#i appreciate the ask and the kindness

[sarah-cam]

i respectfully would disagree with you about tim not being racist for lucy’s first time test in the pilot. he definitely was being racist in that scene. the fact that it was a tim test shouldn’t excuse the fact that those people he said it to weren’t people that tim hired to play along. those were actual people that he pulled over. they had no knowledge about tim tests. all they know was that a cop was be incredibly hateful toward them for no reason. and let’s say he only said that to teach lucy a lesson. the lesson should’ve been to report officers that have been racist. some of those times tests in season 1 were just straight up abuse of power. i love tim but i will never excuse him for that.

also, with that storyline with the racist cop, tim openly admitted that he let guys like doug get a pass because he didn’t think it was possible to change them. he let racism pass for far too long and that’s one thing that i feel like gets overlooked.

again no hate i just wanted to share my open.

i guess what i said came across wrong because i agree. by saying it was a “tim test” i just meant that he wasn’t doing that because he believed it or was being hateful, i was just trying to provide some context about the scene (which is the question i was asked). his actions were wrong and when isolated, yes was racist, but he himself is not a racist. sorry, that is what i was trying to get across!! he did something very ignorant and not okay, like i said, and those actions do contribute to systemic racism. the effect matters more, but intent also does matter. again — emphasizing it was NOT okay and those people did NOT deserve that

i also said that he realizes that he has been complicit in the problem and acknowledges it. it’s not excusing him, but people are allowed to learn and grow 💗

there’s a really great quote from emmanuel acho — “there’s a difference between being racist and being racially insensitive or racially ignorant.”

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

[i-got-da-rubes]

“Thank you for asking what nobody else did.

What not even I considered.”

Drawn with my non-dominant hand.

[rewuyuu]

How did you get to be such an amazing artist?

i ate a lot of crayons as a kid

[profanepurity]

My jaw dropped when I saw that unmasked alpha

I'm clawing at the walls

Rattling the bars

He is gorgeous

NOT BORING.

I'm so glad you like him 🥹 I did a little sketch of him just to play with his design.

[turquoisemagpie]

Appreciate the little things.

Not to ignorantly deny all of the big bad things in the world, but to survive them.

[beybuniki]

How do you pick your colors? Your art style is so cohesive and i love the palettes you use!!

thank you! im a very intuitive artist, i think i draw frequently enough to know my preferences pretty well lol, but recently I’ve been enjoying working with somehow complementary colors?

like these don't look that similar but i did use the same 4 colors or so! i like to complement yellow/orange (skin) with teal (most of the clothes lol), I think they make each other pop rlly well

i also keep my palettes very minimal, i used the same blue hues for bokuto's hair, outfit, and the pigeons, too! same with deku’s outfits and hair, it’s the same color in different hues :)

i keep my palettes very minimal in general, i think its easier to create a somehow cohesive/harmonious palette and illustrations if you limit yourself :) as you can see, the colors I predominantly use are all hues of green and yellow, I let the overlay balance it all out and make it look less harsh I guess

also i don’t limit myself to fixed color palettes, i just use the same base color and overlay layer for most illustrations, I think those bring everything together even if I dont really know what I’m doing, i hope this helpssss

[grmpgm]

come on, danny, let’s go party! 💗

[lovedtogekiss-art]

ghost in the machine, for caroline appreciation day

[dingostrash]

That Mash so pretty. Thank you for my life Dingo.

Anytime anon. Why not have another one, on the house.

[acatpiestuff]

My Commissions are open again because I am trying to move out and don't currently have a job

I also have a Kofi, if you'd like to donate but right now I need to save up some more money if I even hope to leave this house. I do want to mention that I finish sketch commissions a lot faster than any of the other types of commissions.

Here is the link to my prices

and some samples of my work below the cut.

Sketches:

Lineart:

Colored:

[pinkd3mon]

Hello, if you’re still taking drawing requests?? I just finished forgotten land and there’s so many thoughts in my head abt it lol. Could you draw Kirby, bandana and elfilin sitting at the cafe eating something?

Also you don’t have to draw this one but a friend and I joke that elfilin eats like fecto forgo lol (bc of the no mouth)

Thankyou so much!!!

He's a quirky little guy (gender neutral)

[enden-agolor]

i love your art!! I'm not a big fan of jesskas but it's nice to see your passion in the ship, it gives me good vibes!! anyway, do you have fanchilds or have you considered them at some point? i like them because i feel like it's seeing a new type of connection between a ship :DD

It’s not exactly a fanchild (I personally don’t care for those) but I do love to imagine that in the far future once Jesse has coped through the loss of Reuben and found comfortable ground and the ability to move on from losing his best friend, then he’s able to open up the idea of adding a new member to fit that role in his life. It takes a long time to get to this point, and I feel like the reason Jesse is so awkward around other animals is because they remind him of Reuben. Eventually though he and Lukas do get a dog. Years prior, he would have been so put off by the idea of having a pet like this, but once the offer is up and he’s mentally ready to handle it, he takes the offer and accepts a new member to the family. He can’t help but hold on to his old ways in the beginning, kind of comparing her to Reuben but he very quickly stops that when he realizes this little puppy is a totally different experience, and very much gets a soft spot for her. Also Lukas loves to see their little family grow…

[pokimoko]

Hello!! i just discovered your blog and firstly i wanna say that your art is gorgeous! <33 and secondly, if youre still taking requests could i get a lesbian/non binary cheetah? /nf

Thank you! Cheetahs be upon ye!

[turnipoddity]

I feel like I'm at a family gathering and you're my grandmother continuing to pile food on my plate when I'm like "no thanks grandma I'm full" ur just like "nono you need to eat more, you're far too skinny" or some grandma sounding phrase like that, and I say this with love ur content is giving me so much joy

grandma has to cook or she will lose her mind if she dont get them visions out from her head dearie

[barrenclan]

AHHHHHHHHH THIS WAS SO GOOD!!! The cats survived, but did Barrenclan survive? No. This is the end of a lot of things and yet very few. I hope they decide to stay with the decision to leave, even if Mallowstar is gone, I get if nightberry might choose to stay. And at the very least has Blacknose still has Egrettail so she hasn’t lost all her partners… there’s still someone to raise the kits with. I’m very happy so many survived even though they are now deeply traumatised, and I’m hoping this story ends in at least a hopeful note with them leaving this behind and heading towards a new future. If they stay they’d just be continuing The Cycle and they all deserve at least to try. At least a chance. And to tell the story of what happened not just suffer in silence for generations on. I want the kits to be happy, at least.

It's almost like the story I kept saying was about breaking cycles... is about breaking cycles!