even when he was rendered completely immobile by you, of course he was going to give you his sly tone, his shit-eating grin as he “tried” to keep control of the situation.

oh, but you knew why he did that.

just ‘cause he knew that it would rile you up...

just ‘cause he knew that it would make you have your way with him.

“oh, i was begging you to fuck me? really...” you trailed off, moving your gaze downward, and cupping his bulge harshly with no warning. he hissed in response, sucking his bottom lip in between his teeth, “sweetheart... i assure you, i’m not going to be the one who’s begging tonight.”

“y-yeah right,” he chuckled, “like i’ll believe that. just give it a few minutes, darling. you’ll realize that-- a-ah...”

you cut him off by moving your palm against him, harshly rubbing against his growing erection with no build up. the friction of your hand mixed with the rough material of his jeans sent an immense amount of stimulation right off the bat, catching him completely off guard.

“hm? speak up honey, i can’t hear you,” you leaned down and softly nibbled his ear as you whisper against him.

“f-fuck...” his eyes are now screwed shut as he revels in the friction you’re providing him, your speed ever increasing to render him unable to utter a word.

“oh, well that’s not what you said before, now is it?” you began littering kisses on his jaw, his neck, collarbone... biting occasionally, because you knew just how much he wanted to be marked by you.

you continued to rub him, keigo’s moans getting louder and higher in pitch. he was close.

already.

you giggled against him, the vibrations reverberating against his skin, “oh, you were also so sensitive, right kei? are you gonna cum?”

“y-yes...” he said, utterly breathless.

“do you wanna cum?”

he shook his head fervently.

“baby... use your words...” you gently remind.

“... no. please, not now...”

“mmm... good boy~”

his whines picked up at the pet name, his jean-clad hips beginning to grind against your palm.

you quickly ripped your hand away with a scoff, and keigo let out needy whine, the sound sending a shockwave straight to your cunt.

god, you’ve always loved his voice.

“ah-ah~” you tut, “didn’t you say you didn’t want to cum now, baby boy? do you really want to cum in your jeans like a teenage virgin?”

he shakily exhaled, “... n-no...”

“good. you’ll get what you want, i promise baby. just be patient, yeah?”

he nodded, looking up at you with tear-stained eyelashes. you took this opportunity to look him directly in the eyes while slowly lifting up your shirt to catch the hem between your teeth. he took a sharp inhale at the sight of exposed chest. you decided you would pass on wearing a bra this evening.

good choice.

“mm... kei...” you mumble breathily, snaking your arm down your torso, moving closer and closer to the hem of your panties.

“y-yes, angel?”

you shoot him a glance, taking your shirt out from between your teeth to be able to speak clearly.

“what was that?” your tone was sharp as you addressed him, leaning in close, “what’s my name?”

“m-mommy...”

“there we go, baby boy... that’s right...” your hand trails its way down once again, and you making a show of throwing your head back and sighing as it makes its descent. you begin stroking the outside of your panties, feeling the wet patch that has already seeped through the lacy material.

"kei... baby... already so wet for you..." you sigh, "now enjoy the show, yeah? don't move, baby boy... unless you-- mmm~" you couldn't help but let out a moan, your finger flicking a particularly sensitive spot on your clit as it moved in tight circles on the bud, "unless you don't want your reward..."

you spread your legs out further in your straddling position, giving him a perfect view of your panty-clad cunt. his erection was definitely painfully hard, you thought. no-- it didn't even have to be up to your imagination. you felt his cock strain against your inner thigh, letting out a soft moan at the thought.

you moved your panties to the side to dip a single finger in, sighing at the new feeling and rocking your hips. you opened your eyes to see keigo's reaction to you fucking your fingers-- right on top of him. you could feel his heartbeat from where you were seating atop him as well as his erratic breathing.

slipping your finger in and out of your cunt with ease, you decide to add a second one, beginning to scissor them both to stretch yourself out.

keigo was doing exactly as told-- following directions. only enjoying the show instead of doing anything without permission.

"m-mommy..." he squeaked out.

"yes, baby boy?"

"please... sit on my face. please, i wanna make you feel good, mommy..." his pleas were fucking adorable.

"you want me to fuck your face, sweetheart?" you muse.

"y-yes... please... please..."

"only because you asked so nicely, baby... such a good boy~"

he moans as you shift your position to finally take off your panties and throw them aside unceremoniously. you place your thighs on either side of his head, trapping his head between them and immediately feeling his hot panting breath hit your core.

“keigo, honey... you know what to say if you want to stop, right?” you look into his eyes, patiently awaiting his answer before moving forward at all.

“yes... red.” his big hands squeezed the fat of your thighs, just below your ass as he replied.

“mm... good boy~” you sigh once again, finally sinking yourself down to meet his lips. immediately, his tongue poked out and lapped at the wetness already dripping out from your cunt. he moaned against you, the vibrations sending a wave of pleasure up your spine. god, it was almost like he was enjoyed having you sit on his face more than you.

almost.

you grabbed a fistful of his hair as your body fell forward from pleasure. you always knew he enjoyed having his hair tugged, but you held off on letting him have that pleasure at the moment. until he took your clit in his mouth and sucked, kneading your ass as he held you in place.

and high pitched moan was ripped from your throat, and your fingers tensing into a fist on reflex, pulling at keigo’s hair harshly. the whimper that escaped him was heavenly, his motions becoming more frantic, more needy as he ate you out. he wanted to please you.

he wanted to please you so, so bad.

you felt the coil in your stomach begin to build up, the tension making your mind hazy as the room filled with only your moans and the sounds of keigo’s sinful ministrations against your core. all of his movements now harsh, and a steady transition of his tongue lapping at your clit, and his lips sucking more and more as he knew you were close.

“f-fuck, kei... fuck... a-ah... i’m- i’m gonna cum...” you all but whisper, your voice failing you.

“cum, mommy. please. please cum for me...” he mumbled against you, giving one particularly harsh suck and before you could even process his words, you were thrown over the edge.

your vision went white as your orgasm washed over you in an impeding wave, keigo not giving you enough warning before making you cum with so much force.

“mommy?” his voice snapped you back to reality as you began to come down from your high, “are you okay? w-was i good?”

you shifted from your position to lie next to him on the mattress, looking into his eyes with nothing but pure sincerity as you replied, “baby... yes... oh my god, yes. you were so, so good...” you stroked his cheek warmly with the back of your hand, feeling your heart flutter when he leaned into your touch.

“now, i just have to return the favor now, hm? you were such a good boy for mommy, now it’s mommy’s turn to make you feel good,” you whisper in his ear, nipping at it once before unbuttoning his jeans and sliding them off with ease. you were impatient, and so was he.

“tell me what you want, baby. use your words,” you instructed, stroking his cock with one finger through his boxers.

he squeaked, quickly shying away at your instructions, clearly embarrassed at what he wanted to ask of you.

“sweetheart, look at me,” you held his cheeks with your free hand to direct his gaze back to you, “tell me, i want to make you feel good, yeah?”

he bit his bottom lip.

“...p-please fuck me,” he pleaded almost inaudibly. he doubt you even heard it, and like hell he would be able to muster enough courage to say it again.

thankfully, you heard it. loud and clear.

“you want mommy to fuck your ass, baby? is that what you want?”

“...yes, please...” his cheeks burned at your lewd words. he hadn’t expected you to say it so bluntly, but it was exactly what he wanted.

you leaned down to catch his lips in a passionate kiss, one hand holding the nape of his neck while the other held his waist to draw him as near to you as possible. you wanted the kiss to show him exact how much you loved him-- how you only wanted to make him happy.

“you know exactly how to ask. my good boy~”

you reached over into your nightstand drawer, pulling out purple strap-on and lube, fixing the harness around your waist, and pulling off his briefs completely. you lubed up your fingers, rubbing them against the digits from your other hand to warm it up. you positioned yourself in between his thighs, pulling them apart to give you easy access.

“you okay, kei?” you ask.

“yes, yes... i am...” he responded, looking up at you then to your fingers, his gaze clearly impatient.

you chuckled, bringing your index finger to circle his hole gently, lubing up everything as much as possible before pushing it in, little by little.

by no means was this keigo’s first time experiencing something like this with you, however, any experience that caused him discomfort or pain was lost. you made a constant, extra effort to make sure everything was perfect for him.

when your finger entered him completely, you slowly pumped it in and out, feeling him relax around you as you continued.

“feeling okay?”

“y-yes... you can... add another,” he said.

at his word, you added your middle finger, beginning to scissor them inside him to prep him for what was to come. his gasps slowly began to turn into breathy moans at the sensation, and when you curled your fingers upward to hit his prostate, he whimpered beneath you, hips bucking up to meet your fingers. you held him down with your free hand, making sure you still had complete control.

“third?” you ask.

“yes...”

you quickly comply, adding a third and following the routine you set for the previous digits. pumping in and out, curling them at that spot that always had him uncontrollably whining from pleasure.

you continue scissoring your fingers until you believed he was prepped enough, beginning to lube up the strap that’s been settled on your hips while looking for keigo’s approval once again, “are you ready, baby?”

he nods, a faint “yes...” passing from his lips.

slowly, you push in the silicone cock inside, inch-by-inch and watching his body language with a sharp gaze. he was doing so, so well you thought, the dildo going inside with ease.

“it’s in, baby... all the way... good?” you ask once again.

“good... so good...”

you smile, experimentally letting your hips draw back and slam back into his once. the way his voice cracked, his hands looked for leverage wherever they could find it to control the amount of stimulation he felt...

you swear you were getting drunk off of him.

you begin to set a slowly, languid pace, grinding your hips into his. he bit his bottom lip, “f-faster... please... i promise i can take it...”

you wordlessly comply, placing your hands on either side of his head to get a better angle, and began slamming your hips against him erratically. his desperate moans and whines quickly picking up pace and pitch, and you vaguely pick up mumblings of “so good...”, “oh my god...”, and “so close...”

he looks down at you with a hazy expression. his cock now swollen and leaking from penetrative stimulation, but it was clearly not enough. the way he crooned and leaned into your touch every time you pulled your hips away from him-- oh, you could tell it was just painful for him.

you lightly wrapped your fingers around his cock, your hand not moving, but your cock driving into him even faster-- just to see how he would react. he hissed at the contact, thrusting his hips to create his own stimulation. you didn’t stop him, seeing how close he could make himself to cumming just by fucking your fist. he was so loud, loud moans bouncing off the walls only to be broken by his voice cracking.

“you close, baby?” you coo.

“m-mhm... oh my god.... so close...” his hips picked up speed, the sound of skin slapping against skin almost as loud as his noises now.

“cum baby, you deserve it, yeah? such a good boy...” you pet his hair as you encouraged him, moving your hand and hips to meet his thrusts to make him tip over the edge faster, reveling in the way his eyes screwed shut and his knuckles turned white from gripping the sheets beneath him.

he came with a choked moan, shaking violently as you continued to pump him as felt heavy ropes of cum glide down your hand, his stomach...

you kissed the tip, open-mouthed and wet to make him twitch again under your touch.

“how are you feeling, kei?” you whisper, petting his soft hair as you patiently, carefully slipping out of him. you untie the harness around your waist, setting it on your side table once again and lying beside him.

you waited for his heaving chest to relax and his eyes to flutter open again.

“great... fucking amazing...” he smiled at you, his breath heavy as he panted between his words.

“let me get you cleaned up, yeah? you did so good for me...” you kissed his temple, letting your lips linger on his flushed skin for a bit longer. you pulled away after several seconds, looking deep into his eyes, “i love you, keigo,”

his palm rested on your cheek as he looked back at you, “i love you more,”

he said your name with nothing but love, admiration and pure joy.

you truly were the light of his life.

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AYO SUB!HAWKS SMUT TONIIIGHT‼️‼️ GET EXCITED BESTIES

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can i please get a hawks hurt / comfort fix please 🥺🥺 like him waking up from a nightmare abt his childhood and u comforting him and cuddling him and making him feel better:)

THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR THIS REQ IM GUNNA KISS U ON THE MOUTH ANON. YES !!! ugh hurt/comfort hawks is my biggest guilty pleasure bc i am one sad mf but i am a whore for hawks fluff . best of both worlds <3 also ! i'm so sorry it's short :(( 1,053 words is definitely short for my standards but ! i'm working on a lot of MHA stuff rn so keep an eye out ^_^

also this fic is definitely based off the song “First Day of my Life by Bright Eyes” cuz i listened to that song on REPEAT while writing this 😁🙏 definitely recommend listening to it while reading besties

— i love you more

☾ genre: hurt/comfort hawks fic !

☾ pairing: hawks x gn!s/o reader

☾ warnings: details of nightmares, heavy angst that pertains to emotional/physical abuse, cursing, just very sad and scared hawks :(

☾ w/c: 1,053

he was back in the dark living room— the one he was sure he escaped many years ago. the painfully familiar walls, despite the years of constant effort he put into repressing the memories. the memories of his father grabbing him by his neck with unrelenting strength, and thrusting him up against them, letting his breath ridden with alcohol and pure indifference fan against his cheek. the kind of indifference of a predator about to kill.

and all around him, no matter how much he sealed his eyes closed, covered his ears with all of his strength-- the retched smell of alcohol and his rotten memories were suffocating him.

why was he back here?

his heart began to race, feeling the way his fingers lost all heat and he felt his legs lose all bearings. his breathing an erratic, shaky pace, his eyes feeling cloudy from panic and pure fear as he scrambled through his dreadful surroundings in hopes of some sort of exit. but every step he took was completely useless. no matter how fast his legs moved, he still stood in the exact place he started.

he couldn’t escape.

footsteps could be heard echoing around him, getting louder and louder. it was haunting, like this moment was an exact replica of a night from many years ago. with his fixed position right in front of his father’s couch, and the weather of the night eerily quiet, as if the world was also terrified of the man slowly getting closer and closer to the helpless boy in the living room of a man who never loved him.

“keigo,” a gravely voice slurred from the other room, “keigo, fucking answer me. i know-- know you’re there.” he recognized it all-- the hiccup between his words, the genuine anger in his voice when he addressed him.

keigo blinked, and when he opened them again, his father appeared right in front of him, a large, half-drunk translucent bottle in hand.

"why the fuck didn't you respond? i fucking-- fucking called you, didn't i?" now that he was just mere centimeters from his ears, his voice sounded even more terrifying than his memory could ever bring justice.

his gaze followed the arm of his father that was holding the bottle, that was beginning to rise, and came straight down towards his head with pinpoint accuracy--

and keigo's eyes snapped open.

a thick sheen of cold sweat collected all over his shaking, trembling body. he wasn't able to identify his surroundings, his nightmare replaying itself with seemingly more lucidity than the first time. he still saw the haunting figure of his father at the foot of his bed, and as his breathing came in sharp, short breaths, he felt you sit up immediately.

you shot up from your slumber at the sound of keigo's sobbing, his knees pulled up to his chest, and his face buried between them as you saw his body shake violently. you've never seen him this unraveled; in this much pain.

"keigo? honey?" you softly called out, gently reaching out to him.

as your hand caressed him, you felt him tense under you for a split second, causing him to shoot up from his position to look at the source of the contact. as his eyes fell onto your gentle touch, he collapsed into you without thinking twice, holding onto you for dear life while you cradled him on instinct.

"hey... shh... baby, i'm here. you're safe. it's me, yeah? no one else is here except me and you," you shushed. you knew he occasionally suffered from devastating nightmares, and because of it, you were able to know exactly how to calm him down.

although his sobs didn't seem to subside much, you could feel the way he began to relax into you, as if he was aware that it really was you, not a part of his terrifying nightmare.

he knew you were always there for him.

you shifted from your upright sitting position into a lied down, comfortable spooning position, holding him against your chest while carefully stroking his hair. you waited until he had calmed down enough before trying to speak to him again.

"...nightmare," he mumbled against you.

"i figured, baby," you planted a soft kiss against his hair, "i've got you. you're safe."

he sniffled in response, nuzzling his face deeper into your embrace. you softly rubbed your palm over the expanse of his back to soothe him, and ultimately ground him-- remind him that this was the real world, not the nightmare.

"he was back." keigo shuddered.

you couldn't help the small droplets forming in the corners of your eyes, "honey... i'm so sorry. so... so sorry. i know how scary he is. but..." you took a deep breath,

"but he's not here. he's not back. god, i wish i could get rid of him inside your head like we were able to in reality. but right now, it's only me. me, and your comfy bed, and your comfy blanket, and your comfy pajamas, yeah?" you lifted his head up by his chin to make him look up at you as you spoke.

"yeah?" you repeated.

he slowly nodded.

"yeah, j-just you. and... and my comfy blanket..."

"mhm, your favorite blanket. the fluffy one you like to run your fingers across. why don't you try it right now, sweetheart?"

he took many deep breaths as he held the blanket close to him, running his fingers through it to remind himself that he was okay-- his father wasn't here, because the nightmare wasn't real.

the blanket was real. the calming lavender scent on the bedroom was real.

you were real.

he took one final deep breath, opening his eyes to look at you again. your face illuminated by the soft moonlight, perfectly casting your concerned, but gentle expression.

"thank you..."

you could barely hear the words that escaped his lips, but even so you knew how much he meant them.

"of course, keigo... i'll always be here. always. you know you always have me, and i'll be here to remind you no matter what."

he finally released all of the tension in his body, fully relaxing in your warm embrace.

"goodnight, sweetheart," you whispered, planting one final kiss.

"...i love you" he whispered back.

"i love you more."

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