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theros · 1 year ago

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i wish my main three fictotypes, the ones that aren't ever seen on this blog, were easier to talk about. i can only really talk about two of them with a very small group of people (four), and the third i can only talk to one person about.

such an intrinsic part of me. and knowing those three characters even in a passing way can give a person a very strong understanding of who i am. and i guess that's part of what makes them hard to talk about. (the other part is the obscure sources). if someone knows those characters well enough, they know me. without any masking, without any of the defense mechanisms i have to keep at least a single layer between me and other people. and that's a hard thing to let myself accept.

mortifying ordeal of being known etc etc.

#i /want/ to talk about LY and JB and JP but it is /hard/. especially in public.#because there's so much background to explain first. and then because... that's me. raw and without anything to hide behind #alterhumanity #fictionfolk #...*thinks about how one of the fictotypes i /am/ public about is prompto who also masks and maintains a cheery attitude so people don't se #how anxious and depressed and filled with imposter syndrome he really is* lol. really maintaining the trend there ain't i

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