#i LOVE to see user shouyuus having hinata thoughts

[dearru]

mAK i cannot stop thinking about shouyou who's like had a crush on you forever but doesn't realize that it's a crush? he just thinks he likes you as a REALLY GOOD FRIEND and slowly realizes that its mORE than just what he feels for really good friends UGH

OH MY GOD YOUR BRAIN IS SO BIG. I actually have a 5+1 shoyo draft that plays into this but u have given me an excuse to yap SO IM GONNA YAP cuz a slow realization is SOOOO in character for him. | mlist

More than anything else, Hinata Shoyo is an instinctual lover. He doesn't have to think about how to love something because being someone who feels has always been woven into the threads of his personhood. For him, loving comes as natural as breathing, especially when it comes to you. It was never something he had to question, nor something that was ever accompanied by a sudden epiphany. His feelings festered inside of him so slowly that he never noticed their presence because they’d always been constant, and this is precisely why it takes him an eternity to fully understand the depth of his emotions. 

Everything he does/feels for you is instinctual. All the simple acts of kindness, the stolen glances filled with a delicate fondness, everything. He only realizes he wants you in a greater capacity than he has you when one of his peers asks what you are to him.

It's not uncommon for people to question the dynamic you and him share, and Shoyo normally answers also out of instinct: “We’re best friends.” You've been his closest companion since birth; you’ve been with him since before he’d developed a sense of self. It's hard to encapsulate all you are to him in words, but "best friend" has always seemed to suffice.

Until now. 

This time, for some unknown reason, his voice wavers before he can give the normal answer, and that’s the first warning sign. It’s what pushes him toward the precipice and the reflection that follows is what leads him to stumble upon a conclusion that’s been creeping up on him all his life. 

Shoyo has always possessed an unbounded affection for most things in life. He reveres the rush he gets from smacking a volleyball just right, he adores the feeling of the sun hitting his face, and he’s delighted by the satisfying sensation of biting into a steaming hot meat bun. 

But you? He loves you. 

And now that he knows that, he can't go back to how things used to be.

He won't.