#how long am i gojng to waste everyone's time

[hmsmilkbone]

I quit my 'job' (I don't think you can even call it that.) I was doing character concepts for a little mobile game, and it became increasingly clear that I was the weakest contributing member.

I'm not really sure what to do. I have been so afraid for so long that I'm not even really living my life. I don't push myself or try harder. I get scared and avoid things, and now I am a shit artist and a shitty person.

With ai and the entry level work so polished, I don't think I'll ever get anywhere. I should probably quit and get a real job, but it hurts my heart. I think I could probably put in the effort and improve, but I'm too much of a loser and a coward. And I guess that's ok with me because I'm not doing anything about it. I wish I was a different person, but I choose to be a failure, and this is the consequence. Idk what to do. I could choose to improve and move forward, but it feels like there's no point.