#i am tired of it. my dreams are shit
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Happy womb escape anniversary @cakesmelons !! Your getting old !! Anyways I dunno if this is a great bday present I just associate u with Dreamtale so that's what you get anyways I think I signed a contract with the devil one way or another because I am. Dying. And have been dying through the process of creating this. Anyways hope ur having an incredible day !! I am now to go to bed
Oh and the bonus; me taking you to some timeline where nightmare kills dream<3
#cakesmelons#Dreamtale#oh god not the tags#sans au#utmv#undertale au#lord save me#dream sans#nightmare sans#sighs the strong physically and the strong mentally#a great pair of brothers truly that I wish could just sort their shit out because oh my god you two r pathetic#UwU#it's been a while since I've put a watermark on my pieces....#Guh dream is so pretty#I recognise I am tired because now my thoughts are all fluffy
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I'm thinking of Bakugou's hands. Calloused palms and slender fingers, digging into your shoulder blades as you groan, the act unexpected as he asks you a question with two hands, and two words: "Long day?"
The chair you were sitting forward in is wooden, and his thumb pads are diligent as they are gentle seeking out the knots in your muscle.
The night has dragged on seemingly longer than the day, but you find ridicule in his question- as though you had any right to answer what was posed when one of the hardest working people you know is standing at your bowing spine.
"Not really. Just tired, I guess." You push against his hands, and you turn, to face his offended glare. "What?"
"I was working." You laugh, and his scowl deepens as he grabs you by the shoulders. "Turn back around, I ain't finished." You shake your head, facing the back of the wooden chair- examining the grooves, the lines of what once had been rings of age.
"How about I do yours? You sit?" And Katsuki, for how much he has learned, has not learned patience for the self sacrifice of others. His lip curls up, in a familiar disgust- something you don't see in your peripheral- before he bows his own spine to face you, red eyes mere inches from your own.
"Turn the fuck around." His expression is half as cruel as his words are, maybe even half of that still, but you are determined to not meet his gaze, eyes still on the chair.
"I don't wanna." When his hands cup your face you don't expect it. To be pulled from facing a wooden chair by the soft tips of his fingers is all you need to look him in the eye as he strokes your cheeks with his thumbs.
"'S too bad I ain't askin'. Come on. Turn around." And so you do, with a slow spin, settling back into the chair rigidly with your face aflame as you feel his fingers find their way back around your shoulders, and he squeezes, forcing you to cave into him again.
"Swear to god everyone around here's always gotta act so fuckin' tough." He pushes harder, his fingets finding another particularly vicious knot, and you groan, but he makes no sound behind you. No snort of gleeful scorn, no scoff of impatience.
"I'm not. I'm not acting tough."
"Then you're lyin'." You laugh softly, and if he smiles behind you, you can't see it.
"Fair point." He grunts, and you hiss at his hands as they move lower, pushing closer to the center of your back.
"I'll let it go if you promise you won't try that shit again."
"Promise?" Your voice is strained with disbelief at being held to an impossible standard, and Katsuki rolls his eyes behind you, something else he knows you can't see.
"Fuck, I can't even get that? Fine. Give it your best shot then, at least. Fuckin' useless." Silence, for all that it is worth, fills the air between you for a moment as his hands find the pain in your back, and pull it apart. You open your mouth, and he hears the relief in your voice as he works another knot away.
"I can promise that." "Good." He wonders if you can hear the relief in his.
#night number five thousand of dreaming about bakugou haha what's new#everyone's tired I feel like lmao#have a soft Bakugou whydontcha#I think he's juet the kind of guy to come home tired as fuck and find his partner withering like a parched rose#and he thinks to himself oh no#no I am tired from work but I do not intend to neglect my own garden#king shit#bakugou x reader#here lemme give it tags LMAO
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That's too many ideas thanks.
#back to my ibis finger drawings#wow i dont make a comic in a WHILE#dream of the endless#the sandman#Morpheus be like: ik you're already in the middle of like 3 pieces but have you consider *the single most interesting idea you can think of#and then i dont do jack shit with it bc I am too tired and i dont have time to actually dedicate myself to it#my art#artist struggles#comic#my stuff#my comic
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was going through the tags about scourge, people here be mentioning about no zone prison scourge but what about the aftermath of Scourge being out of prison?
if you’re up for it, I wanna request this boy being drawn getting extremely paranoid and jittery asf, night terrors, lashing out even when the people he’s close to have no intention hurting him, having random pains even when he’s not getting beaten up anymore
Make it messy, color the page with intense neon greens, or do your own take with Scourge overall that’s fine too.
mf got sent to prison and was hurt everyday, i seriously doubt it didn’t have any lasting consequences on him!
Oops kind of got lost in the process haha went a little mad ;p ! But it's Scourges mind map of his time in jail and out! it turned out a little abstract and I hid some clues, can you find them?
Ovo ヾ(⌐■_■)/ this was so fun I even broke out the colored paper! I never get to use it! Went from controlled chaos to unrestrained madness real quick.
I know it stayed a lot from what you requested but I still hope you'll like it <3 or at least enjoy it.
#scourge#scourge the hedgehog#sonic requests#requests#drawing requests#some Scourge terror is good for the soul#i kinda went wild with the your request#I'll be making some more proper jail angst soon just gotta hammer out some details before i start on that#scourges mind scape during and after his stint in no zone jail#again i went a little crazy it's late I busted out the soft pastels and went into a color pages mood#weird art trance shit (i am very tired (i need sleep very bad) but also excited)#now#night night#happy dreams and all that#my art <3#my art#my artwork#sonic the hedgehog fanart#sonic fanart#scourge fanart#sth fanart#sketchbook#Scourge mind scape#request answered
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i will return on tumblr soon bcs i'm graduating hs soon and acads r done so i have a Lot of time on my hands for now Anyway can i just say am very proud of myself. got into the Top 1 school in my country, top campus, and a vv competitive stem course. yay 😁💝💘❤️🔥✨
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#it's hilarious bcs i got waitlisted for compsci#which i'm actually rlly proud of bcs i didn't take the exams that seriously and most of jhs was online#compsci competitive af man#but i prove my worth both online & onsite ^_^ always straight As baby! even this gr 12 LOL <3#i got into my 3rd choice (2nd choice was psych i am So glad i didn't get in i ended up not wanting it anymore. also competitive asf so i'm#ok w that) WHICH IS the best possible outcome actually bcs it Is my dream course.#i will reveal more another time tho ... >:)) Anyway am just super proud hehe. also of my twin (we both passed & all that <3) ^___^#also my friends !! barely any passed actually and even then i know only like 10-15 of ppl in my whole school who Did pass#and less so for their first choice/dream course or their preferred campus#MWHAHAHAHAHA >:))) ok i'm not shitting on anyone tho i'm just so so so proud and happy#gbye i am busy tho relaxing LMFAO i've been getting 12 hours of sleep the last 3 days. god. school was tiring af#but i'm a weirdo so it's fun B) Amen. i like saying amen despite being this rlly agnostic/atheist person LMFAOOO#upcat i love u. ty for loving me LMFAOOAOAOAOAOAOAO#so proud idk ig. i knew i'd make it (i hope thsi doesn't come off as pretentious) but i didn't know exactly Where#but the universe did its thing and i got into my dream school dream campus dream course#unsure abt dream school really but it's upd or not up. and also def my dream course ^_^
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I started volunteering in my friend’s kindergarten last month and like… I love these kids so much it’s unreal. They’re so sweet and weird! One of the kids drew me this killer Mario art and I’m gonna frame it and hang it on my wall.
#bonewhiteglory.jpeg#helper teacher#as my friend christina dubbed me#i’m really really happy i can sit down one-on-one with the kids who are struggling with a new concept#i mean this very genuinely: it is my dream to spend several minutes helping them understand that 5 is not greater than 5#there’s a lot to learn!! it’s kind of overwhelming#i am notoriously patient and kind. people frequently tell me i have big kindergarten teacher vibes#i’ve been there long enough that i’m getting a good sense of all the kids’ personalities#i have mixed feelings abt posting anecdotes on the internet bc idk privacy etc etc but seriously look at how great this art is!!!#thank fuck i can turn off reblogs.#i’m gonna frame this and hang it over my desk :3#i had no idea 5 year olds were SO BOSSY. it’s great! they’re explaining the rules to me and they’re very patient with me#i’m getting to know kids from the other classes too. i do yard/lunch duty as well. not much $ but it’s sufficient for my needs#anyway… that’s my story#at great length. dunno why i put all this in the tags and not the actual post but lbr i’m mad tired#oh yah i’m happy to share stories in DMs once i get over my social anxiety shit.
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Living through the nth Tumblr Apocalypse feels once again like
#look guys i have no dream for art career i am broke i have all kinds of creative block i have no friends no life nothing#scrolling through my little fandoms gave me lots of joy#and now we see once again hellsite's staff taking their eyes off with their own hands with this ai shit#i don't believe in many things but i have a strange belief that tumblr the cockroach will survive again#but yeah there are hard days coming#and i really don't know where we can be safe from ai#watch me post art on archive lol#OH MAYBE MAIL LIST YEAH OLD SCHOOL#anyway whatever i am too done and tired
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For Pride Month, Vessel should release a version of The Summoning where the only thing that’s changed is the line ‘good girl bad’ becomes ‘good boy bad’😌.
#I am gay and I can Dream. alright#very much so#sleep token#for blacklist#worshitposting#edit: Vessel my shit post has Nine Whole Notes where’s this version at huh??#/j lmao. I am so TIRED RIGHT NOW. my allergies are killing me im already at low spoons. time to sit in my chair and watch Transformers#and knit. I am so close to done with the first sleeve of my sweater I’m so excited!!
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Been thinking 'bout Fresh lately
If you guys didn't notice I got high on crack through the middle of this
#sans au#utmv#undertale au#dream sans#blueberry sans#reaper sans#Geno sans#afterdeath#sanscest#Reapertale papyrus#POODLE!!!#Also context for the Afterdeath part um god of death it isn't easy finding love#I've been planning to draw the idea way too long and um it still it just turned into crack#I'm on crack#I'm tired#and WTF am I supposed to do I do not know how to socialise I used to meow??#vrchat isn't as fun as it sometimes is#and how do I socialise btw#someone shit on my passions earlier so like I don't think#I had a sleepover at school so I'm free today??#um yeah sobbing motivations not motivating RAAAHHHH#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#dream is so pretty#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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hey guys anybody in north carolina need a roomate with cats?
#im not doing well mentally chat#like at all#i need a void more anonymous then tumblr to absolutely lose my shit#vent post#i just feel like a hypocrite rn because i always tell people that theres a chance it will get better and ill fight to keep thier mental#health from sinking but here i am borderline suicidal and shit#weird dreams#horrible conversations with my parents about my mental health#and just every fucking thing else#god im so fucking ugly#i hate my body#i hate everything#i hate it here#why am i so stupid#why am i so fat#why am i so tired
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#i am at my fucking limit lol#i need to leave this fucking town and this fucking state the very second i can nail down both a car and a remote job#the fucking ''''affordable'''' housing company i rent from has once again opted to start harassing us#and we're once again gonna have to be in a fucking fight with landlords who think that we're making too much money to live in a $1200 apt#and want us to pay $2000 a month for this rathole we live in despite taxes and deductions literally absorbing a quarter of our earnings#so they want to absorb half of what we have left when ive yet to be able to even afford a car that isn't a fucking beater destined for scrap#at least not without using p much all of my current life savings in the process#so we have to instead get around by buses that refuse to actually show up take us on huge detours for no reason have lead feet that-#-exacerbate my chronic pain and - oh! how could i forget? is also horrifically mismanaged to the point where they're now canceling entire-#-bus routes including the one i take to work and ALSO GOES TO THE AIRPORT lol#and nothing will fucking change about the highway robbery rent hikes bc the entire state legislature is filled with and bought by-#-landlords NIMBYs and property management firms.#that's not even getting into the fact that ive got too many traumatic memories too many enemies and not enough good things to show for it#the only thing I've got in this fucking town is my partner bc not even our home can be considered safe anymore.#i want to take them and the home we dream of and get the fuck out bc i can't keep doing this shit#and i can't even fucking talk to them about this bc they need me to be the strong one for once#im so tired. i feel like im in danger even though i know we'd be able to tank the hit to our finances. but i would like to escape.#i know of a city in ny where our $1200 rent is considered the norm. there's also so much more to do within reach that isn't just. drinking.#i wanna go there. i may have had a desire to live there since our vacation there this past March.#but for now im stuck here dreaming of the future and fighting off desperation and despair in the present#this breakdown brought to you by: the bus purposely avoiding my stop this morning after learning my landlord wants to ruin us again#vent
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I'm really thinking and like ok the cookies are really similar in vibe to the happy pills, but they don't really make the eggs go crazy like the pills did. Unless a parent eats a cookie we won't know for sure if the eggs are immune or the cookies just aren't happy pill aligned. But then why were the pills developed in the first place. They only appeared after the eggs went missing and forever blew shit up. So the happy pills were made to bring all the islanders under control in the absence of the eggs. With all that I assume that the eggs and the happy pills have the same functions of making the islanders happy and distracted so the federation can do whatever its been wanting to do. Maybe the happy pills are made of a similar substance that the eggs are made of but less diluted which is why the pills have a more intense effect. It would also make sense because we know the eggs are inorganic so them being creatures made to ensure the islanders stay happy and orderly. And this idea is less connected but we know that the federation has been trying and failing different types of cloning experiments likely for the 20 years since the last promo for the island was made. We know some of the current islanders were involved in the old experiments and there are current cloning/gene splicing experiments the federation are doing now. The eggs could be a result of this cloning to some extent, the biggest piece of evidence to that being tallulah. Because asides from meta reasons why the fuck is she even here (prefacing this by saying she is one of my favorite eggs and this isn't neg towards her at all). Like she is the only egg on the island that was made specifically for one person, she has wilbur's hair, and her bed is noted with egg bed(wilbur) rather than the other item naming systems of the other egg beds. We also know that to some extent q!wilbur whether he remembers it or not is extremely close with the federation because he fucking funds the island, so it's not weird to think they might have his DNA on hand. But why give him a child that is directly modled after him that he's the sole parent of if he's just gonna leave soon unless they were trying to keep him on a leash and always wanting to come back. They don't let anyone but him leave so they need to keep him happy and wanting to come back for so many reasons. Like I fully believe the eggs are fully designed to keep the islanders in check and control them. The federation sees them as tools to achieve this and take their lives away and threaten them in order to threaten the islanders. But the federation would not directly kill an egg (they do however refuse to revive them probably as a form of punishment and rule enforcement) because it would lose the trust and happiness the eggs provide, leading to the kinds of revolts the islanders were staging right after the eggs went missing. Those revolts is probably the exact reason some of the codes came after the eggs so hard. They knew that the eggs were made of that happy pill material kinda stuff and as long as they're around the federation is not going to truly go down. Every side ignores that the eggs are just kids. TLDR: eggs were the og happy pills and are made to control the islanders and that's why the codes were after them, and also cloning may or may not be a factor in their creation
#qsmp#long post#i am literally just rambling my ass off and im tired as hell#i feel like we really do have enough pieces to make a solid theory as to what's going on#like if i got 7 hours and a dream i know i could figure some shit out but for now im doing this
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mistakes were made. should not have gone to library today. i will be leaving the house all five days of the week now (plus we went to a waterside on sunday for several hours) and uhm... i feel like i need to go hibernate for several weeks to feel even remotely okay again fhdkdl i am so tired i can barely think enough to string words together in any comprehendable way 🧍<- upset
#oohoohoo the self destructive ''well maybe I'll just push myself bc im going to be tired either way'' sure was a bad choice!#''lol who cares anymore im sick of being fatigued and im probably just making it up'' you are a fucking idiot god bless your soul#and yet.... the urge to Make It Worse is still so strong.... gee i sure do love p.mdd!#honest to god im so fucking frustrated w this brain lately#been trying to hide any sharps away from myself because I've just been so wildly careening into self destructive tendencies#and im sick of trying to like. control myself. i am my own keeper and im fucking sick of it gjfkdl#im trying so fucking hard to hold it together and keep myself on the right path but im really just incredibly tired#it feels like im trying to wrestle a knife out of a toddler's hand#and then the toddler cries and tantrums bc they wanted the knife#and i have nothing to give them to distract them. except im also the toddler.#idk how long i can keep this up for bc im ALSO managing other ppls emotions and baggage and shit at the centre#and over text. mainly that one person who i wish would just fucking leave me alone#but her grandma is literally on her deathbed so I can't rly try learning how to be firm rn#bc if i try to be firm i worry i will end up being a dick and i dont want to do that while she's struggling w pre-emptive grief#i don't know !!! im just so goddamn exhausted and struggling#and the world seems very cruel and terrifying and im honestly convinced im never going to find a way to exist peacefully in it#like im always going to be scared and struggle to trust ppl and struggle to socialize and feel safe anywhere#im going to be so honest. i wish i had One friend irl fhfkdl like. i think that would help a lot of my issues#to have someone i care about and respect and who actually cares about AND respects me back#and who i could just. be around. exist in the same vicinity. and not feel so scared and unsafe#a bit of a break from those constant feelings while not being isolated#who i could do activities with ???#thats actually so hard for me to imagine ever having ffhdjlsl its been so many years since I've had any semblance of that#it doesn't feel like im ever going to have that again :') it feels so impossible. pipe dream. unrealistic and unattainable#okay i need to shut up fhdksl sorry for being so insane on here every day jfc#one of these days i hope i will be genuinely stable for like... longer than a day fhfkdl#pippen needs 2nd breakfast#self harm mention
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Revali desperately wants some kind of reaction from link. Everything he tries fails miserably. After a particular comment about links family, he finally got one! In the form of a punch to the beak
okay I'm combining this one with a very similar prompt: wild gets mad and punches someone in the face hard enough to break their jaw
Link was the very pinnacle of self-control. Even against pricks like Revali. He was an expert in bottling up his petty anger until he was in front of a monster and using it to slice the poor creature into purple dust. He rarely even flinched when confronted with jealous warriors who believed they deserved the sword on his back more than he did.
As if he hadn't spent his whole life with a blade in his hand and an easily verified history of undefeated victory under his belt ever since he was a child. It was that idea that kept him from getting upset when warriors with massive egos tried to taunt him into a fight. He knew his ability and it wasn't his fault that they were threatened by him.
But he wasn't as untouchable as people seemed to think. He wasn't a statue or an idol to be looked upon and prayed to for their salvation, he wasn't a figure from the legends, although, maybe he was. He didn't really feel like one. Behind his well-crafted mask of stone, he was still a person, a teenager.
No matter how perfect he tried to be, he was still just a mortal boy. And he was really dreading the week-long excursion to Rito village to attempt the divine beast's first flight. A whole week spent within earshot of Revali and his constant infuriating squawking.
Unfortunately, the Rito champion had made it his mission to get a reaction out of him, and after hours and hours of endless mocking and fluffing up his feathers, he succeeded.
The princess was off inspecting Vah Medoe for some last-minute checks and had left her personal knight and the divine beasts pilot behind, as neither of them were well-versed in ancient mechanics. Link stayed on his guard while Revali came up with more and more things he could say to bother his fellow champion.
"At this point, I can't even tell if you're simply too stupid to speak or if you have some kind of mental affliction damaging that puny head of yours. I suppose that's what too many moblin clubs to the cranium will get you..." Revali rambled while Link focused on taking even measured breaths.
"Is that why they got rid of you so fast? All those stories about your impossible feats as a toddler were all made up so your parents had a reason to get you out of their sight? I mean, are we supposed to believe that a scrawny four-year-old hylian could even pick up a sword? It's just... too asinine to even consider!" The rito laughed, within the hidden confines of his mouth, the hero clenched his teeth together.
"Well, if that's the case, I don't blame them! Perhaps they were fools for not simply leaving a runt like you to succumb to the elements! I've seen you, you won't even speak to them! I wonder if they regret not leaving you to the beasts as a babe..."
It was then that Link snapped. Before he could break his teeth or let his nails cut into the skin of his palms. After years and years of relentlessly focused control, that was the thing that tossed all his training out the window.
With a swift yank to the bird's champion blue scarf and a satisfying crunch, Link's fist made contact with the side of Revali's beak, sending the rito to the ground causing a heavy thud and a distressed squawk.
"If you wanted me to grace you with my voice so badly you could've just asked, now shut the fuck up for once in your self-obsessed life you overgrown cucco," The hero growled as the rito champion cradled his jaw in his feathery hand and looked up at him with a certain kind of indignant horror.
For the next six days and surely beyond, the mouthy bird had his beak bound by bandages, unable to open it for even the simplest mention of gloating.
The silence was just as sweet as he hoped it would be, and though it was impossible for a single punch to keep Revali's ego at bay, from then on, his insults tended to remain far away from the line he had crossed that day.
Send me prompts?
#i wish i could beat the shit out of revali more often lmao#im tired of link being nice! I think he deserves to go apeshit!#he's living out my dream of shutting that damn bird up#i am a revali disliker and this is the only time I'll write him being this much of an ahole#usually i try to write him with a bit of nuance but this time i thought it was fitting for him to be just plain mean#ask andromeda#writing prompt#botw#this was kinda cathartic for me ngl#i hope no one sends anon hate over this i feel like this is the kind of thing that would get me anon hate#anti revali
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i slept until almost 1pm RIP and i had a very vivid dream about being stranded with a ferret companion. how’s everyone doing today????
#rambles.#my new bed is so comfy i couldn’t wake up#or maybe i’m just exhausted idk. or both#i think i lost my ferret friend at the very end of the dream 😭#mentally i am still there. mourning#but i have a dr. appointment 😭😭😭 kms i’m so tired of having to do this shit on my days off
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you know you're "not doing well" when you can't manage anything more than a weak smile upon seeing sewis together again
#by not doing well i mean fucking depressed to the point of needing to drink to keep The Thoughts away#i'm so worn thin that the most minuscule shit is tipping me over into a panic attack weekly now#i'm just damn tired of having a constant knot in my stomach and questioning myself and the meaning of... well everything#also cheers to the adhd clinic lady saying while smiling at me that 'you're just more of a sad character right?'#it that shit exists it means i just have to accept that and live this way and honestly just get fucking fucked#nobody is supposed to feel like this#and me writing this on social media where everybody can see is fucking pathetic and i feel even shittier#but putting it only in my diary with the rest means avoiding people even more and all that'd do is just push me further into my own head#i just... want to stop thinking about the chances of achieving my dreams#and what i am and what i should be#personal
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