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[joocomics]

idk if youre taking headcanon requests but i just cant stop thinking about members of xdh having a strength kink. some of those boys be working out every single day. what are they prepping for? to throw you on the bed?? i wish!

who would be most into strength kink?

gunil definitely has the highest strength kink, it's tied to his dominant nature and how much he enjoys having his body worshipped - and when you scream, gasp and whimper from how his muscles treat you, it feels almost as good as when you worship him with your mouth. i've said this before, but gunil manhandles you so well to the point it seems like you don't have a single bone in your body. you're his doll that he gets to adjust, bend, shift and flip in different provocative ways that he enjoys to look at. but they also feel amazing, because he's always striving for the perfect angles and deep thrusts. this is why i believe he's the best at quickies, because no matter the place, the time and the overall circumstances he can always make it work - fast and as comfortable as it can be. he can fuck you while holding you in the air; while supporting you as you squat over his lap in the car; while you're placed on the sink in the club... his strong heavy hands always got you. he loves seeing the marks of your nails and teeth all over his biceps afterwards

jungsu cannot hide his strength kink even if he tries. he gets the most intense butterflies in his tummy when you look at him in awe whenever he picks you up from your seat to take you to the bedroom. and that's something casual and simple; when you're actually in bed and you start swooning at his strong grip and hips; when you start sinking your nails in his back and when you start drooling on his shoulder... he gets soo heated in the best way possible. (if you don't ask, he may not dare throw you on the bed, but it would be really hot damn). he gets so lost in the moment and how fragile you look beneath him that whenever you moan louder he moans too. with each reaction you give him he turns more needy and just cannot suppress the sounds in his throat nor the way his fingertips start leaving marks across your skin as you beg him to go harder. but he never misses to check on you, to ask how you're feeling and remind you that he'll always take care of you

seungmin has strength kink and it's crazy how it can feel sensual and rough at the same time. i think one of his favorite positions is definitely when he’s spooning you - one arm around your shoulders; bicep pressing beneath your chin, his fingers are tangled with yours romantically as his hips slowly bump into your body, causing your moans to slip shakily. until he swiftly moves on his back with your arching spine on top of his chest so he can fuck you harder. he only needs to lift up your lower half and keep it in the air till you cum. switching all kinds of positions is an effortless task for him and his grip is gentle till it needs to tighten so you stay steady for him. because he knows how much you love the sight of his arms flexing and his veiny hands roaming all over your body he often positions you in front of a mirror so you can watch yourself meltdown in his strong embrace

jooyeon has strength kink just not as intense as the previous three. but he gets very turned on when he sees the surprise on your face every time he uses his strong grip on you. so it's more about how you react then how it actually feels in the moment. when he holds you down to keep thrusting restlessly into you. when he locks your wrists behind your back. when he pulls you by the legs or by the roots of your hair and you let out an excited gasp. when he fucks you in a headlock and notices that your breathing comes out hitched and restricted and he has to loosen up his arm around your neck. all of these moments happen unintentionally and he doesn't think much of them until you have a clear reaction that boosts his ego pleasantly. the effects of your moans, erotic smiles and all the compliments about his body and strength you throw at him stay lingering in his mind after you're done

[moonliched]

I just got around to reading the newest chapter and as I’m giddy as always about the celestial fish <3. I am also fighting for my life over here with the Eclipse crumbs :’)

I have a few questions, though, and a lot of thoughts (and feel free to just not answer them if it’s lore or gonna be revealed sometime).

1: Sun is using distinctly British English terms.... why? (Not a bad thing!! Just weird for me bc I hear it so much irl but have never actually seen someone write with it so it stood out more and I’m curious)

2: Is Y/N actually infected with something?? The weird glowing dust on their bed reminded me of like,, spores and the like. And follow up:

2.5: Chica scanning them “secretly”. Freddy and Chica seem to know a bit more than they’re letting on, and there’s been a lot of talk about sickness and infections (I think. If my terrible memory isn’t making stuff up again). Was Chica actually telling the truth about looking for a temperature and the lie was actually by omission (because she’s also looking for something more than that, but a temperature is just a symptom)?

3: Does Y/N have the same body temperature as a human, and if not, would Chica know that?

!!Rambling incoming!!

Related to the potential spores and possible illness, there are lots of things that need a higher temperature to start growing, and the base has been at Y/N’s preferred cooler temperatures for a while until the Glamrocks showed up. Also if their recent behaviour (poor sleep, anxiety, shorter temper(?)) can be attributed to some kind of infection, Vanessa seems to be suffering from that kind of stuff too. Maybe she has it??? Also also, something had to wipe out all the mers, and a dangerous illness that spread through them fast and was able to grow quicker in warmer waters, leaving only a few with a built up immunity, would’ve definitely been enough to reduce a population.

Sorry. I’m just loving this fic so much. It’s a lot of fun, and I really appreciate you taking the time to read this, and, if possible, respond :)

:))))))) i'm happy you're enjoying💗💗💗 [offers you a handful of celestial fish arranged like a bouquet]

1: i live in the UK lol so i guess that'll come across in my writing😋 i can't say much without getting into spoilers territory, but the main factors of Sun and Moon speaking 'ancient English' is that it's English from our time period-ish give or take several decades, and they have American accents. though i haven't stated either explicitly. so why not a little British vocab sprinkled in there?

2: Y/N is infected😣

2.5: yes, exactly! Chica likely would have tried to get more in-depth data on Y/N's health if she wasn't avoiding catching their attention at the time. she was trying to be sneaky... which didn't work

3: spoilers :3

ahskdjshjsdhjss kicks my feet☺️💕 LOVING the rambling and theorising, thank you for the thoughtful ask! i hope you enjoy everything else to come💕

[girlfriendsofthegalaxy]

tuesday again 3/21/2023

i didn't want to sit down and write this bc i was having too much fun playing viddy gaem

listening

IT'S QUICKER AND EASIER TO EAT YOUR YOUNG!!!

"i'm starving...darling,,," is very sexy but the way the lyrics slowly slide into something more and more horrifying until the chorus hits??? mwah. lovely.

my one critique is that this song is...breathy, for lack of a better word? does not showcase the man's magnificent pipes. oh well! there are other songs.

how'd i find this: im gay, also he is one of the most popular indie artists in the World. his first album went platinum six fucking times.

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reading

i read all of frank miller's sin city bc im on a noir kick and i didn't have a good time. the closest i got to fun was (deadly little, always described as "deadly little") Miho, a mute japanese??? generic asian??? assassin who is tits out not in these panels but in almost all others, rollerblading around mowing down guys with her katana. that was a painful sentence to write.

i read a lot of genre fiction. i read a lot of older genre fiction. they are not written with me, a bisexual "woman", in mind. and that’s ok bc not everything has to be written with me in mind. rarely have i read something that is more For The Boys Only!!! than frank miller’s sin city. felt kind of gross and a little put off the whole time i read these and they made me a little bit upset and afraid of men in a way i have not felt since high school. now it does feel odd to go “i didn’t think this noir was very pleasant >:(“ but miller’s work feels unpleasant and distinct from, say, chandler or hammett in a way i am still having trouble articulating. it is possible that the misogyny in chandler is a flavor i already know and barely register the taste of anymore. it may be that i got tired of looking at miller's women with twelve-inch waists and nipples as full and perky as their mouths.

mostly i think the labor market in sin city is super fucked up. women in sin city exist to have their value extracted from them in a way that is different and worse than normal capitalism. like, i can see how someone would read these comics and go full SWERF. women are literal trophies, both arm candy and in a very upsetting trophy hunting way. especially in the final volume, women are machines of potential profit. aside from one landlady and one cop and one child who grows up to be a prostitute, all the women in this whole city seem to be prostitutes or prostitutes who have married up and out. like there aren’t really even any women on the street just walking or in diners. it’s all dudes.

this is probably a comics vs novels thing, but miller is often sadistic in a way that chandler is not. a guy dies on a page to make cool art. they fuckin mow through dozens of goons a volume. if a guy dies in chandler it’s usually bc chandler's philip marlowe has stumbled across a dead body accident and it becomes a tremendous pain in order to tip off the cops that a body needs retrieving without getting framed for the kill. marlowe (and by extension chandler) is a people person-- he is a detective bc he likes figuring out what makes people tick. he is alert and it's hard to get one over on him but his resting state is congenial. despite his job, he still does believe in the concept of justice.

sin city (more of a comment than a question) says "if people piss you off you should kill them." this is not to make light of the very real Situations that protagonists in sin city find themselves, but there are very few problem solving skills on display other than "apply dick" or "apply gun". VERY RARELY, "apply pussy". that last one almost never works out tho.

aside from All That, it does contain some of the best straight up art (not just comics art) ive ever seen. the command of light and shadow is incredible. the command of negative space is incredible. panels aren’t busy unless they’re showing the chaos of a scene. he doesn't draw every single brick bc that's not important to the scene. it’s really quite stunning.

also the MOVEMENT in this fringe is incredible. do u see what i mean about the nipples tho

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watching

i gotta lotta fuckin bones to pick with the manda/lorian but they're all spoilery. this shit fucking sucks man. it's twenty fucking twenty three we have had well over a century to master storytelling through the art of the moving image.

all three eps so far have felt very weirdly edited-- like a lot of changes happened after filming and there wasn't enough time for pickups?? this is a gajillion dollar show just reshoot some shit on your little fake stage i am Begging you. at least bo-katan looked hot. god she's awful i love her

again again i say to ye, what if star wars was good? i am slightly terrified that andor may have ruined me for any s/tar wars that follows but by any metric these first three s3 mando eps are simply not good television.

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playing

ty @pasta-pardner for gifting me Weird West some weeks ago bc it is the new thing i am obsessed with. this first trailer gives a better sense of the Vibes than the launch trailers imo

i find it is scratching a lot of the rpg itches that new vegas does: you wander around beautiful western settings running into weird shit, followed around by a hot butch you've recruited to your cause. unlike new vegas, it is a little less forgiving and you have to really scrap and loot everything that isn't nailed down.

this is a top-down action rpg with a weird little aiming system that is sort of a 3D twinstick? it takes some getting used to, and shooting is not the part of any game i am particularly good at. here's xbox wire's screenshot, which gives a good idea of how isometric it is and what enemy detection looks like. i do wish i could expand the minimap, bc some of the locations like mines or bigger towns can really sprawl.

i have one big annoyance bc it is a thing that made me take a break and sulk for a bit: as you're traveling across the map (not open world, location-based), you can run into Travel Encounters. you can decline to engage with some of them. you cannot save within or between the encounters unless you stop and make camp. if you're on a long journey to a different corner of the map, you might run into three Travel Encounters. if you die on the third, you are catapulted back to your starting point. this is tremendously annoying in the early game, so either take short trips or get good at about-facing and exiting areas quickly.

a writer i admire likes games that let him tell stories about what happened in the game to other people-- this is a game that very much facilitates that. i was ambushed during a Travel Encounter by the some outlaws, bc i accidentally let one escape while i was trying to collect a bounty on his boss, and that specific named grunt came back with a Vendetta. but! i met a dying outlaw from the band who kidnapped my character's husband in a different second encounter, swapped some bandages for a treasure map, and he is now a Friend for Life. so he showed back up to help me during that ambush AGAINST FELLOW OUTLAWS WHO SEEM TO HAVE SOME SORT OF MEMORANDUM OF UNDERSTANDING??? mWAH. DELICIOUS. LOVE SYSTEMS INTEROPERATING.

ive put like six hours into this, and it has five chapters with five different characters. i have not progressed past the first chapter bc i am having so much fun poking around. i am so so so grateful that the first character is a wife seeking revenge and not the other way around. ppl are throwing big baby tantrums in the steam forums about this but you know what? some husbands should be macguffins sometimes. widens their perspective.

i am fascinated by the drips and drabs of lore this game is feeding me. there's an order of witches with huge underground temples that (crucially!) they did not build, but have adopted for their own uses without really understanding who built them and why. i want to know so much more about their whole shit. there are werewolves but idk what their deal is bc i haven't met any yet.

i am a simple woman! i only demand perfect cowboy western-flavored rpgs and so far this is holding up. i will have more thoughts as i go along but goddamn is it fun to play. we truly do love a competent little rpg with interesting lore and good stealth mechanics that lets you loot everything in sight.

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making

mostly fallow week, wrists hurty

made this tuna-chickpea salad for lunch. it is quite rich for a lunch. there are a lot of components that may be challenging to digest all together for a milennial with tummy troubles.

this would have definitely been improved by solid instead of cheap chunk tuna (or salmon. this would be great with canned salmon) and if i actually chopped the baby spinach instead of going "it's fine" and flinging it all in. or maybe wilting the spinach, but that's a lot of extra work and this would be a very warm, wet salad :/ the point is the chickpeas really want to sink to the bottom. i like that there is no cooking involved, only assembling, but realistically i have only half of these ingredients in my house at any given time. screengrabs from the site bc i paid a dollar but there's no reason you have to

[m1d-45]

ALL OF UR "DERAILS" ARE COMPLETE GOLD IN MY EYES, I LOVE UR THOUGHTS AN IDEAS ABOUT THIS AU DONT EVER APOLOGIZE KING

and omg what u wrote about the corrupted!archons with their limited control and how they hold themself back how their mind and body are disconnected and how they want more of your light but the opacity is down and it feels like their wandering complete darkness with only alternate!creator

I also read this as the alternate creater is reader alternative btw

who do u think in this scenario would help the reader out, if where imagining this as an imposter reader scenario. I like to think that the wanderer or tighnari or maybe Lisa bc id feel like she'd read her books to figure out what's wrong with alternate!creator or why she feels like somethings off (thinking about that maybe alhaitham & cyno too)

speaking about this au, WHAT ABOUT THE TRAVELER AND PAIMON? I mean their the prime vessel so would they be fooled too? or would they help us? is this like a completely worse case scenario with no way out or is their any hope of saving teyvat and it's people?

- 🍄 (I'm sorry if I'm sending too much asks btw, also @ teddy anon sorry for taking ur prompt and running with it, I hope u get back here and talk more with us. also midas your ideas/writings are literally liquid gold their so good pls don't ever apologize for taking inspiration and thinking, I love everything you have brought into this conversation)

1) never apologize for sending asks this is the most fun i’ve had all week 2) rip teddy anon hope you enjoy how we’ve taken it 3) i will always apologize for thinking, it’s kinda my brand /hj

anyway:

i think that, as i said at… some point- that it depends on the fundamentals of the persons faith, at least in this au.

people like cyno, alhaitham, rosaria, candace….. maybe collei but definitely tighnari (don’t ask why there’s so many sumeru characters) are all people i can see praising and praying for the actions of their god. people who pray for the results and not the process, and people i think would be freest of the corruption and most likely to help the reader.

on the flip side, barbara, jean, nahida, and notably keqing would be lore susceptible. they pray for more direct things? almost? idk how to describe it but like- they’re more “please grant us wisdom” or “allow us the strength” or anything that directly relies on the alternate!god, and hence opening their heart to the alternates.

like i… i can’t put it into words quite well, but like- ningguang is one who prays for profits, ganyu is the one who prays for divine guidance, you know? and hence ganyu would fall quicker.

it’s obviously a spectrum, but those closer to the first groups side are more likely to break through and help the reader.

i think…. not solely for plot reasons, but definitely influenced enough by them that i’m mentioning it… kaeya falls solidly in the second group, whilst diluc is firmly in the first.

diluc is the one that prays for a good harvest, for high sales, for the patience to deal with the damned hard in his tavern. kaeya prays for strategic wisdom, for their guidance, for answers when he’s lost and confused and the acting grand master isn’t behaving like she should.

..hopefully that made at least some sense. i’m kinda just wingin it here.

re: the traveller…. i honestly think they’d be treated the same as the archons. if the archons are corrupted, they will be too if the archons are replaced, they will be too. due to the traveller’s relationship with both the archons and the creator, i think the alternate!creator’s hand is a bit forced there. same can be extended to paimon BUT you could have paimon escape since she can pop into a different dimension. and/or they can both live in the teapot as like. vigilantes. idk.

i think that if this were to be written (100% by somebody more knowledgeable about the catalogue than i am) then a pov from one of the archons would be incredibly necessary. either to showcase the sheer power the alternates hold, that they have replaced literal gods, or to shed light on why the archons act as they do, and maybe influence the reader(meta reader, not character reader) and their opinion on them. seeing a blank slate suddenly become full of life at the sight of their savior…. or the archons trapped in some cell, chained down and miserable, lamenting over their mistakes. how foolish they were to trust the one with eyes colder than iron and a grip nearly as strong. how foolish to pray when their soul cried to stop. how foolish, how foolish, how foolish.

and as they sit, maybe one of them begins to pray, unwillingly feeding into the beast that trapped them there.

“o holy creator, maker of light and extinguisher of darkness, the foundation of the earth… please, deliver us from this evil.”

the false god smiles.

WAIT WAIT WAIT ME FROM THE FUTURE HERE:

ADAM DIDNT KNOW HE WAS AN ALTERNATE.

WHAT IF THE FALSE GOD DOESNT KNOW EITHER?

[lqfiles]

ahh im finally hereeee i was so busy taking Bella to her grooming appointment and going to the mall and i finally got to sit down to read the amazing update btw!!

but yooo how haechan calls y/n sweetheart when he’s annoyed even in the slightest… he wants her to so badddd like ugh the tension… you write them so good in need of more, literally dying from thirst as of right now

(also, haechan saying “this is why i don’t do gfs”… yeah… sure… whatever you say…. you just haven’t found the right one fr)

i have so much respect to people who talk in any other language, so i have so much respect to you for knowing how to speak dutch, it’s such a beautiful language

and dude the proofreading part for the 28k imagine… it took me a whileeee (and im re-reading it again and i found a few mistakes 😭) i was driving myself crazyyyy writing the 28k, like it took me two months or so 😭 and yes… being a wattpad writer was an experience (i was there for the one direction fanfic phase) (also reached 24k followers 😋)

will i let you tuck me into bed and kiss my forehead? okay 🤭 if you read me your stories in the mean time

but yeah, the lady scares me 😭 like im up for meeting new people. im friends with everyone in the neighborhood (EVEN HOMELESS PEOPLE BRO and my mom is friends with cops too 😭) but the lady scares meeee like i cant compliment her bc as soon as i make eye contact, she glares at me 😔

thanks again for the updates 😋 it’s always a nice day when you update frfr THE TALENT PLS THE TENSION YOU WRITE BY NOT OVERDOING IT? yeah you’re my favorite writer 🫶🏼

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(my friends are hating on bella’s new haircut bc you can see her eyes and they say you can see her human eyes even more… like she’s my baby don’t insult her pls 😭😭) (it was weird to be away from Bella for 3 hours btw)

LAMPOOO YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT BE RIGHT i don’t think i’ve ever seen a cut on a dog that doesn’t look unsettling they always make them look odd 😭 i mean i bet she looks still cute but at the same time THAT COULD VE A SKINCRAWLER!

at first it was meant to be a little belittling but now he’s gotten used to the nickname like he’s more likely to call her sweetheart that y/n and just waaaitt till he slips up in front of his friends and they’re like “who the FUCKK is your sweetheart..” i will try to make more tension tho 😓 i remember i promised this anon waaaayyyy before i even wrote the first chapter that i’d make their progress and tension quicker and more.. i’ll do my best!

I LOOOOVE MULTILINGUALS there is something so beautiful about it and i actually had a phase where i tried to learn so many languages (i’ve tried learning korean which at least i can read hangul now, i learned chinese and can read some basic stuff, learned japanese for a bit but already forgot it, tried learning thai spanish arabic and french too but i’m too greedy i can’t learn all of that) unfortunately i have the worst attention span ever so i never am able to fully commit to learning languages 😓

24K FOLLOWERS YOURE LITERALLY A CELEB OMGGG i feel you on that tho sometimes i can’t be bothered to proofread before continuing to write so i just read the last few paragraphs i wrote and call it a day lmao. also i’ll totally read you my stories don’t worry 😉 THANK YOU FOR THAT THO i always appreciate when you reassure my on my writing ilysm you don’t get it <3

as for that woman… i’d just leave it, if she doesn’t seem friendly enough to approach you should try your luck, it’s just going to be a waste of your time 🥲 just wait till she seems slightly interested in talking and take the opportunity!

[caralara]

Hey if you're not sleeping tell us every detail 🙆🏻‍♀️

you just know me too well at least my hands have stopped shaking so I can actually type but just know I am sending this off from the afterlife like I’m just. Dead.

So Louis was rushing off after he told the other fans there that he could only do a quick group photo, and at first I was like nahhh I don’t wanna approach he’s in a hurry but my feet were already moving, I guess I was simply gravitating towards the sun

And I asked if we could take a photo and Joni already went between and said no but Louis looked at me and was about to say no but then BUT THEN

He said “ok a quick one”

So I fumbled my phone out of my back jeans pocket because yk I didn’t actually expect this to happen lmao, and in the meanwhile he just looked at me and yk how celebs can be when they’re rushed?? Like not there, in a hurry? I mean I get it I wouldn’t take it personal at all

But he just was so - there? Like in the moment? He looked very tired but also just, happy. Glowing.

The green suits him incredibly well and his fringe was a bit dishevelled and falling into his eyes messily and yk I always found it a bit exaggerated when people would comment about his eyes after seeing him irl but man… im telling you, they’re just so?? Blue??? I’m not writing a fanfic i promise he IS just so dreamy

Anyways I pull my phone out and Joni just starts chanting “quicker quicker quicker” sort of rude but yk that’s his job he has to do that

And I’m trying to open the camera shortcut and I’m realising my lock screen is Harry’s Instagram post of my show where you can see me mirroring H in the crowd and I’m just — yeah well

Louis turns to me then and looks at me again and kinda pointedly at what I was wearing and said “I really like your jacket” like, just so — cool?? So cheeky. So so cheeky.

And I went like “yeah??😌 I actually wanted to ask you if you choose your outfits yourself…” but Joni kinda talked over me telling me to hurry so Louis actually didn’t hear me so I just snapped the photo and said thank you

And boy oh boy my knees were weak my hands were shaking I was about two looks away from actually swooning

He’s just so fucking attractive? Like he doesn’t seem tiny at all. He’s so there and present and hot and — casually perfect??

And as a visual guide and a tiny bit of evidence that this actually happened here’s my jacket for reference and my Lock Screen and a small lil piece of the photo bc the rest I’m keeping to myself <3 bc his smile is soft and his tired eyes will forever be the death of me

[hinasakuino]

Hi, can you write a worship kink? Like reader worshipping Sasuke? Making him feel loved everytime he’s back from a mission?

This request has been on my mind all day. I wasn't going to do it at all I'll be honest bc Sasuke isn't in my top 3 but personal feelings aside this man is hot as hell. So Enjoyyyy <3

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Without You

He smiles when he sees her enter the room. She’s freshly showered and walking from their bathroom to their room as she searches for something to hold her wet curls, one hand is holding the towel secure, the other holds her hair high up.

“You need help?” He jokes and she looks to his now sitting form, and smiles, one that makes his heartbeat quicker, feels like a swarm of butterflies is set off low in his belly.

“No, I just can’t find any of my hair things. I knew washing my hair in the shower was a bad thing. I always have wash days for a reason because it never fails something always goes wrong.” She’s rambling on some more as she flips through a box, letting her hair fall completely, the water droplets drip onto the towel and he laughs when she whines, realizing her towel is getting wet.

“I’m not ruining your first night back am I?” She asks looking back at her boyfriend. He shakes his head no and laughs, falling back to stare at the ceiling. She had no idea how much he missed her, and the welcome home he received was definitely something going to the vault when he’s away from her. He feels his cock twitch at the thought but after three rounds he wasn’t sure if he had another orgasm in him.

“Found it! Ha!” He hears and looks over to see her dancing as she tied her damp hair into a bun. “I’ll be right back.” She says darting out of the room and back into the bathroom. He nods and closes his eyes, hoping he doesn’t fall asleep before her. He really wanted to cuddle her right now. He listens as she does her nightly routine, and then he hears their bedroom door shut.

“Sasuke? Did you fall asleep?” She asks, he feels movement on the right side of the bed, she crawls over and hovers over him, watching. Sasuke tries his best to not laugh when he feels her lightly touching his jaw, and then he feels her running a hand through his scalp.

Without warning he jumps up at her, causing the girl to yelp out and then playfully hit him in his chest. “You ass,” She jokes, and he laughs, making a grab for her.

“No, no hugs for you. That was mean, you know I scare easily.” She pouts and he laughs again succeeding in grabbing her, pulling her close to his bare chest.

“I’ve missed you.” He says burying his head in her curls, inhaling the scent of her. She hums in response her hand immediately finding purchase in his hair again, she runs her hands through his hair and his eyes flutter shut because she’s rubbing his scalp just the way he likes and before he knows it they’re both out for the night.

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He awakes just before the sun comes up, he stretches, and yawns, his hand goes to his side. He jumps up because she’s not at his side and the spot is cold. He panics, jumping up way too quickly he rounds the corner of the bed and stubs his toe on the end.

“Goddamn it.” He swears, hopping forward and then stumbling backward falling on the bed.

“Sasuke?” He hears her whisper and then giggles. He looks up to see her carrying a tray with her, then he smells the coffee as well as the food she’s bringing.

“Babe, are you okay?” She asks placing the tray down and going to him.

“You made breakfast for me.” He says and she nods “But for me?” He asks and she looks confused. He rubs his hands up his face hiding the blush that’s growing and blows out a breath of air not understanding why his heart swells at this simple task. They made breakfast for each other all the time, why did he feel so emotional about this one simple act of kindness?

“Are you okay?” She asks a hint of worry in her tone. “I can put it away and let you rest. I just couldn’t sleep much.” She says when he doesn’t answer. He sits straight up and shakes his head no.

“No, this is perfect. You’re perfect. Thank you.” He says pulling her close to place a kiss on her face. “What’s for breakfast?” He asks, standing and going to the tray on the dresser,

“Ah ah ah, you sit.” She says steering him on his side of the bed, then she grabs the tray and set it on his lap. He reaches and turns the lamp on this die of the bed on and looks at the spread in front of him. As if on cue, his stomach growls.

“I really love you.” He says and she beams proudly, lowering herself to his side. He reaches for the spoon, but she smacks his hand, and he looks at her reaching for it, getting some eggs and rice on the spoon.

“I can feed myself.” He says amused as she lifts the spoon to his mouth. She ignores him, and he rolls his eyes at her but opens his mouth accepting the first bite. “Good?” She asks and he nods appreciatively. “It’s perfect.” He says and accepts the next bite quickly.

They continue on like this until he’s full. He sips at the coffee while she cuddles up next to him, Her hands trace the patterns of old scars as she gives him updates of things he missed while he was away from the village.

“Are you going to do anything today?” She asks and looks up he shakes his head no and finishes the coffee, placing the mug on the nightstand next to them.

“I planned on staying home today. I was granted a week off for rest, I figured I’d spend the first day with my favorite person before I share myself with the rest of the village.” She smiles at his response and leans forward just as he leans down capturing her lips. Gods he’s missed her, this so much. He never knew he could crave physical touch as much as he did until he met her. He grabs her cheek, as he kisses her, it’s sweet and gentle and makes his heart swell and he wonders if a person can die from feeling this loved.

“Can I try something?” She asks when he breaks the kiss. She bites her lip worrying the bottom lip between her teeth a clear sign that she was nervous. He nods and she lets out a breath of relief. She removes herself from him, takes the tray, and places it on the ground before seating herself in his lap.

“Well, if you wanted to do this that’s all you had to say.” He teases, his hands go to her hips, but she shakes her head no and places his hands at his side.

“You have to keep your hands to yourself at all times.” She says half-jokingly, half-seriously. He nods and does a mini salute and does as he’s told.

She leans forward, and presses a kiss to his forehead, then both cheeks, and then a peck to the lips. She trails to his jaw and then down his neck until she reaches his collarbones, this time sucking faint hickies into his skin. He throws his head back and lets out a low moan finding it very frustrating that he can’t touch her. She takes advantage of his exposed throat and bites playfully at the skin, and he has to close his eyes and count backward from a hundred to one because that action alone has him hard and ready to bust.

“Baby please..” He finds himself moaning aloud and she rocks her hips in his lap slowly giving him a little bit of relief. She stops kissing him to take off her shirt, and then she’s back on him, her breast flush against his chest, the skin on skin contact drives him crazy. Without thinking he reaches to grab a handful of the fleshy mounds, but she’s quicker than him and intertwines their fingers.

Sasuke lets out a frustrated groan as she goes back to kissing him, she licks at his lips, which are slightly parted allowing her to slip her tongue in to taste him. Her lips were soft against him, flowing like satin or silk, he couldn’t find the correct comparison with her kissing him like this. He pulls away first breathing ragged as she continued on making the path from his jaw to his neck and Sasuke has to close his eyes once more because if he looks at her doing this he's sure he’ll burst. He lets out a low fuck when she presses more pressure to his erection, and he's about to complain about not being able to touch her but she lets go of his hands and places them on her hips. He squeezes her and thrusts upward causing her to let out a low whine, breaking her out of her trance of kisses. He does it again, and she relishes in the feeling, head going foggy as she feeds into their lust.

She moves quickly off Sasuke’s lap, and he opens his eyes, watching as she slowly crawled down his body. She plants a wet kiss on his chest and then down his abs until she’s at the waistband of his sweatpants. She looks up at him expectantly and he nods, lifting his hips he began pulling them down eyes trained on his girlfriend as she wrapped her hands around his cock delicately. She pressed a kiss to the tip, darting her tongue out to give soft kitten licks down the shaft. He wants to look away because he feels completely overwhelmed but he’s stuck, eyes glued to his lover giving him so much pleasure. He lets out a noise that had been stuck in the back of his throat when he feels the wet heat of her mouth taking him in. She pauses to breathe out her nose, but continues down, trying her best to fit all of him down. She’s not successful and has to pull off to catch her breath but that doesn’t stop her. She repeats the action again, this time getting further down than the first. She gags hard but doesn’t pull off of him. Sasuke grips the blankets and sheets next to him tightly. He’s not sure he can last long, not when she’s deepthroating him like this, not when she sucks more of him in and licks around the shaft. “Fuck..” He shouts head tossing from side to side. “Fuck baby fuckkk.” He moans aloud accidentally making her gag because he thrust his hips up. She pulls off of him and takes another shaky breath in, she jerks him slowly, so damn teasingly slow while she catches her breathe and Sasuke looks at her, eyes watery, her lips so full, a little bit of drool drips down her lip and he has to bite down on his lip to not cum at the sight of her alone.

“You’re going to make me cum.” He says breathlessly, and she lays her head in his lap and looks up at him through her lashes, picking up the pace she grips him tighter.

“So cum for me.” She says just as breathless, she goes back to taking him in her mouth, gagging as she took him deeper. He groans when she massages his balls and he wants to hold back, wants this to last because it feels so damn good but soon he’s spilling in her mouth, and moaning her name, he forgets about the no-touching rule and finds himself grabbing her bun as he thrusts up into her mouth. She pulls off of him and lays her head in his lap and watches as he recovers from his orgasm. His eyes flutter open fall to her smiling up at him. He pulls her upward, back to his lap, and kisses her, doesn’t care that she still tastes of himself. He just needs to kiss her, need her lips on his. Her lips are so soft, so velvety soft and she makes the sweetest noises Sasuke finds himself playing with her nipples, tugging, and pinching them just the way she liked.

“Sasuke~” She moans, breaking the kiss to moan for him. He finds her slit, and gods she’s so wet, just from sucking him off, he wants to make her feel just as good, so he gets to work on her clit, rubbing quick circles with his fingers and she shudders, gripping the back of his neck tightly.

“You’re so fucking beautiful.” He whispers in her ear, kissing down her neck to suck softly on the spot that drove her crazy. “So fucking sexy.” He whispers dipping two fingers in her wet walls. She moans so deliciously sweet; Sasuke feels his dick twitch in interest but he’s too focused on making her cum he doesn’t even react. He knows she’s close, can feel it when she clenches her walls tight around him and he groans when he feels her gushing around his fingers.

“There it is that’s it beautiful give it to me.” He whispers against her ear, making her cry out. She throws her head back, mouth wide and falling silent as Sasuke continues turning her into a mess.

When it becomes too much for her, she grabs at his arm, and he removes himself from her wet heat listening to her whimper as he pressed kisses across her shoulder. He runs his hands up her back and she hums, some movement finally catching her, she looks up at him and he smiles feeling that warmth spread in his chest once more.

“I don’t know if I’ve told you this, but I love you.” She jokes and he smiles, kissing her once more.

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A/n: So if yall see me reblogging sasuke content......Mind ya business lolol.

I also did third pov but w/o the you insert which worked out for the better part, Bc I thought it was gonna be a mess but I ended up really liking this one, and it’s probably going on my personal favorite of works I did :)

[pndnj]

Cathartic- Yellow Metal Lyrics

Heres where I am with the lyrics, I referenced @25Goldenn on twitter for some of it that I couldn’t comprehend. 

*music*

0:23

Dark matter, like painted splatters, they fit better, the old saying, the way it goes, better the devil you do then you don’t know. I hit pedals and switch levers, my heart metal, I can't settle, im part trouble, they are not subtle. I fuck good so fuck cuddles, burst bubbles the thrist levels at new heights, i down doubles, and got baked til I felt high, my face puzzled, felt muddled, far strung and your floors woodent, the thought might but the fit wouldn’t. A fortnight

0:46 - 1:00

And I thought right, it’s all bark and no bite, I’m Tony Stark still embarking on a dream, took a bit of time to take darkness from the team. Seen what I saw. Heartless on the sleeve. Tried to burn my wings, so I put them in a piece on my chest , at peace no rest.

1:00-1:15

Flipped this on it’s head. Rip the script up now, flip it don’t pretend, slipping shit again, Fakers all around me, I’ve been living in pretense. Fake friends won’t make amends. There’s no need, these mean comments control the scenes. Attentionseekers, the spine is weakened

1:15-1:24

This family needs, what a family needs, and the planet bleeds, the damaged trees. It’s never leaving til we ascend so fuck the fence, and until they stop killing colour it’s fuck the feds.

1:22 - 1:44

You must be off it, I mean it, you know you ain’t never get with the judging and I used to dread growing my beard too long, never felt I belonged, but it's really long like a minute I ain’t looking to no mans for the limits, They’re feeling timid, I’m telling them who they mimic, why they don't look like a clinic …. Why they don't get no women, Still, we’re just fucking girls, Lost in the wrong world, Jurassic, now to this vermin

1:41-  1: 50

Kicking the game I’m serving, these losers are never learning, my fire is forever burning, adding it to my fuel, seems like I’m always focused on never becoming you, These locals that rob us feeling … was for a reason.

1:52-2:02

I’m seeing my new beginnings, watch out this loser’s winning, and no water is too deep to swim in Like I’m about to see a killing, I’m all the way that and living, flawless and feeling lawless, the prison now to the gimmicks, my vision is set to something,

2:03-:2:20

I’m watching you bitches plummet, no matches here for my cunning, you rappers are feeling done in, switching your genre, running and Running your jaw, stunting, pulling at straws, something  I think you’re a poor effort, deaf and tone deaf and I ain’t treat you separate. Living, I’m in my element, riding it like a … never lose me to fentanyl, scared when I take a benadryl. Keeping it green in general

2:20- 2:46

Think that you remain irrelevant. Look at yourself with reverence, hoping to always elevate. Celibate of these thoughts, killing themselves with sedatives. In comparison to eminem, you’re feeling feminine. Impolitically correct, still dropping on my dick. And I never gave a fuck about what they say abt my shit, I’ve been moving things in my mind like it’s this mountain dew Memories have made me wonder if one day I’m after you. What’s the purpose that you do, is what you're hoping that they learn, i’d like to say i’m done but it’s getting up on my nerves

2:46 -2:55

I’m looking at my life, saying what do I deserve. It’s hard to say I know when I’m walking through the dirt. Talking while you’re nothing I can see for what it’s worth. I’m tired of feeling hurt and I’ve tried enough but nothing works.

2:55-3:40

I’m racking up excuses while I’m slacking off on work. Chit chatting is the usual, talking to this clerk, i beg you don’t include me. I might write it on my shirt so everytime they see me, the oldest know to swerve. SWERVE Life is potent, bits of fucked shit… till they took notice weren’t  no hocus pocus, it was hard work that got me heard so i put in the graph like google maps but the whole earth

… around my door mat, taking over like the drones, rolling dirt up in miles like the water, and exploding like Annas hematoma. Don't need to see a slammer to know that I don't want to go man

I’m a showman. I’m just focused on the drama… like i’ve got my own insurance, show myself the pain, like i boxed it in the frame, if we’re about to talk greatness im great, the way you have to say my name like beyonce

“Say my name”

4:00-4:46

Just a bum with a cigarette, sun coming up, all my thoughts on the internet. Feeling deep, I’m just bored with the silhouette single sec,  get fucked up for the thrill of it . killer streak playing Pacman. Like I came from the Philippines vanilla bean still a thing for the thrill of scene,

Theres a beam, UFO, Leave it well alone  I aint moving, stood still on the peloton, telephone and its always on the dial tone,  it's been a while since i’ve smiled at a milestone, seen a big pile in my mind stone, me against the world on my Jack Jones, Like I’m John Jones, With pictures in the condo, far from John Doe, in the ___, like I'm Johnny Bravo, got pravado, with a small dick sitting in golados, feeling far gone, cuz that last hit was the good shit, was that stay lit

4:48-5:02

You can never take my shit come and get me. On the top floor,  cloud 9, fading, never bailing, felt amazing, inhaling, til my lungs two guns blazing. Overcome all the stunts that I pulled. A suit of just skin and then wool

5:02- 5:17

This life doesn’t give you no armour, a lot of myself can harm ya. I swear on what’s good, that I’m here till they take me. I pray that I’m wrinkled, at least over 80, and start moving like a ruler, ?damaged? Like a computer going fast, bars from the jeweler, bring the songs to the beach in hopes of finding tuna

5:18-5:36

…

5:36- 6:16

Grab a bat, lose my rag. Couple things got me mad, a couple people got me wrong and now I’m changing up the swag. Coming in and stealing it, I might take the whole bag. Feeling undefeated, I’m a beast with a reason, and imma lead the whole pack. Fearless like I’m Caesar, I’m just waiting for a chance to fill it up with diesel, and all I've been achieving is clocking miles in its region, moving like a legion.

Promise that I made to myself an allegiance. Do you still believe I’m a fool for ever leaving, staring at the ceiling, can never put a cap on achieving. I’m just here for the rap, then I’m leaving.

I’ve had about enough of being my own enemy, it’s time I grew up,  a long way from 17. Always went against the grain, struggles in my life. Got some things to say when I stand up on a mike.

6:16-6:32

I ain’t dropping this for fame, I need this time, like therapy, it’s just to keep me sane. The truth is on my medicine, can’t put that on your plate.

Speeding into everything, bout time I fixed the brakes. Don’t say I can’t communicate , you know I conversate with you in several different ways. And I know you know it’s references, looking at your face.

6:33- 6:53

Can’t justify mistakes, like every man that made them, seems I ain't  the one to blame. Lying to myself, only had so much to gain, so now I’m switching up the plate, see if that affects the place, im at on most days

I ain’t going with the usual so they looking at me strange. Confused, I can feel it all,  I’m here to make a change. It’s cold at 3am outside, I’m walking with the dog, thanking god that you don’t talk at all, my mind is switching off

6:54-7:12

Driving down to find myself, cuz I’ve been getting lost, lived this selfless life and found I can give a toss. Lessons that I’ve learned I’ve tried teaching to myself. What I’ve learnt from certain people is that they’re better than myself.

So I surround myself with real ones, and you feel the plastic melt. Like burning toy soldiers that used to go up on the shelf. Recycle the ideas, conveying on the belt

7:14-7:29

.. circus, always hurting the way we felt? Embarrassed that we dreamt of bigger things and letting go of notions till we feel them in cement

Tired of only hoping, we feel broken men. Cuz the gravity is weight and has kept us to the ground, see the only people speaking with favors in their mouths

7:46-7:58

Got killer rhymes… no fillers, like godzilla, eating clouds cuz my smokes thicker, throat licker, my dope sicker, bringing people their hope like im the pope slicker,  i hope you’re getting the point cuz i walk quicker

I thought my city was shit bcs I want bigger like my zipper couldn’t zip up fed up with the…my love is fickle.. Residual age has a primitive face

I see demise for your limited ways, Left it to simmer, simmer away…a fake glimmer in the haze

8:09-8:11

Feeling trapped this industry is a cage

8:34-8:50

Nobody’s speaking the truth, I’m offended by the State. Look at the state of the news, I’ve decided the argument, reciting my views, while they’ve been sat in their chairs, I’m feeling pressure to choose.

Standing here as one man, how can I do half when you’re half the person I am. If it wasn’t in your life, you didn’t choose it. It’s the funny thing about music. It’s the pain and beauty of it.

8:52-9:11

Don’t give a fuck what my suit is, it looks good so I wear it, better than the shoot that People’s wearing, changing the whole narrative for these basics and scarcity

Been facing the racists from back when i were a kiddie .born up in in 93’. been living in Bradford City..kicked me out of the schools, they had a problem with me hitting the kids that would call me p*** still sitting in the classroom chilling, and i'm angry now that I’m older I see they treat us different

9:12-9:25

got me thinking I’m the problem cuz they never dealt with those issues.

20 years later I’m still in the same boat, tryna treat me like my grandpa, say I came up off the boat. Came to tell you what I stand for, man I think you’re shit, a joke. How can I be civil, when they got me by the throat

9:25-9:35

Pushing my feelings down, you ain’t got it like them

‘Boy your skin is so light’, ok motherfucker take my name up on a flight. Try to convince immigration that your bloodline’s half white.

9:35-9:45

I don’t know how that’s acceptable, when life is more susceptible to perception, be the death of them. I’ve been looking at the sky saying where’s that day of reckoning, you had your prophets right when they say that you would speak to them.

9:45-9:55

I need justice in this life and I trust that it’s my fight, cuz when I’m writing it feels right to have them focused on the facts again. Focused on the rap again, hoping for the change, gunna put this on the map again

9:55-10:16

Writing in all caps again, the pain, it goes through me so I write the letter. All the shit that could have brought me but made me better.

I’m at home with a pain in my soul , yeh rap… cuz you know I was too real to contest it, my time was invested. Now I look at the industry, I see it infested, looking like kids who would write on nesquik.

10:17-10:29

My name ain’t on the list unless they label it ethnic.

I ain’t never gave a fuck about these jokers and jesters. Ain’t no answers for these things, so just save us the questions, man allowed of violence, cuz my silence is deafening, your opinion stinks, somebody get him a breath mint.

10:30- 10:42

Start to understand why they think that I’m threatening, I move in certain ways, couldn’t slow me with ketamine Now they all wanna hear me, got a table at letterman. Direction changed, like I changed up the lettering. Don’t believe the age ,bcs I move like a veteran.

10:42 - 10:47

Raised on the benefit for whose benefit, they’ll never learn shit, man, if the shoe fits.

…no words coming out when you open your mouth

And to be honest, it’s insulting, offensive to my wounds that have been salting. Tryna ask me questions that they know I never answer. I’d rather sit online and reply to the fan art

11:00-11:06

Fuck a sports car, coming through when i rapped

tell you what I like, farm life and the tractor

11:06- 11:17

Fake life, 'sup online, suck a fat one. You don’t wanna buy into that, none of that son. Sitting in the garden 98’ in the Datsun,  seen some hot summers but I still remember that sun.

*music*

11:51- 12:34

I make millions off of my pain, cause I know a few millions still living that way

Dealing with the hurt, they should know cause they don’t deserve it, it hit deep cause i hit the nerve. Only way that the sheep learn if the street firm, in my ways I don’t wanna change, everything just stay the same

Who you tryna convince you understand, cant maintain, let the lights dim some,  get the Chow Mein, flex, get the tape, right up at night

Why these men be nice to my face, be nice,  i ain’t tryna be a gangsta ruins my vibe

Rather be low-key and on my phone. Never need the trophy or the show piece

Never show peace in a North Face fleece. Show kids this like i wrote my flip

Cause the sign might fit till the start i’m sick

12:37-13:05

Now you see where I come from, the world don’t. Only achievement in this life is the Jordans. Committing petty crimes out of boredom, we can’t afford them. So I stole it, need a rolex

Go make sense, get yourself a job, It’s a poor man’s game tryna sit and pray to god, he ain’t sorting out your problems, gotta sort them out yourself

Used to tell us fables, now I’m writing them myself, Cause we raw like animals we all just need some help

Cathartic, I’m an artist, trying to put my heart in

Felt double crossed like Leo in Departed

13:05- 13:27

For the knowledge i’m not charging see I got it all free

But my hunger kept me starving like i’m feening for the feed

I just Need a reason to see me bleeding for my creed. Trick you with the words like I keep em up my sleeve. Picking where I fit, I see me sitting with the queen

I ain’t doing it unless you’re used to saying please

Let me flow a bit, before I sting 'em with the bees, They tryna kill us with disease

(Music)

13:34- 14:12

Why does it feel like they had the same notebook and the same four looks

Like the rain won't touch on their face, so sus when they lie don’t trust not a minor

Please no fuss, I just move through the game like must

Something in the way i adjust till i stick, Free falling like the ship, free fall till i bust

Remember 21 brother gave no fucks. Trying to project when they give them looks

In the projects, in the objects us

In my own way, never gave me love, shoulda never started this, broken hearted kid

Dried up the feeling till I stole the lid

Don’t wanna relish in the fame but I can’t resist

14:46-14:58

I like the way we feel, I like the way, I like the way

Ain’t no mistake, i am a being

I ain’t tryna be a leader, been selling out since Jesus

All my rhymes are for the readers, between the lines, like Father time, I fuck Mother Nature

14:58-15:40

That’s what they get, the connotations. Tell 'em I lived a life, and then I lived a life of adjacent? like its…. and played it patient.

Alone on my own spaceship, always tryna find greatness, still defying lines, but I’m fighting in my prime.

Shining light like Kylo while imma kill it all the time. Aging like I’m wine

Asian in my face, but still my race you can’t define. Focused on defiance, imma fight it while it’s life.

Started something sick and on my mind is what’s next, just became a dad so now I’m taking all the cheques. Better know I’m staying and paying like it’s debt. Imma get it done, if it’s taking all my breath, sweat, and down I ain’t messing around til I’m the best

Speaking in full sentences, shoulda thought about a strategy before you went at the stratosphere about this… rings around Saturn, this ain’t a battle, I’m sat, I’m here

15:40-16:22

Catch me doing magic, hired and sounding tragic I think you could use practice and until that you get the blacklist and pull like a … actress? Fooling them like a catfish, schooling like a legend, happy to be the reference, fusing like iridescence, leaving them all guessing, leaking out of my brain like a pipe I aint fixing, shining like a star you can see it from a distance

Aint many of me around p*** I’m just different Certain stages to this level aint here because fame is to the devil fuck a label, imma do this from the ghetto, clean up like Im Dettol

I’m the man to put a bet on, sight smart like a weapon,  this is my kind of setting, i write the world I’m sat in, while these others live on hype, i see them fight in how they type, the fruit is ripe for the taking, i think i might

16:22-16:57

Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here

16:58- 17:47

Eccentric things are mentioned like a kid stuck in detention tryna escape im just spitting what is written on the next page, spitting image of my dad in his young days

Born sinner when i’m livid i say fucks sake

Don’t worry i’m too cunning with no plumbing, the waterworks, i sung something that resonates, i thought it first like giving birth to the parrot perch

They see me do it and they know it works

Don’t know what’s worse: the way that you live your life or the way that you write a verse

You’ll be nervous, you don’t deserve it we’ll scratch the surface ill leave a crater, lift the dirt up to find the hurting

Can’t know for certain nothing is guaranteed, tryna be a better person than the world deserves to see cuz i see a lot of sharks still swimming in the sea

Cease and arrest what’s the reason.. And these the kinda kids we bringing up next

Distorted reality, all they needed was family, too hard to face, to see what the damage is

17:47

*i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, no, i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, *

18:04-18:38

Sometimes they ask the questions too deep to form a sentence, to disform, is this the norm, is this the sentence i feel defenseless i played the setlist, and all my sweat blood and tears, forgot to mention feeling lost, going off into different sections i feel like love wrecked it

If it’s not a drug why am i waiting for the next fix, affected, i cant believe that you left this

I guess I leave for the best wish, moving on like im fine for the lectures

We see it all from spectrums, cuz if we’re falling down we can fall down together

Staircase to heaven, mirror down the middle like 11, resentment on one side it won’t settle

18:38- 19:14

Mind fried but taking sense, they aint got a sense of themselves in the rich ends

Need to spell it out for them.. Made for them so witness

I know you feel afflicted but you always love it with me while im laughing at you, ya think you’re laughing with me

I try to (i love you) but im grown so they don’t fit me, my body thrown from the new to this old city so Im sick of sitting on my own, feeling so shitty, i’ve been on roads where its cold and the snow hitting

Its okay to be yourself, sit and talking to myself

I’ve been walking for the longest, just need a little rest, know i ain’t the strongest, I can feel it in my chest, talking about my feelings and of me, they get the best

19:14-19:59

They aint leaving, seeing breathing in my breath

Till death do us part is just seeded in my heart, like a work of art

Never winning,im just scared

Cant begin from the start, do i play a part in the rhythm of the night

I guess i’m onto something cuz the dark is feeling right

Every cloud got a lining, put my own miles  in, like moralis, figured that they’re jealous, that they could just never tell us to change because the weather never made me question whether or not i’m not that level

Got rid of all the bullshit sitting in my way, most of them are full of shit i see it every day

I do hearing the same things that i do, maybe that shits hitting like haiku

How much do you pay for them to hype you

Recycle your flaws but they aint like new, leaving and conceded and full of diesel like engines that need a cleaning, the ending will be revealing. Even though we ain’t raising the facts, now we been facing.

20:01-20:52

The cactus with spikes, needing spaces. Different faces, the same story. A full body like straight body direct to your system.

Could never tell 'em we missed’ em. Not even with the thoughts, we gift them. Cuz they just take advantage, guess we are caught in a system.

My soul pouring out details of borrowed time, had enough of a fill, this is for sorrow time. I’m seeing visions of Heaven, I seen the severed line, between the gospel they speak and when theyre telling lies.

Remember telling a friend of mine, you’d sent of mine, identified like a 3rd eye. Got a habit of knowing now where the dirt lies. So benign. I ain’t sober after 9, so I fuck their minds. Why you flipping out, see another

Try to rep it from the city, fuck a chiller crew, repping for the nittys, trying to keep us down, raised on the social, don’t want to let us out of the system. Me, I insist we assist them, me alone putting shifts til I lift them

20:53-21:12

I know it’s hard, that’s why I like it, I’m fit to fight it, I’m from the North, I’m backing Tyson, it’s been decided, don’t see no light. They needing guiding, just redefining, realizing, I’m realigning, in full finance, they stay silenced.

Can’t be louder, I’m juiced up with no powder. I fix shit like a slick spanner. Gone green like Bruce Banner. So free Gaza on my banner

21:12-21:51

The real McCoy, I ain’t nothing to toy with, signifying peace like a Japanese Koi Fish. How did this happen, we’re moving backwards in our timeline, killing us with cyanide, Right up for the freedom 'til we transform like Ironhide

This is bout my feelings, the way that I move affects the fate that I’m sealing. Can’t say nothing, with that something being on the page, kept inside the pen like the bars that have been kept caged. See I always had a plan, since I was young, we had nothing man

Now it’s been a few years since I ain’t seen the fam, on foreign lands. Bout to climb Everest in the avalanche. Right into the riddles as soon as you were born. Never asking the question cuz it’s the norm. See I’m in a questionin’ session

21:52-22:03

Like the manner got a method to teaching a lesson, listen to MF Doom, he taught me like Ra’s Al Ghul. Felt like living in Gotham, the people were rotten. Still we play cartoons so it’s never forgotten.

22:03-22:15

Chilling at the top but we came from the bottom. Writing and jottin for them life by, spotting the difference

*Dreams, was growing out of me, sun promising that tomorrow it will rise, time playing games with my mind, I swear it will pass us by

Train goes on the tracks, smoke, I’m tired to hide my thoughts, so blinded in flames, Don’t know where we’re going, I have no way of knowing, only see what’s in my head

Can’t we wait a minute, so we can savour this, It’s on my brain again, these days, It on my brain again these days”

23:10-23:46

They’re hating on Palestine ways, The oh no Palace playing Prince on the Steinway, Sending out mind waves, stop them like crimewaves, Freedom fighter, Yellow Metal is my name

Like vipers, I see the sly ones, the snake that’s called Biden, none of them abiding what they might put in writing

We should be used to it by now, say whatever for the vote and then just choose another route, say they’d never kill another unless that brother’s skin is brown

I’m just telling you the facts, if you can’t take it, the truth naked, to bare bones and my thoughts lately, spitting politics.. Done ain’t it, Shit just gets me vexed, and now I’m sitting that I think of it

23:45-23:59

Feeling on the brink of it, whatever it is, Figure out some shit at least it feels that way

talk about my feelings and I don’t feel so strange, finding solace, that’s a promise, in Metropolis but being honest, can’t write a sonnet, without some pain

24:00-24:40

Can’t fade away, away so we can savour this, been on my brain again these days

Can't find a way to be so you can savour this, been on my brain these days

Singing the song for another, singing a song for another

[exovissa]

Just saw all the pjo/Ancient Greece au art and it seems really cool!! Any ideas for the plot?

!!!thank you

And plot hmmhmh. I have the very foundation of a plot, but nothing solid planned yet!!! I’m hoping to come up with that soon, but I’ll tell u what I’ve got so far

This all stemmed from gorgon ranboo ngl bc medusa>> I’ve been trying to decide between having it in a modern setting or set in ancient Greece since I started but it's essentially the same idea anyway, just with a different setting.

My only. Solid plot at the moment - because i am genuinely awful at coming up with a coherent storyline i just like brainstorming little ideas - is: tommy and tubbo leave their home to set out on an adventure, meet ranboo, who they initially mistake for a monster like, following/watching them b4 realising he just has no people skills and decide to drag him along with them and go off to fuck shit up. The rest of the dsmp/osmp cast will more than likely make an appearance if i do manage to think of a proper plot, but this is why i draw and not write gjnjdks. I think if it's a modern setting, then some of them would already be at the camp, in the ancient setting most of them would be characters they met along the way.

Tommy’s the son of Hermes, no genuine powers passed down except slightly quicker just like origins lmfao (mentally too!! very quick thinking, good in stressful situations), met tubbo when he was younger and the two have been inseparable since. He uses a sword he’s had since around 12 - If it’s a pjo au tubbo was the satyr in charge of taking him to camp, lol Anyway, regardless of what era, tommy gets tasked with a quest. Or he just fucks off to do his own thing (unsure on which), brings tubbo along with him, they cause a lot of death and destruction. the end. And then they meet ranboo and the cycle continues.

Tubbo!!! Light of my life!!! Little bastard!!!! Tubbo’s a satyr but also a son of Hephaestus, bc I mean. They’re the gods i was always wondering why the only kids in chb were half human like cmon. Once again no real powers just the ability to create weapons of mass destruction and also hammers that are taller than he is. Tubbo is by far the physically strongest of the 3 bc the other 2 r like noodles. If he has the scars on his face in this au I think it’s going to be an accident in the forge that wasn’t caused by him, he just got caught in the crossfire. Massive enabler of tommy’s bad ideas much to the chagrin of literally everyone else around them.

Ranboo is the son of a gorgon, not sure if medusa or one of her sisters, but it’s at least one snake lady and ???? (once again. Monster kids Should’ve been a thing i’ll die on this hill) – he can’t turn people to stone but i wanted to try and play off that one scene with enderwalk ranboo and puffy where she said looking into his eyes paralysed her, so he just. freezes people in place when they make eye contact instead- it breaks when he blinks/looks away tho. Hence the blindfold they wear (which is possible to see through, but barely), and if it’s the modern au tommy gives him some sunglasses to stop that (trying to figure out if tommy/tubbo can just. Invent sunglasses for the ancient version).

[thecoloursdontshow]

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#5

ok i am well aware that this wont happen in spider man nwh but i was sitting here thinking of how there could be a sambucky reference then this happened: 

peter: maybe cap could help us

strange: im sure mr and mr wilson are quite busy

peter: *chuckle*

peter: hey were you invited?

strange: uh, yeah

peter: what? i wasnt

strange: *laughing*

strange: i have a plus one, if you would like it

peter: well dont you wanna bring wong?

strange: he was invited

peter: W H A T

strange: *cackling*

320 notes • Posted 2021-08-25 01:23:34 GMT

#4

OH MY GOD

SO LIKE THESE WERE BAD SCREENSHOTS BUT MACKIE IS JUST TALKING TO SEB. SO IN CHARACTER SAM IS TALKING TO BUCKY IN THAT DAMN CAR. I DONT EVEN CARE. look a realize actors do that all the time BUT ITS LIKE THEY WERE JUST WAITING FOR US TO WRITE FANFICS. i dont care as far as im concerned sam found bucky and now theyre in love, every other possible answers can leave. y’all go back and watch the scene bc like-

349 notes • Posted 2021-08-17 17:20:51 GMT

#3

i love how the first 3 marvel shows have shown us:

1: established relationship (Wandavision)

2: love is requited they’re just idiots (Sambucky)

3: just openly flirting w each other (lokius)

like that’s pretty iconic

481 notes • Posted 2021-08-21 21:46:30 GMT

#2

507 notes • Posted 2021-06-23 23:27:38 GMT

#1

that’s it that’s the show

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[nextstopparis]

Hi I’m under the impression you want someone to tell you what to do so write me gwart headcanons I am starving for content. If you need a prompt to get started: them swimming together

anon this is so late im so sorry but i hope that its good enough for you to forgive me. also i literally love you so much for this.

OKIE DOKIE SO. gwart swimming:

you know what oh my god arthur would be SUCH a disaster gay at the sight of gwaine, shirtless and shit, flipping his wet hair out of his eyes kjdskjkdj oh my GOD he’d have no idea what to do with himself bc all his thoughts would be !!!!!!OH NO!!!!!!!!! and he would be absolutely shit at hiding it EXCEPT gwaine is also a HimboTM and so he wouldn’t really notice. he’d make a joke about “you like what you see princess?” or something along those lines and arthurs face would just turn so red and like sputter and stuff oh my god jfifjoeijfoeijfoei im sorry im having the time of my life with a flustered arthur.

ANYWAY i feel like it’d be gwaine to like initiate most of the touching (like, it starts with head dunks, then it escalates to jumping on arthurs back, then it escalates to grabbing him around the neck to noogie him etc. etc.) and arthur would just. get redder and redder and all his attempts at getting away would be pitiful at best bc he really doesnt wanna get away u kno? 

AND THEN they’d be playing some stupid game like who can hold their breath the longest or who’s the better swimmer - whichh eventually escalates to like. who catches the other one quicker and stuff. ANYWAY so they keep playing those types of stupid games and arthur honest to god does try to win the first few (he wins like 1/3) but then gwaine keeps giving him these obnoxious and overdramatic dumb kisses on the cheek/head/hand and like yeah, arthur is really red at this point, but he also rlly likes being kisses by gwaine ok?? not that he’d ever tell anyone that, least of all gwaine (bc he thinks gwaine is just doing it as a joke but he’s dumb so we can hardly blame him) and so arthur starts like. deliberately losing just to get kisses and like half hugs (also he’s touched starved so).

then once they tire themselves out, they get out of the water and lie down side by side, between this hazy feeling of half-asleep and half-not, with their shoulders and arms pressed together (bc they are Himbos and its still a lil above them to admit they hve feelings for each other to cuddle n shit sigh). 

i think they’d also accidentally fall asleep and wake up with like. their limbs all tangled but in a really uncomfortable way. like they’re still all over each other except gwaines left arm is numb and also, once he wakes up and arthur’s still asleep, he has to try desperately hard not to laugh bc arthur’s breath is tickling his face and. as uncomfortable as he is. he actually doesnt mind the princess this close. so its really hard keeping still and quiet. but he manages for like 4 minutes which he’s proud of himself for later. 

OH MY GOD ALSO at one point gwaine picks arthur up bridal style claiming he’s “saving the damsel in distress, being the knight in shining armour and all” and arthur rolls his eyes SO HARD that gwaine starts laughing and accidentally drops him.

[duskandstarlight]

Ok girl i need your opinion on the mating bond.

Idk if i am just failing to read something but I don’t get it?!? I always thought it was like in e&l, where they could actually feel the tether/bond as a bridge between souls, and could at least transfer strong feelings. Like rhys and feyre share thoughts but bc they are daemati, and other normal bonds share feelings.

And also the bond snapping? Did it snap in acosf? Or is that supposed to be after they accept it and then the sex frenzy happens? I am confused lol. Bc i know they felt something bond related after solstice, but I don’t think it is the same as when feyre accepted the bond, bc if that was the case cassian wouldn’t have been able to leave bc they would want each other too much plus overprotectiveness, wouldn’t they?

Idk if it is just me but i don’t understand the bonds and how they work. Like elain felt a tug from lucien once. But nesta and cassian never actually acknowledge that there is an actual cord between them? Also i feel robbed bc i wanted overprotective cassian AND jealous nesta after it snapped.

Maybe it is just me but i feel like at this point not even sjm knows how they work.

If you have any idea to enlighten me it would be much appreciated 😅

Love your stories!! Make my day, truly. And on that note (and honestly I don’t want to be pushy at all, take your time!) but do you know if habits part 2 (or 3? I never know whether to count the best threesome ever as a part) will be released before ch 32?

Hope you have a nice week!!!

Yes, I thought this as well. The only thing I could think of is that SJM didn’t want to make it TOO obvious by mentioning glimmers down the bond? My other understanding is that Nesta’s walls (and Cassian’s) were so iron-clad that the bond was completely constricted so they couldn’t feel one another in that way. In the Solstice scene, SJM speaks of how the walls come down on both sides and that’s when we get that golden rope solidifying... which is definitely the cord between them.

I think the bond snapped into place when Nesta called to Cassian to save him from the Cauldron during the War. On page 254 of ACOSF Cassian says, “His soldiers had been blasted apart a moment later. And when he’d looked at her face, he’d understood something--something that the past year and a half had shredded apart and turned cold.”

I think that was the mating bond snapping for him. And then it’s accepted and solidified on Solstice when both of their walls come down. 

I also wanted more protective territorial Cassian (and Nesta actually?) but that’s what fanfic is for, haha. I think we didn’t get a lot of stuff because the mating bond isn’t actually directly referenced until Cassian announced it when they’re fighting in Velaris. 

I do think SJM doesn’t really know how it works, either! I will keep my E&L interpretation and even when I write Nessian in the future I’ll mention being able to feel one another down the bond because I think it’s a lovely side to the mating aspect of the book <3

I hope this helped! And thank you for saying you like my stories. I’m actually busy writing the smut for the next part of Habits (and I’m currently writing chapter 32 so it’s ready in time for Sunday). Sorry I can’t churn out things quicker. I often wish I could just quit my job and write permanently to give us allllll the Nessian content <3

[myelocin]

REQ #9, & #10 | STORIES IN PASSING

synopsis: 

Req #9 | @moonchildtsukki​ : Life after graduation was, to put it bluntly, dry. Though, taxi rides, a friendly stranger, and some advice may change that.

Req #10 | @fancifulthing : You never expected that sitting in a park at three in the morning meant meeting a stranger who said the words that finally put a hush to the questions in your head. 

characters: Sugawara Koushi, Kuroo Tetsurou, You

warnings/genre: Fluff, Slice of Life

a/n: So I’m really glad these two were sent right by eachother just bc I personally love how these two turned out. Adulting can be a pain in the ass, and God knows it’s gonna take me decades to master that--but here’s to the wish that these words would comfort the two of you at least. :)

-

#9 Sugawara Koushi | For Nina | Taxi, 8/9AM

Life is, well, strange after you graduate.

Even though you’ve looked forward to this day more times than you could count since you were a child—the part where you actually get there ends much, much quicker than it happened. The buildup that took years to cultivate ends in a ceremony where you flip the tassel, throw your cap, hold a diploma with your name on it and take a few pictures feels all too dull. Anti-climactic, even.

Then you’re thrust into the real world. The real world where the access to life is bought with money and where money is bought with, well, time. Being an adult is as dull as every adult from your childhood had told you, while the warnings to enjoy your “childhood,” really had rung true.

So that was why the second the stranger you’re sharing a taxi with breaks the silence with, “Applying for work?” all you could manage to do was nod stiffly.

He chuckled, and shifted his legs a way that brushed against his bag. Looking at him, you decided to indulge yourself in the conversation he opened up. Distraction was definitely needed.

“You applying too?”

“Yeah,” he replies and laughs in a way that has you perplexed. How is he so calm?

“I’m guessing you’re nervous,” the stranger tells you, and your nod is automatic. “Of course I am. The real world is too—“

“Exciting?” he finishes and this time, you find yourself laughing.

“I think, terrifying would be a better way to put it,” you say.

“It doesn’t have to be,” he tells you and you nod for him to continue. Outside, buildings blur faster and faster as the car gains more momentum. You suddenly wish you’re back home again; looking at trees and grass and that one neighbor who peddles by your window every 5pm.

“That’s a first I’m hearing that,” you comment. He doesn’t laugh after that and the tension settles in your shoulders again—heavier.

Then he laughs, saying, “I mean it. I feel like when you first come out to the real world, you’re still treating everything like a final exam.”

You cock your head to the side and look at him. He smiles at you, then continues, “Like, applying to jobs, apartments, or loans isn’t a final exam. If you don’t get it you can just go somewhere else.”

“A lot easier said than done,” you sigh and he laughs again, this time, turning his head to look at you.

“It is. But didn’t we used to tell ourselves that too when we were students? Hype ourselves up and then still panic even while we’re writing on the exam paper?”

“Point is,” he says, laughing when you look at him confused, “the real world doesn’t give you a failing grade. You do things, you fuck up, you move somewhere else, same thing could happen but something else could too. You’ll be scared but that’s just a part of things. If you feel stuck or not, at the end of the day as long as you keep waking up—that’s still progress.”

“Why are you telling me all this?” you ask, and he shrugs.

“Everybody needs a little help sometimes,” he answers, then opens his mouth again, saying, “Koushi, by the way.”

“Nina,” you answer and give him a smile.

The mole right under his eye suits him, you think. It pushes up his face along with the crinkle his eye when he shoots you another smile. For a second you think you see an angel, but when you blink again, you only see the same man sneeze into the crook of his elbow.

“Sorry,” he laughs out and you wave your hand right when the car rolls to a stop. You smile; he’s not so perfect after all—but that just reminds you he’s more human than angel, so that thought is enough to bring you back down to earth.

“Don’t worry about it,” you say, then offer him your pack of tissues when he sniffles. He waves it off, but you push it into an open pocket of his bag as he opens the car door.

“Everybody needs a little help, right?” you laugh.

“You’re gonna kill it, Nina,” he tells you with a smile as he shuts the door. The car rolls again and even though you know your destination is right around the corner and knots are in your stomach—Sugawara’s smile and words just so happens to make you a little lighter.

-

#10 Kuroo Tetsurou | For fancifulthing | some random park lmao, 3AM

The feeling you get in the hours between 2:00 AM and 4:00 AM feels almost dreamlike.

There’s something about the world feeling so still; almost as if you’re caught in a limbo. Maybe a purgatory of some sorts, you used to think. Like a purgatory where there’s no one else but you, your thoughts, some grass, and the occasional car passing by.

It’s deafening. In the sense where the words from your thoughts are anything but quiet. And they’re loud; because they make their presence to you known.

Some days, they’re okay; a little trivial even. But more times than you’d like, their tone reminds you of accusations.

“What are you gonna do?” it asks, and you sigh and shake your head because you still don’t know.

“Are you even happy?” it continues, and you want to answer yes but at the same time you can’t lie to yourself just yet.

You like to think you’re happy; in a way, at least. There’s many things you consider yourself thankful for at the end of the day. A home, sustenance, access to education, parents, and the fact that you can even afford to spend time and contemplate the different possible scenarios of your life. At a young age, you realize not everybody has the luxury to daydream and actually believe in those scenarios at the same time.

Then again, there always will be that one percent that defies the odds and soars the highest, but for others, reality is the constant anchor that pulls them back down under the waves that intends to keep them there.

For the sake of happiness, you wish they aren’t kept there.

You wish you wouldn’t be kept there.

-

You see him, he’s approaching the bench opposite of yours with a 7/11 plastic bag in one hand. Maroon hoodie over some black sweats, messy hair and tired eyes. He reminds you a little like a tired writer, you muse to yourself.

You think it’s sometime around 3 in the morning when he finally takes a seat with a sigh, looks at you, and raises a hand in greeting, “Hi.”

“Hi,” you respond and raise your hand as a reply.

“I would ask you why you’re sitting in a bench at the park at three in the morning, but I’m doing that too so I guess you’re either locked out or your thoughts are too loud,” he says and crosses his legs to get comfortable. Your eyes flicker to the scar on his ankle but you don’t comment on it.

“Thoughts too loud,” you answer and watch as he nods his head like he’s already dissected and understood your story.

“Soda?” he offers and throws it to you when you nod.

“You’re prepared,” you comment and he laughs. It sounds pretty, you think.

When he asks you, “who do you wanna be?” you don’t have a specific answer other than the pull from within you that’s telling you that you want to be some else. The truth is, who you are at the moment is all you. There’s really no dramatic spill to it.

“You can really just answer that who you are at the moment is just you,” he says and looks at you with eyes like he’s reading your most intimate secrets.

“I hear people say that they’re doing something and wanna break out of it because it’s ‘not them’,” he pauses to take a quick swig from his can then continues, “—but the things is, that’s them.”

He looks at you like he’s expecting a response but you stare at him to go on, so he does.

“I mean, accepting to do something that doesn’t feel like you is part of your identity you know? We’re just constantly telling ourselves that this isn’t us, or, I’m not like this, and blame it on some other thing but that part we say we don’t like is just part of who we are. We’re the ones in control of what we filter in and do at the moment—so that’s really it. There’s no use in always chasing an idea of who we’re going to be and being sad in the days we aren’t there yet. That takes away the present.”

“But what if I’m not happy?” you ask him and you find yourself comforted by how his eyes soften with your question.

“Then today you aren’t happy and that’s you for today. Tomorrow, you change that,” he says and throws you a tissue when he sees you teary eyed.

“Sorry,” you laugh and he pats you on your shoulder as he reassures you that it’s okay.

“Just don’t live today being sad about why you aren’t in the tomorrow you want yet. Live things day by day because there are factors that change in between sunsets and sunrises.”

You smile and he smiles back. The world still feels still but you know the thoughts in your head are mellowing out when all you could hear now is the clink of your can against his as he chuckles.

The world between the hours of 2 and 4 am make the world feel still. And it’s nearing 6am when the sun’s beginning to rise when you part ways. You’re in your car when you finally notice the number he’s scribbled on the edge of the paper he gave to you as tissue earlier, his name, Kuroo Tetsurou scrawled in loops.

And just like that the world is stirring awake again.

You decide to be happy today.

[elizabeth-mitchells]

Not really an album since i couldn't choose one and leave others. So ignore if it doesn't fit your ask.

Florence and the Machine songs specifically: cosmic love, delilah, never let me go, what the water gave me, shake it out, howl, no light no light, over the love. Please and thank you.

Oh first of all so sorry this took so long but i’m so excited about this one!! basically, florence and the machine songs are perfect for Andy and Quynh! so let’s do it

Florence and The Machine x Andromaquynh

I’d like to personally thank Florence Welch for writing What the water gave me for Andy and Quynh and Andy and Quynh only. (also howl for the sexy angsty reunion that we WILL get in the sequel!!)

Cosmic Love

“I was in the darkness, So darkness I became” how is it that a song that sounds so pretty is giving me so many Angsty Andromaquynh feelings. if this isn’t andy grieving her loss of loss...

“The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out, You left me in the dark, No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight, In the shadow of your heart” that’s like... both of them. i mean, for Quynh is sort of literal, sorry Quynh.

Delilah

“Too fast for freedom, Sometimes it all falls down, These chains never leave me, I keep dragging them around” I don’t know but this one also gave me “Andy missing Quynh, dealing with the loss, wishing and waiting for her, coping (badly) however she can” feels

Never Let Me Go

“Looking up from underneath, Fractured moonlight on the sea, Reflections still look the same to me, As before I went under, And it's peaceful in the deep, Cathedral where you cannot breathe, No need to pray, no need to speak, Now I am under all” hm... see... i think miss Welch and Quynh probably have different opinion of how it feel to be drowning at the bottom of the ocean.. But!!! If we can pretend that at some point during or probably after freeing herself Quynh found some peace...

“And the crashes are heaven, for a sinner like me, But the arms of the ocean delivered me” I’m reading this as delivered her back home to Andromache <3

but also, I dont love the comics for the ending and the evil Quynh/Noriko, but the “crashes are heaven for a sinner like me” is a big mood for her

What the water gave me

the entire song. that’s it.

“And time goes quicker, Between the two of us” crying in Andy and Quynh have loved each other for three thousand of years

“Lay me down, Let the only sound, Be the overflow” now crying in of course Andy had tried to kill herself or drown herself or singlehandely swim to the bottom of the ocean to find her wife

“And oh, poor Atlas, The world’s a beast of a burden, You’ve been holding on a long time, And all this longing” that’s Andy. no i will not elaborate. That’s Andromache the Scythian

“Because they took your loved ones But returned them in exchange for you But would you have it any other way?” lastly but not least, crying in Andy blaming herself and believing it should have been her bc she lost her wife but also “a soldier” she was older and the leader and she lost Quynh and she wishes she could take her place

Shake it out

“Regrets collect like old friends, Here to relive your darkest moments” Andy :(((( there’s a lot of Andy in this song but! let me suggest:

“And I am done with my graceless heart, So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart” and “And I'm ready to suffer and I'm ready to hope“ that’s more about Quynh coming back, dealing with her trauma, finding hope again and looking for happiness and yes dancing with her wife

Howl

Listen... I’m the first one to argue that Andy and Quynh are no “chaotic” couple and I don’t want Quynh to come back a villain and angry at Andy but.... miss Welch made some points here in this song....

“Now there's no holding back, I'm ready to attack, My blood is singing with your voice, I want to pour it out, The saints can't help me now, the ropes have been unbound, I hunt for you with bloody feet across the hallowed ground, Like some child, possessed, the beast howls in my veins, I want to find you, tear out all your tenderness and howl”, did someone say dramatic reunion with homoerotic sword fight while this song plays in the background????

No light no light

“You can't choose what stays and what fades away“ you mean it’s not what time steals it’s what it leaves behind?

“Would you leave me, If I told you what I've done?, And would you leave me If I told you what I've become?” more angsty reunion vibes. takes me back to the comics and Andy having some regrets, and Quynh/Noriko doing some awful stuff, and of course after living so long they’d have things they regret, but maybe only they understand each other

Over the love

“And now to unsee what I've seen, To undo what has been done, Turn off all the lights, Let the morning come” Andy :(((((

“Cause you're a hard soul to save, With an ocean in the way, But I'll get around it” oh so this song was specifically written for andy and quynh. got it

bonus: Which Witch for obvious reasons, also Haunted House (yes they’re the titles of two of my andromaquynh fics + two of what the water gave me)

[selfcareparker]

okay fghsgdj yes you can say girl ! my pronouns are she/her :) okay but fr pause, i read this like 3 minutes after you posted it (or at least my notif said 3mins lmao) bUT IM IN BED AND I USUALLY HAVE MY COMPUTER OPEN WITH YOUR RESPONSE SO I MAKE SURE I ADDRESS EVERYTHING AND THEN SEND IN THE ASK ON MY PHONE HDGSJSH anyway, time to get my ass up 😔 but wait i find you so funny like honestly, reading that cracked me all the way up. and i feel the “lol” thing so hard!!!! idk why i do it all the time (i’m tryna stop) but i’ll say something with lol at the beginning and lol at the end... it might be a defense mechanism at this point lol (😔) AND (i need to stop with the uppercase too it’s not funny anymore) I DONT KNOW WHY I LAUGHED SO HARD JDHSK WHEN YOU SAID ALSO AGAIN HAHAHAH LIKE UR HAHHAH also my sleep schedule is not pretty either lmao but i’m homeschooled so i never have to get up for anything? hhdhsis idk but i’m glad you slept!! you need sleep!!

also (pls no i cannot) why did i not know what ykwim meant until i reread this?? like it makes so much sense- anyway! i think it’s so cool that you’re excited for university! idk why but i do lol like you’re getting ready for the future (masters degree and all that) & you’re (maybe) going to england anyway so that’s cool haha (hopefully when you go you can see your relatives 🤞🏾)

the fact that you get happy seeing my asks i- 💓💓

you make me wanna go to London & England so bad urghhhh like i’ve only been out of the country once (to Canada for a family reunion) but it sounds so prettyyyyy & i’m so sorry that cov*d is messing everything up and i hope you can see your relatives soon :(

now to address the whole english speaking/writing: I FIND THAT SO WEIRD DUHSKSJ i don’t know how an english speaking person could say that if you don’t write it 100% grammatically correct.... that it’s wrong? when literally, over here at least, WE’RE SO GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT HAHHAAH in both the way we talk and write!! and lol you’re welcome,, AND THE PARAGRAPH DID MAKE SENSE HDHSJSH & your rant is fine because... that is actually a bit ??? bc no one writes with 100% grammar lol

OH MY GOSH (see this uppercase thing is addictive) YOU STUDIED LATIN FOR 6 YEARS??? that’s really cool 🥺 the way that you know/speak 3+ languages i- NOT EVEN 3+ LIKE 6+ (german, english, latin, french, serbian, italian, and everything that comes with latin lmao) even if it’s just a tiny bit like wowee. it is really fascinating!!! i had the opportunity to take latin and i... didnt. i took art instead BUT ONLY CUZ MY FRIENDS WERE IN THAT CLASS AND ART LOOKED FUN IM SORRY

PLEASE WHY DO YOU KNOW EVERYONE?? that sounds so fricking cool tell your mom (mum or mama it’s really fine lol) that she sounds awesome. i think Jamaica would be fun either way!! i mean it looks pretty from pictures? i was a baby so i honestly have no recollection hahaha

LMAOO NOT U SAYING THIS IS LONGER THAN SOME OF MY FICS- PLEASE GIRL IM TELLING YOU I VERBALLY LAUGHED HAHAHAHAHAH but yea you really don’t need to apologize i like reading everything you say 🥺 HDKSHS AND UR FINE WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT ME BEFORE uhhh hmm uhh lemme think i, well, i saw chaos walking yesterday (big tom holland fan over here) and it was alright.. my mom acted a fool at all the jump scares LMAO but it was funny... since i’m talking about movies (this is hella random i know) but i like shark movies HDKJSSJ my favorite is the meg (it’s so good ohmigosh) and the 47 meters down movies aren’t bad either... i have two younger brothers... iiiii AM IN LOVE WITH MUSIC PHEW anddd i’m homeschooled (i think i mentioned that lol) i think that’s a good amount ahahaha AND IM HUNGRY RN JDHSJ

now. please. let me address the edit. i just want you to know that.. when i talk about your fics and i finish them and everything i’m not looking for more? like obviously if you’re writing i’m gonna read it but you don’t need to feel pressured or anything (idk if you do) to put more fics out lol like they’re great and i’m just sending the praise bc i love the ones that are there :’) but i’m so happy you’re working through your writers block!!! yay so so happy for you!!! and PUHLEASE anything you write is fantastic, i feel the exact same way when i write but girl. you’re fine. it’s gonna be great. (idk if this made any sense but... okay)

(and my cousin calls her mom mama so it’s really okay hahah i even call my mom mama sometimes) (and where you got the number “16 sentences” beats me but i still cracked up) (is this me pretending i had tags? maybe) HAHAHAHA OK BYE ❤️❤️ why did this take me so long to send i have no clue, AND WHY AM I OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING I SAID SHAJSHSJ ANYWAY BYE btw i love us too... like iconic // lovely anon 💓

me reading this:

also the dedication you put into sending me stuff— like with the laptop and phone and ahsksk 🥺🥺🥺

i’ll update you when i’ve started uni btw, i’m getting more and more excited every single day haha but i still have 3 weeks until it starts and even then I’ll obviously have to get used to it and everything, but you’re making me even more excited about it sksjshsg

yeah i wanna go to england too dkshsh let’s be sad together over the fact the we can’t travel eksjsh😔😭 but hopefully the wait will make it even better in the end <33 also i talk to loads of relatives over the phone at least once a week so it’s not too bad for me! but i miss their house 😭lmao

and i knowww snshsh so many native english speakers just make so many mistakes— and obviously i get that some things are slang but some things are simply wrong ajsh, the thing is no one has ever told me that my english is bad (i know it’s not bad anyway, but i’m still insecure) or no one has ever pointed out any mistakes, but yeah it’s mostly just insecurity dkshsg but yes thanks for saying what you said (previously as well as in this ask)😌🥰

Okay now for latin— girlll i don’t blame u for choosing art over latin esp. when all of your friends are doing art as well!! I’d choose art over latin as well lol skshsg but in year 6 we had to choose between latin and french, and at the time i didn’t like french? which was dumb of me and now i wanna learn french ekdhs but i don’t regret choosing latin at all bc if i properly learn french one day then i’ll already know understand loads of stuff (or at least some stuff lol) just thanks to latin 😌😌 but still, art>>>latin skskshshgs

I wanna watch chaos walking too!!! But i don’t get when/where/how it’s out lmao, cinemas are still closed here so i’ll either have to wait or find it somewhere online... il*egally 🥰 i don’t have high expectations at all btw but i like daisy and tom and the dog🥺 so i think i’ll enjoy it

GIRL SHARK FILMS SHARK FOLMS SKSJSHSHS okay so there are a few classics i haven’t watched yet, and also a few new ones that i haven’t seen yet BUT I LOVE SHARK FILMS SO MUCH SKSHSGSGSKK the first like proper shark film i ever watched was the shallows (which i like but my brain is still too small to comprehend what happened at the end (i mean i get it but i just can’t imagine it— idek if you’ve seen the film but skshhs)) and after watching it three times it does get a bit boring (but now whenever i see pictures or videos of big waves i’m just waiting for a shark to show up like come ON SKSJSG

^^^that pic/scene really traumatised me sksjsh but i still like the film

I only watched jaws like a few months ago, and i get that it’s a classic and also that it’s old and they just didn’t have the best.. equipment or special effects or whatever but i mean... look at meg and then look at jaws.... no disrespect to jaws at ALL but the meg is so much cooler. (That one scene on the boat where the shark just JUMPS OUT OF THE WATER AND SKSJSHHSUSJHA i get such a shock every time it’s so good (and the dog aww aksjshssli 🥺🥺🥰 and the boy with the ice cream lmao he’s iconic)

47 metres down, wow, i liked that film too. (i’ve only watched the original/first one i think) i mean that is such a fucking nightmare scenario like ALSJDHSNEMSKDJSHSJSKWBALSODUEWBSLDKHDJSNSKSKSHSGEBWKAISGSHEKEKSKLDJDJDHDHSHAGGA (that’s the best way i can express my feelings about that scenario lmao)

oh and i’ve recently been watching more horror films but i don’t know if they’re for me... I like the thrill and whatever but i just end up being scared for my life when i have to go to the bathroom at night or when i’m trying to sleep bc suddenly my mind is flooded with all the scary shit from the films 💀💀💀

and music i mean... you know those people who just don’t listen to music? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM???? i honestly like all genres especially in the last year, i am IN LOVE with Nicki Minaj + Megan andddd Stormzy and i like Harry Styles but i prefer his first solo album (and obviously one direction has bangers i have a throwback 1D session at least once a month), I also love MGK especially his new stuff and otherwise i mostly listen to german artists lmao. So who do you like?💖 (WHY DO I FEEL LIKE YOURE GONNA SAY SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT SKAHAGUS IF YOU LISTEN TO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MUSIC DONT JUDGE ME AJSHDJS) (i know you’re not gonna judge me but)

++ @ the thing you said about writing, don’t worry, i don’t feel pressured at all!!! (not by you and not by anybody else.. except myself sometimes lol) and i’m just very happy that you liked my fics 🥰🥰🥰 and if i start telling people that i’m writing a fic then sometimes it puts a bit of (healthy) pressure on me. like yes sometimes it really is writer’s block, but sometimes i really am just lazy ddkshhd so now that i’ve told you i’m writing a fic i might get my ass up quicker than i would if i hadn’t told anyone 😌😌😌

[mattiassamuelsson]

49 questions

tagged by: @swedishgoaliemafia tagging: @abstracthalo, @eichelholic, @happyatheart, @ronaldreghan, @richmondflyingsquirrels, and whoever else is bored lmao

1. Do you prefer writing with a black pen or blue pen? Black. and the gel ink pens by pilot. 0.5 pt. truly the only pen i use alskdfj.

2. Would you prefer to live in the country or city? I’ve grown up in rural country areas all my life, and while I do think it had some disadvantages (mostly being and feeling super isolated, being far away from my classmates so i didn’t have many friends, tbh that isolation is part of the reason i’m so obsessed with the internet now and am better a communicating over text than in person), i still think i’d like to live in the country. i love open spaces and being able to take walks in nature. i went to school in the city (kinda) and i missed having that.

3. If you could learn a new skill what would it be? I want to be able to skateboard so fucking bad. i want to be cool lads. or sewing. i had plans to pick that up and then my work computers took up all my table space and i’m lazy.

4. Do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? lmao no. i take my tea black and i am working toward enjoying drinking coffee black but i put milk in it for now. i don’t mind sugary coffee drinks (like tim hortons ice caps.... truly.... the peak of life), but regular brew coffee iced or cold nah.

5. What was your favourite book as a child? not to cheat or anything but a series of unfortunate events held a special place for me and still does. percy jackson was a big fav though. i still vividly remember the first time i picked up the lightning thief in my school library in middle school. it was on the bottom shelf and i almost put it back but then the boy i liked said it was a good book so i ended up reading it but anYwaY. we love percy jackson. heroes of olympus had really good potential it was just pulled in too many directions.

6. Do you prefer baths or showers? showers. they’re quicker and get you cleaner. i don’t mind the occasional relaxing bath but does no one else have the problem that they get cold in like ten minutes lmao... i do like my water really really really hot tho.

7. If you could be a mythical creature, which one would it be? something with wings. a griffin ?

8. Paper or electronic books? hmmm... i love the convenience of ebooks ngl. especially since i always seem to be reading at night. also it’s a lot easier to find a comfy position to read in when you’re reading off your laptop -- that’s one of my pet peeves of paper books. i’m never comfortable. but i do love the feel of paper and being able to make a book your own. i also love buying used books. ebooks can feel very sterile sometimes. random but i’ve literally wanted to collect a used hardcover collection of a series of unfortunately events for years now lmao...

9. What is your favourite item of clothing? this yellow flannel i got from target a couple years ago. the minute it gets cool out i fucking live in that thing alskdjf.

10. Do you like your name or would you like to change it? i don’t have an opinion on my name. i like my initials tho: mzg.

11. Who is a mentor to you? no one next question.

12. Would you like to be famous and if so, what for? not like... celeb fame?? but i would like to be an author someday and have people read and enjoy my books so... i suppose that is a degree of fame. maggie stiefvater : truly the dream to write and be like her. i think author fame is a pretty good deal tho bc people will recognize your name but likely not you so... yeah.

13. Are you a restless sleeper? i have a lot of trouble falling asleep but once i’m asleep nothing can wake me.

14. Do you consider yourself a romantic person? great question. still waiting to find the answer. looking at some of the ocs i write, maybe tho.

15. Which element best represents you? i want to say water??? it can be a lot of things. healing, soothing, angry, rough.

16. Who do you want to be closer to? my friends 😔😔😔 do i want to say chris... perhaps. but i think that ship has sailed lmao.

17. Do you miss someone at the moment? my cat....

18. Tell us about an early childhood memory. for years my parents and our neighbors ( from our old house ) have a cutout cookie making party around christmas time. and when i say years i mean junior year of college was the first time we didn’t have it since i was four and honestly my parents can’t even remember when it started. but... at least 17-ish years now ?? it’s one of the few traditions my family keeps and it’s a lot of fun. the first one i remember is when i was in like... montessori i think. and i had this sweater for the christmas play with a reindeer on it and i kept it on for the cookie party and got flour on myself and my mom said it looked like the reindeer had run through snow.

19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten? i will eat just about anything at least once lmao. i’m not a picky eater at all and i love weird combinations. freshman and sophomore year of college in the dining hall i used to douse my pancakes in maple syrup and hot sauce. truly the good times lads. but i guess for this i’ll say crickets even tho i don’t think it’s that strange. honestly they taste like pistachios.

20. What are you most thankful for? that i am employed by a good company that seems to care for the well-being and health of its employees. and i’m being paid pretty damn well for it.

21. Do you like spicy food? oh god yes. i say my approach to cooking is to just add a ton of garlic and cayenne pepper and hope for the best lmao. there is a point though where it’s not enjoyable. my dad brought home this dish from a thai restaurant once and i think i died.

22. Have you ever met someone famous? lmao no. not that i’m aware of anyway. i said hi to ror once. oh i did get to meet margret atwood. that was pretty damn cool.

23. Do you do you keep a diary or journal? no. it is something i wish i had the diligence to do. my mom and i always kept journals on family vacations and while it’s always kind of annoying to have to do every night it’s really such a good thing to do. i love reading those journals back and reliving the memories.

24. Do you prefer to use a pen or a pencil? pen. unless i’m doing math / engineering calcs. then a pencil is a must lmao. i took all my notes in school in pen tho for sure.

25. What is your star sign? i’m a leo but personally don’t care much for astrology. if you like it that’s cool, but for me it doesn’t do anything because i was adopted and have no clue when i was actually born so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

26. Do you like your cereal soggy or crunchy? a good... medium?? in the middle?? i guess?? i do put a lot of milk in my cereal bc i hate dry cereal. but then if i don’t eat it fast enough it does get too mushy.

27. What would you want your legacy to be? i don’t think you can really say what your legacy is going to be. you just have to do your best and what people see fit to remember you for they remember you for.

28. Do you like reading, what was the last book you read? i do like to read but it has been mostly fic. and as i’ve mentioned a few times i’ve been reading / writing via the rp side of tumblr a lot more as of late. but i think the last book i read in full was the golden compass back in april-ish ?

29. How do you show someone you love them? listen to them. make them feel special. everyone has their own love language and you should figure out what theirs is and do things that will make them feel like you care. it’s not going to be the same for every person.

30. Do you like ice in your drinks? yeah. ice cold baby. okay correction. i actually hate drinking drinks with ice but i like my drinks to be ice cold. u feel??

31. What are you afraid of? getting stuck doing something i don’t really want to do because i’m afraid to ask for something better.

32. What is your favourite scent? balsam pine. cedar. any kind of tree tbh. i have like five candles and they’re all various tree/forest scents lmao. okay but quick story time. last year a couple of my friends went to get me a christmas present and went to a candle shop but they didn’t know what scents i liked. and my one friend apparently said, “well, she drinks water right??” and so they bought me a like coastal theme candle. he rly said himbo rights right there 😔😔😔

33. Do you address older people by their name or surname? i don’t address them by name alskdjflasjdf. i have this dilemma every time i go to my friend’s house. i have no idea what to call their parents. it’s been seven years alsdkjfalsd.

34. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life? 

35. Do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? i love the ocean. i love the way it smells and the waves and walking along the shore. i’m not much for swimming tbh but i was once on the swim team.

36. What would you do if you found £50 on the ground? Keep it? depends where i am. like in the middle of nowhere?? yeah. in a store. ehh. i do think karma comes around. my dad once found $200 on the ground and left his number in case someone came back for it and they did. then a few months later he left $2000 in a cab in china (in a bag, we were on a long vacay hence all the cash. it’s not smart i know but it was before credit cards were hella reliable) and it all got returned so. yeah maybe not keep.

37. Have you ever seen a shooting star? i don’t think so.

38. What is the one thing you would want to teach your children? i don’t think i’m every having kids, biological or adopted so... copping out of this question.

39. If you had to have a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? you know tyler posey’s tattoo on his arm that’s like the two bands around his bicep. i still think that would look badass on me alsdkfj. also hot take but i love pld’s like random tattoos all over his arms instead of a sleeve. idk i don’t really like sleeves.

40. What can you hear now? something humming. probably an air conditioner somewhere lmao

41. Where do you feel the safest? in my room, wherever that my be lmao.

42. What is the one thing you want to overcome/conquer? my inability to really connect and speak with people right off the bat.

43. If you could travel back to any era, what would it be? 

44. What is your most used emoji? 😔😔😔 for SURE.

45. Describe yourself using one word. laidback. i hope??

46. What do you regret the most? not... making more friends in like high school and college?? idk. i’m just so fucking bad at making friends guys and that only gets harder when you enter the workforce.

47. Last movie you saw? oh god y’all.... it was................ fucking.... jupiter ascending. laksdjflasdkjf it was TERRIBLE. i was on a bad but entertaining movie run lmao. started with mirror mirror then pride & prejudice & zombies and then jupiter ascending....

48. Last tv show you watched? the first four episodes of season 2 of the order because i thought they weren’t gunna play me and get hamish and randell together and write a genuinely good lgbtq relationship from lilith but i realized i got so played so i didn’t finish the season.

49. Invent a word and its meaning. adhadita : the feeling you’re stuck doing something you don’t really love but aren’t sure how to get yourself out of it or what you rather be doing. from the latin adhæsit ( stuck ) & perdita ( lost )