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I don't really care about the font. As long as it is easily readable for me while I am working. I started some stories in Google docs, but moved them to Microsoft Word and am considering going back for convenience sake and I haven't touched them since I moved them partly because of the default fonts. (I am aware I could change them, but I am too lazy to do so) Maybe I do care after all...
I 100% could write it by hand, and have considered it. The only reason I don't is because editing is more difficult on paper.
I haven't been writing long enough to develop a specific ritual. So maybe my lack of ritual is the real curse?
Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. That and Hippopotomonstrosesqippedaliaphobia. Yes, these are spelled mostly from memory. I checked the spelling for the phobia, I did not do so for the osis.
I don't know if it's a superstition really, but your characters are alive and will 100% change the story on you and there's nothing you can do about it if you want your story to come out good and cohesive.
I have two. That I will never get it the way I like it, (I know this is an unsolvable dilemma, but it's still a fear) and that no one will like it or even see it when I publish it.
Watching my story come together. As well as coming up with a solid idea for the next part of the story.
Dialogue, because I suck at it.
I do believe in ghosts. Probably not the ghosts you're thinking of though. As a Christian I do believe spirits do things we can't see, but not quite like the stereotypical ghosts in fiction. Although they are very similar.
Depends on your definition of haunted. Haunted as in I was horrified by it? I can't think of one right now, but I am almost positive it has happened. Haunted as in hung over my head because I haven't finished it yet? Yes, my own writing has done that. As have many stories that I need to finish reading.
I am not sure what that old advice is, and I don't know that I want to. Yes, I grieve the darlings lost. I have not yet killed a darling, but I am a sucker for pain and suffering. It just has to be handled correctly. So, if I ever kill a darling, believe me, it will be felt throughout the story and your life. A darling graveyard is a wonderful idea. Thank you for the suggestion. >:)
The Lorem Ipsum is a cruel and unusual punishment. As for the wishes, gaining the ability to actually finish my work, having the dialogue come out correctly, and having the writing be less awkward. I think those would be my wishes. The ability to finish my work could possibly be replaced with the ability to come up with ideas easier, like no writer's block or something. But they are essentially the same thing.
I don't know what subject I would have difficult writing about. Again, I haven't been writing very long or a lot, so I don't have much experience with it yet. Same with easy.
My lack of physical social life does not allow for me to easily lend books to people. But I can guarantee you I would know EXACTLY who had what book, but I probably wouldn't get them back because social anxiety.
Don't do it to my books and I will tolerate your book abuse. I would love to read in the bath, but I am scared of damaging the book.
The weirdest thing I've ever used as a bookmark would probably be a post it note, or gift card maybe, if I actually used a gift card for that. I am very boring with my bookmarks...
I cannot, to save my life, think of any details to tell you that won't make it into the text. I am sorry. I world build as I write and I'm still near the beginning of the story. My dnd campain tho? That would need a whole post of it's own. đ
"Knowing how the Sangheili felt about their swords and other people using them, she hoped that given the circumstances they would understand her desperation. She picked two of them up while thanking the Sangheili, both for joining their cause and for the sacrifice they made. Then she left the battlefield, but not before paying respects to all the fallen soldiers, human and Sangheili alike. Some simple words of gratitude spoken over the battlefield was all she had time for." This is a passage from a Halo fanfiction I am writing. The story came about because I wanted to emphasize the Sangheili's focus on Honor and Respect and how their views of humans changed during their allyship with us. The MC's name is Emira (subject to change) and respect is also a core value in her morals. She has not gotten to respectfully return the swords to the Sangheili yet, but that will happen soon. If I can figure out how she is rescued or escapes from danger. The battlefield spoken about in that passage has already been left by the conflict and is inactive when she finds it. The Sangheili she thanks are fallen soldiers, and she took the swords from beside their dead bodies. The passage did not change much during its creation.
I started writing because I love making stories up in my head, but I wanted to share them. The bumps are I always picture them as movies in my head, so turning them into words and having it come out as a well-written story is difficult. I am currently writing fanfiction and short stories, but I would like to turn one of my stories into a novel. I just haven't figured out how and I don't know if I will try to get them officially published or not.
The one true love. Life gets lonely, and they can give me emotional support while I struggle with my writing skills.
I wish I could start. đ I have 3 WIPs, all my first stories that I actually started writing. (I consider my dnd campaign a WIP because I am considering turning it into its own fic and it is a joy to work on) I haven't published anything and am getting very annoyed by my lack of progress on all of them.
Another reason why I haven't touched my stories for awhile is because I liked Google Docs' organization abilities better than Word's. With Docs they have tabs inside the document so you can actually have your stories separated with in the same document. Whereas with Word, at least to my knowledge, the only thing separates them is the headings. I should go back to Docs...
My couch? And an ungodly amount of clutter? I watch tv in the evenings and sometimes I decide to write while I do so. I get my computer out and have it on my lap, while I sit on the couch and watch tv, ignoring the clutter caused by my undiagnosed ADHD and complete lack of motivation to do anything related to chores...
People put prep work into their stories? Like, they get prepared to write the story? I just sit down and write whatever I can come up with if it fits my current story. Sometimes I have to tweak things so it all fits together.
I haven't come up with any irrelevant details yet. Everything must be part of the story somehow.
Given that most of my characters are based on me, yes I very much regret going into their heads and I haven't come up with a way to get back out yet. Please send help. I think I took a wrong turn back at Imagination Avenue?
I can't think of a specific character that was stressful. The most stressful situation to write though, has been the wedding reception for my (healthy) romance story. I have no idea what to do with it.
My MC for the romance story has probably been the most delightful. Either her, or Nialith Madgarb, (pronounced nye-uh-lith Mad-garb) from my DND campaign.
My brain is a cesspool for the craziest ideas. I pull inspiration from everywhere. Sometimes I wish the inspiration well WOULD run dry so I could have a moment of peace and quiet, but nay, I am doomed to an eternity of infinite ideas that I simply must run with. I am exhausted.
I have not yet written my dreams, nor dreamed my writings.
"Thank you for reading my stories. It means a lot to have people who enjoy my writing. Or are open to civil discussion about why they don't like it. I truly appreciate y'all"
Do deepfakes count? There is a series called "Master Chief teaches" and it's a bunch of videos of an ai recreation of Master Chief's voice and a script where "Master Chief" teaches you how to do stuff. In the video titled "Master Chief teaches you what to do when things go sideways" he says "adopting a solution-oriented mind helps you stay focused on what is most important during any crisis and that is taking action. Without action there is no movement, and without movement problems remain what they are" "Without movement problems remain what they are" is something I return to regularly when I start feeling overwhelmed by school, chores, etc. I could sit there and avoid the problem until it's so bad I can't anymore, or I could take action and make a move to fix the problem when I encounter it instead of sitting there overwhelmed and frozen. I recommend giving the video a watch, even if you don't play or like Halo.
I like to draw and paint (with watercolor, acrylic, and/or ink), and I have dabbled in cross-stitch, embroidery, and diamond art. I plan to draw some of the characters from my stories. I really want to paint Nialith Madgarb in my inks, but I am still working on mentally designing her character.
"Let's eat grandma"... Use the Oxford comma, people. It saves lives.
I cannot remember a single writing rule to comment on right now. If it works for your story and style, go for it. If it doesn't, yeet it into the abyss. Idk
I know an entire alphabet's worth of star wars character's and then some. This has nothing to do with my ability to write. Also, Halo 5: Guardians and Star Wars: The Force Awakens came out the same year, one in October, the other in December. Again, not related to my writing.
They wouldn't even consider me lol. And if they did, they'd think I was insane. And had severe ADHD. And they wouldn't be wrong...
My writing process is too slow and barely existing. Nothing about it is super weird except for the fact that I bounce all over the story and fill in the missing parts once I come up with a way to do so. As for the cats, they like to think they don't care about us, but they 100% do. And they would die of embarrassment if they knew we know they care.
Nothing. If I feel like giving up, I take a break until I inevitably come up with an irresistible idea on how to continue the story. Rinse and repeat.
I don't know if you mean a poem someone else wrote, or one I wrote, so I shall do both. Robert Frost's Stopping by woods on a Snowy Evening: Whose woods these are I think I know His house in the village though He will not see me stopping here To watch his woods fill up with snow My little horse must think it queer To stop without a farmhouse near Between the woods and frozen lake The darkest evening of the year He gives is harness bells a shake To ask if there is some mistake The only other sound's the sweep Of easy wind and downy flake The woods are lovely, dark and deep But I have promises to keep And miles to go before I sleep And miles to go before I sleep. My poem: Whereâs my Neverland?: Whereâs my Neverland? Iâve got so much in my hand Meetings and school I know you do too We want an adventure But life forces expenditure Paying the bills By wasting our skills Wish I could read until 2 a.m. But, alas, an adult I am And my days are made up Of working towards a paystub I wish we were kids Lying down in our beds Looking out at the sky Where the stars are not shy People today are depressed and dismayed All the time worrying about being betrayed Worried about being laid off from work And still somehow not giving a "fork" Where is our Neverland? Where is our wish? Of fun-filled times and Momâs favorite dish? Whereâs our adventure filled with imagination and beauty? Of digging in sand to find pirate booty? The answer is simple, and yet oh so sad Those days are gone by, the best days weâve had Those memories are all that we have Of those days made whole by a laugh But, worry not, for thereâs always tomorrow So, please donât obsess over yesterdayâs sorrow Look straight ahead While lying in bed Dreaming of heaven Those days will be back soon I reckon Where sorrows will be traded for unending joy And kids in sandboxes again shout âAHOYâ And we can always smell the finest of food And all work turns to play and we know that itâs good
I hope this answers all your questions and confirms that writers are in fact weird. :) And I hope the poetry was satisfactory.
Weird Questions for Writers (because writers are weird)
1. What font do you write in? Do you actually care or is that just the default setting?
2. If you had to give up your keyboard and write your stories exclusively by hand, could you do it? If you already write everything by hand, a) are you a wizard and b) pen or pencil?
3. What is your writing ritual and why is it cursed?
4. Whatâs a word that makes you go absolutely feral?
5. Do you have any writing superstitions? What are they and why are they 100% true?
6. What is your darkest fear about writing?
7. What is your deepest joy about writing?
8. If you had to write an entire story without either action or dialogue, which would you choose and how would it go?
9. Do you believe in ghosts? This isnât about writing I just wanna know
10. Has a piece of writing ever âhauntedâ you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?
11. Do you believe in the old advice to âkill your darlings?â Are you a ruthless darling assassin? What happens to the darlings you murder? Do you have a darling graveyard? Do you grieve?
12. If a genie offered you three writing wishes, what would they be? Btw if you wish for more wishes the genie turns all your current WIPs into Lorem Ipsum, I donât make the rules
13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?
14. Do you lend your books to people? Are people scared to borrow books from you? Do you know exactly where all your âlostâ books are and which specific friend from school you havenât seen in twelve years still possesses them? Will you ever get them back?
15. Do you write in the margins of your books? Dog-ear your pages? Read in the bath? Why or why not? Do you judge people who do these things? Can we still be friends?
16. Whatâs the weirdest thing youâve ever used as a bookmark?
17. Talk to me about the minutiae of your current WIP. Tell me about the lore, the history, the detail, the things that wonât make it in the text.
18. Choose a passage from your writing. Tell me about the backstory of this moment. How you came up with it, how it changed from start to end. Spicy addition: Questioner provides the passage.
19. Tell me a story about your writing journey. When did you start? Why did you start? Were there bumps along the way? Where are you now and where are you going?
20. If a witch offered you the choice between eternal happiness with your one true love and the ability to finally finish, perfect, and publish your dearest, darlingest, most precious WIP in exactly the way you've always imagined it â which would you choose? You canât have both sorry, lifeâs a bitch
21. Could you ever quit writing? Do you ever wish you could? Why or why not?
22. How organized are you with your writing? Describe to me your organization method, if it exists. What tools do you use? Notebooks? Binders? Apps? The Cloud?
23. Describe the physical environment in which you write. Be as detailed as possible. Tell me whatâs around you as you work. Paint me a picture.
24. How much prep work do you put into your stories? What does that look like for you? Do you enjoy this part or do you just want to get on with it?
25. What is a weird, hyper-specific detail you know about one of your characters that is completely irrelevant to the story?
26. How do you get into your characterâs head? How do you get out? Do you ever regret going in there in the first place?
27. Who is the most stressful character youâve ever written? Why?
28. Who is the most delightful character youâve ever written? Why?
29. Where do you draw your inspiration? What do you do when the inspiration well runs dry?
30. Talk to me about the role dreams play in your writing life. Have you ever used material from your dreams in your writing? Have you ever written in a dream? Did you remember it when you woke up?
31. Write a short love letter to your readers.
32. What is a line from a poem/novel/fanfic etc that you return to from time and time again? How did you find it? What does it mean to you?
33. Do you practice any other art besides writing? Does that art ever tie into your writing, or is it entirely separate?
34. Thoughts on the Oxford comma, Go:
35. Whatâs your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?
36. They say to Write What You Know. Setting aside for a moment the fact that this is terrible advice...what do you Know?
37. If you were to be remembered only by the words youâve put on the page, what would future historians think of you?
38. What is something about your writing process YOU think is Really Weird? If you are comfortable, please share. If youâre not comfortable, what do you think cats say about us?
39. What keeps you writing when you feel like giving up?
40. Please share a poem with me, I need it.
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For one reason or another, Rosie ends up in a gay bar (maybe he's figuring out his sexuality, or maybe he's at maybe crosby's or someones bachelor party, or maybe both) and Buck and Bucky end up giving the "we saw you from across the bar and liked your vibe" speech
Youâve come to the right place đ
Rosie was having the time of his life watching his best friend prepare to marry the love his life, but he needed a moment and a drink. He has never given or received so many lap dances or serenades in his life.
As he waited for the bartender to come his way so he could order, he felt a dizzying heat press up along his back. It was accompanied by the most intoxicating smell that nearly had Rosie closing his eyes and groaning in delight. Rosie turned to look over his shoulder and nearly wheezed when he forgot how to breathe for a moment.
He quickly turned, holding onto the bar to keep himself grounded as he checked to make sure he wasnât hallucinating. In front of him was the most beautiful man Rosie had ever seen in his entire life. He was certain his mouth was open, face slack in surprise as he tried to blink away the mirage of the preternaturally handsome creature in front of him.
There was no way this man was real.
Eyes bluer than the sky peered up at him bashfully through impossibly long lashes as the plushest mouth in existence curled up on one side, cutting a precious dimple into the smooth cherub cheek closest to it as the vision said, âyouâll catch flies like that.â
Rosie closed his mouth and swallowed, his voice escaping him just like his breath as he tried to find anything to say in response to that whisky smooth voice that curled dangerously in his belly. The half smirk, stretched into a shy smile as piercing blue eyes continued to demurely peek up at him like this beautiful creature hadnât been the one to approach Rosie.
âCat got your tongue?â The man asked playfully and Rosie swore that voice was going to be the death of him if those lips or eyes didnât get him first.
Rosie finally choked out, from the depths of some unfathomable hell he never wanted to be privy to again, âare you a cat?â
The man leaned back in surprise, sweet smile twisting into an a confusedly amused pucker until he huffed out a shocked laugh, deep and rich despite it essentially being just a burst of air. Rosie wished he could drown himself in that scotch he had planned to order.
âOh what the hell am I saying?â Rosie muttered to himself, watching as the man abandoned all pretenses of what had to be flirting, despite how impossible that felt to Rosie, and leaned back on the bar with one arm looking terribly amused. âOf course youâre not a cat. I think I might be hallucinating though. Except my imagination is not good enough to conjure the likes of you. Does hallucinating rely on oneâs imagination though?â
Once Rosie started, he couldnât stop. He wasnât even drunk enough to justify his nervous rambling, but the word vomit continued to spill no matter how many alarm bells went off in his head.
A second, unbearably warm body pressed along Rosieâs back and he froze, all words halting in his throat, as he watched the man before him tilt his head back slightly to look up at whoever was behind him and seemingly melt into the bar he was leaning against. Rosie was too scared to turn around. If whoever was behind him was attractive enough to make the ethereal creature before him go loose limbed and content like that, Rosie was a dead man.
âBucky,â the golden haired Adonis in front of him acknowledged, an amused quirk taking over his pouting mouth. âI thought you wanted me to handle it?â
âWhat was I supposed to do Buck?â A delighted, rich voice, Bucky apparently, vibrated against Rosieâs back. âHe started blushing and I couldnât help myself.â
Rosieâs blush had been visible in this dark bar? He needed to vanish into thin air immediately.
The chest against his back vibrated again as Bucky asked, âdid you even get to the offer yet?â
Buck scoffed something about âimpatientâ with a find roll of his eyes. Rosie gulped nervously as he steeled himself and turned to look at Bucky.
âFuck me,â Rosie exhaled as he looked up into ocean blue eyes set in the most roguishly handsome face he had ever seen and seriously thought he might faint as he swore his heart stopped when Bucky let out a bark of a laugh and he only got even more attractive.
âWell weâre trying to,â Buck spoke up from behind him.
Rosie whirled until his back was pressed against the bar, caught between the two most unfairly attractive men in what had to be the world as he tried to find the air to just breathe.
âMy husband and I saw you from across the bar,â Bucky said, amusement still ringing clear in his voice. âWe liked your vibe.â
âWe were wondering if we could buy you a drink?â Buck asked, but it didnât actually sound like a question.
Rosie let his gaze drift from Buckyâs hooded ocean eyes to Buckâs smoldering sky blue eyes and knew. He might not know how to breathe or speak anymore, but no way was he letting this pass him by. Crosby was going to die when he told him tomorrow.
âIâd like that,â Rosie breathed, nearly collapsing when the angel and devil on either side of him grinned triumphantly.
He wasnât sure which was which.
Ahhh this was fun and Iâm going to leave it here⊠for now đ But just know that when they get back to Gale and Johnâs place, Rosie leaves them speechless when he sucks Johnâs soul out through his dick and fucks all the sense out of Galeâs head⊠they were not prepared for that nervous dork to fuck like that đ
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we had this um discussion today with the girls i'm doing the next social psych presentation with (i know right TWO presentations?? get off our asses) and well. i am not optimistic
#they're. they're nice. i just knew this would be difficult. and it has beenâ difficult that is#and this was just the first conversation#we need to actually finish it by sunday and present on tuesday. and we just don't even understand the topics in the same way#one girl is super quiet and never does much. the other two are confused but they don't seem to know it..#and i am usually not the person who's like ouogh i'm too smart for this lot#i swear i never do that.... but that was painful. i love these girls on a personal level but that was not pleasant for me. i'm sorry#đ#one of them had that misogynistic comment the last time that made my jaw drop btw. but that's behind us#i am scared though. how will we handle this#like. even if i could do it on my own and have an idea of what we should do they don't like. want to do that.#so...... tee hee!#i think i might be fucked i feel fucked. sorry for not putting more trust in them#kata.txt
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Peachy, my beloved, you missed so many.
First off, Eclipse Observers. This is my son. The guy everyone claims I am in disguise, that fucker. Fans of him want him to die again, want him to get a happy ending, or just like tearing into him because he's pathetic as fuck. So many "I always come back" jokes, and people like to take him and both put him in a blender and make him the blender.
Moon Cheesers. This is my other son. I will hear no slander against him. The name is because the moon is made out of cheese. Jokes on you if you believe that though because that's just a conspiracy theory and everyone knows the moon isn't even real. Most of us want him to get worse. Mostly so we can say we were right. Some of us are glad he's forming connections and somewhat learning how to function in a family unit without purely relying on Sun. For other's it's a mix of both, with apprehension that he's just going to start slipping back to how we met him, scared, paranoid, and lashing out at the only person he cared about because he didn't have a support system. Him and Sun were really bad for each other and a lot of fans of him love to exploit that in fics and fanworks.
Earth Lovers. These people are either down fucking bad for her, trying to justify her relationship with Monty, defending her rights to be respected as a woman, or trying to kill Monty and shipping her with literally every single character but Monty. I have seen some fun pairings for her. These people care the most about female representation and respect in this fandom and would rather eat a shoe than disrespect a woman. A lot of her newer fans have also found solace in disability representation in her.
Dazzle Holders. Hold gently like hamburber. Some of these guys just like child death let's be real (we are in the fandom that is a smaller fandom of the child death fandom so this is to be expected). Most of them just want her to be happy, safe and loved by her dad and all her aunts/uncles. She is an angel and saying otherwise is social death no matter what part of the fandom you're in.
Ruin Connesiuers. You either love or hate him and there's no in-between. A lot of his newer fans sympathize with his trauma and the fact that he did bad things in order to protect himself (woah who could have seen that coming -> has been screaming this from the rooftops since March). Older fans consider that to be a cherry on top and just like the fucked up lil guy. Ruin fans and Nexus fans have beef over who's worse. Dunno why they're both fucked up little guys in a youtube show but pop off chat.
Monty. . . Watchers. These people tend to enjoy really crude humor even if it doesn't fit the rhythm of the show and aren't able to understand, or maybe they just enjoy, how toxic all of his relationships tend to be. People who enjoy him past that tend to enjoy having a "good guy" in the show that's kind of a piece of shit 80% of the time and isn't someone that you can easily side behind without putting in the work into themselves. Also, they're so gender and gay for their wife; joy and whimsy on the planet Urath.
Foxy's Crew. People who love Foxy tend to be grouped with FC fans. He's the dad ever. He's also a semi-realistic take of a first-time parent in stressful situations trying to do the best he can. Again, the dad ever. He's a wet rat of a man and he is doing the best he can, and we love him for that.
Puppet Poppets. You know what she's a femme fatale, let her cook. She's tragic and a lot of people who really understand her character understand how it feels to have your childhood stripped away from you and be expected to handle responsibilities you weren't ready for. Her fanbase is kinda tragic like that. She makes mistakes and she's annoying and she's perfect actually, 10/10 stars, thank you Matt for giving us this wet mop of a woman. She's also gender so bonus points, 11/10 stars.
Astral Jury. Yeah that's right y'all are a fucking jury. (I'm on it too it's fine). It varies between "they're so pretty ough" and "I love how fucked up this is from the perspective of a human let them cook." People put them in situations a lot. We need more astral ships so like slay ig.
Cre-Daters. Why do you exist but also can you please come invade my inbox with why you like this fucking BRAIN. Some cre-daters mostly just like Sven. Other's like the brain. And the smart ones like Nao. I mean what, who said that. Trashcan man is grouped in here, that's his husband. Anyways moving on.
Solar Flare Protectors. THIS IS MY SON. AND HE IS PERFECT. I MISS HIM. I know like 3 people who love him enough to be considered a fan, including myself. The other two are @jackobbit and @deadbloodzero
Stitchwraith Babysitters. This is just @kenmarlenn. There are others but. This is just Ken.
I rest my case.
something I find funny is that within the tsams fandom, there are also little subdivisions of the tsams fandom.
there's the Lunar Freaks (I say 'Freaks' with much love). they simp for Lunar like no other and will defend him with their lives. they also like making him kiss as many astral beings as possible.
there's the Solar Enjoyers- who can commonly be found with the Jack Lovers. they're like a package deal. the Solar enjoyers simp over him and are prone to ignore his flaws (which like. fair tbh, joy and whimsy), and the Jack lovers just miss their boy.
the Bloodmoon Fiends are just over in the corner punching the walls and trying to escape their straight jackets, maybe biting on some raw meat too idk
the Sun Cult are spinning in a giant circle, half of them cheering and whooping for more angst while the rest of them are sobbing their fcuking eyes out
and. as a member of the Nexus Fanclub. I can just say there's like me and 9 other people here, we all see each other in the tags and wave at each other all the time, and we see you other cliques and point and laugh cause imagine having to worry about if your fave is gonna die or not lol (Note: the Bloodmoon Fiends are excluded from this)
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i legit love when a character's gender is so integral to their personality (and perception obviously.) like so concrete that if genderbent their whole shtick would just be absolute dookie. anyways i'm just writing this text so i can talk in the tags (My beautiful safe haven)
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#text#actually i'm thinkinbg about this only cus i'm drawing female neloff and i'm just like#Elder dookies fans already hate females..... imagine them tryign to handle a woman with NPD that is reaching toxic waste levels#old decaying female with NPD.#but i'm also drawing female neloff for fun cus i have an idea for a look; i don't think it's a good idea#and he is just one of those characters that feel very good in the strict cismale box.#i also feel silly talking about gender-anything in any fiction because that's a topic only Am*ricans with no real problems sweat about#if that makes sense#just not something that interests me in the slightest#actually this might jsut be fascinating 2me because it is interesting indeed to see the different ways narcissism is treated. in characters#if i keep saying females instead of women it's bc i legit love that word. Sorry#and el*nwen+ulfr*c too are those female+male respectively perfectly fitting characters too#but notice how i didn't say cis. exactly. i'm thinking about the person that said elly did his top surgery in the torture basement. 4 free#or maybe i said that and they jsut said they're both t4t. Mmmaybe#the absolute W we copped with elly being the ' ' Big Bad ' ' th*lmor as a woman who is just obsessed with the luxuries of life.#stereotypical high society woman#she's so cute#i might just be obsessed with exploring very traditional dynamics too. i love keeping it grounded yk#Me after reading too many geriatric centuries old novels and huffing copium on sk*rim#i think i legit hate having fun with wilder character personality-morphism (because it is useless) that's not working with what u have#i'm just saying things that will make sense only 2 me now. Bye#why did i develop interest-related nihilism that extends to me hating fantasy franchises and anything that isn't non-fiction#i love it tho makes me feel so sophisticated#this is what happens when nobody humbles you while you draw regurgitated glorified studentXteacher (with a medieval twist) for a year.#i'm so excited for the year to be over not bc it's bad for me but bc i wanna see what all of the n*lvas art i drew looks like together#i wanna compile it like i did with eltl in 2023#n*lvas been treating me so well though liek i've been at such an artistic Peak especially after may#i'm always at my artistic peak tho.#i have a picture of n*relion on my mspaint canvas and it keeps looking at me while i'm drawing . he scares me because who gave him -#- the t*lvas hairstyle and the n*loth beard Bro.
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Ben Solo is baby (honk honk), Daenerys Targaryen is the rightful queen of Westeros, Anders was right (bombing the Catholic Church is always morally correct), and Eridan has never done a single thing wrong thing in his life.
#ven talks#this fine 4 am I imagined how funny it would be to wrap up all of my most controversial character preferences into a single sentence#god. my vibes will seem so goddamn rancid after this one#idc though theyâre all hot shit and yall canât handle them cry about it#donât take it too seriously some of these statements are hyperbolic because we got sick of nobody wanting to have a nuanced conversation#ONLY SOME WILL UNDERSTAND#If you are all four of these lets kiss#haha jk⊠unless?#I was going to include solas in this but I fucking gave up my ass is sleeby#I also have mtmte daddy megatron thoughts but alas#I envy people who like the straight up villains because this shit is complicated and far more cancellabe especially with my chosen blorbos#might delete later I DONT want this reaching the wrong people LMAO#homestuck#eridan ampora#got#game of thrones#asoiaf#daenerys targaryen#anders#dragon age#ben solo#Star Wars#still scared to tag as *** but real ones will know who what when where why how etc etc đŹđș#might delete
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I was pretty proud of myself for getting through this day so well (first time one of our cats had to have surgery), BUT it's 4am and it's really hitting me now đ
#feel like I would be sobbing if my anxiety meds didn't make that.. not harder exactly just. less likely#and I also remembered that I did take lorazepam before going to bed last night specifically because I knew I'd be a mess otherwise...#but yeaaah I just wanna cry now#it's been so hard. the cat is fine. but he's got 20 fewer teeth now and it feels bad#he's in pain and he's grumpy because he doesn't understand why we did that to him and also his brother wouldn't stop hissing at him all day#because he smells wrong and that's been stupidly hard on me#like. those are my babies. they can't be mad at each other??? it scares me. it's not the way it is. it's wrong and I don't like it#also... if I'm being honest I was also quite unsettled by how different he smells so I can understand that. I don't like it but I get it#that's still your brother though you big dumb guy đ be nice to him he has barely any teeth left đđđ#I don't liiiike this#I hope they'll get along better again tomorrow bc seriously I can't take this. it's breaking my heart#well I wasn't a mess today but now I definitely am#AND I've got a fucking doctors appointment tomorrow đ so I can't even stay on the couch mindlessly watching YouTube all day#life is too hard and I am a big baby and I can't handle it#personal
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i dont wanna eat anything or do anything and i just wanna lay around but i also dont wanna do that and i dont wanna watch anything or read anything and idk what i wanna do
#i was supposed to have someone review my resume and i was banking on the fact that maybe talking to someone instead of being alone in my roo#would help me out but the whole appointment system maker thing was messed up so we couldnt even meet#so i literally hvae nothing better to do than wait the next few days to get back to campus#and i was soooo excited to go back to school and i still am cuz i know itll make me feel better being around people#but im just a lot less excited than i was#cuz i just really really hate the idea of having to spend another fall semester getting over someone#like i couldve probably handled spring semester. but fall semester???? when theres already enough desolateness as it is???#like i just hate hate htae the idea of being on buses and starting to cry again and its midnight at 4pm when im crying#and theres people everywhere and the wrost part is shes literally on the same campus as me!!! so now i might actually see her!!!#and i dont want to!!!#i want to be friends but right now i know if i see her again ill just start sobbing on the spot#i was so excited for thsi fall sem but now im just notttt#and i know ill be busier (hopefully) this sem so im sure ill be better off than last year#but still like. idfk i dont know what to do. i think i just need to hear someone elses voice#im supposed to talk to my friend later today so maybe thatll help#cuz im kinda ready to tell someone about it but what if she telsl me she cant call what am i suppsoed to doooo#cuz last year the person iw as getting over lived a bajillion miles from me so it was easier!!! but she and I live 5 mins from each other#AND SHES FREINDS WITH LIKE ALL MY ROOMMATES#THEYRE ALL HIGH SCHOOL FRIENDS !!!!#GODDDD.#i mean there are def upsides to this . for example its good we broke up now#cuz imagine if we broke up cuz of a fight and then thered be a big issue in the friend group#but it ended well and i dont think our friends / roommates will be 'picking sides'#as long as i just dont do anything drastic lol#adn who knows maybe our friendship will bounce back and i really hope it does!!#but she and i didnt start off as friends we kinda went into this knowing we were into each other to begin with#so like how do i be friends with her you know???#and friendship is soo important to me so its not like i dont want to be friends with her. i really really do. i just dont know how itll wor#like i value friendship over romantic relationships any day but also our relationship felt so deep to me#which is why im scared that we wont be friends even though i know we both want to be
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#tag talk#anytime my friends point out that something I say is good advice or express that they see me as aspirational I'm always just like....#wtf how am I am example to look up to I'm just an idiot bumbling his way through life trying to avoid hitting her head on cabinet corners#honestly it's mostly just seeing mistakes others have made and going âI will not make those mistakes. I will make weirder mistakes than that#like. it feels a little like the âI'm eighty years old I'm done with putting up with everyone's bullshitâ except it's#it's âI didn't kill myself so I'm not gonna put up with bullshit anymoreâ#like. I chose life. I'm not about to half-ass that decision. I'm not gonna walk back that decision. I'm not going to flinch away from it.#that fuckin... âwhat do we have to fear but fear itselfâ quote or whatever. like.. I died. you think anything else is gonna scare me?#if I'm going to be stuck here on this planet you bet your ass I'm gonna make the most of it. I'm not gonna be embarrassed. no shame.#we're all living here until we die and the things that matter are your own life and then the people around you.#I'm not going to miss out on a chance to find community and connection just because I'm afraid. I'm done being afraid.#though... I have been feeling shrimp emotions for the past two weeks and my stomach has tied itself up in knots over it.#I'm so detached because I'm afraid of feeling my emotions too strongly. so letting go and experiencing emotions is a lot for me.#and agghfffgghh I'm going to make it through this I'm going to make it through this but damn it's really rough#allowing yourself to get close to someone again after solidifying your position as unassailable is so hard.#especially because I've gotten so used to shielding the emotions of other people. hard to be honest when your honesty will hurt them#it's wild being around someone who's not wildly insecure because I can be genuine and honest and not worry about what I say hurting her.#I could say âI'm leaving in a year do you still want to date?â and trust that she would actually think it through and give a reliable answer#like. I can handle just my emotions because she's able to handle hers.#being in mental health spaces for so long I'm not used to interacting with emotionally stable people lmaooo#do you think I'm emotionally stable? I don't think I am. but then I meet other people who are wildly more unstable than I am and hmmm#like. sui wasn't an emotional choice it was a cost benefit analysis. I get emotionally unstable sure. but I contain myself until it's over.#I know enough to not be impulsive because I recognize impulsive behavior in others and thus in myself as well.#so like. I'm unstable but I'm not externally unstable. I know how to isolate when I'm in a wounded lashing out state.#anyway I've been processing so many emotions this past week because I'm wildly out of practice with allowing myself emotional honesty#instead of just bricking myself up behind my defensive apathy. I want to hold onto this. I want to continue to channel these emotions.#I want to be unafraid to tell people when I love them#though with her it's more of a Nerevarine situation. you are not someone I love but rather someone who might become that.#like. I haven't known her long enough to really say I love. but I very much think if things continue how they are I will be confident in it#and not even romantic love per se. I have some old friends who I genuinely love. several siblings who I love. most people I know I do not.
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I've been... Absolutely normal? After this breakup with the person that I really genuinely wanted to spend my life with.
It happened Friday night, I cried most of the night and a little on Saturday but then something just shifted and I've been like 99% fine and normally and happy since then? The only time the sadness has really hit me since has been thinking about how upset my (dying) grandma will be that she won't be able to know my partner. But otherwise? I got horrendously drunk on Saturday night, had tons of fun and was fine with a guy low-key flirting with me. Since I got thru the handover and sleepiness on Sunday I've been utterly normal, getting on with work, reading romance and enjoying it rather than being sad or jealous etc. The main stressor has been the number of deadlines I've had this week and trying to manage my parents' reaction and reassure them I'm fine.
It's not that I'm complaining I've not been truly and utterly crushed by the heartbreak, but I'm just weirded out by this reaction. I'm worried I'm bottling it all up and it'll explode later or that this is me sliding back into depression, but I'm still enjoying things and it doesn't feel like depression? Like have I actually reached that level of emotional maturity that I've dealt with everything (or most things) already?
He decided about a week ago that he didn't want to go through his early twenties having to factor someone else into his life plans. I understand it, I respect his decision, acknowledge that there's no use in trying to talk him out of it, appreciate the fact he told me as soon as he could in person so we ended the relationship still loving each other rather than growing apart and resentment building. I really can't stress how I've never loved or been loved by anyone like with him before and that he has been the most important person in my life for four years. Accepting that the life we were planning together has gone has seemed to happen so easily and it feels like something must therefore be wrong. It's helped that we haven't seen each other in person and haven't currently got plans to I guess because I think it's going to really hit when I can't be physically affectionate like before. But even with the distance I still just can't understand why I'm feeling so nothing about this. He brought up that he might want to break up in March and I cried far more than this. Have I been emotionally checked out of the relationship since then without realising? Am I just bottling stuff up without realising? I just wish I knew
#im very used to being alone#even during the relationship we were long distance for most of it and i was living by myself or with emotionally distant family#and last month i moved in with 3 friends and with uni starting I'm able to socialise more even though i still prefer to be alone a lot#so maybe its the fact that i dont feel so isolated that's helping?#even when we lived together i only really had my now ex around to turn to for friendship#also with university im so so overworked but it gives me structure#so im with friends and have a purpose#which is maybe whats holding me together#i think i did process a lot of this after we nearly broke up in march#i said to him months ago that I ultimately want him to be happy and if he decides that its not with me then ill hate it but accept it#i am also on a lot of adderall lmao#switched prescriptions today#anyway even if im slightly scared everything is going to explode out of me one day#i am still proud with how im handling this#i could have been so vindictive during the break up but i knew thatd only hurt him and that i dont want him to be upset#so i wasnt#there were a couple of times i said stuff that i could have left unsaid like how i had our anniversary card already written and in our desk#and i think part of me did want him to hurt at that but mostly because i wanted him to see how much i was? still petty I know#but also i think I'm allowed a bit of pettiness when im being dumped pretty much out of nowhere#idk man#its not bad necessarily its just weird#we said we'd talk on the weekend so the first convo post break up wouldnt become a Thing of who would blink first or whatever#and i want him to know im alright but i don't want it to seem like im bragging or that it means the relationship meant nothing to me#like hey I've lost the most precious thing we had together and actually it seems im fine without it#i really really hope hes feeling a similar way#our friend and my housemate went to visit him yesterday so hopefully hes let him know im coping fine so he doesnt have to feel guilty#i dont want him to be alone in a new house full of strangers and heartbroken#ive been telling our mutual friends to look after him and saying they really really really shouldnt take sides or anything in this#and i dont like thinking of him being sad and knowing there's absolutely nothing i can do rn to help other than giving him space#rambles
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#forgot i had one more uhhhh idk personal update post?#lemme give you a quick meaningless rant to bury the tags i want to be less visible#i think my mom's finally over the dementia hump and i am worried about how to handle that since i'm apparently#the designated problem solver for this family#but idk how to solve that problem idk what you do when someone has dementia and refuses to see it#like i have no problem financially taking care of it for her i just don't know how to social part of it works#anyway we had our monthly team meeting today#and my boss kept bringing me up!#he was very nice but also i'm easy to embarrass!#and it's setting off my weird neuroses where i convince myself everyone's gonna hate me#as soon as i stop being perfect#IN MY DEFENSE this truly happened a year ago!#so that is not me being paranoid...#my true goal in life is to find that ideal level where like...#i outperform your average person enough to be noticed#but not so much that i eventually burn out#and i fear it is unrealistic :(#BUT for now my two main projects at work are both department expo projects for our organization-wide presentation coming up#and they are watching far too closely to see if my proposal wins for my external project#so i am scared of crashing and burning#even though i've gotten almost nothing but positive feedback in my entire time here
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Bruh
#the way . I am crying over a pizza delivery driver dumping my pharmD ass#he was sooooo stinky i miss him đđđđđđ i knew he was going to end it i knew he would#be the one to end things I was head over heels but he was like đ§#I want him to bleed lowkey but i'm normal. He was a good guy just immature at times and i think he saw i'm a#cold stone bitch with her life together making 4x he does. so he was like Ok ur future is bright i dont#want to waste your time im not good enough. but its whatever I'm pretty cool and normal#Just been crying a lot#Its cool though. seriously.#I mightve posted about him once or twice Yes i hated him at first bc i was scared once i realized he isnt#scared of me being a bitch to him i was like Ok he seems to actually want to break down my emotional barriers Ok and i#fell in love... then he's like Nah. and Ii'm like Oh Yayyyyy#I serioisly dont know how anyone handles anything#it was literally only 5 months i met him via bumble and we just dated since then but like. Bruh if#it was 12 mknths? 2 years? 10 years? I would actually kill myself no joke#anyway Fuck my life i'm good tho I'll continue slinging norco and percocet and adderall XR and#he'll keep slinging out those amazing fuckimg breadsticks witht he homemade ranch đ„Čđ„Čđ„Čđ„Č I will miss the#pizza from.his job where he'd get 50% off for me equally as much as i will miss him Fr FR.
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jason todd with a partner whoâs afraid of guns
ft. gn!reader, mentions of guns (obviously), other weapons, potential home break ins, just jason being a little paranoid but we love him for that anyways
i imagine he would already have his vigilante and personal life very separate (he's just a guy :( who wants some normalcy and domesticity)
so i don't really imagine him letting his partner see much of his red hood persona
like he's not exactly bringing you to fights or anything even remotely dangerous
so, knock on wood, youâll never have to see him actually shoot anybody, but he will still try to find ways to keep you safe when heâs not there
probably soooo very very protective of you, like even if he was practically in love with you, would hesitate to start a relationship until he's sure that his enemies won't have a way to use you against him
he's going to like one safe house to store his stuff and then probably another one just to throw people off of his tracks before he heads to your place
i think if his partner wasn't afraid of him guns at home, like is just scared of handling them, he would probably have one on him when he's going home
to protect himself because he could be attacked anywhere and also in case something happens at home (his worst nightmare is walking home to an empty apartment when he knows you should be home and in bed)
and he normally would have a stash of weapons in the house, including guns, in case either of you have to defend yourselves
like preferablyyyyyyy he teaches you the basics like how to load a gun, turn the safety on and off, and shoot, but if not there are plenty of other weapons to choose from
and heâll let you know where they all are (itâs not hard, like youâll probably run into a few on accident throughout the day anyways) and will tell you where the guns are so you can avoid them if you so wish (heâll probably have them in case heâs home and needs them though)
super paranoid guy but considering everything he's been through and how many people he's antagonized in gotham, makes sense
however, if his partner is afraid of even having them lying around, he's definitely willing to make some changes. he still uses them while he's fighting, but subconsciously, he might be less likely to reach for them
he's not bringing any guns home (probably just settle for some knives, idk why but he seems like he would steal batarangs for funsies so he might have some on hand)
like heâll drop off his guns when he gets to one of his safe houses and then arm himself to the moon with other stuff (sorry again i fear he is a little paranoid but like itâs understandable)
as far as weapons in the house...i think he'll still have a few guns, just in case, but he'll make sure it's not somewhere you could easily find them, like if you guys both have your own offices then heâll leave them in his
honestly, for your peace of mind, he probably won't tell you the exact location, just lets you know that there are a few for life or death situations (unless you ask for the location, in which case he's more than happy to tell you)
so many other weapons though. i genuinely don't think he'd compromise too much on that one. again, if you don't like sharp objects or anything like that, at the very least, he is putting pepper spray in every room and a metal baseball bat
and probably some flares, smoke bombs, nonlethal stuff so you can run to safety if you don't want to deal with the assailant head-on, but best believe youâll know how to use all of them very well
and thereâs always self defence moves, although i think he prays that you never have to get to that point
why am i imagining jason practicing escape routes with you from different places in your apartment like it's some sort of fire drill
âokay pretend iâm the attacker and i come in through the window with a knife while youâre washing the dishes. what are you going to do?â
âcry?â
âno, sweetheart, remember, if youâre in the kitchen and they donât have any long distance weapons then you go with escape plan C.â
âbitch how tf am i supposed to remember all of the plans.â
HE DOES IT OUT OF LOVE
will actually stress tf out if you donât do it so uhhhhhhhhh yeah iâd start studying
will make you practice it every once in a while just to keep it fresh
and itâll be random too because âcrime doesnât give you a heads up in gothamâ
on the plus side if you have any weird requests heâll probably feel bad and do them
like if you want fresh flowers in the house at all times? babe, he was going to do that anyways. onlt the best for you
you want to decorate the house in whatever style you like? hereâs his card (being a crime lord does make good money)
doesnât matter if he likes it or not, itâs only fair. you get to decorate your place with cute throw pillows, he gets to hide a few daggers under the sofa, same difference
or like if you want his location at all times? and hourly check ups?
honestly, heâs touched that you care about his safety as much as he cares about yours. heâll make sure itâs encrypted so nobody can hack into your phone and see that, but heâs more than willing to whip out his phone in chasing down some villain to tell you heâs gonna be late for dinner or whatever
guys, at the end of the day, he just really loves and cares for his partner, and he'll do whatever makes you the safest and most comfortable
he has someâŠinteresting habits but itâs all to make sure you stay safe
and he makes up for it by bringing home little trinkets that remind him of you and planning elaborate date nights and all of that cute stuff to show how much he cares
and who knows, if you still remember escape plan p maybe heâll have a little treat planned!
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Mix Up (Spencer Reid x Reader)
Summary: Spencer sends the wrong note.
TW: adult themes, embarrassment
Word Count: 1499
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Everyone in the BAU contributed something to make the team feel like a family. Rossi opened his house and cooked for the team. Morgan and Hotch were always quick to praise a member for their accomplishments. Penelope always made sure that she had treats for anyone who might be having a bad day. You left notes for everyone. After each case, someone got a note, telling them how much you appreciated them and their contributions.Â
Last week, Hotch got a note. He tucked it into his bag with a smile before making sure to thank you and tell you how much you are appreciated on the team.Â
Today, it was Spencerâs turn to receive a note. The two of you had roomed together for this case, and you saw how much of a toll it took on him. He shouldnât say he is surprised to see a note on his desk, but he is.
Spencer,
I canât imagine how difficult this case was for you. You donât have to be brave all the time, yâknow. Itâs okay for you to be scared. You are human, even if you know more than a computer. I am so proud of the work you accomplished and more than grateful for it. Know that I am proud of you, always.Â
You are the person I can trust with anything. You are the only member of the team who I worry about, even when weâre not out on a case. Not because I think you canât handle yourself but because I know youâre worrying about all of us. Please, donât let me be the cause of any of your stress.Â
I wish I could keep writing, but I can barely keep my eyes open.
With love,
(Y/N).
He smiles widely at the note, tucking it into his bag before anyone else has a chance to see it. After all, you didnât write it for anyone else. You wrote it for him. You thought of him outside the case, and you thought that you wanted to make him feel good. The more he thinks about it, the more light-headed he becomes. He heads to the kitchenette, eager to get a cup of coffee and hide his growing blush.Â
Youâve left him five notes in the last year. Even if he didnât have an eidetic memory, he is certain he would have each word memorized. Heâs memorized every interaction youâve had with them. Though, he knows these memories arenât quite perfect. Every time a memory is retrieved, it becomes altered, and he has replayed every memory more times than he can count. Heâs replayed them, heâs altered them, heâs even added to them.Â
If he could bring you just a fraction of the joy that you bring him, he would be able to rest easy. The way his heart flips every time he gets a note from you gives him the perfect idea of how to please you.
When he gets home, he sits at his desk, trying to come up with something to say to you, but nothing feels right. How is he supposed to tell you how much you mean to him without telling you just how much you mean to him? Finally, he picks up his pen, deciding that if he writes a draft of what he wants to say first, heâll be able to write what he should say.
(Y/N),
You are more appreciated than you know. I love you more than you know. Yes, this case was hard for me, but the biggest challenge was sharing a room with you. Itâs always tough to sleep on cases, but how am I supposed to get any sleep when Iâm only a few feet from you? When, if youâd let me, Iâd be able to sleep in your arms? When Iâd be able to touch you, kiss you, fuck you?
God, itâs all I could think about. I shouldnât even tell you what I was thinking. Itâs not even just what I was thinking when we were on the case. I think about you constantly. I think of how kind you are, how much praise you give. I canât help but wonder if you would receive praise just as well. If, when I tell you that you were made for my cock, you would fall apart. If I could, I would give you all the praise in the world just to see you break, watch you come undone, on my cock, on my fingers, on my tongue.
I know you would taste incredible. What I wouldnât give to get even a taste. Though, I know I wouldnât be able to stop at just a taste. Iâd have to be selfish, and I know you wouldnât complain.
Spencer slides his chair away from his desk. He quickly folds the paper and sets it aside. Now that thatâs done, he gets to work on his actual letter. A much tamer, much safer for work, much friendlier letter that lets you know that you are appreciated.
Again, he folds the note, writing your name on the outside, and sets it aside.Â
When he leaves in the morning, he grabs the note off his desk, tucking it into his bag. He frowns, noticing that your car is already in the garage. He had hoped that he could leave the note on your desk as a surprise, but thereâs no doubt that youâre already working on your files. He decides that heâll drop it on your desk as he walks by then hide in the breakroom while you read it.
Itâs not that heâs embarrassed by what he said, and he meant every word. It just feels like an invasion of privacy to watch you, and heâs not sure how he would be able to carry on with the day if he saw even the hint of a frown on your face.
The elevator opens, and he sets his plan into motion. He unpacks his bag, sliding the note into his hand before walking past your desk.Â
âSpencer, you dropped something,â you call, but he keeps walking, and out of the corner of his eye, he watches you open the note. Thatâs when he realizes his mistake. Your name is nowhere on the back of the paper. He panics but keeps walking. What is he supposed to say? âSorry, that actually isnât meant for you, I mean it is, but you definitely should not be reading that, in a completely normal not creepy way.â?
He focuses on his coffee, He wishes the ground would open up and swallow him whole. If hwatching the sugar dissolve. Heâs lucky, heâll be able to hide in here all day and never have to look at you again.
Spencer Reid is very rarely at a loss for words. He can almost always come up with something to say. Now, as he walks back into the bullpen, he has no clue what he can say to you.Â
It appears that he doesnât have to. You arenât at your desk anymore, much to Spencerâs relief. He turns his focus to the papers in front of him. Files that normally wouldnât take him more than ten minutes are taking almost an hour. He doesnât look up until he hears a door open.
Hotchâs office door.
He closes his eyes, praying there isnât a case already. He doesnât hear Hotch. Instead, he hears footsteps walk down the stairs and into the bullpen. Hesitantly, he opens his eyes. You are getting settled at your desk.
No, no, no, no, no.
You did not go to Hotch after reading his note. You couldnât have. You would have talked to him before you got him fired, right?
âWhat was that about?â Emily asks you. You turn to answer, and Spencer is trying to listen, but Morgan grabs his attention first.
âWhatâs with you?â
âWhat do you mean?â
Morgan rolls his eyes. âIâm finishing these files faster than you.â
Spencer shrugs. âIâm just distracted, thatâs all.â
âHey, you know weâre here for you, right?â
âI know,â he answers, looking back at the file.Â
The day continues without you talking to him, and he sure as hell isnât going to talk to you. Since Hotch hasnât come down to fire him, Spencer assumes that his job is safe.
You get up around noon, stretching as you do. You grab your bag, a piece of paper between your fingers. You let it fall as you walk passed his desk. Spencer quickly picks it up, unfolding it.
Spencer,
Buy me dinner, and Iâll make sure you get something sweet.
He rereads the sentence over and over again. Heâs convinced itâs some sort of joke, but he holds onto the hope that it isnât and that he actually hasnât fucked this up beyond belief.
When you come back, you glance at him. If he wasnât a profiler, heâs not sure he wouldâve caught it, but you seem nervous. He smiles to himself.Â
#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid imagine#spencer reid x you#criminal minds imagine#criminal minds x reader
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Since your requests are open I'll help myself đ Gojo's wife starts to have morning sicknesses, so she suspects that she's pregnant. She takes a test and finds out that she actually is pregnant. Would u please write gojo's reaction when his wife tells his that he's gonna be a daddy? đ„șđ thanks you, please feed us with your delicious writing!!!
Also if you're not feeling well then please ignore this. Take care! Mwah^âą^âĄ
weight â gojo satoru x f!reader
a/n: I hope you like this, luv đ„șđ thank you so much for your kind words and take care of yourself as well! many kisses and hugs đ«¶
âshoko, I need a place to hide!â you say, bursting into the infirmary. you take the small moment of shock that shoko is in to take a much needed breath.
âwhat did you do this time?â
you wordlessly raise the pregnancy test with slightly shaky hands and upon seeing it, shoko drops the poor sandwich she was eating. you close the door behind you before sitting down next her.
she smiles, ânice, I am going to be an aunt,â then she looks at you confused, âwhy are you hiding though?â
âI need time to figure out how I will tell him or more likeââ you look at the ceiling, âface him. he will probably figure everything out with his six eyes, but I donât know how he will react,â you wrap your arms around yourself and shoko sighs.
âyou guys didnât talk about it yet?â she stands up and goes to get you a warm drink.
you gently rock yourself, âsatoru alreadyâŠhas so much on his shoulders,â you bury your face in your arms, âI donât want to add to that.â
she places the mug in front of you, âyou do know that he got into this relationship willingly, right? you didnât hold him at gunpoint or anythingâŠor did you?â
you lightly punch her shoulders, but you take the mug, muttering a small thanks, âif anyone was held at gunpoint then it would be me.â
shoko chuckles and pats your head, âyou need to be able to face him, y/n. he will find out anyway, and personally, I think you should have faith in his reaction more than that,â you lock eyes, âyou know him more than anyone else, after all.â
your gaze falls to your drink. its surface is so still until you softly blow and it ripples, calm the chaos.
what if you donât know satoru as much as you thought? what if having a kid will scare him away? as the strongest, your husband has so much on his mind 24/7. will he be able to handle a baby as well?
while a part of you tells you that your husband is no coward nor is he so fragile, the other canât help but think that perhaps this love story of 12 years will reach its end, a very tragic end even.
with the creation of a new life, ends a lifetime of feelings and events.
you snap out of your thoughts when you notice shoko shooing you into the closet room.
you hear the door open and you have a guess who it is. he makes himself known anyway, âshoko, have you seen y/n?â
shoko quirks an eyebrow and gojo huffs, âokay, fine, I know she is here, but is she mad at me? did I do something?â
you have a feeling that he is looking directly at your eyes even through the closetâs door as he speaks, ây/n, I will take you out anywhere. I donât know what I did, but let me make it up to you. I hate when youâre upset with me, sweets.â
he is frowning lightly as he stares at the closet with hope. shoko sighs before walking out of the room, but not without patting his shoulder.
the door closes and satoru speaks up again, âcan you please come out so we can at least talk about it?â
he hears your sigh and beams when you finally get out of the room, âthere is my pretty girl.â
he has a flower bouquet in hand and he is looking at you so intently, but you donât think he noticed the life growing inside of you now. he is far too focused on making you forgive him for whatever he did. you take a deep breath and look him in the eyes.
your hand moves and finally rests on your stomach.
his brows furrow lightly before his eyes widen. satoruâs breath hitches just like it did during your wedding. he places the bouquet aside before looking quickly between your eyes and stomach, âyou areâŠâ
you grip your own hands, nodding. tears start forming in your eyes till they finally fall and cries are what he sees now. your knees give out on you and you fall to the ground, now sobbing.
you are looking at the ground as you cry and hug yourself tighter, bracing yourself for whatever is coming.
satoru, almost instantly, finds himself on his knees in front of you.
his arms, like itâs second nature, pull you close into a warm and secure hug, âhey, hey,â he pats your back, a little clumsily, âif you donât want it then itâs fine. you know I care about you the most,â his voice shakes a bit, âdonât cry please, youâre breaking my heartââ
âI am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry,â you repeat a mantra of the same phrase as you pull him even closer. satoru cups your face and the moment youâre met with the pair of blue eyes you love so much, you break down more, âI know youâprobably donât want it butââ
he tilts his head, utterly confused and maybe even offended, âwhat are you talking about? of course, I want it!â
the room is silent for a moment as you process what he says. itâs like a massive weight has been lifted off your shoulders. you let out a shaky breath as you look down at your hands.
satoru rests his forehead on your own. his voice is soft and barely above a whisper as he speaks, âitâs our baby.â
the content smile on his face is almost unreal, âwhy in the world would you think that I wouldnât want it anyway?â and somehow the pout on his face assures you even more.
your arms wrap themselves around his torso and you rest your head on his shoulder, âitâs justâI thought it would be burdening you with yet another responsibility. you have the world on top of your shoulders. how am I better than anyone if I weigh down even if itâs a different type of weight.â
âis it a weight for you?â he asks, voice hushed.
âof course not! I wantââ you answer immediately.
âthere is your answer,â he chuckles and you look at his face once again.
you notice that he is tearing up. your satoru is tearing up, and the blindfold isnât there to hide it nor are the glasses.
his eyes never leave yours as he says, with no waver on his voice, âI would pick you over everything else, every single time and in every single universe, silly girl.â
âyou should know that already,â he flicks your forehead but the smile never leaves his face.
a soft laugh tumbles out of his lips as he pulls you in for a big bear hug, his form completely engulfing your own.
he fills tears stain his shirt, but he can only focus on your smile he feels on his skin and the fact that he voice out loud, âI will be a dad,â he sighs with contentment.
âand itâs all because of you,â he raises your face and nuzzles your noses together making you giggle, âwe're going to be parents, you sweet pretty thing.â
satoruâs lips find themselves on your own in one very sweet and loving kiss. itâs soft, light, and gentle. yet it conveys all the words that he canât get out at the moment.
when you pull away slightly, he quickly pulls you back for another, âI love you so much.â
he places a hand on your stomach, âand you too.â
âbut donât think I will share mama with you,â he sticks his tongue out at it, âshe is mine!â
the baby is not even out of the womb, and yet he is already bickering with it.
you laugh and your chest feel so light. you kiss his cheek and his pout turns into a grin almost immediately. you hum, âinfinity and beyond?â
his hand holds your own and he caresses your ring, âinfinity and beyond.â
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I love bombshell!reader omg theyâre so cutie. Im in an angst mood so imagine reader finally being hit emotionally hard on a case and asking spencer to stay with her in the hotel?? The rest of the team tries so hard to help but only Spencer can help her omg đ„č
thank you for your request ⥠fem!reader
Morgan has an arm around you. It's the first thing Spencer notices, and he thinks, Thank fuck. Thank fuck someone's holding you together. And then he thinks, Maybe I should be that someone.Â
He's never seen you shaking that hard. Your usual easy air, not unlike Penelope's, has shrunk to nought. There's no flirty smile sent his way as he approaches, no dramatic throw of Moran's arm. I'd never cheat on my baby, you'd say, though you and Spencer aren't really dating.Â
"You okay?" he asks.Â
Spencer feels powerless in the face of your despair. You're obviously not fine. Kids always hit you the worst, and so many? Your reaction is warranted if uncharacteristic.Â
You don't answer him. Morgan squeezes your arm and stands with a kiss to the top of your head. "I'll leave you in the best hands," he says in way of farewell.Â
Spencer sits in the space Morgan vacates, hand behind your shoulder, his fingers curling between your side and your upper arm. You've had blood wiped out of your eyes haphazard, crusting of crimson on your lashes like a morbid mascara. He feels like crying for you.Â
"Hey," he says, giving your back a slow, heavy handed rub, "Sorry I wasn't here."Â
"That's okay." Your voice is all shudders like a trapped moth. "I'm okay."Â
He steers your face to his with a cautious hand to look at you properly. With want of a better method, he takes your untouched water bottle and holds it to his sleeve, pulling it over his fingers while the fabric is still saturated to wipe away the missed blood.
You follow his touch, eyes closing with a quick, pained sigh. Like he's pricked you with a knifepoint.
"I know you think you have to be perfect," Spencer says, sleeve turning a dirty orange, "but this is enough to affect anybody."Â
"I am perfect," you say quietly. It falls flat.Â
Spencer cups both sides of your face. Your eyes flutter open at the feeling. "You're perfect. And a perfect person would handle this badly."Â
His hands look rigid compared to the soft slopes of your cheeks, but they're gentle.Â
Tears like silver line your eyes. You wear grief like everything else until suddenly you don't, a crack, a sniffle and you're turning your face into one of his hands desperately. Spencer knows what you need before you're moving, pulling you into his chest with a hand braced behind your neck.Â
"It's okay," he says, hoping that if he says it with enough conviction it'll be true. "It's not your fault. There was nothing else we could do."
You shake your head from side to side against his shoulder. "I should've been quicker. I knew what was going to happen, I knew. And I couldn't do anything about it, I couldn'tâ" Your sob is pulled from you on a hook, hard and sudden enough to end in a wheeze.
Spencer doesn't know what else to do but hug you and hope it calms you down. He's not used to being the most composed of the two of you, a disconnect between the salacious woman who hounds him relentlessly and the one who's falling apart in the circle of his arms.Â
You shake. Spencer rubs your back, shielding you from the cold weather until Hotch shouts for the BAU to fall in and get ready to leave.Â
"Will you stay with me?" you ask, pulling away from his chest reluctantly. "I don't want to be alone. The hotel's tooâŠ"Â
Spencer frowns, eyes closed, his face crushed to the side of your head. "Of course I will."Â
He knows what you were going to say. It's too quiet after all of tonight's noise. And alone, blaming yourself, he knows you'll scare yourself. Tear yourself to pieces. So Spencer sticks to you like glue from the SUV to the hotel to the jet the next morning. He'd do anything you asked him to do no matter how hard.Â
When you're ready, you'll fall back into your flirtatious routines. For now, Spencer takes your twitching hands under the table and holds them.
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