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dayurno · 1 year ago

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No but for real do you think Jean blamed Kevin for leaving him at the Nest?

(being held at gunpoint) ok ok ok ok ill answer officer please

i dont think jean necessarily blames kevin for anything thats happened in the nest, but he's still just a person after all. in such a harsh environment and suddenly alone after hanging so much of his sanity on kevin and their friendship, of course jean resents him for leaving; he doesn't have the time nor the space to process the feeling of loss in any other meaningful way.

but! i think after he is no longer in such peril and can think clearly, jean learns to be angry at the world again. the realization that the anger towards the nest riko beat out of him was actually Rightful and Just like the sword of an angel will also bring the logical explanation that kevin was in no more control than he himself was, and that ultimately it was not his fault. i believe the pain of abandonment for jean comes from a much deeper place though, and that will be something that creates a rift between them even if jean doesn't blame kevin anymore; kevin, because he is too afraid of jean hating him to actually allow them to interact again, and jean, because kevin's avoidance of him makes him angry when he was prepared to absolve kevin of guilt in the first place

#this is such an obvious answer to me i think but like. Obviously in the haze of violence and adrenaline of the nest jean could only resent #he wasnt actually thinking on it in any other way than this person i love has left me and i am once again alone with a monster #and he is not to be blamed for this at all. id also be really angry #i just dont think this anger at kevin would last is all #because objectively its not kevins fault. and jean knows its not kevins fault. and wanting it to be wont make it so #cue the worlds worst breakdown seen to man #also i think kevin really would be soooo terrified of seeing jean again post canon #because hes so scared of jean hating him. and it might seem to other people that #hes scared of jeans anger because he thinks jean could hurt him. but its very pointedly not that #hes scared of jeans anger because he hates to see jean upset and he dreads to be the reason behind it #of course. the man who newly discovered that he is allowed to be angry at his conditions doesnt know that #but oh well you know theyll get through it. if it takes them years #theyre grown men after all #asks #kevjean #+1 dollar in the jean moreau as luo binghe jar but its the same thing as #how svsss binghe felt after the endless abyss when he saw sqq again kiking with other people #just this sense of explosive resentful jealousy

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