#hyperfixating on the issues related to my trauma tee hee

[ask-postcrash-curly]

I think I’ve been talking a lot lately, haven’t I? Sorry! I just get happy and giddy, stardust. Also, yeah, I am okay, I am just weird — nothing to worry much about.

[awkward laughing, followed by clearing my throat]

How long do you believe it will take until you arrive Earth? Did anyone tell you a date or something of the sort yet? Everything’s much brighter now, in the sense that we might be able to find you and— that makes me so proud of you, Cap’n.

I might show you more flowers and what they symbolize. Listen to songs! Play videogames! Talk to you about my day! Won’t be much different from what I do now, yet it will feel better if it is in person, yes?

Also, something I thought funny: my new friend made me a joke that she is actually a crab who wants to take over the world, so— I now call her “growncrab lady,” because… “In Stars and Time,” yeah; or rather, its prologue, “Start Again.” Tee-hee!

Oh, I sound so repetitive, yet I will keep pressuring on!!! Hehe, I just like talking about my hyperfixations. ISAT just happens to be the one I talk about the most, as it is the most recent one.

I guess I will also send you an album — how do I explain it? So… it is called “The Post-Traumatic Manifesto,” and it explores trauma, femininity, and the pains that come with both, and it is about nine girls who were sent to an inpatient program. I relate to plenty of the songs (the second, the third, the fourth, a bit of the seventh, the eighth, and the ninth.)

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL6SHmhKtBJcycOLtNFy6ryrRARMa5472W&si=-SQTOKQh9OHmdTWH

Maybe, when you recover yourself, you can show it to Anya! I guess she would like the album, even if it is somewhat dark, because it talks about mental health issues (although it ends on a positive note!) You remind me of the fifth girl. Maybe the ninth, too. I am so sorry you are bound to become similar to the fourth girl, because you will definitively have chronic pains.

[a faint sigh]

Anyways, I just think the album is underrated and I want to show it to you! Surprisingly, that wasn’t even my music cue, this is:

https://youtu.be/gX5TTgifS1s?si=TV5sahgF-NY36XdR

I don’t remember if I already sent you this song, but better safe than sorry. I hope you like it, stardust. Good recovery, hold on strong, I am here for you. We all are. You will find yourself comfortable again someday, soon. Love ya!

- Lumi!

That's okay, Lumi. C'mon, we've been over this. Glad you're okay.

I have no fucking idea.

Hmm...? Don't think I get the joke.

Thanks. I'm not sure whether I understand this one completely, but... it's interesting so far.

...I don't... I don't like the fifth one much, actually...

Fuck. Nope. Really don't like this one.

...

The music cue's better. Thank you.

Love you. Someday.

[moth-mayh3m]

that moment when i barely have anymore triggers relating to my trauma because i am So So Angry and Autistic so i actually end LOVING talking about the trauma