#i already KNOWWWW tell me something I don't know

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im sooo interested in what they could possibly be wanting to upload so bad after the rebrand like i was off podcast hill but now im back on and all i can wonder is what the hell will be the official dan and phil content like wtf are they cooking up what do they want to start posting that they felt like they couldn't until the rebrand AHHHHH like i need to know and I cant believe me from like 3 months from now will know

I KNOWWWW it's always so difficult to tell with those two because with the exception of the comeback in general, which they keep saying was very unplanned and casual, they're allergic to just doing something. they have to plan it out and make it a THING. to be fair i get it because i feel like 90% of the things they've started on a whim or just said they might do they end up dropping, and so now they're very careful not to tell us shit until they're 100% sure, but oh my god my blood pressure...

i've always thought a podcast would make a lot of sense for them, and there are definitely been plenty of hints that that's a possibility, but idek if that would tell us that much because that's just a slightly different format, the actual content could be anything. they could also do something that's podcast-esque in that it's longer and has some more casual bants/less editing but that's still heavily video focused, so instead of 2-3 shorter videos a week it's one long one that incorporates different segments. basically still a podcast but just enough to the left that dan doesn't have to call himself a podcaster lol

another option is they do different series of sorts, if they want to try out different types of videos without committing exclusively to one (likely thing for them to do lmao). kind of similar to the podcast idea but different videos, either one thing at a time (10 episodes of one thing then 10 episodes of another, a limited series but it's youtube videos if you get what i mean) or more of a like an 'on tuesday we post this and on fridays we post this' kind of vibe, except again i don't necessarily trust their ability to stick to a schedule

i feel like this is all over the place, i keep rambling for several hundred words and deleting it all because it's entirely nonsensical MAN I JUST DON'T KNOW. I NEED TO KNOW. i guess i just have very few guesses as to what specifically the content could be, but i keep wondering about exactly what you just said like, why does it have to be a New Era. they already post non-gaming on the gaming channel so it really does say format change more than anything, but what's the format!!!! and most of all what the fuck are they going to do with it!!!!!!! i'm going insane

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A Little 'Act II' SMAU ft. a little 'Ours' crossover

Jude Bellingham x Reader SMAU | Following the 'Act II' fic

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📍Madrid | [🎶Mamacita - Travis Scott🎶]

liked by Y/N.xx and others WhitneySmith Silence louder than ever 🤫 view all 405 comments…

Winnie.Baby1 Eating the girls up per usual 👏👏👏 User45 Nah cause how many flights you been on this month 😭 Ma7ell Went to Madrid and forgot me… fake sister. ↳Jobebellingham they’re all fake out here bro 🤝 Y/N.xx i’m not crying because I miss you already that’s just the wine 😭😭😭 ↳WhitneySmith i miss you i miss you i miss you User09 Something about this feels… curated? like I’m watching a movie. wtf? This is your life? User34 Wait… Wait… WAIT!?! Are Jude and Y/N together rn?!? Trentarnold66 Baby… Airing our texts is… not it 🙄 ↳Judebellingham Bro, we’ve known you’re a simp. Just embrace your truth ↳User58 No! @/Judebellingham you embrace your truth! Just tell us your dating her 😠 User982 Nahhh the way they’re both BAD 😭😭😭 how are we supposed to compete with this? User87 Is it me or does Trent never repost her?? ↳User30 It’s always the loudest love that’s trying to prove a point ↳User45 Meanwhile Whitney yelling in bold and italics 💀 ↳User31 No, this is real love, not the PR kind unlike others 👀 TobyBishay I fear the private jet is the new Uber XL Judebellingham No photo creds? Rude. ↳User909 Erm…??? Does this mean the war is over? User12 Detective mode: photo 8 = Y/N in Madrid with Whitney i.e. Jude. I fear we’ve been caught lacking. Maman103 You look stunning, comme toujours ❤️ User111 can you relax �� some of us are trying to stay emotionally stable in public

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📍Madrid | [🎶Flocky Flocky - Don Toliver🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others Judebellingham ​Blessings 🎰 view all 3,012 comments…

User45 What does this meannnn?!? Are you with her?!? Tell me 🤬 User76 He’s in love. I don't even need confirmation I SEE IT. ↳User899 Unfortunately, I think I'm in love with her too User71 Don’t act shy now, drop the hard launch next 👀 User13 Let me go cry real quick 🧍‍♀️ Trentarnold66 On repeat bro 🔁 ↳User09 Can you lot be proper rivals ffs I have money on these matches. Thnx lads. ↳Judebellingham Bet. User09 One photo dump and I lost my imaginary man. This is SICK User76 I fear this man is in love and hiding it from the world User909 Just say you love her bro it’s okay 🫠 User177 Cama, what do you knowwww?!?! ↳Camavinga No sé 🤐 User62 It’s a soft launch scavenger hunt and I’m thriving. User788 Who are the girls in the car… I need to know IMMMEDIATELY. User125 Please just be friends. Please just be friends. Please just be friends. ↳TobyBishay We’re just friends promise xx ↳User00 Not you 😭😭😭 User34 Can’t even post her properly, coward 😒 Winnie.Baby1 Obsessed. like, unhealthily but maybe an invite next time would be nice xx User28 When did Jude become the man that makes us all single in spirit? User199 y’all… this is it. We’ve arrived at the soft launch. User85 Some things aren’t meant to be hidden forever and I fear Madrid’s making that clear. User250 Tbf whoever it is has amazing taste

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📍Madrid | [🎶Top Floor - Gunna🎶]

liked by Judebellingham and others Trentarnold66 Moments Sky won’t put in my highlight reel, but should 💃  view all 2,391 comments…

User99 Now this is the real kind of love. Someone *cough-cough* should take notes 👀 User834 Does @/Skysports even have a TAA highlight reel? LOL ↳Skysports We have one, we'll add these if he’d like ↳Trentarnold66 🤝 User00 The way you’re holding her hand 🥲 Judebellingham They only see the game. I remember the plane. ↳Y/N.xx you lot are so corny sometimes… User812 congrats to everyone witnessing Trent and Jude’s softest eras User81 Is this your version of a mixtape?? TobyBishay Not the finger flex 😭 We get it, you work out bro User000 This post has no business being this cinematic. Relax. User56 This is really nice, but can you accidentally post a pic of Y/N and Jude together next time? Thanks! Sincerely, everyone xx WhitneySmith Babbyyy 🫠🤤🫠🤤 ↳User81 honestly, same girl. User273 We get it, you were moody and in love in Madrid 🫠 User10 Ok and who approved you two being this pretty Winnie.Baby1 Every time you two post it’s just serotonin User22 just say you’re in love and go 😩

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[🎶Ferrari Horses - D Block Europe, Raye🎶]

liked by Judebellingham and others Y/N.xx Madrid was good to me 🖤🍒 view all 609 comments…

User99 So THIS is Mrs. Bellingham?? I’m crying in my bed rn. User834 We’re doing soft launch bingo now? User12 THIS ISN’T FAIR User72 Slide 4 is JUDE. Slide 7 is TRENT KISSING WHITNEY. So if I'm doing the maths correctly, you're on the double date with Jude right? 👀 Trentarnold66 Dinner 10/10 😮‍💨 ↳Y/N.xx Company 11/10 🤝 User811 I’m actually going through all five stages of grief in one comment section User00 Why did I think I had a chance with any of them. This is crazy. Winnie.Baby1 You’re both shit at hiding it btw 😇 User65 madrid loss is wild but THIS??? Unreal WhitneySmith 9 Made me gasp. Legs??? Coat??? UR HONOUR??? User16 GIRL STOP PLAYING IN OUR FACES User034 Bro she got him smiling on jets instead of training 😭😭 User78 I miss the old Jude. The focused jude. The ball-is-life Jude. Now he’s in slide 4 cheesin like a simp 💀 JudeBellingham good to you… or was it me 😉 ↳User033 Please stop breaking my heart with these mf winks User45 Photo taken in Paris i.e they went to France after the match confirmed ↳User91 And that 5th pic of her? WHO TOOK THAT??? Location Paris??? TobyBishay soft launched, hard exposed 💀💀💀 ↳Y/N.xx delete now… User2 I want this girl blocked from Jude’s phone rn. Respectfully. User700 The first lady of Madrid rn I don’t make the rules. User66 I’m literally nauseous I didn’t need to but I’ve zoomed into every pic ↳User8 Same. Not me overanalyzing every pixel User45 Why she always post like she’s trying to convince someone? User90 Baller bags the hot girl... story as old as time 😂

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📍New York City | [🎶Skeletons-Travis Scott🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others Winnie.Baby1 My people are finally home <3 view all 75 comments…

WhitneySmith Wherever with you. Always xx ↳Winnie.Baby1 K but I prefer when you’re here. Y/N.xx My sister fr 😭😭😭 ↳Winnie.Baby1 Stay forever pls. ↳JudeBellingham Eh, we’re gonna have to pass on that one Win User56 Why did I just stumble across TAA’s gf sister? ↳User56 Edit* Apparently Jude’s gf’s bestie too?? Help 🧍‍♀️ JudeBellingham Think @/carbone delivers to Madrid? 👀👀👀 ↳carbonefinefood @/judebellingham we’ll hook you up king 👑 ↳Y/N.xx Unbelievable 🙄 User899 Shoutout to the girlies with taste because to have footballers in your kitchen is one hell of a SNACK 😮‍💨 ↳Winnie.Baby1 Just friends xx TobyBishay Thanks for the invite. Cheer mate @/judebellingham User10 Imagine friend zoning Jude and Trent LOL ↳Winnie.Baby1 They’re literally like my brothers please 🤢 ↳JudeBellingham Emoji DOES feel a little rude 🤏 but that's fine.... WhitneySmith I’m also giggling at slide 2 of you and Jude ↳User222 Wait so is this the girl who dates Jude? I’m confused. ↳Winnie.Baby1 No! I’m not the one dating him! OMD! ↳User19 Okay then just spill the tea girl! ↳Winnie.Baby1 can’t even post in peace anymore with @/judebellingham huh? ↳JudeBellingham Soz.

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📍New York | [🎶Taste - Nemzzz, D Block-Europe🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others Y/N.xx Or Nowhere 🤍 view all 1,145 comments…

User89 I zoomed in and screamed tbh JobeBellingham this what we doing now? 👀 User20 ohhh we’re soft launching for real! User92 Girl I’d get back with him too 😭😭😭😭😭😭 Winnie.Baby1 She got expensive taste. 😤  She been serving face 😤  User50 Are the boys in slide 9 dating? ↳JobeBellingham We think so ↳JudeBellingahm @/jobebellingham🖕 User74 Oh he’s BURIED in the nape of her neck. omg. User010 She’s in her muse era and we’re just watching him fall for her more every post. User38 The Goyards? His Goyards? Him with his Goyards? Him in her bed with his Goyards? Louis98 Gonna have to say some prayers for Manhattan this week, hein? ↳Aurelientchm Au moins ils sont pas à Paris. User295 That bed got used. I know it. Maman103 Je ne sais jamais dans quelle ville tu es la plus belle User411 First you steal Jude and now you post this? You win. Hope you're happy 💔 User861 From Paris to NYC to his heart. We’ve lost the war ↳User47 Dragging this boy's heart all around the world fr. WhitneySmith Just two girls tagging along on their couples hol ↳User89 Wait I’M CRYINGGGG 😭 ↳Y/N.xx Genuinely. It gets to a point… ↳Trentarnold66 Alright… we’ll go without you next time 🤷 ↳ WhitneySmith Would be funny except you two would so... User111 Don’t think we didn’t clock every detail of those boys in the background 🕵️‍♀️ TobyBishay bro liked this in under a minute @/judebellingham stand up mate User20 I know he took that last slide and that's personally offensive to me. Judebellingham Yooo lads in slide 9 are lengggg 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 ↳Y/N.xx Blocking you ↳ WhitneySmith OMD Pls. 🙄

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[🎶Merci Beaucoup - Pop Smoke🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others JudeBellingham Clearest I’ve breathed in a while. view all 5,034 comments…

Trentarnold66 Uno cards 🤝 essentials User56 With NYC pollution? Sir, you’re either lying or you're in love. Camavinga Ah, l’amour à New York… très cinéma 😂😂😂 User100 R u tired? Why r u always sitting or laying down? ↳User78 The girls got him working in that bedroom lol. User00 The green goyard looking awfully familiar 👀 User38 no location bc he knew it would send us all into cardiac arrest 🫠 Thanks for looking out for our health, king WhitneySmith Making me take that pic to send to her was low key cute 🥺 User90 Jude listening to Pop Smoke 💀💀💀💀 ↳User88 I’m delusional reading into it but NYC artist + French song title = Her User12 Did he just hard launch her? Slide 6? ↳JudeBellingham That’s my mate 👍 ↳Trentarnold66 Just so we’re clear that is my Whitney with him. My girlfriend. Thanks. ↳JobBellingham Hahahahahahaha ↳User34 His Whitney 🥺 ↳WhitneySmith @/Trentarnold66 You don’t ship us? I rate it ↳Trentarnold66 Steady… User01 Unfortunately, I know that is Y/N’s hand in slide 4. WE’RE DONE. I'M SICK. User92 Found the bf filter pack huh? 👀 Toby Can I just say… the caption is giving lover boy. Got you in shambles. User95 Anyone else think he looks like he's not having fun 👀 User46 I support this union. You look happy and moisturized 💅 Winnie.Baby1 The real ones know who’s behind the camera rn Aurelientchm Mon frère… c’est fini pour toi

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📍Home | [🎶Brum Boy or Scouser - KAVO, Vinny 🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others WhitneySmith Got these girls acting naughty 🙃 view all 305 comments…

User100 okay okay but now I really like them 🥺 ↳User08 I’ve accepted Whitney and Trent… sigh. They’re cute. ↳User45 Yeah but Slide 7? Jude and Y/N? It’s end game ↳User299 Don’t make me sick. They’re deffo not. ↳User19 You mean the couple in slide 8 right? Jude and Trent lol Winnie.Baby1 Can you and @/Y/N.xx move back now? ↳Trentarnold66 No. ↳Judebellingham No. ↳Winnie.Baby1 woah ok… relax. User70 Big shoutout to Manhattan for giving Trent a baddie User677 WHITNEY GIRL. You’re leaking relationships EXPLAINNNN Ma7ell Wasn’t a one night stand tho was it @/trentarnold66 😂😂😂 User56 Trent is gonna fumble this. I feel it in my soul. He’s too quiet on her 😒 ↳Trentarnold66 nah, mate. We’re calm. Thanks for the concern tho ↳JudeBellingham Pressure? What pressure? My bro 🤝 User78 2 NYC girls + 0 subtlety = 1 very chaotic week for the fan girlies User18 Ok but how do I get into this friend group. Let me in🧍‍♀️ Y/N.xx I’m screammmminggg at the song 💀💀💀 User23 This is insane. Their friends are getting careless!!! THE TIMELINES. THE LOCATIONS. THE SLIDES. WE’RE BEING FED. Trentarnold66 Love u and ur city, baby. Take the song down now tho. ↳Judebellingham nah, so serious. now Whit… ↳Y/N.xx She said Brum town the best place on earth!! 😘😘😘 ↳WhitneySmith Crying. User67 Plot twist: the girls are crashing Jude and Trent’s dates. And I stand by that. ↳WhitneySmith Not not wrong 😭 User09 Not the IT twins exposed for being in TWO serious relationships and thinking we wouldn’t notice. JudeBellingham You left out the part where I was the one who paid for your EIGHT DOLLAR lattes for a week 😒 ↳User56 Babe, you play for Real Madrid ur fine. Pay for the girl's coffee. ↳Y/N.xx 👏👏👏👏

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[🎶Feel Good - Charlotte Cardin🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others Y/N.xx Brought a little something back to France with me 🪽 view all 520 comments…

User100 Oh she’s in LOVE with him 🥺 JudeBellingham Chips were mid but company was elite, angel x ↳User82 Claim her alreaady!?! What are you doing?!? User45 Erm, respectfully girl, no. You brought SOMEONE back with you 🙄 Maman103 Mon amour, je t’aime ↳Y/N.xx je t’aime aussi xx User78 BABY GIRL WHO LET YOU POST LIKE THIS 😩 User40 UGHhh she’s STUNNING… Aurelientchm Enfin bref 😂 User52 Hey girl just wanted to let you know that I think you’re dating fucking JUDE BELLINGHAM User10 The Paris glow. The bare back. The wine. Jude’s hoodie. Jude’s hand. Jude’s LIFE?! DeniseBellingham2 You look so happy, sweetheart ❤️ Tell Jude I said behave! User80 My man Jude went from Dortmund to Dior real quick WhitneySmith that’s crazy… Never been jealous of Jude before ↳Y/N.xx 💀💀💀 User000 You guys. It’s her. THE hand is back. THE cellar is the same. THE planes. I’ve made a spreadsheet. User30 To all the girls just go ahead and skip to slide 7… Louis98 C’est pas trop tôt! Glad someone other than me can pay for all your drinks. Cheers @/judebellingham! 🥂 User167 Okay… but I wanted to have chips at 3 am and hold hands with Jude? Rude. User20 Strangely… I think I want to be Jude in the relationship 😅

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📍France | [🎶YSL - Elji Beatzkilla,June Freedom 🎶]

liked by trentarnold66 and others Judebellingham Recharge 🔋 view all 3,027 comments…

User09 No because this is literally just her. Trentarnold66 👀 oh so we’re posting now bro ↳Judebellingham it’s just wine barrels and vibes, don’t overthink it mate ↳Trentarnold66 nah, nah, nah 🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️ you don’t even believe that User22 Hello NASA? I think we just launched User09 I blinked and he’s someone's boyfriend at her chateau. WTF User55 Oh he’s comfortable at her house like that?? Louis98 My bro 🤝 ↳Judebellingham 🤝 ↳Y/N.xx D’acc… User09 JUDE VICTOR WILLIAM BELLINGHAM OMFG K.mbappe Mon frère 👏👏👏👏 ↳Y/N.xx 👀 ☠️ ↳Judebellingham @/Y/N.xx Easy... ↳K.mbappe 😉 ↳Judebellingham Delete that comment now, bro 😂 User57 Not her painting on his back… we’re in the trenches ladies 😭 WhitneySmith I know someone who smells JUST like YSL 👀 User88 Ginger, huh? 😏 Winnie.Baby1 not the lyrics being “angel right in my palm” Jude, you melt 😩😩😩 User600 Is he gonna sign for PSG. Why’s he always in France now? 😂 😂 😂 User45 Me zooming in on every pore of hers. Y/N.xx Enfin là 🪽 ↳Judebellingham mon ange ↳User40 EXCUSE ME?!?! MY WHAT?!? User12 Unfortunately, she’s a vibe. Sigh. Camavinga La chance que t’as 😂 You training at all? ↳Judebellingham Course just refueling in Burgundy 🍷 ↳Aurelientchm Frr Bordeaux > Burgundy ↳Y/N.xx @/aurelientchm Nan, t’abuses User56 Who is she? I need the skincare routine, the wardrobe, the life plan, the coordinates. JobeBellingham bro omd just post her face atp! User89 Goyards are back and so is this girl lol TobyBishay This doesn’t look like preseason, mate ↳Judebellingham 🤐 User22 Oh it’s over for us girls 😭 he’s taken and she’s GORGEOUS

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Pick A Card: What They Want To Tell You Right Now

Pile 1

9 Of Cups, Wheel Of Fortune, The Tower

What have you done to this poor man? I beg you please STOP! Hahahaha, all jokes aside I'm scared for this man's well-being, he is being tortured by you my BEAUTIFUL, STUNNING, FERGALICIOUS siren. You are soooo glamorous and he is falling head-over heels for you. He was PUSHED into this. This reminds me of Alice In Wonderland, "I was just there, you knowwww. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME? I just wanted some milk for my cereal then BAM!"

Please, I beg you give him a break he can't even talk right now, he is in the corner quietly hyperventilating, about to put his head under cold water, no, BOTH HEADS. I'm sorry but girl, where did you bag this one?

Anyways, now that he is FINALLY, letting me speak for him, thank you baby boy, ahem, I want to mention some signs and symbols that manifested when I started shuffling: No Chill by PND, 10:10, the movie "The Mask", Jessica Rabbit.

Now, let's jump in: You are a dream that got manifested into my reality. I don't know what I did to deserve to be blessed with your existence my ethereal vixen. I spend my nights thinking about you, dreaming of a future where we ride on my motorcycle/driving in my car (I'm getting something luxurious-as he should), my hand grazing your thigh, your perfume intoxicating me as much as your presence. You make me feel high, drunk in love. You are the best part of my day, your presence is a NEED, not just a want. When I don't see you I go crazy, my head starts hurting and my heart goes cold. When I see you I come alive, my heart skips beats, it is EXACTLY like going 200km/h on a summer night. The freedom, the exhilaration, accelelrating, my blood pumping all over my body begging for a release. I'm so scared, terrified but at the same time I can't stop, I won't stop (dopamine/adrenaline). I want to spoil you, you are mine. You are my little girl, my baby <3 You are so precious to me princess, my queen, my GODDESS. I lowkey love it when you dominate me, as you already dominate my mind and my heart. You own me, I just want you to say the words that you are also MINE, for life. I will tattoo your name across my chest, I will shout that I love you from the tallest building/mountain. I want everyone to know how proud I'm that I'm yours. You are my everything, you are perfection, you are special-different, but what do I do? How do I keep you, how do I even get you? I panic when I'm around you. Let's just make it till the morning, give me just one night, just one, I promise I will make you feel sooo good. I know that you are a gift from the Universe. It is torture seeing you and not touching you. I would inhale you like a fine dish. I want to eat you. You glow, holding sacred mysteries behind those beautiful sparkling eyes, the stars are in there I swear! I love your smile, it lights up the whole world. It's like everything else around you is dark and you are the only bright thing, like the stars in the sky but you are like, the only STAR. My STAR. I'm so scared you will just go POOF! one day and I will look for you around like a crazy person. I took a gamble and then God brought you here, but do I deserve someone as perfect as you? You are otherwordly, ethereal, hypnotic... I need to take a breath, a cold shower and some time away or I will pounce and I will not be able to press on the break, I will go all-in when it's time and you won't be able to stop me. Just say you are MINE, only MINE.

Pile 2

The Devil, 9 Of Wands, Justice, Strength

This energy is much more mellow and guarded. Your person is someone with a more feminine energy. Here are some trinkets I want to share with you that came through while I was doing the reading: fear, Sorry But I'm Outside by PND, waiting, getting played, puppet, Bound 2 by Kanye, BPD, big D energy, Moment 4 Life by Nicki, Tapout, Cleopatra, Real Woman by PND

This isn't someone that wants to share a lot with you. I might use the pronouns she/her a lot here, because I channel a very hurt feminine energy. I'm actually sad over your person's energy and I would love it if you took a moment to pray for them and send them some good energy cause they really need it. I will be writing the following things as if they would say it BUT they would NEVER EVER say those things aloud. They are the type of woman that keeps a straight face and is well acquainted with her masculine side. They might be the eldest sibling, someone who was always seen as mature for their age. The following words talk about their inner state and how they are feeling, they are more of a confession and not what they would say to you.

I'm feeling really hurt right now. It's not your fault but I'm always seeking mistakes and faults that will prove that you don't want me enough and actually I'm happy that in the moment it is pretty easy to do that as you have left me hanging and ran away. How could you leave me here all alone? How can you distance yourself from someone you love? Why? I've had so many sleepless nights, this love is daunting. I'm suffering because of you. I'm trying to break this pattern of my disorganized attachment style. I'm trying to balance my fearful nature with faith. I'm my biggest enemy. I have many problems right now, unrelated to you. You were my escape, something that gave me hope there could be a better tomorrow. I wanted this to continue. I'm very sensitive to other people's actions. I love hurting myself, I love suffering as I feel this is the only way I will get rewarded with something. I feel like I'm meant to suffer, like I deserve it. I think that I will need to forget you too or the ways you hurt me so we could have a chance in the future. I'm very close to giving up in general, but especially when it comes to this connection. Why don't you save me? Why are you leaving me again?

That's all I could get from them and it is veryyyy personal. They would never say those things to you. When you see them again they will probably just listen and tell you it's okay. I think that spirit wants you to know those things so you will treat them accordingly. Now, let's continue the reading with more details about them and this connection.

Your person could have undiagnosed BPD or suffer from other mental issues that have been caused by a stressful childhood. Actually, the words I channeled come mostly from their inner teen who suffered a lot and faced abandonment again and again. Your girl is the epitome of a "good girl". She is scared that you're just playing with them, "leave a pretty girl sad". She might have a beautiful behind. For them, admitting their issues is the first step towards helaing. I don't think they ever had anyone that loved them unconditionally or helped them heal. They see you as THE DEVIL, lol. You're tormenting this beautiful, gentle soul. They are quite pessimistic and think that there is nobody out there to love them. Save me by Nicki Minaj came through and that's when I started seeing them differently, along with the next cards that followed The Devil. There is a huge difference between how and the world see them versus how they see themselves. You see them as a "prized possessions", like loving never made as much sense as it does now while you look into their eyes. Poor baby, the voices in their head don't let them see their greatness. They need reassurance. You think that they are solid and do not care as much as you care about this but they are going through it! SHAME ON YOU! GO HAD THAT BABY RIGHT NOW! They are tired and close to giving up on this connection and isolating themselves AGAIN, until their wounds close up.

You see them as royalty. You think thay have big D energy, no matter their gender. They are crashing out right now, boiling on the inside. You and others see them as an asset, as mature and fine as hell. They are like "No, *crying face* I don't want to do this againnnn!". Their public persona is way different than their emotional side. This is the type of individual their parents left them alone at 9 and were like "Oh they will be fine! In fact let's leave the baby here too and the dog. She'll handle it!"

This is someone who just says to themselves "Okay, let's do this." They put their big girl pants on and get down and dirty. They feel like they do all the work and someone else always gets the credit and awards. Promises unfulfilled. So strong and resilient though. As much as they want to stop they can't, a fire is always lit inside them. This is someone everyone would want in their corner. They can't stop even if luck is against them. They go down fighting. Whatever it takes... A warrior.

She is a feisty one, damn! I'm hearing "heavyweight champ, here to get everything they deprived me of, brink of success, I can't believe I'll make it". This person doesn't have a big ego. If you told them how great theya re they would just brush it off. "You're a star in my eyes." They truly are but they do not believe it. This oerson will sure be retiring with the ring/crown, marriage will happen for them, the big luxurious house will happen for them, the money, the sports cars, the happiness, the peace everything, they won't stop until it happens cause something is pushing them, this inner strength...

They need to tame their inner beasts, anxiety and fears. They are gentle and strong inside. Seem scary but are filled with self-doubt. Your union will happen when you decide that it needs to happen from a place of personal power. Loving and compassionate. They make all others tap out, literally, perseverance. They ahve the power of transforming others through gentle loving. They are rare, irreplaceable (Another One Of Me by The Weeknd). This person will be blessed by karma because they have integrity and honesty and they will get back their kindness x10. Theya re also your karma, hahahha, be careful cause they will act like a mirror, they will hurt you as much as you hurt them, or life will take care of you, if you hurt them, They are divinely protected.

Pile 3

The Sun, Page Of Wands, 5 Of Swords, 3 Of Swords

The song When It Comes To You by Fridayy immediately come sto mind when I'm channeling this person's energy. They are deeply regretful about the way they have treated you so far. They want a fresh start and they are coming in with their little toolbox ready to fix everything, powerpoint slides in the background showcasing all their strengths and weaknesses to convince you that they can be "the one" for you. Some other songs: Glad You Came by The Wanted, Regulr Girl by Tyga, Chris Brown.

"Hey, baby. You didn't expect that did you? I'm focused only on you. You are my sun, moon and stars. Gosh, I can't even talk properly when I'm around you. I can't think straight, your light shines so bright! Anyways, I think that you have put a spell on me. I've been forgetting things lately, I can't focus on anything else, I can't drive or do other daily tasks. My coffee has too much sugar or no sugar at all as I forget how much I've put in, lol don't judge me. I stumble over my words! You witch!

I'm really grateful you showed up in my life. Life was so mehhh without you. We look so good together, I've already visualized everything. What I'll b wearing on our first public outing and how beautiful you will be looking, your hair cascading down your beautiful back, your waist SNATCHED with my arm around it. Lady...You drive me crazyyyyyy! I'm so excited about our future! Don't leave, I'm coming!! I promise, I know our start was rocky but we can ride away together, we have so much potential, you'll see it will be PERF!

I have wasted enough time with my fears of not being good enough and I-I get lost in your eyes. When I get close to you my throat closes up, I overthink everything. How will I take you out on a date, I won't even be able to drive! I will crash somewhere. You little minx! It's your fault I've lost my mind!

Anyways, goodnight babyyyyyyy! Kisses all over!

[returnofeternity]

(i loveeeee the way you write butch reader you’re actually amazing) sooooo butch!r giving lottie backshots just to make her feel better about not hearing the wilderness anymore, and you already knowwww that girl loves praise so trust she’ll be receiving it

synopsis. helping lottie after she lost the wilderness

pairing: lottie matthews x butch!reader

genre: 18+,

wc: 1,088

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you hate to see your girlfriend sad.

it's even worse when you don't really know how to comfort her about it.

you were never connected to the wilderness like she was, but you know how she'd describe it to you. feelings of a calm wash, serenity, and safety. but now it's gone. replaced with emptiness and an uncomfortable silence that caused her to stop talking and mope around all day.

you'd just stick beside her, holding her hand and whispering comforting words into her ear as you kissed her cheek, telling her that It'll come back to her. eventually, she started to talk again, thanking you for being there for her, and she stepped back into a leader role, despite nat being antler queen now.

the girls still looked to her for guidance, and you always felt pride swell in your chest when they would ask her for the final say in things. she still has It inside of her, you think. you just don't know why she can't hear It.

she's still sad as ever about not being able to hear It of course, and today, you decided that you were going to cheer her up in a different kind of way. your kisses and words can only help so much. so, you lead her to the spot where she always takes you for her little therapy talks, which usually result in her ranting to you about how upset she is, and plop down on the leafy ground.

"c'mere." you pat next to you, but lottie does what she wants and sits on your legs, throwing her arm around your neck as she gets situated. you smile and lean up to peck her lips, leaning your head back against the tree you're up against, and sigh. "still no luck?"

she goes quiet and shrugs her shoulders, playing with her fingers while her arms are wrapped around your neck. "no. It's completely gone. that... calming feeling, i would feel it deep in my bones, but now it's gone."

she continues. "did i do something wrong?"

"of course not, lott." you say while rubbing her outer thigh. you feel helpless seeing her so sad. she looks down and pouts, and you gently tilt her chin up, staring at her lips as you speak. "maybe... It just needs nat right now. i don't know. i wish i could help you."

she hums and smiles sadly at you, leaning her forehead against yours, sighing, and closing her eyes as you start scratching behind her ear. you can't help but stare at her pretty face as she nuzzles into your touch, and you're drawn to her lips again, so you lean in and capture them.

she makes a tiny noise that causes heat to wash over your body, and you sit up a little straighter as you get needier with your kisses. she pulls you in closer, obviously just as needy, and you feel her tongue poke yours.

lottie's face reddens as things get more heated, feeling herself becoming lightheaded at how you kiss and touch her. she pushes your shoulders back against the tree as she moves on your lap, accidentally kneeing you in your strap bulge, which causes you to clutch her hips and groan.

"sorry." she apologizes breathlessly, her eyes twinkling when you look up at her.

you let out a small chuckle and shake your head, holding her back from pouncing (which makes her pout) so you can scoot her to the side as you get on your knees.

"i was thinking... i wanted to make you feel better. de-stress you." you explain, looking at her with nothing but desire as you undo your belt buckle and take out your strap. "let me take care of you."

she releases the most pleased sigh as she watches you stroke your strap, and her hands thrust them away so she can do it for you. you appreciate the gesture, but you tut, easily grabbing her wrists and holding them up.

"what part of me taking care of you don't you understand, pretty girl?"

lottie's lips tremble at your authority. she always loves being challenged.

you command her to take off her pants and panties and to get on her hands and knees. she follows your orders obediently, turning her head back and complaining when you get distracted by staring at how she sways her hips for you as she waits.

"you're so beautiful." you whisper, tapping her hips twice and leading her back a bit so she's nice and close to you. "and so powerful."

you grip your strap and slowly enter inside of lottie, giving her time to adjust. she whines at both the feeling and the praise, her hands digging into the dirt as you scratch her back while gently moving your hips.

but she gets impatient and greedy and scoots back to make you sink in more. you can't really be mad at that; all you wanna do is give her what she wants, so you give it to her. you sink in all the way and hold her hips still as you stretch her out.

"god, fuck." she groans, lashes fluttering as she squeezes around your plastic dick.

you relish those broken whimpers she lets out as you start moving your hips, holding her shoulder as you pound into her with passion, her pleasure being the only thing on your mind.

"It's still inside of you, i can feel it." you mewl, leaning over and hoisting her up a bit so you can grope her chest. "you're Its favorite. you're my favorite. my leader—the best leader."

all lottie can reply with is whines and whimpers as she takes in your praises, her brain turning to mush. she manages to nod along, panting heavily at how you twist and pinch her nipples.

"keep going." she mumbles, and you don't know whether she means keep fucking her or keep going with the praises.

either way...

"they all look up to you, whether or not you hear the wilderness. you're special, lottie." your hand has a bruising grip on her hips as you relentlessly fuck into her, the other hand kneading her tit. "i know It'll come back to you, and when it does, it's going to be great."

lottie lets out a long string of cuss words as she cums around your strap, her body convulsing and twisting. she slumps back into you and laughs as she comes down from her high, sighing when you kiss her neck.

[hesbuckcompton-baby]

BAND OF BROTHERS TERROR AU. TELL ME. NOWWWW

OK!!!! I'm not going to put everything in here because I don't want this post to end up HUGE (EDIT: this post ended up massive anyway), so I'll talk about the main components and some stuff I like, and if people want me to go more in-depth and discuss other side characters I will.

Tagging people who commented on the original post in case y'all want to read @latibvles @fearlessjones

Herbert Sobel is the original captain of HMS Erebus - he is the Sir John Franklin figure, he's incompetent, and whilst many of his higher-ups know he is ultimately not suited to such an expedition, they let him lead anyway because they like him, and they hope he will finally get some glory amongst all his failure. However, perhaps his key flaw is his keen dislike for the captain of the HMS Terror, Richard Winters.

Ok, I KNOWWWW people are gonna think that Nixon would be a better fit for this role, because he arguably resembles Crozier much more, but WAIT. For those of you who haven't read the book, it is said that the HMS Erebus has absolutely NO alcohol in its stores because Franklin does not drink. If this is the case here too, and Lewis Nixon is stuck as Sobel's commander, this will send him insane over time. Nixon and Winters are very competent leaders, so for this AU to work I need to break them, and what better way than to weaken Nix from months of withdrawal at sea with Captain Fucking Sobel? Combine this with Winters refusal to indulge him with his own alcohol stores, and now there's a wedge driven between the two before they're even stranded.

But even so, Winters needs something that will impede his own leadership, and for him, I think that's his sense of responsibility for his men. Winters is always striving to find a solution that will cause the least amount of damage to his men - he wants them safe, and he doesn't care if they have to turn this ship around and head home to do it. But he can't. By the time they get stuck in the ice, there is no possible solution he can come up with that won't result in his men's suffering or even loss of life, and this leaves him jaded, wearing him down as the situation becomes even more dire and he has to watch more and more of his men killed by the cold, sickness, and the Tuunbaq. This will get to him, and it will impede his ability to think rationally.

Right, now for the Lieutenants. On HMS Terror, you have First Lieutenant Harry Welsh, Second Lieutenant Buck Compton, and Third Lieutenant Henry Jones. Whilst Welsh and Compton are very competent, much like their captain, Jones has risen through the ranks due to little more than wealth and connections. Whilst he could not purchase his commission, his family manage to pull the right strings, and now he's here with very little experience and absolutely NO respect from the men, already making way for the system of leadership to be undermined before things ever get serious.

On the HMS Erebus, Captain Sobel (And eventually Captain Nixon, once Sobel is killed) have First and Second Lieutenants Ronald Speirs and Carwood Lipton. These two are excellent in a crisis, and when the crew becomes despaired as Sobel's incompetency and Nixon's declining health as a result of his withdrawal, they are given the heavy burden of trying to raise morale and keep the men's trust as the situation grows ever more dire.

Chief Surgeon of the HMS Terror Eugene Roe has gotten a lotttt more than he bargained for with this expedition. Yes, he takes his job seriously, and yes, he came here to help people, but more than anything he just wanted to be a part of something real, to see the Passage with his own eyes and know he had helped to make a difference. But now his surgery is crammed with victims of the Tuunbaq and men displaying very unusual symptoms that he doesn't quite understand. He's losing sleep and he's losing hope, and he doesn't know quite how to cope with the knowledge that he isn't as good as he thought, and he truly cannot save these men.

Captain's Steward David Webster believes he's made for more than this. He's educated, no small feat when half the men on the Terror can scarcely even read, and he feels his skills are wasted running around after Captain Winters. But he comes from a high-ranking Naval family, and if he ever wants to make something of himself there's little option but to work his way through it unless he wants to be stuck doing this forever. As time passes, he begins to grow bitter at his position, which is why when Caulker Roy Cobb begins disparaging Winters' leadership, his words begin to make sense to Webster.

I've planned roles for all of the notable characters in BoB but I do not want to write a fucking novel on this post, so please let me know if you want to see more!

[yesyourstalker]

Mahi: so let me get this straight. He's not letting you go to the music festival?...... Are you serious? Warabie You're a grown man. Just tell him no..... It's not like he can stop you.............. Okay that's fair....... Yeah I mean..... okay I get where you're coming from. That is a valid fear...............no this is my last week and I'm done doing this shit for her.....

Cirrina: *humpf*

Mahi.......ugh........ I could never put Baja in this situation. This is a living hell.

Cirrina: *scoff*

Mahi: yeahhh..... I gotta head over to my train stop. I'll text You later. Bye............. Alright....I have to go to class.........have fun I guess

Cirrina: whatever.... I'll give you the passes like I promised

Mahi: sounds good to me...see ya

Cirrina: alright come on girls let's go

Friend: You think you can convince the other Tetra to walk to the train stop next time?

Friend 2: yeah he's cute and he's actually nice

Cirrina: *huff*

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Neta: *sigh*......hmmm..........hiii.....

Ikkan:.hehe...hi...[kiss]

Neta:.....(Stretch)....... I need to get used to you being here. Usually you're not here around this time so when I see you I kind of get startled heh

Ikkan: well you better get used to it cuz I'm not going anywhere

Neta: you promise?

Ikkan: yes neta I promise................

Neta:.......................

Ikkan: what? What are you staring at?

Neta: you ... I like looking at you.... you're nice to look at. [Kiss]......

Ikkan: hmmm.......

Neta: what do you want to do today?

Ikkan: I don't know. we can work on our wedding invites we already picked up the design. You just need to send them out...... We still need to look for Tailor...... I know one that used to dress me for award shows...... Let me see if I can get her....to make us something nice. What color are you thinking?

Neta: what color are you thinking?

Ikkan:hmmmm would it be embarrassing to say that I was thinking of wearing your favorite color.... green

Neta:......ha.....no.....I was actually thinking of doing the same thing. I don't think I'll look nice in purple tho........

Ikkan: I think you'd look really nice....... maybe a dark eggplant or raisin would suit you.

Neta: I'd look like an eggplant

Ikkan: hehehe [peck] no you won't

Neta: why don't we make a day out of it..... Get some friends.....go to a tailor and just see what we like....

Ikkan: yeah.....i'd like that. Sounds like a nice plan....let me just send an email to Nel so we can plan this out. Do you know who's going to be your best man yet?

Neta: ehhhhhhh...no...... I don't have any close male friends........besides you......... Do you want to be my best man?

Ikkan: *heh*..... I'm sorry but ...no........Being serious that's something you need to do.

Neta: who's going to be your best man.... warabie?

Ikkan: Noji....... That makes sense right? Have my brother be my best man........ I don't have that many male friends either......

Neta: well shit. We're just friendless losers aren't we? Hehehehehe

Ikkan: pretty much hahahaha

Neta:.....*sigh* I'll come up with something................... hello? Yes this is her father...... Is there something wrong? Did something happen?................ Yes, she should be in school..... she's not?.....ok how often?......... On Friday?........3 weeks?!......a D?..........*sigh*.....ok......*huff*..... Thank you for calling me. I'll talk to her when she gets home.. alright............. thank you.

Ikkan: did something happen

Neta:*sigh*.........no..... yeah..........*ugh*...........hmmm..... It's my fault. Honestly this is my fault.

Ikkan: what's wrong?

Neta: looks like my little girl has skipped school every Friday for a whole month......... I try to be lenient and let things slide............*sigh*......

Ikkan: You can't be the fun parent all the time babe

Neta: I knowwww........ just

Ikkan: You can't just let her get away with that, especially when it's almost the end of the school year, this might affect our final grade. You can't let this slide...

Neta: I don't like punishing her. She always gets so sad when I do it.

Ikkan: Neta.

Neta: I know....

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Warabie: dad please go home

Shimi: $3,000? You spent $3,000 on a crib? Who is she? Or he or they or whatever!! Tell me right now!!

Warabie: oh my Cod for the last time Dad I didn't get anyone pregnant! It was just a gift to a co-worker

Shimi: I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!

oshi: ink drop it's ok You don't need to be embarrassed about these things. Hey if you let us meet this person maybe we can help them

Shimi: no! I'm done helping and supporting your friends financially! We finally got that one out of our house!

Baja: huh?

Warabie: Dad that is not mahi You know what they look like.......

Shimi:......................... whatever ....... all your friends are starting to look the same anyway, who did you knock up?!

Warabie: for the last time I didn't get anyone pregnant! I'm not an idiot I use protection! Plus I'm not even in a relationship anymore.. and we didn't even do anything in that relationship.....Baja!

Baja: huh? what? I-what?............

Shimi: well?!

Baja:..........*sweating*.....................Uhhhh.........we never! We didn't!... I haven't...well...... I'm not.... I mean I am but.......... I I I I......................

Warabie:...........

Baja:....*Swallow*.......... I'm uh......... I'm actually a virgin....*clears throat*

Warabie:.................................................................see ................................... And he's the last person I dated........so there!

Shimi: ............................ok............... So what was the crib for?

Warabie: I just told you I bought it for a co-worker. She's pregnant! I just did it to be nice, dad!! Is that so wrong!!??

Shimi: It's wrong when you spend $3,000!! Show me this woman now!

Warabie: *sigh*........

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Candi: so how many schools accepted you?

Fugue: all of them so far! I even have one offering me a full ride scholarship! But it isn't my dream school.... I'm still waiting for Brackish to contact me

Candi: well keep your options open sweetie. You have a lot of opportunities

Vinny: yeah I never went to college. I went to trade school. . You can learn a lot. Carpentry, electricity, and plumbing. I went there for welding. They need a lot of welders

Shimi: which one of you is Candi! Is it you?

Candi: can I help you with something.......are you Shimi Octavius?!.. Oh my cod my mom loves you we've seen all you movies!

Shimi: oh hehe...thank you I'm very flattered. Did my son get you pregnant?

Warabie: DAD! OH MY COD!

Candi: Ha! Him?!....hahahahahahaaaaa...... I'm sorry that was a little mean..hehe ...no ....no .... No, I'm married.... it belongs to him..... I do appreciate the crib he bought me though

Shimi: hmmm.... alright.........

Warabie: Great! we can go home

Oshi: oh You're glowing honey. How far along are you?

Candi: oh I'm 4 months or so. 3 three more left hahaha..*sigh*...

Oshi: well I can tell you from experience those 3 months go by fast.

Candi: oh I know.......this one actually isn't my first one....

Oshi: really?

Candi: oh yeah and I have one at home. He's five going to be the oldest soon

Oshi: my oldest is 37

Candi: no.......you look so good!

Oshi: thank you...... You know we age gracefully

Candi: we really do. I think that's one of the benefits of living underground for so long..... and we actually know how to use sunscreen.

Oshi: hahahahaha....... warabie she seems really nice. Why don't you try to-

Warabie: mom! She just said that she's married! Can we just go home?! You've already humiliated me and you've made my roommate uncountable. Let's just go!!

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Shimi: ..............

Warabie:................... All right so everything's cleared up good bye

Shimi: when will you learn that you cannot just throw money willy-nilly like that? I honestly thought that this would teach you to be mindful with money and know the value of hard work. Apparently I was wrong

Warabie: ugh..... Dad I am fine. All right I pay my rent, I pay my utilities, I pay Fair share with streaming services and Wi-Fi. Why are you still on my ass?

Shimi: I am on your "ass" because even though you do all those things, it still feels like you don't know the value of a dollar and you still rely on us for financial support. People who actually have to worry about rent and utilities Don't spend $3,000 on a crib.... You could have chosen something cheaper You could have bought her something less expensive like clothes or toys. Something reasonable yet and still you decided to buy something that would be for an average person working out of your price range.

Warabie: so! Big deal I can afford it.

Shimi: and that's the problem. You can afford it but what if one day you can't afford it what are you going to do if that happens. Are you prepared to live an uncomfortable life? Are you prepared to not have everything you want and get everything you want just by opening your wallet?

Warabie:...................

Shimi: I'm not doing this to be mean warabie. I worry about you...... . Sometimes I feel like I failed you as a father........

Warabie: so you think I'm a failure?

Shimi: I never said that........

Warabie:.............

Shimi: warabie............. I just want the best for you and I want you to not rely on us all the time..... I want you to be independent, actually independent.

Warabie:hfff

Shimi: when you and mahi lived together the first time.

Warabie: dad please don't bring that up-

Shimi: when you two have that falling out, you left them on their own. They had to support themselves on their own, They got a job on their own they didn't get any help and look at them now. In school and in a higher job position If they can achieve that without any parental help, I'm sure you can do that too. I know you can do that son. I know I'm hard on you but I

Warabie: alright I get it........

Shimi: okay all right. I'm glad you understand. Then you'll probably understand why you're going to krillarney next month.

Warabie: what?

Shimi: yep I called your little brand mate's father and he'll gladly take you in to help with farm work

Warabie: are you fucking kidding me?!

Oshi: warabie!

Shimi: nope. You're going to work on the farm for one month. Do hard labor and actually earn a living and maybe learn some skills to

Warabie: what uh... I can't! who's going to pay part of my rent and utilities and everything if I'm not at my job?

Shimi: oh you'll pay it. With the money you earn at the farm. I just hope you earn enough to pay your fair share.

Warabie:..................I can't believe this! Are you serious? What if I don't go?!

Shimi: well then you can say goodbye to your credit card and your savings account and your checking account cuz we will have full control of all of it

Warabie:.........................

Shimi: your choice

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Neta: The whole month Cirrina! You skipped for the whole month!

Cirrina: I only did it on Fridays I don't see what the problem is.

Neta: it becomes a problem when it starts affecting your grades. I can understand 1 day but 4 days! Cirrina you should know better!... I'm very disappointed

Cirrina: so what. I do what I'm supposed to. I take my tests, I practice for band, I go to turf war practice. I do everything just fine and nothing has been affected.

Neta: your grade dropped to a D in social science You missed several tests

Cirrina:oh

Neta: *sigh*......... Crab Cakes......... I emailed The principal and ...... fortunately she's not that smart. I lied and told her that you had to go to swim practice

Cirrina: inkfish aren't allowed on the swim team

Neta: I told you she's not smart.....your teacher on the other hand is very smart and but he likes you so he's allowing you to do some work over the summer to bring your grade up.

Cirrina: I have to go to summer school!?

Neta: No, you don't have to and you're lucky you don't but he does want you to write a five-page essay. On anything any subject matter doesn't matter. You just need to write five pages.

Cirrina: That's it? I can do that in my sleep.

Neta: Wait. wait I'm not finished...... You're grounded for........... 3 weeks..... That means no going out with your friends on weekends or after school. No turf war unless it involves practice with your team is that clear?

Cirrina: ugh fine I don't care.

Neta:.......ok......um..... unfortunately I will not be able to give you the passes for the music festival.

Cirrina: those weren't for me. Those were for Mahi I promise them passes if they didn't snitch on me for skipping

Neta:.........................................ok... I'll deal with that later..... you know what? You know that ink fast concert you wanted to go to? Yeah I'm not getting you tickets or meet and greet passes

Cirrina: so I'm not allowed to go?! You said if I passed my algebra exam I could go!!

Neta: oh you're still allowed to go. I'm just not going to buy you the tickets. You're free to buy them yourself ..... let's see they're selling around ehhhhh $600

Cirrina: That's not fair I don't have any money!!

Neta: maybe during the summer you can get a job. Hey you can work with me maybe you can learn some responsibility. doesn't that sound fun?

Cirrina: ew Cod no!! I don't want to work with you or your grody employees!!

Neta: well I guess you're not going to the concert oh well it gives you more time to write your essay.

Cirrina: daddy please you promised meeee!!!

Neta: no Cirrina I'm sorry You need to learn this lesson!! You can't get away with everything I have to put my foot down on this. If you can find a way to go you can go but if you can't I'm sorry

Cirrina: that's not fair!!!

Neta: Go to your room.... Your punishment starts now.

Cirrina: ..I HATE YOU!.(SLAM)

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Neta:.....….........................she hates me

Ikkan: she doesn't hate you... She's just not used to not getting what she wants.... Do you want me to talk to her?

Neta: please.

Ikkan: (knock)... Cirrina....(Knock)........hey .. are you okay?

Cirrina:....*sniff*.....go away......

Ikkan: come on Cici don't be that way.... come here

Cirrina: *crying*... it's not fair

Ikkan: Cirrina You know you can't get away with everything....

Cirrina:........

Ikkan: I get it. I know you guys talked about it and he promised you but you need to understand that he's not doing this to hurt you or to wrong you in any way. Actions have consequences sweetie you know that

Cirrina: .................. I know.

Ikkan:.... You don't hate your dad do you?

Cirrina: no

Ikkan: no...no you don't....... ..I think I have a better punishment for you........ and maybe it could help you get your tickets to your little concert.

Cirrina:............

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Neta: on a farm? in krillarney?...... In another country?

Ikkan: I'll be with her, along with her grandfather.., and Warabie........It'll be a great subject to write her essay..... it'll be good for her she'll have fun

Neta:..... I have to think about that....... why is warabie going to be there?

Ikkan: hehehehe I didn't tell you?...hahahahaha.... It's really funny.. his parents thought he got someone preg- hm hi Cici

Cirrina:..............I'm sorry I skipped school and I'm sorry I said that I hate you dad. I don't hate you I love you

Neta: I love you too crab cakes...aww..[kiss]

Cirrina: so I'm not grounded anymore?

Neta: you're still grounded baby

Cirrina: damn I tried... still love you tho

Neta: awwww.....

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Mahi: krillarney?? Isn't that like where they grow corn and raise manatees??

Warabie: yeah

Mahi: You got to stay there for a month?

Warabie: yeah..

Mahi: hehehe

Warabie: It's not funny Mahi stop

Mahi: you're right I'm sorry it's not funny

Warabie: .you want my tidal wave pass? I can't go to the music festival

Mahi: oh nice..... ....

Neta: here's your music festival passes Cirrina promised..... I don't appreciate you black mailing my daughter Mahi.

Mahi: I'm sorry it won't happen again boss thanks for the passes I got to go byeeeeeee

Neta: hum

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Mahi: hey babe you want to go to the tidal wave music festival?

Mizole: no

Mahi: are you still mad they didn't ask you to perform

Mizole: I don't care if they don't want my band to play

Mahi: ok I just got 3 passes so if you want to join me you can

Mizole: no

Mahi: :(

Mizole: fine

Mahi: :)

Mahi is the only one who got away with their actions and learned nothing from it good for them @fish-at-fish-fish-resort

[halfdeadwallfly]

big excited vent below! good news, i think, that i have been dwelling on and need to get out somewhere haha

tl;dr - i'm co music director in training for my acappella group now :)

this morning i officially signed up to run for co- music director of my acappella group, since our current md's are graduating. anyway this is like basically my dream thing to do, i love directing, and i already have so many ideas for our music, but also, it kind of just hit me that this is now actually something that has been voiced out loud and is. . actually going to happen, and that's veryy scary. like it's not 100% ofc but it's just me and one other guy, and we need two md's, so like. it's basically set. and i'm soo excited but also like really scared, bc i have experience directing in high school, and let me tell you, that shit sucked. no one took me seriously, and even the few days where i directed and taught were so draining. and the group i'm with now is definitely kinder, but i'm also a freshman, and even i feel like there's something at the very least annoying about me trying to put myself into a place of authority, if that makes sense. it was bad enough in high school when i was a senior leading other students. now i'm going to be a freshman, and eventually a sophomore when i really start, leading a group with juniors and seniors, not just other students (well yes students) but also real adults. like there are 21 and 22 year olds in this group like college students but also literal. literal adults. ik technically i'm an adult. but like, hardly lmao. and i do not feel like it's my place to be telling these older people what to do. even though i really want this position, and basically nobody else is going for it. i don't knowwww ahsdfhhh. i did get a vote of confidence that i think (?) was genuine from the current md's, so that's good. i just really really really hope this goes well. i'm excited! and hopefully people will be kinder than they were in high school lol. and! and! if they don't want me as an md, to just vote to have the one instead of two! bc really i'd rather that than to get voted in by default you know. ach. i'm so scared for this. but i love to sing. and i love to direct. genuinely, one of my favorite things, just to listen to an ensemble, and to have ideas and to grow and to shape the sound. there is a litany of holy shit oh my god oh no fuck oh my god just. running. in my head. since at least dinner. several hours. and anyway. this is going to be.... well it's going to be whatever it is. shit. jeez. anyway i'm already thinking about next year lmao, god if i make it to then, i'm going to be helping run auditions. grr. anyway i would apologize for a lengthy paragraph but you know this is my blog and no one's obliged to follow me or to read what i post so. shrug. i feel strange.

[dokoni-mo]

I’ve arrived with more horny william brain rot!

There is little doubt in my mind that our favorite afton to slut up likes to read. He’d probably love to share that with his darling bunny. And you absolutely know that man is making the polaroids he took into bookmarks. He just loves to see his bunny everywhere!

Bunny is in fact a college student, and sometimes certain classes end up requiring/give the option for a field trip. And that trip happens to fall on a weekend. They’re a little bummed, Willy is like actually depressed (lol), so bunny decided to hide a little something for him. As a ✨treat✨

So when afton wakes up Saturday, he reaches over for his book to read a little (because what else is there to do when his little rabbit is gone), and his usually bookmark feels a lot more lumpy than usual. So he opens it and what does he find? Polaroids of his precious, lovely bunny in nothing but his shirt, and a pair of her panties 💜

YEAH i uhhh,,

warnings: age-gap relationship (reader is 20 will is almost 40 yall know the drill), swearing, smoking, drinking, dom/sub undertones, sir kink, not proof read AGAIN IM SRY

"What? What do you mean the whole weekend?"

It had been an especially hard week for the brit at his diner. For one reason or another, it seemed as if nearly every single damn brat in that town just had to have a birthday that week. The diner was booked from start to finish every day of the week. William was frustrated. But every day drew him closer to the weekend. Closer to when he'd be able to see you again. And god did he fucking miss you. He missed his little bunny next to him; kissing them, holding them. Coming up with so many fun activities to show you.

But, it was in the past now. It was Friday. You'd be over tomorrow, and help relieve him of his pent-up stress like the good bunny you were.

Right?

Wrong.

"I knowwww, I'm sorry!" You pleaded with him at the other end of the phone, the older man taking a long, drawn out puff of his cigarette, "I just totally forgot about it until today!"

William sighed as he rubbed the bridge of his nose, leaning against the wall, "And you're certain you have to go, love?"

"Yeah..." you sighed back, "It's required for my major. And I already rescheduled it last month, too. I can't do it again or I fail."

"Bunny, the weekends are our time together. You know this."

"I knoww, and I'm sorry! I'd stay behind if I could but I just can't. I'm sorry, Will. I'll be back for next weekend though!"

William took another puff of his cigarette, "Are you certain you can't come over even for a little? I... I miss you, bunny. It's been a tough week, and... I want you."

You let out a sympathetic hum, "I miss you too. But I have to go. I'm sorry."

"Alright." William sighed, "Fine. But don't expect to get off the hook next time I see you, little one. You need to tell me these things sooner rather than later."

The brit heard you giggle over the phone, "It'll be fine, Will. Surely you can survive two weeks without me."

"Getting smart with me now, hm?"

"No, sir."

William let out a pleased hum, "Good bunny. I'll miss you, okay? Have fun for me, alright? I'll be here waiting for you."

"I will, I will... Hey, before I forget; you remember that book you gave me, right? The old, thick and dusty one?"

"It's not old, love. It's classic."

You giggled again, "Classic, sure. Well, I finished it. I'll leave it in your mailbox before I go. Maybe that'll keep you occupied until I get back."

"Nothing could replace your company, little one. But, thank you. That's very kind."

"It's no problem. I gotta go pack now, Will. I'm sorry again. I'll see you next saturday, okay?"

"...Alright, bunny. Have fun. I love you."

"Love you too."

~~~

It was odd to have an empty house on the weekends. While William was used to Michael being away at his mother's, the house felt more depressing than usual without you in it. Dull. Grey. No life whatsoever.

William didn't drink often, not at all. He never found it to be that classy, and he wasn't about to throw his charm to the wind over alcohol. But god fucking damn it. He missed you so fucking much that Saturday afternoon. His cigarettes weren't having their usual kick to them. He needed something stronger to fill the void where you should be.

Pouring his second glass of whiskey for the evening, he couldn't help but wonder how you were. Your college was taking you an entire state away from him. Those fucking bastards. How dare they drag you so far away from him. What if you got hurt? Or in trouble? And he wasn't there to save his precious bunny? You knew his number, sure, but you were still so fucking far away from him. And a lot can happen so many miles away.

William took a large swig of the alcohol.

Fucking hell. He missed you so damn much.

He knew you didn't mean to tell him about the trip so late. You were a good bunny. Hell, he was the entire reason you didn't go when you were supposed to. He vaguely remembered convincing you to stay in town the first time you told him about it. You had just forgotten this time, surely. He couldn't stay mad at you for that. It was hard for him to stay mad at you in general. You were just too cute.

But William was miserable. He didn't want this shit to happen again. You would need to learn your lesson. And he'd make you learn it next time you were over.

But would he? Thinking of it now, it was hard for him to imagine giving you any sort of punishment. He just wanted you close to him. To pull you in his lap and kiss those sweet lips of yours. Hold you close to him. Lie down on his chest while he read his books before bed.

Oh, yes. That's right. The book he leant you. You said you'd give it back before you left.

Maybe he should take your advice. Use it to get his mind off you.

Finishing up his glass, William finished up his glass before he walked to the front door, opening and shutting it behind him as he made his way to the mailbox. The cool breeze of the sunset blew his neatly-combed hair out of place, washing over his pale skin. Upon opening up his mailbox, sure enough. The book he leant you was in there. But, it was... strange. Looked a lot fatter than normal.

The older man reached in and took the book out, brow furrowing in slight confusion. Leaning against the mailbox to shut it, the brit opened up the pages to see inside.

...

Oh.

William could feel the heat creep down his neck and cheeks.

Oh.

Oh, bunny. Sweet bunny.

Strewn about the pages was a handful of polaroid pictures. Pictures of you. In so many different positions... so many. He could see the plushness of your thighs. Your sweet little smile. Those big, gorgeous doe eyes. Your cute little pair of underwear...

You even still had some of the marks he'd given you last time you were over. And was that his dress shirt? It certainly was. How long have you had that, little one? Why, sir barely noticed that it was gone. Stealing his things now, are we? Naughty bunny.

You've been so bad recently, haven't you? William didn't much appreciate that. You had earned yourself a punishment, bunny. You probably know that just as sir does though, don't you? Was this your attempt at getting out of it?

William calmly shut the book, but quickly walked back into his house.

It worked, bunny.

For now.

[seijorhi]

i am a rhi idolizer

you deserve whatever you need and want in life. what do you need from Me?

i am having the hardest of times trying to formulate my thoughts because when I try to comment on something, i just end up reading the whole fic again and again. i have to tell you—oikawa isn’t even my favorite character (it’s kuroo!), but your characterization of him is so utterly brilliant that i come back for more. you already knowwww how i feel about your characterization, but what really stood out to me for this specific fic is how deeply layered everything is? how you were able to present two conflicting emotions, yet weave everything together so seamlessly? oikawa’s duality — how he presents himself as the almost too perfect husband and father all the while having complete control and forcing the reader into a horrible situation. how the reader feels about hatori — both trying her best to care for the boy, but also having those moments where she can’t help but resent him for getting her into this situation in the first place. not to mention her own feelings towards oikawa — recognizing he destroyed her life, but admitting to herself that under all that, she probably loves him too. hating her own daughter; calling her a parasite, but also her child being the reason she has the courage to leave. you’re too much.. you’re too much rhi!! seriously, you’re an actual genius and i hope you’re doing amazing in life. if not, i will personally fight your demons. just lmk.

GRR i just wish she brought hatori along with her. yes, he’s oikawa’s son… and yes, a part of her blames him for all this.. but Also, she knows how oikawa will raise him. how the abuse and isolation wouldn’t stop with her :(( oh poor baby, he really deserves the world. sweet boy

sorry for this long message, i could go much longer but i’ll spare you from my wailing. i love you. thank you so much for writing this and shattering the bar.

p.s. that little hermit crab fact made me giggle and added some warmth into this sadness - 🐦

sorry for the long message, she says, as if this ask isn't sending me to another plane ghfjdkfvhbfjdkls I LOVE YOU!!

also you're just gonna come in and drop the fact that kUROO is your fave?? ma'am?!??! honestly i miss writing for kuroo he was one of my first hq loves, it's been over a year y'all have been so patient over this kuroo drought.

but yeah, this one definitely has a whole lot of mixed emotions. poor reader loves her kids so much but :((

and hatori, okay first of he is the cutest i know i wrote him but he is the most adorable little 2.5 year old and i would fight the world for him. the reader would too. it kills her to leave him behind, but running away on her own is one thing. oikawa can go to the police and file a missing person's report and all the officers would take it Very Seriously (but she's probably just mad at a fight you guys had they're sure she'll be back soon).

running off with his son would be kidnapping, and going to the police with that is a whooole other story. in the meantime though, poor hatori's gonna bear the brunt of oikawa's shall we say 'issues' until he gets his wifey back. sweet bby boy won't be out of his sight for a minute.

also the hermit crab thing?? i don't think y'all realise how often i have to stop myself from dropping stupid weird little facts into all of my fics. i saw this opportunity to share my hermit crab knowledge and was like :)) perfect :)) bhvjfkdlfjhvgjfkdl

but ahh i'm so glad you liked it babe!!! i love you, you're wonderful, i am sending you ALL the kisses <33 enjoy the rest of your weekend my love!

[here2bbtstrash]

I AM SO SAD RN😭😭😭 i wrote a looongggg ass feedback fr this time and i clicked on some shit and it VANISHED. JUST LIKE THAT. I WAS SO PROUD 💔💔💔 and now i'll probably forget half of the things i wrote☹️☹️☹️

BUT i'll try my best😜 (i'll write this as if it's the first time)

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NO WHAT THE FUCK HE DID NOT JUST SAY THAT. YOONGI YOU KNOW BETTER THAN THIS. WE DIDN'T FUCKING AGREE ON THIS SHIT 😭😭 bro's on drugs or something??? i was so happy when he confessed and now he's like "If I said anything, let's just say I didn't mean it." UMMM EXCUSE ME??

YOONGI YOU DUMB BITCH!!!! SHE WAS READY TO SAY IT BACK💔💔💔

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oh shit and now jimin and y/n will have an argument 🤣🤣🤣 CAN THINGS GET WORSE THAN THAT????

oh wait THINGS GOT FUCKING WORSE❤️

because fuck this shit even jimin is leaving WHY GOD WHY

AIN'T no way she just said that🤗🤗; "A little more notice would've been nice," bro we're not even HALF WAY THROUGH AND SHIT IS ALREADY DOWN

•i am so scared to even read the next word. em what have you done?•

OH THIS TOOK AN UNEXPECTED TURN

having him is a need at this point.

i love jimin

i love jimin

i love jimin

i love jimin

and now i love jungkook☹️☹️ BABY STAR CANDY IS BACK!!!! we all missed this kid my dear y/n 🥺💜 I'M GLAD THEY SORTED THINGS OUTTT!! even though things won't be as they were but at least they talked like grown ups🙏🏼💜

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"I think we should both just focus on work, and stop being so distracted." UMMM I DON'T THINK SO???? CAN YOU JUST STOP IT FOR A SECOND CAUSE I HAD ENOUGH.

ohhhh now i seeee, he thinks he's not enough for her🥺 BABY YOU ARE YOU JUST HAVE TO WAKE UP CAUSE I'M DYING HERE!!!!

"I think you told the truth for once in your life, without this weird 'I don't care about anything' veneer and it fucking terrified you." DAMN GET IT GIRL

"I guess you jusy tell everyone about the time you almost jumped off a bridge?" OH SHIT NO PLEASE DON'T GET IT I TAKE IT BACK😭😭😭😭 y/n my dear friend i'm tired.

•i am so scared to even read the next word. em what have you done?•PT2

"I am not somebody you want to be with. At all." YOONGI STOP UNDERESTIMATING YOURSELF PLEASSEEE YOU'RE SO PERFECT I'M GONNA CRY THEN DIE

"We hooked up a few times," "That's all. It didn't mean anything. And it's over now." noooo🥺🥺 DON'T DO THIS AGAIN!!!

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and now for the panic attack!💔💔 it's so sad ☹️☹️ and the way you described it made it even sadder😔 you did a fucking great job describing this scene babe💜💔 i actually started crying..

PS. i was writing this yesterday with tears all over my face.

and the fact that jungkook helped her.. GOD I NEED A JUNGKOOK I'M DYING

wait he used to have them? HE STILL DOES?💔💔💔💔💔

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"It should have been you, Baby Goth." UMMMMMMMMM PLEASE NO

annnnnnd he left.

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"Extending a cup of coffee to Yoongi on your first day." DAMN THAT'S WHERE EVERYTHING STARTED!!!!

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WHY IS EVERYONE LEAVING ALL OF A SUDDEN????? she has to though ☹️ to move on and take a new path💔 it's just hard WHY DO I FEEL LIKE I AM THE ONE WHO'S LEAVING????

and the boss is so sweet too like??😭 i wish my boss were like him fr🤣 #stan_theboss

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WHEN I BELIEVE THAT JUNGKOOK CAN'T BE NICER HE GOES AND THROWS HER A PARTY??🥺🥺🥺 now where can i find someone like him? IN HEAVEN????

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OH GOD YOONGI IS HERE!! PLEASE DO SOMETHING I'M BEGGING💔💔💔

he did not do a single shit 🤗 baby what does "I just want to be happy." mean when you're not around???😭😭

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she said her goodbyes to jk😭😭💔

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"Yoongi doesn't stop you. So you go." OUCH THAT HURT SO BAD??????😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 YOONGI PLEASEEEEE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCKKKK

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ain't no way.

first of all i can't believe i wrote my feedback again😭 i just knowwww the first one was cooler😭 what makes a

feedback cool though?😂😂😂

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ANYWAYS😜 the beginning.. WHEN I TELL YOU I SCREAMED 💔💔 my heart broke into a million pieces!! i don't know if i was upset because he acted like he didn't mean it or because of the fact that he thinks he's not enough for her.💔

goooddd!! she really needed to hear that from jimin😔❤️ he's a great friend for real. i really thought he was gonna leave just like that, but my baby jimin is too sweet for this💜💜💜💜 i'm so sad he's leaving though 😔😔

the panic atttaaaaackkkk??? WOMAN I COULDN'T CONTROL THE TEARS💔 i hope no one gets to experience this in real life!! it's so heartbreaking 💔

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i wanna point out the fact that this chapter didn't include any sexual scenes BUT it has my heart!!! it's my favourite till now🤭

i never read such an ANGSTY chapter like that!! i said before that i love angst so much😜 i really do. SO THANK YOU HEHE.

it was a hard one tho💔

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AND FINALLY THE ENDINGGG??? well of course he wasn't gonna go and propose to her but like did he really let her go that easily?☹️☹️ i hope he does something in the next chapter 🙏🏼

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this chapter right here got above my expectations!! not because you're incapable of writing such a magnificent chapter BUT (let me explain hehe🤭)

y'know when you stand there, with your jaw literally on the floor, and your hands pulling out your hair because of one BTS performance?? even though you're so sure they eat everytime but STILL they amaze you.

YOU'RE BTS TO ME.

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THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!!💜💜💜💜💜💜

PS. the best chapter award goes to.. EMMMMM💃💃💃💜💜💜 and yes i just invented an award 😜💜

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i hoped i would be one of the first people to read this one 😔

OMG SARAH THIS IS SO LOVELY I'M OVERWHELMED I'M GONNA TRY TO RESPOND TO ALL OF IT BUT JUST KNOW THAT HEIUKJFHSGHDGUS I LOVE YOU A LOT 🥺

UGHHHHH yoongi snatching that confession right back 😩 you truly HATE to see it !!!! he's got a lot of inner turmoil and shit to work out 😭

ahhhhh the jiminie scene 🫠 he really told her what she needed to hear but fuck writing that first REAL argument that we've seen between them was so tough too. they've had moments of disagreement or attitude but nothing like this. i so appreciate jimin for being so brutal with her but still delivering it with all the love and support he could. I JUST LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP WEH

yesssss you get it yoongi is seriously struggling w his own self-worth and feeling like he deserves Anything good 😭 ughhhh it's so tough when you know the Why of what he's doing, but it doesn't make it any less PAINFUL!!!! yoongi pls..... LET HER LOVE YOU 👹 (also lmfao "y/n i'm tired" DEEPLY FELT)

hiuehfekfjgfg i'm so sorry for the tears!!!! that panic attack scene was ROUGH to write lemme tell you. and yes 🥺 a lil baby star candy backstory for u there 🥺 i just love him so much....

god the jk scene and her playing it all back 😭 truly the lowest low.

LOL STAN THE BOSS !!!! i really loved that scene, she REALLY needed to hear that especially at such a tough point in her journey 💜

honestly if i ever figure out where to find a baby star candy IRL i'm telling ALL OF Y'ALL bc wtf.... i need one too 😭 he's so wonderful.... and yes yoongi showing up to not fucking do anything heikjskfgjd he's the epitome of that "my work here is done" "but you didn't do anything!" meme LMAO

oooooof thank u for making it through all that pain, i KNOW it was tough and i appreciate you being a trooper 🥺 i promise there are better days ahead, but it means that world that you were still so invested and enjoyed it all (maybe enjoyed isn't the right word lmao) - and YES this was a chapter with NO SMUT which means i felt very unsure and unconfident about it. so to hear that it's your FAVORITE???? that means so so much!!!

NOT ME BEING BTS. NOT ME WINNING AN AWARD. YOU BETTER GET OUTTA HERE YOU ARE TOO DAMN NICE TO ME AND I CANNOT HANDLE IT 😤 seriously you are so wonderful i love you so damn much. THANK YOU for reading and taking the time to send such lovely long feedback (not to mention type it TWICE because tumblr is the devil omg!!!!) 💜💜💜

[the-nysh]

I don't think that I am the only one who noticed that Garou's character has been really inconsistent? Like he is either "too nice" like saving civilians by accident or being absolute psycho like feeling good in radiation killing everyone ( I know god is in his mind and everything here not his own doing, which pisses me even more) and "killing" genos ( I hope genos is not dead 😭😭) to piss saitama off? I don't even know what the heck is going on even now or what to expect :(

Because he truly hasn't - the actual Garou we've known for over 100+ chs now has actually been very consistent in his core behavior if you've followed the signs. Until this. The real him is someone too fundamentally good and inherently heroic at heart, that he literally had to be mindraped and corrupted against his will (on-panel even) for any of this to happen. :O You said it yourself - but this huuuge departure from his typical behavior (even in contrast to his performative fake 'evil' grandstanding) should be the biggest red flag indicator that something is seriously wrong, that this is Not Him at the helm of all this 'psycho' mass overkilling. We even get the confirmations this chapter.

From Bang, Garou's mentor (and closest equivalent father-figure) who most personally knows him to tell the difference, can sense this 'evil' is Not Garou:

And from Blast, the resident expert in this field, who has the most qualified experience to speak on anything involving 'god':

Both of them can seriously tell that Garou is being controlled by 'god.' Beyond anything the lingering 'Garou' can still comprehend or even rationalize himself to believe - after enduring the forced fusion and desperately denying his own victimhood, to assert any semblance of control over his situation he still thinks he has after the fact (because oh my god the real 'Garou' in there had no idea of the gravity or ramifications of what this 'power' actually was...or even what happened to him. He meets Blast's comments with skeptical disbelief or tries to deny/twist the reality to make any sense of it in terms of his own limited understanding. That is, if it's not the corrupting 'god' influence at work, to further block/warp his mind away from fully seeing the truth. But aaaa, from his questioning pauses, Garou truly didn't know any of this, or to what extent it all actually entailed.) Also Blast's comment 'does this line up with your actual goals?' is probably the biggest additional clue to the audience that no, absolutely not; none of this agenda aligns with what Garou actually wants. We should already firmly know this too, since the manga explicitly went out of its way to establish Garou's motivations early.

Blast's inner commentary provides me with even more important clues:

Where he senses there's still some lingering humanity in him - and that, Garou's act of resisting and enduring the incomplete transfer, somehow allowed him to retain some sense of his mind in there...but it's still 'a fiendish mutation.' Where Garou's mind is still fused to god's influence (to block him from fully knowing or caring, to unwittingly enact His bidding as a vessel), despite whatever may still tether Garou to his lingering humanity or sense of reason as well (such as....his thoughts about Tareo, whom Garou also probably doesn't knowwww how much he's already been hurt by the collateral radiation. fuuuuck D:)

Which is two opposing forces competing/struggling to assert themselves within Garou's consciousness (so if you can sense some teetering back and forth inconsistencies within his unstable/unbalanced state of mind right now, esp whenever he visibly pauses...well then gee yeah 8'D we know why that is.) So when Blast says 'it'll be a battle of supremacy between two beings who manipulate the reality of the cosmos' - if he was not just referring to himself as one of those 'beings' who can subdue him, then it also clues me in to a mental battle of supremacy between Garou's lingering sense of self vs 'god' - over which only one 'will' can survive dominate at the helm, to become the one who's 'right.' (That is, if Garou's doesn't get fully swallowed up, outright destroyed by Saitama, or become permanently unreachable beyond the void...)

[ollieinoue]

Ollie scoffed. This was the second time someone was shocked that he didn't have a passport. First Milo, now Reina. He shook his head a little bit, eyes rolling just slightly. "I seriously would like to know how much money you think I have? Girl I can't even afford to go on a trip out of state, much less out of the country." The whole world at his fingertips? What a joke. He brought up his phone, because that was a question, how long did it take to get a passport? He assumed it was like a drivers license and like immediate, right? Was that not the case. "Two weeks!" He said, holding up the google response on his phone. "So, just tell me two weeks ahead of time before we go anywhere and it'll be fine." The idea that he was going to be going on any trips that were more spontaneous than that? Was completely (pun not intended) foreign to him.

He scoffed again, leaning his head back and giving a groan. The sort of move a petulant teenager did when their parents were telling them not to do something they already knew. "I knowwww, Mom," Ollie laughed, turning to grin at Reina. "I don't travel across state lines with anything, I'm not going to travel internationally with anything. Although it's on you to find us the goods," he said, wiggling his finger in her direction. Then a thought crossed his mind and he laughed. "You know the end of Monty Python and the Holy Grail when they all get arrested? I hope we all go down like that." Though he thought it should not be them getting arrested but the Dean and Jesse's Dad. "Anyway," Ollie said, in a light tone, "you're being very distracting Reina. I need to study. Please." He teased, of course not really meaning it, but making a show of opening his laptop back up and turning away from her with a wave of his fingers.

"Ollie!" Reina said with a gasp, her jaw falling open. How could someone not have a passport. That was unfathomable to her. "You should get one now, it could be too late to get one when you need it. I mean, what's the turn around time on passports in the U.S.? And I'm sure getting it expedited is extra." She shook her head and clicked her tongue on the roof of her mouth, "Tsk, tsk," She raised her brows. "If you get a passport Ollie, then you have the whole world at your fingertips." Well maybe not the whole world. just wherever people could afford which honestly for her friends she wouldn't mind chipping in for them to go experience life outside their bubble they may have grown up in.

She smirked at him but nodded. Reina placed a hand over his. "I'll be careful, if you promise to be careful too. If you want to avoid jail you can't be bringing any of your products on the trip." She said referring to the drugs she knew he supplied the student body with. She laughed. "No, you're right. All for one and one for all. If one of us goes down we all go down. It's not like they can arrest us all anyway."

[kuiinncedes]

all of my enemies started out friends

@gleeadvent day 1: apology (a day late but 🤪)

how do i post fics again lksdghf

also if u missed it me and meg r doing the glee advent thing ahaha :DDD go check it out if u want lol

this is uhh a kurtana fic !!! set in 6x03 because you knowwww tbh i'm not super confident in my characterizations i guess of santana in general i haven't written her much and of kurt in relation to santana 😬 so idk how this is in terms of that lol but i'm pretty happy with it for nowww so yeahhhhh :D

title from "the archer" by taylor swift it makes sense in my head but i don't think it's a very obvious connection lmao but yeah idk (omg what if i make the titles also follow the alphabet along with the prompts slkdhsfj jk)

word count: 768

under the cut and on ao3 !!

Kurt sits alone in the choir room, plunking out quiet notes on the piano but his heart’s not in it, his mind’s not in it, just a swirling mess of --

judgemental --

-- shrill --

-- sexless, self-centered --

-- utterly, utterly intolerable --

His fingers slip on the keys and the discordant notes cut through his thoughts for a moment.

Living with Santana -- hell, just being her friend, being in her presence for four years -- he did learn not to take everything she said to heart. He learned, as best he could, as much as she allowed, about the spiky walls she put up around herself, and how she might let him get past them sometimes. He’d thought he was somewhat past that stage with her -- that they’d become close enough to not warrant all the guards anymore. But he supposes that can always change. He supposes, really, that he did something to make it change today.

It’s funny -- ironic, a little sad, honestly -- to be back in this choir room. On the one hand, it’s full of mostly happy memories; it’s where his closest friendships were forged, where his skills and character were tested, where he felt so much struggle and hardship but also where he escaped from more of it, and where he felt so much love and found himself comfortable enough to give it, too.

And now, here alone, seemingly with none of that -- a love who has anything but love for him, one friend he loves but who’s more focused on herself at the moment, and another friend who… has an admirably extensive vocabulary, he has to say.

Guess you really do have to lose everything to… what, be happy? Find yourself? Well, he’s waiting for that part.

Enough of the fucking pity party, Hummel. He does want to help Rachel, and gain some valuable experience and academic credit for himself as well, so his best option is to take this seriously. Focus on the work like Rachel is. Maybe everything else will fall into place.And if not… he won’t be completely doomed. He does have something.

The sound of heels clicking against the ground doesn’t catch his attention until they’re almost right in front of him, and he looks up to see Santana on the other side of the piano.

Kurt almost cringes in surprise and in apprehension for round two. He hopes it just comes out as a flattening of his lips -- his mouth like a cat’s ass --

“I owe you an apology,” Santana says.

Kurt… wasn’t really expecting that. He meets her eyes, dark and guarded as ever. Her expression… doesn’t really show him anything. He’s not sure if he should wait, or --

“I went too far,” she continues firmly, “and… I need you to know that you do matter to me.”

Kurt almost laughs -- in any other situation, he’d be able to focus on Santana’s clear reluctance to say this, maybe poke fun at her a little bit in a very different situation. But part of him also warms with something close to pride -- not that he’d ever tell Santana, for fear of the razor blades in her hair and in her words, the latter of which he’s already been a victim to more times than he really ever would’ve wanted.

He can see that this is hard, he knows it is, so much harder than verbally spilling insults and borderline cruelty but she is doing it for him. And that alone confirms her words in Kurt’s mind.

“I need to apologize, too,” he says in lieu of an expression of genuine forgiveness, at least for now. He’s not sure if it would be very appreciated. “I… shouldn’t have taken my own problems out on you. I’m so happy for you and Britt, Santana.”

“Fine, enough with the platitudes, Hummel,” Santana drawls after a short pause, rolling her eyes and bringing a hand up in front of her, examining her fingernails. “A little too late for it.”

Kurt huffs, and Santana’s mouth quirks in a slight smile, and he knows they’re leaving it there.

Because he has the walls, too. And when they’re both raw in different ways, guarding pure happiness or heartache against even some of the closest people, and neither of them is putting them down for now, it’s probably best to just leave it there.

So he starts actually playing the intro to something, giving her the excuse she wants to leave under the guise of being sick of all the bursting into song. And they’ll leave it for another time, when they’re feeling more vulnerable, to let those walls down more.

[iwillkeepyour-brittle-heart-warm]

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DID YOU LIKE MY COUNTDOWN!? That was fun! I had fun. That was actually more fun than I thought it would be! There were too many good posts to name. It was very fun reading all your comments and theories.  Though side note: animal anon has no problem with people joining her BUT it must be animals and it must not mess with my countdown. No statues! Animal anon does animals, not statues. Side side note: can someone settle the debate of if that emoji is a hedgehog or a porcupine? Because I have no idea. Side note side note side note: sorry if you got multiple asks in a day...my system isn't perfected yet so sometimes I send two (or three) because I forgot I sent one and didn't want to accidently miss anyone (also sorry if i did miss you, still perfecting the system, no one has been animal anon blacklisted, i promise!)

Anyway, GUESS WHAT TODAY IS!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 It's been one year since I started animal anon! How exciting is that?! Phew, what a year we've had together! I mean what better way to start this second year than some chaos since that's how animal anon started to begin with! I will admit, it was slightly stressful coming up with something to meet the occasion of this event. I hope the countdown and this post live up to it. No, I'm not going to reveal myself just yet.. maybe that will be for year 2...😏😏. BUT I will give you some fun facts about me! So let's see; first, I'm from the Midwest (so not Canadian, but close so I do have a slight accent), but I currently live in the TriState area. Second, I am a MASSIVE theater nerd. No, seriously I have been to 21 shows since Broadway reopened in September and I'm actually going to my 22nd tonight. I don't know if this makes that fact better or worse, but I've really only been to about 12 different show because out of those 22, 10 of those are one specific show. Third, I am fluent in German and English. Though, I suck at writing in German, I never learned how to, so don't ask me to do that please. Fourth, my favorite color is red, so you can guess my favorite Taylor album (and coincidently also the show I've been to see 10 times on Broadway...). Fifth, I love to talk A LOT if you couldn't tell by the essays I send yall. And lastly, I can also confirm I am not Taylor...but I will say that I do share something very important with her... tell me your guesses down below as to what very important thing you think Taylor and I have in common, and I'll send some extra animals to whomever I see gets it right first!

So contuining on with my dissertation here, this week I have been trying to figure out a prompt to live up to this occasion. As I already mentioned, my system isn't perfect! And I've been thinking a lot about community lately and how that's been lacking for so many because of Covid. So what I want yall to do is if you get this dissertation of mine, please send a message, post, anon, whatever you want to at least 1 other blog (though you can do more), telling them something you like about them and giving them an animal emoji! That way we can keep spreading the love all day long to as many as possible! 🥰

As always, you are all brilliant, kind, worthy, beautiful and as this past week has shown, hilarious and unique human beings. No seriously, some of your posts had me kneeling over in laughter. If you would so like, you can tag #animalanon so I and everyone can read all your lovely posts! IM STARTING EARLY TODAY SO WE CAN PARTY ALL DAY LONG BECAUSE I LOVE YALL SO MUCH 🎊 🦥🦁🐯

It was fun!🥳🤩 yes, you are right! these cute animal emojis can't be replaced by statues! it's a hedgehog I think. And this is so nice of you, you are just out her spreading positivity and made us all so excited and it became one of the fun memories of our fandom.

HAPPY 1 YEAR ANIMAL ANON!!!!<3 hehehe, don't reveal yourself now.The show must be super nice🌟, I hope you enjoyed it yesterday too. it's RED, that is great to knowwww. Ok, I believe you, you are not taylor, but maybe you have been to the secret sessions, or there was a special concert moment, or you have a cat, or you are a Swiftie who has fallen in love with Taylor like all of us.❣️

It's interesting to know all these facts about you 💕

And ah, I did sent asks to two people yesterday morning, I just saw one of the replies and adjskdjsksk I made their day, they were super happy.😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

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One Piece 955: Enma

I took all day to write this up just so much to talk about from this chapter!

Let me just start by saying what a chapter!! 8.75/10

I was not expecting it to drop a day early & had no idea what to expect of this chapter until I saw the title...Enma 🤔😏

First things first. I believe Bege & company just stumbled upon Dressrosa. He mentioned they were stopping there for supplies. I wonder if any Straw Hat supporters are still around and if a conversation will strike up about Luffy.

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Ok now to the chapter...

It starts off with Hiyori telling Zoro & Kawamatsu that she will not meet up with the rest of the alliance in order to not stir unneccessary emotions before the battle. Her brother stated this before so it wasn't a surprise. What surprised me was that Kawamatsu told the rest of the Scabbards that Hiyori was still alive & well.

I guess it's a morale booster but I have this weird feeling that something bad will happen to her now that everyone knows she's ok.

A couple random facts about Hiyori:

• She puts up a coarse attitude but is actually a crybaby

• She was a Tomboy who didn't typically speak refined & politely

(So funny how Momo was like, "A flying kick from someone 18yrs older would really hurt." Lol ik the struggle of being terrorized by a little sister hahah)

Now we get to the crazy good stuff!!!

O-Kiku might be one of the MVPs for finding the randomly lost Nidai Kitetsu. I had no idea where it was. Thought Kaido must've done something with it when Luffy was thrown into the Udon Prison Mines like kept it in a storage within the prison or something. Zoro states that he knew it was a Meito (famous/named blade) I guess with Sandai at his side he could feel the cursed vibes.

Rarely does Oda show us the actual tying of loose ends.

I guess Hiyori didn't go off to retrieve Enma & Orochi doesn't have Ame no Habakiri...Hitetsu Tenguyama had them both the whole time. That's why he had been patiently awaiting the return of the Kozuki Family.

I love every aspect of the design especially the sheath.

Seems as if both swords are of the same grade level as Shusui, O Wazamono, 21 Great Grade Swords. So Zoro won't be getting one of the 12 Supreme Grade Swords, Saijo O Wazamono, just yet and I'm fine with that.

Hitetsu tells Zoro only Oden was ever able to tame Enma & ODEN MUST'VE BEEN A BEAST because this sword is crazzyyyyy powerful. Kin'emon even said he himself would not even want to take the blade.

When testing out the sword Zoro tried to cut a tree but ended up cut off part of the cliff/island they were all on! Just insane lmao like I was not expecting that much of a power boost at all!

In the next panel we see the blade going black, coating in haki as Zoro's arm is also clad in haki, but looks drained & frail.

(Sanji's face was hilarious but damn I feel his pain lol Sanji is my favorite Straw Hat & just got a power boost now Zoro's power up makes Sanji's Raid Suit, look not as powerful so I have mixed feelings hahhaha but I love reading Zoro moments.)

So the thing with Enma is that it draws out its wielders haki to maximum extremes by itself. Any average sword wielder would've been drained completely and left dead.

Typically we've seen Zoro have swords with minds of their own but this one is just on another level.

Zoro yells for the sword to give him back his Ryou and takes it all back. Then we get that crazy Zoro smile like he knows this is going to be a challenge to tame the blade but he's ready to take that on to become even stronger. Hitetsu asks Zoro does he want another sword & obviously Zoro says he's keeping Enma, further impressing Kawamatsu.

[Now the text heavy part because I don't want to make 2 seperate posts for this review and want to only use my favorite images from the chapter]

Robin, Ashura Doji, & Kin'emon are discussing the sheer numbers that the alliance and their opposition have. Seems as if there will be approx. 30,000 enemies on Onigashima vs their 4000.

We then get quick panels of :

Franky yelling at his workers to prepare the boat to hold 10,000 men

(made me think hmmm Straw Hat Grand Fleet's over 5000 + the 4000+ men they already have...maybeeeee *Spongebob voice)

Luffy practicing Ryuo in Gear 4th stating that he used too much physical force

Zoro and Momo training in the forest and Zoro states an old man from his village is where he first heard Sunnachi (Snatch) & this surprises Momo.

With two days left before the raid Chopper, O-Tama, and Luffy return to meet with everyone else & the Yakuza bosses have added another 200 men to the resistance's ranks. (~4200 vs ~30,000)

Kin'emon states there hasn't been any word from Law (it's been a few days since he's been free & still hasn't contacted the group....hmmmm)

Silly Shinobu tells Kin'emon to forget about Law and Chopper has to speak some truth like hey Law is super strong. Law clearly makes a substantial difference, he's a cheat code in most situations!

There are still many men locked up in the Capital that wish to fight. I'm guessing only a few hundred more but still any help matters at this point. We also get to see many of the Wano townspeople discussing Yasu's encrypted message. Of course some still don't have faith but they will be proved wrong.

The alliance splits into its respective groups with the Scabbards, Shinobu, and Momo headed to the harbor, meeting Luffy there later.

The literature used here to describe the Scabbards and their shadows as the walked was magnificent. I also loved how the spelling for frost was shimo as in Shimotsuki. 🤔🤔

We see Pedro's & Lord Yasu's grave in the graveyard of Oden & his retainers. We also see Wanda & O-Toko shedding tears at theory loved one's graves. Carrot looks hardened & ready to go.

Hitetsu reveals to Zoro that he was the bladesmith of the Sandai Kitetsu. And states Enma & the Sandai cannot be wielded by the weak. Hitetsu also reveals why Zoro has had a quick take to Enma: the bladesmith who made Enma also created Zoro's main sword, the Wado Ichimonji. It was crafted by Yusaburo Shimotsuki, who fled Wano illegally over 50 years ago. Hiyori probably saw what swords Zoro held (Shusui, Wado Ichimonji, & Sandai Kitetsu) and decided he was worthy of her father's keepsake.

I just cannot believe that Hitetsu said that IN ZORO'S HANDS ENMA COULD RISE IN RANK & BECOME A BLACK BLADE! So then would it become O Saijo Wazamono???? Hmmmm I wonder.

It seems like Luffy has gotten a hell of a lot stronger! Didn't even get close to the tree and destroyed it from the other side (almost reminded me of that scene in Naruto when him and Sasuke battled on the roof of the hospital haha if you know you knowwww)

Law is definitely not the traitor. Like it's too obvious. Simply because Oda telegraphed this traitor vibe a couple times;I swear he's just messing with us.

Will Kyoshiro be revealed to be Denjiro soon?

I just wonder how Orochi found out this info.

And now we get a closing to Act II.

Just an epic chapter.

I swear Oda is hinting that Zoro may be a descendant/relative of the Shimotsuki family along with his teacher Koushirou.

Could even be a family tree like Hinata/Neji but I'm probably reaching there. Very interesting how bits and pieces of his past is flashed in front of us.

I guess only time will tell, but I bet Koushirou's father was Yusaburo Shimotsuki.