#i at least dont want to lose touch with what im FEELING
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3-carnivore-goats · 2 months ago
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since i began to talk i couldnt make friends for the life of me. i was told i was too intense. okay then, it takes me years and it literally killed my will to live, but i dial it down.
still can't make connections. "you look uniterested, open up some more".
it's okay, it took me my entire developing years to craft that personality, but it's okay, i can learn to be more of an extrovert, if it's worth it.
it doesnt get better. huh. "well of course, have you ever considered you look desperate?"
oh fuck you im so tired of trying. nothing works im just not built for this. im so fucking tired. really. no human connection is worth this bullshit. im so worn out by mirroring other people's behavior i dont even know who i am god im so tired
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