#i can't get into the intimacy of names rn either...or the intimacy of firsts: misty's first friend. her first love. her first 'kill'. etc.

[alivegirlmari]

i love all the secrets the girls have with themselves and just one other person, especially when it's a ghost.

no one will ever know that shauna ate jackie's ear, that she ate jackie first, that jackie was hers - both briefly, before everyone else ate her, and then always, because now jackie lives on inside her, and in everything shauna does. how can ghostjackie not appear, even twenty-five years later on that bridge, when she's a part of shauna, just as much as her heart and lungs are? shauna consumes jackie, and jackie consumes shauna, and it all starts with the ear that exists between them.

lottie is the only one who saw the chunk missing on deadjackie's arm; i'm sure she had theories or concerns about it, but it's still a secret she immediately accepted as is, and then agreed to keep - locking the necklace around shauna's neck to confirm their silent covenant, that they're now linked together in this act of sorrow and love, and then the kindness she generally shows towards shauna's grieving process: you can trust me. you're not alone. (but it's not really just between lottie and shauna, either: it was jackie's flesh, so ghostjackie keeps yet another secret, even without knowing.)

misty is the only person who knows crystal's real name, and true demise. no one will ever believe that crystal accidentally fell, and even if they did, it doesn't matter: they weren’t up on that cliff anyways, which is fine, because it means kristen - her life, her death - belongs to misty alone. a part of misty belongs solely to kristen, too: the black box secret that misty will likely take to her grave now, just as kristen took it to hers. (obviously her family and theatre friends knew her real name, but she shared it with misty because she trusted her. and that moment, before the trust was broken, will always exist, suspended in air. they pinky-promised it.)