#i apologise i tried to make her not say smth lmao

[wearequeer-andwearehere]

Hey, I'm sorry in advance that this is super long and feel free to ignore this ask if you can't or don't want to answer it, I appreciate being able to just rant somewhere anyway :) I am an aro-questioning ace girl, and I have been struggling to figure out if I'm arospec or not because there have been some people that I have gotten really attached to but I don't know if it was in a romantic way? There was this girl who I thought was really really pretty and her smile made feel so happy and warm and nervous inside. Even though there were other more "conventionally attractive" girls out there but I only felt this way around her... Maybe that was aesthetic attraction? I wasn't that close to her, but I wanted to talk to her and see her smile, and we didn't have anything in common but I still wanted to be close to her... I've NEVER felt this way for anyone else and I'm 18 and I know that it's common for alloromantic people to have felt at least very mild romantic attraction to more than 2-3 people by the time they're 18, and it's been 3 years since then, and I haven't felt this around anyone else, so I can't help that maybe I'm making up these feelings? Just so I could "have a crush"? Or maybe they're just strong platonic feelings? I guess I'm just looking for some sort of confirmation because honestly I can't deal with not having a label to put to my feelings, and I've tried going label-less for a long time. It was easy for me to figure out that I'm ace, cause I just heard the description and was like "oh shit, i thought everyone felt this way" but figuring out my romantic orientation is a whole other ordeal cause I don't want to kiss anyone ever, and wanting affection can be very much platonic, so I can't really differentiate between romantic and platonic attraction. I have one other aroace friend and they don't have the same problems, so I don't know.

Sorry for this being super super long

Anon Im slapping you in the face with a wet fish rn DON’T APOLOGISE!! THATS WHAT IM HERE FOR!! IM HERRE TO HELP YALL DONT SAY SORRY!!!!

Gonna be honest, that sounds like romantic attraction to me, but it could still be platonic attraction. My suggestion is talk to some of your alloro friends and ask them to describe what romantic attraction feels like to them, and see how close your experiences with this girl are to what theyre talking about.

Bestie I HIGHLY doubt you’re making up these feelings—why would you make up smth you’re having a whole ass crisis about?? Capital U Unlikely

Not everyone feels romantic attraction at the same time, even alloro people. I had friends who had crushes by 1st grade and I never liked anyone til 5th grade. Shit’s different for different people.

Honestly this is gonna sound very like facebook mom so I’m sorry in advance lmao but my advice is Just Chill. Like don’t get me wrong man I know exactly the kinda shit you’re going thru (I went thru the same thing w gender) like the whole anxiety hyperventilate I need to know what I am thing.

But you gotta fucking breathe dude. Inhale, exhale. Like. You may be aro, you may not be. And that’s okay. The more you try to frantically try and find a label the more confused and frustrated and mad you’ll get. So you gotta just let things be, yknow? Shit’ll fall into place eventually.

Like I used to frantically try and label myself like oh i’m genderfluid wait am I maybe I’m a demi boy maybe I’m genderfaun fuck what’s going on I feel like shit—then I realised it doesn’t fucking matter as long as I’m being myself, and not overthinking everyone to shit. I let mysrlf be, and then I realised oh shit, I’m a trans dude. Okay yknow what good for me, slay!

So here’s my advice. You like this girl—good for you, slay! Maybe it’s platonic, maybe it isn’t, but either way, you like her, so spend time with her. Don’t sweat it mate. If she makes you happy, whether it’s as a friend or as a potential girlfriend, be with her.

Hope I could help you out!!

[nobarangel]

their s/o is on her period (iwa, oikawa, atsumu, sakusa)

characters: iwaizumi x f!reader, oikawa x f!reader, atsumu x f!reader, sakusa x f!reader

warnings: none

word count: ~830

— 𝐈𝐖𝐀𝐈𝐙𝐔𝐌𝐈

-he would notice that you’re grumpier than usual, but he wouldn’t pay too much mind to it

-but when he saw your face scrunch up in pain??

-mom mode: on

-he gotta take care of his baby!!

-i think he knows some basic stuff about how to deal with girls when they’re on their period so he would try his best to help you

-he would literally sprint to the nearest shop at 3am to get you ice cream

-the only reason he might hesitate whether to go or not, would be that he wouldn’t want to leave you alone

-he’d be worried that you may be in pain when he isn’t there to cure it with cuddles and kisses

-he’d be so patient with you, like no matter how many times you snap at him he still would be the nice and caring boyfriend he is

-bestest boy😔🤌✨

— 𝐎𝐈𝐊𝐀𝐖𝐀

-obviously he knew what a period is

- i mean he has experience with girls and he may have a sister as well so,,

-he would be really considerate with you, careful not to hurt your feelings because he was aware of how sensitive you were

-keeps track of when you’ll have your period, so he can prepare your favourite snacks and movies

-if you’re in pain, he’ll just embrace you and rub gentle circles on your tummy while whispering sweet nothings into your ear

-he’s always down for cuddles sigh ur lucky

-if you’re mad at him or smth he would just pout until you can’t resist him anymore

-and then he’d shower you with smooches :(

-however if you’re emotional, he’d tease and comfort you at the same time

-how?

-“aww, my princess feels sad cuz she saw a cute kitten?” he’d coo in a teasing tone

-but still he’d hug you and tell you that it’s okay and you’re not a crybaby because of that he’d be sad too cuz that kitty was really that cute

-please be thankful cause toorū knows how to treat a girl right especially on her more sensitive days 😔<3

— 𝐀𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐔

-SO CLUELESS OH MY LORD

-“what? period? lmao what is that?”

-when you explain it to him he’s ✨terrified✨

-and really worried about you

-he has an eye on you 24/7 to make sure that you still haven’t bled to death

-will make sure to get whatever you want

-sweets? borrows steals from osamu

-cuddles? he’s already on the coach, waiting for you to climb next to him

-his hoodies? would lend you his whole wardrobe if it would make you smile

-he tries his best to make you happy and comfortable even on these days

-he would be so soft with you, no teasing or fighting even if it’s just a “playful” fight

-he couldn’t stand it if you’d be mad at him, because he would blame himself for not being nice enough with you :(

-if you still end up being angry at him, he’d do anything to make it up to you

-you honestly couldn’t stay mad at him for more than a half hour cuz he’s so sweet

-but he’s only like this when you’re either on your period or feeling down so don’t get too used to ‘nice tsumu’

— 𝐒𝐀𝐊𝐔𝐒𝐀

-he is quite educated in themes like this so he knows what’s going on

-but he’s still lowkey panicking whenever you’re on your period

-he wouldn’t show it though but he would be very concerned about you

-even if he doesn’t really like physical affection, he would cuddle you if you wanted him to

-always has painkillers with him so he would make sure that you take them if you weren’t feeling alright

-tbh your mood swings would most likely annoy him so if you weren’t in pain he would just leave you to calm down by yourself

-he hopes that you don’t feel like he doesn’t care about you, cuz he does!!

-he’s just worried that he would say something harsh what would hurt you

-even if he keeps his distance from you, he checks up on you through texts and leaves food, blankets or a cup of hot chocolate in front of your rooms door

-after you’ve calmed down he would hug you and apologise for leaving you alone, but hopefully you’d understand

-however if you were in pain, he would be very serious about it

-would make you take your medicines and get you a heat pad to put on your stomach while he caresses your back and leaves small kisses on your shoulders to make you forget the ache in your tummy

-he would do so until you’d fall asleep

-then he’d just lay next to you and watch your peaceful sleeping face because damn omi’s soft for you

-please appreciate his small gestures!! he really tries not to freak out over the thought of your germs, just to make you comfortable 😔<3

a/n: omfg this is a mess- but at least a fluffy mess✨

[the-fandom-fuckup]

A bit more for that modern fantasy au I teased a bit ago

Character designs n stuff are slightly based off the official halloween n fantasy ending arts, plus whatever else I wanted to do, so Kiri is a dragon shifter here, Baku is a werewolf, n Ochako is a witch.

There'll probably be a hint of a/b/o dynamics here for weres n shifters, n the idea of alpha!Kiri n alpha!Baku has stuck to me like glue, so that's a thing here also

There's no real plot for this, just these three being dumb n pining, and everyone around them rolling their eyes n dealing with it lmao

I've thought about jobs n first meetings tho, n came up with this. Kiri's a firefighter (along with Tetsu, who is also a dragon shifter, bc I love him and their bro-bond), bc big fire resistent boy running into fires to help people just makes sense. Also I really like the thought of him in the uniform

Ochako works as a self defense instructor with Gunhead at a small gym in town, probably helping people with magic items n stuff on the side for extra cash or smth, I dunno. She might wanna move into a more magically dominant field one day, but she likes the environment of the gym n the regulars that come in n chat between classes. She's also very good at what she does n has put many assholes in their place after they've scoffed at "the cute little girl you have here".

Baku is a "park ranger", n I use quotations bc that's the only title he could really give himself to have any authority over the land he owns. He gives himself more leeway than what some laws may grant, tho tbh if you're coming into his territory with intent to harm those in it, you're lucky to walk away at all just sayin'

He runs an escape park of sorts for weres n shifters to run around during full moons and other times they need to shed their human skin, personally owned so he can avoid all the bullshit regulations n "safety procedures" found in bigger places that try offering the same thing, but ultimately make the shifting process shittier than it needs to be. And words gets around so it gets super popular super fast, n people of all ages come by

Tbh the thought of a teeny tiny wolf, like 10y/o at most running around Baku n trying to get him to play, nipping at his ankles n calling him the pack alpha is really what settled the debate on whether he should be an alpha or omega. And the added image of Baku rolling his eyes n putting on his toughass act but not really minding it as he gets them moving with a tap on the ass, muttering "Fuckin told ya squirt, I'm not your pack alpha. Now find someone else's ankles to bite at, I'm busy", makes me feel really nice

For some first meetings, tbh Kiribaku probably happens first, n they meet when Kiri n Tetsu accidentally trespass on Baku's territory bc they're new to the area n found a big ass lake to soak in during a flight over town, like dude!! Fuck yea that could fit both of us easy, man I haven't soaked in my big form in forever lets go!

And ofc if the giant shadows overhead hadn't tipped him off the security sensors would've so Baku's like who in the FUCK!! N storms off to confront them bc you don't just come on his land like that. That's how people get fucking hurt you dumb assholes 😤😤

N Kiri n Tetsu are mostly just minding their own business, settling down into the lake like aw yea that's the shit, almost passing out bc they'd just had a long day n the water was so cool n the fish eatting the dead skin n shit off their scales was so relaxing. They don't even realise they'd drifted into a light doze when they hear furious snarling n harsh sniffing coming their way, n barely have enough time to get up before Baku comes tearing shit through the trees

And like. Kiri n Tetsu know that they're big boys. Their full sized dragon forms are huge n there's not much out there that scares them, but nobody likes coming face to face with a snarling werewolf, standing in their territory without any warning that you maybe shouldn't be there

Despite the hostile intro, it doesn't take much for the misunderatanding to be cleared up. There's a lot of apologies from Kiri n Tetsu n a lot of irritated snorts from Baku, but they get straightened out. Baku tells them what kinda show he's running n Kiri inatantly get sparkly eyes like dude!! You do that all by yourself?! That's so manly bro you gotta let us help with that

Baku snorts like you don't have to make empty offers if you wanna use the grounds, I don't refuse people unless they pose an actual threat to the others. You guys aren't dangerous, just stupid. N Kiri goes hey rude, but also it's gotta be a lot dealing with all that on your own. We can at least watch out from above, keep an eye on shit or whatever bc face it man, you may be great but even you can't be in multiple places at once.

And the only reason Baku ends up agreeing is bc they pester him about it until he's well past irritated, n he's figured out the only way to shut them up was concede. They can't be there fulltime anyway consudering their professions, but they're sure to help when they can

Kirichako meet at the gym. Kiri's buying a membership or smth bc you gotta keep the stength up bro! Can't be slacking when you're the difference between someone living n someong dying y'know? Ochako's either in a class or dealing with some hothead, her furrowed brows n puffed cheeks distracting Kiri n reminding him of a chipmunk before bud says smth he can't hear but has Ochako seeing red. It doesn't take long for him to end up on his ass n Kiri's just stuck watching, jaw dropped n heart eyes as Ochako tells the guy he can either fix his attitude or find somewhere else to go

Kiri turns to Tetsu like dude holy shit did you see that?? N Tetsu's like yea bro everyone saw it, n Ochako comes up to them like sorry about that. We have a no harassment policy here that some people overstep, n it sucks that we get people coming in that need it enforced but unfortunately it's pretty common.

Then, bc she's still a bit sour, she looks them both dead in the eyes with a fire raging behind hers like if that's not smth you think you can handle then you might as well save us all the hassle n leave now. N they're both like no way that was great, totally understandable, just tell us where to sign

And while she came off as kinda aggressive during their initial meet, Kiri's quick to find she has just as much sweetness to match her bite. He watches her between sets sometimes n sees how kind n gentle she can be with the younger classes that come in, how she doesn't single out people who struggle n instead moves to help n provide tips without making a huge deal of it

She's also one of the first people to come running when someone gets hurt, he finds out. He'd admittedly been more focused on her sparring with Gunhead than he'd been on the super heavy equipment he was using for his reps, n managed to look over at the perfect time to get flustered n drop it directly on his foot. The resounding crack was loud enough to catch quite a bit of attention, tho he knows the equipment is more likely to be damaged than his foot

Ochako doesn't even hesitate to run over n levitate him to take the pressure off of his not broken foot, going "oh my god are you okay?? Someone clear that bench please, he needs to get off his feet now!" N Kiri does appreciate the concern, as embarassing as it may be, n tries to tell her it's really not a big deal, thanks for the help but honestly--

N she rounds on him like say that one more time n you'll be dealing with a broken nose instead, now sit your ass down n let me handle this!! Kiri can't even reply with anything other than a quiet okay😳😳 bc he's always thought her determination was super admirable, but being this close n seeing it burn in her eyes so intensely is taking it to a whole new level n he has no clue how to handle it

Kacchako meeting is kind of a hybrid mix of the other two combined lmao. Baku owns a pack house where he lives with Deku, then later with Kiri, Tetsu, Mina, Kami, n Sero, but he's so busy with the park that he's hardly ever home. N since Ochako's kinda embarassed about her tiny ass appartment, they usually hang out at the pack house to talk over magic studies or gossip over whatever's happened recently. At this point Baku n Ochako have heard of each other but never been around at the same time

Which causes a problem one day while Ochako's in the kitchen making tea when Baku comes home. He'd had a stressful day warding off poachers or smth, n his rut's just a few days away now, so when he opens the door n is greeted with a slightly unfamiliar scent it sends him into a daze, where he stalks to the kitchen before he even knows that he's moving

Ochako knows tho, can hear the low growls and deliberately quiet steps creeping behind her, setting her on edge bc ohhhh my god, someone just broke into Deku's place holy shit!! And when it gets close enough to barely feel hot breath on the back of her neck she's flinging herself into action, all muscle memory as she gets a few quick jabs into Baku's gut. It knocks the question outta his lungs, getting out a choked "who the--" before her magic kicks in and she's picking him up n slamming him down with his weight returned for maximum momentum, body slamming the following "fUCK!!" out as well before she placed her weight on him to keep him down. She gets right in his face demanding "who are you?! How did you get in here?!"

And when he can breathe again Baku snaps back like "who tf am I?!? I live here!! Who tf are you?!?!" And like, she's still in fight mode so she's looking him over like hmm, so this is Bakugou. Then she realises wtf she's doing n goes oh my god it's Bakugou!! N she's jumping off him and apologising so fast that she's barely saying words, trying to take his hands n help him back up but getting swatted away bc you've done enough touching don't you think??

And yea, Baku's kinda pissed. Being attacked in your own house does that to anyone, let alone a pre-rut alpha. But also, he's kinda impressed, bc he can count on one hand the amount of people who've gotten the drop on him like that, but he'd rather die than admit it out loud. So he just huffs at her with a final "try that shit again n I'll kill you", n stalks off to his room, having more important things to worry about right then than who's fucking around in his kitchen

((His rut decides to be completely unhelpful that time around, his alpha brain locking in on the faint perfume she'd left on his shirt while tossing him around and how perfectly it mixed with his own scent, as well as the shirt he nabbed from Kiri's laundry basket the night before. He rubs the scents of these strong potential mates all over his den, knots his rut aid with his face plastered to the shirts then uses it to scent the shirts even more, drunk off of how well their scents all mix together. He's rightfully embarassed during the end when he can start thinking properly again n throws both shirts to the back of his closet to be forgotten about--as much as his alpha fights him on it--n moves on to his business like normal.

Tho if he tries to be home more often when he knows Ochako's coming around, n spends more time in Kiri's space, nobody's mean enough to comment on it. At least, not at first.))

Man I have many feelings about this, but I'll leave it here for now bc I could go on forever

[minycrdjcsten-blog]

nice reneeallison ?? Liek date night or smth??

i feel like im apologising to everybody bc it’s taking me a lot of time to work on these so yeah im sorry for taking such a long time, but thank you, rellison makes my health improve lmao hope u like it!

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Allison was bold and unapologetic. She wasn’t shy and she’d never had a hard time asking for things because of the status of her family. She had no problem speaking to people, much less when it was someone she fancied, but when it came to Renee, every single time she tried to ask her out her heart started beating way too fast and she was so anxious it felt like she was leaving her body. She couldn’t even believe Renee made her that nervous.

Renee looked at her with that beautiful smile on her face all the time, as if she knew Allison had something to say, something more important than “have you seen my bra?” whenever she was getting out of the shower. The question changed in the locker room but it was still something that seemed quite out of place when she took in Allison’s expression. She was onto something and Renee could tell.

She didn’t have an exact plan, but the hardest part wasn’t the date itself, it was actually asking Renee out. So she decided she’d do it whenever she felt ready, even if it didn’t feel like it was the right time.

It happened during a game. It was the last 3 minutes and Allison had fought that fucking striker so hard but he went through them anyway and the moment she saw Renee stop the ball like it was nothing and heard the members of the other team curse at her she felt the bravest she’d ever felt. They went back to their positions but nothing came from the last minute of the game, so as soon as it was over Allison ran towards the goal to congratulate Renee while the foxes celebrated their win and just yelled, ���Hey, I’ve been meaning to ask you out for like a month, can we do something about that?”

Renee giggled, holding her helmet in her gloved hands and took in Allison’s expression. The adrenaline of the game made it easier, and though Allison would’ve preferred not looking a like  sweaty mess Renee still smiled at her like she was the moon, “Sure”

The idea of dating Renee didn’t make her uncomfortable at all, but it made things a little bit weird in their room when Allison kept smiling to herself and Renee just gazed into her eyes whenever they made eye contact. Oh, they both had it so bad.

Allison’d been planning the date for as long as she’d been planning to ask Renee out, but when the day came everything went to shit. It was expected from the foxes, sure, but she’d bought a nice burgundy slip dress and had had her hair and nails done specifically to look good for her date, not for one of the freshmen to overdose again because they didn’t let her leave.

“I appreciate it, you know?” Renee said. She looked as pretty as always and they both stood out in the waiting room, Renee with her hot pink lipstick, and Allison with her dress.

Abby was inside with Helena, the freshman, and as they’d been the ones to help Hari, one of her roommates, get her out of her room they’d just helped get things sorted in the hospital and with the rest of the team too. Hari’d been panicking like anyone else would’ve but the girls were used to it. The foxes weren’t expected to last in such conditions, so to speak.

“What? The makeup or the two hours we just spent in a hospital?” Allison asked inspecting her nails. She was quite frustrated, and it was obvious in the way she kept trying to look away from Renee.

“Everything” Renee answered quietly. She reached tentatively for Allison’s hand and laced their fingers together. Allison looked at their hands and sighed, “We don’t actually need to go on a date to be official, you know?”

“Yes, I know, but you look really pretty and I wanted to make you feel good and have a nice evening together with stupid romantic stuff” Allison said in frustration. Biting her lower lip and complaining wouldn’t get her anywhere. What would get her somewhere though was Abby and Hari coming back for the fourth time during the evening, this time to let them know they could leave if they wanted because Dan and Neil had captain/vice-captain responsibilities with both Hari and Helena.

On their way back to fox tower none of them said anything. The quiet felt nice, particularly walking and holding hands in the dark from the parking lot to the building. Allison smirked in the elevator, “Are you gonna invite me back to yours?”

Renee rolled her eyes and snorted, “Mh, don’t think so. It’s just our first pre-date, you know? Plus I’ve this roommate that’s a little messy”

Allison cocked one of her eyebrows in response, her smirk still a little bit defiant.

All in all it did feel a little bit annoying. They’d lost a reservation and they’d have to make plans again, but the ruined date seemed to be much less of a bother when they closed the door to their room, toed off their shoes and sat on the couch to talk.

They were good at talking, though Allison had to recognise she did most of it while Renee laughed at her anecdotes and reactions. She liked that kind of simple domesticity that was just part of their friendship, and now was becoming something else. It was different to talk about bad dates when a beautiful girl was playing with your fingers and you were petting her hair. It felt different when she made her laugh and Renee asked for a kiss. It was chaste and soft, and Allison kept wanting to come back for more but interrupting them with her laughter.

God, they both had it so bad.

[benwhlshaws]

ok so this is just a rambly overview over what has happened (sam wise) over the seasons so its maybe a little bit easier when keep blabbing @ u abt him 😂

i will try not to go on tangents ehhh 😬😬

sorry for the salty tone in advance

s1: ok sam is at college & lives with jess, dean comes to him after they havent seen each other in 2/3/4 years and says they gotta find john bc he didnt come home from a hunting trip, sam reluctantly says yes to one case but only if theyll be back in time for his law school interview (☹️ oh child), they do the case, sam comes home to jess burning on the ceiling like his mum, and him & dean hit the road to Find Dad and Kill The Demon.

during all this sam starts to get visions of bad things happening in the future and everyones Concerned, they eventually find dad but fail to kill the demon and dean gets fatally injured.

s2: john makes a deal with azazel (the demon that killed mary and jess) to save dean and Dies (& gets sent to hell), sam and dean are Sad (this is tangent worthy but i Won’t right now)

note worthy middle season things are that sam gets possessed by a demon that makes him do horrible stuff in one ep and in another the first girl he has sex with after jess turns out to be a werewolf and he has to shoot her (Fun!), oh and before john died he told dean he might have to kill sam if he starts going rogue (bc john knows abt sam’s mysterious gifts), dean eventually tells sam abt it and sam is Horrified obvs, season ends with azazel kidnapping sam and other kids with Gifts and sam finds out he was fed demon blood as a baby, sam gets killed and dies in deans arms, dean makes a crossroads deal to bring him back and gets one year of life left

oh and they open hells gates and john gets out and is just Normal Dead (yay) but also lots of dark stuff (not yay)

s3: sam is Upset and tries to find a way to get dean out of the deal, katie cassidy’s Ruby appears and says she can help, mid season stuff notable mention for an ep in which the trickster makes sam watch dean die every day for abt 100 days and then lets sam live 6 months without him just for Fun (dean doesnt remember any of this but sam does), anyway they fail at saving dean and sam has to watch him get ripped apart by hellhounds

s4: i mean u watched this but still 😂, dean crawls out of his grave, cas gets introduced, sam has been hanging out with ruby and starts drinking her demon blood bc it gives him the power to exorcise and kill demons without harming their vessel, also the demon lilith (she sent dean to hell so sam has a revenge boner for her too lbr) wants to start the apocalypse by breaking 66 seals and sam has the power to kill her (hot powerful babe that he is 🔥😏), the angels manipulate the living hell out of Everyone and LOTS OF FIGHTING HAPPENS. also dean finds out he broke the first seal when he started torturing in hell (everyone loves forgetting that but Ok) anyway

when dean finds out sam is addicted to demon blood, him and bobby lock him in the panic room without food or water or comforting words but :-))) (i’m not mad at all). then CASTIEL (another guilty party maybe?? HMMM??) lets sam out so he can find ruby and go kill lilith, which he does and ends up breaking the final seal and frees lucifer (which no one knew would happen except for the angels and ruby & dean was abt to do the same thing literally minutes before he found out the truth LOL)

this season is so crazy tangent worthy but i’ll save it for the Actual Post

s5: sams guilt and self hatred is HIIIIIGH and dean does nothing to help that and the rest of the world loves reminding him hes Evil incarnate as well :-) but ok,

dean finds out hes michael’s vessel and sam finds out hes lucifer’s, lots of archangel and other mid season stuff happens, season ends with sam saying yes to lucifer so he can jump into the pit to hell and trap him in there with him, therefore saving the world and all of humanity bc he is a hero thanks for listening to my Ted Talk

s6: dean has been living with lisa and her son ben for a year, it turns out sam is alive but Different, oh damn! he’s soulless! (and sassy sexy Fun 😎) and his (pure gentle) soul is still in hell with lucifer (💔😭)

dean and cas get his soul back but its so damaged (😔) that putting it back into sam would kill him so they ask death to build a wall between the two (no idea how this all rlly works its been a while since i watched this), soul is back in sam, forgot how the season ends but not that important anyway

s7: sam’s soul hell wall thing breaks and he’s dying and ill and sick and sad and everythings awful and he has hallucinations of lucifer telling him insidious horrible stuff and making him doubt reality and dean and everything and its very upsetting to me thanks,

umm forgot how the season REALLY ends but basically sam sees dean die (dean is actually in purgatory BUT SAM DOESNT KNOW THAT)

s8: my memories are hazy at best but i remember the Basic stuff,

its one year later and dean is out of purgatory and somehow him and sam find each other, sam has been living off the grid and found a gf and a dog after grieving dean, dean finds this to be the most heinous of crimes and Hates sam for it (bc u didnt look for me sam!!! and u had a cushy life while i was fighting for mine in purgatory!!! HOW DARE YOU BE HAPPY WITHOUT ME) and the guilt tripping is outta control this season woooohoooo,

anyway idr why but one of them has to take on The Trials (bc it does smth important for them i dont remember why lmao) and sam wants to do them,

stuff happens and they make sam sick and weak and Sad but they also purify his blood so hes desperate for them bc he’s felt awful and unclean all his life and its Upsetting. season ends with the final trial aka The Ultimate Sacrifice which means death and sam’s like yes! death! here for it 100%! and dean’s like no! why? and sam’s like lol i’m horrible and useless and a liability and all i do is let u down and i wanna die! :-)

dean convinces him not to (in a crap way imho BUT)

s9: sams fatally ill and just. wants. to dieeee and gadreel (an arch?angel) tells dean that he could possibly heal sam if he lets him possess sam and Dean Says ‘sam would rather die than ever let anything possess him again’ aaaand then says yes to gadreel :-)

and sam’s alright but has no clue how it happened and keeps losing time and is fucked up over it and dean lies to him and says everythings A Okay

oh and gadreel kills kevin with sam’s body and sam has nightmares abt it

this somehow resolves itself (not in a satisfying way for me of course but when do things ever) but i dont rlly have the deets for the rest of the season

s10-s12: honestly i basically dont know much, somehow dean has the so called mark of cain on his arm which makes him Awful and Horrible and he says things to sam that are Unbelievable and make me Furious

also at some point dean turns into a literal demon, not for super long though i think

sam is a strong kind and beautiful bean during all of this

mary is there somewhere too somehow and lucifer stuff and the list goes on but you know SHRUG

s13: lucifer’s baby is born! a nephilim! idk how it works age wise but hes in the body of a cute young man called jack and hes a cinnamon roll and sam treats him so fatherly and gently and with so much compassion and it makes me Feel and they have an adorable gorgeous relationship! also dean is a giant Dickwad to jack :-) fun!

oh omg lucifer gets killed in the finale and i fucking hope its final and forever bc I AM OVER IT!!!!

thats the VERY basic stuff and i apologise that its so long... im sorry ur indulging me how do u cope

also i love u and the only person cuter than sam is You 🤗💘💖💕💓