#i ain't creative enough to do this for anyone else :')

[justanoval]

Life Updates

Hey Tumblr gang!

If you've noticed I've been active less on platforms like Patreon, Twitch, Discord, and even a little less frequent with my YouTube uploads, this post will address that.

The biggest reason is that I simply do not have enough energy to delegate anymore. With my health issues progressing, I've been slowly losing my energy to give out to different areas, and I've had to decrease my focus.

My main focuses are now animations, music, merchandise, and Creeper County.

That's the jist. If you want more specifics, you can keep reading further.

Twitch

I really really struggle to have any energy for streaming. I can't keep up the hype and I feel like I am not doing anything by just being live. I want to have the freedom to do other things whenever I want, and I don't want to feel like I am being judged with every creative decision I make. A few decisions of mine revolving around how I built my audience is what lead me here, so while there's ways I can see myself coming back to Twitch, I just don't have the energy for it at the moment.

Discord

Discord was my biggest strategy to help grow my Twitch channel--and it worked fantastically. But now that I'm inactive on Twitch, I've decided to delegate the energy used on Discord for something else.

I don't expect myself to like, delete my Discord, but it's just something I am fine with being there primarily for announcements right now.

I'm focusing more on creating a smaller, more intimate community with Creeper County. This is what I've always wanted in building a community.

Patreon

I've made an announcement there already if you're interested in reading. The jist is that it isn't a reliable income source for me to dedicate that much time to it. It's just going to sorta stay as a donation platform for the time being. Not that that's bad (it's what most people tend to do), but I think it's still reasonable for me to make clear.

YouTube

I wouldn't say I'm too inactive here, I just don't upload as often. It's like, as opposed to once every 4-7 days, it's once every 7-10 days maybe now.

Big reason here is, of course the energy, but also I'm just exploring many different art forms right now. Had a dip in motivation with main channel animations and needed to figure out why. For the most part, I have figured out why, but there's still some direction I need to find.

Though you can look forward to a shrimp miku video coming soon.

Postmortem in Nuuspace

This isn't one I have really been inactive in, since I never promised an activity level. But still figured I can address that I am planning out a much larger story that will be based in this universe, which is why my current writing rhythm will be quite sporadic.

Not to say this will ever be finished, or published, or whatever (it might idk), but it's just what I am doing.

I know I didn't have to make this post, but it gives me some closure! I didn't want to leave anyone in the dark, and this way I know that I haven't (unless people don't read this, but that ain't on me).

In the future, I honestly expect that most of my energy will come down to video game development. It's like, all of these little things I am doing will just point towards one massive thing. And given my experience with Godot engine, making music, writing, 3d art, pixel art, animation... you see where this is going.

So, stay tuned.

[burningcheese-merchant]

I have. A few things to say! First of all, thank you for writing for here (and there, but I do not have an AO3)! I’m very in much love with someone going crazy for another and *mwah* do you do it right and justice! That said, prioritize yourself! Drink water! Eat! Do not burn out, and do not feel pressured to do stuff! I hope that your spark burns for long after this fandom!

Thank you so, so much for your kind words! I know you sent multiple asks, so I'm going to try to respond to the first two in one post, if that's ok! (I'll answer the PitayaFire one separately)

Don't you know that the truest, most profound kind of love is born not beneath the soft, pale light of the full moon, not in the sound of a pair's steps as they dance the night away, not within the warmth and security of a tender embrace, but within the walls of the solitary confinement cell in the "dangerous and violent" housing section of a psych ward? LOL jk. It's really fun writing a lovesick/obsessed person for some reason. I don't have this dynamic for any of my other ships, this is the first time I've opted to explore a darker, more uncomfortable and unstable route/interpretation of a "relationship" and it's honestly been a blast lol. (I DO also ship mutual BurningCheese, but under specific conditions, AKA Burning Spice has a redemption arc and GC falls for him on her own. I just can't justify them being together if he's still evil. So long as he is, the love is one-sided)

I really am grateful for your compliments and encouragement. I've got a super big and important BurningCheese fic in the oven rn, but I do need to actually focus on real life for a bit, so it'll be some time. I'll be posting drabbles on here and a fic or two on AO3 where BS is NOT dangerously insane, just a regular asshole who's down bad lol

You can rest assured that my crazy diamond will continue shining on long after I get tired of these games about talking cookies. I always loved writing, it's my favorite hobby and it's my only way of expressing my creativity since I can't draw to save my life. I actually have a 100% original work I've been tinkering with for a loooong time, but I always wanted that story to be told in comic form, and to do that... I have to learn to draw lol. (And that's... a really big mountain to climb. I want to climb it more than anything, but I don't know if I can. Feels like I keep slipping and falling on my ass every time I try to take and retake the first step on the first rock, you know? Idk how anyone does it, honestly...) In any case, I'm truly grateful for you and everyone else who bothers to look at my work and actually thinks it's good for some reason

Did you see that gacha animation though 👀 The way BS is looking at her 👀 y'all can't tell me he ain't thirsty. Look at that twinkle in his eye. Look at that smile. He wants to tear up more than just those wings, I'm telling you 👀 Shadow Milk is a silly billy, he thinks puppet shows and gaslighting are how you flirt with people. Mystic Flour is probably just like "what. What is this. Who is this man. Why is he handsome. Why do I feel this way. Emotions are futile. Love is ephemeral. I will not stray from the path. I will trap him in my mind prison and torture him. That will fix it. He will surrender to apathy. He will return my soul jam. He will see how smart and correct I am. Cloud Haetae will sing my praises to him until he believes them. Yes. That is what will happen. Victory is mine. I am Very Normal about this." Burning Spice? Down horrendous. Down crazy. When GC is there, it's like no one else is in the room. Won't stop smiling. Only mentions the Soul Jam once, focuses on her specifically the whole rest of the time. First real thing he says to her is how much she impresses him. Throws a tantrum after their fight essentially because she didn't step on him hard enough. Down bad. Down bad. Down bad. Ain't no way he isn't. You can't change my mind

Sorry for rambling. TL;DR: Yo Socrates, it's a fucking cookie (also thank you for your support)

[hxlda-hxlda]

url name music tag

thank you for the tag, lovely @bloodykissesandhazyeyes

the way my url is the same thing repeating twice is strangely frustrating. also i'm not creative enough to go seek out songs starting with 'x', i'm doing the 'i' the x stands in for :)

H - Heroes, David Bowie I - Ivy, Taylor Swift L - Lover, You Should've Come Over, Jeff Buckley D - Dreams, Fleetwood Mac A - All I Think About Now, Pixies

— - Misty Mountain Hop, Led Zeppelin (i made it a free space)

H - Halloween, Noah Kahan I - I Want You (She's So Heavy), The Beatles L - Lady Stardust, David Bowie D - Detroit Rock City, KISS A - Ain't The Missus, The Polymics

np tags! @fiddleleafedfig @bellaxisworld @fairylittlebitch @fxreflyes and anyone else!

[marshmallowprotection]

Hello,, I don't know if ur ok with this but if u could pls write a reader who has mild social anxiety and is very shy and timid compared to how she talks in the app, and because of her anxiety she's unemployed for most of her adult life (she's only a freelance writer online) and she's very ashamed of it especially when Seven or V find out when they do background check on her. Sorry if req is weird ^^;

Saeyoung isn't the type to comment on your line of work. What room does he have to talk about anything? He's a hacker of all things, and it isn't a job he wants to gloat about. Yeah, he makes jokes but that's his awful coping mechanism. He's proud of the things he's capable of but he doesn't want to go into detail. Even though the RFA is open about a lot of things with each other, most of them don't go into detail over work habits and hobbies.

They know what the others do but they just don't talk about it. Unless Jaehee and Jumin share something over a message, that's all you've got to go by. So, the others knowing about your job isn't anything for you to sweat over.

Saeyoung would tell you that with ease. "Hey, you don't need to be insecure. Work is work, and everyone's got to try at what they know best. If this works for you, it works. If anything, when they find out you're a writer, they'll want to know about what you love to create."

That doesn't even point out how curious he is about what you do to enjoy yourself... writing has to be important to you if you're willing to work for it. So, as curious as he is, he won't pry in your business until you broach the subject.

He may know what you do but he's not going to corner you! There's nothing shameful about having a job that helps you and if it this cuts it, that's wonderful! He's proud of you for trying your best. This world ain't easy, so finding a passion that pays is likely something that makes him envious.

"You're a writer, starlight. I am proud of you for doing what makes you feel safe and comfortable. Don't beat yourself up for not being able to do what others can. You're good enough as is, and I'd love to see your creative writing outside of work since it means so much to you."

V is an artist and that profession isn't exactly one that gets looked at with understanding eyes. Most people in your life would tell you to get a day job if you wanted to be an artist.

Not everybody gets to financially take care of themselves with their artwork. It's just one of those things that people have to deal with but it is a shame to think that there are people out there who are willing to shut you down the minute you say what you do for a living.

It's a sad reality but it can definitely be disheartening to the people who really want to pursue it. It worked out for him, though. It doesn't mean he avoids judgmental eyes, however. It happens now and again. The good news is that his friends are supportive and they love his work.

He would understand where you're coming from right away because having a non-traditional job in your hands can be difficult to explain. Because you do want to tell people everything there is to know about the things that bring you joy but also sustain your livelihood but it can be hard to do so when you know revealing any information about what you do could make people judge you or think less of you. He's not one of those people. Not by a long shot.

"I think it's amazing you've been able to do something that not only makes you happy but allows you the opportunity to take care of yourself in a way that doesn't put you in danger. I recognize that to others it may seem silly that you work better by yourself but I respect it. You know yourself better than anyone else."

[worldly-diversity]

@questionablemuses ○ 𝕞𝕒𝕞𝕞𝕠𝕟 𝕒𝕤𝕜𝕖𝕕 𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕝 ○

          ⤷  『  "Hey, jus' a lil suggestion, or an offer. Take it as ya see it. But, if yer bitch ain't treatin' ya right, there's always a place open in my ring for ya. Just givin' ya somethin' t' think about~"  』

Angel had figured out that Valentino had some sort of deal running with the ring of Greed for a while now, something mutually beneficial that had partially resulted into more creative ways to get fucked over, courtesy of their expanded audience now also including hellborns from all across the Greed ring. Angel had heard about those Fizzarolli sex bots and quite frankly he doesn't want to ask if they'd ended up doing something similar for him. He really doesn't want to know.

But what he hadn't expected was to see an actual sin coming down the hallway, taking up most of it to boot and then throwing out a comment like that just before they crossed one another. He'd been looking, of course he had been. After all, it's not every day you see an actual Sin in Pentagram City…

"Wait, what—?" It slips out before he can even think about minding his tongue around someone like that. Besides, the guy was huge and intimidating, but the Aussie accent kinda killed the whole big and powerful sin vibe. Like if he was just another guy— One that could flatten you, granted.

Once he processes what the other is saying he's genuinely almost speechless, a hand extending subconsciously as if to ask him not to leave quite yet and explain that statement to him because, what the fuck?!

Okay, okay, can you blame him for short-circuiting when you've been suffering for decades on end and nobody cared to lift a finger, but your boss' business partner who shouldn't give a shit takes one look at you and just… Knows. Somehow feeling so seen is both a shock to the system and somewhat uncomfortable to him, being so unaccustomed to it. Why would Mammon even care?

"But, I— I'm a sinner. I couldn't even go ta yer ring even if I wanted to…" He mutters, looking up at the other and questioning because what else is he supposed to do when such a tantalising offer is laid down in front of him? Granted it could also get worse under Mammon instead and ain't anyone dumb enough to pick a fight with an actual Sin so there's quite a bit of risk there too but…

Mammon had simply known exactly what to say to catch his attention and keep it, just a few words and he was drawn in, curious and hoping against hope that this might be something, an escape, a way out— Surely he wouldn't be strung along just to be kicked back down a second time?

[spacepiratenemo]

Main - OC #FashionSheet

👾 Moonrock, Baby! - R e f. S h e e t

👽I always see people designing an outfit for each ark, I designed outfits for every occasion. Afterall, I don’t think anyone should be restricted to only one outfit per island visited! Nemo’s wardrobe is HUGE! In fact, it is that mindboggingly huge that its mass turned into a singularity! There are some things that girl is hoarding, namely: Fashion, Guns, Tech and Coconuts!

☠ There's 102 versions of Nemo’s favourite matching set #1 ; (fluffy one with the cloud pattern) and don’t ya dare to match one of those skirts with something else! BEN knows! LOL It’s Boss is strict when it comes to her style! Papa Zekka taught her that!

💫 Always remember slogan number 17; "Jackpot Couture is lit!"

🔥www.wattpad.com/1272855488-the…

#jackpotspacepiratecrew rules include memetic bragging-rights, parental advisory explıcıt content, you have been warned 101 : “Gotta have style if you wanna be cool!” (Yes, it’s a bullshit rule, don’t take it too seriously!)

🐭 Nemo is a #nerd ; a #geek and a #fashionista at the same time ! And to make it even better, details, accessoires and so on, are interchangeable! I never need to stick to one design and I can get mega creative, which I find super enjoyable :3 And since it's impossible to draw the whole wardrobe, it's impossible which fashionable treasures can be found! 😂 We all love to mix and match, so why not give an #OC the option to do so, too?! And yes, 30 pairs of shoes ain't enough! 😂💯

Which one’s are yer favourites? Do you like her Pj’s ? What about her wedding dress? 🌙 I love her space-party dress, her number 1 fave and her #spacepirate#captn couture! 🌎

🌟 That being said, these sheets also serve as official references!

"Where the hell did you get such a bratty attitude from?!", Marco asked, wiping away the green slime Nemo bombarded him with. "Oh, that's easy to answer, birdbrain! Let me tell you the absolutely mindboggling, legendarily famous story of - ", Nemo started, getting interrupted by Whitebeard, finishing the sentence for her. " - the idiot that raised her!"

"I AM NOT A F*CKING MOUSE!", Nemo yelled from the top of her lungs, trying to make her big brother shut the f*ck up! 

"But you are as small, dainty as and as cute as one!", Alliqui laughed, poking his sister's cheek, ruffling her hair, taking her into a Half-Nelson before putting a booger into her hair. 

"I SWEAR I'M GOING TO  -", Nemo struggled, aggressively trying to get out of the grip. 

"You what? MOUSE?!"

The run of the gun suddenly met the temple of her brothers face, a clacking sound occured and the trigger was pulled swiftly. Alliqui bashed into a nearby hill at full speed and full force, immediately being knocked out. "I TOLD YOU TO SHUT THE F*CK UP YOU DAMN STUPID BASTARD! CALL ME A MOUSE ONE MORE TIME AND I'M GONNA SHOOT YOUR SORRY ASS INTO THE NEXT BLACK HOLE, YOU F*CKING DEGENERATED MOONDUST-SNIFFLER!"

.... Siblings in a Nutshell, eh?! 

Alliqui is Nemo's big brother. ( Alliqui/Aliquis - Lat.: Person of Importance, a Somebody!)

Nemo, my main-muse and tearsure <;3 (Nemo - Lat.: No One, No Man, Nothing)

Nemo's Snail-Phone (Scientific Study #173 *cough* beloved pet *cough*)🤍👽🪐🌙🌟

𝐍𝐨 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬 // ☆*: .｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆

𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐆𝐄 // ಠ_ಠ

𝐏𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐧 𝐀𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐧 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜)

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𝙂𝙐𝙉𝙉𝙈

👾Nemo in a Nusthell is this bunny:

[autisticempathydaemon]

Heya! Here for the match up thingamajig :) ty for doing this, it sounds really fun. go through this in your own time, i know these asks get long 👍🏽 i'll try to provide some useful information here lol Hm. Ok I get two of the mbti personalities on repeat everytime i take the quiz, either INTP (logician) or ISFJ (defender). Right now, it's ISFJ, though I'm able to speak my mind well enough. Idk what my enneagram type is. My friends have called me loyal, stubborn and strong on multiple occasions. Also that I have a "spine of iron", and I take pride in that. I'm the one in the party that pulls everyone in to dance. I love parties, booze or no booze. I'm a social introvert, if that makes sense. I'm good with a crowd but I don't make friends easy. I'm restless sometimes, it manifests as zoomies and tons and tons of art. I've even made art for the fandom :)

As for the song, I've had Rigamarole by ROZET on loop for a while now. Specifically the chorus, "' 'Cause I ain't satisfied, you ain't satisfied, You know I can't lie, You know I'm bored out of my mind, 'Cause I ain't satisfied, you ain't satisfied, Same thing, new day, man, I'd rather die."

My imaginary friend was the guy that leaped over buildings alongside the car :) more than just picturing him running along the ride, i used to pretend he was real and make conversation.

I like my name, but if I had to change it, it'd be Surya. The hindu god of the sun. I've always kind of taken the celestial body as an example for what I should do. To keep burning and keep shedding light, constantly. I like how you can't stare at the sun for too long. I love the moon, but the intensity of the sun speaks to me.

Now to the redacted questions : I lack appeal for Marcus tbh. Idk why, I've tried, he hasn't stuck. I'm platonically attracted to David Shaw, which apparently is an obvious guess. He's a big man in terms of capability, what with being the alpha to the most famous pack in dahlia. I don't wanna befriend him because of his power - I have this thing where I try to make friends with people who I think are better than me, people that make me uncomfortable in my own pride. I think he's capable of shaking me up because of how he handles intense responsibility alng with everything else.

My favourite playlist rn is my "current favs" one lmao. a bunch of screamo rap and trap rock. Idk it's a phase i think.

And last but not least - my guilty pleasure media is bf asmr 👍🏽

Okay, you’re going to think this is just because of the Sun and Sunshine metaphors, but hear me out, I promise, I swear there’s SO many reasons I want to pair you with Elliott-!

The way you describe yourself socially, the kind of friend you are, makes me imagine you and Elliott as just the It Couple, especially at parties. Elliott also strikes me as the social chameleon type who fits in well, balancing that intro-ambivert vibe of mood making and knowing when he needs time alone with you to recharge. It’s that lovely friends to lovers image of y’all being that couple that never makes anyone feel like the third wheel because you’re so genuinely fun to be around.

I also like the bit where you mentioned surrounding yourself with impressive people you admire, because Elliott is so cool. He’s, like, a government-contracted Defensive Dream Designer which must require skill, ambition, creativity, all that jazz. I can see that pairing well with you and your art. Imagine him taking you into dreams and helping you construct visual models of your ideas, bringing them to life for you to recreate, the two of you making art together!

Song:

Hush, hush, the world is quiet/ Hush, hush, we both can't fight it/ It's us that made this mess/ Why can't you understand?/ Whoa, I won't sleep tonight

I like this song for y’all because of the fun, “will they, won’t they”, undeniable tension vibes of it; like, the opening line is literally “I kind of want to be more than friends.” It’s perfect! I also think it’d be a fun party song for dancing, in my non-party going opinion, and Elliott strikes me as an alt/indie kind of guy, so this seems like the genre he’d like.

Runner-Ups:

I like Guy as a runner-up for you because I think he also has that restless energy and bright, sociable nature that would make y’all the absolute best party guests, However, I love Sam as a runner-up because one, “loyal, stubborn, and strong” is also how I’d describe him, Two, I am obsessed with pairing vampires with partners who radiate strong Sun energy, okay, there’s nothing like it.

note: thank you for your patience, I hope you like your results! 💖

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[paperboy-pb]

☆ About Matthew... ☆

In my experience, growing up disabled, let alone a Special Ed kid, can be incredibly isolating, restrictive, and lonely. Which is bad because as you grow up, you are going to seek connection, and freedom & lots of good company.

So, if I wanted the story of Paperboy to work, I figured our leading kid should 100% embody that opposite.

[TW: this character has suicidal thoughts / childhood trauma & depression.]

The idea behind Matthew Boston is that he holds a deep love for life itself. He's a sweet little boy with big-city-dreams of Broadway & outer space; He's very smart, he's ambitious, curious, (usually) good-natured, and loves talking to people. He's also very creative; always drawing out whatever he notices during school / taking on countless arts & crafts projects at home.

I often imagine that he is made out of musicals, kids' books, the smell of crayons, and stars.

And he's getting bullied by a lot of people, which does tear him down, but no matter how much self-hatred they spark, he still dares to dream about making new friends in new places. Friends who don't mind his differences.

But Matthew is very asthmatic, with plenty of triggers to set it off. He's got Atrial Septal Defect, a hole in his heart that doesn't seem do much (yet), but can easily act up later down the line & make life harder. And let's just say hypotonia (benign congenital) does NOT help.

That's a lot for one little body. He gets sick easily & tires out even easier. He lags behind other kids with lots of physical delays. And when you add it all up, it's enough to land him in Adapted Phys Ed, Physical Therapy, Occupational Therapy, & Special Ed altogether.

So when he starts school at P.S. 361, it's a tiny room with only the same select few disabled kids, over and over as years go by.

They're hidden away from the rest of their grade, rarely meeting anyone new. And even among those classmates, Matthew STILL gets singled out:

He's being dragged out of First Period every Monday, Wednesday, Friday for Adapted PE.

He's not allowed to play with the rest of his glass during the main PE & is forced to sit out and watch everyone else have fun.

He frequently has his occupational & physical therapists taking him out of lessons.

He still gets sick a LOT. Goodbye, perfect attendance awards!

And the adults just hound him for every move he ever makes:

"Now, walk up the stairs like THIS."

"You can't hold your pencils like that!"

"Why are sit-ups so hard for you??"

"You need to type the PROPER way."

"You need to come in more often, Matthew!"

And then they get a little older & his peers pick up on it, so now there's a little extra:

"You're a fucking weakling!"

"God, you're pathetic."

"Imagine being too weak for gym."

"At least WE can defend ourselves!"

"You aren't good enough to play with us anymore."

That ISN'T GOOD for a kid's psyche-- especially not somebody who seems made to roam. He's dealt with that his whole life and feels like it just ain't living... and it isn't! And that is why he begins to feel... well, suicidal.

Ableism surrounds him. The schoolwork is "dumbed down," & even some of the people in charge of the Special Services aren't helping enough. The disability pressure is too high. The respect on his name is too low. And he needs change, but nothing ever changes.

Everyone excludes him, mocks him, babies him, gets frustrated with him...! And as long as he's a Special Ed student, he has no chance getting away from it.

This is a boy who dreams of seeing other GALAXIES... trapped in one room. He deals with this all day after day, week after week, year after year, with almost no explanation. His self-esteem is chipped-away-'d at.

And that breeds a Monster in his head; an agonizing lack of self-worth that makes him wonder if he should just do himself a favor and die.

Of course, Matthew doesn't want to die. He loves PB&J's; all of the art he's made; the pigeons on the street; the train lines & skyscrapers; the few friends & family he does have. And he CAN'T die without seeing the stars!

But he DOES want, no, need to live a life that accepts him, stimulates his brain, and lets him take to the sky. Not one that drowns him, drags him down, and suffocates him in one spot.

And the ableism within P.S. 361's Special Ed program just... refuses to make anything like that accessible to him. If he stays in there too long, not only will he be exposed to more trauma, but it's also possible that this could mess up his future. As far as he knows, anyway.

And yeah, Matthew resents Special Ed. But he also resents himself, too. He was put here because of a disability. That disability is part of him. So of course, internalized ableism begins to fester very, VERY badly.

After all, everyone seems to agree that this is just what he needs / gets for "being this way..." right? It's because of his disability... because of HIM that he doesn't deserve the same freedom & respect that the typical General Ed kids get.

The way he's being treated makes him think, "If I wasn't so defective, I'd be worth more than this! I'm sorry! I'm trying to be better, I promise!"

But it's like I said before: luckily, Matthew is VERY determined & hard-working! And he doesn't intend to lay down and die. Not yet, anyway. One way or another, he WILL find a way to leave this place! Whether anyone likes it or not.

Not only that, but... I didn't want to make him JUST a sad boy. Matthew is definitely still an 11-year-old, not to mention an idealist, and it'll definitely show in how he acts.

The world is still magical to him, despite the depression. He wishes on stars or with coins, plays with bugs, believes in bad luck & curses & superstitions. He has a big imagination that often runs wild. He asks a lot of questions and he's always eager to learn.

And sometimes, certain people or things take advantage of his naivety & manipulate him. Or he makes a mistake on his own volition. But he does grow up as time passes. And like any kid, he always wants to do the right thing.

A lot of my personal favorite scenes to write with him are the ones where he wanders someplace new; and as he takes it all in, he gets this look of pure wonder in his eyes.

This boy is full of internal life.

Now, he just needs to fight for an external one.

🪐⭐️📝🎒🚀🌙

[epickiya722]

One of the things that really makes me recognize someone as an anti: refering to Horikoshi as "the author" and being vague about his existence.

Idk It always creeps me the fuck out. It's like they want him to be some generic, invisible shonen creator so people can project stuff onto him and just not his own person with thoughts and feelings... Like, am i the only one?

Or it could be that they don't know who the actual author is????

(Anon, I was not ignoring this! I actually had this saved in my drafts and almost forgot about it! I'm so sorry this didn't come sooner!)

I hope it's just them not knowing who the actual author is and not wanting to project onto him.

I feel the same, Anon.

Sometimes it's like people tend to forget mangakas and others who do creative works are still people; they're still human, too.

When Horikoshi and his team go on break, people should not be in their feelings about it. What, they can't take the time out for families or holidays? They can't rest their bodies? They can't get sick or hurt?

Seriously, it's like nowadays, mangakas and others within that same creative area, are only seen as tools to provide entertainment. They're not allowed to be human.

Which, as someone who writes and sometimes makes icons, sickens me.

Whenever there's a break, I'm actually glad for it. All I can think is "thank gosh, please just rest".

It's tiring to produce art and stories back to back to back.

While BNHA is on break, I can always entertain myself with other media or hobbies I have. I don't sit there with a pout on my face like "hurry up and continue the story"! That's just entitlement right there.

Oh, and how people act as if the story has to be perfect.

They act as if some tropes or gags we see in BNHA is something new or the worst thing in the world, damn how it's written.

BNHA isn't going to be a flawless story because Horikoshi isn't a flawless man. He isn't a god. Just like the rest of us, he isn't some immortal being. He breathes air, eats food, gets sick, makes mistakes, feels things. He's not the best person in the world, but he ain't the worst.

Not everything that works for him and his team works for others and vice versa.

But people need to reminded this is his story. He forged in his mind and got to work to put it out there in the world.

If right now he decided he wanted Midoriya to have 20 damn quirks, he can. Midoriya is his character, not anyone else's.

The fact that people act like this man actually owns them anything boggles my mind. All he is doing is giving us a story to entertain us. That's it. That is nothing new, it's been done before. If you don't like the tropes, okay. If you do, okay. If you don't like how something is written, that's fine. If you do, that's fine, too. Don't like this character? That's you, it's how you feel. You like this character? What's the problem? There isn't.

But when it comes to Horikoshi and other mangakas, people need to take a step back and see they are still human.

BNHA, JJK, Sailor Moon, Demon Slayer, Spy x Family, and every other anime and manga out there are just entertainment given to us. Their creators are the people who were nice enough to give us a piece of who they are. They're human, too.

They're existing just like the rest of us.

[xavierkhalil]

"Enough."

The worst part of going through seasonal depression is the beginning phases. You know it's about to hit but just don't know how hard... There is a whirlwind of emotions and thoughts that circulate throughout the entire body. One moment I am extremely comical and jovial, the next I am somber and highly introspective. And, what's even more annoying is that gnawing feeling that something is always wrong with me. As if I am the project, and healing is the main assignment. That is dehumanizing.

I found myself this morning waking up hella late for work for whatever reason and irritated. I saw my coworkers and was instantly happy. I went to lunch and was introspective and felt this need to cry. I went back to work and returned as if nothing was wrong. Then we were dismissed from our office and I felt like I was on a downward slope for the rest of the day.

I had a meeting for a business venture that I am excited for, but I realized how financially insecure I am and feel. It was imposter syndrome and self-doubt, and plain doubt, that seeped into me. Right now, I am in constant survival mode, and anything that screams risk frightens me. I noticed that moments alone and reminders of financial insecurity bring me down to a low level of self-esteem. I am not comparing my situation to anyone else's; however, I am so dissatisfied that this is my reality. Is this motivation or just plain depression? I'm afraid to say it is the mix of the two.

I mean who wants depression to be their motivation to achieve. I just said in a few posts ago that achievement stripped away creative freedom. Now, it seems that achievement is what will cure my depression. Like how contradictory can my life fucking be?! God, I just want to feel normal for once. Like everything will be okay and that it won't always last like this forever...

On the other side of this, I have so much faith that things are working toward my good, and this how it always is. No matter how intense the mental war is waged, I still find a way to remain faithful. I trust God's promises for my life, even in all the uncertainty and self-doubt. Inherently, I know everything will be alright, and this won't always last forever. I just wished the moment where my life finally comes together was tomorrow.

The part of my life where I am sitting on an island working on something creative that has a pretty penny attached to it. Where I have several different jobs that feel like hobbies. A home with plenty of plants and black art. My significant other and I enjoying our love and planning our family. Where my children are respectful, respected, and loved. It just seems like that is so far away sometimes.

However, I have to check anxiety AND delusion and remind myself of where I am currently. That the life I want is being worked towards. I mean, I work hard as shit! I am constantly in prayer. Right now, my focus is on honoring and trusting God, gaining knowledge, and becoming the best version of myself in all arenas.

Yes, it feels tiring. Yes, I get in my heads sometimes. And yes, sometimes this writing it out in a journal or on my Tumblr shit does not feel like enough. Just being honest. But, outside of all the things I do and have accomplished, I am enough. I am enough to love. I am enough to fight hard for the life I seek to achieve. I am enough outside of the achievements. I am enough to be free.

I am just trying to get to the point where I can truly believe that to a point where I don't have to combat the voices in my head. I just want to believe I am enough. I mean I do. But I want the negative voices that travel throughout my body to silence.

I am enough. (You ain't shit). I am enough. (It's too early). I am enough. (No one is gonna fuck with it or you). I fuck with it, and I am enough. (Give it up, for real). It's not in me to give up! I am enough. I am enough. I AM ENOUGH!

I am. I am gonna keep fighting the voices to believe that for myself finally. I am enough.

[xtrablak674]

I am a Low Key Nerd and Naturalist

Nerd is so passé, I prefer 'complex human being'. But what I do know is, I am not apologizing to anyone for anything I wish to post. I ain't got no kids, and my parents is long dead. Last I checked ain't a single person paying one bill up in this house except me, I have no one to be beholden to regarding my activities.

Generally speaking I like to stay away from including nudes on this particular blog since I have posted more than enough of that other places on the internet. But, I feel no need to pretend that if I am going to get the opportunity I am going to celebrate my work before anything else.

Meaning I am mildly excited about iPad iOs 17, which in all actuality only has like really five cool updates, but one of them that I am not sure if its been on the phone for a minute or not, is the changing lock screens.

On my early 2008 Macbook Pro I had my desktop changing like every ten seconds with a bunch of photos from my porn archive which I had on an external drive. I always love to have an electronic device with some changing element. Traditionally on my tablets, and this is my third, I utilize my abstract work as lock and home screens. Usually two different images that will be unique to that specific device.

This Os update now allows me to indulge myself and my body dysmorphia, or put a more public face on my tablet. Albeit I plan on never leaving the house after that damn flu I caught on my daily walks, I think the public face for my tablet will be rarely used.

Another feature which is solely a personal fav is the ability to run more than one timer at a time. Sometimes I am washing something and want it to soak for four hours and during this time I may order some food and need to set a ten minute timer so I can perfectly time getting dressed for the delivery person. Now I can do that!

I also love how they show the countdown on the lock screen. I am going to be honest since I don't have a phone the lock screen was never a big thing to be, but with the tweaks to the clock and the widgets Apple is making it a more welcome place for a bit more creativity and self expression.

I love how they took into consideration the vertical and horizontal orientation that tablet user utilize and made sure the screens could be formatted to the orientation of the device, it took me playing on my second tablet to find the fully tweaks, but I enjoyed the intuitiveness in the design.

Eighteen page PDF, I read the whole thing about all the new features, so many things I don't use like the health app, air pods, Safari, FaceTime or rarely use if at all. I did try out the new iMessage tricks and tried out the new tool bar they have changed out the old one for.

I love how we can do voice notes that are sent with transcriptions. It makes the audio a bit more permanent, since I am sure the transcript can be copied and pasted. But I enjoy sharing my voice with folks so they can get all the nuance of exactly what I am saying and most importantly HOW I am saying it.

Technology and me have always been friends but I think it wise to use it smartly and don't overdo it. My twenty-seven year old nephew has a Macbook Air, AirPods, Apple Watch, iPhone, and iPad. I told the nigga straight up he needs to buy some stock in Apple with him putting so much money in their pocket! #ForRealThough

I have only had like five computers and three tablets:

Mac SE (91 - 97 | returned to Campi)

Apple Powerbook 5300 (96 - 97 | recalled by Apple)

Apple Powerbook 1400c (97 - 01 | still have)

iMac G3 (02 - 09 | lent to Techu, never returned)

Macbook Pro (08 to present)

Tablets

iPad - 16 GB (2008 to present)

iPad Pro - 256 GB (2019 to present)

iPad Pro - 1 TB (2022 to present)

Currently I still use two of my tablets, and now that I have deleted a lot of data I can use my Macbook Pro to take trips down memory lane in the form of old photos, designs, videos and memories. I am a bougie bitch and primarily only deal with Apple. I could have bought a new laptop but my iPad Pro especially with the Apple Magic Keyboard really has all the computing power I need for my current needs.

I did win a FreePC through that advertising scheme years ago, where they gave away "free" Windows computers that had very heavy advertising on them. Anyway my yoga was shot today because I spent the morning on my laptop then got caught up in iOs 17 and that was all she wrote.

Today is supposed to be my regularly scheduled program day and I only got through two episodes of Killing Eve. Anyhow let me attempt to watch my shows, albeit I am excited I have a new distraction that is creating great content for my mini-blog and allowing me to reconnect with some folks who I am sharing what I find.

[Screenshots by Brown Estate]

[helluvaoutlaw]

Striker's gaze hardened at Keenie's question, a flash of resentment crossing his features. His jaw tightened as he mentally recalled the countless times he's been scorned and belittled for his species.

"Bein' an imp in Hell ain't just about bein' at the bottom of the social ladder...a social ladder which someone else decided for us, I might add..."

He began, his voice thick with emotion.

"It's about being treated like dirt, like we're less than nothing."

He paused, his chest heaving with suppressed anger, before continuing.

"So when someone like Asmodeus thinks he can claim ownership over one of us, it's not just insulting, it's infuriating. It's a reminder of the injustice we face every day."

There was a fire in Striker's eyes as he spoke, a defiance born from years of being underestimated and mistreated.

"I ain't gonna stand for it."

He declared, his voice ringing with determination.

"Not from him or anyone else. We may be at the bottom of this motherfucking ladder, but that doesn't mean we're anyone's property to be tossed around."

His tail rattled and he clenched his fists, looking at Asmodeus dead in the eye.

"We do what we gotta do to survive. I took my risks and it didn't end well, but it wasn't to offend you. It was to gain enough money to go on another day..."

He sighed, suddenly very tired.

"And since I just want to survive, Asmodeus...instead of killing me...make me do what I hate the most..."

Striker wished he could bite his tongue off instead of saying his next words, which he knew would taste nauseatingly bitter in his mouth, but he had no choice.

"Make me serve ya. Use me however you want. I know you're the master of humiliation, and you're pretty darn creative...there must be somethin' I can do for ya."

@the-delightful-temptation

The Devil's Advocate

After his wounds had finally healed, Striker found himself roaming the shadowed streets of Greed, each step a reminder of his recent defeat at the hands of Blitz.

Bruises, scratches, and burn marks adorned his battered frame, but despite his physical frailty, his resolve remained unbroken.

As a wanted criminal, he moved with caution, every alleyway a potential trap, every passerby a potential informant.

His fury burned hot within him, fueled by his loss to Blitz and his seething hatred for both him and the insidious clown, Fizzarolli. With each painful step towards his hideout, Striker vowed to reclaim his honor and settle the score, no matter the cost.

....No....

No, he needed to focus. And to keep his word. He told Keenie he wouldn't have done that.

Revenge was a sucker's game, after all. A waste of time and not at all good for business.

And besides, right now, he needed to lay low and finish healing, regain his energies and then train his skills to get even better.

@keenie-bopper

@the-delightful-temptation

[astridxking]

Millicent Delaney ;; so much rage for such a pretty thing

Kol Mikaelson ;; hey i heard you were a wild one

Klaus Mikaelson ;; who’s afraid of the big bad wolf?

Rebekah Mikaelson ;; you like my hair? gee thanks just bought it

Sam Winchester ;; the boy who lived come to die

Caroline Forbes ;; hey barbie 

Dean Winchester ;; give him a scotch he’s starving

Victoria Harrington ;; you name it, she’s done it

Chester Lawrence ;; the late late show guys son 

Ben Braeden ;; the only boy i’ve loved before  

Cameron Price ;; are you as kind as i?

Elena Gilbert ;; unmeasurable kindness

Genevieve Angeli ;; what’s a filter anyway?

Aurora de Martel ;; much kinder than people may say

Scarlett Lynch ;; ariel hair, angel heart

Carson St James ;; too bad he’s off limits

Ivy Mulligan ;; sabrina the british witch

Tomas Valentine ;; are you in pain like me?

Logan Booth ;; if shere khan was human...

Anastasia Carrow ;; are you a lost girl?

Spencer Pryor ;; we’re all a little mad down here

Charlotte Fell ;; she don’t wanna be stone cold

Adrian Rivera ;; ohana means family 

Molly Reynolds ;; did you return with a heart of gold?

Dante ;; like a black hole of misery

Freya Mikaelson ;; mother... martyr AND mikaelson? surely NOT

Aila King ;; good lord look at how our bridges burn

Hattie Brent ;; what planet are you from?

Elliot Carter ;; fearless child broken boy

Mason Duval ;; from the day we met until the day we die

Shawn Maddox ;; if only he believed he could

@delaneymillicent @mikaelsonnkol @shedevilmikaelson @ofplaidiisms @damnedforbes @ofbowlegs @nothingmorehuman @chesslawrence @brxedens @cam-price @mrs-elenaxsalvatore @gen-angeli @leftinlavender @ofgingerpaws @causticcarson @pcstcards @aberranttomas @vindictivelogan @genesiscarrow @vitiatedvampire @ofacrimony @widowerwolf @havocwreaked @sxcrifico @longlostmikaelsongirl @ailaking @hattiebrent @elliotandrewcarter @masonduval @shawnmaddox

[strangerthings4theories]

Billy's Story Is About Recovering Lost Innocence (Billy's Sexuality: An Overview)

Billy's sexuality is a subject of debate in fandom, and for good reason. The guy's a mess. He's clearly fighting against something, all while putting on a hypersexual womanizer persona. And so far, we've gotten no concrete answers. Is he secretly gay? Did something happen to him?? What the hell is going on?

In this series I'll sketch out what I think is happening: why Billy's so tortured, how his sexuality comes into play, and what we can expect for his story moving forward. Because yes, I do consider this topic more evidence for his return. His arc isn't finished!

Please keep in mind my only goal is to give my best answer to the question, "What's the show doing?" You may have a different answer, and that's okay. Most importantly, I am not judging anyone's preferences, headcanons, ships, or fan creations. You can ship Billy with whoever you damn well please. You can also have your own opinion on what the show should do with him. Even if we agree on what it's actually doing, that doesn't mean you have to find it satisfying.

And that's the beauty of fandom. It's creative, collaborative, and transformative. However you interpret the show, you have the power to respond as a creator in your own right. You can say, "Hey, there's potential here," or "I don't like how they handled that," then go explore with no one else's permission. Canon ain't the Bible, and you're not a heretic for having your own views.

I hope you find these posts interesting and inclusive. If you don't want to read them, you can filter the tag #theories: billy's sexuality

Okay. Everybody comfortable? Got a hot beverage? Here we go~~

My theory: Billy's journey is about turning away from a false, oversexed persona to reclaim his lost innocence.

I base this on several lines of argument. I'll summarize them here, but each will take a LOT of analysis to establish. Since I'll have to do that in future posts, I beg your patience and understanding.

The Argument, Summarized

1. Billy is driven by one wound above all others. He believes he was a pussy as a kid, and because of that, he wasn't able to protect his mom from Neil. Because he couldn't protect her, he lost her. The show tells us this story via his memories (one of the most crucial scenes for his character).

2. He's afraid it could happen again with someone else he loves. He's still a pussy, after all - still that little kid inside. So the threat isn't over. It's always with him, a sword hanging over his head. (We see this play out with Max especially.)

3. Billy thinks being a pussy means showing any sign of softness. Compassion, love, romance, and friendship are all suspect. If he wants to avoid a repeat of the past, he must reject them.

4. Billy's interest in women is genuine,* but because he can't be a pussy, he only lets himself express it in rigid, hypermasculine ways. Sexual conquest is okay and even encouraged. Feelings are not. Women can be tools for his gratification, nothing more. This leads to a profound loneliness.

(*This doesn't have to mean he's straight, fyi! Bi and pan men are also interested in women)

5. Because Billy's so lonely, he overcompensates. He doesn't just separate feelings from sex; he hypes up his sexuality until it's the first thing you notice. He sculpts his body, shows it off, and practices his moves in the mirror, all so girls will fall at his feet. If enough of them do it, maybe he'll stop feeling so damn lonely.

By my theory, his journey will go something like this:

From...

oversexed

hostile

afraid to express any feelings other than anger

consumed by trauma and guilt

To...

balanced sexuality

open to connection

expressing the full range of human emotion

healing from his trauma

letting go of the guilt

It begins at Starcourt. Stirred by the memory of his mother, Billy takes the first step to free the little boy locked inside. Hence why he looks so youthful when he stands up to the Mind Flayer. The boy is out of his cage.

This is the foundational tension of his character: the oversexed monster-man vs the inner child.

Again, explaining my argument in full will be a process, so bear with me. If you've read this far and aren't interested in reading more, feel free to filter the tag #theories: billy's sexuality

In the meantime, I welcome questions and respectful discussion!

[messiisgodibeliveinhim]

Taeyong

I just wanted to rant about everything that happened. So here I am.

So initially I didn't want to watch the concert because of the obvious lack of Taeyong. But i did watch it (ill*gally) on Twitter Live Stream, to see who would cover for Taeyong and how.

Okay, first of all, is it just me or was there an actual lack of preparation and production for the concert??? Like, compare it to SuperM's Beyond Live. The VCRs, the camera direction, the stage, the AR effects... Everything looked so good and exciting. But for this one, they didn't even try. The production was lacking severely and the AR effects were barely used. Everything looked rushed as if they didnt actually plan it set by set. The VCRs were just all the footages from other videos clamped together. There was nothing new or cool about this Beyond Live, even with the increased price. Overall, it looked cheap. I think, the only saving grace of this online concert were the boys themselves.

Secondly, the boys who covered for Taeyong did a good job. Obviously, no one can come close to even performing and delivering like Taeyong but the boys did fine, considering that they had to practice his parts for only 2-3 weeks. And it's a daunting task to fill such huge shoes. The pressure that the boys felt, especially the newbies Shotaro and Sungchan, to try to fill that gap, must have been immense.

But of course, NShittyzens took this as an opportunity to sh*t on Taeyong, saying stupid things like 'XYZ ate Taeyong up', 'ABC made Taeyong's song his own', 'MNO killed Taeyong's part and I think he should've been part of the original line-up instead of Taeyong', 'I hope my bias gets to shine now', 'My faves really took this "opportunity" and showed the world' etc.... Like??? Are you really that dense or just spewing bs like this cuz y'all want attention??? The same thing happened when Taeyong missed the KBS mid-year festival and the other boys covered for him for Kick It.

If y'all truly believe that you're bias only shines when Taeyong is absent, then it shows how insecure you are about you're faves talents and abilities. If you truly think Taeyong's injury is an "opportunity" for your fave, then there is clearly something wrong with you. If you think you're fave ate Taeyong up in any manner, then it shows that you just hate Taeyong. If you think Taeyong is replaceable, then you're doing piss poor job of convincing yourself. Taeyong doesn't need NCT, but NCT needs Taeyong.

He is not just the leader, but also the main dancer, main rapper, sub vocalist, the center of the group and the face of the group. He has also contributed to the group with over 30 songs and has choreographed for some of NCT songs. He is NCT's idea bank, with the numerous times he has come up with something new and interesting for their concepts or choreography (For Example: The Jungle Gym for Neo City tour, the epic finger move and Mark stepping on Taeyong for the Kick It choreography, the chandelier scene in MAW, etc) . Many professionals have constantly praised Taeyong for his creativity and excellent inputs.

Taeyong was there from the very beginning of NCT and has carried the group on his back for 4 years now. And he has always remained kind and humble, even with all the misdirected hate that he faced for years. He always puts himself down and praises all the members, no matter what. He has juggled between groups, 5 comebacks and numerous concerts, this year alone. His schedule list looks like the Bank Statement of one whole year. The way the man has worked for the past 2 years is insane. And upon that, the burden of being the leader of a group with 23 members??? Can y'all even imagine the amount of weight on Taeyong's shoulders???

And yes, the injuries he has constantly sustained for over 4 years now. We have seen various footages of him having neck braces, holding his waist and limping. He has also talked about the continuous back pain or how he was sick for 3 days after shooting a MV. SM had known exactly the extent of his injuries and still overworked him to the bone. Now his waist disc injury has relapsed and we still dont have a statement on his health or time of recovery on ANY of the SM Official Accounts. Not one word. We had to find out through a platform that's barely used and most non-twitteratti NCTzens didn't know about this whole ordeal until after the concert began.

What boils my blood is that SM knew about the relapsed injury way before, gave the boys enough time to practice Taeyong's part, but announced the concert by advertising Taeyong all over it, last Monday. And they literally only made the announcement after the concert ticket cancelation period was over. F*cking money whores! F*ck SM!!!!

The worst part of it all are the NShittyzens. Most of you didn't care about the fact that SM not only neglected the leader's health but also scammed Taeyong's fans. When TyongFs began to get refunds for the concert, some of you accused them and started dictating what they should do with their own money, pulling sh*t like- 'Taeyong as a leader, wants his group to do well. Now he would be sad knowing that fans dont care about the group cuz y'all are getting your refunds'. Really? Cuz most y'all who said this watched the concert illegally, makes it even more funny to me. And its none of you're business, how anyone else spends their money. And if you think Taeyong cares about SM losing money, then you're just stupid. If it's anyone in the whole group who'd say 'F*ck Capitalism!', it's Taeyong. So STFU!

Also, when TyongFs started demanding an official statement from SM about Taeyong, some of y'all went- "You're just a fan. Y'all dont have any right to cross the boundaries of Idol-Fan relationship and ask for personal stuff. Other artist fans didn't get any official statement, so why should you?'. We didnt ask for his f*cking medical records. We just want a statement from SM's official accounts about his health and his time of recovery. That's it. SM has refused to acknowledge the injuries of other artists before, doesn't mean that this pattern has to continue. And as fans, we are entitled to know about the artist, cuz WE CARE...! Cuz a waist disc injury relapsing aint a small thing. The amount of pain that Taeyong is probably enduring right now.... We dont even know the extent of it. We dont know how long he needs to recover or even how long SM will give him to rest. We don't know anything and we are scared. So just wanting a statement about it, isnt 'crossing the boundaries' as you put it. So again, STFU!

Y'all don't care about Taeyong, fine. The least you can do is respect him and not discredit his hardwork. After everything he has done and continues to do for NCT, y'all keep going with the 'Taeyong is the villain' narrative. He isn't stealing your faves lines or screentime. He isn't pushing them back to 'shine more'. He isnt the bad person you think he is. Y'all rejoicing now that he is injured, happy that your faves got to take up Taeyong's part or just hateful saying your fave was better than Taeyong.... It just ain't it.

No other group leader gets the kinda hate Taeyong does, even though he does 5 times the work for the group than any other leader. Yes, Taeyong has multiple positions the group, all deserved. Yes, he is a very charismatic and an amazing performer on the stage, that lures new fans in. Not his fault that he grabs everyone's attention. Yes, he is very talented in so many aspects. But that doesn't mean you get tobblame you're faves mistreatment on him, cuz he himself is being mistreated by SM. So don't come at me with you're 'SM's golden boy' bs! I will taze your ass and watch supernanny as you crawl under the carpet!

Maybe you're right about how you're faves dont get to shine enough when they're on the same stage as Taeyong, cuz his charisma and aura is very magnetic, you can't help but watch him and him only. I thought only TyongFs have this kinda tunnel vision but apparently, all of you have it as well....

Here's the thing. You don't like it when Taeyong gets praised all the time, whether its his dance or rap or anything at all. Cuz you don't like Taeyong. So why are you even focused on him and TyongFs. If I don't like anything, i simply ignore it. So instead of focusing on Taeyong, focus on hyping up your fave (again, by not dragging Taeyong, not even subtly). It ain't hard, trust me.

At least have the human decency to not rejoice over the fact that he is injured. The sh*t i see online everyday, some of y'all have totally lost it.

And lastly, no one can eat up Taeyong. No one can do his part better than him. Hell, no one can even come close to doing what he does. So get that delusion outta your heads. Its embarrassing.

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Hathor & Sekhmet

Hathor: About to slap myself so you'll feel it Hathor: wherever you are ain't where you should be Sekhmet: what im sleep Sekhmet: 😴😴😴 Hathor: wake up 👊🏽 Hathor: you asked me to meet you, remember? Sekhmet: I think that's tomorrow Sekhmet: I said Wednesday, right Hathor: That's today Hathor: you blackout past Tuesday? Sekhmet: You're joking Sekhmet: well then, that means I've got a deadline I gotta meet and not a whole lot of time for brunch dates Hathor: you're joking Hathor: I cancelled on a fine boy for you Sekhmet: it's so early you got time to hit it back Sekhmet: I know I didn't tell you I'd meet you at the crack of dawn Hathor: you didn't and you're late af still Sekhmet: chill sis, I'll make it up to you Hathor: yeah Hathor: anyone else'd be offended you don't ever want to have a sober conversation Hathor: but I'll see you in the club Sekhmet: girl, chill 😂 Sekhmet: how fine was he that you're all kinds of vexed with me Sekhmet: don't even care how I'm gonna make it up to you, oh my days 🥴🍆🧠 for real Hathor: he's got prospects, I'm not saying any more than that if you're not coming out 👅 Hathor: I'll care how you're gonna make it up when you next show up for real Sekhmet: ugh! living up to your name 🐮 Sekhmet: bitch I'm busy 😏 the juggle is real Hathor: you know I don't say that shit lightly except once in a blue moon, however fine a lad be looking Hathor: but if you don't wanna hear it Sekhmet: is he 🧑🏾🧑🏿 Hathor: 🥛 Hathor: nobody is more surprised than me Sekhmet: 👏🙌 yay Sekhmet: I told you, white boys are the best Sekhmet: they treat us like 👸 Hathor: It's his Irish accent tricking me Hathor: I gotta take a trip back and cure myself Sekhmet: awh, you're homesick, precious Sekhmet: now it makes sense why you wanna tie me down Hathor: can barely understand him he's from so far north, more likely that Sekhmet: throwback 📟 📠 📺 📻 Hathor: get the psych dept to pull their shrink shit on me about it Sekhmet: You wanna be just like Vee, sorted Sekhmet: take my PhD now 💁 Hathor: be more disrespectful! first you stand me up and then put that out there Sekhmet: 🤭 you've got a ways to go, even if you're rolling mad extra today Hathor: I didn't ask 👼🏽💘 to 🎯 me up in the 🍑 Hathor: got my own things I'm busy with Sekhmet: love is magic 💖 Sekhmet: don't be complaining in my inbox when I'm tragically single Hathor: I've been serving and swerving him for long enough I thought I'd succeeded, there's the complaint Sekhmet: 🙄 you can't ❌ feelings bitch Hathor: white boys are a different animal, I ❌ the fear of Sekhmet: 😍😍😍 Hathor: I'm not here to be treated like a 👸🏽 if that's one step away from being called 'exotic' Hathor: there's nothing sexy about a power imbalance Sekhmet: most girls would disagree, babe Sekhmet: why do you wanna be run of the mill every day when we been #blessed with this 🔥 Sekhmet: all black guys wanna chat about is my light-skin privilege and their black man struggles, I can't 🥱 Hathor: fetishization like that ain't foreplay I'm interested in Hathor: 👑 me for other reasons than my melanin Sekhmet: insecurities SNAPPED, I'm sure he likes you for more than your skin, you crazy Hathor: he likes me for how I pour measures rn Sekhmet: racial Sekhmet: that's why everyone likes you 💃💃💃 Hathor: on account of being a poor student not Northern Irish, don't be biting the hand that feeds your blackouts Sekhmet: my white boys always pay Hathor: #blessed innit Sekhmet: 👸😇 tings Hathor: which white boy you with ignoring your deadline then? Sekhmet: whoever it is they've gone to work Sekhmet: but they left a 💳 with their cute note so I know I'm in a good postcode still 🙏 Hathor: so come meet me and spare mine, that's the right thing to do Sekhmet: just 'cos it's good doesn't mean I'm not lost still, damn Sekhmet: hold on and let me get dressed and get my bearings Hathor: if your phone ain't drained I can use it to get your bearings while you serve a look Sekhmet: who doesn't have a charger in their hoe 👜 PLEASE Hathor: you didn't know what day it was, can't blame me for 👶🏽ing Sekhmet: where would I be without you 😘 Sekhmet: mum hasn't phoned me in ages actually, it's so rude Sekhmet: I missed the last few but still Hathor: I hit her with your highlights, creatively Hathor: like how I won't mention a white boy making me feel like a baby 🐮 that can't walk Sekhmet: 😶😶 Sekhmet: dad would 😥 Hathor: and she'll 🙌🏽 harder than you've done Sekhmet: facts are facts Sekhmet: look at her dad, Vee's... Hathor: cliches are tired and stereotypes are damaging Sekhmet: @ your white boy with the 👋 then booboo Sekhmet: I think dad's in town working today, you wanna come for dinner with us? 🥂 Hathor: he's not mine to command in or out 👅 Hathor: yeah 🍾 will help Sekhmet: I'll teach you Hathor: those twin stereotypes are damaging too, like Sekhmet: oh hush, I only tried to 💋 you ONE time and we were like babies and that boy was the first great love of my life Sekhmet: anyway, you're like hot but not my types type these days, you know Hathor: that boy was trash Hathor: you levelled up fast though Sekhmet: awh, don't be rude, I have fond memories Hathor: I have loads of him trying to ask me out at the same time Sekhmet: oh yeah Sekhmet: I forgot that happened Sekhmet: his hair was gorgeous though Hathor: it was Sekhmet: good times Sekhmet: my new guy, not this one, the actual one, looks like old school Leo, I SWEAR Hathor: Yeah? Sekhmet: like Leo and a bit of River and Ryan Philippe in Cruel Intentions Sekhmet: 🥰🥰🥰 Hathor: love of your life material Sekhmet: definitely Sekhmet: he's a trader in the city and his apartment is 😱😱😱 Hathor: what's the age range this time? Sekhmet: he's only 26, it's mad how successful he is already Hathor: he sounds like the full 🎟 Hathor: any catch? Sekhmet: only technically Hathor: technically he's a 🤖? Sekhmet: ha, he totally has the stamina of one Sekhmet: he can keep up with me, almost 😉 Hathor: 👌🏽 he's perfect Hathor: fucking hell Sekhmet: no need to be jealous when you're 🥰 yourself Sekhmet: what does he look like? Hathor: Tall enough Hathor: more like a 🥊 than a 👼🏻 Sekhmet: you really do wanna do great grandpa Sekhmet: jk, he sounds so you Hathor: he does work for the main brewery that supplies us, maybe I do Hathor: Jesus Christ Sekhmet: 😂😬 processing that Sekhmet: not really though, every boy I've ever dated has been like dad, it's unavoidable tbh 💁 Hathor: in our postcode nobody's trying very hard to be anything else Hathor: 💰💳💎🍾 Sekhmet: why would they? Hathor: they wouldn't and they aren't, it'd be terrifying for any of those boys to step out Sekhmet: 🙄 you aren't going to throw yourself down a ladder when you're at the top, babe Hathor: wouldn't kill them to give other people a hand up though, they just act like it Sekhmet: 🥱 when's your deadline? Hathor: my work's done Sekhmet: then button it, loser Sekhmet: you wanna eat out on this nice rich boy's 💳 Hathor: ETA of 15 on getting to you Hathor: you best 🚿 Sekhmet: way ahead of you 🛀 Sekhmet: door's unlocked, our breakfast will hopefully be on the table when you get here Sekhmet: love ubereats Hathor: 🙌🏽 Sekhmet: you can bring it through, the view in this bathroom is immense Sekhmet: thought getting the driver to bring it to the tub was unlikely Hathor: he probably would but it's unlikely I'd recover from walking in on it Sekhmet: 😘 Sekhmet: do fuck with an asian boy Hathor: you don't know he will be Hathor: might not even be a lad Hathor: but if it is, guarantee they'll send the most unexpected one Sekhmet: it usually is, your stereotypes be damned Hathor: what are you gonna bet? Sekhmet: the Belgian 🧇s Hathor: you're on Sekhmet: sometimes you shock me with how green you are, Hath Hathor: back to putting disrespect on me, what a nice truce while it lasted, like Sekhmet: I mean, you know I can see the driver on my app, babe Sekhmet: no points for guessing where Hassan is from Sekhmet: you can have the 🧇s anyway Hathor: you know I can read your thoughts, the playing field is level Hathor: and anyway I like green, that's my boy's eye colour Sekhmet: been gazing into them longingly across the bar have we🤭 Hathor: maybe Sekhmet: so cute Sekhmet: hope this one doesn't have a fiancee Sekhmet: or a maid who thinks we've broken in Hathor: if he does he better break that eye contact with me Sekhmet: I meant Mr Black Card, don't worry Sekhmet: he's a student, yeah? he won't be Hathor: he's only got a year on us, I don't predict an engagement Sekhmet: yeah, doubt it Hathor: outside of our family people aren't usually that extra Sekhmet: some of the asian internationals are but they usually cheat if their intended ain't here yet so Hathor: Yeah Sekhmet: what even does an engagement mean anyway Sekhmet: not much, right Hathor: a flash 💍 Hathor: what's my course teaching me if I don't know the statistics on how often a wedding follows? Hathor: shows how outdated it is Sekhmet: he gives me that anyway Hathor: I'd take a phone number and be happy with it for now Hathor: but it's probably the party and that whole flex too, right? Sekhmet: the dress Sekhmet: but it's irrelevant if it doesn't happen, like you said Hathor: 🎁🎁 even if it doesn't if people bring them for the engagement as well, but you're not going short of any Sekhmet: right Sekhmet: 😥 if you need a wedding for attention Hathor: Jay's birth mum QUAKING Sekhmet: omg I bet that's EXACTLY what his fiancee is like Hathor: does he ever speak about her? Sekhmet: obviously not Sekhmet: but she must never come up from wherever they're from because I'm like ALWAYS over so Hathor: maybe she doesn't know about this place Hathor: old school Sekhmet: Who knows Sekhmet: can't be my problem Hathor: Yours is the day you've missed, like Hathor: what's the assignment? Sekhmet: design some sportswear line Sekhmet: got to get the sketches in by 5, but all I ordered for me was a shit ton of coffee, it'll be fine Hathor: more productive if I stay or go? Sekhmet: you've already missed your date, you may as well stay Hathor: okay Hathor: am the sportier one Sekhmet: how are you 😂 Hathor: ⚽⛹🏽🚴🏽🥊 Hathor: why dad loves me more than you Sekhmet: now I know you're talking nonsense 😏 Hathor: True, he loves Vee and she never gets off her chaise Sekhmet: and she doesn't even love him back Hathor: poor dad Sekhmet: yeah Hathor: what time's dinner with him? Sekhmet: I'll ask him when he wants to go Hathor: about to come up, so whatever you were planning for Hassan, this is me Sekhmet: regrettably noted