#i appreciate the ask and the kindness

[sarah-cam]

i respectfully would disagree with you about tim not being racist for lucy’s first time test in the pilot. he definitely was being racist in that scene. the fact that it was a tim test shouldn’t excuse the fact that those people he said it to weren’t people that tim hired to play along. those were actual people that he pulled over. they had no knowledge about tim tests. all they know was that a cop was be incredibly hateful toward them for no reason. and let’s say he only said that to teach lucy a lesson. the lesson should’ve been to report officers that have been racist. some of those times tests in season 1 were just straight up abuse of power. i love tim but i will never excuse him for that.

also, with that storyline with the racist cop, tim openly admitted that he let guys like doug get a pass because he didn’t think it was possible to change them. he let racism pass for far too long and that’s one thing that i feel like gets overlooked.

again no hate i just wanted to share my open.

i guess what i said came across wrong because i agree. by saying it was a “tim test” i just meant that he wasn’t doing that because he believed it or was being hateful, i was just trying to provide some context about the scene (which is the question i was asked). his actions were wrong and when isolated, yes was racist, but he himself is not a racist. sorry, that is what i was trying to get across!! he did something very ignorant and not okay, like i said, and those actions do contribute to systemic racism. the effect matters more, but intent also does matter. again — emphasizing it was NOT okay and those people did NOT deserve that

i also said that he realizes that he has been complicit in the problem and acknowledges it. it’s not excusing him, but people are allowed to learn and grow 💗

there’s a really great quote from emmanuel acho — “there’s a difference between being racist and being racially insensitive or racially ignorant.”

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

[i-got-da-rubes]

“Thank you for asking what nobody else did.

What not even I considered.”

Drawn with my non-dominant hand.

[14dayswithyou]

tell ren to turn his location on👉👈

I saw one of the posts of how ren does get jealous of pets being loved over him and alll that so now I have the thought of the one meme of ‘ah yes, me, my partner and their [enter normal pet size] foot [pet]’

I don’t have anything else, it did pop into my head though and I thought I’d share with the class.

⌞♥⌝ ItsNotVivy on Twitter actually made that exact meme with Ren a looong time ago!!

[boringwomanwithabook]

Parched for your particular brand of content but, selfie?👀

would you rather see lucky jack booping my dummy face instead

[daily-grian]

Hello! Hope you feel better soon, and Grian hopes so too!

Always love to see your Grians in the morning, this blog is best blog!

the sweetest roundest grian

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I think I have to tell you that you're borderline genius.

I would consider it to be closer to borderline madness to be honest. A healthy person would not do what I have done.

[rewuyuu]

How did you get to be such an amazing artist?

i ate a lot of crayons as a kid

[fawntastic]

Why’d they have to pit two bad bitches against each other

[profanepurity]

My jaw dropped when I saw that unmasked alpha

I'm clawing at the walls

Rattling the bars

He is gorgeous

NOT BORING.

I'm so glad you like him 🥹 I did a little sketch of him just to play with his design.

[turquoisemagpie]

Appreciate the little things.

Not to ignorantly deny all of the big bad things in the world, but to survive them.

[grmpgm]

come on, danny, let’s go party! 💗

[lovedtogekiss-art]

ghost in the machine, for caroline appreciation day

[dingostrash]

That Mash so pretty. Thank you for my life Dingo.

Anytime anon. Why not have another one, on the house.

[hemlock-dreams]

i need to say, personally, that i LOVE your hunting!spider AU, a very interesting concept, read all the backstory in one day, 10/10 would recommend

<3<3<3

Thank you so much! I've been having a blast with this AU and the fandom has been amazing- not to mention SO much inspiration for ideas and extra art!

[acatpiestuff]

My Commissions are open again because I am trying to move out and don't currently have a job

I also have a Kofi, if you'd like to donate but right now I need to save up some more money if I even hope to leave this house. I do want to mention that I finish sketch commissions a lot faster than any of the other types of commissions.

Here is the link to my prices

and some samples of my work below the cut.

Sketches:

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