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reaperkaneki · 2 months ago

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its insane the amount of mental gymnastics i unconsciously jump thru at work to function vs my private life. like i don't enjoy phone calls at work but it's more of an annoyance than anything else and i can do them if i must. yet just now i had to make a phone call to make a reservation and im like. entering chihuahua mode. shaking. shivering. tense. granted some of that is because i have the heater off to save money but--

#im at like a 30/70 on ordering food for myself at a restaurant #sometimes i feel normal and not entirely a mentally ill creature but then i get moments like this where i have to interact #with another human being outside of my own work mode and i feel like throwing up #how the fuck do i work in cusgomer service. granted my service is mid but thats not the point.#i can checkout by myself only at the korean grocery store bc the ladies there dont make small talk...#....the last time i checked out by myself at an american grocery store i was so anxious about it #(and the covid tests i was buying at the pharmacy) that i literally got searched for shoplifting #bc i existed while being my own nervous wreck of a self in public without being hand held.

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