#i also know only yw can see dasein

[zorphie]

woah large post time

slams table!!! ok.OK.. so i have thoughts about the eldritch horror guy again (sorry)

ever since dasein finds out about the old one being a bad person, ive always thought that dasein deserves his own form separate from the old one. he feels guilt and also doesnt want to be associated with him either.. but we all know dasein still looks very similar to him

because dasein takes after yw a lot and is essentially learning about the world from them, i feel like he'd pick up similar hobbies. a safe and easy way for him to become "something" would be pursuing interests, finding out what he enjoys doing, and becoming his own person. the spiral interests him so much that he deserves to enjoy it and live life for what it is

been rewatching a bit of lemuria and i realized that the first thing he thinks of when stepping foot into the spiral is that he needs to serve a purpose, which is so sad.. boy..!!! i know he believes he'd fulfill a purpose if he pulled the whole novus thing but he must learn that he is so much more than that!!!

in summary dasein deserves to learn how to be his own person and he doesn't need to be self sacrificing to do so (manifesting happy ending for dasein in wallaru where he can do this and recover from everything hes been through. ok thanks)

[rug-glitch]

the more I create content with my YW I realize how perfectly I made her intertwined with Daseins story by accident like gonna go down the list here:

When she first gets to the spiral she realizes here she has the ability to do good things and in turn she wants to be good she wants to be something/someone who is loved and wanted because she wasn't back home

now she is never taken advantage of like Dasein but this line of thinking breaks for her after the events of arc 2 and going on to arc 3 she believes the "bad person" she was always told she was is who she truly is (she only goes through the events of arc 3 because she has no choice and believes by finishing this it will lead her back to the punishment she deserves which is being sent back home however she doesn't know there is truly no going back there)

after the events of arc 3 she has a total breakdown where she rejects it all and this stems from the fact she saw raven and spider the embodiment of light and shadow were flawed beings too this is turn makes her question what she has been struggling with this entire time and shes so burnt out she can't care anymore along with this she didn't return to her old life the whole idea she was only here because she was good? was that true or is that just how she coped?

which leads us into arc 4 where they meet and Daseins journey just reminds her so much of her own the trying to figure out good and bad and the doing the right thing stuff for her shes just brushed it off to be ill help people when they need help there is no grand reason its just simpler that way

however it really stings when he tells her shes a good person because it takes her back to wizard city when she was new to this world eager to help because she could there was no grand reason behind it however this where people sung her praises maybe she didn't change much after all this time? shes still doing the "right" thing to do Dasein helps her realize this and she can't argue really when he points out the flaws in her logic

By traveling with Dasein though it helps her come to terms with just the fact she wants to help like he does too. there is no grand reason behind it but maybe it isn't so simple either

However what really turns her around is losing him at the end of lemuria. They had grown close and he died before his journey even began and shes angry that it was him, someone so earnest, someone she truly thought was good. It brings up a lot of conflicting feelings but overall she decides her purpose in existence is to continue on for him where he couldn't.

he is her purpose for existing mid arc 4 I must stress this

Novus is a huge relief to her but also now she is ready to go the full mile for Dasein like he was given a 2nd chance AND SHE IS GONNA DO EVERYTHING IN HER POWER TO LET HIM HAVE IT

except its not that simple his dream she tries her best to respect it she tries to mediate and its a very painful lesson as she watches it come apart at the seams and sees Dasein fall into the same feelings she once had

BUT SHES STILL GONNA GO THE FULL MILE she refuses to give up on him she won't let him be alone it was painful for her to handle this stuff alone and if she can make it a little less heavy SHES GONNA

AND THAT SHE DOES and I think at this point they both realize they aren't here for any reason but more so they are here making that reason they are a brick in the world they wish to build after all!