#i actually feel like im being respected as a person and not just a student

[myunghology]

twisted wonderland 2nd years, except they're helplessly in love.

pairings ; riddle, ruggie, azul, jade, floyd, kalim, jamil, silver x gn! reader. (seperate).

tw ; none.. unless it's a bit too cheesy..?

a/n ; my first twst work.. im terrified!!

☆ — RiDDLE ROSEHEARTS

nope. will not allow it. he has his priority- which is his grades. he won't allow himself to be distracted by you. (more below the cut!)

but you are gorgeous tho, he'll admit that.

oh, would you look at that.. he's been distracted.

other students, even students outside heartslabyul are getting a bit weirded out, like what do you mean he's stopping in his tracks just to watch you pass by.

doesn't even notice it himself that he's staring at you. it's about time he notices that he'd stopped walking is when floyd smacked his head..

well, to be fair, he's noticed himself that he gets nervous whenever he invites you to unbirthday parties, he feels like everything has to be perfect.

—which is why some heartslabyul students are kinda annoyed when you come. only because they have to do so much with riddle pressuring them every 10 minutes. they like you generally though!

plus riddle seems more relaxed when you're around. that's just a bonus though! (is it really)

cater has multiple pictures of riddle just staring at you— his gaze softening whenever his eyes land on you instinctively.

he offers to hold open the door for you whenever you run into each other outside the classrooms, he offers to help you whenever you ever get injured playing some sport, and he even let's you borrow his notes if you were absent in class for a good reason.

sure, maybe he might be a bit arrogant, and a bit of a cry baby, and definitely strict— but he has respect for everyone. especially you.

riddle rosehearts is truly, a gentleman in a world full of boys.

☆ — RUGGiE BUCCHi

him? in love? absolutely.

if ruggie was in love, it'll probably be obvious. he tries to hide it though,, but it's clear he isn't good at that.

he's pretty chill around you though, nothing too awkward.

let me tell you this, whenever you ask him for a request, he'll want something back. no, he isn't gonna ask for a kiss or a date. stop imagining that.

he wants you to pay him back by a favor, so that he can pull the "you owe me a favor, since i did ___ for you." card.

okay maybe then he'll ask you on a date. or he'll ask you to steal something from a student.

what can i say.. it's 50/50.. slowly leaning onto the date idea though.

ruggie isn't oblivious, or stupid either. he knows when he's in love. he's just too afraid to admit it. sometimes leona makes fun of him for being a "wimp" and to just confess.

also stares at you, but in class this time. bro isn't listening at all actually because he's too busy looking at you.

maybe i will admit that ruggie is a little shit but he's actually a sweetheart when he wants to be. it's a win/win situation if you like annoying guys but has a soft spot for you.

spoiler: he eventually sucks it tf up and soon confesses.

☆ — AZUL ASHENGROTTO

azul may be a tad bit conscious about what you think about him. screw that- he's definitely conscious about what you think about him. from not only about what happened during his overblot and from his insecurities.

he knows you aren't that type of person, but he can't help it.

it makes him feel a million times better when you reassure him though. even if it's making him a bit delusional.. but then again you might be saying that just because you pity him.

"or maybe they're just nice and they actually care have you ever thought of that" - floyd

you go to monstro lounge about once a week, and for sure, azul has sent jade and floyd to take care of you well, since of couse, most of the time he's busy.

floyd almost exposed azul's crush on you once when you two were chatting, thankfully jade was there to cover his mouth before he continued speaking.

but when he is actually there face to face actually talking to you, he sounds smug but in reality, he's a nervous wreck in the inside. you obviously know that though.

wait till you tell him that you find him cute..

he explodes

no i'm joking, he's just blushing really hard. like.. too much. again- it's kinda obvious that he likes you whenever you compliment him.

☆ — JADE LEECH

so, so respectful when talking to you. still a bit teasing though. he offers to help you even if you're carrying just one thing.

always glad to see you when you're visiting monstro lounge, floyd loves you just as much, but in a platonic way! he isn't going to steal jades version of his 'shirmpy'.

tried to make a drink thats named by you, azul didn't allow it, unfortunately. (for him). i'd be embarrassed tbh.

in your opinion jade is a bit weird.. but he's still super nice to you, no matter how weird this guy seems. he would never do anything that would make you uncomfortable.

similar to riddle- he opens doors for you, sometimes offers to cook for you, and sometimes treats you whenever you're at montro lounge. only if azul allows it though, which is pretty rare. like jade wtf dym "its on the house" no it's not shut up.

you sometimes wonder if his mushrooms are safe to eat or not.

it's probably best not to ask him though.

he may or may have not tried breaking into your dorm room because you weren't attending class and you weren't responding to his messages asking where you were. it was all on concern tho don't worry i swe-

genuinely doesn't have a problem with confessing, but he only confesses until he's confident that you like him back.

trigger warning for floyd though since he's probably gonna pop out anytime soon during the confession..

☆ — FLOYD LEECH

my condolences if he ever likes you.

just kidding, it'd be pretty fun if floyd started to like you. only if you really like his bone crushing hugs.

doesn't hide his crush on you at all, you gotta be super oblivious if you don't notice it if he didn't even confess to you yet the moment he finds out that he likes you.

you're definitely scared shitless whenever you see him. when you try to run away he chases you around the halls and he's so damn fast, it's nearly impossible to escape him.

plus- his mood swings too? who knows if he'll get excited when you run away from him or if he's gonna get pissed off.. but mostly he gets excited though.

has kabedoned you one, too many times. mostly to fluster you, but also to get your attention.

easily gets jealous- especially when someone else hugs you for a long time. no one can hug his shrimpy except him! he isn't possessive, that's just how floyd is.

also stares at you in class- but throws paper airplanes at you, with the writings inside saying "HI".

ends up getting in trouble because either he got caught, or riddle snitched. most likely the second one tho.

drags you to monstro lounge to help him clean up his OWN messes, but he (might) have intentionally done this to spend time with you..

☆ — KALiM AL-ASiM

probably one of the best people ever to have a crush on you if that even makes sense..

spoils you rotten, even more than when he spoils his friends which is obviously already huge. wanna buy something online but can't? he's already asking for the link so he can buy it for you!

you obviously feel bad whenever he does this, so you try to remind him that he doesn't have to do all of this stuff for you.

not only with gifts, he spoils you rotten with affection too. you feel bad for jamil as well, he seems annoyed, but as long as kalim's happy.

very very respectful and nice to you, and will stop anything you don't want him to do anytime, he sometimes flirts with you unintentionally too..

hugs you literally at literally any chance he gets, he's also pretty clingy, if you haven't noticed that yet.

shows you off to other scarabia students, it's pretty obvious that he has a crush on you too.

bro's lovesick

gets so upset when something happens to you because of him, worries that people will try to do some crazy shit to you as well because you have a good connection with him..

introduces you to his family like you're his wife or something.. and then when you ask him what are you guys he'll go:

"are we not engaged" "NO??"

he was fully convinced that you guys were dating already

he's a little bit delusional but that's ok..

☆ — JAMiL ViPER

like riddle, jamil does not have the time to fall in love with someone since he's already busting his ass off taking care of kalim.. and with his academics too. plus the overblot situation but we don't talk about that.

maybe you are a little bit scared of him as well, but little do you know this guy will literally adjust for you anytime. it's really hard to see though when he does.

VERY hard to see that he has a crush on you though. you'd confess and he'd be like,

"i gave you so much signs what do you mean i might not like you back"

you were starstruck when you heard him say that. what does he mean signs. does he mean when he glared at you in class..? you thought you did something wrong for a second.

like floyd, kalim once almost exposed jamil for liking you accidentally.. don't get me wrong, jamil didn't tell kalim anything, he just found out himself.

jamil definitely likes you trying his culture's food, especially if he cooked it himself! it's not obvious, but he lets a small smile creep up onto his lips.

studies with you too if you're ever having a hard time. studying? nah, more like tutoring.. he's kinda harsh at first but then softens up a bit when he sees that you're really struggling.

☆ — SiLVER

im sure we all know silver is a generally pretty reserved person. and that doesn't change even when he's crushing on you.

but you do notice him stealing glances from time to time whenever you walk past him, lilia definitely asks him about that.

he may be a tad bit more open with you than others? but it's purely because he trusts you.

you sometimes tie his hair to the hairstyle called "apple hair" when he's sleeping and he doesn't notice even when he wakes up, he only notices after looking at a mirror..

genuinely doesn't mind though. lilia thinks it's adorable (he also thinks you guys are perfect for each other)

and that's why lilias opinions are always important..

generally, you guys usually talk through chat because you two don't really have the time to talk to each other physically.

but still, he still thinks you're beautiful. even if he can't see you all the time. this dynamic is kinda like a hallway crush typebeat..??

lilia is your number 1 fan alongside malleus!! sebek still has mixed feelings but he likes you generally! he just isn't sure if he likes you for silver.. or if he's not sure if he likes silver for you.. does that make sense?

after awhile he joins malleus and lilia.

©myunghology

[parkerluvsu]

ANGELEYES (virgin! art donaldson x fem! reader)

(my first halloween fic.. i don't have the energy to do kinktober <3)

art donaldson is a virgin. a big fat virgin. it's his biggest secret, the only person who knows about it is patrick, and he endlessly makes fun of him for it. it's hard living in the shadow of such a sex prodigy like him, patrick had been relaying stories of heavy makeout sessions and 7 minutes in heaven with random girls ever since middle school. art has been on a multitude of double dates with patrick, only for them to end with him and a girl sitting awkwardly next to him while patrick and his date messily makeout on the couch next to him.

of course art tried to mimic patrick, his smooth words and even smoother hands.. but never successfully. the longest he's ever had a girlfriend was only 5 months.. and she broke up with him on valentines day. this year was the first year he actually had a girlfriend on a semi-romantic holiday. or at least art thought it was, he remembers every year that couples in cute costumes walked by and made him want to cry. and even worse was the halloween parties, with drunk college students wearing stupid costumes and grinding on each other, leaving art to sip on a room temperature beer in the corner.

art was abruptly brought back to reality when you tapped on his shoulder, alerting him to the fact that he wasn't still in a stupid party, he was lodged in a costume store dressing room, holding on to the costumes you still wanted to try on. "what do you think?" you spin around, showing him the back of your cheesy tennis player costume. art chuckles, shaking his head, "i think it's offensive.." he jokes, of course you look cute but he can't stop himself from thinking that you'd never be able to move around a court in that stupid uniform. "hand me another one art.." he gives you the next costume, turning to face the wall while you change. "you know you can look.. right? im your girlfriend aren't i?" art blushes and he's thankful you can't see his face. "i- im just being respectful" he says, seeming genuinely concerned about offending you. you let the issue go as you zip up the costume, tapping art on the shoulder.

when you got home, you set down your costume and turned to art. "so now what are you gonna be? we should match right?" he nods shyly, not exactly knowing how to enter this unfamiliar territory. "i guess you could be a devil too and then we could match.." you look at art for inspiration, and settle on his baby blue eyes, biting your lip before getting an idea. "oh i know! you should be an angel! it'll be great!" you say, already envisioning art in a pretty white costume. art blushes, "isn't that.. like a girl costume?" he doesn't mean to offend you and it's not like he hates the idea but.. he doesn't want to embarrass himself. "no not at all! cmon art it'll be so cute.. you'll be my little angel!" you almost squeal, immediately taking out your phone to look for costumes. art nods slowly.. realizing that he doesn't really care what he dresses up as.. as long as he's yours.

art almost drops the costumes he's holding when he sees the little red skirt, tank top and horns you have on, accompanied by a pair of fluffy wings on your back. "what d'you think? it kind of looks silly don't you think?" you turn back to face art. he shakes his head silently, his eyes wide, looking you up and down. you giggle, "guess we have a winner then!". you leave the store that day with a devil costume in a bag, and art leaves with a tent in his pants.

art has never considered himself religious. he was raised to go to sunday school and church and all those other fun events, but he never believed any of it. so why did he feel so guilty when he got hot and heavy seeing you in that costume? maybe it was the fact that he was always reprimanded as a child for liking things that he shouldn't.. playing with dolls, stealing his moms clothes... and maybe even looking a little too long at girls from church. now he still felt like he could get caught any moment doing something he wasn't supposed to, even though he wasn't in that environment anymore.

you're putting on lip gloss, using your phone for a mirror when art pops out of the bathroom, having a little trouble getting the fake wings to fit though the doorframe. you put your things down, standing up to meet him, "oh art.. you look so good.. this costume is perfect for you, don't you think?" you say, looking him up and down. art blushes, trying to avoid your gaze "i- i guess so.." he says, trying to downplay the fact that he likes the costume so much. you pick up on his tone, and decide to speak up. "what? you don't like it?" he shakes his head quickly, "no.. no that's not it.. it's like the opposite.. maybe i like it a little too much" he looks away, shifting from foot to foot. you smile knowingly, not surprised that he feels this way. art let's you guide him to sit on the edge of your bed. "well, why do you like it so much?" you ask, wanting to see if he'll be honest.

.・。.・゜✭・.・。.・゜✭・.・。.・

when halloween night finally comes around, art finds himself staring in the mirror, tugging at the tight white t-shirt that came with his costume, shifting his back and shoulders to re-adjust the wings sitting heavy on his back. god.. what's patrick gonna think about this? he's probably gonna be made fun of relentlessly.. but there's a feeling in the bottom of his stomach when he looks at himself.. he can't deny that he likes what he sees. he's just nervous for you to see him too, what if you laugh? what if you think he looks silly? what if you make fun of him? all these thoughts swirl around in his head as he leaves your bathroom, stepping into your bedroom as you look up from your phone.

art mulls that over in his head, pretty.. did he feel pretty? was he pretty? he's a boy isn't he.. was he even allowed to be pretty? even with all these thoughts swirling in his head he knows the foundational truth: he likes when he say that, he likes when you call him pretty. you bring art back to reality by kissing him softly, leaning closer to him. arts tentative hands grab hold of your waist, squeezing tight when you slip your tongue into his mouth. "won't you let me take care of you art?" he nods, knowing that you saw the bulge in his pants the moment he stepped out of the bathroom.

you run your hands over arts warm skin, swinging your leg over his lap in order to straddle him. "we'll go slow, alright? don't be scared" you whisper, pressing your lips to his once again. art whines against you, his hips jerking under you even with the simple makeout session. art finds it easy to let you take the lead, you always do, in every facet of your relationship, and art likes to just turn his brain off when he's with you. he lets you run your fingers through his hair, pulling off the silly halo headband while you do. art shivers when you make your way down to his neck, sharp canine teeth poking and pulling at his skin. you pull at the hem of arts shirt, "can i take this off?" you ask, waiting for a nod before pulling it off of him, pressing your lips on his again and raking your nails down his chest, almost making him curl up on himself.

you were so warm inside, hot even, he could feel your every move from the inside, every ridge and squishy spot made him take a shuddering breath. you try to lift up again to establish a rhythm, but arts hands keep you still, taking deep breaths to calm himself down. after a few seconds, he takes his hands away, letting you start to bounce gently. his moans and whines become almost screams, "k-keep goingg please.." "y'r so warm 'nside" "never wanna stop.. wanna do this f-forever" he feels himself approaching his peak far too quick, but he cant stop, he couldn't even if he wanted to, he needs you to keep going, he needs you to touch him, he needs you to love him. you can feel art start to move his hips with you, planting his feet on the mattress and pushing up, slamming into you with the last of his strength before his whole body goes taut, shaking and shivering before you feel him cum inside you, even through the condom.

you kiss some more, before you pull away to take a breath and look at him. arts pretty pink cheeks and white wings contrast perfectly, only making your heart beat faster. "do you wanna see me?" you gesture to your chest, covered by a skimpy red tank top. art nods very quickly, almost getting dizzy. "y-yeah, yes please" he says, watching with stars in his eyes as you strip off your shirt, exposing your chest to him. art almost gasps when you take hold of his hands and place them on your boobs, letting him experiment and touch and squeeze to his hearts content, you want to giggle at his facial expressions but you don't want to make him self conscious. "c-can we keep going?" he asks, hands still on your breasts. you smile and laugh, nodding. "alright art.. can you take off your pants for me?" art almost thinks his heart stops when you ask him to do that, still getting it through his head to nod slowly. he shuffles them down his legs, his blue boxers already a little stained from the precum leaking from the makeout sessions. you shift closer to him, sitting between his spread legs. "ill be gentle okay?" you start slow, running your fingers softly over his bulge, smiling when you feel him twitch under your touch. tapping his hip to signal him to lift his hips up, art complies, suddenly feeling self conscious at the fact that no one has ever seen him like this before.. he doesn't even know what he's supposed to do, or say. you notice this of course, placing your palm on his hip, "you're doing great art" he visibly relaxes at your touch, sinking into your bed. he lets you touch him softly again, with no barrier this time, he's softer than you thought, his pretty pink head already drooling, the pronounced veins on the sides pulsing. you wish you could take a polaroid of this moment, the look of his innocent white wings contrasting from the very lewd image in front of you. art slaps a hand over his mouth, his brows furrowed, he's never had anyone else touch him here, your hand feels so much different than his own, so much softer and warmer. art has to concentrate his best on not cumming immediately, the sensation of your hand jerking him off becoming overwhelming. he has to reach down and push your hand away before he cums, wanting to save the best part for later. "i-im sorry i didn't wanna.. cum" he says, his face flushed red. you smile, understanding his predicament. "it's okay, i did the same my first time too.. do you have a condom?" art nods quickly, opening up a packet of condoms he bought a little prematurely maybe.. but he wanted to be prepared no matter what happened. art had taken a sex ed class before, but putting a condom on himself versus a banana were very different, so you had to help him roll it down his length. art does nothing but watch you throw your panties to the side, again climbing into his lap. "like i said, we'll go slow, tell me if you don't like how it feels yeah?" art agrees, placing his large hands on your hips in an attempt to prepare, but nothing could prepare him for this.

you move your hips slowly to let him cool off, before slipping off of him and settling down beside him. you take off the condom for him, cum dripping onto his stomach before you can throw it away. you place your head on arts chest, unable to resist dipping your finger into the drops of cum on his stomach, the translucent liquid almost glowing on his pale skin. you can't help the word that escapes your mouth, "angel..." you whisper against his skin, not thinking he's back to his senses yet. art perks up a little, hoping he heard what he thought he heard, "w-what?" "nothing" <3

art sighs, not even knowing why he likes it so much. "i dunno, i guess i feel.. nice in it.. like it's natural?" you nod along with his words, encouraging him to keep talking. "like when i put it on, it kind of made me get butterflies.." you nod, seeing where this was going. "you thought you looked pretty yeah? i mean i always say you look like an angel, this just proves my point" you remark, placing a gentle hand on his thigh. "yeah.. well you're right as always.."

[spoopdeedoop]

hi i have some disorganized thoughts/hcs abt the found family human doctor au

(one of the thoughts being i should really give it a better name. another being YES this is only the nuwho doctors atm bc that's the only series i've watched so far apologies. if i ever get around to watching classic who i will add them trust)

BEHOLD my random, not at all in-depth headcanons

nine is the only one with a car out of all of them. they all keep bugging him to drive/pick them up from places -- he has mixed feelings about being the assigned taxi driver

both twelve and eleven are teachers -- college professor and preschool teacher respectively. twelve's students love them because he will say the most stupid, hilarious shit with a straight face without even knowing and eleven's students love him because he is the only teacher at the school that will dance with them during musical chairs (he doesn't even play the game. he just dances)

i want to make one of them an actual doctor but i don't think any of them could handle it unfortunately

they all share an an apartment flat on the same level -- nine, twelve and fifteen live in one room, ten, eleven and thirteen live in the one across from them. of course there are other people in the building too but they're all used to the strange loud hyperactivity of that particular flat. i think i'm using the right terminology here. yall know what im talking about

(i'm so tempted to make some companions be their neighbors)

nine and ten are the most insomniac of all of them, so they're used to bumping each other in the dead of night on their way to raid each other's respective fridges or something. very rarely thirteen will join them and they're like "WELL FANCY SEEING YOU HERE"

twelve does sleep, but like. he's nocturnal

eleven and ten hate each other in a sibling kind of way (see: day of the doctor). they are constantly sending each other death threats or tripping each other over. everyone is sick of it

sometimes when they're out shopping you'll hear ten yell "GET OUT OF THE FROZEN FOOD YOU NUMPTY WE ARE NOT BUYING FISH FINGERS" over the aisles and you'll hear eleven whine "WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH" back

(if you're lucky you'll be able to catch fifteen mumble "why did we put them in the same apartment. are we asking for an eviction notice")

eventually eleven will pick a random stray cat off the side of the road, take her home, and name her bowtie, which is a stupid name, so everyone just defaults to calling her kitty

kitty's favourite person is twelve, to eleven's absolute despair

(my original idea for this was to initially have ten hate the idea of living with a cat, since he's stated full on in the show that he doesn't like cats, but apparently there is some very obscure doctor who comic run in which he falls into a depressive spiral and adopts a cat whom he names rose-the-cat, so he might actually like cats idk?)

anyway ten hates her until he doesn't lmao. he vents to her when there's no one else home and she will Stare at him back and it is a very nice friendship

kitty and nine watch shitty romcom together

they have a joint groupchat together -- half of it is just thirteen and fifteen assigning everyone outfits they find on pinterest and the other half is eleven asking where everyone went (he keeps getting lost when they go out)

nine doesn't know how to download pictures off the internet and so resorts to manually editing memes together to send to the groupchat and everyone's like "girl that's so much more effort........."

(yes he doesn't know how to press save image to camera roll but he knows how to use a photo editor flawlessly. such is the logic of the idiocy of the doctors)

eleven and thirteen get along very well i think. they're the only two of the group to play video games and so they bond over that. they also have ridiculously similar clothing taste

sometimes they'll succeed in getting fifteen to play pokemon with them and then they'll proceed to not see him until the next day when he comes out of his room and goes "you didn't tell me plusle couldn't evolve i've been levelling it up all fucking night"

friday is assigned movie night (it's always big hero 6)

eleven is the only one to actively seek out physical affection, usually really abruptly like clinging to thirteen's back as she passes him in the hall or bapping ten with the palm of his hand until he sighs and gives him a hug. he does expect a platonic kiss on the forehead from anyone before he goes to bed and will complain if he doesn't get one

anyway thats it i'm sick in the head and really sad. if this keeps up i may be forced to actually write a fic

[drdemonprince]

to the anon who sent me the message that took them 4 hours to draft.

I think your experience both with organizing and disability has probably provoked you to rethink the entire concept of "success" as our culture has defined it, even if you feel yourself still longing for some of the comfort and ease that capitalistic success can seemingly provide (or that we are conditioned to believe it can provide). im not sure what to say that can match the effort your put into your message, in fact i am galled by the fact that i know that i can't match that effort. i don't know how to make sense of the fact that a person who is finding it incredibly difficult to remain connected and engaged during this time, due to disability, has decided that i was worth that level of effort when they don't have the energy to message people they know. i don't think i am worth that effort. but i also respect that mired in all that you're mired in, it's a meaningful gesture toward engagement and connection to even bother writing such a message. i just think in a lot of ways i am a misplaced target for it, because i am a ridiculously privileged and publicly exposed individual who receives dozens of heartfelt messages that he doesnt find the time to respond to every single day. i think if anything that i've written rubs you the wrong way you'd be right to approach it with cynicism. because what the fuck do i know, banging around on my laptop every day and getting paid for it. how dare i lecture anybody about not unlearning capitalism adequately enough. i am one of capitalisms little milking cows. a massive publishing company makes a weekly profit off of me, off the byproduct of the worst years of my life and my worst traumas, as well as the meaning i've made from the scholarship of others.

i'm so enraged for you that you got a debilitating case of COVID (after several other cases) on an encampment, and that now the community you foster at that encampment is not there for you. i am disgusted at how more seasoned activists and organizations have regarded student protestors as disposable this entire year, selling them out to the cops, cutting bad deals with campus administration, and sending them to yellow and red risk level actions without adequate communication and getting them kettled and beat, or else nullifying their efforts with mealy-mouthed talk about keeping things peaceful. i see so many toothless, neoliberal protests happening here, ones that serve only as fundraisers for massive nonprofit orgs, and i also see literal teenagers being dragged right into paddy wagons by the likes of the PSL or the RCP while the Dems deride them and dance to Brat tracks, not even pretending to care the way they unconvincingly did in say 2020.

It's all making me terribly cynical, wondering where we are headed and whether i can or should encourage people who are younger, stronger, more energetic, more pliable, and more vulnerable to me to give up all that they've got for a cause when it's likely gonna be chewed up and spit out and not met in effort by anyone else. i am mournful of the fact that even i can't match that effort. every time i get a message from a friend or acquaintance who is going through some new awful traumatizing event i want to just curl up and disappear, because i can't even keep up with sending compassionate messages to all of them, let alone actually showing the fuck up and doing anything for them. and so sometimes i slip into the disaffected, blunted feeling that once led me as a younger man into libertarianism, thinking that all i can or should do is look after my own wellbeing, and fuck everybody else. and obviously that is a horrible path that is not by any means moral and certainly didn't help me anyway. it felt like we were on the brink of a great paradigm shift of some kind, a collapse of these evil systems, and now it feels like all of that is as far away as it's ever been, and that there aren't enough people with class consciousness and care for one another to make it happen.

i don't know. i think we all have to abandon our dreams of success, of comfort, of saving the world, the fantasies of everything being fine. i think we need to look to our immediate surroundings and our communities. i think we need to ask for help a whole hell of a lot more than any of us are doing, and to recognize that that is a form of helping. i think we need to get small. and remember we are weak animals. and stop thinking there is anything special or chosen about us. and to remember that nature can often be very cruel and that there is nothing we are owed. disabled people already know this of course, we know life isn't fair. we try to do what we can and yet we wake up feeling even less capable the next day, and it knows no logic and the universe remains indifferent to it. but there are people around us who can care, when we ask them to. and ways that we can just be there alongside one another in the muck of it all. not even necessarily making things better. certainly not being a savior and making the pain go away. maybe just sitting in the muck together.

all of which is to say, i am feeling stuck and overwhelmed and useless myself, anon, and i dont have any more answers than you. but thanks for messaging. im sorry people have taking advantage of you. including in my opinion lots of other activists. looking after yourself and not letting people guilt you doesn't mean turning into a conservative. the kind of anarchy that i am embracing right now is one that goes beyond linear change, beyond making meaning, beyond any idealistic visions of the future, beyond even fighting for some kind of symbolic survival. it's just being. none of it has to mean anything, none of it has to be headed anywhere. it just is. there is plenty for you to be bitter about.

[relativelydimensional]

bestie what are some of your merthur fic recs

Omg who me? stooppp <3

Okay so I used to read a LOT of merthur fics back around 2011-2013 and have only recently hopped back on the bandwagon so this will be a mix of some oldies i've revisited and some newer fics that have made me insane :))))

0. this one goes without saying but The Student Prince is seriously one of the best fics in any fandom i've ever read to this day. I relisten to the podfic every single year and it SLAPS every time. If you haven't listened/read recently this is obviously my #1 rec hahahha

Okay onto some actual recs

1. Tired by spqr

King Arthur gets enchanted and keeps having dreams about his court sorcerer merlin :))))) He obviously doesn't say this to Merlin, but Merlin notices he's not been sleeping and Arthur comes clean about having 'nightmares.' When Merlin tries to figure out a counterspell, he accidentally casts it on himself and ohh nooo they're both having sexy dreams about each other but also have to act normal in real life ITS SO YUM. This fic was surprisingly soft, like yes they are having some full on dreams but also the bits that made me extra insane were just the little soft moments between non-dream merthur 🥺

This was a school holidays read and i remember reading this in the staff room of the elementary school i was working at trying so hard not to SCREAM. At one point i had to go on a spirited walk around the building just to get my energy out because it was JUICY.

If you like: canon era fics, court sorcerer merlin, the intimacy of domesticity, arthur with a beard and merthur being so in love but also fucking clueless about it this the fic for you <3

2. But It's a Good Refrain by lady_ragnell

Merlin runs a relationship advice/matchmaking service radio show and Arthur's ex calls in and rips into him on air. Arthur calls in to defend himself and he and Merlin butt heads. An oldie but such a goodie. I love this one because the characterisation feels very natural. Plus i loooove arthur POV fics. Merthur are so sweet in this one and i love love love the dynamic of their respective friendship groups merging. It also features the fandom favourite m/f crack ship that is elena and gwaine which im always here for.

If you like: silly modern AU friend group nonsense, Arthur POV fics, snarky Morgana, and a fic writer who understands the sheer power merlin emrys' 🥺 face would have over not only Arthur but literally ANYONE who looks at him, this is the fic for you.

3. Second Chances by DragonDucks

This is a canondivergence/fix-it fic set immediately after Arthur dies in 5x13. In this version Arthur tells Merlin he loves him with his dying breath and Merlin's magic sort of implodes sending him back in time to 1x1. So it's like sad s5 Merlin getting a second chance to save Arthur in the body of tiny baby s1 merlin.

I'm gonna be honest i'm still reading this one but it has me kicking and screaming!!!! Most of the dialogue is repurposed from the show which makes it extra juicy to me and its just delicious i love it so much. The POV switches between S5 mourning merlin and S1 gay panic arthur and its soooooo good i'm loving it so far. Some of the side characterisation is a little weird but Merthur are PERFECT. It NAILS that yummy introverted Arthur and fond Merlin characterisation.

If you like: canon era fix it fics, time travel, Arthur pendragon falling in love with merlin bit by bit and actually having space and time to grow as a person, and merlin emrys being like no everyone shut up about my destiny i just wanna have a good time with my boyfriend, this is the fic for you.

4. All is Semblative by Whitefox

I just fucking love crossdressing fics okay 😇. This is cinderella meets Merthur. Uther is throwing a ball to find Arthur a bride and servants aren't allowed. Out of spite (and, lets be real, also jealousy) Merlin tries to disguise himself to sneak in and ends up accidentally turning himself into a princess. Arthur hits it off with a weird but beautiful mystery princess who turns out to be his manservant he's been in love with this whole time. Simples.

If you like: Prince Arthur knowing about merlin's magic and being cool with it, fairytale AUs, accidental genderbending (but still canonically mlm merthur), and arthur pendragon singlehandedly embodying demisexual panic this is the fic for you.

5/6. As Long As We Have We AND No Matter How Far Away You Roam by lady_ragnell

Lady Ragnell again because I looove the way they do modern day Arthur. and i've been going through their stuff. These are both super cute christmas fics (I know its a little early but I couldn't help myself). In the first one, Uther has just died (rip uther you will not be missed) and Arthur accidentally collects lonely friends to spend christmas with him in the empty house. At the same time he befriends Merlin, the owner of his local bookstore, and merlin brings his own group of strays to Arthur's christmas...and obviously everyone gets along super well and merthur fall in love. The second one is a fake dating. T get his parents off his back, Arthur lies to Uther and Igraine that he and merlin have been together for years and Merlin (plus his mum and his sister Freya) has to play along one christmas..and obviously everyone gets along....and obviously everyone gets along super well and merthur fall in love.

If you like: found family, cute christmas fics and fluffy merthur these fics are the ones for you!

Also pls if anyone has any canon era secret dating merthur fics i beg of you please send them my way 🥺

[butterfly-writer]

hi!! i have a request if that’s cool :) i don’t want to make you uncomfortable at all so feel free to ignore me! my whole idea is honestly just a bunny girl x iida, like we’re talking fuzzy ankles and sort of calves that look like the cutest leg warmers ever!! ears n a little cottontail!! she’s strong and fast and just <333 and she’d be a bit timid but very friendly!! like she’s not naive, she’s rightfully anxious of the world but perhaps a sweetheart regardless because i think he could use some cautious optimism :) and i just want them to dote on each other and be happy and in love idk </3 maybe her shyly pining after him a bit and him making the first move?? (i’m projecting i fear) ((im not brave enough to even send this out of anon))

i hope you have an absolutely lovely day even if this prompt isn’t your thing and i adore your writing!!

Bunny Girl

Tenya Iida x Rabbit!Female!Reader Summary: Tenya Kids got the hots for a strong bunny girl!

★☽A/N: NO ONE HAS EVER SAID THEY ADORE MY WRITING. AWHHABHDJAVHS THANK YOU SO MUCH!! I haven't seen a good prompt in a while. I love, love, love your prompt! I hope this piece is to your liking <33

Contents: TOTAL FLUFF <33

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During class 1A’s second year, a new student was transferred from Shiketsu. She was so similar to Mirko! She had calves for feet and fluff like leg warmers! She also had expressive long bunny ears which you could just stay forever! And a cute fluff ball for a tail! Despite her cute appearance, she is fierce and strong in battle! She was a much cuter version of Mirko but had the same personality as the hero.

When she first joined, she was immediately bombarded with questions! Like, “Are those leg warmers or are they real?” , “Can I touch your ears?” , “Do your ears move according to your emotions?” And all kinds of questions, even disturbing ones from a certain purple haired boy.. But she was still well-respected by her peers!

Especially a certain boy~ Tenya Iida always respected Y/N, maybe even admired her for her strength. He was amazed by her impressive agility and battle knowledge. She soon became close with the rich boy. She told him how she interned with Mirko during her first year, back in Shiketsu. He was impressed she was able to do an internship with a well-known pro hero.

Despite her strong personality in battle, she was often shy and quite introverted. She didn’t talk much to other students and mainly spoke to her classmates in Class A. She didn’t like to talk with others because of the amount of anxiety, thinking about how they would think of her. Whenever she needed changes in her costume, she would always get flustered and shy whenever Hatsume started talking a lot to her.

She would actually go behind Iida whenever a student went up to her to talk. Iida found this cute but still encouraged her to open up to others. (In other words, he lectured her about confidence). The girl never really paid too much attention towards his lectures and his hand chops. She actually found it funny and endearing.

Despite Y/N’s shy personality, she was still a friendly sweetheart! If her classmates had to pick who to do a project with, she was the first pick. Actually, during her first project with Class A, everyone quickly turned to her. She was crowded with everyone, begging for her to be partners with her. Of course, she ended up being partners with Iida who was the only one who didn’t beg her to be his project partner.

Of course, Y/N liked him a lot! He was the only boy she felt comfortable with. He just felt… safe to be around. She was always scared to make the first move. But she always tried her best to be close with him, to get to know him more. And each day, she managed to fall in love with him more, more, and more.

Turns out, a certain boy felt the same as her. And he had planned to make the first move.

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It was a sunny, yet windy day. Tenya managed to muster up the courage to ask her to meet him at a garden he knew she liked. She, of course, said yes to him and did what he asked. She dressed up in a cute outfit, her rabbit features complementing her outfit.

She wondered why he wanted her to wear something cute. Perhaps she was going to get asked out?! She was a good deductor, after all. She'll admit, she actually likes the boy. She was comfortable with him, more than anyone she knows in her school.  She had these thoughts as she walked to the garden.

She admired the flowers she saw along the way to the exact spot Iida told her to meet him. She eventually made it and saw the flowers in his hands. It was her favorite flowers, they looked lovely in ribbons and paper it was wrapped with. She couldn’t help but blush with excitement.

“Tenya! How lovely!” She chuckled, walking up to him and receiving the flowers. “You didn’t have to.” The boy shook his head, “No, I knew it was the appropriate thing to do for a beautiful girl like you.” Y/N chuckled at his last words, giggling after seeing his blushed face when he realized those words.

With a cough to compose himself, he straightened his posture. “Anyways, I would like to ask for your hand in love. I would like to give us a chance, if you will allow,” he confessed, helding a hand out to her with his opposite hand on his back. Y/N chuckled again at the cheesiness at the sight. But she found it cute, she found him cute as well.

“Of course.” She smiled a soft smile that made Tenya know he was right for trusting his guts.

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Now, have they kissed? Not yet! During the first months of their relationship, their PDA was mostly holding hands, hugging, and kissing (Not on the lips yet!). But they’re just such an adorable couple! “Couple goals!” is what Mina Ashido would always yell out whenever she sees them doing PDA

Y/N still hides behind Iida whenever she can’t handle talking to strangers. But it’s way more affectionate! Despite Tenya telling her that she should work on her confidence by talking to others, he still loves whenever she hides behind him, hugging his waist in a bear hug and covering her face on his back.

Now, if Y/N was a short girl then she can easily be covered by Tenya, easily hidden. But if Y/N is as tall as Tenya, her blushed face would be covered by Tenya’s shoulder. BUT if she’s way taller than Tenya then her face would be covered by his hair! Despite his hair being quite flat, she still gonna try to hide herself.

And when they first kissed, it was so adorable! She was the one who kissed him first. Tenya was so surprised when she first kissed him, before smiling brightly with blush on his face.

Tenya Iida, the Turbo Hero and Y/N L/N, the Bunny Hero are the best couple ever!

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[shigayokagayama]

gender+random headcanon for tome? or tsubomi, whichever one you're feeling

why not both?

tome:

Sexuality Headcanon:

lesbian!!!

Gender Headcanon:

trans girl! ive actually thought about this one a lot but her whole arc of like. coming out of her mostly male friendgroup and trying to totally remake herself to fit into a girl friendgroup and make herself more palatable to girls her age before realizing that all her friends have weird hobbies too and you dont have to stifle all your interests to fit in with other girls fits the experience of a lot of trans girls i know

A ship I have with said character:

her and keiko from the reigen manga

GAY PEOPLE

A BROTP I have with said character:

her and mob's friendship is very special to me but her and the whole telepathy club ouuughhhhhhh alien arc my beloved... i miss when youd get like 20 posts a day of her and takenaka messing with each other with telepathy shenanigans they mean the world to me. i also think she and teru would get along really well theyd be terrible influences on each other.

A NOTP I have with said character:

i really cannot see her with mob i know this is punching down because theres maybe 1 person on the planet who ships this but theyre definitely a "mob-kun youre my best friend and i love you but i would never date you under any circumstances" sorta friendship. also not really a notp just a "?" but of the possible femslash ships i feel like her and tsubomi appeals to me the least. probably just because they never interact and we dont know enough about tsubomi's interests to know if theyd have anything in common. it gives "pair the spares but we dont like mezato" to me.

A random headcanon:

tome mentions in one of the semi canon anthologies that kijibayashi asked her out when they were first years and im incorporating that into my worldview. i also think she and takenaka had a like one week long middle school "relationship" that consisted primarily of them being too awkward to speak to each other or be in each other presence until they broke up over text just because it makes alien arc even funnier. also more of a reigen headcanon than a her headcanon but in the context of reigen manga i think it makes sense if reigen was very similar to her in middle school then when he was approaching highschool he was like "well i cant stay passionate about things forever" and dedicated himself solely to being a good student and good employee til he burned himself out.

General Opinion over said character:

she is solidly my second favorite mp100 character i love her so so much shes so special to me shes like. level of favorite character where i get excited handflaps seeing art of her. daughter of all time.

tsubomi:

Sexuality Headcanon:

aro lesbian is fun for her i think!

Gender Headcanon:

one of my friends really likes transmasc tsubomi and i respect the vision. boy fans be like "not yet"

A ship I have with said character:

mezato and tsubomi. listen. listen to me. of all the femslash ships it makes the most sense. every time we ever hear mezato talk about tsubomi it gives "dear dumb diary". that girl is one long psychoanalytical speech about this girl she's never even had a conversation with from realizing she's bisexual and i think tsubomi would find mezato a really interesting person to interact with. they'd study each other like bugs. it's perfect.

A BROTP I have with said character:

her and mob staying friends is really important to me i like them a lot </3

A NOTP I have with said character:

honestly none really, like i said with tsubomi i dont really get tsutome but i dont dislike it. i prefer her and mob as friends but i dont necessarily think them getting together like. years post canon really ruins the message of the show or anything bc the whole point of the confession arc is that he was chasing this fake image he'd built of her as this perfect person so them getting to know each other and dating in the future wouldnt really ruin that i dont think.

A random headcanon:

i think she's a music person!!! one of her fanbook interviews mentioned that she likes to scream as loud as she can in empty piano rooms and it kind of put the idea of her going into music theory or smth when she's older into my head

General Opinion over said character:

i really really like her and find her narrative role interesting and i both wish we got more of her but also understand that knowing tsubomi would kind of ruin the plot of the show. seeing her only as glimpses and trying to extrapolate who she is through that is unfortunately the point </3

[mays-simping-for-leona]

Hello!

I hope your day/night is going well! I adore your works!!

I have a prompt/head cannon/scenario idea (not sure which this falls under lol).

The reader is very beautiful and because of this she often is misread as a person and judged falsely. Think they believe she's shallow and unable to be intelligent or kind. People assume beauty is a good thing, but for the reader it hinders her friendships, her ability to be acknowledged as a living person (not an object) and even her future dreams.

I was curious how Leona would react to a beautiful woman, and how his opinion over time would change of her as he sees there is far more to her than what meets the eye.

miss Doli

omggg i was actually having a bad day but your ask made me soo happyyy😭🤍🤍i liked the idea so muchhh you made my day better!! haha well i will make it basically a headcanon but add a bonus scene in the end! ⏤͟͟͞͞★

im sorry i think what i wrote was not so great as i expected :( i will try to write better the next time

characters:

leona kingscholar x fem!reader ⏤͟͟͞͞★

information:

sfw, slightly angst, comfort, fluff, leona being a simp, very beautiful reader ⏤͟͟͞͞★

prompt:

Maybe Leona found something more beautiful than sleep and meat..what about a beautiful miss that nobody likes? ⏤͟͟͞͞★

⏤͟͟͞͞★enjoy!

Rumors that led to curiosity

it's true, leona is not a big fan of dating, he's not even in the mood to look at a woman and go into the mess of love or having feelings for any person on this planet..but he couldn't deny that he found you eye-catching, You were shining among everyone, not only because you are the only woman in this collage, but because your appearance immediately attracts attention to you, Leona has never seen a woman as beautiful as you in his life

Even though he admired your appearance and found you attractive, he did not try to cross his limits because, after all, you are a woman. After he saw that you were alone and isolated from most of the students, he decided to content himself with just observing you from afar — But inside he feels strange because he is stalking watching you. He does not usually do this, especially since he respects you as a woman

The situation was like this for a while, but Leona's curiosity - I believe he is naturally very curious person - made him rush and take the first step towards you after he watched you for a good while and noticed that the students always avoided you. When he eavesdropped on the students' conversations, he heard strange rumors about you. The students used to call you bad names and say that you are stupid and that you think that you will get what you want just because you are beautiful

"herbivore" Was the first thing he said to you, standing in front of you with his hands in his pockets while you were sitting at one of the cafeteria tables "This is my table" He said calmly, and when you were about to apologize and get up to leave, he told you that it was okay to sit as long as you were quiet — It's just his plan to find an excuse to sit with you

It seems that his plan worked, because he was able to start with you with simple and normal questions. The two of you ended up chatting and Leona quickly noticed that you seemed a little confused and that something was wrong — he did not ask you much, he did not want to make you uncomfortable

At the end of your first meeting, Leona cordially invited you to play chess, and you were of course very surprised by his request. The rumors you heard about Leona were enough to make you worry more, but from sitting and talking with him, you noticed that he was courteous with you - at least - and spoke politely. He didn't look at you a lot

(I don't like when others write about Leona that he is playful and flirtatious with random women when it is clear that he is the opposite)

Not only the face is beautiful

After playing chess with him, you quickly realized that you and Leona had one simple thing in common: you were both lonely, Leona was a good listener. It's true that you didn't talk much - and that made the situation a bit awkward - but Leona didn't seem to care that much. You only talked when you had something to talk about

Leona admired your intelligence. He heard rumors that you were stupid, but he was amazed by your ability to play chess. You are very good and smart at playing, and you were able to play for two hours straight with him

"This is amazing, no one has been able to withstand my game for this long before, Finally someone worth playing with" he said, looking at you with admiration

you smirked a bit, trying not to go so happy because it was rare for people to notice your intelligence "I really enjoyed the match, you're a good opponent too"

silent for a while..

"round two?" he said with a grin

"round two!!" you smiled broadly

Until now, your relationship was limited to playing chess, but with the passage of time you began to grow closer, especially after your personality began to become more clear to Leona: not only did he admire your distinctive appearance, but also your caring, respectful personality, and your intelligence, which was what most attracted Leona and your strength. Leona may not know and will not admit, but he finds smart and strong women attractive and they are his type

Thanks to your intelligence and your dealings with many toxic people in your life, you were quickly able to understand exactly who Leona is: just an ordinary man who presents himself in the worst possible light in order to distance others from him. This surprised you, why would he do this to himself? He is a wonderful and special personality, why does he try to show the opposite?

You knew at that time that Leona undoubtedly felt safe or comfortable with you, otherwise why would he act like his true self in front of you? You decided to skip class one day and went to meet him in the botanical garden. You lured him with words until he started talking and complaining about the people around him and his life — not in detail, but it was enough information for you to understand him well now

From this moment, you knew that Leona shared something else with you, but perhaps in his own way. You were both misunderstood, but he was doing this on purpose, and this increased your determination to form a good relationship with him

You became more comfortable with Leona and began to show more sides of yourself to him. Leona was more and more amazed by you. Your dealings with him were good, your words were rational, you were cheerful and not annoying at all, you always listened to him and he listened to you, you had distinct interests - you were different than the others. Just by looking at his wide pupils that stare at you wherever you go, you can tell what's in his brain:

this woman is amazing..

"Doli herbivore"

After you gave Leona a complete and good picture of you, he began to feel more comfortable with you. It is true that he still maintains a polite manner with you because you are a woman, but he later learned that you did not mind if he behaved informally with you. You two became good friends and Leona decided to give you one of his special nicknames

"doli" he said with a smile, and you were confused for a second

"What does this nickname mean?" you asked with curiosity, but he responded with a smirk

"a word in my native language" ain't no way you're staying dumpfounded like this, The first thing you did after you finished meeting Leona was running to Ruggie and asking him what the word meant

"...who..Where did you hear the word?" he looked surprised

"leona told me that he will call me doli" ruggie couldn't help but gasp slightly, putting his hand on his face and trying not to laugh

"looks like he found something more beautiful than the meat, shehehe~" Ruggie came closer and whispered to you "Listen...don't do anything, but call him ken"

"ken?"

"yeah, don't ask too much, just do that and you won't regret it"

You did as Ruggie said. The next time you met Leona, he looked at you in shock and surprise. He asked you where you learned that word from, and you told him the whole thing..But surprisingly, he just smiled, a playful smile of victory "well, i liked the nickname, keep it pushing, Doli"

Later, you caught some students from Savanaclaw and asked them about the meaning, only to discover that doli means "beautiful" and ken means "handsome". that bastard..he was flirting, huh? But to be honest with yourself, you liked it very much..

mismatched

things developed enough to the point that you started hanging out with Leona in public. He would accompany you to classes sometimes, wait for you outside class when your lectures were over, and ask Ruggie to bring you lunch. All the students were surprised at the two of you...a lion with a terrible temper who loves to sleep and act rudely with a very beautiful and stupid woman who has a lot of rumors about her? What a strange match

Of course, rumors about you began to spread quickly and you became the main topic of gossip among the students. It was bothering you, but you remained silent and ignored the students because it is just a normal day in your life, people misunderstanding you and gossip that doesn't seem to end soon

Leona was almost ignoring them, why almost? Because he got angry and upset when he saw your beautiful face that he loves too much frowning and you were upset by their words. He did not care about what was said about him, but you?..he won't let them do this, not in his presence

You looked at Leona with panic when he went to the students and started fighting with them and sweeping them with the college tiles like they are some sort of cloth, Then he drags you after saying the most rude things ever to them and leaves the place with you

Leona was very defensive towards you. You're not sure if this is because you're friends or because he just respects you, but you know that your attempts to stop him when he goes to fight with the gossipers will fail

Leona began to watch you mentally now, focusing on the fact that you are not just a cheerful and kind person.. Leona began to put the pieces together to realize that you are not okay, people have hurt you a lot

Leona never pressured you. He never asked you what was wrong with you or blamed you. He was waiting for you to be ready to speak for yourself...but you were secretive for some reason. You expected that maybe he wouldn't understand you...or that he wasn't interested - just like the rest of the people...maybe you were very wrong this time

he didn't ask you too much..He decided to do it smartly

Leona would bring a lot of games that required intelligence and puzzles because he knew that you liked these things. He would make you win against him on purpose with these games and then pretend that he was surprised and amazed by your intelligence "such an intelligent woman, y/n" he would smirk saying this, just to satisfy your ego

Leona will show you how interested he is in your interests, because he knew that the students say that you are an empty person and that you think that you are special and different just because you are beautiful. You will notice that Leona started listening to the same band that you love. He watched the series that you said you enjoyed. He read the romantic novel that you said greatly influenced you. He studied that strange science you discovered on the Internet. Leona did everything you liked to show you that you were fun — to be honest with himself... he really enjoyed it, Leona enjoyed the things that you liked... not because they are actually fun, but because you find them fun

Strangely, your makeup and elegant clothes began to disappear. You looked for them everywhere, but there was no trace of anything. You were terrified because the students would make fun of you more than before if your beauty diminished or you appeared in a bad appearance. You did not know that Leona himself used to take these things. He used to say that you look better without makeup and mock your attempts to show yourself as beautiful in front of others. Leona wanted you to come out of this shell of absolute beauty. He wanted you to be as you are without any modifications..Indeed, with time, you realized that you are still very beautiful even without your makeup and elegance

Leona will actually be clearly impressed by your appearance — and even attracted to you. Unfortunately, people in your life either try to bully you or harass you because of your beauty - in a very bad way - But Leona was a third type. He gave you the respect you so desperately wanted, with a light touch of admiration, You finally felt loved in this moment...someone sees you normally finally

the couple of Doliken-y— beauty!

You were sitting with Leona in the car. It was holiday, and Leona surprised you when he invited you home with him and you quickly accepted the invitation. Of course, you didn't want to stay locked in the college for the entire holiday

Leona took you out of the city for a bit. You could see some of the lights of the capital from a distance. Leona took you to the popular market and to the springs. You met his sister-in-law and played with Cheka. You somehow convinced Leona to make some cakes together and as usual he ruined the recipe. You started gossiping about the students as well and discovered that it was fun to gossip. You did everything you could do all this week and now you decided to relax a little while Leona drove through the wilderness

"Did you have fun?" leona asked, and you were surprised after this question. You know that Leona is not the type of person who would suddenly ask a question like this

"I...of course I enjoyed it, are you really asking me?" Leona was silent for a while as he drove, looking lost in thought for a moment. You were still thinking about the fun you had together all week and weren't paying much attention to Leona's behavior

"I was just..always wondering about something" he turned his focus to you again, looking closely at you "I always wanted to ask you something, doli"

This time you focused on what he was saying. It seemed like he had something important to say "What is it, Ken?" Your curiosity increased when he said that he wanted to ask you about something for a long time

Leona surprised you when he stopped the car without any introductions. He got out of the car, then went to your door and opened it for you "let's sit on this hill and talk, Doli" He spoke seriously, you had never seen him talk to you so seriously before, but you knew that you need to listen to him so you did as he asked

...

You both sat on a rock high up on the hill, hearing a little noise from the city in the distance, the crickets singing their soft song while the wind shook the leaves of the wild plants around you and made them dance. You and Leona like to sit in remote and isolated places like this a lot, but for some reason...there is something different this time

You were silent for 3 minutes. These 3 minutes were like 3 years while you stared at him, thinking of a thousand questions he could ask. Is he here to confess? Or ask for marriage? Or maybe something worse...ends your friendship? Will he ask you a strange request or what exactly? While you were thinking about all this, he turned his emerald eyes towards you and looked at you with unusual looks...serious looks, but at the same time soft

"Doli" He finally spoke, and from the tone of his voice you knew he was going to talk about something emotional or intimate "Is there something you haven't told me yet?" his eyes met your, so serious yet so soft..You felt conflicted. You didn't know whether you should remain calm or get nervous

"Something to tell you? What do you mean??" you blinked in confusion, and he gave you a quick answer

"about what's bothering you, doli" he moved closer to you "You see, I told you a lot of things about myself and...well...you kind of made me express myself better to you, but you didn't...and I'm neither blind nor idiot" Leona shocked you by suddenly holding your hand. His hand was warm. You could feel his muscles slightly pressing against your soft, feminine hand "I see you, I see your suffering and your pain, I know that you cry a lot and suffer alone and this.. I do not like it, why am I in your life? You say I'm your friend and then you don't tell me what's bothering you"

silence again..Your mouth remained open and you blinked. the Leona Kingscholar, the tough and heartless guy, The man who won't express what's inside him even if you point a gun at his head...is now telling you all this? Maybe he's lost his mind, or maybe...oh wait. Leona started to get annoyed, he raised one eyebrow and moved his hand away from yours

the tension was increasing, Leona, who was looking at the city in front of the hill, you saw something in his eyes that you had never seen before, a mixture of confusion, frustration, anxiety and..vulnerability. At this moment...you realized that Leona was trying to fight something inside him and took another step towards you, perhaps breaking the barrier of secrecy? But your reaction was not what he expected at all and it made him regret it

"leona" You approached him and held his hand again, trying to calm the tension "I didn't know you noticed all this.. You are truly a wonderful friend" it's your usual affectionate tone "I think you're right..I have to talk and tell you everything now"

Leona's ears flickered quickly and he turned his attention to you again "hm?" He turned his entire body towards you and started looking directly into your eyes, cross sitting on the ground "talk"

...

You spoke and told Leona everything from the beginning. You did not leave a single detail that you did not tell him. Leona never interrupted you. You told him about how people bully you, how they look at you superficially and think that you are conceited just because of your beauty, how they think you are stupid and empty, your life revolves only around your beautiful face, how no one gives you a chance to get close to you and because of this you become isolated and alone...all... The bad things that happened to you in your life just because you were beautiful, this thing was not by your will.. You were just born like this.. and you wished that you were ugly or ordinary just so that others would stop these actions and respect you. You actually feel that you are nothing because of their words and you cry a lot and You are unable to mix with society.. you told Leona all this

You cried, while you were talking for about 45 minutes you started crying. Your beautiful face became red and swollen from crying, crying like a little child in front of Leona. Without even realizing it, somehow, you ended up crying while hugging him — in his lap. Leona was hugging you, stroking and rubbing your back tenderly, his chin on your head

"Doli" Oh, how you love it when you hear his voice calling you by that name. You raised your head full of tears and looked at him, sobbing

"Do you know what is the stupidest thing a person could try to do?"

"w-what is it?.."

"being a people pleaser" Leona started talking to you rationally and in a soft voice...but he caught you of guard you a little when he suddenly pulled you in, slept on his back and made you sleep on his arm "wtf-" "shhh" He said, placing his hand over your mouth to silence you "I'm talking"

You didn't know exactly what to do at this moment, but what he did was enough to make you stop crying and try to focus on Leona

"As I said...if you are going to try to please others, do not do it. If you are beautiful, they will bully you and say that you are stupid. If you are ugly, they will bully you more and ostracize you and say that you are a freak. If you are ordinary, no one will care about you and they will also bully you, so in any case, Satisfying them is just impossible..If you're going to spend your life just thinking that no one loves you and that you're isolated, then that's what's really going to happen. I'll tell you one thing: Show them the opposite. They'll say you're stupid? Well, you are very smart and you know that. Go and participate and show yourself in the classes that require intelligence. Help students who have difficulty understanding the subjects and give them lessons... not to please others, but to show your true self and nothing more..They say you are arrogant? Simply help other students. If you see someone in need of help, show yourself with humility and act friendly and kind to everyone"

suddenly, you laughed when he was talking. he stopped and looked at you in question "why are you laughing?"

"I can't believe you're asking me to be nice to others..it's weird to hear it from you"

"I point at the moon and the fool looks at my finger.." he sighed "doli..just understand, you are amazing and you have more advantages and opportunities than me, you are in a new world..a world where no one knows you and you have the opportunity to achieve a lot here. It is true that everyone bullies you, but believe me, once you prove yourself once, everyone will respect you. The students of this college are like ducklings.. and will run after you just like ducklings running after their mother when they know your abilities and character"

You were silent for a few seconds, thinking about his words. You did not notice yourself until you were clinging to his clothes while you were sleeping on his arm..It was warm and strangely comforting, it felt good like that..

"Why are you asking me to be nice instead of saying something like 'Duh, why do you care so much? Do what you want and let them say what they want'?"

Leona half-sighed half-chuckled in response, closing his eyes and speaking slowly "I don't want to ruin your life, to be honest with you and with myself.. I know that what I'm doing is wrong. When I show myself in the worst possible light and ignore the rumors, I'm making the situation worse.. while I can show the opposite to everyone and highlight my true abilities.. why would i ask you to do the same? To destroy your happiness? I have become insensitive to people' yap, I don't care what others might think...but you care, so I won't advise you to act like me"

you looked at him in confusion "So why don't you make your life..better? If you can, why wouldn't you?"

"What's the point? i will graduate then return to the damned palace and the life of the miserable prince, Let me continue my life in this way that is best for me, because I will not build false hopes for myself" Leona opened his eyes and gave you a serious look "oi wait, don't change the topic. We're talking about you today, not me"

"oh god.." you laughed sarcastically "Well, well...your words are convincing. I should stop hiding. I should face them with the truth and show them my true colors"

"that's correct" he smiled as he looked at the sky

"Hmm..but right now I still feel like I'm not loved enough..it bothers me"

"oh..you want to feel loved?"

"yeah.." you sighed, looking at the sky with him "do you have solution? I don't like this feeling.."

"hmm.." Leona thought for a few seconds...then he blew a bomb at you in the most natural tone, as if he was saying the most ordinary thing in life

"then let's start dating"

"oh that would be a great-...!!..WAIT A FUCKING MINUTE" Quickly, you sat up straight and turned to Leona, completely traumatized by what he said, your eyes widening in shock and your expression as if you had seen a ghost "WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY????"

"i said let's start dating" he gave you a playful smirk, He leans on his right arm and raises his eyebrows as if he is trying to tease you "don't you wanna date me~? i know you like me, i will love you so well you will forget about other people"

"..leona, are you trying to mess with me or are you serious???" You are still under the effect of shock and trying to figure out his true intentions. Is he joking?? Or is he confessing in the strangest way possible??

"im serious, Doli" He sat up straight as well and put his palm behind your head and pulled you towards him "you know i don't like to joke about such things..be my girlfriend, doli"

you were speechless..Several people had confessed to you before, but their goal was clear. They treated you like an object because you were beautiful. They had no knowledge of you and thought you were just a body for pleasure...but leona...You know Leona, he has not shown you such treatment over the past months and he has been a good companion to you...and you cannot deny that, during this period, Leona was able to make you love him back..You have the same feelings, but you didn't show or say it because you were afraid that he didn't love you.. You never gave yourself a chance

"i...leona.." You looked at him expectantly, a little awkward and shy "Does this mean you...love me?" he smiled..pulling you close enough so that you can feel his breath on your face

"i love you, Doli..yes i do"

and with that, you felt his lips pressing against yours, soft and warm..For the first time, you felt truly loved. Your body trembled and your breath caught in your throat. All you could do at this moment was kissing back with all passion and embrace him tightly..not giving him a chance to pull back or breath..The moment you got the feelings you had wanted for a long time, someone who cares about you and listens to you, someone who does not see you an object...but treats you as a human being and sees your abilities, skills, and things more than just being beautiful..You hugged him and kissed him hungrily, with crazy eagerness, with desperation

Leona was between kisses whispering words to you that made your heart beat like a drum, telling you how smart, talented, special, aware, wise and unique he sees you..He pulled you to sit on his lap and you both stayed like that for several minutes, making out passionately

you pulled back first..panting and taking a breath after this intense kissing session, When you saw Leona's face, you were shocked

"what?.." He asked, looking into your roaming eyes..He didn't realize that you left lipstick marks all over his lips and face

"i-it's nothing, don't worry!!" you laughed, admiring your work. Leona did not say anything, but he kept staring at your face, he raised his hands until his palms rested on your cheeks while you were in his lap

You didn't stop him.. You allowed him to stare at you as much as he wanted and caress you. You basically wanted this.. You wanted to feel him loving you and wanting you sincerely. But what you didn't expect was that he seemed to be resisting. He was tightening his grip on your face, not painfully, but with enough force to let you know that there was something going on

"are you ok? what's wrong?" You asked, placing your hand on the back of his palm and stroking it gently. he didn't answer..leona was in another world

and you knew the answer later..

the big cat is a simp

Leona, throughout the past period, had not shown you how much he admired your beauty, just because he respected you and did not want to cross his boundaries with you, In the end, you were friends and nothing more. He wanted you to realize that he greatly respected you as a human being and appreciated you, and then later he would unleash the simp within him as long as you did not mind

After you became his lover, Leona continued to respect you and the same old behavior and everything — but the new addition is that he started buying you new and beautiful dresses, then he just asked you to wear them and started staring at you... contemplating the masterpiece on your face and enjoying it

It turns out that Leona had another reason for saying, “You don't have to show your beauty in front of the students.” Leona was jealous. Leona knew that all eyes were on you because of your beauty and those who approached you had bad intentions. Leona was trying to protect you and keep your beauty for himself only

Every time Leona saw you with new makeup or an elegant look or your beauty increased, you saw that he just sat and struggled not to jump on you and devour you where you were. You could just by looking at his face know the amount of thoughts and fantasies he was thinking about

You were evil, really evil. You stand in front of him after you put on your new dress and say that it doesn't look good on you. You make Leona upset and you tease him until he tells you how beautiful you are and that he can't stop looking at you..You don't know why it was difficult for him to admit that his desire for you is unbearable. Maybe he sees it as a weakness on his part to show that he's simping, but you were good at making him say that he loves you and your beauty

Oho yeah, when you stood in front of him for the first time in short clothes, you felt like he was about to bark. Maybe this is his first time really seeing a woman in front of him dressing like this and he can stare as much as he want

in the end.. he proved it to you, you're not just a piece of meat, Leona proved to you that he loves every detail of you and that you are much more than just a pretty face

uhm..i didn't like what i wrote, i think there are more things i could write about but yeah..i tried my best here ⏤͟͟͞͞★

⏤͟͟͞͞★thanks for reading!

[artistic-moth-man]

My school newspaper didn't allow me to publish this hat investigation article so im posting it here instead

Most students are aware wearing a hat in school is just as much of a crime as vandalism of a classroom. I’m certain many students have stopped to ask themselves, “Why is this such a big deal?” and I’m even more certain the teachers would answer “it’s just tradition”. We all know, however, that this answer isn’t good enough. School is a space for education, so why shouldn’t we be educated on this rule?

Many teachers will simply tell you the hat rule is due to tradition or that it’s respectful, but what does that actually mean? Tradition goes back a long way. In the earlier 1900’s, removing your hat was a sign of respect and humbleness. You would remove your hat indoors, when it wasn’t necessary to cover your face from the sun. In fact, the tradition can stem all the way back to the earlier 1400’s, where knights were asked to remove their helmets to show their faces to nobility. But do hats truly obscure faces? Why do we ban every hat if only a few obscure faces?

Back to the respect aspect, people hinge heavily on the idea of being respectful. Have you ever felt your argument was valid, so a teacher or parent tells you that your words were “disrespectful”? Respect seems to be a way to give teachers more power, more authority. Some would say we should be respectful to all around us, and while this is true, should we remove our hats for everyone? What is respect, in its entirety?

There are two different versions of respect, I believe. There is the respect in that you treat someone like an authority, like they are above you, and the respect in that you would treat a fellow human with kindness. Students believe, generally, that they are being put into strict boxes, given mountains of different rules, or that they have to play mind games with their teachers just to comply with their different sets of rules, and none of that is mentioning the education itself. Students feel like they aren’t being respected.

On the other hand, some teachers believe they have no choice but to be authoritarian toward their students. Our school’s own Mr. Bake believes he had no choice during the single year he taught seventh graders but to be “dictator-like”. He had to be treated like an authority, and he did not give humane respect to the students in turn.

We are commonly mistaught about respect. We are taught from a young age to treat authority like they should be respected on a higher level than those on the same social level as us. We are taught not to question, to just believe in tradition. Some authority figures will say, “if you do not respect me, I will not respect you.” But they do not understand the two versions of respect. If you do not treat me like an authority, I will not treat you like a human.

The hats represent self expression. Freedom. Trust. These things are taken from students; they’re told how to dress and how to think, and the teachers feel they have no choice but to oppress the students. Balance and trust are difficult to obtain, but if we understand respect properly, we can learn to respect our teachers as fellow humans, and they can learn to respect us as much as we do them.

Sources Cited:

Eric Soloman, Why Are Hats Not Allowed In School?, Spectrum News

Mark, Hat Etiquette: Should You Still Take Off Your Hat Off At Dinner, During the National Anthem, Etc? Acme Hat

Jennifer Hurley, A Student’s View on Oppression in Education

Mr Bake, Personal Interview

Ok thanks for reading

[jils-things]

over all thoughts i suppose? (spoilers, and knowing the kind of genre that mout.hwashing offers, these warnings can apply here. i tried not to say it so bluntly but do keep in mind if you're sensitive to it)

ITS SO LONG IM SORRY

this might come off as very rushed because its 12am and i have school sooo wkakdkks but but man. might not word stuff correctly and im sorry in advance but here goes

this game is one of those stories which really emphasizes on the fact that no one is really truly a winner or hero. one of the reasons why i love dark content such as this, is cuz of how people can go from being the kindest person, to the worst person alive and its all because of an event that is uncontrollable. man vs nature kind of plot device. the way they eventually get peeled off of their humanity just to protect themselves is... just something to stare in awe at. makes you think. tbh this line is most applicable to jimmy. hes a fuckin beast that i am afraid of

ive said this before, but this game really reminds me of lisa the pa.inful. the characters are forced into an uncontrollable situation, has this one consumable that is always present in the story (the mouthwash/the joy pill) and dealing with other people who cope with the situation differently. some are positive, some are neutral, or even worse

before i continue - i Do Not Like Jimmy. I do not respect him and I don't want to ever put him in a good light. so keep that in mind as i ponder about this.

jimmy is an incredibly complex character, i just wanna applaud the way he was written here - he's utterly detestable and flawed and yet he thinks he's doing the right thing. i hate to say it but he really helped make the story so. toe curling and unnerving. its insane. i really don't know where to start with this man but he clearly wants to be someone he's not. he's jealous of curly for being the superior leader, the one everyone relies on. the one in control. something he wishes he had. so when he actually does assume the role of captain, he starts to get so upset that he's failing to be their captain even if he wanted it. its so. its so petty like it seriously says a lot about him. he just wants to be feared YET he jumps the gun on everything AND doesn't want to be held accountable on what he does and blames it on everyone else. he just wants his hands to be clean. too bad. you are FLAWED everywhere. he's such a manipulator too, and i bet you that's why he wants to be in control. to let people do his bidding and if they fail, its their fault. not his. eeugg. i still will not forget his gaslighting towards daisuke on the vent scene. because of this, daisuke hurt himself SO bad. as if that wasnt it. fucking jimmy thought it was a good idea to THROW MOUTHWASH on DAISUKE'S BODY hoping it would act like some DISINFECTANT when even ANYA, THE MEDICAL STUDENT said that this is not a GOOD DISINFECTANT SUBSTITUTE. again. dude jumped the gun and just fucked around and found out. what happens? swansea is forced to mercy kill him. because of JIMMY'S DUMBASS. incredible fuckin work dude. /SARC.

as much as i am upset over daisuke's death, i dont think he had any chance after that disinfectant. he was practically burning alive and I wouldn't want him to suffer like that. its terrible. its sad even because i think swansea had a little familial bond with him and it probably really hurt him to do him like that. they remind me of hank and connor from dbh. hank was initially distant and mean to connor but through connor's kindheartedness and general innocence, hank couldn't be mean forever. the same can be said for swansea and daisuke. that's how i see it. i also wanna throw my 2 cents here, i feel that swansea is very regretful for not being the most... successful man. especially as a father. i feel that him being with daisuke is his second chance to be a good father figure to someone since he has already failed his own family and wanted to make up for it by teaching daisuke how to be a mechanic (again, reminds me of lisa the p.ainful. brad and buddy. if u know, u know)

i remember somewhere during my gameplay, jim was so angry when anya asked him to do the pill duty on curly. like hello? as captain aren't you supposed to understand your crewmates? why so dismissive? aren't they your responsibility and it's your job to also check on their morale??? why do you think the sweetener is only within captain's restriction? to ensure that everyone's mentally okay! hours go by, i see curly and he says his chad line "as captain, you are all my responsibility" AND I WAS LIKE OKAY THIS MAN GETS IT. HATE HOW THE GOOD ONES GO TOO SOON. CLEARLY JIM IS WAY OUT OF HIS LEAGUE he doesn't deserve that spot its insane he was provided that role. (i am aware of their. friendship :\)

ok ok i know you're gonna say "jil curly isnt that perfect either" YES that's why i said earlier "nobody is truly a hero" we all know that scene when anya confessed what happened to her and what did he do? idk he just says. "ill talk to him" sorry what akdjfhdhd i don't think talking is enough. he needs to be held accountable for that.... oopsie! nopee! jim already fails at being responsible soooo!!!! im sure i can say more for curly but atm ill just. stop there because i would prefer to do a round 2 of the game and then provide more insight

anya is... is a tragedy to me. a girl who had to retake her medical classes only for none of it to be successful, so she's left feeling unconfident knowing shes not really... well versed. but she really is trying her best and it has to be appreciated. the mere fact that curly is still alive is definitely because of her and i think she did amazing. she is a very sweet, and smart woman. i just hate how agaiiin ooh fuckenn jimmy has the gall to see her less of a person and devalue her worth its so djfbfbhdjdjd UGH it must be so overwhelming for her too, as the only woman in the ship it can be really scary. she's lucky to have swansea, daisuke and curly treat her right. except for Him. truly sickening. the fact that he didn't react so much to her ... demise is so ://// arent you at least, perhaps, feeling guilty? (no he's not) (the only nightmare he has of her is the fact she has ... a baby because of Him. yet again. displaying his need to have a perfect record. to have no dirt on himself. but he really does.) i truly feel sorry for her, she didn't want her unsuccessful classes define her capabilities, so she always tries her best to be informed. about the ship, her medical work, and curly of course. i remember when she said "our worst moments doesnt have to define us as monsters" or however it went. i like to think she was also saying this to herself, that even if she's just a nurse and not a doctor, she can still be of help. and it doesn't make her any less credible. i really want to hug her. i noticed she became so nervous and antsy after that subtext had been implied, i feel sorry for her.

daisuke is probably last person to have committed something so serious (iirc) and he was in fact, the victim of something worse. though it doesnt make him the perfect character either because he's just some guy who didnt have a good future ahead of him and just got there because his parents wanted him to be worthy. he was quite insecure about not being useful. (jim exploited that.)

yes daisuke may be irritating to them, but he really means good and he tries not to fight with others. im sure this is also his way of respecting everyone else as he's just an intern and they all collectively know better than his rookie self. he's quite obedient.

i wish i could say more because i really really loved this tragedy from start to finish and I could pinpoint every small detail but... ill just hold myself there hehe

i dont wanna start any arguments or debates abt the charas, i just wanna express how i understand them so far. dont take these for granted since this is all based from my first play and i'd definitely be more informed and well versed if i replayed/took time to read the intricate details

i'm very happy to have checked this game out. i was first exposed to this by jack's video and i immediately put it on watch later, not knowing it would get super popular lolol but im glad to catch up now

[takeurexam]

dynasty || XII

genre:

non idol au, time travel, romance, rivals to allies to friends to lovers, crown prince to emperor taehyun, reader gets appointed as an concubine

paring(s):

non!idol taehyun x reader

(warning, this does not reflect the REAL idols personality, and no smut will be written to respect the idol, and i am not comfortable as well, and the taehyun in this ff is not the actual taehyun)

story:

in which you, an excellent law student about to graduate collage suddenly gets dragged into the past, meeting the famous-fawned over emperor of the kang's dynansty. but you getting dragged into this mess was beyond a mystery, and it seems like you have something deep to discover. meddling with the past is a risky decision after all.

dynasty masterlist

12. Last

Your heart cant help but beat a little faster than it is. Why is it that you're nervous about something so small yet so big? You've experianced several tests before, but why was this the worst of them all? Questions flood your head as you stand at the royal court's pillars, waiting for the Empress' word.

"Im dumb, but i'm academically inclined! So this better be something simple or i'll actually just sell rice soup." Observing the other ladies, they seem to be as nervous as you are. Who wouldn't be anyways? The present effects the future like a splash of waves hitting a big area of the shore.

But your eyes land on a new arrival. The Crown Prince sneaks off his throne, his eyes oddly enough off a book. You snicker, looking at his bored expression.

Fidgeting with your fingers, you feel yourself sweat for the first time in the palace. Hong-Yeon notices and grabs a cloth, whispering to you. "Take this, My Lady."

"Thanks." You whisper back with a smile, a small gesture of hers can be so helpful. Yet the faster beating of your heart cant be helped.

A Eunuch finally walks up to the Empress, handing over a jade colored scroll. She opens it and clears her throat, preparing to announce it. Everyone goes silent and turns their heads to her.

"Soon-to-be Imperial Concubines, you have awaited for this moment, and it is the last test to determine if you are worthy of being apart of the Imperial Palace's reign." She says in a powerful voice, as if there was backround music playing. "Now, we shall begin." The Eunuch's carry enough tables for each concubine, with ink, paper and a brush on top of it.

You walk over to your seat, feeling the pressure bubbling up your braincells. You shift in your seat, feeling nervous as hell.

"For our final test-" She pauses, adding suspense to the atmosphere. "Each of you will present a message that has deeper meaning than what you can see- it is a test of knowledge, and mindset."

"Its that easy?" You laugh like a maniac in your head, feeling yourself hold back the grin from breaking out. "What was I so nervous for?" You scoff.

"But, the Crown Prince is the one who must judge- as he is the future of our kingdom." Your jaw drops, as if the Empress dropped a whole bombshell on you. "Hell no!" You feel yourself droop, losing all confidence so sudden. "You must explain it to him face-to-face." You feel her words slowly blur out, as you slowly sink into your seat.

His smirk radiates across the room, its energy hitting you like a truck. You knew he was smirking not because he wanted to look at the genuine answers of the emperor's chicks- its because of you.

Giving him a look screaming out "You better take this seriously or i'll choke you!" You just pray he isn't a total asshole, and he has a little bit of good in his heart.

"You may start." You finish your dramatic ceremony of glaring at the prince, before actually starting. You look over to the other ladies, comepletely dedicated to their message.

You look at the paper, attempting to have ideas. "What message do I even say? Theres no topic! I have no phrases today." You whisper to yourself, completely feeling despairing, no ideas in mind.

Clutching the brush, feeling desperate, an idea suddenly pops up in your head, the only piece of light in your dark mind.

"Lastly, Concubine L/N." Pushing the chair from your butt, you slowly walk over to the front, where the Crown Prince watched in amusement, with his legs crossed over, and his elbow leaning on the throne. He looked like a true judge, but behind that mask, it was pure stupidity.

The past few concubines either did well or not. Kang Taehyun was obviously not amused at them, and payed almost no intention to them, just pretending to. He was only interested at you, because of his horrifying intentions that you cant predict.

"You may speak," The eunuch on your right declares, making you nod.

Closing your eyes and taking a deep breath, you take everything in you not to collapse and faint out of nervousness, as you start to speak.

"I present to you, this." You signal the paper you passed earlier ago to the eunuch's to deliver to the prince. The paper sets down his desk, his expression comepletely puzzled.

The eunuch's also share the same expression as him, except a little more dramatic. People gasp and whisper to each other, while a smirk is plastered all over your face.

The Empress herself also gasps, suprised at the unexpected answer. She speaks up, clearing the whispers. "Do you wish to have no answer?"

Taehyun was about to speak, yet you cut him off. "I have not started." You clear your throat, preparing for a very royal presentation unlike anything this dynasty has seen before.

"This blank sheet of paper may look worthless, with no message inclined, but it is worth thousands than it seems. Making paper is a long process- like how an Empire is builded." You explain, your voice smooth and explanatory. The people doubt at this point, but you dont care enough and just continue.

"It is blank because the plan for the empire is merely blank, but awaiting to have ideas planted into it. It is when the Crown Prince writes into it, and then the value can improve." You add a last touch to the message, something to help the prince a little more.

The Crown Prince did not expect the answer at all, as you notice his widened eyes. He was obviously suprised, and did not expect anything like this from you.

Everyone continues whispering to each other, majority of them pleased with your answer. Obviously, the only negative ones were the ones competing with the Choi's and you.

The Empress also has a smile over at her face, comepletely satisfied at your answer. Even her maids were suprised at her smile, that could've been rarer than gold.

"I am touched." He speaks, for the first time in a while. He did not speak for the rest of the concubines, but only you. "I am completely deeply touched by your answer." He looks at you with a sarcastic smile.

"Is he sarcastic with the shoutout or something? What the hell?" You felt your brain drained because you spent so much effort just to make an inspirational message for him. But he was Kang Taehyun, you didn't expect much.

He writes down on the paper on his desk, obviously grading you.

"Let us evaluate the results of each concubine." The Empress declares, her voice smiley and happy. Everyone goes to the side, letting the royal court do the work.

Hong-Yeon jumps happily, with a grin. "I loved your answer, My Lady! Your answer was very different from the others, yet you made it work!" You chuckle, nodding.

"I truly am." You smirk, comepletely satisfied with the successful report, but it wasn't over yet, its like the final round of the video games you played back at home. The final boss, Crown Prince Kang Taehyun.

"Let us announce the results now." The crowd turns to the Empress, every concubine nervous, including you. The candidates walk over to the middle, all standing in the designated positions.

The eunuch infront clears his throat, "Out of all, one has scored over 30 points from the two tests." He reads the scroll in his hand, "Concubine L/N, please walk in front."

You walk over, feeling your hands shake. It was one of these moments where in your future is heavily affected by it. Before you even got here, you got drunk because you celebrated from passing the collage final exams, but now its as if those two things are the same now.

You hope that the tomorrow you have is that you wake up as the Imperial Concubine, and maybe everything can just pass.

"Congratulations on becoming the Imperial Concubine." You smile widely, feeling all the heavy doubts on your back fade away.

You cant feel that happy to be respectful, but you feel yourself jump inside, your efforts worth. "Thank you." You grab the scroll, accepting the title.

How lucky are we to have a tomorrow as the future we see.

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[cephalotyrant]

Hiiiiiiiiii so. Azurido bodyswap.

Think about it; these two housewardens who constantly seem to be bickering, and then one day during a joint alchemy class they accidentally swap bodies...

Azul trying to run heartslabyul and hastily memorizing all the queens' rules; speaking of i had a sudden thought do you think azul would learn the rules for riddle after they start dating so he can easily come over to heartslabyul and follow all the rules teehee anyways back on topic Azul is mentioned to have less magic capacity so im imagining him being like "okay yeah this kid's currently on a murderous rampage buuuut do I REALLY need off with your head rn why can't i just assert my dominance with words or some shit works with floyd" (i'l never forget that time azul made floyd kneel as punishment... sad moment)

And then Riddle... bless his heart he's too much of a reasonable honest person for octavinelle's bs he's like "stop scamming students" and they're like "um ACKSHUALLY you see the free market and blah blah blah-" Riddle can't behead them anymore because azul doesn't have that power (loser) so he's just like -_- waiting for them to stop talking please oh please what he wouldn't do for them to shut the fuck up-

also weird thought riddle out of instinct trying to cast owyh and then accidentally activating the true form of it's a deal and just... knocking a bunch of guys out cold. and his glasses. he hates them bc they keep getting foggy.

speaking of glasses azul keeps trying to push them up except they dont exist fuckin L hah hah everybody point and laugh

and riddle's high heels... azul falls over (point and laugh part 2)

anyways getting a bit more serious I do feel like azul and riddle do have more similarities in leadership style (like how azul's canonically very irritable with octavinelle students and ortho mentions it's actually quite rare to see him in a good mood just like riddle) so... poor heartslabyul guys aren't catching a break just yet. Except instead of being collared it's just like "shut the fuck up travis this is why you're poor" "3.8 gpa santocruz??? I think you mean 1.8 because those tabloids could only be written by a FUCKING IDIOT" (i'm joking PLEASE DONT KILL ME I MERELY JEST besides we all know azul probably tries to seem uber classy so he wouldn't swear)

meanwhile octavinelle students have never seen such rage... even more scarily... HONESTY AND STRAIGHTFORWARDNESS (an octavinelle student's worst nightmare)

Anyways Riddle and tweel interactions here are just so funny if this is before floyd realizes the truth because it's like

"Lemme squeeze you, goldfishie!"

"Riddle" has NO REACTION. ICE COLD.

And then "Azul" waltzes in and is like "Floyd why how could you do this that is highly improper!!!!!!!"

Ofc "Riddle's" like "so i owe you now" bc azul wants riddle in his debt lmaooo

Azul keeps trying to find riddle's weakness... but it goes wrong...

Short scene:

Azul gazed into the mirror of Heartslabyul's bathroom, looking at every new detail at this new face of his. Riddle's face. He was looking for weaknesses. Yes, weaknesses, as dastardly as it seemed.

Like - how those soft, sun-kissed cheeks were likely sensitive to light, and how those gorgeous little heart-shaped tufts of hair often added to Riddle's poutiness, and-

Wait, why was Riddle's face growing redder in the mirror all of a sudden?

Womp womp azul you're gay for him

Anyways they turn back and it all gets found out blah blah... Azul saying the most down-bad shit when he thinks no one can hear like "riddle-san looks even prettier from up close" jade and floyd overhear his little mumble he never leaves it down...

and riddle... is hyperfixating over azul's moles. he knew about the one on his chin but there's MORE??? On The neck? The COLLARBONE??? He never undressed (neither did azul bc they were swapped for a pretty short time so it was pretty easy not to as just... yk a respect/consent thing) but while adjusting his tie and stuff he noticed. He is now freaking out over it to Trey. Why does he care??? When can he sign up to kiss them??? More on seven.

OOOOOOAAAAAGHHHHHH BARK BARK BARK BARK GRRR MOEWWW HISSS CRASH BOOM MY LEG!!!

Memorizing the rules would be a DAUNTING ass task bro. But Azul is up to it and I bet he memorized them just for fun at one point so he could find all the loopholes (and rub them in riddles face) funnily enough, Heartslabyul is confuse because it seems like Riddle has gotten... sharper? Some clock him immediately as wrong (ADTC)-- Riddle often stands stiffly and probably has a resting bitch face, let's be real. but now the way he stands is almost looser, more fluid, his body more expressive, flexing his hands. In his attempt to follow the rules, Azul IMMEDIATELY calls out someone using a loophole. But for today, he'll let it slide-- but I better not catch you doing that again, else there will be consequences. (He means Jade and Floyd it was on instinct) Even the way he SPEAKS is different, and why is he talking about himself so much? Don't get started on the moment Azul is mentioned-- why is he suddenly avoiding speaking any bad about Azul Ashengrotto? They were at each other's throats just this morning!

He feels weirdly frail. Not only does he lack his octo-stength, he has to look up at absoloutely everyone! And these heels are ridiculous! Of course, he's heard all about Riddle boasting that the dorm uniform being a replica of the first housewarden of Heartslabyul, but he could have omitted SOME details. The way everyone straightens their back when they hear the clacking of his heels, though... that's quite nice. It's hard not to powertrip.

I'm not going to get into it I'm not going to get into it I'm not-- FUCK. He can't help but be envious of the complete lack of fat on Riddle's body, the way his uniform cinched his waist just right. Perhaps there were some benefits of being so small... And there's a constant dull ache in his dominant hand. Seriously, for someone raised for a future in medicine, he doesn't appear to be taking care of himself very well! Maybe he'll snoop about the room for a diary, finding a drawer full of letters from a very particular woman-- and leave the investigation there. Funnily enough, it fills him with the urge to write his own letter to his own mother... he hasn't spoken to her in a while.

At least the bed is fantastic? Let's just hope Trey doesn't walk in while he's giggling and wrapping himself up burrito-style into the blankets.

Azul (Riddle) back at Octavinelle seems like he's one moment away from a STROKE. So much so that every few moments red rings swirl in his eyes-- his last straw being the fourth pencil he breaks in a row. Since when has Azul been this strong!? Does his dishonest nature extend to taking steroids?? He's going to have a VERY long talk with him later! His glasses keep getting smudged and sliding down his nose, and Azul's layered clothing was so ridiculously heavy-- being of average height is kind of nice, though.

Jade and Floyd clock him as NOT AZUL right away I fear... though it is a little funny to watch Azul's body throw a tantrum and stomp his feet. They freak out, however, when Riddle realizes he has the strength to preperly defend himself... not good. If he can't behead them, he can go physical. Really, he's not fit at all to run Mostro or do deals atp... but Jade and Floyd think it'd be funny if he fucked some up. He's rather impressed by how such a busy establishment runs so smoothly, and the employees, namely, the waiters, are rather polite. They stand straight and speak clearly... Azul’s done quite well.

THE MOLES ARGH...

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Finally. A respite from the endless things that needed his attention– as the housewarden of Heartslabyul, he was used to tending issues left and right, but this experience, being trapped in Azul’s body, had stretched his patience thin. Azul, truly, had his fingers in far too many pies.

Discarding anything the Octavinelle housewarden wore on the regular would have been improper, though it certainly didn’t prevent him from complaining about it. The layers of the dorm uniform were oppressive, to put it lightly– even his cape, for how it dragged across the ground, wasn’t nearly as heavy. The cummerbund was too tight to be considered remotely comfortable. He abandons it on the chair in front of the vanity.

He tugs on silky purple fabric to undo the bowtie, the thing having gone crooked, most likely from when he undid the suspenders or pulled off the jacket. It’s always satisfying to allow one’s neck to breathe at the end of the day–

Eh?

Right there, not too far from under the collar, is a culmination of small dark spots. Three, in fact. And just when he peels back the collar to get a better look at them, there’s another one, right there, on his collarbone!

Experimentally, he runs a finger over them. They’re just spots of pigment… so why do they make his breath hitch and his face warm so?

The door beside the vanity swings open without warning, causing him to jump and squeeze the collar shut in alarm, crumpling the, no doubt, expensive fabric. He curses, seeing one of two tall eel mermen at the door.

“Are you accustomed to coming in unannounced?”

Jade smiles, half concealing it with a hand. “Oh my. Look at you, you already sound so much like our dearly departed Azul.”

“D– dearly departed!? He’s in my body, not deceased!”

[lianreine]

Random#10, Lion/Lioness in Pomefiore!?| Vil x Gn!Mc| Part 2.5(?)/?

Yep this is a part 2 that i havent updated in loke 2 months-

Vil pov

The student pulls me up holding my as i hold them back...we both stare at eachother for a minute before stepping away from eachother

The student does a standing bow

"Sorry...Housewarden it was truly a accident"

My eyes widen...a royal lion|ess having respect? Huh i cant imagine Leona being like them..

I hum in response

"Since i look perfect fine. And you did save me from hitting the floor. Ill forgive you....but! You should know not to cut corners like that! You could have hurt me. Or someone!"

I say scolding them...holding a firm gaze as the bow their head again

"Again im really sorry housewarden im just looking around is all"

She says to me with a non threatening voice...unlike that lazy cat.

Huh...I might actually like this freshman... heh i could also use them as a example againts Leona.

(Rook vibrating enough to break glasss seeing you♡)

After a few hours Vil and You actually got a long

You learned how to mute out Rook.

(And just because.)

"Un lion in pomefiore! Ah! magnifique!"

Mc sighs and looks at him

"Oui merci, Hunt."

Rook's eyes widen and he smiles, Vil pulls you away from Rook before he starts bouncing off walls.

QUI QUI MON AMI. ITS SHORT but i am sick. And im trying to get back to my writting when im not dying from pain♡

Feel free to request or even comment because it will give me motivation. AND I REMEMBER YOU

THE PERSON WHO ASKED FOR PART 2 ON THE VIL X ROOK X READER "SECRET ADMIRER" HIII♡ JUST TELL ME. ILL STAND UP AND WORK MY LITTLE BRAIN OFF. IM JUST GIVING THIS UPDATE TO SHOW IM ALIVEE♡

-Reine Lian

[n-and-uzi-chat-abt-things]

Mod here, for the love of all that is good PLEASE stop spam liking, I genuinely don’t like being flooded with 94746363737337 notifications from one person then another and another and more it gets overwhelming and it makes it harder to find peoples asks which btw i may not answer because 1, i started feeling uncomfortable with other ppls ocs (i genuinely don’t mean offense, i thought i would be okay but also this is an Au which i actually planned for awhile) and 2 im a busy high school student with a personal life too, its why the fic hasn’t had frequent updates as much due to overwhelmingly low motivation

Again I mean no offense just please respect

[lichtecht]

What are your thoughts about girl dfk justraucher? I'm trying to think of what their past might have looked like but I'm kind of coming up blank. Did they still take part in the war in some way? Would the Nichtraucher have still had a child? Would Dr Bökh have felt the pressure to also get married? I wonder if their dynamic would be changed by the fact that Judith is now also kind of a social misfit (? how do i say that in english. she's a különc) as a single woman in her 30s with a career in academia. In canon I feel like Johann is seen as a perfectly respectable person while Robert is kind of the odd one who rejected his cozy socially acceptable way of life and ran away to do something entirely different. I mean I guess Barbara-the-single-woman-chainsmoker-living-alone-in-a-train-wagon and Judith-the-single-woman-boarding-school-supervisor-slash-geography-teacher are still not on the same level of socially unacceptable but. where was going with this actually

YEAH you are so right

it’s way more socially acceptable for a man to be unmarried and work as a teacher (even if he ideally should have a wife and kids and all that jazz) than it is for a woman. and especially considering johann/judith doesn’t seem to have any family left either??

like i do think that impacts her life a lot. and it might play a role in why she chose this profession in the first place? maybe her mother was also a single woman working in a male-dominated field and judith chose to work as a teacher partly as a tribute to her mother? additionally to wanting to be a safe place for students?

i think being a safe place for young girls especially also adds an interesting layer. depending on if we genderswap all of the cast or if a majority of the teachers are men teaching at an all girls boarding school

about their pasts; those are all very good questions……

i like the idea of the nichtraucher working as a field nurse or something. this sounds so cruel but the trauma fits her and since you mentioned her child im thinking maybe that works as an alternative backstory? that the nichtraucher worked as a field nurse and met her future husband there (he could've been a soldier or maybe he was also a doctor?) and they got married after the war ended but the husband kept some kind of terminal illness or injury that took his life ????? im just throwing things around here

like i feel if it was her who was pregnant and maybe had a miscarriage that changes the emotion attached to that sad memory? it’d be something that directly happened to HER instead of her being a helpless bystander who couldn’t do anything to stop her loved ones from dying i think it would work fine if we cut her child out and its just her husband that died (most film adaptations didn’t mention the child either)

tbh i can’t see how dr bökh might’ve been involved in the war. all i can imagine is that she stayed home finishing her education while her best friend/lover went to the front lines and the kind of heartbreak and worry of that?? if we make them both a little older that could potentially even be their backstory and how they lost contact. its kinda giving 2003 70s justraucher with the not knowing if the nichtraucher made it out alive perhaps they were partly in contact over letters and that’s how judith knew about barbara’s husband and his death, but then they lost contact after that?? idk if the timeline even makes sense here

[plasmasimagination]

hiya there!! congrats on 300 followers ^^ i hope hearing the news made your day and that you’ll have many more amazing milestones like this one,, oh! and when you read this, please have a drink of water — take care of yourself, ok? 🤍

for the matchup event, i’d like a matchup for the honkai star rail and genshin impact guys please!

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i’m an enfp 4w3 and i’m currently a sciences student at school! deep down my passion is in voice acting, but i can’t pursue it for the time being because of my studies piling up xd

still, i have big dreams of landing character roles that people can relate to and potentially singing, voicing commercials or audiobooks!

in a perfect world, my dream future would be to devote the rest of my life to creating art that’s from my heart and that will move others!

i’m in a leadership role at school because i like to be of service to others in the greatest way possible. i didn’t get enough votes to be president, but i was voted to be secretary, so i take note of everyone’s ideas and also our final decisions at meetings!

i prefer to compile people’s ideas and try to make them all come true in some way than to lead people towards a singular cause. in that respect, i don’t always enjoy leading people or competition.

im also super into psychology and typology (mbti, enneagram) and can usually tell who’s what personality type after getting to know them a little~

while i’m ambiverted, i’m definitely a little more extroverted than introverted (the latter probably stems from fluctuating confidence). but anyways, i have a couple friends — and i get along best with the people who are intuitive types (mbti with the N).

i’m pretty distracted at times. i don’t always remember or hear things people say, which i’m hoping to improve on. in general, i like finding improvements to myself!

as for looove,, i’m pretty dreamy and romantic, but i’m not actively searching for love just yet. there’s so many things i wanna do with my life before truly settling down, but i won’t refuse getting to know “the one” if i meet them along the way.

my type is someone introverted/ambiverted. i’d really like a partner who has a different side to them when we’re alone~ — like shy guys in public who are dominant in private (*blushes*), or charismatic guys in public who need cuddles and a safe space in private. (i don’t mind it if they don’t fit this criteria! i’ll do all i can to give my partner a safe space regardless ^^)

i hope this wasn’t too long and that it all helps! have a lovely day! 🥰

HAII SWEETHEARTTTT oh my god now that I put it that way i seriously can't comprehend how big it is, and actually were on 352 by now like isn't that insane?? It's genuinely so crazy to me how plp actually enjoy my content like-....

Little a/n - also I'm so impressed by your like life and how put together you are like idk it just so cool to hear about your life and shi, keep doing you babe I'm your biggest supporter and hope to see you as a voice actor one day (｡˃ ᵕ ˂ *) ｳﾝ

Anyyyways... Time for your matchup woooo~👻

Your matchups are....

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XIAO

Maybe not exactly the thing you're looking for, but surely worth a shot?

Partner that takes charge x partner that follows the other around like a puppy

Xiao isn't fond of making decisions, so he'll leave it up to you, but he will help in making the decision become reality if needed

He's also very passively supporting you. He understands that you wish to focus on your career and live life before settling down, and he's never gonna hold you down from it, he's gonna get out of your way in case you want to go out with friends or like clubs or traveling, though do reassure him sometimes otherwise he'll be very distant

Also generally it will take him a while to warm up to your but after that he'll follow you around and always be near you.

He considers you very intelligent and reliable, which makes him like you a lot more in a way, he enjoys the secure feeling you give off

Think of it as having a black cat pet, it always lingers around you but doesn't interact much, yet it still loves you. And in those rare moments it comes to cuddle with you it's like a blessing by the archons themselves

GEPARD

I don't know I just feel like after that deep matchup W xiao, that you deserve someone to actually love you properly

Busy busy man gepard who still finds time to spend with his sweetheart

He's the type of person who's forced to lead in a lot of situations, around you he enjoys letting you take over and he can just sit back and help you out without the hard decision making

He's very sweet but very professional in real life as we know because of status

But inside he's a big big softie

Random but I like to imagine he would write you little letters, sometimes just to tell you to stay safe and stuff but sometimes actual love letters where he expresses how much he loves you

But don't be fooled, at times he can also take the charge in things, so it's like getting the best of both worlds

He understands what it's like to want to focus on yourself and your future, so he's gonna step back if you need him to, he can wait months, years, however long you need to let him love you╰(*´︶`*)╯♡