#i HATE movies every1 knows i hateeeee sitting thru movies. but i watched the venom movies on the plane ……

[aftrskool]

on SEPTEMBER FIRST (1st) i experienced a joy that has been foreign to me for so long …… the oncoming autumn season has me so EXCITED.!!!!!!!!!!!and i didn’t know what to do about it so i whipped out the halloween decorations from the attic and decorated the house…and brought my cinnamon candles out of hiding , and roamed around the house at sunset with a candle as my light because i was so EXCITED FOR AUTUMN !!!!!!!!!! it was so silly but it was the first joy i have had in so so very long , a pure joy, not performative or constructed for my own good, it was SO!!!!!!!!! a week before this happened i found myself listening to music getting ready for bed … and when i finished i was like …. this is so good has anyone ever even heard of this???this is so GOOD and i didn’t want to put my music away to sleep i was having such a good time listening to music for the first time in forever and ever. I THINK I AM ON THE RISE ONCE AGAIN