#i am doing well and not vibrating on all frequencies rn or anything

[diamondcitydarlin]

I know we're about to get into the discourse and discussion for a new ep so lemme get this out while it's on my mind, but I keep turning over that convo they have in the flooded basement while getting Colin and like, the structure of it, I guess, bc as always there's a lot they're saying without saying it all outloud. Like, I notice Nandor only insults Guillermo for the first time in these two eps after they start their argument and Guillermo's asking him (rhetorically, because of course he doesn't know) if he's aware he's had to miss his mother's birthday for the past 3 years on account of him, and Nandor rallies back, "No?? why would I know that? I'd have to know it was your mother's birthday and also the things you do", openly implying he doesn't care about that as if to directly counter Guillermo's mention of other people he may care about more than Nandor that he's been neglecting with something equally cutting. 'Oh you don't care about me?? Well see how little I care about you!!' sort of thing. And then sort of out of nowhere (tho the wives were mentioned earlier, but still) Guillermo reminds him he's very very cool and normal and 100% okay with Nandor getting married to someone else, under the pretense of setting up to remind him that despite this he's still neglecting his family, but before he can get to that, of course, Nandor cuts in with how sarcastically glad HE is that Guillermo is COOL with it, see we BOTH don't care about each other, hah, take that.

Like I said, it's just interesting to me for how much is being said in these little petty insults and catty comments thrown back and forth under the guise of trying to prove how little of a shit they give about each other because they're both actually so vulnerable and in love with each other they're too afraid for the other person to know and see the full extent of that, particularly when one perceives that they're being slighted/ignored/insulted by the other

They're really doing the exact same thing in just kind of an endless feedback loop. I feel like Nandor does this because of the way the centuries have rendered him insecure about a lot of things, and I feel like Guillermo does it for partially similar reasons, but I feel like this is also kind of his instinctive reaction to feeling hurt by someone he assumes is as oblivious as Nandor, certain he wouldn't understand or wouldn't care if he just told him how he felt outright, so he gets passive aggressive. (but I also kinda feel like Nandor learned from Guillermo a bit where this is concerned, bc I don't think he started doing the backhanded/passive-aggressive comments with the sly look at the camera until more recently in the narrative but i could be wrong)

I feel like there was a time Nandor insulted Guillermo inadvertently, but the nature of their dynamic and how they've both grown is such now that when he does it, he does it on purpose and usually because he perceives Guillermo's already done it to him.

so yeah passive aggressive fighting while dancing around deep seated romantic feelings is something that can be so personal actually

[modx-reborn]

bro... eret brainrot rn.... imagine being their secretary/assistant, and she LOVESS TEASING YOU,,, like plugging a vibrator in you for the whole night, while you try to work out paperwork, asking questions and making you answer them even though he knows you're too overstimulated,, LIKE "oh? can you speak up a little bit?" and you just try to babble your answer while she takes out the controller and makes it go faster, smiling at you whos bent over and crying, wringing out another orgasm. - 🍰

...🍰. Yes, yes, and yes.

Sure you had a role and employ in the castle, seeing to meeting agenda and planning out the weekly to do, but most of the other staff knew there was more between you and the king, all having caught the way their gaze followed you wherever you went. Hands lingering when they shouldn't, leaning so close that their lips brush your skin, laughing in a voice deep and akin to velvet, but this, this was above and beyond what had been before.

It was a simple catch up meeting that had gone astray, feelings boiling over as you could feel their eyes on you, watching as you shuffled papers and shivered when they reached across their desk, fingers brushing against your cheek, that deep laughter once again filling the air as you press, seeking an explanation for their actions, hoping beyond hope that just maybe Eret was interested in more than just teasing.

Oh, how that hope had been met.

Bent over their desk, pants left forgotten around your ankles as long fingers dip in and out of your hole, prodding and searching for that spot that would have you arching into their touch, leave you moaning their name and possibly even begging for more as they press against it.

Only the moment you do start to buck backwards their fingers are slipping from you being replaced by something cooler, firm and seeming impersonal, only when you lift your head to cast a look over your shoulder one of their hands is in your hair keeping your head still and facing away from them. The only other noise in the room is your whines, but those are quickly silenced by a buzzing noise so faint against the feeling that comes with it.

"Now my dear, I do believe we needed to discuss the coming meetings for tomorrow, and perhaps even a shift in a member of staffs quarters if they act to expectations, they have been so well behaved and I am thinking something a little closer to my own rooms would be better don't you think?"

When you go to respond the toy in you amps up, making you shiver against the feeling, words getting lost in the hum from the king and your own panting. Hands shaking as you try to do as you had been told, eyes slightly unfocused as you shuffle the papers passing one you hoped was the right one over your shoulder as the toy moved in you, Eret having moved so that their thigh was pressed against it, keeping the toy seated inside you.

This continues, each question you try to answer with more than a moan, whine or pant is met with the toy buzzing to life with more and more frequency. Even as your thighs have become a mess and the King's pants must clearly be soaked with your release they continue, asking question after question with little care for how you had become nothing more than a shaking form pressed to their desk, mouth open and hair a mess from how you had been jostled as Eret had taken to bouncing their thigh on occasion, fucking the toy into you as they did.

"Well? This meeting has mostly been me speaking endlessly to your silence, don't you have anything to say on these plans? Or is everything in order? Well Speak up my dear, I would so hate to drag things out beyond what they need to be."

[glamorchild]

Why you are prob not seeing your manifestions/not having your manifestions

Have you ever done EVERYTHING right? Read and learn about the law of attraction…many times? Did everything in order but still… Didn't get results of manifestations? Or mindlessly saying affirmations over and over until you cannot process? Here are some reasons why you're not seeing your results! It is STILL possible to get your desire, as long you keep on persisting, but the lack of it still.

A secret hidden limiting belief is still in your subconscious mind.

Ever since birth, parents, or adults or anyone you have been listening to have literally craved up your subconscious mind to do things quite normally. Example: say that your friends always called you ugly and always unworthy? What are you going to think now? Unworthiness and full of self-hate! Boohoo! No one wants that. Now say if I told you want to manifest your dream life, head to the bottom, you would say yes. But if I told you would and are you capable of receiving your desire, would you say no because of that limiting belief? Probably.

Now imagine your self manifesting a s22 phone. Putting hard, sweat and tears to manifest it. Guess what? You got a s10. Bummer ey? Now you start to complain why you don't have that or even asking ''did my manifestion went wrong?'' Complaining of the things you DON'T have is going to ATTRACT the things you don't want. Complaining the things you DO HAVE (law of assumption) is going to ATTRACT the things you want.

Yes, it is really easy to get into such ''am I really fit for this?'' or a repetitive matter, you're not the only one. You can easily break this habit of actually learning how to stop this limiting belief and wash it away for GOOD.

They're many ways to fix hidden limiting beliefs but one way that help me (and I promise is going to work for you too) is persisting on your manifestion [persist: continue firmly or obstinately in an opinion or a course of action in spite of difficulty, opposition, or failure.] I literally persist on having my manifestions even if I don't get what I want. Why? I can still have the s22 AND s10 at the same time. It's like that ''I'm not going to stop until I get what I want'' mindset. You are actually BELIEVING in your self because you know you will get it. Who's going to stop from reaching my desires? WHO? Tell me one person, RN. even if you're not going to get exactly what you want, are you going to stop your manifestions because of it? NO!

Neville Goddard once said in '' imagination creates reality''

Finally, you must be persistent in attaining your desire. Continue to imagine what you want until you have actually obtained it. You do nothing else to obtain your desire. If it is necessary to take some action, you will be led to do so in a normal, natural manner. You do not have to do anything to “help” bring it about. Remember that it is God, Himself, who is doing the work, and He knows exactly how to accomplish it. If you think of your desire during the day, give thanks that it is already an accomplished fact – because it is!

Affirmations for limiting beliefs

I will get my desire no matter what happens

I am capable of getting my desire

3d does not stop me from getting my desire

Limiting beliefs are not in my system at ALL

My mind is divinely perfect that my manifestions come in lighting speed

Your vibrational level is low.

Yes, I know what you're thinking. What the hell is 'vibrational levels?' and why is it so important? Well, us human bodies actually have a frequency levels as this can affect our mood and your mindset (I'm still learning about frequencies) everything in life always have to do with matter. (not me in my science era)

HIGH VIBRATION: lighter, happy, more energized and seeing more signs from the universe/god/divine realm.

LOW VIBRATION: more fragile to sickness, tiredness, low in energy, more self-hate, greed, selfishness, green-eyed etc.

Your vibrational levels are IMPORTANT to your manifestions because guess what, universe/god/divine realm only vibrates at YOUR level. Now, if you're mad all the time, what happens? The divine realm is going to give back the anger vibrational all the time. If you're happy, generous pretty much all the time? What happens? You're going to get people that are generous and happy too.

its a quite easy/hard way to fix low vibration! and no, not with the 7-day gratitude (you can do it if you like, but rlly time-consuming) to fix a low vibrational, try to go out more in nature, appreciate the little things (seriously…! This life is too short for us) smile and laugh more and put your self in a crowd that makes you feel you. Not what Petra and levi says SHIT abt you (sorry aot fans) or listen to frequencies on yt! The best yt channel is meditative mind! or even listening to the best songs on earth. I'm telling you right now, when no one is in my room, I just start playing music. did you know music have frequencies in them? that's why you can feel any feelings while listening.

Having doubts/negative talk of your desire

I've been hearing ''WRITE IN YOUR JOURNAL FOR GRATITUDE! GET RID OF NEGATIVE TALKS BLAHBLAH'' just shut up for a moment. A lot of mistakes that happen in the manifestion community is literally convincing your self that you can not have any negative thought. It's so possible just for a one negative thought to just pop up in your mind, and that is OK! literally oml. Human doubt is so normal, sit down and relax!

I could be literally be doubting if my manifestion is coming but still, persisting that it's going to work either way. but the only thing bad about having doubts is letting your own thoughts control YOU. why would your own self-thoughts literally control you? if you stop believing your desire is not going to come true in thin air, it wouldn't even come. there is a saying that ''your own state of mind create your reality''. and it's true, even the most famous master manifestor AKA Neville Goddard, have even said it himself.

''The sooner that man rids himself of the belief in a second cause, the sooner will he realize that nothing happens to him except that which originates in his own consciousness. I do not deny that a man believes that if he contracts a certain germ or virus that he will manifest a particular illness or disease. If he contemplates the cause, he may conclude that it is because he came in contact with someone else who had the bug. He doesn’t realize that in some way, his own feelings about health or illness attracted the illness he is experiencing. If viruses or germs were truly the cause of disease, everyone who came in contact with a particular virus would be affected. The outer world merely reflects that which a man is in his own consciousness.''

this quote states about how your own beliefs can attract what you're thinking about. it doesn't matter if the 3d gives you a bad life, bad friends and poor in money; what matters is YOU. would you let your OWN LIMITING/NEGATIVE TALK ruin your life forever? no! like I said, even if I have doubts on my own manifestion, would I let that stop me? PERSIST AND PERSIST ON HAPPENING. NO ONE ELSE IS YOUR CREATOR BUT YOUR SELF!

to get rid of negative talk/doubt, try to backhand it and convince your self from doing it. (I don't know if backhand is the right word but kk)

I could literally tell my self ''I'm pretty'' and my mind says ''no, you are not shut up''. if you are experiencing this, just say ''no YOU shut up. everyone is obsessed w/ me and I know I'm attractive.'' just tell your self affirmations and listen to self-concept subliminal (the BEST MAKERS ARE BAEJIN CAFE AND SLATER. GO CHECK THEM OUT!!)

that's all it for today since they're way many more reasons why you might not have your manifestion. the best way to get rid of them is not paying attention to at all. you shouldn't be always looking for results every 1–2 seconds because… are you really questioning your own manifestion power? tell yourself you're an MASTER manifestor. YOU CREATE ANYTHING IN an GLANCE.

light out! i am glamourchild! see you all next time!

feb-23- to feb-25-2023