#i am spending another random sunday evening ranting on tumblr instead of doing my required readings for the week
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just had the sudden realization that the reason I haven't been motivated to write the next chapter of Seven Devils isn't so much bc I can't find any writing motivation but rather bc I've planned for the next 3 chapters to deal with some pretty heavy stuff and I'm not sure if I'm even ready enough to write it yet...... even after not touching the story in over 6 months now......
#everytime i catch myself in a daydream about future scenes i get so excited about wanting to write again until#i remember the chapter i have planned to write next and my brain just like... shuts down or something#realizing this and being like “if i can't write it then how are other people going to be able to read it?” 😳 smh#my writing has always naturally had really dark themes tho#like when we'd have a creative writing assignment in english class in hs everyone else had like#super fun readable stories everyone enjoyed#and mine would always end up being dark and serious (even when i didn't mean it to be)#and so after i would finish reading it to the class i'd look up and i remember everyone would be so quiet in a weirdly contemplative way#and my english teacher would be like off in the corner stifling sobs#and i'd get the obligatory slow clap but i'd go sit back down next to my best friend and she'd be like#“that was like really good but also like... wow...how did you come up with that?”#and i'd be like 🧍♀️ was it that bad#i have so many stories/writing projects saved in my old hs google account that i'd love to get my hands on again but can't#it makes me incredibly sad to think of it all lost just like that#but alas#i am spending another random sunday evening ranting on tumblr instead of doing my required readings for the week#i'm a trainwreck and what about it 🤪
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