#i am the worlds most boring person into body mods. i get all these piercings& shit an then i never do anything . i havent changed my lip

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im soooo excited..someone I used 2 go to school with is giving me their tapers...I can finally fucking gauge my ears..

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All the aesthetic asks

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flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

... I was in Captain D’s, and Pink came on the radio in there, and I was singing to myself under my breath while waiting on my food.

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

Am I going to be okay? 

It’s a general question, I know, but it’s all I need to know. If I could have the reassurance that, no matter what fucking hell I go through, I’ll be okay? I’d be 100% better off.

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

Living to today. I think, when you’ve had a tough life, you’ve considered doing things that you shouldn’t, that living past that, living in spite of that, that’s a damn good accomplishment. And living to a point where I have days where I am happy? That’s pretty damn good too. 

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

When I hear happy memory, there is two things that come to mind. 

One: This past summer, going to Michigan, walking around [Town Name Redacted] with my partner. Seeing the water falls, the bears, all of that... 

Two: Theater, back in high school - being back stage and just being so proud, so excited, and so damn happy. I adored that mess. 

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

If I were to die in a year, I would message people. I would message people I hate, and tell them how they made me feel. I would message past squabbles and try to set aside our differences. I would message family members and tell them how their hypocrisy hurts me. 

But would I change anything? No. I’d just be more honest. 

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

Not a formal list, but there are a few things I would say I want to accomplish before I die. They rearrange occasionally, in my head, but at the moment I would say that my top three are 

- Visit Japan, or another country on my bucket list. - Meet people who have inspired me (beyond those who I admire, or those who’s work I enjoy, there are famous people who have inspired me. That list is smaller.) - Pet a sheep and/ or alpaca

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

A temper disproportionate to their height, but equal to their beauty. Protective, to the point of needing to be calmed, just as their zodiac would suggest. They are fierce, will gut you with their horns if you threaten what is theirs, but at the same time they are nurturing. When you are upset, your thought is them. When you are happy, your thought is them. No matter if it is your greatest joys, or your greatest sorrows, you want to share it with them. 

Now, that fits two people in my life, but they are equally as close, as important, and I couldn’t pick one. 

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

I think I had a childhood, which is more than many could say. I also think that childhood ended far too soon. 

I think it was okay, due to my naivety at the time. That being said, looking back on it I do not think it was a ‘good’ childhood by any means. It simply seemed that way at the time. 

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

Does over skype count? If so, last night while I was on a call with Rayne, due to something they wrote. If that doesn’t count, then when I found out about Vegas, being I cried in front of my mother. 

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

Rayne. 

I picked Rayne because they don’t grow too restless with these things. They see the cheesy romance in typical, old fashioned dates. I picked Rayne because their imagination knows no bounds, and because they are likely to see things in the stars that I cannot. I picked Rayne because we could talk for hours about the ins and outs of the universe, and never once grow bored. 

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

It depends on the setting. If a stranger were experiencing something I have in the past? Of course. If it were to help them, I would have no qualms. But just rando #3? No.

lace: when was your last 3 am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

My partner, Rayne, and I were on skype last night at 3 am. We were talking about our roleplay plot, I do believe it was a plot about her character being in a coma and seeing people in purgatory (think the train station in HP when Harry temporarily died) before coming to.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

I would remind my partners I love them. If I could only tell one, I would tell one and have them remind the other of the fact. I don’t know what else I could want to tell anyone. 

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

I think they are under-romanticized. I think they’re beautiful, and they hold just as much spirit, emotion, and depth as blue or green eyes. I think brown eyes are beautiful.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

“Keep moving forward.” 

This has been my mantra for years, even more so since Mon/ty O/um died. Keep moving forward means the obvious, to keep moving and never give up, but also more than that. It means to always be looking at the next thing. It means not to let something get in your way, and instead move past that. It means not to move backward. It means that, once you’ve moved past something, keep going. And that’s a reminder I need.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

“An Eventful Life in Depression and Anxiety”? “Growing Up is for Chumps”? I’m not really sure

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

Hoard the fuck out of it. 

No not really. I would travel, some. I would take Rayne and Kota to cons, and buy cosplays. I would tip double at restaurants, and leave $10 in tip jars. I would buy Sta/rbucks every day. 

I would be happy.

I wouldn’t be in debt.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

No. No no no, you see I try to be forgiving. And once upon a time I was. Now days? I’m passively bitter. I don’t have the energy to stay mad, so I don’t. But I refuse to forgive people and welcome them back into my life once they’ve hurt me. Fuck that. Fuck them. 

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

Dear 12 y/o Kerri, 

I know things are... off this year, or they will be soon. Just know a few things. If someone loves you, then they show it. Sage may be a dumb ass, but he's right, you should listen to him. Haley has a lot on her plate, you know what's going on with her mom, don't hold her immaturity against her. She's more important than he is anyway. And I know you like Math Team, but maybe you should quit.

Also? Mom isn't trying to ruin your life. I promise, she loves you. Please, don't... be so hard on her, okay?

                            We’ll Be Okay,                                          20 y/o Kerri

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

Pastel punk?? Like I enjoy both spectrum(s) of fashion, so I’m not sure.. I guess I lean more toward punk in physical style, right now at least.

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

I love them. There are four tattoos I want, and I would love a few more piercings as well. body mods are a wonderful path for self expression.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

Yes?? I think it’s a normal amount, but on days where I’m feeling up to it I typically wear foundation, powder, contour, eyeliner, and mascara. 

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

                    “You've got to make a choice                     If the music drowns you out                          And raise your voice      Every single time they try and shut your mouth” 

M//CR has always been a big influence and help to me throughout my life, but these lyrics always helped me. Honestly, these lyrics started my journey to speaking to be heard, instead of keeping quiet.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

Fuck uhm

That’s a lot of pressure.... I guess “We are all the same, stop implementing arbitrary differences, this is what divides us.” 

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

I’ve only really been to a few small ones. I went to B/oys Like G//irls, but that wasn’t my choice, and then I went to Skill//et - that one was amazing. It was my first date with The Boyfriend, and honestly the memory is one of my fondest ones. 

Other than that, I saw Jeff Will//iams in concert at RT/X, and I think that was my best concert experience so far. It was pure magic, and I hope I can see him again.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

My nana saying she bought me a car and is paying for my college, instead of being a greedy old-- 

Okay no, bad. 

Uhm, honestly? I’m not sure. I suppose getting a letter saying that my college was paid for, I’m... Not sure.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

I have a desk, but it’s a fucking mess. I have a shelving thing and some drawers on it, but they’re all a mess, honestly I need to clean it. Also cups. And pens. Cup + Pen city.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?

Skype until it’s time to crash, wash my face, brush my teeth, fall down into my pillows.

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

Hmn... Probably how far away I’m planning on moving. My dad probably expects it, but mom... I think she has this illusion that I’ll stay in-state forever and I really can not do that.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

Mmmm I think I’d go back to purple? Or purple and blonde? Maybe purple with blonde streaks in the bangs? Or pastel purple?

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

Mmmm Kota, Jacob, Rayne... And then probably Kit and Cricket? We’d probably go to the gardens or the zoo, that sounds like something we’d all enjoy!

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

I wish to be closer (physically) to Rayne, so that we can comfort one another better in times of crises. 

I wish to be better at understanding emotions, so that I can better help those around me. 

I wish for a voice acting opportunity, so that I can follow my true passion. 

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

Hmm I really liked this one I had a few years ago. It was a witchy-esque dress, it had a hoop in the skirt that I took out, and then I did some soot-y makeup to go with it. 

I need to lose weight so I can wear it again...

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

Oh uhm

I think falling out of my chair while on skype with Rayne was probably the worst thing I did while high, but I can’t remember much of that night. WAIT I TOOK A TEST WHILE SOMEWHAT HIGH DOES THAT COUNT

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

Mmm, I would do a lot for that much. I guess kill / hurt an innocent animal, I’m bad but I’m not that bad.

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

Two Faced - Shannon Taylor (it’s suck in my head)... But as for a person, I can’t pick. I gotta have Jacob, Kota, and Rayne. I can’t pick one. 

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realize you’re in love.

Yes. 

It feels like everything clicks. It feels like conversation flowing like water. It feels like opening up faster than you ever have before. It feels like thinking about them at 3 am when you can’t sleep, but also at 8 am when you wake up, and noon when you’re busy in class. It feels like discomfort when you can’t check on them, and relief when they message. It feels like a warm bubble bath, every time you hear them laugh or see them smile. It feels right.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

I have really short hair, bitch.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

Mmmm It depends. Right now I could go for a white chocolate mocha with an extra shot of espresso, oooor a PSL. And Kota could always order for me. 

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

My own emotional progression, and my relationships (with Rayne, Jacob, and Kota). Anything else is second fiddle. 

[villainous-oc-review]

Hiyaaa it’s me again. I think you reviewed my other cpoc, Joseph Young. And it really helped me out! So basically, I came up with a revamp. A Nina the Killer revamp to be exact and it would be great if you could review her :D

This picture though.

   GENERAL  Real Name: Nina Hopkins  Alias: Nina the Killer (what she calls herself to self humiliate)  Nickname(s): Nina  Age: 27-(from adulthood and above)  D.O.B: December 13, 1947  Birthplace: Portland, Oregon  Language: english  Current Residence: Portland, Oregon  Gender: Female  Species/Race: Human  Status: n/a  Occupation: Nurse (former)  Weapon(s): Knife  Goal/Reason to Kill: Nina is a very delusional girl. Due to the trauma she had encountered in her life, she had developed hysteria and is very out of touch with reality. She would “kill” the figments of her imagination to make them stop  taunting her with vile words and from harming her “son”

 Phrase: “My prince!” (A phrase she uses whenever she sees her still born, Jeffrey)  Hobbie(s): She would make clothes for her unborn children, used to collect dolls, used to do ballet and sing  Special Item(s): A yarn doll of a boy who in her mind is Jeffrey  Likes: kids, Jeffrey, her dolls, Chris, solitude  Dislikes: the monsters, people aside from the ones listed above  Fear(s):  that someone will take Jeffrey away from her, the monsters that try to take advantage of her  Personality: Sweet, frail, ambitious, caring, family oriented, reserved  Backstory:

Childhood: Nina was born and raised in Portland, Oregon with her parents and brother, Chris. Ever since she was a little girl, she had always wanted to have the perfect family; the perfect husband and 3 beautiful children. She had this fascination with dolls and started collecting them. Every year, her parents would give her different types of dolls. But she had a very strong attachment with one in particular. She called him, Jeffrey. It wasn’t the most expensive nor beautiful doll but to her it was perfect. There wouldn’t be a time when you could see her without it. Even though her parents thought of it as obsessive, they didn’t think it would affect her.

Adolescence/Teens: As she got older, she abandoned her collection of dolls and got into other hobbies like singing and ballet. She was smart and very mature for her age and had big dreams of becoming a nurse in a children’s hospital. It was at this point in her life where she had to discover the world and herself. She later fell in love with a boy in her class. In her eyes he was perfect. But what has begun as a simple crush sood developed as an obsession. She would think about him day and night. And when she finally decided to tell him her feelings, he rejected her. This forever pierced a hole in her heart and started developing a minor form of depression. Afraid of being rejected again, she promised herself to never fall in love again.

Adulthood: After graduating medical school, she found a job as a nurse in a children’s hospital. She loved being around the patients and was always available to lend a hand. This was when she met John Hopkins, a doctor in the hospital she worked in. She never actually loved him as much as she loved her classmate but she grew a liking to him. John was patient and admired her dedication towards children. The thing he loved the most about her was her fragility and grace. They later got married and bought a house in the same town she grew up in. Soon after their marriage, Nina wanted to start a family. After numerous attempts, she finally became pregnant. But her dream of having the perfect family, was shattered by miscarriage after miscarriage. This trauma caused her to get anxiety, depression and Pseudocyesis. As the symptoms persist, the more she becomes out of touch with reality and starts seeing and hearing things that don’t exist. In her mind her husband is a twisted and sexual monster who sexually harrasses and coherses her to have sex with him. Her doctor/ physician is represented as a manipulative and egoistic creature that always wants something from Nina. She imagines a lot of things that do not even exist in the real world, like the crying, underdeveloped fetuses that ask her why she killed them and the same doll she had as a child is imagined to be her son, Jeffrey. Jeffrey rarely appears because he only does so when Nina is in a lot of distress. He is her body’s way to keep her calm, but when the “monsters” intervene, she is forced to kill them with a kitchen knife(but understand that she isn’t really killing the actual people she is representing. Everything that is happening in her visions are all made up and aren’t actually playing out in real life)

 CreepyPasta Story: n/a    RELATIONSHIPS  Orientation: Straight  Relationship: John Hopkins (Perceived as the monster on her left) is a Doctor working in the same hospital Nina works in. He loves his wife very much but as her mental instability worsens, he starts being rather distant with her but still tries to find ways to help her. He is seen as a very sexual monster because all the trauma Nina has been through caused her to view her husband as a sexual deviant that only uses her for her body and is also partly blamed for the deaths of her unborn children.  Family: Mary Smith(mother), Walter Smith(father), Christopher Smith(brother)  Allies/Friends: Her brother, Chris, who supports her and sometimes enables her to be on her good side  Rivals/Enemies: Her psychiatrist, her parents, her husband    APPEARANCE

 Hair: Brown  Skin: Fair  Eyes: Ashy green  Height: 5'4  Weight: 105 lbs./47 kg  Body Type: Thin and weak  Outfit: Wine red wool dress, plum sweater, black stockings, black mary jane shoes  Accessories: None

   PHYSICAL  Disorder(s): Pseudocyesis, hysteria, depression, psychosis, anxiety disorder  Abilities/Strengths: Nina is considered to be a very weak character, and doesn’t have a lot of strength just how an actual person with the disorders she has should be(I’m not saying people with these disorders are weak. What I am trying to say is that you won’t be at peak condition or health with them)  Weaknesses/Faults: She can involuntarily get into several episodes of psychosis, high anxiety attacks

   STATS (Rate from 1-10, 10 being the highest/best)

 Intelligence: 7  Strength: 1  Speed: 3  Agility: 6  Endurance: 4  Stamina: 7  Balance: 9  Tolerance: 2

   FACTS/TRIVIA 

 - I got bored, so I made her lol  - I have no idea how i came up with the idea tbh   - Fun fact: It really easy to come up with a bio when basic info(no matter how bad it was) is already present. So just use your imagination and      you’ll be able to make a fully fleshed out character.  

Tbh I think all of it is really cool I’m just really confused, is she actually a killer or not? Does she just believe she is?

Either way, I think it’s a really good rework of Nina. It’s still not scary, Mod R and I agree that it’s definitely more tragic, but I enjoy it. 

-----Also I know that feel, I redid Jeff a while back and I like what I did. 

~Mod V