#hyperfixation followed by the realisation at 3am: ah this is me trying to escape

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Hi Halcy, first of all I just wanna say that I LOVE the way home you gave Zhang Jiale in your work, it’s beautiful, touching, and absolutely reasonable. And what path do you think Sun Zheping would have? Having to leave everything is the first obstacle in his life that cannot be solved by just crashing it. Do you think he’d also be full of rage resentment ang confusion? and how would he forgive himself and come back? really would like to hear your idea >3

anon today I learned ask messages do not show up on mobile tumblr...

ANYWAY what a good question! definitely I think there would be that resentment over his hands failing him coupled with a sizable dose of whatever the opposite of acquiescing to fate is. he might have half of season five to reconcile himself to the fact but I think that bitterness lingers, especially if he's putting on a brave face for his teammates so its just quietly festering in the background

how he'd forgive himself is an interesting route to ponder - afraid I can't give you anything more concrete than 'not what zhang jiale did' bc fortunately or unfortunately he does not seem to be the type of guy to find zen in nature... but it would certainly be long, and I don't think it would complete without him sitting in front of a Glory screen again. maybe what he needs is another hyperfixation?