#i also thought of the caesar lawlight fic in the shower

[totheidiot]

i feel like this is such a low hanging concept that i am certain that this has been done before but... lawlight time loop but with a tiny spin. the particular day that is being time looped is, of course, november 5. the original day starts of as normal, light (it's light's pov) wakes up the happiest man alive because he knows that today, he will kill L. without a doubt, he'll die. L goes to visit watari, rain scene, feet scene, the stuff that happened in the episode happens. L dies in light's arms and light couldn't be any happier. he takes rem's death note and makes a good show of his grief, once the day is done, he goes to his bedroom to sleep.

except. when he reaches his bedroom, he finds L there. L is on his bed, typing away in his laptop. light is most obviously confused and kind of frightened, because he just killed the guy today. but when light closes his eyes and opens them again, L is not there anymore. it was like he was never there at all. now, light doesn't understand this at all. maybe it's just a hallucination. whatever. he is tired, it's been a long day. he goes to bed and has a good night's sleep.

the first time loop day starts of as normal, light (it's light's pov) wakes up the happiest man alive because he knows that today, he will kill L. without a doubt, he'll die. L goes — wait. L is already dead, isn't he? why is he thinking about killing L? oh and, why is this day so familiar? light is sure he's lived this day already... whatever. L goes to visit watari, rain scene, feet scene, the stuff that happened in the episode happens. L dies in light's arms and light couldn't be any happier. he takes rem's death note and makes a good show of his – yeah. light has most definitely lived this day before.

and then the spin comes in, even though the entire day had been the exact same as the previous one, no change at all, there is actually one subtle change that light noticed has changed: when light hallucinates L in his bed in the day he died, the scene is always different. in the original day, he watched L type away in his laptop, the 1st time loop night he watches L on his bed eating sweets. each night, despite the fact that he is relieving the same day all of the time, what the hallucination of L is always always changes.

so time loop continues. light wakes up on november 5 everyday, feeling like the happiest man alive. it goes on.

now, i have half an idea of how the time loop ends and light has to do one thing: during the rain scene, he needs to tell the truth. that is all that he needs to do, he needs to tell the truth. it's not even that he needs to not kill L, because L is allowed to die, that wouldn't matter. tell the truth, that's it. and light kind of knows that that is how he can stop the time loop and move on. but the thing is. he can't. during the rain scene, no matter how many of the same days he has spent, he can't let himself be honest. just as it is inevitable that he wakes up in november 5 as the happiest man alive, just as it is inevitable that L will die, it is inevitable that he does not tell the truth. whatever the truth is.

and i would imagine that the fic would end in a very ambiguous sort of way where we don't really know if light ever decides to be honest. for all we know, he could still not be able to do it, he could be stuck in the same day of november 5, seeing L die the same way forever and ever, seeing a different hallucination of L each day. just because he can't tell the truth.