#i cannot function i dotn know what else to do im so scared im so fucking scared. it wont stop idont know what else i can fucking do

[grisklein]

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[hellhouns]

i feel like,  crying n i never stop feelin liek this i always feel sick and in pain and its not gonna sto pn it hurts osm uch and idk i jsu cant do it ,  i cant do anything like the closest i can begin to describe the pain and pure saddness i feel is just suc ha strong feeling of this song > ??

idk  ,. its dumb m dumb  i cant wait to die im useless especially during summer because theres nothign , to do and im spending my days half sleeping and half being sad legit , im nto doing much else 

ive had this constant pain in my chest because im so fuckignf sad and it hurts so much it always hurts and m so , as geniuen as can be, im so fuckign exhausted, im sos sad , im so tired of being this way n im too impossible to change so  , ykno , . the other way , 

it  ,, dosnnt stop , never, ever and it hurts forver  ive been crying so muhc like, the past two days adn  it just hurts , im too burnt out from everything but my brain jus cant get anything out so im functioning on negative amoints of energy and it just , sucks

i cant keep doing this , i told myself This Is It, im scared, i dont know waht to do and im ognna fuckign lose it if i keep going i jsut , uguhgh 

i feel like m jus the biggest burden on my friends n no matter waht im always gonna feel that way, nothign changese with me, im awful and im a paradox and nothgin makes sesne to me or matters about me and nothgins , everything isn othing and it all sucks and im all alone , im not ok m never gonna be ok n i cant do it much longer, i truly. fucking . cannot 

when i say im sad i literally mean, it aches, it burns, it sucks and its forever.  im a bad perosn . im a bad influence. im a bad friend . i dotn deserve the goodness my friends do for me, i dont deserve anythgin i can t do it  anymore mm hurting too much

its only been getting worse by the day . its gradual and its only going to continue to be shit . i ju,s , please, for the loveo f fucking god or whatever you believe in , i jsut want people to understand me , for once, just understand where im coming from, why im so deadset on Doing That, why im the pessimist extreme, how completely tired i am 

im trying . ive been trying . please , dont , jjdfg i jsut cant handle ths i anymore ,  m losing too much i feel like my organs are failing slowlu

i can never stop thinking abotu everything peopel say to me, aboit doing that, about me, about my feelings, n its all , bad. i cant find the good in anything , when i say i wis h i was dead i rlly, mean it , it sucks and i hate it and i want to die always , like This is waht i get fr trying so why dont i just stop , 

theres too much in my head for me to say it all , but im jus gonna explode ykno ?? 

i jus want to not be here with all my heart i cant think of anything else it all sucks, idk what to do w myself, i jus Feel it so much in my chst in my throat in my legs and wrists and fingertips and it hurts it hurt s it hurts it hurts it hurts, 

im lost

im losing everything i could possibly lose