#i am so ready to eat chinese food and draw for 6 hours straight

[vypridae]

i am home

[snowgloberoundandround]

Tagged by @hpfangirl13 !!! (HAPPY MAGNUM FINALE DAY, GIRL!!!!!!!!!!) *raises a glass*

What is the colour of your hairbrush? Black and teal, and then I also have a blue Olaf one

Name a food you never eat? Green beans are the devil’s vegatable.

Are you typically too warm or too cold? Always too cold

What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Singing through Kacey Musgrave’s “Golden Hour” album in the shower

What is your favourite candy bar? Butterfingers

Have you ever been to a professional sports event? Baseball lots (which I love) and one or two hockey games. Someday I’ll make it to a soccer match...

What is the last thing you said out loud? “By themself”

What is your favourite ice cream? Rainbow Sherbert and Mint Chocolate Chip

What was the last thing you had to drink? Starbuck’s pink drink

Do you like your wallet? LOVE it. It’s a Beauty and the Beast design from Loungefly

What was the last thing you ate? Salad

Did you buy any new clothes last weekend? Gosh I wish

The last sporting event you watched? Marble Olympics. My family (including my cat) has been fixated on it this quarantine

What is your favourite flavour of popcorn? @emberslovesthearmadillo makes the most AMAZING cheesy garlic popcorn and wE GET TO DO MOVIE NIGHTS AGAIN REAL SOON IMMA STRAIGHT UP CRY OVER HERE

Who is the last person you sent a text message to? One of the vets at work

Ever go camping? About once a year and we were supposed to go at the end of May but that’s not happening :c

Do you take vitamins? So many, unfortunately

Do you go to church every Sunday? I try to, but sometimes my chronic fatigue is real bad and I’ve gotta stay home and rest after a long work week, but we have a livestream so I almost always watch that if I’m resting at home.

Do you have a tan? I most definitely do not but it’s finally getting warm so I am READY (I’m gonna burn so hard)

Do you prefer Chinese food or pizza? Chinese food! I’m Asian at heart

Do you drink your soda with a straw? That would imply that I drink soda

What colour socks do you usually wear? The brighter, the better! My favorite socks to wear to work though have syringes and stethoscopes and various organs all over them though

Do you ever drive above the speed limit? SWEATS I try not to but I definitely do

What terrifies you? Got attacked by wasps one time and that was a real bad time

Look to your left, what do you see? My iPad that is blankly begging me to stop procrastinating on drawing mom’s present

What chore do you hate? Loading the dishwasher. Slimy food? HATE it

What do you think of when you hear an Australian accent? Tinkerbell from OUAT

What’s your favourite soda? Again, bold of you to assume I drink soda

Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive-thru? I’d go in if I could but alas, desperate times

Who’s the last person you talked to? My mom

Favourite cut of beef? Cheeseburger

Last song you listened to? Butterflies by Kacey Musgraves

Last book you read? The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Riddle of Ages

Favourite day of the week? Friday because Magnum and Blue Bloods!!!

Can you say the alphabet backwards? Yes but I’d have to mentally say it forward in between every letter to remember the order

How do you like your coffee? Loooove me a caramel macchiato or caramel frappuccino

Favourite pair of shoes? Definitely my thigh-high suede boots

The time you normally go to bed? Well two nights ago it was 7pm and last night it was 10:30pm and I’d say somewhere between the two is normal

The time you normally get up? 6 on work day, but if I’ve been off for several days in a row I start pushing 9

What do you prefer, sunrise or sunsets? Sunsets, but I treasure the moments I see the sunrise

How many blankets on your bed? Ummmm I think I have ten right now. I’m constantly shamed in my household for hoarding all the blankets.

Describe your kitchen plates: Green plates with apples are the staple kitchen ware, but we have red ones we use a lot too. Minimalistic white ones for the nights my brother decides to go master chef

Do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage? I consider black coffee to be hard liquor

Do you play cards? My family FEARS my prowess at Dutch Blitz. It gets REAL up in here

What colour is your car? The fact that the paint is legally called “space gray” may or may not have been influencing factor in my purchasing of the vehicle in question. (I also fondly call it the Millenial Falcon)

Can you change a tire? Mmm probably in a pinch

Your favourite province? I’ve only been to British Columbia but I do love it

Favourite job you’ve ever had? What I do now! Surgical Vet Assistant

How did you get your biggest scar? I’ve got a six inch vertical incision below my belly button where they pulled 2.7 liters of fluid out of my abdomen, as one does

What did you do today that made someone else happy? I told a golden retriever she was a good girl and she stuck her nose in my face waiting for me to say it again

Tagging any one who wants to do it! Tag me so I can see your answers too! ^^

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111 Questions

Tagged by @amilliontinycorndogs 1) Are you really ready for 111 questions? Yeah I guess. 2) Where are you taking this test at? My fathers house.  3) Was your last real relationship a mistake? Nah . 4) Who did you last say “I love you” to? Can’t remember. 5) Do you regret it? Nah. 6) Have you ever been depressed? I’m diagnosed with it so... yes. 7) Are you a boy or girl? Lol you fucking wish. 8) Do you have a job? I did 6 months ago. 9) What is your relationship status? Single boy for life fam. 10) How do you want to die? I don’t know, there’s a lot of ways that seem interesting to feel. 11) What did you last eat? Ben and Jerry’s Fudge Brownie Ice Cream. 12) Played any sports? Basketball when I was 4 13) Do you bite your nails? Very often, nervous tick. 14) When was your last physical fight? Physical? Never had one. 15) Do you have an attitude? I guess I do. 16) Do you like someone? I like a lot of people. 17) What is your real name? Liberty. (Don’t call me that our I’ll cut you.) 18) What is the background of you computer screen? A drawing of Sebastian by one of my favorite artists and friend @deltastic 19) Are you gonna get high later? What are drugs? 20) Do you hate anyone at the moment? Again, I hate a lot of people. 21) Do you miss someone? Yes, I do. 22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti? I prefer bow-tie noodles, thank you. 23) Do you tan a lot? Boy I fucking BURN.  24) Have any pets? 2 doggos, Sam and Dobby. 25) How exactly are you feeling?! Empty and tired. 26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving? Who doesn’t honestly? 27) Ever made out in the bathroom? Excuse me? But I never made out in my life.  28) Would you take any of your exes back? One of them, yeah. 29) Are you afraid of spiders? Only the ones in my house. 30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Depends on the time frame. 31) Do you regret anything from your past? Yes I do. 32) What are your plans for this weekend? Getting my official ID, other than that, sleep and art shit. 33) Do you want to have kids? I dislike kids. 34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M? No 35) Do you type fast? Texting, yes. Computer typing is average. 36) Do you have piercings? Had my ears pierced, I would like to get small cone gauges. 37) Want any more? Depends. 38) Can you spell well? Depends on the word.  39) Do you miss anyone from your past? A few people. 40) What are you craving right now? Cuddles please. 41) Ever been to a bonfire party? A few, smores are good. 42) Have you ever been to jail? No, but I know how to get into jail.  43) Have you ever been on a horse? Yes, and I didn’t like it. 44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck? I am no hillbilly. (Just kidding, but no I haven’t) 45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart? Yeah, a few. 46) Have you ever been cheated on? I guess, though when I found out I broke it immediately. Still friends with the guy. 47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? Don’t know. 48) What time is it currently? 8:21 49) Would you live with someone without marrying them? Yes. 50) What should you be doing? Absolutely fucking nothing. 51) What’s irritating you right now? My piece of shit laptop cause I need a new one, and my mom. But what’s new. 52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts? Oh god yes. 53) Does somebody love you? Don’t know. 54) What is your favorite color? Orange 55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? Can’t remember. 57) Do you have trust issues? Maybe. 58) You are over half way done with this. Are you sure you want to continue? Of course. 59) Do you have any siblings? One brother. 60) Do you have a good relationship with your parents? Depends on which ones. 61) Do you live with anyone? My mother, step-dad, 2 dogs, and my brother. 62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you? Yeah, we are still friends, he... sends me his lucky Cocoppa shit. 63) Who was the last person you cried in front of? I cry alone a lot so I’m not sure. 64) Do you give out second chances too easily? Depends. 65) Is it easier to forgive or forget? Locking the issues away and forgetting is better for me mentally until they resurface. 66) Is this year the best year of your life? I want to die. 67) What was your childhood nickname? Libby. (Don’t call me that either, I’ll bury you alive.) 68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked? What the hell? I’m not even comfortable in my own skin. 69) What is your motto in life? It’s only illegal if they find you. 70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason? Yes. 71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? My Overwatch AU shit with my OC Watson. 72) Do you have a best friend? I have a lot. 73) What is bothering you? My future college tuition. 74) Have you ever been out of your country? No but take me out of here. 75) Do you play the Wii? I have. 76) Are you listening to music right now? Nope, I wish. 77) Do you like Chinese food? Nah. 78) Do you know your father’s b- day? Yes. 79) Are you afraid of the dark? No. 80) Is cheating ever okay? Never. 81) Are you mean? In my mind I act mean to people. 82) Can you keep white shoes clean? Fuck no. 83) What was the last song you listened to? Can’t remember. 84) Do you believe in true love? No. 85) What are you currently wearing? A shirt my friend gave me for my 16th birthday, and shorts. 86) What do you wear to bed? Pajama pants and a t-shirt. 87) What is the weather like right now? I dunno, probably fucking hot. 88) Do you like the outside? Only in the winter. 89) Are you currently bored? Eh. 90) Do you wanna get married? Nope. 91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? God no, I hate it. 92) Are you hungry? Always. 93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight? Again, I’ve never made out. 94) What makes you happy? Soldier 76, my friends, warm blankets in the winter.  95) Would you change your name? I plan on it. 96) Ever been to Alaska? I’d like to go. 98) Do you watch the news? Depends on the subject at hand. 99) What’s your zodiac sign? Leo 100) Do you like Subway? It’s okay. 101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? Yes. 102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? I wouldn’t want to ruin the friendship, so I wouldn’t go out with them and fuck it over. 103) Do you talk like your friends? Depends on the friend. 104) What do you plan to do with the rest of your day? Fall asleep in bed. 105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them? Very, very common. 106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? Yes, alot of them. 107) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? My friend Chad. 108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? Depends on the brand of cigarettes and if they do it outside. Weed... please don’t. 109) Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? My friend Kyle on Discord. 110)Favorite lyrics right now? I dunno honestly. 111) Tag 10 People  @angelwolfhowls @juicyrecords @gotta-art-gotta-scream @deltastic @mont-blanc88 @ssswoobat @god-dammit-motherfucker @resentedghost @psychofile @i-live-for-caffeine

[thatkidwiththeunkepthair]

Consequences of Our Emotions

I don’t even really know where this came from, but I just wrote 6 pages of a fic.  Essentially, it fibs a little bit so that Lucy and Alex are talking like crazy, Lucy is in and out of the DEO but still knows the low-down.

Maggie says no, I make up a reason, and bam, we have a fic.

Enjoy, as it suddenly turned into a chaptered fic.

Maybe future Director Danvers?

“Marry me,” Alex says, and watches as Maggie smiles.  Her heart swells with emotion and suddenly, Alex understands why her father used to talk about when he proposed to her mom, because if this is what it feels like, Alex wants to remember it forever.  It’s been 3 months since Alex was kidnapped, and she’s been waiting for the right moment for half of that time. Maggie’s been there through 3 rounds of pneumonia, and Alex is ready. She’s so ready to marry Maggie, to be her wife.

But then Maggie’s smile falls, and Alex’s heart stops painfully in her chest as Maggie opens her mouth and starts to speak.

“Alex, I was going to talk to you,” she starts, and Alex feels tears try to well up in her eyes. She feels her heart skip a beat painfully and fights to keep her emotions from showing.

That song from Frozen pops into her head before she almost laughs at the sudden thought, and kicks it back into the back of her mind.

“I-I started talking with Emily again.  Alex, I love you, but I don’t love you as much as I loved her.”

Alex swallows and looks down at her feet before her eyes fly back to Maggie’s face.

“What about when I was kidnapped.  What about what you said then?”

Maggie brings her hands up to take Alex’s hands, but Alex steps away from her grasp and swallows thickly.

“I guess – I guess this is goodbye, then? This is our breakup?”

Maggie looks hurt, even though Alex is the one who is having their proposal rejected, Alex is the one without someone else to love, and Alex is going to be the one alone again.

“I’ll come by tomorrow to get my stuff from your apartment,” Alex whispers.  “I’ll bring all of your stuff too.  Is that okay?”

She’s fighting back tears, putting the face of DEO Agent Danvers on instead of broken Alex Danvers, the kid from Midvale who grew up too fast when her alien sister came to Earth. The woman who has just been broken up with when she thought she was the one.

Maggie slowly nods, and Alex is walking away moments later, not even looking to find out if it were okay or not.

“Alex, at least let me drive you back!”

Alex raises a hand, shaking it as she walks.

“I’ll walk,” She bites out between hitching, uneven breaths.

Maggie doesn’t push it.

Alex puts a hand to her mouth as she starts her 5-mile walk back to the DEO, her chest burning with the exertion in the cold and how she bit back hiccupping sobs.  She let the tears flow down her cheeks unhindered. She’d get her stuff tomorrow – Her favorite Elements Table blanket, her Bare-Naked Ladies sweatshirt, the Comforter she stole from her dad after the man had slept with it while briefly away from Cadmus, and her toothbrush.  All others were collateral damage she didn’t want to fight about.

 -.-.-.-

 Lucy’s eyebrows twitched as she furrowed them. Her eyes were stuck on Alex as she watched the agent – now normally filled with joy and, dare she say it, bouncing with excitement – as she sat limply at the lab table, squinting into a microscope.  She watched Alex sigh for the fifth time in ten minutes.

Sebastian, another lab tech, watched Agent Danvers.  His eyes were wide and whenever the senior agent moved even an inch, all eyes flickered up to look at her, back to their work, and then back at Alex.  

Lucy stood on the catwalk above the lab, listening as Vasquez spoke.  Both women were soft as they spoke.

“With all due respect to Alex, she’s terrifying me.  And she hasn’t left the lab in days.  Not even to go home or take a nap. I think she’s on day three!” Vasquez hissed.  

Lucy crossed her arms against her chest as she leaned back against the handrail.  The metal was cold against her back, causing her whole body to shiver violently. Lucy bit the inside of her cheek and glanced up at Vasquez before looking down at Alex.  

“When’s the last time she ate?” she asked, knowing that Maggie wouldn’t have let this go on.  

Where was Maggie anyway?

By the time that 12-16 hours had passed, Maggie was usually tugging Alex out of the DEO by her ear, chastising the agent like she was her mother.  If they were into hour 72, something was seriously wrong. Maybe they were fighting again.  Alex had been quiet ever since she’d confided in Lucy that she wanted to marry Maggie, and would ask her soon.

“I don’t know!” Vasquez sighed, speaking between her clenched jaw. She threw her hands up in the air before letting them flop back onto her thighs as she too leaned against the railing. Vasquez crossed her arms against her chest and looked down at the lab where Alex had now moved on to scribbling down notes.

“If I knew when she last ate, I would tell you.  I wouldn’t hide that.”

Lucy bit back a sigh of frustration and threw a sour look at Vasquez.  Vasquez looked at her pointedly before Lucy broke the look.  Lucy glanced down at the lab again, noticing that Alex was now adding something to the dish she was looking at through the microscope.

“Kara?”

“Oh yeah,” Vasquez scoffed, “Kara would let Alex be up this long without sleeping or eating if she knew. She’s still out with Lena.  They come back tonight.”

Lucy ground her teeth as she looked down at the lab.  The catwalk was silent as she thought about the situation.  Lucy lifted her right hand and pressed her thumb against her lips, her elbow pressed against her right, crossed arm.  

She tapped her finger against her lips for a moment.

Kara would be returning to the city this evening, her trip with Lena finishing off with Kara flying them back.  Lucy’s stomach rolled violently with how much paperwork she would be helping Pam to draw up. She didn’t even want to think about how Kara told Lena.  One Danvers sister issue is enough for her day.

In any case, Kara would return, and Lucy needed to drag Alex out of the lab since Maggie was fucking off somewhere and not helping her girlfriend function like an adult.

She sighed and pushed off the handrail.

“Okay.  Call Kara, tell her what’s happening. Try and get her to come back early if she can swing it with Lena. I’m going to take her to Kara’s apartment, get food in her, and try to figure out what’s wrong,” Lucy announced. She hit the other guardrail with her palms before looking at Vasquez, a new decision popping to mind.

“Get the lab techs out first, I’ll walk in with food.  If I can’t get her to sleep, I will get her to eat,” Lucy explained.  Vasquez nodded and blew out a sigh.

“Thank you, Ma’am.  I was getting really worried,” Vasquez said. She turned on her heel and began to walk away.

“Me too, Vasquez.  Me too,” Lucy sighed out, almost too low to hear. She watched Vasquez leave before she looked down at Alex, frowning.

“God, what’s going on, Danvers? You were doing so good with taking care of yourself.”

 -.-.-

 Vasquez clears the room without Alex even knowing, even though all of the people around her leave. Alex simply remains fixated on her experiment, dropping bits of radioactive isotopes on something akin to a Hellgrammite’s cells, trying to find a way to be able to feed them without actually requiring the right chemicals, which could be harmful to humans.

Lucy walks in with Chinese food in a bag by her side and a big bottle of apple juice.  Alex would never admit it to anyone at the DEO, but apple juice was her favorite drink other than alcohol.  Lucy wasn’t going to give her any alcohol at this point, so apple juice and waters it was.  

“Danvers,” Lucy says as she closes the door behind her. Alex picks her head up from the microscope, finally noticing she was alone in the room.  

Lucy placed the Chinese food on the table and began to unpack it, the apple juice sitting innocently on the table.

“We are going to eat, and I am going to take you to your sister’s apartment.  Or we can do that in reverse,” Lucy commands, her tone leaving no room for argument.  Alex sighs and looks down at her experiment.

Sensing the hesitation, Lucy stares at Alex with a hard, unemotional expression.

“Alex, I just looked at all the security tapes.  You’ve been in the lab for four days straight. Before that, you were in the field for a full day.  You got debriefed and then hit the lab.  You haven’t moved since. If you don’t come with me and eat and rest, I will bring J’onn in here and let him deal with you, and I doubt you want that.”

Alex takes in a few deep, shuddering breath as she listens to Lucy.  Her lower lip quivered, and a jolt runs through Lucy’s body as she realizes that Alex is 90% of the way to crying in the middle of the lab.  

Lucy leaves the food on the table and rushes to Alex as tears begin to slip down her cheeks.

“Alex, hey!” Lucy whispers as she wrapped her arms around the slightly-younger agent, holding her up as her legs all but fail to hold her up.

Lucy carefully lowers the both of them to the ground and just holds the agent, who is now curled into a ball crying.  She feels just how warm Alex is, and her heart skips a beat as Lucy notices that Alex is burning up with fever. She hadn’t felt a fever this bad before, and she wonders if Alex is emotional due to fever.

Alex Danvers isn’t one to suddenly burst into hysterics, but Lucy can only explain this sudden burst into tears as a concoction of malnutrition/starvation, sleep deprivation, fever, repression of emotions, and just pure exhaustion.  Lucy grips Alex close to her as they sit on the floor, Lucy’s legs splayed out with Alex laying back against her chest.

“Alex, what’s wrong?” Lucy asks as she tries to straighten Alex in her arms.  

At Lucy’s question, Alex just sobs, her hands clutching at Lucy’s as she flops back against the assistant director. Lucy’s heart races as she listens to Alex cry and feels the warmth burning against her own skin.  She doesn’t want to know how high the fever is, but knows that if she can’t get Alex to calm down, they’d have a whole different range of problems than just a fever.

She wasn’t the nurturing or coddling type.  When Lois had come home crying about boys, she had just watched blankly, not understanding why her sister was crying so violently.  She’d only watched as her mother clutched her sister to her chest, much like Lucy now did.

Oh God, please stop crying! Lucy thought. Please, Alex.  I don’t do tears well!

Even though Lucy practically pleaded with God and Alex herself, Alex’s hysterics only increased with her previous question.

Lucy took in a deep breath before she sat up a little more, letting Alex rest against her chest as the agent cried.  She didn’t think she’d ever seen Alex cry before, and if she had, it had never been this violent.  Alex’s breaths hitched up and down unevenly as she tried to slow the cascade of emotions, but just moments after her attempt, she began to hyperventilate as she wheezed in breaths between sobs.

“Okay,” Lucy whispered, knowing that Alex wouldn’t be calming down on her own.  She used one arm to take Alex’s right hand in her own.  She gives it a squeeze and hugged the agent tighter to her chest. “Alex, I need you to breathe with me.  You’re going to hyperventilate.”

When Alex doesn’t respond, Lucy briefly thinks she may have to call medical.  Then, Alex hiccupped a few sobs back and, slowly, she bit out a sentence.

“Sh –” Alex cut off for a moment as she coughed hard. Lucy winced as she listened to how deep and wet it was.

“I a-ah-asked h-her to marry me a-an-and she t-told me she-sh-shhhe’s leaving me,” Alex hiccupped through tears. “Sh-She meh-met up with E-Emily and w-wants her b-b-back.”

Lucy is stunned as she clutches Alex to herself, numb with shock.  Maggie and Alex, gone.  Done. Maggie leaving Alex for an ex, and god, that has got to sting, bad.

“Oh, Alex,” Lucy whispers, as Alex cries harder.  Her motions, however, had become less of a thrash, and more stillness has washed over the agent. Alex now simply laid back against Lucy, not a lot of energy left in her body.  Between the fever, the exhaustion, emotions, and malnutrition, it’s not surprising.

Lucy goes for her phone and drags it out of her pocket.  She types in a well-known number and puts it to her ear, hoping desperately that the other picks up.  

Thankfully, Kara’s voice rings through, and Lucy speaks shakily, her sentence surrounded by Alex’s soft sobs.

“Kara, you need to get to the DEO.  Now.”  

 -.-.-.-

 Kara landed just minutes after they had ended the call, Lucy still sitting on the floor with Alex against her chest.  Lucy looks up at Kara, her outfit a bit singed, and at Lena, who looks stunned when she saw Agent Danvers, walls down and crying weakly on the ground.

“What happened?” Kara asks immediately.  She kneels in front of Alex and Lucy, reaching her arms out and taking her older sister into her arms.  

When Alex didn’t speak, simply curling up against Kara’s chest, Lucy was the one to speak.

“Alex and I had been talking about her proposing to Maggie,” Lucy said softly, trying to keep it soft enough that Alex wouldn’t hear, but with her super hearing, Kara would.

“She had a plan, but after the invasion, she leapt on asking Maggie.  Apparently, Maggie was already going to return to Emily.”

Kara’s eyes widen, and she hitched her sister into her arms, hugging her tightly.  She closes her eyes as she listens to Alex slowly calm down again, and feels the burning coming from her sister’s skin.  Her cells were raging attack against something. Just what, Kara couldn’t tell.  

“She was in the lab for a few days,” Lucy explained.  She still hadn’t moved from her spot on the floor. She pulled her knees up and wrapped her arms around them, however.

“One day in the field, then immediately to the lab for four days straight.  We’re all so used to Maggie making her leave that we forgot she gets this way.  I was going to get food in her, get her to your apartment for when you returned.  I told her I’d tell J’onn about her being up if she didn’t come, and she started sobbing.  I don’t know what happened.”

Kara nodded, standing up and pulling Alex into her arms. She took a deep breath before looking at Lena, who had moved closer to look at the agent who had dropped into an exhaustion-filled sleep.  

“I can get my stuff, take a look at her.  I did three years of medical school, did a residency.  I’m not a true doctor anymore, but I know enough,” Lena offered.  

Kara immediately nodded, ready to take Lena up on that offer.  She looked at Lucy, shifting Alex closer in her arms, and so that her head rested on Kara’s shoulder instead of simply being held bridal style.  Alex coughed, her cough wet and deep, the sound of mucus churning in Alex’s lungs making Lucy wince and bite back nausea.

“Lucy, can you take Lena to get her stuff and we’ll meet at my place?” Kara asked, anxiously shuffling as she held Alex close.  The thought of taking her sister back to the medical bay made her stomach churn violently. She’d never thrown up before, but Kara was fairly certain this was what a human would feel just before violently vomiting.  She swallowed thickly and, without either of the other two noticing, Kara began to walk out the door.

She found J’onn at the door into the parking garage.  His eyes immediately shot to his Earth Daughter, who was limply laying in Kara’s arms, her breathing audible and ragged as she tried valiantly to take in enough air to meet her body’s need for oxygen.  It was made difficult by the mucus that coated the inside, making the air exchange much harder than it should have been.

Kara and J’onn shared a look.  Kara’s, filled with anger and worry.  J’onn’s, filled with confusion.

“She and Maggie are done,” Kara whispered, glancing down at her sister.  “She’s sick, probably worked herself into another pneumonia reoccurrence. Lena’s going to take a look at her at my apartment.  I’m taking her home.” Kara said it all while looking at her sister, wanting nothing more than to wipe away the tears that were drying and leaving tear tracks on her face.  

J’onn felt his heart skip a beat in shock as he looked at Alex.

“Take her home,” he agreed. “I’ll send Dr. Hamilton to check on her as well.  We’ll deliver anything you need in order to keep her from having to go to the ER or check into the Med Bay again.”

Kara nodded slowly and her jaw clenched visibly. She looked up from her sister to look J’onn in the eyes, every emotion but pure sorrow gone from her eyes.

“Please, don’t do anything against Maggie.  I know we’re like your daughters,” Kara started, “but Maggie has a right to her own happiness as well.  If that happiness isn’t with Alex, then Alex will find her own happiness without Maggie.”

J’onn took a moment to look at Kara before he smiled and patted her on the shoulder.

“When did you become so wise?” he questioned, a small laugh bubbling out.

“I learned it from a great sister.  She’s about yea tall, short hair, currently freshly single.”

J’onn rolled his eyes and smiled at Kara before he looked down at Alex, still asleep in her younger sister’s arms.  She breathed in and out raggedly, and J’onn felt his heart clench almost painfully when he heard the bubbling in her lungs.  He bent over a bit, ran his hand over the top of Alex’s head, and the stood up again.

“I’ll send you a message before I stop by.  You can’t keep me away,” he said.  “Is that alright?”

Kara nodded and gave him the first real smile she’d had in the last ten minutes.  

“Perfectly.  Text me when you’re ready.  I’m going to take her to my apartment so she can rest.”

“Take good care of her.”

Kara walked into the light, where the ceiling stopped and the sky began, and turned back to J’onn.

“Always do,” she promised. She took off, starting her minute-long flight home.

[theally-8]

Young Forever: Youth is over. Jungkook centric. Chapter 7.

Jungkook woke up to the piercing sound of beeping coming from his right hand side. The maknae opened his eyes slowly, blinking rapidly in hope to remove the bright lights shining straight in his eyes. Once his eyes had adjusted to the light, he opened them fully. Jungkook instantly groaned once he realised where he was, he was in hospital. Turning his head to the side, he noticed that half of his bandmates were sprawled across the room fast asleep and that two of the Seventeen members were also sprawled in the pile. Turning to the other side he saw that the remaining members of BTS were fast asleep, all besides Hoseok who was sat looking at the maknae with a smile on his face.

"Kookieeee" The third oldest whispered softly, drawing out the youngest name lightly as he reached to touch Jungkook's face. "You're finally awake." Hoseok sounded relieved, grinning happily. "What happened?" He queried, his voice croaking as he spoke. The older member stood up quickly and poured the youngest a cup of water which he handed to the younger boy while speaking.

"We were having a waterfight with the Seventeen boys and the Got7 boys and we decided after eating lunch, that all the dancers would have a dance battle and you were up against Minghao and were just finishing the last moves before you passed out in Minghao's arms. We quickly tried waking you up but you wouldn't wake up, so we rang an ambulance and they brought you here, all of us followed in the cars but they sent most of the boys home. Only we were able to stay and Minghao considering he was freaking out over the fact you had passed out and was blaming himself about it, so Seungcheol said he could stay here until you woke up as long as one of the others stayed with him, which was Junhui."

The maknae blinked softly. "Oh" He said gently. Hoseok smiled innocently at the maknae before moving to where Seokjin was laid and quickly shook his shoulder to wake him up. The eldest groaned trying to bat away the younger members hand, trying to curl back into his seat. Both Jungkook and Hoseok giggled lightly at the sight of their oldest hyung acting so much like a young child. "Jinnie-hyung" Hoseok cooed in hope to wake their hyung up. "Hyunggie, Kookie's awake." Seokjin acted almost instantly, uncurling himself from the chair to look at the maknae.

A excited smile made it's way onto the oldest face as he bounded out of his chair and made his way to Jungkook's side asking a billion and one question a minute. Jungkook giggled softly at his hyungs reaction and batted the older mans head softly, so that he'd look at him. "Hi, hyung." The oldest sighed softly and threw his arms around Jungkook, pulling the youngest in for a hug.

All the commotion had woken up Namjoon, who was watching the two with fond eyes as Yoongi laid next to him, the smaller mans head was resting on the younger's shoulder. Jimin and Taehyung were still fast asleep, with little snores pouring out of their mouths. Minghao and Junhui were both still asleep, with the younger of the two frowning in his sleep as he cuddled close to the only other Chinese member.

"So, what's the conclusion then?" The maknae asked keeping his arms wrapped around Seokjin, as he knew that the oldest hyung wouldn't release him from his arms even if he tried forcefully. Seokjin looked over at Namjoon to explain and the leader rolled his eyes, clicking his back carefully, so that he didn't disturb Yoongi's slumber.

"You passed out due to low blood pressure, which is apparently rather regular in cancer patients, so they brought you here, just to check you over and to do some scans because of the risk. You're free to go as soon as they get the scans."

Ten minutes later saw all of them awaken, even the two boys from Seventeen. The youngest Chinese boy had apologised relentlessly to Jungkook who was quickly to assure the youngest of the nine that it was okay. The two Chinese members stayed for a while before Junhui's phone went off, which turned out to be Seungcheol calling to tell them that they sadly had practice and that they were already on their way to pick them up.

Junhui and Minghao soon left but not without making the older band promise to tell them if anything happened.The Doctor arrived less than ten minutes after the Seventeen members left to join the rest of them, wearing a grim look on his face. The seven of them looked towards him as they all moved as close as they could to their maknae.

"Jungkook-ah, as I'm sure you've already been informed, we did some scans when you came in, just to be on the safe side because of your brain tumour and the results aren't what we expected. I'm afraid to announce that your brain tumour has actually grown to a stage where we can no longer even do anything, even if you did agree to having treatment then it wouldn't work anymore."

The seven boys had been waiting for the bad news ever since the doctor had walked in the room, so when he announced it, it honestly didn't surprise them. Jimin looked at the doctor softly, the emotion brewing behind his eyes. "Does this affect how long he has left?" The doctor sighed softly, nodding his head before speaking again. "Yes, it does. We said he'd have about just under 6 months without the treatment beforehand but now that the tumour has actually grown it means that he has at maximum 4/5 months. I'm sorry, I really am. " The doctor soon left the seven boys on their own to let the information actually sink in.

Jungkook sighed looking at his hyungs faces as the realization that Jungkook was actually dying sank in. He smiled grimly to himself but looking up once again. "I suppose we'd be better off telling the fans now, shouldn't we?"

Jungkook's hyungs looked up, studying the youngest, surprised at first how well he was actually handling the information, but then they remembered that he had already been told he was going to die, which made them realise that nothing was able to shock him anymore. "How would you announce it?" That was Taehyung, the second youngest eyes were wide with both shock and proudness.

The maknae thought for a second before raising his eyes to meet the six other boys. "V-app? The fans would be furious if we just tweeted it and quite frankly, after all they've helped us achieve, it just wouldn't feel right." All seven boys agreed to do a V-app that night, with Namjoon stepping out of the room to contact their management to plan it. Yoongi had climbed onto the youngest hospital bed, hugging the maknae towards his chest with Hoseok holding the maknae's right hand and Seokjin holding the left hand. Jimin and Taehyung were sat next to one of Jungkook's legs each with one hand placed on the maknae's (rather skinny) legs. Namjoon quickly came back from his phone call and nobody missed the fact his eyes were ringed red and that his cheeks were rather puffy and had tear streaks down them, but nobody mentioned it, knowing they were going through the exact same emotions. Jungkook was released from hospital just a mere half an hour later.

The rest of the day flew by, with Jungkook answering his messages from the Got7 and Seventeen boys and telling them to watch the V-live later that night, with confirmation from them both that they would. Before they knew it, it was nearly time to tell the fans. Yoongi and Seokjin gathering the laptop and hooking it up on to the TV before rearranging the room so that they could all fit in, while they had the younger boys cleaning up the living room, so it was mostly spotless. Once, Seokjin and Yoongi had set up the laptop, the older of the two moved to the kitchen, where he began preparing a meal for them, realising that all off them hadn't eaten since the day before during the water fight. The oldest began boiling a batch of ramen and then got seven different bowls out.

As soon as the meal was ready, he called the six other boys to come collect their bowls, taking his own in his arms before walking to the living room again and sitting on the seating that they'd sorted out. The ramen was quickly devoured by six of the boys, Jungkook only picked at his, eating a few loose strands, not really having a massive appetite, which earned him a disapproving frown from Taehyung who was sat next to his dongsaeng. The maknae tried eating a few more pieces before giving up and handing the bowl to one of his hyungs, the sick boy didn't really bother to look to see who had taken it from him.

Jimin bit his lip worriedly as he looked into the barely touched bowl of ramen which he'd taken from the younger boy, his eyes meeting Yoongi who was looking just as concerned. Yoongi and Jimin volunteered to take all the bowls out, so that they could have a quick discussion. "Is it normal?" The younger boy hissed lowly. "Kookie hasn't eaten anything in a full day and then he's not even eaten a handful of his food?!" Yoongi sighed softly. "Jiminie- it's a very common thing, you're forgetting, it's in his brain which controls everything. I know it's worrying but there's nothing we can do."

Jimin frowned angrily, suddenly very interested in the plain tiles on the floor. His hyung sighed, bringing the third youngest in to a surprise hug. "Jimin, I know that you're worried, you're scared that we'll lose him any day, trust me we're all the same. It's only been a few weeks since he was originally diagnosed but everyone's already terrified we'll wake up one day and he'll just be gone. I mean; Seokjin wakes up earlier in the morning to make sure that Kookie's still alive, he stands in the doorway until he's one hundred percent certain that Kook's okay, Namjoon stays awake each night till gone midnight to make sure that he can hear Jungkookie breathing and can only fall asleep to the sound of him breathing. Hoseok's been having constant nightmares and it's always the same nightmare, Kookie dies without us and then we all fall apart and die ourselves, he's terrified it'll come true, Taehyung's been getting out of bed in the middle of the night to go lay with Kookie, he keeps laying next to him and stroking his hair as if to assure him that he's right next to him. I admit, I'm not doing what they're doing but when I'm producing i'll either pop my head in the door or i'll text him to see if he's up and if he is, I always ask him to come see me. The whole story is; Nobody is coping, everyone is terrified, he's eighteen for god sake. Everytime I look at him, I think of the shy, innocent, tiny thirteen year old I met five years ago and it breaks my heart. How are we supposed to let him go?" Yoongi's voice cracked on the word "go" and Jimin tightened his arms around his hyung, the skinnier member shaking in his arms as he tried to control his emotions, not wanting to cry just before they were due to go live.

After what seemed like forever, Yoongi finally got his emotions back in whack and smiled at Jimin in thanks before grabbing the younger boys hand and pulling him back in the living room to where the five other members were sat watching the screen anxiously.

The seven boys looked back and forth at each other, trying to smile comfortingly but failing miserably as they watched the timer begin to count down the last minute. Smiling one last time at each other, they put a facade on and smiled softly at the timer reached zero and the television in front of them clicked on and showed their own faces.

"Hey guys." Namjoon greeted, shooting the camera a soft smile of his own. "Sorry for the late announcement of this v-live, it's not one of our usual shows, I'm afraid. We have some bad news. Now, please, please listen very carefully to what we have to say ARMY, like you usually do."

"About three weeks ago, we took Jungkook to the doctors after we noticed he hadn't been looking and feeling too great for a while. It took some persuasion and the silly boy tried to hide it from us but we got him in at the doctors that afternoon, as we booked the appointment even though he hadn't agreed to go yet. " Seokjin continued, shooting the maknae a small smile.

"They took Kookie off to do a bunch of tests and then once it was over they sent us home for the night as the results of the scan wouldn't be in until the next day, we were told to come in at a certain time the next day as they would have Jungkook's results by then. " Yoongi said, sighing softly.

. "We went in the next day and had Jungkook's appointment and we're were told that Kookie, had, had a brain tumour." Hoseok carried on from Yoongi, his voice cracking as he struggled to keep his emotions in check.

"A stage four brain tumour. He was offered the chance to go through with chemotherapy but it only had a small chance of it actually working. " Jimin spoke softly, squeezing the maknae's hand, who was shaking softly.

"It was like our whole world had ended as soon as the diagnosis actually came in and all of a sudden, we had no clue what to do. We went to the beach straight after, to try and get our heads around it and then we camped on the beach. After that night, it all fell to pieces." Taehyung looked up to the camera, his usually happy and excited eyes were angry and guilty.

"All of Kook's hyungs besides Yoongi-hyung and Hobi were idiots. We sheltered ourselves away from him and ignored him. What, we didn't realise, however is that we were wasting precious time with him and it wasn't until Yoongi and Hoseok hyungs went mental at us, that we realised how much we were hurting Kookie." Namjoon followed on, looking angry at just the mention of their actions.

"Jungkook forgave us really quickly but we didn't deserve his forgiveness, I mean what type of hyungs do that to their maknae? I hate myself for doing it to him. Anyway, Jungkook decided he wanted to do a bucket list and we promised we would help out. Yesterday, we were out with the Seventeen boys and the Got7 members having a waterfight when Kookie collapsed after having a dance battle. " Seokjin clenched his fist and moved his gaze.

"I woke up this morning and all the hyungs were asleep in the room, including Junhui-hyung and Minghao. The two Seventeen members had to go to rehearsals and after that, my doctor came back with the scan results. It wasn't good. My tumour had grown. It- it's no longer an option for me to do chemotherapy. It's t-terminal. I'm dying. I'm eighteen and I'm dying." Jungkook choked out, the tears streaming down his face and his hyungs all crowded around him, offering him comfort, besides Namjoon who looked up into the camera.

"I know this is a lot to take in guys, it's still very hard for us to comprehend with. Please continue to support us and support Jungkook, pray for him. We love you, guys. We'll be in touch in a few days but currently Kookie needs us. I'm sorry, good night everyone. " And with that Namjoon turned the V-app off, completely oblivious to the chaos which was happening online.

[lolsexonthebeach]

My girlfriend wanted me to do these and also I really wanted to do these

1. Coffee or tea?

Usually coffee, but I won’t say no to green tea. Like, ever.

2. Black and white or color?

Used to be black and white but I’m starting to like colors again. Oh my god, I sound like a really cringy goth kid.

3. Drawings or paintings?

Drawings. I loved whenever my girlfriend would sketch things on our coffee dates.

4. Dresses or skirts?

Dresses. Love love love when @organiclavender wears dresses :)

5. Books or movies?

Honestly, books more recently. I haven’t seen a good movie in awhile.

6. Pepsi or Coke?

Pepsi, I drank enough coke as a child to make a 500lb McDonald’s frequenter gasp.

7. Chinese or Italian?

This is a very evil question. I guess Chinese, I feel like it’s easier to find a hole-in-the-wall place serving bomb Chinese than it is to find a decent Italian restaurant that sells something other than Spaghetti and one meatball.

8. Early bird or night owl?

Is it possible to be both? Kinda like waking up early now, but I love midnight silence.

9. Chocolate or vanilla?

That’s racist.

10. Introvert or extrovert?

I am an introvert that pretends to be extroverted so he can pet people’s cats and play their musical instruments

11. Hugs or kisses?

Kisses. Always kisses.

12. Hunting or fishing?

This is probably a typical answer, but I really don’t like the idea of murdering something helpless for fun (Even though I fucking love guns lmao). Fishing is probably not much less cruel, but it’s so relaxing, man. 

13. Winter or summer?

Well, summer rhymes with bummer. 

Nah. Love the cold.

14. Spring or fall?

Fall. Such a spooky season.

15. Rural or urban?

It really depends on where lol. I love getting lost in the woods, but there’s no Wi-Fi out there lmao

16. PC or Mac?

Macs are literally overpriced Linux computers that take everything good about Linux and throw it the fuck away.

17. Tan or pale?

Pale <3

18. Cake or pie?

I will eat the FUCK out of some pecan pie.

19. Ice cream or yogurt?

I’m not an annoying hipster that lies about enjoying fermented milk so iced cream for me

20. Ketchup or mustard?

Ketchup, but mustard is growing on me lately. Like, go get some spicy brown mustard from Walmart and put that shit on a sandwich with pepper jack and roast beef and tell me there’s not a God.

21. Sweet pickles or dill pickles?

Sweet pickles are the 2nd most disgusting thing I’ve ever put in my mouth. The first is my brother’s penis. What was weirder was finding out that he wasn’t really my brother.

22. Comedy or mystery?

I feel like most comedies these days are different iterations of “WEIRD SEX SCENES AND AFFAIRS AND ALSO HERE’S SOME BOOBS” so mystery

23. Boots or sandals?

Well, if Doc Marten made some flippy flops... Nah, boots.

24. Silver or gold?

Silver. Looks way classier to me for some reason.

25. Pop or Rock?

DEATH METAL

26. Dancing or singing?

I can’t do either, I’m a white boy.

27. Checkers or chess?

My girlfriend will attest to the fact that I used to literally stay awake for hours playing chess on my phone

28. Board games or video games?

I love the videa.

29. Wine or beer?

I am answering this question with a hangover. Please die.

30. Freckles or dimples?

Both will equally melt my heart.

31. Honey mustard or BBQ sauce?

I live in Texas, so BBQ sawz

32. Body weight exercises or lifting weights?

Weights. I notice better results doing shit with dumbbells and stuff than I do just doing pushups and shit.

33. Baseball or basketball?

I refer you to the answer of question 26.

34. Crossword puzzles or sudokus?

Do I look like a 40 year old wife that likes to disturb her husband’s peace in the morning

35. Facial hair or clean shaven?

I assume this is asking about on other people, but facial hair if I’m trying to go to a bar and I don’t feel like getting carded, clean shaven if I want some love from @organiclavender

36. Crushed ice or cubed ice?

Ice^3

37. Skiing or snowboarding?

Snowboarding. 

38. Smile or game face?

I usually try to smile but apparently I have resting bitch face a lot

39. Bracelet or necklace?

I’ll rock both, yo.

40. Fruit or vegetables?

Both, my girlfriend has been forcing me to eat healthier and omg I’m actually starting to like things that aren’t baked in an asbestos lined oven with ingredients grown from failed cloning experiments and formaldehyde

41. Sausage or bacon?

Bausage.

42. Scrambled or fried?

This is a tough one. As long as there’s a shit ton of cheese somewhere in there, I’ll eat either.

43. Dark chocolate or white chocolate?

Darkolate.

44. Tattoos or piercings?

Have both, want more of both. I seriously miss my nose ring.

45. Antique or brand new?

Antique, but my girlfriend is scared of old things because she won’t stop watching Paranormal Survivor.

46. Dress up or dress down?

I have no idea what this means. I clearly am not the target demographic of this questionnaire.

47. Cowboys or aliens?

I was going to say both, but then I remembered it’s that kind of thinking that made Cowboys and Aliens with Daniel CRAYGE happen.

48. Cats or dogs?

I love woofers but I absolutely adore cats.

49. Pancakes or waffles?

Fucking WAFFLES.

50. Bond or Bourne?

I’ve been a Bond fan since I was old enough to be sentient

51. Sci-Fi or fantasy?

Both. Massive Sci-Fi fan but I love anything to do with fantasy things.

52. Numbers or letters?

Symbols!

53. Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings?

LORD OF THE POTTER

54. Fair or theme park?

I love fairs. There’s always a hint of “holy shit I might die” that just adds to the rickety experience of riding a roller coaster set up in literally a day.

55. Money or fame?

Money. I’d much rather buy people shit than sign autographs.

56. Washing dishes or doing laundry?

Neither. Shit is so lame. Hate both equally.

57. Snakes or sharks?

Sneks r cool

58. Orange juice or apple juice?

Apple Juice. I’ve been craving some since I woke up.

59. Sunrise or sunset?

Sunset.

60. Slacker or over-achiever?

I have bursts of both, which likely means I have some kind of serious mental disorder

:D

61. Pen or pencil?

Pens. There’s a weird quality to ink that I’ve always loved.

62. Peanut butter or jelly?

I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone who ate straight jelly lmao

63. Grammys or Oscars?

Do I look like a bored, lonely housewife?

64. Detailed or abstract?

Both. Absolutely both.

65. Multiple choice questions or essay questions?

When I didn’t entirely hate school, I loved essay questions. Multiple choice is now my favorite.

66. Adventurous or cautious?

Literally both.

67. Saver or spender?

I’m both lol. Sometimes I won’t spend a dime and then other times I’ll buy some fucking copper silverware on amazon because “It looks cool”.

68. Glasses or contacts?

Depends on the person. I think my girlfriend looks adorable in hers, I can’t seem to have them without shattering them.

69. Laptop or desktop?

Desktop.

70. Classic or modern?

Classic.

71. Personal chef or personal fitness trainer?

I would literally kill for someone to get me off of my ass and into a gym more often.

72. Internet or cell phone?

I feel like those two are synonymous now.

73. Call or text?

If it’s my girlfriend, call. If it’s literally anyone else, text.

74. Curly hair or straight hair?

I think girls with curly hair are the absolute cutest thing ever.

75. Shower in the morning or shower in the evening?

Evening showers make me happy.

76. Spicy or mild?

I will forever shovel spicy things in my mouth until my stomach screams at me and I need to throw up on the poor waitress asking me if I’m okay.

77. Marvel or DC?

I am weirdly not into comics.

78. Paying a mortgage or paying rent?

Dude, if I could afford a house in any possible way, there’s no way in hell I would ever live in an apartment again.

79. Sky dive or bungee jump?

I really wanna sky dive. Loved bungee jumping.

80. Oreos or Chips Ahoy?

WHAT IF THEY MADE BOTH 

81. Jello or pudding?

Pudding

82. Truth or dare?

You’re not even trying anymore.

83. Roller coaster or Ferris wheel?

Roller coaster!

84. Leather or denim?

I rock both yo.

85. Stripes or solids?

SOLIDS

86. Bagels or muffins?

Bagels, omfg. I’m like craving a garlic and poppy seed bagel right now. Wiff some creme chez.

87. Whole wheat or white?

My girlfriend hates me so I’m not allowed to eat white bread anymore.

88. Beads or pearls?

ANAL BEADS

89. Hardwood or carpet?

Hardwood. I finally moved into an apartment with wood floors and omg it’s so nice. Only thing that sucks is when it’s cold you mos def need socks.

90. Bright colors or neutral tones?

Neutral. I like colors too, I’m just a weird goth boy.

91. Be older than you are or younger than you are?

Older, with a job that doesn’t suck. I wanna be out of college.

92. Raisins or nuts?

Raisins are gross. I love cashews tho

93. Picnic or nice restaurant?

Nice restaurant. One of my favorite dates with my girlfriend is finding cool nice places to grab some food at :)

94. Black leather or brown leather?

Black ‘till I die.

95. Long hair or short hair?

Both. I’m not picky :)

96. “Ready, aim, fire” or “Ready, fire, aim”?

I’m imaging the second choice is what half of the dudes at the range I used to go to into Austin took.

97. Fiction or non-fiction?

Fiction. Non-Fiction is boring.

98. Smoking or non-smoking?

I’m not allowed to smoke anymore.

:’(

99. Think before you talk or talk before you think?

I definitely do both.

100. Asking questions or answering questions?

Both yo!

[ducks-love-swamps]

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First off, Fuck you. 1: Full nameMatthew Gene Langford2: Age21 holy fuck3: 3 FearsHeights, Aliens, Loneliness 4: 3 things I loveDiner food, Guns, Coffee5: 4 turns onShort hair, Femininity, Machine gun fire, aggressive sexuality6: 4 turns offObliviousness, Politicians, People who are Obtuse, Prius'es 7: My best friendShawn8: Sexual orientationStraight until otherwise noted9: My best first dateNothing comes to mind10: How tall am I6 foot even11: What do I missThey know.12: What time were I bornIdk13: Favourite colorYellow14: Do I have a crushI suppose so15: Favourite quote"Don't quote me boy cuz' I ain't said shit" - Easy E16: Favourite placeThe Desert 17: Favourite foodDiner18: Do I use sarcasmNo, Neeeever19: What am I listening to right nowAesop Rock, None Shall Pass20: First thing I notice in new personEyes21: Shoe size9.522: Eye colorBrown23: Hair colorBrown24: Favourite style of clothingHawaiian Shirts 25: Ever done a prank call?Yep27: Meaning behind my URLI'm Matthew, I like to punch things28: Favourite movieHardcore Henry29: Favourite songPapa don't take no mess by James Brown30: Favourite bandFuck you31: How I feel right nowgood32: Someone I loveI love my dad he the real OG33: My current relationship statusSingle34: My relationship with my parentsRad with my dad, I haven't seen my mom in a couple years35: Favourite holidayHalloween36: Tattoos and piercing i haveI have my spetum pierced37: Tattoos and piercing i wantI want a Chinese food carton on my leg, A nuclear pinup girl on my shoulder, a realistic heart on my chest, the WAFFLE HOUSE logo on my leg, Three birds on my leg38: The reason I joined TumblrTwo ex's ago had one so i joined 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?Nah, we good friends40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?sometimes41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?I believe so?42: When did I last hold hands?Today I guess43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?I roll out of bed and leave44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?Nope45: Where am I right now?Home46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?My own self47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?loud enough to hear all the recorded parts48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?just my dad49: Am I excited for anything?GUN SAFE AT THE END OF THE MONTH50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?Mhmm, One person51: How often do I wear a fake smile?Never, if you piss me off I'll let you know52: When was the last time I hugged someone?Todayyy53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?They do im sure54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?Nah55: What is something I disliked about today?I didn't shoot a gun56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?I'd wanna see Shawn57: What do I think about most?Guns58: What’s my strangest talent?I can suck my nose together59: Do I have any strange phobias?Not really60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?Behind, none of my friends can film for shit61: What was the last lie I told?That none of my friends can film for shit62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?Videoooo63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?Nope and nope 64: Do I believe in magic?In a young girls heart?65: Do I believe in luck?Yes66: What's the weather like right now?Dark and cold67: What was the last book I've read?the anarchist red book of explosives and demolitions68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?Love it69: Do I have any nicknames?Not really70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?My eyes have bruises 71: Do I spend money or save it?Save dat money 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?no73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?Yes74: Favourite animal?BEARS75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?Sleeping76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?Satan77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?Curtis Mayfield - Diamond in the Back78: How can you win my heart?Show effort79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?My name80: What is my favorite word?Dig, as in "I dig it"81: My top 5 blogs on tumblrIdk man, you all are good82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?Butts83: Do I have any relatives in jail?Not that I know of, But I know of many who probably should be84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?Easy, Flashlight eyes85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?This one.86: What is my current desktop picture?Some default highway art on Vista87: Had sex?Yep88: Bought condoms?Nope89: Gotten pregnant?Multiple scares90: Failed a class?Yep91: Kissed a boy?yep92: Kissed a girl?yep93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?yep94: Had job?yep95: Left the house without my wallet?nope96: Bullied someone on the internet?nope97: Had sex in public?oral98: Played on a sports team?yep99: Smoked weed?nope100: Did drugs?nope101: Smoked cigarettes?nope102: Drank alcohol?yes103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?nope104: Been overweight?always105: Been underweight?never106: Been to a wedding?yes107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?sometimes108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?never109: Been outside my home country?yep110: Gotten my heart broken?yep111: Been to a professional sports game?nope112: Broken a bone?nope113: Cut myself?on accident114: Been to prom?nope115: Been in airplane?yes116: Fly by helicopter?nope117: What concerts have I been to?good ones118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?nope119: Learned another language?nope120: Wore make up?yep121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?yes122: Had oral sex?yes123: Dyed my hair?nope124: Voted in a presidential election?yes125: Rode in an ambulance?nope126: Had a surgery?nope127: Met someone famous?nope128: Stalked someone on a social network?nope129: Peed outside?yes130: Been fishing?yep131: Helped with charity?yep132: Been rejected by a crush?yep133: Broken a mirror?yep134: What do I want for birthday?I don't really celebrate it135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?I either want 2 or 20. all of them named Matthew136: Was I named after anyone?My middle name is my grandpa's137: Do I like my handwriting?God no138: What was my favourite toy as a child?GI Joe Action Figure139: Favourite Tv Show?The News140: Where do I want to live when older?deep in the woods141: Play any musical instrument?Guitar, Bass, Sax142: One of my scars, how did I get it?Salt and Ice chemical burn143: Favourite pizza toping?Pineapple144: Am I afraid of the dark?Nope145: Am I afraid of heights?yep146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?Nope147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?Yep148: What I'm really bad atDrawing149: What my greatest achievments areI drove cross country by myself for no reason at all150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me151: What I'd do if I won in a lotteryRetire152: What do I like about myselfI'm pretty funny153: My closest Tumblr friendEh, I don't talk to most of you154: Something I fantasise aboutMachine gun fire