#i actually wanted to paint MY cat but girlie's pattern is all stripey and weird coloured

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CAT

This shit lowkey focuses on everything but the damn cat it annoys me but whatevs. Also was taking this pic at home so I actually got an okay angle ahah

Anyway turns out I was also supposed to name this and like what??? Wtf do i call this thing??? Like it's just a cat sleeping on a keyboard 😞 I panicked and just wrote "Modern cats" on the back '-' it's shit i kinda hate that but like i had no other ides lol. Actually there was one, "The modernisation of cats" but i have no idea what the word modernisation means, i just liked how it sounds so i decided not to use it.

Anyway about the paining process, idk i just watched julian & friends and lethal company letsplays. When I was done with the pencil stuff i was thinking abt colouring it with watercolours but the details were kinda intimidating so i went with gouache but I had like no gouache left and i didnt feel like buying more so i found a pack of like ... at least 9 years old gouache cans and that paint was *SOLID* so I poured boiling water in it but that did literally nothing so i just gave up but turns out im just an impatient fuck cuz it was perfect the next day lol. Like it was better than my newest gouache pack.

Also I was drawing the lighting in here at random cuz i confused myself with the 'out of frame lamp light' and the laptop light so now it just looks weird but oh well. Lowkey hate how the cat and the background look like they were drawn in like ... different styles???? Like the cat was me putting random dots while everything else is me putting random lines but uh that one's not too bad i hope. Also made the outside in the window too light. Ooh speaking of the outside tho there were supposed to be tree branches in like .. the foreground??? of the window?? but by the time i was done with the windows i didn't feel like drawing them

Aaa and the earphones' wire is supposed to be chewed through but it kinda just looks like I accidentally painted over it with yellow??? I should've made the gap bigger lol.

But great now because of that window i wanna draw a night sky in a city which would make no sense i guess cuz in a city there are no fucking stars at all??? Like I know about light pollution and all, but I SWEAR there used to be at least some occasional stars?? Now I'm lucky if I see one. One time we went on a car trip at night, which we don't usually do, and the AMOUNT OF FUCKING STARS OUTSIDE THE CITY???? LIKE OH MY GOD????? THAT IS BEAUTIFUL. I really need to get out at some point just to stare at the sky ahah. Lowkey wanted to bleed out somewhere in a field lookign at the stars on that car trip. But like frfr I've painted stars a lot but it's like never enough. That reminds me of a thing i drew some months ago tho i might post it maybe? I'm just using this app to rant abt random shit and post the stuff i draw cuz it feels lowkey embarrassing to post it on my instagram ahah. Like ppl who actually know me would see that. That's just terrifying.

Also I'm not sure if you're supposed to lay gouache on that thick? It kinda feels like my art club teacher is avoiding me cuz like man always goes around giving pro tips and advice but never to me 😞 im lowkey unapproachable tho cuz for some reason when i was 12 i decided to just Not Socialise™ and people remember me like that so maybe it's that lol. I was lowkey dying on the inside when he was giving another student advice and it was basically "Do NOT do *everything I just did* EVER." like damn okay man

Anyway rant over, thank you for maybe reading. Jonathan out.