#i am kinda mad for june and bea though

[plaguethewaters]

actually not shutting up about this I am mourning the Rafael luna plotline. it was my favorite!!! of the entire book!! - not even mentioning June and her whole deal with retracing her parents footsteps and the problems she has with following her dreams, or Alex and law school, or Nora and her actual fucking personality that doesn't really shine through at all in the movie (no numbers, really?), or Ellen's actual parenting and care for her children, or Bea and her struggles with addiction, or Catherine and her overwhelming grief - but Rafael!! my boy!!!

Like for one, Alex most direct connection to his father's family and heritage. Another immigrant poor kid pushing himself above and beyond, after horrible sexual harrasment and everything a gay man of color would suffer in a position of power - and something that Alex saw, and for once thought it was someone like him, and that he could do the same for another kid down the line. Like that's one of the main reasons Alex went into politics in the first place and such an important part of his character methinks.

And then it also hits Alex in his hopes, and his kinda idealistic and naive view of the world - the betrayal, it's consequences and it's causes, kinda show him the grittier, uglier side of politics, and that the world isn't always filled with people that want to do good. And then!!! the realization also helps him realize things about how he views himself and his own future, which all turns into the law school thing that I'm mad aren't there.

I'm not.mad about the movie btw I loved it - all the actors put in their very fucking best and Zahra is in my dreams rn. But like. this is why I kinda wanted it to be a serie and not a movie y'know? Obviously for the movie they chose to focus on the main characters, but I feel like that comes at the loss of many others - mainly female ones, and I don't think that a coincidence y'know.