#howdoyoufindagoodfriend

[melsnotebook]

July 4, 2018

What made me this angry about myself? How did I let this happen, how was it that it took over me throughout time and I couldn’t just stop it. Why is it that people think it’s okay to destroy you mentally and continue you like nothing ever happen. People are really that brutal and then they claim that it is your fault. Ha how does that work? How are we suppose to just take that and not feel bad for ourselves? Being alone through it all is what hurts me the most because I know I’d be far from over this if I had someone that just had fun with me and would forget about all that negativity. I want a good friend. One good friend that is all. Being alone in this world is the most terrifying thing. Then through heartbreak? Oh boy, is it one hell of a ride. I’m completely a mess and I don’t know how to get out. People come and go but damn does it hurt when you thought that person wouldn’t just leave and treat you like a toy.

What a fucking criminal, you took my heart and smashed it without giving one single damn