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majael95 · 1 year ago

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I really wish I could just learn not to relax and be myself in groups of people. Every single time I do I fuck up and hurt someone. I misread situations, get social rules wrong.. or I gave expectations for how the thing will be and it's not like that so I'm freaking out over the chance of expectations and I'm not capable of being nice while trying to deal with that.

I'm just not a nice person to be around. Unless I'm really in control of the situation, but that's also not nice. Being controlling isn't nice, but I can't handle the change in expectations, so I'm just not nice..

#just me being personal #autistic feels #adhd #people really are right not to like me #i apparently managed to ruin an entire bob ross painting event for everyone #and i especially ruined it for my friend #she had a horrible time #and i could kinda tell but i misunderstood why #i though she was frustrated about not getting the painting results she wanted #so i tried to be helpful #but she was frustrated with me for not lwtting her relax and wnjoy her own prosess #i thought the point was to follow the tutorial #but apparently i was wrong and everyone had a bad time because of mw

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