#i also have snapchat but barely use it but if you wanna chat there i'm also willing sooo

[bananabraces]

am i overdramatic or is it weird me and my bf rarely talk like via text i would say over the weekend or wtv but no we like barely speak even tho everything's dandy irl and he invites me to like everything and it's awesome and i always try to start conversations or ask to call and he either doesn't respond for hoooours or declines which it's okay if he's busy or just wants to chill alone but like he could atleast let me know he legit let a group chat were both in know why he didn't reply before me i just get no explanation at all like it's not hard to text me and communicate you'll be away atleast so i don't look dumb the whole day trying to talk to you?? this happens all the time it happened today like 30 minutes ago and i honestly cried a little bit which i rarely do over him bc i had sent him like 2 snaps on saturday trying to make convo as well as on tiktok and he didn't reply to either until today and he only sent like a pic of his face in response to me on snapchat? didn't even respond to anything i sent or apologize for not texting at all but i just saved it in chat bc he looked good and said like what the fart it's been 2 daysss with a little bitmoji jokingly and he said mb my charger broke and i just havent been on my phone and i was confuzzled cuz i thought he didn't have a charger/it was broken so how would it break again so i asked and for no reason he's just like "bro yes bc it BROKE are you fr 🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️" ??? hello what did i do so i replied and said like "ok attitude😒" as a joke and he was like "mbbb that was mean" yeah?? and i said like literally and he just left me on opened. i don't get it bro like i'm thinking maybe he's going through something bc he was sad on halloween at school and he's seemed like just more tired he has since the start of school but yk like more tired but like he could just talk to me if he was i have literally said that like i always want him to feel comfortable around me and like he can talk to me about anything and i mean it so what the fart is going on. and maybe this is pushing it but i neverrrr heard ab any of this with his ex gf they talked EVERYDAY and called nightly. me and him also used to do that but not anymore and i'm just so confused and everytime i ask i feel guilty cuz i don't wanna have to beg him to talk to me i just want him to want to do that and make time to text me and call me bc he WANTS to. not cuz i'm his gf and it's expected or i want it. like bro idk should i talk to him or ask him if he's been okay or what i'm js tired of feeling stupiddd

[cursivebloodlines]

On another note I may or may not have just dropped my laptop :) It’s still alive but barely breathing. 

like, the back corner of it’s been chipped but at the moment, it’s still working since I’m typing on it. But I have a feeling I may need to start looking for a new one soon...just as I get back into writing. Nice. :) The charger for it is buggered off -- it only works if I have the charger in a very specific position. Half of the keys on the keyboard won’t work anymore, hence why I have a USB keyboard. 

I really can’t afford a new laptop, hence why I have a USB keyboard and haven’t bought a new charger yet. :( I’ve pushed it all back into place (like the frame around the screen and such) and so far, it’s working.

I’ll keep you all updated if it doesn’t! I can’t stand writing on Tumblr mobile so I’ll probably be poofing again for a while if it suddenly stops working. I’ll keep you updated!!!

Also, Tumblr has been realllyyyyyy shitty with sending me notifications when I’m being tagged in something or if someone is messaging me. So if anyone would like to keep in touch elsewhere, my Discord is cursivebloodlines#8329. I don’t really use Snapchat but I’ve been using Instagram a lot lately (may or may not be to talk to...a boy. but hey since I’m using that more often you may as well know!) my username on insta is jadestagram_ (very original. I know.) I follow back!!

I’m happy to give out my WhatsApp if we talk OOC or have written together in the past! I use WhatsApp a hell of a lot but I understand most peeps are probs not comfortable with that. Insta or Discord or here is fine. :) 

Much love! Sorry for the nonsensical rambles.

Also, with this coronavirus bollocks going on, please take care of yourselves, take care of the people around you and stay safe. <33