#i aspire to have that kind of uhhh

[casinocarpediem]

Role-playing is so scary to me how do yall do it... AND IN PUBLIC TOO⁉️

[alxandergoth]

aspen foley for @neishroom !! ₊✩‧₊ another lesbian from urs truly 🫶🏻

swears she's psychic

has the creative & vegetarian traits

kinda ditzy

loves dancing, alt music, tween pop music (uhhh i forgot what else i put bc i was rushing so my game wouldn't crash)

charli xcx was her top artist on her spotify wrapped

doesn't have a lot of friends, kind of a loner (maybe gabe can change that?)

raised by a single mother

lowkey has only child syndrome

impulsively dyed her hair blonde and her mum got rly mad

she's a leo

has the teen live fast aspiration

rly good at snowboarding bc her and her mum would go to mt. komorebi every winter break when she was younger

she's actually quite tall, like 6ft

[somerandomdudelmao]

I know you might've been asked this question a lot of times already, but I'm not that often on Tumblr and don't know how to use it properly ^^" So I wanted to ask, what tool do you use to draw with?

I wanted to achieve a similar effect when it comes to your lineart, but I'm just simply inexperienced when it comes to these kinds of things. Would you mind sharing your brush settings or any tips for not only me but also other aspiring artists?

In advance, thank you so much for answering and hope you're having a great day!

Uhhh..you see..

No matter what program, I draw with a basic round brush.

I don't know what effect you're talking about, but it's built into my hand, not my tools.

[halfbaked00q]

my biggest takeaways from Casino Royale:

Bond my madlad failwife from the very beginning <3 he was so cool! and then he flips over a fence like an idiot lmao. and then! he drives a bulldozer through a fence! menace!

ah he learned the gun throw thing from uhhh the freerunner guy! very hilarious that this is, somehow, one of the root of all Q's future woes. rip to all of Q's fancy guns. they never had a chance

absolute madlad. Yeah lets run the guy down onto A FOREIGN COUNTRY'S SOVEREIGN SOIL LOL. on, actually, ANOTHER COUNTRY'S SOVEREIGN SOIL, STILL. on CAMERA, no less. amazing. god, you absolute nightmare (affectionate). and also!!! knife boyy!!! at the casino!! I love you, insanegirl

I wasn't originally sold on M as Bond's Mommy and my concession was they Mommy'd her up in Skyfall, but like. mommy-in-law'ed her to Bond vis a vis Silva. Cuz SILVA was the one with the mommy issues with M, and was like, we are brothers, you and I. But now that I've gone full "okay yeah the man did not come out of the factory with Mommy Issues but he certainly picked them up like Normal Wear and Tear." guess that's what happens when you have a wire mother (who doesn't even give sustenance lmao...). viewing the Bond M relationship through a mommy school of literary criticism lens DOES lend an extra wild edge to their interactions tho. Cuz they have these moments where her expression & voice soften and in any other context, this would be the Show Emotion Get Real moment, but then she says the most out of pocket dehumanizing wild shit lmao. "Bond maybe you're too much of a blunt instrument" blah blah- but he isn't one! he's smart as hell, those are just choices he makes lmao! he does this but with wild-ass decisions catastrophic for international relations and resulting in massive property damage:

considering it another W for me cuz Bond! is sooooo subby sub sub boy. Vesper was bullying the fuck outta him and he was sooo "got so bricked up I blacked out and didn't catch any of the rest of that" or whatever variant of that meme. He is sooo into being like. what do you call it. gentle humiliation? like humiliation kink but done with a smile. and then a praise at the end (she complimented his butt and she was like owo you think my butt is cute?). to ME. vibe of my this post (& its linked citations). But even with Solange he was very giving submissive & breedable lol. Hell yea pin that man to the floor, I see you are also a man of culture

Bond Was An Aspiring Sugar Baby from the very beginning.... what do you mean he okay yay'ed himself with Vesper making her sign in for them when they checked in to the hotel lol

He's literally sooo smart he finds M's real name finds her house breaks into her house... and then the opening b&w scene when he's in the shadow with the beautiful beam of light artfully across his face & reveals the clip... soo smart,. and also, gave me noir femme fatale vibes lowkey)

and ofc. infamously. yes Bratty brat brat boyyy

other rando thots

my god he's young in this (about a man who is still fully older than I am)

I think Daniel Craig like. has better control of his mouth in this..?? like I think in later movies he does more of that thing where you carry tension in your mouth and he like. pouts when he shoots. which always kind of twings me cuz Im like now surely a seasoned professional wouldn't do that... but he doesn't seem to in this one? or if he does it's not like. Very noticeable

Vesper in the movie is soo much better than book Vesper, but like, I knew that lmao

men should- be covered in blood and grime and preferably on their knees or slammed against some surface <3

Daniel Craig has rly cute nipples. can I say that? he does, tho. somehow. they just are. lmao

[grasslandgirl]

Since from context clues ive gathered a lot of your figgorgug fanfics are like human au or of the like, how do you imagine human gorgug and fig personally?

yes !!!! icr exactly how many are explicitly modern/no magic aus and how many are just canon divergent spyre fics (I usually tag modern no magic on the relevant fics iirc?) but uhhh I don't know? I don't have like a clear human!vision for fig and gorgug- just kind of a hodge-podge of a bunch of my favorite designs from fan artists I've seen/am friends with !! I think human!gorgug specifically i imagine very similar to zac- I'm a sucker for gorgug with glasses, and I definitely hc him as Japanese like Zac is, and having freckles like he does. fig is a little less concrete in terms of like human vision in my head- the more important thing for fig for me is that she's short (<3) and like. how she styles herself? and that changes a little depending on the circumstances of the fic- like whether she's a major rockstar or an aspiring one or just Some Girl etc etc- but Jamie @gilears and I have talked about her having rosacea/eczema which I think is really fun !!!!

[kayden-valcourt]

💥 INTRODUCTION 💥

New intro cuz the old one is Hella outdated.

Notice: I will have some flashy blinkies on this post ⚠

Hello, I am Kayden! I'm a 17 year old digital artist, gamer, programmer, and an aspiring forklifter!

I love forklifts so much and am going to try to get certified as soon as possible!

HTML coding is my life, if u need some help hmu some time 💥

I am in lots of fandoms and like lots of shows and games! I also LOVE music!

Some shows and movies I like are

Breaking Bad

Better Call Saul

Beavis and Butt-Head

The Crow movies

The Matrix movies

Daria

Smiling Friends

Adventure Time

I also like old Disney movies (Aristocats, Bambi, Lady and the Tramp, etc)

I also really love video games, I actually LOVE video games more than myself!!

Some games I like are

Team Fortress 2

Fallout 4

Fallout New Vegas

DOOM + DOOM 2

DOOM 64

DOOM ETERNAL

DOOM 3

DOOM 2016

Elder Scrolls Skyrim

Postal 4

Left 4 Dead 2

Garry's Mod

TF2 and DOOM are my current fave games and I can go on about them forever!

My main classes in TF2

Scout, Sniper, and Medic. They're the three classes I dont suck at and I love the most, I also love their lore and personality! I loved the tf2 comics! I also am somewhat decent at Demoman

Lastly is music!

I LOVE MUSIC!! Industrial is my favorite

(yes I am a Rivethead/Industrialist/Industrial Goth)

My favorite bands are

Nine Inch Nails

KMFDM

Pigface

OhGr

Skinny Puppy

Sister Machinegun

Rammstein

Ministry

Gravity Kills

Chemlab

Slick Idiot

MDFMK

Menticide

More Machine Than Man

The Prodigy

16 Volt

Night Club (band)

Dope

Orgy

Machines of Loving Grace

Static-X and Wayne Static

Nonpoint

Bile

And more!!

I have an industrial playlist on Spotify check it out please!!

I TRY TO ADD NEW MUSIC AS I DISCOVER SONGS! Active Playlist!

I also take suggestions! (if its the right genre and it sounds good!

I ALSO HAVE A PUBLIC DISCORD SERVER WITH MY FRIENDS PLEASE JOIN!! 💥

We can talk about music, art, drawings, games, bands, roleplay, and interests here with tons of people! Dont be shy to join we have emojis and take suggestions :) I also do streams or movie night sometimes!

Make sure to read the rules and be respectful :)

I love art! My ocs mean a lot to me I plan to make comics in the future! Not so many Fandom ocs more just my own ocs for my own stories.

Mostly digital artist but I doodle on my notes at school, use sketch books, and do lettering on paper! I also journal some!

Redrawing my old drawings (especially if the character has a new and better design) is so much fun to me! I also love designing and redesigning characters.

My favorite kind of characters to design/draw are Industrial Goths, Goths, Metalheads, characters with neon/bright colors, characters with sunglasses, and characters with super curly hair (its fun to draw!)

Here's some of my art as of January 2025 :)

I mostly use this acc to post art and drawings of mine so uhhh check them out 👊

Art trades are open to friends and random people, hmu if interested

No art requests sorry 😔

Edit 2-21-25

I will take requests, however I may ignore, postpone, or deny your request! I will draw stuff from *certain fandoms* like if its a Fandom I am in or your ocs/fandom ocs! I might not make full ass pictures for you but at least a doodle! Feel free to reblog or add the art to your ToyHouse if its an OC (my TH is Vodka_Muffin)

Request and comm rules, basically no extremely violent or sexual stuff, no vore or shit like that even if its a "comfort" hell nah gtfo I'm not comfortable with that 😁obviously I won't draw any Zoophile, Nazi, MAP, Nazifur, hateful, disgusting, or pedo flags or anything of that nature, which if you fall under those categories go ahead n block me ion wanna see your ass on here, I might make fun of you. No kink or fetish requests either, hell nah gtfo. I rarely draw humans but I may draw a certain oc/character if I like their design enough or if they're from a fandom I'm in. Basically that's it, dw about skimpy revealing outfits or swearing or anything I'm chill just no straight up porn/sexual material. If you have any questions abt requests feel free to DM or ask in your request! Thanks 🖤

Commissions and stuff coming soon

Dont be afraid to reach out I need more friends

Thanks for reading this have a nice night.

[moonlitter]

thinking of Sonic swap au but with mariaaaaaaaa...

sonic = maria

➥ human sonic, perchance fox maria to match tails. or a fawn...hmm

➥“i'm maria! maria the fawn/fox!” sounds weird but...! has super speed too. CAN'T ROLL. ahem. maybe has earth powers, linked to the grounds moreso than the wind. actually no, water powers. one of those. favorite food is ice-cream or s'mores..smth to parallel sonic's chilli dogs. pizza? yum pizza. really polite but will also throw hands when someone's rude. you know she wants to in mainline. blue blur more like yellow piss. golden gal/goddess. kinda cheeky, loves sightseeing and flowers. is never in one place. daughter of the president.

➥ “when i get back down to earth, the first thing I'm gonna do is run everywhere—ooh and roller skate. and you'll do it with me little buddy!”—sonic the human apparently. lives on the GUN (aka my shitty ark equivalent) also sick like maria, but it mostly affects his legs...uh, contractions of nerves or however that works. twelveeee. deadddd. similar wish to maria's but I'm still work-shopping that.

tails = shadow

➥ “sonic! you're not allowed to move that much, you'll get cramps again—!” project tails; aka the smart project on ARK (mayhaps it shall be called GUN while actual GUN would be ARK). over-thinker who sonic has to pull out of his mind a lot. as always. helps the scientists a lot. gun. fly. whoosh. really good with mechanics and bonds over maria with that after maria adventure 2™ . broody, but is just really skittish and depressed. oh yeah coffee. ageless mf but like, mentally 15 like how im kinda sure shadow was meant to be

➥“shadow being generally more ah, kid-like. maria found him when he was a toddler and basically raised him like Sonic did tails. his tails parallel deformity mayhaps shall be his fangs...? okay not deformity his outcast-trait. fangs and red eyes; they called him a vampire, especially cuz a lot of critters always ended up dead with gory wounds. he was hungry okay they didn't feed him. maria made his shoes and he carries her while running fast. in all his nine years of living...

amy = blaze (you cannot tell me you don't see the whole amy/maria parallel like sonic/blaze)

➥ princess amy of florianna ! (i'm bullshitting words). as opposed to blaze is actually kind of receptive to help, just doesn't want to hurt other people by letting them help. vanilla is her nursemaid? nanny? was bullied because of how rowdy she could be, called names behind her back : “princess Amy Rose? more like rosy the rascal” she also controls nature, specifically flowers and roses. disney princess amy... might not still have a hammer cuz blaze has to get something like that in her place... “never fear for your princess rose is here!” fourteen.

➥ i kind of... forgot this would be a romance role. uhhh. maybe she mostly just admires maria big time. or likes her idk. most usually a recluse, but ria helped her get out more, be more trusting and stuff. comes from a generally well off family that wants her to constantly be perfect and aspire to be the best ballerina ever. really just still blaze but as a maria glazer (like we should all be). twelve sighs. she could use those long ballet ribbon thingies as he'd comical weapon instead of fire i'unno i don't work here. marine is the rowdy girl at the studio that bothers her but she sees as a sibling all the same.

cream = marine

there's already a basic gist of them

walters = gerald

they also have that basic gist, which in other words translates to me being too lazy to actually write stuff

Ivo =...Ivo cuz i said so ! he's perfect as he is. also logically maria would be his counterpart so no. maybe abe would, idk. pretty sure that it'd hit harder if it's your cousin you're fighting against; which he technically is in mainline in a looser sense.

one day i'll learn how to draw digital and draw them . all hail the golden goddess

[eccentric-nucleus]

i'm gonna be talking about the weird porn game stuff i'm working on now, so you know, watch out

so as you may have gathered from my various posts, i've been working on the hell game 2 engine. currently i have events running mostly-correctly from data files, but i don't currently have state & pc data hooked up correctly so i can't actually e.g., test out various different sex scene variations based on the pc's bodytype. given one of the big failures of hell game (the first) was that i never really got complex event interactions working, i should probably think up some multi-stage demo events and get them working early on, so i don't end up repeating the same mistake

anyway as i have been putting this together i've been reflecting on the stuff i was dissatisfied with with hell game. unfortunately for me one of those things was "the sex scenes weren't as parametric as i wanted". hell game tended to break sex scenes down based on fundamental body plan (what i usually call 'bodytype' b/c that's the variable name for it in the code). that was stuff like: biped, centaur, quadruped, naga, snake, and 'other'. that's already a lot of totally-different variations but given i also let people change size there did kind of also need to be at least some size-based changes. but that's even more stuff to write for a single sex scene to have full coverage.

(this kinda thing is why i love to bring up the whole thing about nagas having a thigh gap in TiTS. they didn't want to change the scene blocking for all the doggystyle sex scenes! you can just say "between your thighs" either way!! i mean i get it, just, lol.)

but the other thing with hell game is that it was always uhhh a very early demo. it was basically a collection of contextless sex scenes with demons, and while there are worse things for a game to be, i did kinda have aspirations of, you know, plot, story, named characters that weren't just procgen demons, etc. so one of the things i've been working on currently is a ~design doc~ that covers setting & story details in a concrete enough way that i can reference off it and not end up writing myself into a corner.

and that gets us to the weird porn part of the post. i haven't fully committed to the current setting concept (scifi space station sucked through an interdimensional portal so it's now orbiting around hell, a la your dooms and hellpoints and the like; i feel like i'm maybe being a little too derivative here) so i won't go into too much detail but on the whole there is probably gonna be a more pronounced, you know, horror/grotesque influence. we'll... see how that works given that it is also a porn game

like yeah yeah plenty of porn games are kind of libidinal nightmare realms. coc had the parasitic dick worms. people love gross sex stuff. i feel like i kinda lost touch with a lot of my audience and now i spend more time around, uh, normal people who don't have deeply-rooted fixations. currently the first encounter i have outlined for this is uhhh a reanimated zombie who... lemme just paste the description in

A thing that was once a dead body, overtaken by something new. Its skin is a faded grey and its muscles are overgrown, proportions inhuman: shoulders impossibly wide, arms and legs slabs of striated muscle. It moves with an inhuman gait, as if the thing inhabiting it is still getting adjusted to human articulation.

There's a squirming thing wrapped around its head, all leathery purple-black flesh. A central mass covers the corpse's head: face smooth, back of the head a mess of overlapping tentacles. It has many long octopus-like tentacles that fan out across its shoulders and back. The tentacles trail down its body, clamped tight to the skin, before they sink into its body across its shoulders, chest, and back, squirming under the skin like gigantic veins. The skin around the punctures is painted with purple-black bruises. Glowing green ichor pulses through its body, pumped into it from its penetrating tentacles, feeding its muscles with unnatural energy. Its skin is a faded grey, streaked with ash, save for where its glowing-green blood flows, forming branching lines of bulging veins that cover its shoulders and chest.

A single loose tentacle extends from its face like an enormous proboscis, tapering in wormlike rings to a squirming tip, slavering shed ichor in gummy lines down its bare chest.

Its cock hangs heavily between its thighs, perpetually bloated and half-hard, with its glowing green ichor visibly pumping through its altered flesh. Its massive, oversized balls churn and lurch behind the fat stalk of its dick, pulsing with burgeoning larvae. Thick, translucent grey pre perpetually spills from its bloated glowing-green cocktip, painting wet smears of fluid down its monstrously-muscular legs.

it talks to you and asks if you wanna get pumped full of squirming zombie larvae so it can reproduce and reanimate more corpses. a lot of the encounter design is very much "what if you could fuck this DOOM monster"

anyway, that's like, normal. that's completely usual actually. having a cop fetish is what's weird and disturbing. okay okay that's just dumb glib moralizing i don't actually think that. but i mean, it is super weird to write stuff like that and then go back into the normal realm where people keep talking about college jocks or w/e.

but before i do much more writing i gotta hammer out the rest of the engine. next up: a lot of variable storage & thinking about how to separate npc data from the events they take part in. that's all stuff that needs to get coded regardless of which setting i go with

[swifty-fox]

Writing ask! 5, 14, and 21!

5. a description I'm proud of

from a book WIP of mine. Dom is why i fell so hard for Gale they're very similar lol

Dom hesitates a moment, then scoffs to himself, shrugging his jacket off and tugging his shirt off over his head. Instantly his skin goosepimples and he rests an uneasy hand on his bicep. Marks of a hard life were on his body. Not the excessive violence of movies and books; not the sort of thing that would garner stares, but Dom knew what the scars were from. Which were innocent human fuck-ups and which were inflicted by an angry parent with too much to drink and too little regard for kindness. His hurts didn’t have to leave marks on his skin to linger; a cigarette burn here, the stinging edge of a belt there, it was all headed by dark scriptwork, shocking against the pale skin and freckles of his shoulders.

Hands Off.  No more than the length between the tip of his thumb and the base of his pinky, black ink turned blue and fuzzy with age and lack of care. 

15. that was out of my comfort zone

I don't like casual dialogue very much so

“Why unicorns?”

The question is sudden and random enough that it startles Bucky, he can tell by the way the other man blinks rapidly.

“Huh?”

“Why are unicorns your favorite extinct animal?”

John laughs, his face creasing in a sunny smile, the type of grin he was known for. All encompassing and enough to light up any room. Enough to light up the entire night sky. If they ever figured out how to capture and bottle a John Egan smile they would make millions. 

“What’s not to like about ‘em? They’re horses which are already a noble animal as is, add a giant stabbing horn on top and you’ve got one badass beast. ‘Sides they represent all things good and pure. That’s pretty neat.”

“What on earth do you know about purity John Clarence Egan?”

21. that i liked but had to cut

I don't really work on drafts so I dont tend to cut but uhhh i've got this?? It probably wont make it into Dom's story

“I think I’m fucking my life up.” Dom hugs his knee closer to his chest. 

Arnie glances over his shoulder at him, hand poised in the dirt where he was subtly tracing Dom’s profile in the dirt. Dom pretended not to notice, Arnie pretended he wasn’t aware of Dom noticing. The arrangement suited them both. 

“You’re twenty-six.” Arnie snorts. The scratching in the dirt resumes, a mechanical inhale as he takes a hit of his vape, releasing a cloud of peach-scented vapor into the oncoming sunset. The sacred heart on his right shoulder flexes with his drawing, bared by the sleeveless Fine Ink t-shirt he wore.

Dom makes a disdainful face “You’re twenty-seven.” 

“Yeah,” Arnie loftily waves his twig for emphasis, “And in my whole extra year of experience qualifies me to tell you that you’re in no way fucking your life up this young.” 

A heavy breeze lifts the hair from Dom’s forehead, catches around the neck of his hoodie and tickles the exposed skin on his ankles. He scowls into it “You’re so full of shit.” 

“And you’re a grouch.” Arnie leans back, the knobs of his spine pressing warmly into Dom’s ribs. The tumble of rocks they were sat on reversed their heights, the top of Arnie’s blue curls only reaching to Dom’s shoulder. “Tell me what you think you’re doing so wrong that the next sixty years are a total wash.” 

“Sixty years is generous,” Dom presses his lips against a smile as the other man elbows his thigh. He sighs and shrugs, ashing his cigarette on the rock and tucking the half-used butt into his pocket for later. “I don’t know. I’m spending my life working in a shithole bar, chasing after a brother who doesn’t want me in his life and dodging phone calls from a father who thinks I’m as unstable as the chick from Sharp Objects.”

“I saw that show.” Arnie says idly.

“I read the book.” Dom shrugs again, heavier this time. “I dunno, fuck, I have no aspirations, no goals, no trajectory, I’m just clinging to the idea that I can be this fucking savior to the most stubborn sixteen-year-old to grace this good green earth.” 

“You know,” Arnie says casually, “sometimes I can really tell your mom was from the bible belt.” Dom elbows the back of his head gently. He laughs, tongue between his teeth and loudly enough to echo around the copse of trees they were taking their refuge under. 

“You have friends, a partner, a job, some pretty fun hobbies and you’ve got a goal, even if it is a tough one. Don’t you think that’s enough?” Arnie asks after a beat of silence.

[noosferik]

Opinions on Pathologic as a game and its general reputation/ fans? I'd love to see you discuss it at length tbh. Radost je naći Patho fana sa Balkana!

Pathologic is remarkable to me as a lightning in a bottle incident for an entire cultural sphere of game development as well as games as a whole... When you look at the state of the scene in the rest of east europe there's absolutely no comparison. It has achieved an unique autochtonous sensibility that really stuck to my heart and feels almost homely, an aspiration only GSCs Stalker got close to. Kind of the opposite of the witchers low-fantasy kitsch (no offense!)

Moreover, even in the gameplay design I adore it for the grisly experience it is and how it intentionally plays with conventions of the game design. It's a little trite now but even the third wall breaking was ahead of its time...

This is all trivial compared to the weight I believe it carries ideologically, though. Once you start dissecting the fates of the characters and the symbolism of the world-structure I uhhh fuck I can't get into it now this is supposed to be a brief post. You can ask me if you have any specific thoughts though...

As for the fandom, too much yaoi, not enough yuri.

[tadpal]

1 and 24 for the questions list? ✨

1. what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

uhhh like i feel undeniably i have to be like third generation ex cultist but that kind of feels like a cop out bc like... duh. so let's say: willingness to go to extremes for fresh fruit. (stamping through the brushland no shoes for prickly pears, hanging onto the weedy branches of the cherry guava tree -after climbing out of the second floor window - to get the sweetest berries on the far sunny side, risking all manner of snakes in the shade of the honeysuckle bush, and the fire ants on the avocado tree. in my modern life this looks more like long walks reaching into other people's gardens, making friends with the local green grocers and bringing them gifts, traveling two on train to a market etc. but definitely core for me.

then we have to put childhood aspiration to be a martyr. self explanatory. somewhat worrying. we carry it forward and it eats and aches. nothing more to say

and for a third let's say something i can't explain: there was a pool in a house i lived in that we only cleaned for the heat of summer and even then i never saw the bottom. just the deepest green imaginable. tiles peeling from the bottom so that if you let your feet touch you'd come up bloodied but with so much chlorine in the water you wouldn't feel it until you dried. in the spring the frogs would arrive and the steps would fill with eggs. i could submerge my whole child arm to the hilt and not touch anything but frogspawn. by late spring the shallows would be black with tadpoles, and me, i would go down first light every morning sneak past all of the uncles and aunts and other nebulous guests at a cult group home down to the pool i wasn't allowed at, to scoop frog after frog out of the water. every day another five bloom into adulthood, and then lost to exhaustion and every day i was there with my net and my chubby child hands to get them out. we never installed a ramp bc my shepherd said it would bring a cruel kindness to a natural order and that i needed to learn how to let things die. i passed out from heat exhaustion seven times before they installed a locked gate. i trained the guard dogs to dig me a passage under it. theres SOMETHING here that i have TRIED to express a thousand different ways, like ive done a dissertation about it and everything but like.. man idk. intangible. unreal. everything else fall short you know?

24. what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

if i say number of frogs saved is that a bad joke? but fr i was a part of a chapter of volunteer conservations a while back so like actually: frogs saved :)

[samiferboy]

thinking abt transfem sam (not nsfw just rambling)

if sam was a trans woman, would lucifer also be a trans woman? deliberately possessing a trans woman to better connect with sam? i like the idea that transfem lucifer would be the picture of trans womanhood that sam aspires to (which i think would be pretty futch-y, not high femme but not super butch). especially if sam is unable to transition and present the way she wants to bc of her lifestyle. lucifer could give that to her. lucifer understands her like nobody else, affirms her gender, tells her that with her, sam could truly be herself and never have to hide ever again. lucifer knows what it's like to be rejected for being her authentic, honest self. it's different, sam insists, and lucifer agrees, but it's the same thing, isn't it? not tolerating the status quo someone tries to force upon you. she loves sam. she wants to give her everything. gender dysphoria is such a deeply personal thing and lucifer just KNOWS.

on the other hand, lucifer possessing a cis woman would also be interesting. i think lucifer possessing a woman at all would be inherently validating sam's gender because lucifer wants desperately to relate to sam, to appear in images that appeal to her. one of my very firm headcanons is that if sam was a woman, trans or cis, lucifer would also be a woman. lucifer possessing a cis woman could be read as cruel - "i am what you aren't, but who you wish to be*" - but could also be kind - "i see you for who you are, i'm here as a woman because you're also a woman". regardless as to whether lucifer appears in sam's dreams as a trans or cis woman, she's beautiful and powerful. and then they have gay sex

i also like the idea of ruby being the first woman since jess to be attracted to sam and have sex with her explicitly as a woman, and sam finds solace and power in that (which also makes ruby manipulating her into sleeping with her even crazier because she targets another one of sam's vulnerabilities). i felt SO liberated when i started sleeping with people who were aware of my actual gender and ruby would take advantage of that. obviously sam and ruby's sexual relationship is uhhh dubious at best but part of ruby's allure is that she refers to sam as a woman and sees her for who she really is, especially when dean struggles more with this.

sam's transness would also map onto the psychic powers arc (specifically the feelings of alienation and strangeness as well as connection to other people considered strange (max from s1 also being a trans girl would go crazy)) and would be very interesting with s4. trans women are already stereotyped as being aggressive, and sam is denied genre-typical masculinity as a cis man in the show, but as a trans woman her "acting like dean" in s3 and s4 would not only come across as deviant but also as contrary to her gender, like "i thought you were actually a woman, why are you acting like a man?" which is like. already infuriating but would especially be so in this context. i don't think dean would actually say that to her, but i think it would be kind of an undercurrent to the way he talks to her in some of s3 and most of s4.

i also don't think dean would be unsupportive of sam transitioning, but i think he would be really awkward about it. like he wouldn't let anyone talk shit about sam being a woman, but in private he'd have some really awkward random questions and kinda skirt around mentioning certain stuff. i think he would be an ally outwardly but still have a hard time going from "i need to call sam a woman" to "sam is a woman". and sam knows this and she knows dean is doing his best and she loves him for that, but there are still moments where she worries that dean doesn't truly accept and love her as she is. and yeah i think this would come out in spades in the seasons where their relationship is worse. i don't think dean would actively weaponize sam's transness against her, but i think he would deny her certain validating words/actions that he would grant her when their relationship is better. i'm not being a dean hater, i don't think he would be violently transphobic, but he's probably accustomed to making jokes and saying certain words that he realizes he has to stop saying (at least around his sister).

*obviously not all trans people want to be cis/want to pass as cis, but this could come across that way if sam does want to pass as cis.

[calling-for-kins]

CW: my kin is kinda problematic so uhhh dni if that disturbs you! /gen

Hello hello, my dearest audience~!

I am Tsukasa Tenma, a fictionkin originating from the Project Sekai universe! Though, I wouldn't say I am from the game itself..

Where I'm from, I run a circus with the rest of wondershow (my troupe!). I am the ringmaster of the circus, though I usually present myself as a Jester. My personality is somehwat canon divergent, l am much more egotistical and eccentric than my source, honestly~ However, I also remember being visiyed by dearest Toya-kun.

He visits my shows and aspires to be a performer like me! How adorable he was, I miss him...

The aforementioned people PLEASE contact me!

Whether you are from my canon or not! (I wouldn't say i had the healthiest relationship with my troupe members. I feel that I was rather manipulative and controlling... still not sure, my memories are jumbled up..) I'd love to meet fellow fictionkins such as myself! Especially since I'm new to this whole thing~! DOUBLES PLEASE ALSO CONTACT ME! /Ih It'd be lovely to see more of me~ No matter what kind! I'm always so fascinating...

My only request is that any family members (that being Saki) please DNI. I didn't have a good relationship with my family, and I dont plan on fixing it. I don't want to look back.

My discord is _crimson_lovebird_

🔮

[mattmurdocksscars]

daisy, poppy and anemone

daisy - what are your occupation/career aspirations? Uhhh I guess just to continue working as a pharmacy tech. It's a job I enjoy (as long as I'm not working retail lmao) and I can see myself being here long term. I mean, I've been a pharmacy tech for almost 10 years now and worked in pharmacy for almost 13. So it's kind of my life. But I'm not smart enough for pharmacist school 😅 so I'll stay a tech.

poppy - where have you travelled? Florida, Georgia, Pennsylvania, Ohio, Virginia, North Carolina, South Carolina, Louisiana, Arkansas, and the Bahamas.

anemone - what is likely to be the last thing you think of before going to sleep? Probably whatever my hyperfixation is at the moment 😂 that or the millions of things I need to get done lmao

[honestlyitsjustsam]

alright now that i finished my first bg3 run lemme rate the companions from worst to best based on their story, voice lines and gameplay value

long as fuuuuuck thread

9. Halsin

It is with a heavy heart that I say this, but Halsin is maaaad boring as a companion, his story was so sleeping material next to the rest of the gang. He is too naive and often ignorant, and you get to see it by his voice lines when you reach Baldur's Gate. He lived for 350 years but is still trying to see the world as black and white… he is literally one second away from becoming an eco-terrorist, and even though it's hilarious, it’s not enough. Plus, he is sooooo weak in the battlefield except when he is a bear, and even then, the value he brings is non-existent. He just feels like goon material, sure he is hot and large, but… that’s kinda it. I wish he was polished and was a companion since the ending of Act 1.

8. Minsc

He is hilarious!! And I liked him more than I originally thought I would. His little companion Boo really makes me laugh, and some of the lines he says are straight-up ridiculous, which makes him very funny. But aside from this, he is kind of a dumbass, and even though I’m okay with it, I didn’t see much development for his character. Maybe if I played other BG games, my reaction would have been different, but he was kinda just there. But during battle, his movement speed is insane, and he wasn’t such a bad asset. I personally made a mistake and recruited him sooo late, so that’s on me.

7. Jaheira

Ohh Jaheira!! My mom, my mentor. I liked her more than I thought I would, and I am glad. I swear I got teary-eyed when she first called me “cub” 😭���� MAMA!! That being said, I feel like she got the Minsc treatment from me as I haven’t played the other games. And I kinda dislike this “strong woman = absent mom” trope. I sincerely dislike it because strength doesn’t come from solitude; it comes from showing up when people need you, and it comes from showing your love. Also, the Harpers questline was booooring, kinda don’t care for a force that cannot do shit but use arrows. But she was a tremendous help during my fights, her becoming an owlbear and tearing up ass was such a delight to play as. Genuinely like her and would like to see more of her.

6. Wyll

Ahhh my prince charming. The one true good character of the gang. I really like him a lot; his story being this intertwined with Karlach’s makes me so happy, and he is genuinely a kind soul with a brave heart. And the locks mod for him? Uuh, made him 10 times hotter! But that being said, he is kind of weak in the battlefield (as I realized warlocks are uhhh), and his story with his dad wasn’t interesting to me. Thus, I destroyed the pact and didn’t even try to save him from Iron Throne. Be nice to your kid who sold his soul for his people, mf. And his pact with Mizora broke my heart; I wish he had another way to deal with her. But hey, the horns look good, and his heart is in the right place (though I always kinda cannot love purely good characters as they lack depth and kinda act like a book of virtue). He definitely lacked in the content department as well, so thus, I cannot add him higher than 6th…

5. Karlach

Ahh my beautiful fiery friend, Karlach is such an inspirational character because even though she is going through quite literally hells, she still keeps her upbeat and charming self up. She aspired me to look at problems with less of a scornful face, honestly. I'll try to be like her; I really want to. It pisses me off how short her story is compared to the rest and how sad her fate is: either go to the literal hell you are trying to escape or die. I'm glad in my run Wyll was able to go with her, but it was nothing but a temporary solution. Her story didn’t end in a way; just left incomplete, thus I cannot put her higher. I like her in battle; she was my tank after all, though I believe I wasn’t able to build her to her potential, thus Lae’zel was a better fighter than her. I still love her personality, her full-of-life views, and her hilarious voicelines. Her being a tiefling makes her more appealing, as they are probably my fave race in BG3! Long live my hot, fun, and energetic babygirl <3 <3 <3

4. Astarion

Ahhhhh the pale elf. Astarion is such a delightful character, from his funny lines to Neil's incredible performance to his story to his general behaviors, acts, and preferences to HIS INCREDIBLY STRONG BUILD for his battle style. I love him. I adore him, and I cannot wait to romance him as OG Durge hhihiih. I feel like a great amount of the taste of backstories of companions is locked behind their romances, thus to understand them more, I must romance them!! Oh joy, love it. Astarion was such a savior for me during fights, and especially if I managed to make him attack while sneaking, he was sure to get multiple crit hits. Though I feel like the rogue class is a bit boring to play as: I make one ranged attack, and if the enemy is close, I can do one close-range, but if not… well, I need to skip him. So yeah, it was definitely powerful, but the thrill always ended too quickly. I genuinely love Astarion's story. I love how devs showed his abuse—it’s not common to narrate sexual abuse towards male characters, and I’m glad his story is there to make me cry. He is truly a quality character, and as you get to know him more, you understand his hostile self in Act 1. That being said (I hope no one gets this the wrong way), I think him in general and his story are overrated as fuuuuck in the fandom space, and the way Larian only focuses on him to cater to the audience kinda annoys me, thus makes me not like him as much as I'd love to. It's a real thing that a fandom can make or break a character for me, and this is kind of his situation, so why I think he belongs to the 4th spot. But who knows—he may go higher or lower after I finish his romance path.

3. Lae'zel

Now if anyone told me that I’d like Lae’zel as much as I do now, I’d laugh at their face as I was kinda annoyed by her rude self as I was watching the EA version of the game, but OH LORD she is truly a gem, my soft frog treasure. Yes, she is rude. Yes, she is bloodthirsty. Yes, she is persistent. But they all make her such a compelling companion, as you get to see her kinder self. After the travel to Creche, you get to see how nice she is to Tav. She actually tries her best to cooperate and find common ground with you, not because of the affliction alone, but because of the time you spend together. She is suuuch a slow burn, and I love her for that. So me betraying her at the end really felt like a sharp knife to my chest. I tricked her after going and retrieving the fucking hammer—MIND YOU, HOUSE OF HOPE WAS LIKE HELLS FOR ME. I kept on dying and dying to those fucking fireballs, but to make her happy and contribute to the liberation of her people, I did it. However, at the end, I think I was gaslighted into thinking that the Emperor was the only choice for survival. It pisses me off how her story is intertwined with the ending this much. Maybe I should have picked Orpheus, so I wouldn’t be so disappointed in myself. A chance for another playthrough. I just love her a lot, AND SHE IS THE POWERHOUSE OF MY TEAM. She is the strongest companion I had, no joke. She crit hit so many people and saved my ass so many times. I’m actually so grateful for a queen like her. The reason I put her slightly lower is because her Act 2-3 story was not as strong as Act 1 for me. I did see her improve, but the spotlight of it turned from her development to the freedom of her people slightly, thus I wanted the spotlight to stay on her. I must romance her to see her even softer side, my frog queen!!! I kiss you; I smooch you <3 <3 <3

2. Gale

OHHH DEKARIOS you have captured my heart with your endless vocabulary knowledge and swagless rizz 💜💜💜. The real Gozde stans know she can never say no to a brunette malewife guy with pretty brown eyes. I LOVE Gale, and searching up his name after my run left me shocked as I saw that the majority hated him sdhsgdhsgd. Now, I'm not gonna lecture anyone, but if the only reason you hate him is because he eats only THREE of your artifacts (which are ridiculously easy to find in Act 1, Skill issue) and because he talks a lot, yeah, I don’t wanna listen to you lol. But if you are actually critical about his neutral self and his inflated ego, I’m all ears as it is always delightful to listen to takes that make sense. I kinda see myself in his story, thus maybe why it hit me this hard. The prodigy genius wizard (I’m not calling myself genius, but I had VERY high grades ehehe) who thought his studies defined him, thus became this egotistical guy who was pretty decent in magic. Literally ruined his life for his ambitions to become something more, burning out like a candle that gets lit up fast, locking himself up in his tower and succumbing to depression and self-hatred. A relationship that broke his self-love, and now he hides his deepest insecurities behind his shield of "Gale of Waterdeep" title. Thinking the world would be a better place if he just killed himself. Thinking himself so worthless that a small token of appreciation feels like a parade he needs to cherish. Thinking the only way to improve himself is killing Gale Dekarios and becoming the memory of a once-great wizard—not stopping there and actually trying to rise to godhood of ambition just to show everyone, Mystra and maybe himself, that he is enough. OH THE ANGST. In the past, I did have such cold feelings for myself; sometimes they still resurface. I did think of taking my own life because of the pain I caused for my family and friends. Even though my reason isn’t as explosive as his, I get him, and Tav's romance revolving around healing him and not having kinky sex 24/7 really touched something in my heart. I thought that maybe I, too, deserve to be loved. Maybe I, too, should reach for highs that are realistic and stop being a suicide threat 24/7. Ohh, I adore him. I can talk for hours about his story, but I gotta keep it short. He is incredibly powerful in combat if you build him right, and I believe I managed to do that. He taught me so many different words, and his sudden flirty remarks really left me speechless, just looking at the screen fucking dazed. Ahhhhhh I LOVE YOU FUNNY MAGIC MAN.

AND NOW THE WINNER IS

SHADOWHEART

Ever since I watched my bestie play EA, I knew she was going to be my fave character. I don’t know if it’s because of her soothing angelic voice, or because of her goth design, or the way she sees the world, or because we both share religious trauma, but I don’t care—she is my favourite companion, character, BABYGIRL, girl for girls, and everything really. In EA, she was a lot colder and had her walls up, but I feel like they tweaked her to make her more likable—probably because of the male audience lol. But nevertheless, my love for her didn’t lessen an inch. She is one of the realest characters. Her trauma is actually so heartbreaking: getting stolen from your fam because a CUNT wants to be the right hand of a deity who is nothing but misery and pain to people, getting educated your whole life in the ways of being cruel, GETTING YOUR MEMORIES TAKEN FROM YOU as if they aren’t what makes you who you are!! These are some hard-to-swallow things that I absolutely eat up when they’re fictional. Religion is a weird thing—it makes you feel safe; believing in something makes you feel grounded. But you also feel the pain caused by people who use that religion as their sword. Shart’s case? Shar was a master manipulator, played her like a toy, fucking used her to her liking. Thus, another reason why I’ll always HATE DnD or medieval gods—they’re all talk and no action. They only take and leave you disappointed. Fucking selfish mfs. And I was so glad to watch Shart embrace herself even though it cost her family’s demise. Don’t get me wrong, I really liked how her fam died—it really showed the player that they actually wanted what’s best for their daughter and not some cheap “fam reunion oh no you guys are dead again” trope. She jokes like a dad, and her smile is the warmest thing in the game. She is one of the most sapphic-coded characters I’ve ever seen, and I just cannot wait to romance her with my righteous paladin. When it comes to fighting, I feel like I wasn’t able to make her much of a fighter but more of a healer. Dgmw, she saved my ass multiple times, but she also missed. A LOT. Regardless, if I was playing the game without the party limitation mode, she’d def always be in my party both because of her aid and humour and because she is the prettiest girl ever. I LOVE FEMME CHARACTERS MUAH. 💜💜💜

[echolepzy]

Yay questions :D I like answering questions :D

1. What was the last thing you drank?

Failed fountain drink concoction

2. Where was your profile picture taken?

Uhhh… On my tablet?

3. Worst pain ever?

The first thing that comes to mind is silver nitrate welding flesh together. That was its own kind of hell for me.

4. Favorite place you’ve ever traveled?

Hm… New York City, probably.

5. How late did you stay up last night?

4 AM. I felt inspired and had to finish what I was drawing okay

6. If you could move, where would you move to?

Actually, I’ve recently been considering the possibility of moving to Norway!

7. What do you collect?

Handmade leatherbound journals… and art of my OCs. The second is more of a treasure hoard to me though lol

8. Favorite day of the week?

Tuesday, because then if shit happens I can turn it into a joke

9. Amusement park or concert?

Uhh… Conventions and fairs. I think that probably fits somewhere in between those two options.

10. When was the last time you cried?

I got too excited at a story last night and teared up? But I’m not sure if that counts as crying. I guess the last time I really cried was that car accident I got into with my mom.

11. Who took your profile picture?

… Me?

12. Who’s the last person you took a picture of?

My dog, I think? It was a video I sent to my friend-

13. What’s your favorite season?

Definitely fall! It’s the season for Halloween, pretty colors, cool weather, and chances to be something else. Also technically my birthday but I’m not sure if I’d count that since I end up dreading it a lot.

14. If you could have any other career?

Well, my current “career” is a student who takes commissions on the side… I’m an aspiring indie game developer, though!

15. Who’s your celebrity crush?

I don’t even know any celebrities, let alone have any celebrity crushes. Gimme a kitsune lady and then we’ll talk

16. Are you a good influence?

With my little siblings, I try to be. Otherwise, absolutely fucking not!~

17. Does pineapple belong on pizza?

To me, pineapple doesn’t belong on anything. The texture is too weird.

18. You have the remote, what are you watching?

Some sort of comic dub series on YouTube, probably. Or all three Venom movies.

Tags for anyone else who wants to answer questions for fun - @stardusts-supervoid @gardensnakie @silvers-random-art-blog

Tagged by the WONDERFUL @nostalgic90s - coincidentally I was literally just thinking about you last night lol

1. What was the last thing you drank?

Chocolate peanut butter and banana smoothie ✌️

2. Where was your profile picture taken?

…… furaffinity???

3. Worst pain ever?

Migraines, I’m always baffled by my coworkers who say they can work through them - like bestie how are you even standing right now

4. Favorite place you've ever traveled?

Bold of you to assume I’ve traveled. I guess the place I went to college? It was in the middle of nowhere, we had one bus that took us to the nearest city and one bus that went in a circle around town. Also we had cows, pigs, goats, sheep and horses. Sometimes when you weee on the bus you could see deer just wandering through peoples yards. Easily the best place I’ve ever stayed long term.

5. How late did you stay up last night?

Uhhhh fuck if I know lmao I fell asleep on the couch and woke up at 3am

6. If you could move, where would you move to?

Preferably somewhere rural with lots of folklore around it - like Ireland or the Appalachians

7. What do you collect?

Oh boy that is a LOADED question lmao

I guess my biggest collection is dolls - mostly Little Apple Dolls, though I have a few Franklin Mint Marilyn Monroe porcelain dolls and I’d love to get more of those some day. I have my fantasy reborns, which I would also like more of <3. I have some clown dolls and BJDs. I’d love some of the anthropomorphic Betty Jane Carter dolls, I think those are ADORABLE. I also have a hentai figurine but idk if she counts lol

On the smaller end, I collect a lot of Lilo and Stitch and Lion king stuff - extra points if it’s from Lion King 2 because that one is my absolute favorite. I collect a lot of Marilyn Monroe memorabilia, and I collect vintage porn and pinups. Oh, and music boxes, I love music boxes.

8. Favorite day of the week?

Sunday, Monday and Tuesday - hear me out on that lmao. Sunday and Monday are my days off - I usually use Sunday to run errands and volunteer at a horse rescue every other weekend, Monday I usually spend cleaning, taking care of my plants and bugs, or just giving myself a day to do nothing for once except lay on the couch and watch TV. Tuesday is when I go back to work - but it’s also the one day a week I get to work with two of my favorite coworkers, and unless something goes HORRIBLY wrong with the scheduling, we usually have a blast. Like last Tuesday I came into work and one of my coworkers was playing Kesha. You KNOW it’s gonna be a good day when the DJ for the day is playing Kesha 😩😩

9. Amusement park or concert?

Depends on the concert and the amusement park. I’ve always wanted to go to an amusement park for a date with a nice butch who wins me tons of prizes at the game stands <3

But if I’m going alone than I’m gonna say concert lol

10. When was the last time you cried?

I don’t remember and I’d like to keep it that way ✌️

Probably not that long ago but I’m not gonna kill my morning drudging up miserable shit from the past if I’ve already forgotten about it lol

11. Who took your profile picture?

Oh shit I just realized I never put artist credit in my bio, fuck me lmao

Anyway my icon is by Kitchiki on FA, I absolutely love her work <3

12. Who's the last person you took a picture of?

One of the performers at the burlesque fetish ball I went to last Saturday, her performance was just her getting a live corset piercing. My three friends at the show were quite squeamish about it, I…. Was not lmao

13. What's your favorite season?

Spring or summer - I love the trees and green grass and flowers and sunshine, plus seeing all the baby animals down at the pond near my job. Also my wardrobe is like 99% spring and summer clothes lol

Although winter is growing on me lately, I’ve found that my tolerance for cold has gone up significantly this past year 🤔

14. If you could have any other career?

I’m literally debating quitting my job as we speak in favor of becoming a typist, solely for the financial stability. So, maybe not the best time for me to answer this question lol

15. Who's your celebrity crush?

I don’t really have celebrity crushes, more as I have like…. A select amount of female celebrities I find very pretty but more in the sense that I want to look like them. Oh and Dolly Parton - she’s not a crush or someone I want to look like, she is simply Mother™️

16. Are you a good influence?

Depends on who’s asking I guess 🤷‍♀️

17. Does pineapple belong on pizza?

Pizza is not a food I care enough about to really care what toppings other people put on it

18. You have the remote, what are you watching?

Either venture bros or invincible season 3 episode 8

Aaaaand ngl I’m skipping the very last question cause I think it’s stupid

But I will tag @radioactivesourdough @airconditionedgirl @last-knight-who-was @b-rainlet @guroboyfriend @wandering-wolf23 @thotsyndrome @jervis-tetch-my-beloved @syggwolf @spasmolytic-convulsion @evilaroships @princesstokyom @solaceinabandonment