#i am dying about Seven Suitors Georg because GOD yeah. specifically chapter 6

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Ok so i made stats for your AO3 works and, as of March 28 2022, you have published 1,306,634 words on AO3. On average, your chapters are 3047 words long (excluding outlier Seven Suitors Georg, with 10,000 words/chapter). I did this for an essay on the concept of intrinsic human laziness. Basically i'm using fan communities as an example of how people can work hard on stuff just because they like it / for praise & a sense of community. So ye ur awesome ily & if u want more detailed stats just ask

Oh wow wow wow, I'm extremely touched that you used me for this! I don't talk about this as much on my tumblr anymore (I now just stump hard in the obiyuki discord about it), but I was misdiagnosed in grade school with what at the time was called a "processing problem." It took me about 20 years to find out-- after researching it myself-- that what that truly meant was "you have ADHD but it's the 90s and you're a high-achieving girl." So I had more than a few decades to internalize a lot about my inherent "laziness," and only about a quarter of that time to start unlearning it.

I started writing for fandom as a whole-- and AnS in specific less than a year after that. I wrote a lot before that-- all original stuff, things that generally didn't get shared because they were unfinished, and no one's really interested in reading an in-process novel. Part of it was that I needed a break from being in my own box, and part of it was that I knew if I wanted to do writing as a career long term, I had to both get used to scheduling time to write, and feel LESS performative pressure doing so. Seven Suitors was the first thing I've finished since high school; a huge achievement for me, since I always assumed that I couldn't finish things. That I could never write enough think to his the 200K that the genres I typically read required. SS by itself was under that, but it was definitely a huge day for me to hit that number...and it took a lot less time than I thought.

I hit 1 Million words right before the end of 2020, which was a huge milestone for me, especially since I spent a good part of that year either hospitalized or in recovery. There are days where I definitely feel like I'm not getting as much done as I used to; I used to be able to turn around 1.5K fics in a single day, and although I enjoy my process and my product more that I don't, it's hard to not compare to when I was younger or healthier.

In any case, it means a lot to me to be thought of someone who is productive-- when you spend so much of your life being the lazy one, it's hard to realize when that isn't true (and sometimes that it never was). I've been STARTING to get into looking at my statistics by trying to track my year-by-year counts-- AO3 kinda borks those by not tracking by chapter and rolling over whole fics-- so I would LOVE to see any other stats you've done!