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How To Shop For Fabric Online
RIP Joann's. Now many places in the US no longer have a local fabric store, such as it even was toward the end.
There are some good posts going around about where to shop for fabric and craft supplies online, like this one for example. But if you're a beginner-to-intermediate sewist, and the way you've always shopped for fabric is by going to the store and touching it, it can be a hard, even cruel adjustment to suddenly be looking at a photo online and trying to piece together from the inconsistent descriptions what you're actually looking at.
So I'm going to just try to bang together a little primer on What Things Are Called, and how to educate yourself, so that you don't have to do what I did and just buy a ton of inappropriate stuff you wound up not being able to use for what you'd thought. And I will link to some resources that will help with this. This will be garment-sewing-centric but will, I think, be fairly broadly applicable.
The first thing is to look carefully at your desired project. If it is a commercial pattern, it will usually tell you what kind of fabric you need, but it will describe it in not the same words it's often sold under. If it is NOT a commercial pattern and you're kind of winging it, it's even harder. So here is how to start figuring out what you need.
Number one: Knit or Woven?
Quilting fabric is woven. If you are making a quilt, you want a woven. Most craft projects are made with woven fabric-- tote bags, upholstery, you name it.
Many garments are knits. T-shirts, yoga pants, cardigans. It is easy to know, because knits stretch. They can either stretch both ways (along the length and along the width) or just one way (usually along the width); this is confusingly either called 2-way stretch or 4-way stretch. Yes, stores are inconsistent. Look carefully at the description, and they will usually specify-- "along the grain" or "in all directions". Some garments require stretch only around the body-- maxi skirts, knit dresses etc-- while some absolutely need stretch both ways, like bathing suits.
No, you absolutely cannot clone your favorite knit t-shirt in quilting cotton. It will not fit. Most knit garments have "negative ease", meaning they are smaller than your body and stretch to fit. All woven garments have "positive ease", meaning they are larger than your body, unless very firm shaping undergarments are used.
SMALL EXCEPTION: There exist "stretch wovens", which are woven fabrics made with elastic fibers. These will be labeled as such. They are actually harder to sew with than regular wovens because they almost never have their stretch percentage labeled; they are NOT suitable for knit patterns. Avoid them, until you are more advanced and know how to accomodate them, is my advice!
Number two: WEIGHT.
How heavy is the fabric? How thick? How thin? This is measured in two main ways-- ounces per yard (denim is often 8oz, 10 oz, 12 oz) or grams per square meter. But many fabric retailers do not tell you a weight, they use words like "bottomweight" or "dress-weight", and you have to learn to figure out what they mean by that.
My lifehack for learning these has been go to go to ready-to-wear clothing retailers and see if they give the weights of the fabric their garments are made from. (Yes, I learned how to shop for clothes online instead of in-store years ago, because I am fat; some of us have had to do this a long time.)
If you are making a pair of trousers, you need heavier fabric than if you are making a blouse. Do not buy a floaty translucent chiffon to make your work trousers, it will not work no matter how cute the color is. Learn how the different weights of fabric are described, and you will improve your odds of finding what you need.
Number three: DRAPE.
Is it stiff? Is it fluid? Is it soft? is it firm? There are a lot of very artsy words used for this, and you may find yourself puzzling over things with a fluid hand, or a dry, crisp hand, or "a lot of drape", or maybe the listing doesn't describe it at all. This segues neatly into another technical thing, which is the WEAVE of the fabric. There is a dizzying array of words that tell you what kind of fabric it is-- twill, tabby, challis, chiffon, crepe, organza, georgette. And these will give you insight into the drape, and thus into the texture/usability of this fabric, and how suitable it may or may not be for your project.
I know it's a lot to think about but I am now going to give you resources for where to see all this stuff.
Number one is Mood Fabrics, which I can't believe hasn't been in any of the posts I've seen so far. They are a huge store in NYC's Fashion District and yes you can go there, but when I went there it overwhelmed me so much I left empty-handed. But what they have is AN INCREDIBLE WEBSITE. They have everything on there, and what's most important for you, their listings are INCREDIBLY consistent. They have VIDEOS of many of the fabrics, where a sales associate will hold it, wave it, stretch it, and tell you verbally what it is and what it's for, in about thirty seconds. HUNDREDS of these videos.
Whether you want to buy from them or not, go to Mood Fabrics, click around, find their listings, and read them. They will tell you fabric content, weight (usually gsm), often weave, they have little graphics that show you if it's for pants, dresses, shirts. And they have those videos. Look at the listings, watch the videos, and you will leave knowing a lot more about how to look at an online listing of fabric and know what you're getting.
Another really excellent website for this is Stonemountain & Daughter. I've actually not bought anything from them yet (they came highly recommended, but they're not cheap), but their online listings are, again, very thorough and very detailed. They always have a picture of the fabric with a fold in it held in place by a pin, which does more to help you understand the weight and drape of a fabric than any other static image ever could-- that visual, combined with how informative the listings are, has helped me learn to estimate fabric weights on other sites very effectively.
And here is a page that's ostensibly about how to wash silk, but I found it so useful because it gives such a clear image of what each weave/type of silk fabric looks and drapes like. I've never bought anything from these guys either, but this is a good resource.
Learn a little bit about fabric so you know what you're looking for, and you can begin to replace some of that "i just have to go and feel it in person" problem. There will still be trial and error, but you'll have a better starting place at least.
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Omg all the overstim in your sylus and raf works đ«đ€€ makes me wonder if you have headcannons about how the other boys would be đ«Ł
can I make you lose your mind? (caleb, rafayel, sylus, xavier, zayne)
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ââ nearly 7k of the lads boys just losing their minds (and their control) when it comes to you. art by @/osk_purinnumee on x

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ââ WARNINGS: mdni, overstimulation, oral, pussy drunk boys, daddy kink (caleb), bicep choking (caleb), "just the tip" (sylus), size kink (sylus), cunnilingus (xavier), Lemurian heat (rafayel), orgasm denial (rafayel), breeding kink (rafayel), slight exhibisionism (zayne)
Caleb â±â
ââ the bully
How could Caleb deny you?Â
How could he when you come to him crying big crocodile tears, sobbing how no matter what you do you canât seem to cum, how you think you must be broken, how no one would ever want such a hard-to-please woman in their bed.Â
As if he hasnât spent years watching you, waiting for you, knowing damn well that the problem isnât you.
So of course Caleb, being such a kind and thoughtful gege, has to prove you wrong, right?
He does. Over. And over. And over again. That is, until youâre crying in overstimulation, writhing away from his punishing thrusts, clawing against the sheets as you try to run from the pleasure-turned-pain.
Or, tried to.
âNuh-uh, sweetheart. Where do you think youâre going?â
Youâre running? No, no you canât run away, not when heâs already spent his entire fucking life chasing you.Â
Calebâs voice is teasing, raspy and sweet, but thereâs nothing playful about the way his Evol surges to life with a mere crook of his finger, dragging you back along the mattress and pinning you down as he takes his sweet time crawling back to you.Â
Trapped, your breath hitches as you feel the weight of him settle over you, his intimidating frame caging you in, tracing featherlight kisses along your spine in such a stark contrast to how ruthlessly he was fucking you earlier. His hands roam, slow and deliberate, kneading your ass as he repositions himself behind you.
"If I let you go," he murmurs, "you promise not to run?"
Run? Why did you even want to run? You canât remember now, not as you viciously nodding your head as much as is allowed under the control of his Evol, already arching your back into his touch as Caleb nips and marks your sticky inner thighs.Â
âGood girl.â The pressure disappears.Â
Immediately, Caleb replaces it, his entire body pressing you down before you can so much as take a proper breath. His arm snakes around your throat, flexing just enough to remind you whoâs in control, the bulging, thick mass of his bicep choking you deliciously when you attempt to squirm or beg.
Heâs got you in a headlock, the rest of his corded body pressing down atop you until your chest is squished to the mattress, ass pressed against Calebâs pelvis, the combined pressure enough for you to be seeing stars. A drooling, overstimulated mess.
It doesnât help that heâs practically panting like a dog in your ear, whining as he already begins thrusting himself back into your cunt, delirious moans of your name and filthy praises cooed right into your ear, words barely distinguishable with how hard heâs breathing.Â
âAww p-poor thing.â Caleb pants, voice wrecked, whiny with need as he grinds himself against you. His pace is already brutal, his thrusts sharp and unforgiving, every desperate snap of his hips forcing a cry from your throat as his grip tightens, choking you deliciously every time you so much as try to squirm.âCan you be good for me? Be my sweet little girl and cum for daddy.â
It shouldnât be hot, Caleb, your gege, calling himself daddy, it shouldnât have you sobbing out an unintelligible plea as another orgasm builds, seizing up your body in tight, aching waves. And yet here you are, loosing your fucking mind at it.
âPlease,â you gasp, voice muffled as you sink your teeth into his bicep, embarrassed by the desperate sound of your own voice. âPlease, daddy.â
For the first time in thirty minutes, you feel Caleb stop.Â
Heâs frozen entirely, dick hot and throbbing with need within you, each shaky breath hitting your ear as he pressed down closer, flattening, suffocating you into the mattress as you feel the growl come from his throat. You can hear the way his lips curl into a grin.Â
âYou wanna say that again, princess?â
Whining, you try and arch your back further, wiggling your hips up as you try and bait Caleb into continuing, into giving you that release that was only just out of reach. But he wasnât having any of that bratty attitude tonight.Â
âBehave.â Calebâs arm tightens, and your vision swims. âI asked you a question. You need daddy toâah shit you tightened, dirty girlâ fuck you nice and full, hmm? Fuck you stupid?âÂ
A fresh wave of humiliation burns down your spine, but it doesn't matter. Youâll say whatever he wants if it means he moves, if it means he chokes you more, if it means he finally gives you what you need one more time.Â
âYes, mâclose, please daddy! Pleaseâahâlet me cum one more time.âÂ
Caleb just snaps.
His grip tightens instinctively. Not enough to hurt, but enough to make you feel it, enough to make your breath stutter, your body jolt like the sweet little thing you are under his grasp. His entire frame tenses above you, muscles coiling so tightly itâs like heâs holding himself together with sheer willpower alone. But itâs already slipping.
"Fucking," His voice breaks, dissolving into a strangled groan as he buries his face against your neck, breathing you in like a man starved. "Fuck that shouldnât be so hot, it really shouldnâtâ"
Like you haven't already wrecked him beyond repair.
Calebâs Evol comes back full force, pushing you prone against the mattress so you canât feel anything but him, the arm around your throat dropping so his hand can press against your belly instead, pinning you down as he fucks into you so deep, so hard, you swear you can feel him in your lungs. His other hand fists in your hair, yanking your head back just enough for his lips to smash onto yours, sloppy, desperate, sucking at your bottom lip as the two of you jolt with each thrust.Â
"You have no fucking idea," Caleb laughs against your lips, the words a feverish, choked-out confession, "how long I've wanted to do this to you."
Itâs almost like heâs hammering that truth into you, each thrust hitting deeper, harder, the sound of skin on skin nearly drowned out by your own sobs of pleasure.
"Calebâ"
"Say it again," he demands, not even trying to keep his composure anymore. "Say it for me, princess. Say it like you mean it."
"Daddyâ"
"Fuck."
Caleb really didn't need another kink, he really didn't need to imagine you calling him all these filthy things on top of every other sinful thing he's already imagined you doing. It must be divine punishment, because god was he into it.
Practically collapsing on top of you, Caleb's barely pulling out before grinding right back in as deep as he can get, like he can barely think to part from you even for a moment, like he needs to feel every twitch, every squeeze, every shudder of your overstimulated body. His hands roam wildly, equally greedy, kneading and groping every tender curve like heâs trying to memorize every inch of you, like heâs claiming you in ways heâs never let himself before. And fuck, youâre close.Â
Caleb notices, of course he notices, nibbling the shell of your ear as the arm around your throat tightens, the other going right back to abusing your clit as you squirt all over him with a scream.Â
âAw thatâs it, keep cumming sweet thing.â Calebâs voice is the only thing grounding you, your entire body, your vision trembling as you begin to lose consciousness. The only thing you can think of is Caleb. Caleb, Caleb, Caleb!
You donât even realize youâre screaming his name over and over again as you squirt down both of your thighs, making a mess against the already ruined sweat-slicked sheets beneath the two of you. Youâre so damn messy. He loves it.
Convulsing, walls fluttering around him like youâre made for him, a sweet temptation Caleb is so laughably weak against as he follows, humping against you like a mad dog as his breath shatters into desperate, shaky moans of your name, spilling inside you with a force that has you sobbing with pleasure.
âOh, princess,â he rasped, his tongue tracing over the tear-streaked path down your cheek before pressing a soft, almost mocking kiss to your jaw. âShh, itâs alright, donât cry. Your gege is here, your daddy will take good care of you, promise.â
Rafayel â±â
ââ the desperate
Youâre going to have to call in sick for the week.Â
Every year with the return of the tide, with the return of ebb-and-flow day, Rafayel becomes insatiable. Youâve barely been able to be able to escape Rafayelâs grasp for long enough to go to the bathroom, let alone escape enough from his insatiable fucking to walk well enough to fight.Â
Itâs never been this bad. And itâs all your fault. Being back in your arms after eight hundred years, finally remembering the way your voice sounds when it says his name and the way you fit oh so perfectly in his arms. Itâs borderline painful to spend even a minute in your absence. His very body violently rejects the notion of it as spasms of violent heat and need drives him right back into your arms again and again and again.Â
âPlease, please let me fuck you. I canât come like this, you know that.â
Rafayelâs voice is muffled against your thigh, breath hot as he presses a messy, open-mouthed kiss to your skin. His hands are clenched into the sheets beside him, trembling with the effort of keeping them off you, as you ordered. Itâs the only rule youâve given him tonight, and yet itâs breaking him.
"Rafayel," you warn, fingers buried between your thighs, working yourself open as his desperate, pleading gaze follows your every movement.
He whimpers, nodding frantically, his cock throbbing angrily where it rests against the mattress, one hand coming back to violently fist the swollen head as it leaks all over his palm and sheets. "I know, I know," his voice cracks as he drags his hand around its base, rutting into his own palm like itâs not enough, like it hasnât been enough for hours now. "But please IâfuckâI canât."
âYou can.â You spread your legs wider, letting him see, letting him watch your fingers disappear into your fluttering cunt with a slick, wet sound that has his jaw going slack, his own hips grind into the bed helplessly. âI told you what would happen if you forgot to use a condom, again.â
Rafayelâs eyes plead up into yours, big fat tears slipping down his cheeks, his head shaking against your leg as he kisses the trembling flesh. "You don't understand," he sobs, nuzzling into the crook of your knee like he can smell the orgasm building inside you, like he can taste it on his tongue already. âI needâ I needââ
"You need to learn control, Rafayel."Â
Your voice is less strict than youâd like it to be, already embarrassingly close considering all the times youâve come earlier today. And the way Rafayelâs looking up at you, begging, pleading, is really not helping.Â
Tilting your hips slightly, you circle your clit in a way that makes your eyes roll back, making sure he sees the way your poor cunt flutters all empty, the way your body clenches, desperate for something more, something bigger.
Rafayel groans, his grip on himself tightening. Still, itâs useless, his Lemurian biology physically wonât let him cum unless itâs inside his pretty little mate, his cock swollen and weeping with how much heâs holding back, the pleasure that spikes through him now nothing but a cruel, agonizing echo of the real thing.
"My love," he chokes, head falling back against the mattress, his throat bobbing as he tries to breathe past the desperate hunger clawing at his insides. "My muse, my sweet darling, please. Taste you, touch you, anything, pleaseââ
You hum, considering, rolling your hips against your own fingers as he moans, watching with wild, fevered eyes. "You wanna clean me up?"
"Yes."
The word is instant, sharp, like Rafayelâs been waiting for you to say it since the moment he first laid his hands on you tonight. Before you can even think of teasing or denying him any further, his grip snapsâboth arms wrapping around your thighs, dragging you down the mattress in one swift, fluid motion.
"Rafayelâ"
Too late.
His mouth is on you before you can protest, his tongue filthy as he sucks at your clit, licking up everything youâve given yourself, drinking in the mess between your thighs like itâs the only thing keeping him alive. Slapping your own hands away, Rafayel pauses briefly to suck them clean before diving right back into the source, moaning into your cunt, making your body seize with another orgasm before you can even process the first.
"Fuck, fuck," Your hands fly to his hair, gripping hard, but it only makes him groan, rutting against the mattress, his own pleasure reigniting just from the taste of you.Â
You try to pull away, squirming and kicking at Rafayelâs sides, his shoulders, but he doesn't even budge. His arms lock tight around your hips, keeping you there, keeping you spread for him as he eats you out like a man possessed.Â
And then he's begging again, voice wrecked, slurred with delirious pleasure, licking at your clit between words as though he really canât get enough. âPlease, please let me fuck you. I promise, mhm, promise I wonât cum inside you again.âÂ
Rafayel is still begging for permission even as he manhandles you beneath him, hesitantly parting with your cunt as he kisses up your stomach, sucking at one of your breasts as you feel the nudge of his cock against your entrance before you can even think. âPromise Iâll be good. Iâll be such a good boy.â
Fuck, you really are weak against him.Â
Using the last of your strength, you flip the both of you around, grinding down against his cock as you feel it throb, violently jumping between your thighs, the sloppy, wet sound of each movement sending shivers down both your spines. Poor thing is already ruined, body extra sensitive due to his heat, cock swollen and leaking as it begs to be inside you.Â
"You promise?" Your voice is a whisper, teasing, as you drag your soaked folds along the length of him, feeling him tremble beneath you.
Rafayel nods frantically, breath hitching, hands twitching at his sides like he wants to grab you, wants to force you down onto him, but he knows better. Knows he wouldnât survive the punishment. His lips are red, glossy with your slick, parted around little choked-off whimpers as he fights against the desperate urge to rut up into you.
"I promise," he gasps, "Please, Iâll be good, I swear, Iâll be so good for you.â
You hum, dragging your fingertips down his chest, nails scraping lightly over sweat-slicked skin, enjoying the way his breath shudders at the contact. The pain. "You say that, but you've already come inside me, what, three times now?"Â
You rock your hips again, coating his cock in your arousal, watching the way his abs twitch with the effort of keeping still. Gods, heâs so pretty like this, neglected and crying underneath you, muscles strained and glistening with sweat and cum, watercolor eyes bleary as his tears collect on the mattress as dusky pink pearls. The same rosy shade of blush that burns across his cheeks, ears, and throbbing tip of his swollen cock.Â
âThat warrants punishment, donât you think?â
Rafayel all but whines at that, head tilting back against the pillow, his throat bobbing as he tries to breathe, tries to hold on to the last fragile thread of control he has left. "IâI won't this time, I swear, Iâll be good, I just need you."
"You need me?" You lean down, pressing your lips just below his ear, letting your voice drop to a sinful whisper. "Or do you just need to fuck something, sweetheart?"
"You." Rafayelâs answer is immediate, desperate, his hands finally snapping up to grip your hips, fingertips digging into your flesh. "Itâs always you. Only you, my mate."
The admission makes your stomach tighten, heat pooling low as you let yourself sink down, just enough for the swollen head of his cock to catch at your entrance. Rafayel jerks, eyes wide, mouth dropping open around a silent moan, his grip on you tightening like heâs afraid youâll disappear.
"Oh, fuck."
"You need me, you need your mate?" You tease, rolling your hips, letting him feel the wet heat of you without giving him what he really needs.
"Yes, please, please, pleaseâ"
And then, because youâre cruel, because you love seeing him like this, you lift yourself off him entirely.
Rafayel practically cries at that, and you let him plead, let him beg, until his whole body is shaking with the need to be inside you, until his voice is raw and wrecked from crying out your name. Then, finally, finally, you sink down, dropping the entirety of your weight onto him as you both moan at the sudden pressure as your ass smacks his pelvis with a lewd slap.Â
Rafayelâs body aches up off the mattress, a wrecked, strangled moan tearing from his throat as his fingers dig into your hips hard enough to bruise. His head tilts back, chest heaving, eyes glassy and unfocused, dilated almost like a catâs, as if the feeling of being inside you after so long is too much for his mind to comprehend.
"Fucking finally."
You barely have a moment to adjust before Rafayel thrusts.
Whatever fragile restraint he had is gone, obliterated the second your walls squeeze around him. His hips jerk up in a desperate, instinctual rut, shoving himself deeper, harder, until the thick length of him is buried to the hilt inside you, and then pulled all the way out before ramming back in again. You choke on a gasp, nails digging into his chest, but he doesnât even seem to register the pain.
"More." Some inhumane warble distorts Rafayelâs voice, nails turning clawed and sharp as he thrusts up into you with more strength than any human should possess. âPerfect, perfect mate.â
Your head spins, the force of each snap of his hips making your whole body jolt. His desperation is relentless, dragging you closer to the edge far too fast, too intense, gripping onto his shoulders just to keep you from falling over as your thighs begin trembling once again.Â
"RafayelâRaf, slow down!"
"No," he whimpers, shaking his head wildly, hands tightening on your waist as if letting go isnât an option. "No, please, sorry, need this." Rafayelâs voice breaks into a sort of trill, something like whalesong, eyes fluttering shut as he drives himself up into you, starved for more, cock throbbing desperately inside you. "Donât leave me again, please.â
Your heart clenches. "Iâm here," you whisper, leaning down, pressing your forehead to his as your body moves with his, rolling your hips as you try to stay in time with his brutal pace. "Iâm right here, Rafayel."
He moans, high and broken, clutching you so tightly against him, feeling every inch of you pressed into his skin. His pace turns frantic, sloppy, body shaking beneath you as pleasure racks through him in violent waves. Heâs close, but he wonât let himself fall over the edge alone.
"Come with me," he begs, his lips brushing over yours as he pleads for it. "Please.â
And you do.
The orgasm slams through you like a tidal wave, stealing every breath from your lungs as your entire body clenches around him. Rafayel keens, hips jerking wildly as he follows, his cock pulsing inside you as he fucks his cum deep inside you yet again, stuffing you full until youâre both shaking with overstimulation.
But it still doesnât stop.
Rafayel canât stop.
Even as his body trembles beneath you, even as his whimpers turn into sobs, he keeps moving, his hips rolling into you in slow, messy grinds. His cock twitches inside your still-clenching walls, sending violent aftershocks through you both.
"Mhh sorry," he moans, lips dragging down your throat, sucking bruises into your skin as if marking you will somehow keep you tethered to him. "Did it again, canât help it. Pussy feels so nice, wants me too, always so desperate for me. Made to worship me."
You let out a wrecked, exhausted laugh, trying to lift yourself off of him, but his arms snap tight around your waist, keeping you anchored to him.
"No," he pleads, voice cracking, nuzzling into your neck as he breathes in your scent. "No, please, justâjust a little more. You owe it to me for being so mean before."
Your head falls into the crook of his neck as yet another orgasm crashes through you, ripping a moan from your throat. Rafayel shudders, gasping against your skin, completely gone, his hips jerking helplessly, overstimulated beyond the point of caring. His body is moving on instinct now, neither of you fully conscious as he keeps moving on his own, chasing another high even as it breaks him.
"Fuck, Raf...â
"One more," heâs licking into your mouth, sucking your bottom lip, too tired and uncoordinated to properly kiss you. "One more, one more."
You donât even know how many times youâve both come. The world is a haze of heat and pleasure, of wet, messy grinds and deep, instinctual thrusts, of Rafayelâs loud, unashamed moans directly in your ear between kisses, of the desperate way he clings to you, unable to bear even a second, an inch of separation.
You ride him through another, and another, until your body finally gives out, completely limp against his chest, your limbs trembling too hard to keep yourself upright any longer. Rafayel follows soon after, his movements slowing, stuttering, until heâs finally, finally still beneath you, panting raggedly, body wracked with aftershocks.
The room is finally silent except for your heavy breathing, the two of you floating between sleep and reality for what seems like an eternity.Â
"I think I might die," Rafayel croaks, voice hoarse.
You huff a weak, breathless laugh as you grumble into his shoulder. "Good, you stupid horny fish."
Sylus â±â
ââ the sweetheart (liar)
Youâre going insane.Â
Sylus promised he would finally fuck you, promised heâd finally give you what youâve practically been begging him for all week. âJust the tip,â youâd beg, whining into his neck or suckling gently against his fingers in attempts to bait him, âPlease, Sy, just the tip and Iâll stop asking.â
Technically speaking, heâs held up his end of the deal. After all, youâve already cum four times. Not that itâs ever stopped you from wanting more.Â
âWhatâs this? Are you even listening to me, sweetie?â Something jerks your head up, and youâre snapped out of your thoughts at the same time as Sylus grinds forward, humming as he pulls you closer on his lap, your thighs spread wide atop of his. âTch, first all that whining and now youâre not even paying attention to me. Iâm hurt, kitten.â
You shake your head as best you can with his thumb and forefinger still squishing your cheeks, tears from the sheer overstimulation blurring your vision as you bury your face into Sylusâs chest, chasing the mere friction.Â
The fat head of his cock slips right back out of your cunt, tapping once, twice, on your swollen clit before grinding back in with a lewd pop. One inch, two, just enough for you to feel the delicious stretch of the tip of his cock, before Sylus lifts you up higher on his lap, pulling out as the torture begins all over again.Â
You swear you can take more. It doesnât matter than everytime Sylus lines up his cock it hits your bellybutton from the outside, it doesnât matter that your hands can barely wrap around his base, it doesnât matter that even when you suck him off your jaw throbs and he can barely thrust it in halfway without you gagging.Â
âSylus, please, please justââ you whine, rutting your hips down to no avail as his firm hands render you immobile. Watching you squirm with thinly veiled amusement. âJust fuck me already!âÂ
Your breath comes out in short, stuttered gasps, frustration bubbling over into pitiful little sobs against Sylusâs skin. He shushes you, rubbing slow, teasing circles into your hips as if heâs offering you comfort. But you know better. The bastard lives for this, the way your body trembles, how your cunt clenches down hard every time he pulls out, desperate for more than what heâs giving.
âPlease.â A broken cry rips from your throat as he nudges forward again, pushing the tip back inside like he hasnât already driven you half-mad. âI can take it. Ah, I swear, I can take it.âÂ
And yet, heâs still so fucking mean.
âHmm,â Sylusâs voice drips with amusement, low and tinged with laughter as his lips graze the shell of your ear as though lost in thought. âNo.â
You whine, digging your nails into Sylusâs back with more force than necessary as you hiss out curses, âCruel, stubborn, self-assured asshole. I told you I can take it Sylâah!â
Sylus pushes himself upward, roughly fucking his swollen tip against you, ramming that delicious spot within you as your curses dissolve into mindless babbles of his name, another orgasm ripping through you as you try and match Sylusâs rhythm by grinding yourself on the rest of his cock.Â
âThatâs it,â He hums, dragging his tongue along your pulse, relishing the way it hammers beneath his mouth. He can feel how fast it beats, erratic and needy, the way your breath catches in your throat. âYouâre gonna be good and take what I give you. Because from where Iâm sitting, it looks like youâre already fucked stupid. And Iâve barely even given you anything, kitten.â
Itâs humiliating how right he is.
Your thighs tremble violently on either side of his, the ache in your muscles a dull, distant thing compared to the unbearable need twisting in your core. Desperate, you try to grind down, to force him deeper, to make him give you what you need. But Sylus just clicks his tongue, unimpressed, fingers digging into your hips as he holds you still, keeping you right where he wants you.
Sylus shifts back on the couch, pulling you down, controlling your movements with an infuriating ease, guiding you along the few inches heâs deemed fit to give you. Itâs barely anything, nowhere near enough, but even thatâjust that slow, teasing roll of his hipsâand the unbearable pressure of the thick, insistent tip of his cock is enough to make your back arch violently against him.Â
âThere we go,â he murmurs, cooing as he watches you, helpless and pliant in his lap. âNo more complaining.â
A desperate nod. Another broken whine.Â
You can feel it building again, the pressure coiling deep inside you, sharp and unbearable. Sobbing, you drop your head into Sylusâs shoulder, biting into the curve of his neck to muffle your cries, nails digging into his shoulders, chest, clawing violent red marks as Sylus shudders, eyes rolling back at the pain. Your legs are shaking too hard to do much of anything anymore, giving out as Sylus is the only thing left guiding you, dragging you toward yet another orgasm.Â
Or rather, he would have.Â
But you feel Sylus chuckle, the sound deep and sinful as it rumbles down his chest and into yours, and fear prickles along your spine. Then, with excruciating patience, he pulls out, leaving you empty all over again before tapping his throbbing cock against your clitâslow, deliberate, taunting.
âYou wanted just the tip, sweetheart.â He grins, voice a low, cruel purr as he kisses your forehead. âSo donât start crying now that itâs all youâre getting.â
Xavier â±â
ââ the munch
âThen sit on my face.â
You stare, dumbfounded, as Xavier already begins leaning back against the cushions of your bed, those big, blue eyes begging up at you in ways that make it hard to breathe.Â
Xavierâs hands tighten around your waist, fingers flexing like heâs barely restraining himself from yanking you down then and there. The heat of his breath ghosts over the sensitive skin of your inner thighs, making your pulse stammer, making every inch of you ache with want.
âXavier, I didnât actually meanâŠâ
âYou want me to prove it, right? Then Iâll do what I can to serve you well.â Heâs dead serious, you realize, still staring down at him in shock as Xavier frowns, sitting up just long enough to wrap his arms around your waist and haul you toward him, seating you on his chest as protests die in your throat. âSit.â
Biting your lip, you still find yourself hesitating. What if youâre too heavy? Or if he doesnât actually like it? You still have your underwear on, shouldnât you take it off, or does he plan on eating you through it? What ifâ
"You're thinking too much again." His voice is firm, but gentle, cutting straight through your spiraling thoughts. Before you can get another word in, he lifts you up from the backs of your thighs, guiding you forward until your knees are bracketing his head and you're hovering just above his waiting mouth.
Xavier groans, this is already better than his dreamsâjust having you above him, so close, so warmâis enough to make him lose his damn mind. His hands are keeping you steady, and when he tilts his head back to look at you again, you almost drown in the sheer hunger in his gaze.
"Please," he murmurs, breathless, sucking and kissing into your thighs like he can't believe you're making him wait so long for something he so, so desperately needs. "I really donât think I can wait much longer."
A shudder racks through you, thighs trembling as the heat between your legs grows unbearable. Xavierâs so serious, so patient, despite the raw hunger in his voice, despite the way his chest rises and falls in uneven pants beneath you. Youâd have to be cruel to deny him.Â
Slowly, you lower yourself the rest of the way, bracing your hands against the headboard as Xavier immediately pulls you the last few inches down, shoving his face up into you like heâs starving.
He might as well be because the first swipe of his tongue is so hot, so eager, that you nearly jerk away from the sudden pleasure. Not that Xavier would let you. His fingers dig into the marked-up plush of your thighs, keeping you right there as he groans into your pussy like youâre the best fucking thing heâs ever tasted.
âWaitââ Your voice is already breaking, a gasp caught in your throat as he licks into you again, slow and deliberate, like heâs savoring every second of it. He doesnât even bother pulling your underwear aside, just mouths at the fabric, dampening it further, teasing you through the barrier until it sticks to your folds and youâre a whimpering mess, gripping the headboard so tightly your knuckles ache.Â
Then he shifts, hooking a single finger under the waistband, dragging it aside just enough to give himself proper access.
The first real flick of Xavierâs tongue against your clit is devastating.
A high, broken moan rips from your throat as pleasure jolts up your spine, your thighs snapping shut around his head, suffocating him as Xavier feels like the happiest man in the world. Moaning into your cunt, Xavier pulls you down harder against his mouth like he wouldnât mind drowning in your pleasure if it meant he got to taste you for just a few seconds longer.
Youâre already cumming. Head falling backward, your lips part in a silent scream as Xavierâs tongue continues circling around your clit in that same, devastating rhythm, only letting go once youâve come all over his face. But he doesnât stop for long.Â
His tongue flicks and curls and fucks into you with the kind of dedication that makes your vision blur, that makes your whole body burn as you become more and more sensitive. And when you grind down against his mouth, desperate and trembling, he just groans in approval, encouraging you to ride his face like you need this just as much as he does.
"That's it," Xavier mumbles between licks, inaudible between your wet, sinful noises. "Don't hold back. Use me."
Itâs too much. Itâs not enough.
Your fingers tangle in his hair, pulling hard, but it only makes him grin against you, only makes him suck harder, making you gasp and sob as your thighs start to shake once more around his head. Still, he devours you, no teasing, no hesitation. Just raw, ravenous hunger.Â
"Xavierâ"
He hums in response, the vibrations sending another sharp wave of pleasure through you. Then he finally fucks his tongue deep into your cunt, curling against your walls as you clench around the hot muscle, Xavierâs nose grinding deliciously into your clit as his hands begin guiding you back and forth once your rhythm falls apart.Â
You come hard, a choked cry ripping from your throat as your body locks up, pleasure searing through every nerve. Xavier doesnât stopâdoesnât let you escapeâlicking and sucking you through your orgasm like he needs every drop, like he wonât be satisfied until youâre a writhing, overstimulated mess above him.
âAh, Xavier, seriously,â you whine, every suck against your clit now tender and overstimulated as you try and squirm away to no avail. âCanât, Xavier, canât come again!â
Crying, you finally manage to wrestle his head out from underneath youâbody still shaking, pleasure crackling under your skin like a live wireârealizing something that makes your stomach flip.
Xavier is panting, eyes half-lidded and hazy with bliss, hair fisted in your hands as the rest sticks to his forehead and pillow with sweat, letting you inch off of him as he finally breathes, heaving in deep breaths through swollen, wet lips. His whole body shudders beneath you, and when you shift, you feel itâthe sticky warmth against his stomach, the evidence of his release.
He came. Just from eating you out.
And the worst part?
Heâs still hard.
âOne more time, please?â
Zayne â±â
ââ the addicted
Uh oh.Â
This was bad.Â
Zayne has always considered himself a beacon of self-control, having grown up under the concept of restraint and caution when it came to everything from his Evol to his lifeâs work as a surgeon.Â
But even he could get addicted to having you spread out underneath him like this.Â
It had started innocently. Zayne had forgotten his lunch today, probably due to his consecutive sleepless nights, thanks to being on call for not two or three but four surgeries this week. So when you delivered his lunch to his private office like any sweet girlfriend would do, it was only natural that youâd want to see if you could help him feel more relaxed and maybe help relieve the stress that was so clearly fogging up his mind.Â
This, however, was not what you had in mind.
"Zayne, someone is going to hear us," you hiss, voice trembling, but make no move to stop him.
Zayne only hums, two fingers rubbing right up against your clit with expert precision even with your jeans still unzipped around your waist. His other hand shucks them just barely down your thigh, pressing his fingers right back in, curling against that spot that has your legs jerking against the polished wood of his desk before dragging his fingers out of you agonizingly slow.Â
"You shouldâve locked the door when you came in, then." He says like itâs the most obvious thing in the world, leaning down, his breath hot against your ear. His free hand presses against your stomach, keeping you pinned as he fucks you open with his fingers, movements slow, deliberate. "You know I donât like being interrupted."
Your head tilts back against the desk as your cries are muffles into your palm. "Zayne!"
"You were the one who wanted to help relieve my stress, werenât you?" His voice is calm, collected, like he isnât knuckle-deep inside you with his fingers glistening from how wet heâs made you already. "So be a good girl and take it."
Your breath stutters, thighs twitching as you clench around his fingers, already embarrassingly close with how well he knows your body, how pent up youâve been after not having Zayne in over a week. Meanwhile, Zayne watches you come undone with sharp, almost clinical eyes, the hunger in them barely restrained, a predator biding his time.
"Mhm, close, I canâtâ"
"Yes, you can," he cuts you off smoothly, pressing his fingers deeper, rubbing firm, steady circles over your clit. His expression doesnât change, but his voice dips lower, smiling ever so slightly as he watches you. "Come for me."
You shudder violently, hands gripping the edges of the desk as another orgasm threatens to crash over you, your body far too weak to resist the relentless pleasure.
"Zayne," you cry out, hips jerking.
He clicks his tongue, allowing you to ride out your orgasm, but not before ripping his tie off, deft, scarred hands looping through the expensive silk before balling it up and pushing it into your open mouth.Â
âWhat did I say about staying quiet?â
Your response is stifled around his tie, and Zayne feels his traitorous cock throb at the sound of your fucked out, inaudible voice, the very picture of debauchery with the slight drool smearing your lipstick, your eyes hazy with post-orgasm glow, your office button-down skewed across your breasts just enough so be can squeeze your breast right under your lacy bra.Â
He wants to ruin you even more.Â
Zayne has barely even zipped down his pants, holding up his own shirt as he bites it to keep his leaking cock from smearing pre-cum all over the cotton, before heâs desperately fucking his own fist with one hand, the other still circling your clit.Â
When the sound of voices echo from right outside his office door.Â
Your body jerks under him at the sudden noise, but Zayne doesnât stop. If anything, he doubles down, pressing his slick fingers harder against your clit, wrenching another broken sob from your throat, muffled by the tie still shoved between your lips.
âDonât you dare,â he whispers, voice low, dangerous. His free hand tightens around his cock, stroking faster, more desperate, more sloppy than youâve ever seen him. The sight alone has your walls clenching down around nothing, a fresh wave of arousal making a mess of his desk and the scattered papers on top.Â
The voices outside the door grow louder, and Zayneâs entire body tenses. Not with fear. Not with hesitation. But something that he thinks might ruin him forever.Â
âI should stop,â he murmurs, though his fingers never leave you, still rubbing circles into your overstimulated clit, dragging you higher, forcing you to ride that unbearable edge of pleasure. His teeth clench, brows furrowed as his pace on his own cock stutters, his restraint cracking with every second that passes. âI really should stop.â
You whimper, body trembling beneath him, a plea barely audible around the silk in your mouth.
âBut you love this, donât you?â His voice drops, rasping, guttural. âYou love making me a mess, love knowing that the only thing keeping us from getting caught is how good you are for me.â
Zayne never talks like this, but god, now you wish heâd never stop. His mere voice is enough to send you over the edge once again. Your moan is strangled, raw, hips lifting weakly into his touch despite the overstimulation.
The door handle rattles.
Zayne snaps, one arm shooting out as ice surrounds the handle, spears of ice crawling over the wooden frame of the door, across the tiled floor as he loses control.Â
He barely spares it a glance. Pulling the tie from your mouth, Zayne immediately replaces it with his lips, swallowing your gasp as he shoves two fingers back inside you, curling them deep, his strokes ruthless, relentless. His other hand leaves his cock only long enough to drag you forward, forcing your legs around his waist, the head of his cock nudging against your entrance as he moans into your mouth.
"Zayne, your Evolâ"
"Donât worry about me," he hums, kissing you one more time before his gaze drops, watching where the two of you meet. âYouâve done more than enough for me. Youâve always been enough for me.â And he pushes in inch by inch, stretching you open around his thick length, your body still pulsing and greedy from your last orgasm.
Zayne exhales sharply, his forehead pressing against yours as he stills, buried inside you. His fingers flex against your waist, grounding himself, keeping himself from completely unraveling.
 âBreathe,â he murmurs, voice back to the soft, low tone you know so well, the urgency melting into something reverent. He presses a kiss to your cheek, then another to your jaw, as if to soothe you through the stretch. âYouâre perfect.â
Your fingers tangle in his hair, tugging gently as you grind upward, coaxing him into going faster, into actually fucking you.Â
Zayne groans, his control fraying as he clutches you tighter, nose brushing against yours. âYou're going to be the death of me,â he whispers, lips ghosting yours in a kiss, the intimacy making your heart clench.
You can still hear muffled voices beyond the door, a stark reminder of the risk, of how dangerously close you are to being caught. But it only makes you cling to him tighter, burying your face in the crook of his neck as you whisper, âThen let me take care of you, Doctor.â
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not editing this or proofreading it. school is hard, so all you guys get is my shower thoughts for now đ this shit is so unserious. i also lost motivation for this one, so⊠have this
cw- demon!sukuna, chubby!reader, smut, mdni
imagine summoning demon sukuna on accident in your sleep only to find out heâs actually an incubi.
he stares at you with a smoldering gaze as his wets his lips with his forked tongue. heâs eager to indulge, and you are the perfect prey.
seeing this as something you can use to your own advantage, you ask him to take care of your little âproblemâ⊠the problem being that youâre a complete loser virgin.
also, this is just a dream, right? itâs not like youâre going to suffer any real life consequences! maybe your subconscious will come up with a juicy enough scenario to satisfy your urges without having to look for a real man because⊠ew.
the only dick youâre getting is in your dreams⊠that is until he reveals to you that he actually has two dicks.
âo-oh!â you gape as youâre unable to tear your eyes away from him. two whole dicks⊠his presence is suffocating in your mind.
âalready taking back your request, woman?â he asks in a low rumble. heâs definitely challenging you right now.
âno! itâs not like itâll hurt-â
your words are cut off by him removing the sheets that were covering your body. he curls a finger into the waistband of your panties, and he can feel his mouth already begin to salivate from the promise of burying his tongue so deeply into your weeping pussy until youâre writhing and begging for a break.
however, his one track mind is completely halted once he lays eyes on said slickened pussy.
âwhat- is something wrong?â you quickly ask, looking down for yourself. not a fictional dream man already making you feel self conscious about your body.
âyouâre hairless.â he notes bluntly, leaning in to get a closer inspection.
âstop that!â you bat him away, crossing your legs so he canât see you anymore.
âdonât hide yourself from me.â you swear you hear him growl as he forces your plush thighs back open. he leans in closer, and he takes a deep breath. the scent of your arousal has him throbbing in need, but heâs completely mesmerized by the fact that thereâs not any hair.
âdid you just sniff me-?â you ask, unsure if you want the answer to that question or not.
âyou smell normal.â he remarks with the same blunt tone. he then leans into you â his warm breath caresses your sensitive skin, and you feel your back arch involuntarily for him.
his tongue laps just once, savoring you as if heâs at a fucking wine tasting, and your virgin ass is already on the cusp from a little lick. you whine, trying to lift your hips as if to silently ask for more.
âyou taste perfect.â he continues with his observations before his long fingers gently caress the small bundle of nerves that only you have ever touched, and fuck, heâs so skilled with moving his hand in perfect circles until your damp cunt is making wet schlicking noises.
you nearly cum when he slips two fingers inside your inexperienced hole.
âfeels normal.â he comments, not paying any mind to how youâre nearly coming undone on his hand.
âare you fuckingâ oh sh-shit⊠giving me a doctorâs visit right now?â you manage to pant out as you look down at the demon.
âjust trying to figure out why youâre hairless.â he obliges you with an answer while casually pumping his fingers in and out, curling them to brush against a spot that makes you cry out.
âi-i shaved!â you answered him frantically, rolling your hips as you shamelessly grind against his hand. the incubis smirks at your clear desperation. he feeds on it.
âshaved?â he asks, stroking his fingers against that spot with more vigor until heâs recklessly pounding his fingers into you.
âyes- oh myâ⊠iâm gonna cum⊠donât stop. oh right there!â
âtell me more about this shaving thing. why would you do such a thing to your pretty cunt, hm?â he prompts as if heâs not relentlessly finger fucking your poor pussy.
you canât give him an answer because you literally canât think. this demon is making you see the gates of heaven with his fingers.
itâs not a minute later before youâre screaming out in pleasure, soaking his hand in your juices as you finish on his digits.
he leans his monstrous sized body over yours, still leisurely pumping his fingers in and out of your fluttering cunt as he gives you an expectant gaze. heâs still waiting on his answer.
âitâs mostly for⊠for aesthetic purposes,â you manage to breathe out while your body is still vibrating from your orgasm. youâve played around a time or two with your toy, but it had never felt this damn good.
âaesthetic purposes for who? youâre a pathetic virgin, are you not?â he asks with a low chuckle. âyou humans are so perplexing. youâre lucky i find the rest of you aesthetically pleasing.â
you feel your face warm as you look down at your body. no one usually compliments your body. being a big girl means getting compliments about your smile or your hair â never your body because itâs never good enough.
âyou do..?â you ask, unsure of if he truly meant his words.
his fingers slowly slide out of your warm channel, causing you to shudder from the emptiness.
âoh pet, i wouldnât have answered your pitiful calls if i didnât find you so tantalizing,â he slowly reaches his hand up, and he pinches your nipple, âiâll have so much fun with you,â
then, heâs gone.
you startle awake in your bed, leaning up and looking around as you pant heavily. that all felt so real. sukuna felt so real.
peaking under the blankets, your eyes widen as you can immediately see that your orgasm was real. your bedding is completely soakedâŠ
and you canât wait to try and summon him later tonight again.
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After weeks of arguing, you thought your relationship with Bucky was near the end. That was until you held something positive in your hand.
18+ CW's below the cut(angst, language, unprotected pinv in Bucky's computer chair, Bucky having a sudden breeding kink)
The door slamming in the small confines of my apartment echoed causing me to jump, doing whatever I could to keep the tears at bay. I wouldn't cry, not for him. Not for Bucky. Even though the moment he walked in the door, all I wanted to do was cry not only because of the constant arguing but because I missed him terribly. He was here physically but emotionally, Bucky was checked out.Â
"Asshole," I grumbled under my breath, eyes boring daggers into the closed door of his office/studio.Â
It had been weeks of non stop fighting yet barely speaking to each other. Heâd been gone on missions constantly so he could avoid being home. When I needed him the most, he was gone.Â
Ignoring the thoughts plaguing my existence lately, I blew out a shaky breath and forced myself to turn back towards the kitchen counter. The exhaustion had been buried deep in my bones for the last couple of weeks and I didnât think it had anything to do with working almost every day. All I wanted to do was curl in bed to sleep the rest of the evening away. Even though Bucky's words from our fight this morning before I left for work kept pestering me.Â
"I haven't thought much about the future. I'm trying to focus on getting myself better, mentally, before having kids."Â
I asked him in the middle of yet another argument where he thought this relationship was going because I made the mistake of mentioning how I felt like things were stale between us. Bucky didn't think of the future. Of our future. He only thought of the now.Â
It had been weeks of arguing. Weeks of walking on eggshells around each other. Weeks of not having sex. And weeks of keeping a secret to myself. Now that I knew how Bucky felt, I couldn't decide on if I should continue to keep it to myself or tell him which could potentially ruin everything.Â
The urge to cry burned in my throat as I snatched the bag off of the kitchen counter and locked myself in the bathroom. I stared at my reflection in the mirror for a long moment, noting the dark circles under my eyes.Â
Averting my gaze away from the mirror, I dug out the box from the bag and nearly choked on a breath when I read over the letters once more. I nearly dropped it in the pharmacy when the realization began to sink in.Â
Pregnancy Test.Â
I had missed my period last month and it was coming up on when I was supposed to get it this month but with how Iâd been feeling, I knew I wouldnât be getting my period this month either.Â
That night was a night where we had a huge blowout argument, both of us questioning if we loved another. Deep down we knew we still loved each other and it was wrong for us to question it. But both of us were stubborn so instead of admitting our love, we decided to fuck out our frustrations; Bucky dragging me to the shower with him as I wrapped my legs around his midsection, marking his neck as mine while his cock slammed into me. Afterwards, Bucky helped me to our bed and apologized for the fight as he held me against his chest. I took the morning after pill later that afternoon once we realized we werenât safe which is why I was hoping the test would be negative. Maybe the reason why I missed my period was because of all the stress Iâd been under.Â
âMight as well get this over with,â I grumbled under my breath while ripping open the box.Â
It came with two tests and I figured it would be better if I used both so after peeing on both sticks, I set them on the counter and washed my hands. These next five minutes were going to be incredibly slow so after I changed into one of Buckyâs shirts and opted out of wearing pants, I paced the bathroom.
âShit,â I clutched my chest when the timer on my phone went off.Â
As I reached for the tests which were overturned, I paused for a moment wondering if maybe I should have been doing this with Bucky.Â
âIf he wasnât such an asshole,â I muttered to the thought in my head and turned over the two tests.Â
My heart was in my ears, in my throat, and in the depths of my stomach when I saw the one word that sealed our fate.Â
Positive.Â
Both tests were positive.Â
âFuck me,â I breathed while resting a hand on my stomach, the tears finally falling.Â
There wasnât a doubt in my mind that even though we were fighting, Bucky would be fine with whatever I decided to do. It was my choice. But would he stay with me? The Avengers seemed to be all over the world, helping people who needed it, hence why Bucky had been in a mood lately. I knew his anger wasn't directly related to me but because heâd been overworked. I also knew that didnât give him the right to take it out on me.Â
Pulling up Buckyâs text thread on my phone, shaking fingers worked out a text even though he was still in the next room.Â
Me: I need to talk to you. Itâs important. Can you meet me in the living room please?Â
Bucky đ©¶: Not right now.Â
With a snarl, I snatched the tests off the bathroom counter and stormed out into his office, letting the door smack against the wall. Bucky didnât bother to look away from the book on his lap as he sat on his computer chair.Â
âCongratulations. Youâre going to be a father,â I snapped before turning to walk away.Â
The chair creaked as Bucky leaned forward to gaze down at his desk, a soft breath catching in his throat.Â
âDoll,â his vibranium fingers grazed my wrist, halting me. âWait.âÂ
âWhat? Are you going to claim Iâm faking this?â I snapped, slicing him with my gaze.Â
âI-,â Buckyâs face softened as he looked back at the pregnancy tests. âYouâre pregnant?âÂ
I let the anger fade momentarily when I heard the sincerity in his voice; the slight excitement.Â
âYeah, I guess so. I missed my period last month and Iâve been so exhausted lately. Not to mention my boobs have been really sore,â I cringed while running a hand over my chest.Â
Bucky glanced up at my breasts with a small smirk but then he let his gaze lower on my stomach where it rested for a long few beats of silence. Fear of what he would do or say weighed heavy on my shoulders causing me to remain frozen in front of him. The air in the room was thick with an unreadable tension and the ringing in my ears was deafening. I couldnât even hear our shared breathing as Bucky continued to stare at my stomach before his large hands rested there.
âHi,â he breathed. âIâm your dad.â
I dragged a finger over his cheek, those ocean eyes I adored so much gazed up at me. âIâm sorry.âÂ
âFor what, doll?â Bucky asked with furrowed brows.Â
âFor everything. For avoiding fixing things between us by working non stop.â
I rattled off which made him link fingers with me and brought me down onto his lap, both of us now sitting in his computer chair. He rested his hands over my hip, slowly raising up the hem of my shirt so he could drag calloused fingers over my skin. It was the most contact weâve had in a week and I leaned farther into him. His nose dragged over my jaw, breathing me in.Â
âIâm sorry for all of the hurtful things Iâve said. Iâm sorry for ignoring your feelings when I should have asked you up front what was wrong. Iâm sorry for locking myself away with work instead of fixing things between us,â Bucky apologized.Â
I looked deeper into his eyes, taking in the slight freckles on his face. âCan I be honest?âÂ
When Bucky nodded, I continued. âYou freaked me out when you said you never thought of our future and now that Iâm pregnant, Iâm worried youâre going to leave.âÂ
âAbsolutely not,â he cupped my cheek, dragging his thumb just underneath my eye to wipe away the stray tears. âIâve never thought about the future until you came into my life, doll. I might not express it enough, which is my fault but please know youâre in my future. Especially now.âÂ
His free hand grazed over my stomach and I nodded into the grasp on my cheek, leaving a kiss on the inside of his palm.Â
âCan you promise me one thing?â I asked.Â
âAnything.âÂ
Biting my lip, I spoke. âCan you promise not to propose to me just because Iâm pregnant? I want you to propose because you want to, not because you feel like you have too.â
Something flashed in his eyes but Bucky eventually nodded. âOf course.â
While sitting on his lap, the chair continued to creak underneath our shared weight and I sighed, ready to get off which caused him to tighten his grip on me.Â
âStay,â he breathed in the crook of my neck. âI need to show you how sorry I am.âÂ
Quickly, Buckyâs lips were on mine in a leisurely kiss. It started off like how our first kiss did, like he was testing the waters again. I nearly sobbed into the kiss when I felt the love pour out of him. Iâd been desperate to feel this way again. With his hands on my hips, he began moving me up and down his lap, the hardness of his cock pressing against the thin material of my panties. His name fell from my lips, almost immediately swallowed by his tongue as it explored my mouth; tasting me.Â
Vibranium fingers slinked up my shirt to graze over my back before Bucky tossed it over my head and down to the floor, breaking our kiss. Lust bleed in his already dark eyes as he looked at my stomach, his cock straining in his jeans.Â
âShit,â he groaned while pressing kisses along my chest. âI canât wait to see you round with my baby.âÂ
A moan fell from my lips as I exposed more of myself to Bucky, his teeth now grazing over my nipples. Along with my sore breasts, my nipples were extra sensitive.Â
âBucky,â I pulled on his shirt.Â
He immediately understood and helped me work it off. Immediately my nails raked along his chest as my lips met his again in a fiery kiss, this one more intense than the last. With a gentle tap to my ass, I raised my hips slightly so Bucky could drag down my panties with a bit of maneuvering. However with his jeans, it would have taken way more manuerving on his part to slide them off completely.Â
âWe should move to the bed,â I suggested, breathless.Â
Bucky shook his head, keeping his lips on the current mark he was working on my neck. âAbsolutely not. I want you to sit on my cock while I sit on the chair.âÂ
Feeling feisty, I pulled away from him slightly to gaze down at him. âReally? This has nothing to do with Steve making it slip the other day how he and his girlfriend did something eerily similar to this.âÂ
He rolled his eyes with a groan. âPlease donât bring up Steve having sex right now.âÂ
When he motioned towards his unzipped jeans, I let out a soft giggle and then reached my hand in his briefs to grab his cock, already so warm and hard.Â
âIâve missed this,â I whispered, gathering his precum to drag it over his head.Â
âDoll,â my name came out through gritted teeth as Bucky rested his head on my shoulder. âI need to be inside of you. Please.â
Pulling his cock out from his briefs completely, I dragged it between my folds a few strokes before sinking down on him; both of us letting out a loud groan of pleasure. It had been so long since weâve felt this so I knew we wouldnât last long.Â
âFuck,â Bucky strangled out while wrapping his arms around me to bring me closer. âI canât wait to watch your belly get round with my baby.â
I mewled in response, mouth busy with leaving dark marks across his neck while one of my hands slipped between our bodies to press circles on my clit, bringing me closer to the edge.Â
His cock twitched inside of me, indicating he was close when his hips stilled. âYou'd look so beautiful pregnant with my kid. Your belly and tits-oh shit."Â
âDonât stop,â I begged while riding him faster this time, the chair nearly falling over.Â
âDoll,â Buckyâs voice was strained so I brushed away the hair from his sweat slicked forehead. âIâm going to fill you up over and over again.âÂ
I nodded as the coil in my stomach began to ignite in a blaze of ecstasy, my orgasm about to snap.Â
âI love you,â I cried out when my body finally snapped, arousal coating Buckyâs cock.Â
With one final thrust, he followed me over the edge as he filled me with his cum and breathlessly announced his love for me as well. Falling into him with exhaustion, Bucky lifted me from the chair and carried me through our apartment towards the bathroom.Â
âAre you alright?â He questioned while still carrying me.Â
I pressed a kiss to his cheek. âIâm okay.â
Setting me on the closed toilet seat, he turned on the shower and removed his pants while we waited for the steam to bellow around us.Â
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Fratboy Gojo
fratboy gojo x f!reader- NSFW- masturbation (Satoru hehe) and mentions of previous sex w/reader- extra scenes from Took you Like a Shot
Fratboy Gojo remembers that night between you both, sure he was annihilated by that beer pong tournament, but how could he forget tasting that jungle juice off your lips? how could he forget the squelching wetness of your slick pussy on his fingers?
Fratboy Gojo is jerking off to the thought of you in the middle of a damn party, remembering how perfect you felt gripped around his length, he can't even look at another girl, not since that night. Not since he busted so deep in your perfect pussy, burying his face in your neck and inhaling that vanilla body spray you've tortured him with since high school.
Fratboy Gojo pictures those pretty nipples he'd yanked right out of that slutty little top you wore as he strokes up and down, spitting right on his cock while he leans back against the wall, whining out and wishing it was you instead. how sweet you tasted, your cock drunk eyes as he'd wrapped fingers around your delicate neck, whispering 'bend over, sweetheart, just like that'
Fratboy Gojo can't get the arch of your ass out of his head, nor the way you whined out 'f-fuck, there, there- Gojo' and he wished you'd call him Satoru, but when have you ever? He's pinching his tip now as a party rages, as women are dancing on each other and were flirting with him, trying to fuck him. But you did something- he can't even get hard for anything but the memory.
Fratboy Gojo is jerking desperately now, practically hearing the smacking sounds of his skin on yours, as his balls slapped your engorged clit, as his tip shoved into your cervix, and you'd bucked up, clinging to those sheets. 'Don't run away, baby' he whispers now, just like that night, as precum leaks out of his pretty pink tip, and he feels himself closer, closer, until his body releases, and he whimpers, yes he whimpers, as cum pulses out of his now blushed and swollen cock head, all over his hand.
Fratboy Gojo exhales in relief, cleaning up and just staring at your picture on your instagram, that's what made him like this, you look so happy, and he aches to heart it, but he doesn't, instead shoving it back in his jeans. He can't write you first, no, you need to come to him... right? His friends look at him questioningly, as he walks past more girls, to throw back a shot, trying to throw back the memories of you right with it... thinking about just how annoying you are, and how badly he wants to be inside you again
More scenes you may not see from the new story Took You Like a Shot <3 (we love a desperate Satoru hehe) set before reader tells him she's got a baby otw
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I definitely think a lot of this is really interesting now that I'm rewatching the show again to write my fanfictions...
Katara definitely had her faults (and it was kinda wrong of her to tell her older brother that he didn't love their mother as much, especially because he most likely had more memories of her alive in comparison), but she was still a 14-year-old girl thrust into adult responsibility in the middle of a war. She is misunderstood a lot of the time from a fan's perspective because (in all honesty) a lot of us watched the show as kids and either thought she was super cool or super annoying. I even only started to find Katara annoying after I was older--and that was mainly because in times when she did attempt to "solve" things or "fix" something she wasn't mature enough yet to understand how to handle it responsibly. Sokka was a lot like this too, and we see him getting blamed a lot less. Both of them were standing in as leaders in their tribe during the war, and both of them left. Sure, the Avatar showed up, but even Aang was running away from responsibility until he realized he had to face the consequences of his actions!
Past this point is a lot of me talking about how I'm addressing a lot of this in my fan works, so check it out if you're interested!
I think a lot of my thoughts on this topic stem from the fact that I want to explore the emotional and responsibility commitments the characters of ATLA have weighing on them. In the AU I'm writing, for example, the characters (set in canon) are aged up and a lot of them have more people they are attached to. Since this was a Katara-centric post, I'll also include what I have in mind for my Katara fic.
Growing Pains centers around the letters Katara sends home to her and Sokka's childhood friend, Mali. He was the oldest of the boys left behind by the tribe because he just didn't quite make the age cut, and now serves as a hunter and protector for the tribe. He was definitely upset when his friends left him, but he knew that if they were to travel with the Avatar he had to stay and protect their tribe. Katara sends her letters detailing the stories of her adventures to Mali but soon realizes that she left a lot behind at home for what was turning out to be a perilous and risk-filled adventure.
And on the Aang side of things (because let's face it, a twelve-year-old boy having childish immaturity and the weight of the world on their shoulders is NOT the best combination), I wanted to explore more of his energy and experience of learning maturity after hardship in a Book 3 and post-war fic titled Spitfire.
Spitfire centers around one of Zuko's childhood friends (an OC because I think he deserved friends he could actually trust prior to joining the Gaang) named Soru coming to terms with the fact that he never truly was against the Avatar even though he's from the Fire Nation. Escapism at its finest--truly. As Aang has to come to terms with the new reality the world is entering after the defeat of Fire Lord Ozai, he has to learn how to deal with the weight of the political aspect of society the rest of his friends (and former enemies for that matter) were already wrapped up in.
All in all, I really think exploring aspects of the characters of such a beloved show that aren't really addressed is such an interesting thing to do. I applaud all other ATLA writers on the platform (and any platform) for either just sticking to canon or coming to terms with the flaws that are either over-exaggerated or under-represented in fanfiction, but I am not one of you! I want to explore the inklings of depth we get from this fun show, especially since I'm approaching this from a perspective in which the characters are older and arguably have more responsibility on their shoulders.
I'd really appreciate it if anyone would check out my stories (will be posted on here and ao3) or at least show interest in them! I've worked really hard to put all the details together behind the scenes, so any support or showing you enjoy my works/ideas is greatly appreciated!
I just watched Avatar for the first time all the way through, and yeah, itâs great, but the one thing that surprised me was how different Katara was compared to the fandom interpretation Iâd seen and internalized before watching.
Like, before you watch Avatar, youâve seen all these memes about Katara and her mom, and based on those memes, you assume itâs one of those lines you have to get used to hearing at least once every episode. But then you watch the show and realize that she only talks about her mom maybe five or six times per season and you also realize she only brings her up when sheâs trying to comfort someone or empathize with them because thatâs how she processes her grief and thatâs one way she connects with people.

Or you hear the infamous line, âthen you didnât love [our mother] the way I didâ and you prepare yourself for one of the worst character assassinations ever only to see the scene after nearly three seasons worth of context and realize she was kinda right. Sheâs been the mother, the nurturer, the comforter. Sheâs been patient, gentle, and accommodating where everyone else has gotten to be insensible and reckless and childish, and the one moment where she allows herself to feel her grief, suddenly sheâs this evil bitch and not, yâknow, a 14 year old girl whose been thrusted into adulthood in a way no other character has. A 14 year old girl who should be allowed immaturity and raw emotion and anger instead of the patience and grace sheâs been forced to extend to every character without even the smallest amount of gratitude or even consideration in return.
Or you see all of the clips where Katara puts Aang in the âfriendzoneâ and you expect to have this wishy washy back and forth where Aang is putting his feelings out there only to have Katara neither commit nor express any clear reciprocation or rejection. Then you watch and realize that, as cute as the ship is initially, that thereâs never a point where Aang returns any comfort or grace to Katara despite her always doing this for him to the point of coddling. That for as much as Aang says he loves her, he never seems to outgrow his perception of her so he can recognize her as someone who feels grief, anger, and pain as much as she expresses love, kindness, and maturity. And instead of having moments where he learns to see her beyond her strength or compassion, youâre instead given moments where Aang forces his feelings onto her, both romantic and non-romantic, and Katara is expected to justâŠshoulder those feelings the way she shoulders everyone elseâs.
Katara is the most misunderstood character in the show. As much as people recognize the complexities of Zuko, Sokka, and Azula, they struggle to do the same for Katara because they see her struggles as somehow lesser, and therefore, less deserving of sympathy. They can handle her so long as sheâs being endlessly patient and loving and kind, but the moment her endless love, patience, and kindness runs out, sheâs suddenly this annoying bitch who canât shut up about her mother or reciprocate Aangâs feelings. But Kataraâs trauma does matter as much as anyone elseâs. No, she wasnât banished from her kingdom. No, she didnât lose her entire community, and no, she isnât the only one who lost her mother. But the difference between her and everyone else whose experienced loss because of the Fire Nation is that sheâs never given time to process her trauma. Aang gets to lean on Katara constantly. Toph gets to express her feelings to Katara, and yeah, Sokka also lost their mother, but unlike Katara, he isnât put in the position of being a substitute for everyoneâs parent. He even admits that he sees his sister as a mother. The only characters who ever comfort Katara or allow her to vent is Zuko and her father and thatâs, like, three scenes in a show where the other characters are consistently given opportunities to seek out Katara for unconditional support.
The fandom interpretation of Katara has been so bastardized that even those who havenât watched the show know her for this fanon version and not for who she is. Sheâs such an interesting character beyond her fandom limitations, though. Sheâs brave, hot-headed, and hopeful as well as gentle and caring. She wishes to learn waterbending, not only because she wants to fight in the war, but because she wants to continue her cultureâs practices because, and people often forget this, she also lost an entire subculture within her already fractured tribe. And she wants to defeat the Fire Nation both because of her deep love and empathy for other people, but also because she wants to avenge her mother. But because some of the fans have reduced Katara to a bitch who constantly whines about her mother and friendzones Aang, you wouldnât know any of this, and it sucks because sheâs the only character whose been dumbed down to such an extent.
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about love | joaquin torres x fem!reader



Pairing: Joaquin Torres x Fem!Reader Summary: Joaquin thinks taking the engagement ring he's bought for you on a mission with him is a good idea â it's definitely safer with him than it is anywhere else, right? Well... until he loses it. Warnings: Mentions of minor injuries (a bump on the head) Word Count: 4k A/N: Had this idea at work yesterday and thought it was so Joaquin so I had to write it. I'm so happy with how it turned out. Thank you for all the love on my Joaquin fics so far â I have more coming for sure, I have so many ideas in a note on my phone, as well as the requests you guys have sent in! đ
âWoohoo! That was awesome!â Joaquin yells, his feet finally hitting the ground after being airborne for what feels like hours. He misses the feeling of flying already. âDid you see me?â He asks Sam, walking towards him.
Sam has just landed not too far away from him and is already sighing at the sound of Joaquinâs voice. âSee what?â
âWhen I did the thing with the thing! And then I did the other thing and bam! He was falling out of the sky! I saw him land in the water and it did not look like a nice landing!â Joaquin explains, in probably the poorest possible terms.
For a second, Sam just stares at Joaquin. How is this the man that heâs basically picked to be the Falcon to his Cap? âNothing about what you just said makes sense, bro.â
âYeah, it does!â Joaquin insists. âI did the thing!â
Sam and Joaquin had been expecting this mission for weeks. Everything pointed towards things turning into a fight, but the location and time had been left to chance and eventually, things had turned out just as theyâd expected. They hadnât expected having to fight over the water, though. Sam was just glad things hadnât turned out the way that they had the last time theyâd fought over the top of the ocean.
âJust⊠go and get checked out by a medic,â Sam orders â the Air Force had been standing by, ready to help if Sam and Joaquin needed it. They luckily hadnât. âYou almost got hit out there. Donât forget that I saw that.âÂ
Joaquin grins to himself as he watches Sam walk off, holding his shield by his side. âCome on, that was awesome, bro! And it was an almost hit â they didnât even graze me!âÂ
âTell that to your girlfriend!â Sam yells in reply.
At the reminder of you, Joaquin pauses. The ring. His hands move to the pocket where heâd placed the ring box before the mission and his heart drops into his stomach when he finds it empty.
âNo, no, no, noâŠâÂ
Joaquin checks every other pocket in his suit, trying to keep hopeful for as long as possible, but it becomes clear very quickly that the ring box is no longer in his suit or even on his body at all anymore. This was not good⊠if it fell out during the mission⊠over the ocean⊠there was no way he was getting it back. Oh, he's so screwed.
Heâd been planning to propose to you for over a month now but it had taken him a while to find the perfect ring. Heâd scoured the internet and just about every jewellery shop in the city to find one he knew youâd love. When he and Sam left for the mission, he knew he had to take it with him. There was no other choice. What if his apartment was broken into while he was away and they stole the ring? Or worse, what if you came over to his place to get something of yours that youâd left behind and found it? Itâd ruin the surprise.
In hindsight, Joaquin realises that maybe the ring wouldâve been safer at home⊠instead of where it likely is now, sitting on the bottom of the ocean or⊠swallowed by a whale or something⊠poor whaleâŠ
The excitement at the success of the mission is long gone by the time he trudges his way to the medic, who is waiting to see him. He removes his suit slowly and carefully, all the while hoping that the ring will suddenly appear in one of the pockets, but it never does.
Later, as Joaquin sits in his hotel room, he canât tear his eyes away from the confirmation email heâd received when heâd ordered your ring. Itâd ended up being one he found online, but with a few custom alterations to make it more you. The ring was one of a kind, like heâd intended for it to be, because so were you. It made him even more disappointed that heâd never end up getting to give it to you. And now he had to fork out even more money to find a replacement. He knows nothing would ever live up to the original, even if you loved it.
His phone buzzes in his hands and your contact photo pops up on the screen, one heâd taken of you when you hadnât been looking at him. Heâs quick to accept the call, already feeling comforted by your voice the second you say hello.
âHow did it go!?â You ask, voice full of joy. âI saw some footage on the TV. You guys looked so awesome out there. Itâll never get old, seeing you flying in that suit, even if it kinda fills me with dread that something might happen to you.â
Joaquin laughs softly. âThanks, angel. It was good. We won.â
Just by his short reply you can tell that something is wrong. Even though youâre in an entirely different state and you canât see his face, the fact that heâd not excitedly recounting every single detail of the battle to you says more than his words ever could.
âJoaquin, whatâs wrong?â Youâre not one to beat around the bush.
âHuh? Nothingâs wrong, angel. Iâm just tired.â
âYouâre usually so excited after a successful mission and today you sound the complete opposite. Did something happen?â A thought enters your mind. âWait, did you get hurt? Are you in the hospital?â He hears shuffling on the other end of the line. âHave they got you hopped up on some kind of painkillers?â
Joaquin canât help but smile a little. âAngel, stop trying to put your shoes on and pack a bag at the same time. Iâm not in the hospital, Iâm in my hotel room. And Iâm not on any painkillers. The medics checked me after the mission and gave me the all clear.â
You pause. âHow did you know I was trying to put my shoes on and pack a bag?â
âCause I know you, thatâs how,â he smiles to himself. âYou get the thought in your head that Iâm hurt and youâre already looking up flights. Iâd be the same way if things were reversed, believe me.â
Back in your apartment, you kick off the one shoe youâd managed to get on and sit back down on the couch. âSo why wonât you tell me whatâs wrong?â
Joaquin sighs. How can he tell you whatâs wrong? That heâs actually devastated cause he lost the ring he was planning on proposing to you with? He canât. He hates lying, especially when it comes to you, and now heâs being forced to lie to you because of his own mistake.
âI promise nothing is wrong, angel,â Joaquin tries to make his voice sound less sad. âI really am just tired. It takes a lot out of you, fighting in a battle like that. Itâs one thing to be flying in a plane but to actually be the one flying⊠itâs a lot. Iâve still got a lot to get used to. Iâm just ready for a solid twelve hour sleep.â
âOh.â Youâre not really convinced but for Joaquinâs sake, you decide to drop it. You can already tell that youâre not going to get anything else out of him. âWell, I suppose Iâll let you get your rest then if youâre that tired. Youâre flying home tomorrow, right?â
Joaquin nods. âYeah, my flight leaves at⊠four? Six? Something around then. Thank you for calling though, angel. Really. I always love getting to hear your voice before I fall asleep.â
You smile at the way you can audibly hear the happiness in his voice. âAny time, Joaquin. Iâll see you tomorrow, okay? You get a good night sleep and Iâll text you in the morning. I love you.â
âLove you too, angel.â
With that, you end the call and Joaquin groans, letting his phone fall onto the bed and his head back onto the pillow behind him. Instead, though, his head bashes rather hard onto the wall behind the bed. He grunts in pain, a hand going to the back of his head to rub the sore spot. Yeah⊠thatâs gonna leave a bump for sure⊠he probably deserves itâŠ
Itâs a few hours later and Joaquin is finally about to give up on staying awake and finally try and get some sleep when he hears a knock on the door of his room. It takes a tremendous amount of effort to pull himself up from the bed, his whole body aching from the activity of the day. When he pulls open his door, heâs more than surprised to see Sam on the other side.
âListen, bro, Iâm way too tired to have a post-mission debrief and drinks or something, so can we just do this in the morning?â Joaquin asks, already knowing Sam would prefer it.
âThatâs not why Iâm here,â Sam says. âCan I come in?â
Joaquin stifles a yawn and steps aside to let Sam into the room, closing the door behind him. Sam takes a seat at the small table and chairs over by the window and Joaquin takes the seat opposite him, not wanting to be disrespectful by sitting on the bed like he would much prefer to do â the chairs are not padded and not comfortable in the slightest.
âWhatâs up, Sam?â Joaquin questions, leaning back against the chair and crossing his arms over his chest.Â
Sam shoves a hand into the pocket of his jacket and removes a small blue velvet box and slides it across the table towards Joaquin. He almost jumps out of his seat at the sight of it, instantly snatching it up and opening it. He sighs in relief as he sees the ring, safely inside the box, completely unharmed.Â
âBro, what the hell!?â Any of the exhaustion that was in Joaquinâs body is gone as he looks across the table at Sam. âDid you send someone to retrieve this or something? A dive team? How did you even know that Iâd lost it?â
Sam smiles a little at the younger boys excitement. âMaybe this might teach you to secure your valuables a little better, hey?â He shakes his head. âIt didnât even make it to the ocean, Joaquin. It fell out of your pocket before we were even in the air. I saw it, picked it up. Decided to keep it safe.â
He knew that if heâd given it back to Joaquin then that it would be all heâd focus on for the mission. Heâd be berating himself so strongly that heâd almost lost the ring that he wouldnât be able to give his full attention to the mission. Sam had watched Joaquin get hurt before and if he had his way, heâd never see it again.Â
âAnd it took you this long to give it back to me!? Bro, do you realise what this is? How important this is? How could you keep this from me?â Joaquinâs voice is raised but he isnât angry â heâs still angry at himself for losing it in the first place. Heâs more than grateful to Sam for keeping it safe, but now that heâd lied to you over the phone about it⊠all of that could have been avoided if Sam had given it to him sooner.
Sam sighs and leans back in his chair. âDamn, these things are uncomfortable,â he mutters. âListen, your girl sent me a text like an hour ago. She was asking if you were okay or if you were hurt, if anything went badly in the mission, cause she said she called you and you were acting all weird. I only remembered then that I even had it. I put it in my suit to keep it safe during the mission. I realised that the reason you mustâve been acting weird was cause you realised that youâd lost it.â
âAnd it took you an hour to come down two floors to give it back?â
âNah, it took me an hour of thinking to decide whether to give it back to you tonight or give it back to you in the morning, Joaquin,â Sam admits. âThis⊠this is a serious thing youâre planning on doing. You know that, right? I know itâs not my place but I just⊠I just wanted to make sure you know what youâre doing.â
Joaquin furrows his eyebrows. âOf course I know what Iâm doing, Sam.â
âThat came out wrong,â Sam huffs, then tries again. âIâm sure you have thought this out, but I just wanted to check in. Youâre a public figure now. People know youâre the Falcon, they see you coming out on missions with me. People might target you now in an attempt to get to me. Your life is in more danger than it ever has been before. Even when you were serving in the Air Force full time. You sure your girl knows that too?â
One thing that Joaquin has always been confident about with you is that you knew the risks of dating him. Youâd started dating him back when he was in the Air Force, long before he became Falcon. Throughout it all, youâd stuck by his side, even when he wondered if you wouldnât. When people started commenting on his Instagram photos saying rather unsavoury things, or leaving rude comments about you, he wondered if it would scare you away from him. But it never did. You were completely loyal to him and he knew it. If you were affected by his job as the Falcon that much, you wouldâve ended things long ago.
But you didnât. Youâd started making plans to move in with him instead, as soon as the lease on your apartment was up in two months time. Youâd come over more often, spent more nights at his apartment. Youâd made changes to your own life to accommodate his ever changing schedule. You were in this for real.
âShe knows,â Joaquin nods. âI wouldnât be asking her to marry me if she didnât.â
Sam lets out a breath. âOkay, well⊠good. I just⊠I wanted to check. Make sure you werenât rushing into things or asking her for some reason other than love.â
Joaquin smiles a little. Heâs known for a long time that Sam is full of heart but this has reminded him. Despite all the sarcastic comments and jokes they make, Sam probably has a bigger heart than Joaquin himself.Â
âEverything I do when it comes to her is about love, Sam, I promise you that.â
Not long after, Sam excuses himself and leaves the room, leaving Joaquin alone with the ring. The one he thought heâd lost forever, now sitting here on the table in front of him. Not a scratch or a lick of damage anywhere on it. Sam had done a good job taking care of it.
He crosses the room to grab his phone, still sitting on the bed where heâd left it, and sends you a quick text. Angel, you still awake?
Your reply comes almost instantly. You okay?
Joaquin sits down on the edge of his bed, eyes resting on the ring box on the table, and smiles. You got a spare thirty minutes to call so I can tell you all about how badass I was in the mission today?Â
During the plane journey home, Joaquin decides that he needs to propose sooner rather than later. He doesnât want to risk losing the ring again or something else happening to it. Itâs why, when he gets back to his apartment, he calls you and asks if he can come over to your apartment the next night â heâll bring some takeout for dinner. Heâs more than relieved when you say yes, telling him you canât wait.
But then the night comes and Joaquin is sitting beside you on your couch, your now empty takeout containers sitting on the coffee table in the centre of the room. He feels like his heart might beat right out of his chest with how nervous he is, but he thinks heâs doing a pretty good job at holding it together.
JoaquĂn takes a deep breath and turns to face you, clasping his hands together in his lap to force himself not to prematurely reach for the ring box in his jacket pocket. âSo, I think I owe you an explanation for why I was weird on that phone call two days ago.â
You look at him, eyebrows raised. âDo you? I thought you were just tired. You ended up calling me back and talking about the mission with me so I thought it was all sorted.â
âIt is sorted, but⊠well, I kind of lied to you in the first call,â he winces a little, hating to have to admit it to you even though he knows youâre not going to care once he explains everything properly. âSomething happened after the mission and it really messed with my head but I couldnât tell you about it then.â
He can see by the look on your face that youâre concerned about what heâs going to say. He hates worrying you like this and he doesnât mean to drag it out so much but heâs also so nervous about what heâs about to do that he canât help but stall.
âJoaquin, just tell me. Please.â
Your voice is small, full of a sudden fear, and just the simple act of hearing that is the encouragement that Joaquin needs to push him forward to do this, to tell you the truth and pull the ring box out of his pocket with a long, deep breath.Â
âI took this with me on the mission to make sure nothing happened to it, but after the mission I realised that it had fallen out of my suit and Iâd lost it,â Joaquin starts. His heart is in his throat at admitting all this to you and thinking about what is coming. âTurns out Sam had actually picked it up when it fell out prior to the mission. He came and gave it back to me after you texted him that you were worried about me.â
At seeing the ring box in his hands, tears immediately come to your eyes. This was what you were so worried about? You were so scared about what Joaquin was about to say, worried that some of your deep fears might be coming true, but instead it was your dreams that were coming true.Â
You watch as Joaquin slowly moves from sitting on the edge of the couch to kneeling on the floor in front of you. He flips the ring box open, finally letting you lay eyes on the ring inside of it, and a sob erupts from you.
âI was gonna try and do this in a better way,â Joaquin chuckles. âI had all these ideas for plans of things to do, but in the end I decided that I just wanted it to be between us. I didnât want anyones eyes on us while I did this, cause this is our moment.â Heâd almost booked several restaurants, even almost booked flights to Paris to propose in front of the Eiffel Tower, but this was better than any of the plans he couldâve come up with.Â
âI told Sam when he came to talk to me after you texted him that everything I do when it comes to you is about love,â he continues with a shaky breath. âYou are the love of my life, angel. You have been ever since I first met you and I intend on loving you for the rest of my life if youâll let me.â The words, which Joaquin had expected to be difficult to say when the time came, flow out of him with so much ease it surprises him. âSo, I suppose what I should finally ask, since I know youâre thinking about how much you wish I would just ask the question and stop talking about everything else⊠is⊠will you marry me?â
Youâre on the floor in front of him before Joaquin can even blink and in his next breath, your arms are wrapped around him, pressing your body to his. He laughs, a little shocked, as he wraps one of his arms around you, still holding the ring in the other hand. He can tell that youâre crying but he already knows theyâre happy tears without having to see them.Â
âSo⊠is that a yes?â He asks, grinning.
âOf course itâs a yes!â You exclaim, pulling away from him. The look on his face makes you fall in love with him all over again. The way heâs smiling at you sets butterflies off in your stomach. âWill you put the ring on me?â
You extend your hand and Joaquin wastes no time in removing the ring from the box and sliding it onto your ring finger. He canât keep smiling and his face is starting to hurt but he doesnât care. Heâll deal with a sore face from smiling forever if it means seeing you this happy. The fact that he is the reason behind this smile makes him smile even harder.
âItâs so beautiful, Joaquin,â you marvel, unable to take your eyes off of it.Â
âJust like the woman wearing it,â he says, unable to help himself. âIâm just glad I didnât actually lose it in the middle of the ocean. I was just about ready to start a dive team to find it before Sam gave it back.â
You meet his eyes and laugh, shaking your head. âYouâre an idiot, Joaquin Torres.â
âI might be, but at least Iâm your idiot,â he grins.
With a smile, you lean forward and press your lips to his, wrapping one of your hands around the back of his neck. He kisses you back instantly, arms wrapping around you to hold you close. When your fingers make their way into his hair, though, he grunts a little in pain as they brush against the bump on the back of his head. Heâd forgotten about that.
You pull away, eyes concerned. âAre you hurt? Did you get hurt on the mission?âÂ
Joaquin is quick to confirm that he isnât. âI hit my head when I was in the hotel⊠this is so embarrassing to admit,â he laughs softly. âWhen I was still sad cause I thought Iâd lost the ring, I leant back and hit the wall⊠a little harder than I intended to. I guess it left a bump⊠but it doesnât mean you have to stop kissing me, yâknowâŠâ
Thankfully, you accept his poor reasoning for his sore head and kiss him again, your fingers moving out of his hair and instead resting on his shoulders. Heâs already counting down the days till his head is fully healed â he loves the feeling of your fingers in his hair.
After that, you only break apart for air when you really need to.
âSo⊠this means I can call you my fiancĂ©e nowâŠâ Joaquin mutters against your lips.
âOh, thatâs true⊠fiancé⊠I like how that sounds,â you hum in reply.
âIâm one step closer to being able to call you my wife now,â he says, smiling.
âHold your horses, Joaquin,â you laugh, pulling away from him despite your desire to stay as close to him as humanly possible. âLet me be a fiancĂ©e for a while, okay? Now,â you lean back against the couch. âTell me all about how you lost this beautiful ring of mine and how it happened to come into Samâs possession⊠and then weâre gonna call him and thank him for keeping it safe when my fiancĂ© couldnât.â
Joaquin laughs, leaning against the couch beside you and reaching down to take your hand in his, his fingers spinning the new ring around on your finger. âYouâre never gonna let me live it down, are you?â
âOh, baby, even our great-great-grandchildren will know about this.â
#joaquin torres#joaquin torres x reader#marvel#marvel x reader#captain america#captain america brave new world#joaquin torres x you#falcon#falcon x reader
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The Distance He Keeps
Azriel x Reader
Summary: Azriel and you have been best friends for centuries. But all of a sudden he won't talk to you anymore.
words: 1.5k | Masterlist
This is a 3 part series. The other parts will be released in the next days. I hope you enjoy xx
A/N: I honestly don't know if any of y'all are still here, but I'm kinda back! This was not requested, it's kind of a try at starting to write again. I can't promise that I'm going to be really active again and for now I'm not taking requests. We'll see how it goes :)
I was late for dinner, I realized as I hurried through the front door and foyer of Rhys's townhouse and into the dining room. The inner circle, my friends, my family, were gathered around the long wooden table. All of them were already here, eating, laughing and talking. Their words didn't quite reach me. The only empty seat was my usual one, next to Azriel, who had his wings neatly folded behind his back and was engaged in conversation with Rhys. I squared up my shoulders and excused my late arrival: "Hi everyone. Sorry I'm late, work was terrible". The latter was directed mainly at Rhys. I'd have to have a talk with him later. The rest of my friends greeted me, smiling. Only Azriel didn't. In fact, he did not even look my way. My heart froze in my chest. He had been ignoring me for weeks. My breath hitched as I waited for any sort of reaction, but he resumed his conversation as if I weren't there. My eyes started burning at his disregard and I fought to regain compusure. For a split second I contemplated winnowing away on the spot. But this was our first dinner like this in weeks and I could make this uncomfortable for him too.
With long strides I walked over to Cassian, who was seated next to Nesta. I stopped next to him and he happily said "Hi Y/N". Well, this was going to be awkward. My only response was "Move". The conversations around me came to a halt as Cassian's expression turned to amused confusion. "I⊠what?". My heart hammered in my chest and heat rose to my cheeks. I did not dare look up to see if Azriel was finally acknowledging me. "I said move", I repeated. And then, quieter, so only he could hear it "Please". He stood up without conplaining and from the look I saw in Nesta's eyes, I gathered she must have said something through the bond to make him comply. I slid into Cass's seat and started to fill my plate as conversation around the table resumed as if nothing had happened. But something had happened. For 300 years I'd had my spot at this table. I had never sat elsewhere. Until today. I mumbled a thanks to Nesta and started eating, when I felt Rhys at the edges of my consciousness, stroking softly against my mental shields to be let in. In response, I slammed a second wall down and shook my head at him slightly. He didn't try again.
Dinner was tense. I tried talking to Nesta, but I was so busy not to look the way of the tall shadowsinger that several times she had to ask her questions twice before I realized she was still talking to me. Nobody addressed my entrance. Inside me, my blood was boiling, my heart a pile of glass shards. I had tried to excuse Azriel's behavior during the past weeks. Most of the time I convinced myself that he was simply too busy with work to spend as much time with me as he used to. But this was different, we were at home for Cauldron's sake. He was supposed to be different here, he was supposed to welcome me with a warm hug and hand me seconds at dessert. How could he all of a sudden not care anymore at all? I was so lost in thought that I barely registered Rhys standing up and proclaiming: "Excuse us, Y/N and I have to talk about her work". For a second, I merely stared at him, then I dropped my fork and knife on the table and stood up. It was comically obvious that this was not about my work. When we had just crossed the threshold into the foyer, I heard somebody whispering: "Azriel, what the fuck is going on?". His only response: "I need to go".
Rhys brought me into his study and shut the door. I sunk down into one of the armchairs and waited for him to take a seat. Instead, Rhys leaned against his ornate desk and rubbed his forehead as if in pain. "Y/N", he started after a while, "please, what is going on between him and you?". Pain flared through me at his mention. "Nothing". Rhys's lips twitched into a smile and then he was laughing. "You have been part of my inner circle for more than 300 years. Azriel, I know even longer. He is like my brother. Don't think I wouldn't notice that there is something terribly wrong". Tears burned in my eyes again. I knew I wouldn't be able to keep this from Rhys. Maybe it was a good thing, being able to confide in someone, I beckoned myself. Things were horrible already. This would merely be the last nail in my already finished coffin the Mother had built me. "The day after starfall I came into work", I said, a tear sliding down my cheek. Rhys came closer and knealt down in front of me. "And he just⊠wouldn't talk to me". A sob escaped my lips. Rhys took my hand in his and his face turned into a frown. "At first - I - heâŠ. I thought he was just busy, but it didn't get any better. It only⊠only got worse". Tears were now streaming down my face. I could barely see Rhys out of my teary swollen eyes. "We haven't talked in weeks. Months even. At work, he doesn't let me go on any missions and instead makes me do paperwork. We don't train together anymore. We don't spend time anymore. Worst of all, he won't even look at me and I just don't understand what I did wrong". The last sentences were almost inaudible over my sobs. Rhys gently pulled me up by my hands and drew me into a tight hug. My hands clasped around his back and I cried and cried until his shirt was wet and my eyes dry. "Do you want me to talk to him about this?", he asked softly. But I shook my head no against him. "This is bad enough as is. I don't want Azriel to withdraw even more. I thought we were best friends. But I'm so⊠alone", I croaked. Best friends. We had been inseperable for so long, I almost didn't remember a time before Azriel. His bedroom was next to mine. We worked together, trained together, ate together, spent our free time together. And now that he was gone, the better part of my life was missing. Tears threatened to well up again, but I surpressed them. Rhys hummed softly. "What do you think could have caused this?". I rummaged through my memories, trying to take ahold of the root of all evil. And was catapulted back in time to starfall.
Azriel looked radiant in his dark blue suit, the same color as his siphons. Slow music was playing and we were entwined, dancing to it, as the first souls began their journey across the night sky. My cheeks were flushed from being so close to him and was grateful for the darkness surrounding us. Instances like this one were rare. He almost never let anyone touch him, not like this, at least. "It's so beautiful, isn't it?", I asked him, "But isn't it sad how all souls have to make this journey alone?". He stopped our movements and looked away from me at the sky, as if for the first time that day. "It is. But I don't know if they are truly alone. Wherever they go, I think they will meet again". Thousands of comets rained from the sky. I smiled at his thought and hugged him a little tighter. I hoped he was right. No matter what came after this life, whatever existence the Cauldron had in store for us, without Azriel it would be meaningless. "Do you think we will see us again?" Our eyes met. The golden specks in his were glowing in the starlight and my breath hitched at the softness of his gaze. There were a million questions in this simple one. Words that had been stuck in my throat for hundreds of years, that always went unsaid, that I had been choking on for eternity. "I will find you, no matter where. I promise". My heart skipped a beat. "I love you, I always have", I wanted to say, but it only came out:"And I will find you". His wings cocooned me in, blocking out the noise and light. When he unfoldet them again slightly, we were standing on a deserted terrace under the stars. "Azriel, IâŠ" His face came closer, our lips almost touching - but there was somebody watching.
"Get. The fuck. Out. Of. My. Head. RHYSAND", I nearly screamed as I wound myself out of his embrace. "We are very good friends and I know you know almost every thought in my head. But this. This is fucking private". Now, I was seething. How could he? My innermost thoughts, my most guarded memories. I wanted to curse the Mother for putting me through this misery. "I don't know if you noticed, but all of your walls were down. You were practically inviting me in", he reasoned, eyes glinting. "Again, you can see anything you want. But not this", I repeated. My hands balled into fists at my sides. Thick iron walls fell down around my brain, shutting him out. "Interesting", he mused, chuckling to himself. "I think you should talk to him. I don't think you need to worry at all". I was already striding out, planning on fetching Cassian to channel my anger into sparring. "I love you, Rhys, you're like a brother to me. Please keep that in mind when I say go fuck yourself". A hearty laugh sounded from behind me and a whisper in my mind said: "Soon you will understand"
#azriel x reader#azriel x y/n#a court of thorns and roses#azriel shadowsinger#azriel imagine#acotar#acotar fanfic#azriel fanfic#azriel acotar#azriel spymaster#acotar writing#azriel x reader angst#azriel x reader fluff#azriel drabble
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Written for the @stmarchmm prompt âcourting ritualsâ | wc: 913 | rated: T | cw: none | tags: Steddie, Steve & Wayne, omega Steve, alpha Eddie, alpha Wayne, early relationship, asking permission to court, non-traditional relationship dynamics
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Steve hesitates on the Munsonsâ front porch. The trailer is familiar and comforting with its worn screen door and peeling paint, the warm light and organized chaos he knows to be hidden inside. This place has become more of a home to him than the house he grew up in.
He doesnât want to lose that now.
But he thinks about Eddie nervously asking him on their first real date, hiding his grin behind the lock of hair he tugged across his face when Steve said yes; the way Eddieâs eyes had sparkled in the glow of the streetlight outside Steveâs house when he dropped him off after dinner, just before he leaned in for the best first kiss Steve has ever had; how Eddie had carefully brushed his wrist along the cuff of Steveâs sweater so he could still smell Eddieâs smoky ginger scent for the rest of the evening.
Steve wants that, all of that and more. The promise of that has to outweigh the fear of screwing everything up.
He knocks on the door.
It feels like an eternity before Wayne answers, already dressed in his work clothes for that eveningâs shift. He seems surprised to see Steve, but he pushes open the screen door between them and waves him inside anyway. âDid Ed not tell you he has band practice? He should be home soon but youâre welcome to wait.â
âNo, IâŠâ Steve takes a deep breath and stuffs his hands in his jeans pockets so he doesnât start fidgeting with his jacket zipper. âI wanted to talk to you, actually, if you have a minute?â
Wayne looks even more baffled now but gestures for Steve to take a seat in one of the mismatched chairs surrounding the small dining table. He doesnât join him immediately, instead going into the kitchen and silently filling two glasses with water from the tap. When he returns, he sits in the seat across from Steve and slides one of the cups over to him.
âThanks.â Steveâs mouth is so dry that his tongue sticks to the roof of his mouth, but heâs not sure he can take a drink without spilling or choking on it. Not until he says what he needs to say. Keeping his gaze on the scratched tabletop, he begins, âI think you probably know why Iâm here.â
âI think so,â Wayne agrees. âAnd I think you know I need to hear you say it anyway.â
Steve nods, thinking of Eddieâs spicy warm scent to steel himself. âEddie said youâre not very traditional. Your family, I mean. He offered to do this because he thought I wanted to do it, and I know he wouldâve, but my dadâŠâ He cuts off his rambling with a shake of his head. âSorry, Iâm nervous. Eddie said I shouldnât beââ
âSteve. Take a breath.â
He does, then sips from his glass. Wayne doesnât say anything while Steve gathers his thoughts for a long moment. Finally, he speaks again, deliberately. âEddie is incredible. I care about him. I want to be with him.â Itâs a gross understatement but if he starts elaborating, he might never stop. âI donât give a shit what my dad thinks, but it matters to me what you think. Because it matters to Eddie. Youâre the most important person in his life. Heâs an adult and he can make his own decisions, so Iâm not asking for permission, but⊠I wanted to inform you of my intention to court your nephew.â
Wayne nods, a slight tilt of his head acknowledging Steveâs declaration. âI accept it.â
âOkay.â He nods back, taps his fingers along the side of his water glass, listening to the quiet ping of his nails on its surface. âThank you.â Itâs almost disappointing how anticlimactic this was. He had stressed over it for days, and Wayne just⊠accepts him, just like that?
Like he can read Steveâs mind, Wayne leans closer. âYouâre a good kid, Steve. You saved Edâs life, you make him happy, you take care of that pack of kids. I think youâre good for him. Mellow him out some.â
âYeah?â The compliment makes him warm from head to toe. Steve grins down at the table. âI think heâs good for me too.â
Wayne drains the last of the water in his glass. âIâdâve given my permission, too, if youâd asked. Not that you need it.â He rises from his chair with a groan. âI gotta head to work now, but youâre welcome to wait for Ed. Make yourself at home.â
Steve stands as well, accepting the handshake Wayne offers him. âThanks again, sir, I appreciate it.â
âCall me Wayne, son.â His mouth twists in a wry smile. âI have a feeling weâll be seeing a lot of each other.â He claps a hand on Steveâs shoulder, then shrugs on his coat. âMake sure youâre being safe, now. Iâm not ready to be a granddad yet.â
Wayne can surely see him blushing as Steve stammers, âNo, weâ I mean, we havenât, Iâm notââ When he realizes Wayne is fighting back his smile, he sighs, embarrassed but relieved to be in on the joke. âOkay, laugh it up.â
He waves to Wayne from the doorstep, watches the beat-up old truck kick up dust until it turns onto the asphalt outside the trailer park. The alphaâs scent lingers in the trailer, more woodsy than Eddieâs but still warm. Familiar.
Steve thinks he could get used to it.
#stmmm25#omegaverse#steddie#steddie fic#steve/eddie#steve x eddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#wayne munson#stranger things#mine
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Absolutely LOVING the use of Mabelâs slang and Fordâs slight hesitation but willingness to adapt because like. Those kids talked like old timers in the show (likely just from being around one for a while)
so you KNOW they came back when in high school with Dipper saying stuff like âIâm about to absolutely crash out on Robbie this time. MABELLL?? WHEREâS YOUR GRAPPLING HOOK-â
And Mabel saying stuff like
âSlay the house down mama!!â And âyou better WALK that DUCKâ and even Dipper is like,,
âSo from what I gather this is⊠a way of her saying essentially youâre doing really well and your outfit is so good it couldâŠkill her??? I think??â
And itâs also a lot of Ford finally caving and begging for a presentation from Dipper about their generationâs Slang. Mabel has to be Dipperâs project partner; while he initially didnât want to drag her into this, unfortunately he hit a wall in his research where he fully couldnât see the connection, and Mabel was completely overexcited to oblige.
First half of the presentation:
Very well put together slides, including graphics here and there introducing a timeline for when said slang started taking off, Dipperâs theories as to *why* certain slang rose more popularly/had longer âstaying powerâ, and even some older slang from Fordâs generation that roughly translates to something modern. âIâm gonna crash out on ___â roughly equals âyouâre cruising for a bruising, palâ
While the other half was essentially:
*disorganized bright colors and really hard to read print over graphics that donât really technically go with whatâs being talked about?? From what Ford can gather??*
The first presentation is an absolute disaster, but after finally setting aside their differences to create a better, much more comprehensive presentation, it ends up with Dipper learning a lot more lingo, too (for better or worse, you decide lmao), and having Mabel do more of the sort of explaining to Dipper (he did the graphics and visuals this time, it hurt his SOUL to see his sisterâs side of the presentation BDJSVDJ) and Mabel helped Dipper grapple with the connotations of lingo a little more. For some reason the worse it sounds it seems to mean?? Something better?? It confuses him just as much as it does Ford, and Ford really starts to see âtism signs in Dipper as he slowly realizes how much Dipper is just like him growing up (like. Dudeâs REALLY trying to understand âslayâ âyassâ âqueenâ and he gets that down and Mabelâs like âalright, beginner level over, now, what does, âslay the house down boots mama!â Mean?â
Even adding her extravagant gestures to the slang, which, to his credit, surprised Dipper because normally body language helps but like. Mabel body language and âwhat the cultureâs feelingâ arenât exactly the same thing. He couldnât, for the LIFE of him, figure out whether or not the gestures were actually includedâ as in, used by anyone other than just Mabelâ and he was in fact wrong because it turns out the gestures ARE important, but thereâs also varying LEVELS of importance.
Like the more emphasis (more âcartoonyâ/fluid/exaggerated the movement, the more the person REALLY fucking means it, no matter how little or how much emphasis they put into their voice (kinda going against his autismâs way of learning because like. Tones are?? So important I thought??? Why does this not apply here??)
Genuinely once theyâve presented all the information, and Ford gets a better idea of it, theyâre all ready to just end this information exchange,,, until Stan walks in and overhears Dipper say to Mabel, âI think we slayed this presentationâ
To which the twins simultaneously face palm as they realize they have to do the presentation again,
and Ford gets The BIGGEST grin, because, you see, Fordâs ability to process information is largely dependent on setting, generally, the mystery shack is⊠not a place heâs overjoyed about being at, but with others around it can sort of quell that sick feeling he gets and such.
So while he *mostly* understood the presentation, he didnât want to have the twins repeat themselves (especially after learning what âunc statusâ means) so when his brother, Stanley, has to endure the same chaos but WITHOUT the prior understanding Fordâs now working with, all he can do is pull the twins aside and whisper, âhow about we add something to your presentation, I think it might help Stanley understand this one term better-â
After a few slides where Stanley hardly seems to be paying any attention, Mabel clears her throat, Dipper stifling his laughter as Mabel announces loud and clear that a ânew termâ âjust droppedâ. She points the clicker super professionally, and as the slides turn, itâs the most abhorrent neon slide to ever disgrace the earth. Glitter. Fairies. Graphics that actually DO work this time though, she made sure to give more accurate visuals.
Introducing: GRUNK STATUS!
âItâs like Unc status but even more archaic!â Mabel enthusiastically declares.
Dipper is giggling so hard heâs having a full out asthma attack on the floor, and Ford finally canât contain his laughter either. Mabel starts to laugh along and Stanley looks absolutely miserable for a moment.
âAw, câmon theyâre just kids,â Ford laughs.
âYou put them up to this. I donât know how to prove it but I KNOW you did this. That stupid fucking Pun has YOUR NAME written ALL OVER IT-â
*cough/mumbles something about it being Stanleyâs name, legally, last he checked which IMMEDIATELY Started a fight, until Mabel slams her fist down.*
âAhem. Gentlemen. The presentation isnât OVER. Sheesh, talk about Crashing out,â Mabel says, SO calmly that both grunkles sink back in their seats a bit like kids in trouble for causing a ruckus at school. (Mabel and Dipper do a lil thumbs up bc hey, that was a great way to give an example of a Term, Mabel! Good job!)
âOhh⊠I get it, Crashing Out means youâre cruising for a bruising!â Stanley declares (sort of under his breath). To which Ford replies, voice equally lowered, âwasnât that a few slides back? They already said that,â as if he hadnât had the EXACT same epiphany earlier on, and was merely able to contain it before sounding âeven more uncâ (he tries, but the grammar with the slang is slightly off sometimes).
This essentially causes another argument.
This third run of their presentation took them 2 hours to get through due to Stanley and Stanfordâs arguing.
Their first two runs with only Ford took maybe 45 minutes max (not including their needing to fix said presentation).
The twins put up with Stan and Fordâs fighting because they realized itâs probably essentially exactly how they looked when they were bumping into each other the first time they were trying to create this presentation.
Some things never change.
Sibling Rivalry? Absolutely timeless.
I was thinking about how he did not have to include this photo of himself in TBOB and how it really looks like it had to be taken by someone else.
#mabel pines#gravity falls#dipper pines#ford pines#stanford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#pardon the mess of trying to get the thoughts out#itâs almost 6am#I still havenât used the sleep#so sorry to OP for hyjacking your lovely art port with my brain worms but apparently for me lack of sleep = fixation hope you donât mind
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Count Every Inch
Pairing: Friends Rafe Cameron x You
Warnings: Smut, size kink, degradation, praise kink, mild humiliation, teasing, light roughness, explicit language, friends-to-lovers, slight angst, jealousy, possessiveness
Summary: you heard rumor about rafe that he was small and cant please women so you tease him about it until he proves it to you by fucking you and making you count every inch
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You shouldâve known better than to push Rafeâs buttons. Teasing him was always a dangerous gameâone you usually played just to see how far you could go before he snapped. Tonight, you mightâve taken it too far.
It started harmlessly enough, just you and Rafe lounging in his bedroom, half-drunk from the beers youâd stolen from his dadâs stash. You were sprawled across his bed, scrolling through your phone, while he sat at the foot of it, tossing a lighter between his hands, bored out of his mind.
âYou know,â you mused, stretching your legs out, âI heard something interesting at the bar last night.â
Rafe barely spared you a glance. âYeah? Whatâs that?â
You smirked, biting your lip before delivering the bait. âSome girl was talking about you.â
That got his attention. His head tilted slightly, eyes narrowing. âWhat girl?â
âI dunno. Some random girl,â you said airily, waving a hand. âShe said she hooked up with you once.â
His brows furrowed. âSo?â
You let the words sit between you for a second, dragging it out just to see the faint irritation flicker across his features. Then, with the cruelest smirk, you delivered the killing blow.
âShe said you were small. That you canât even please a woman.â
Silence.
The lighter in his hands stilled. Your heart picked up when his jaw clenched, a muscle ticking under his skin. His blue eyes darkened, locked onto you like a predator about to pounce.
âWhat the fuck did you just say?â His voice was low, calm, too calm.
You swallowed, suddenly feeling the weight of your own words. Maybe you had gone too far. âIâI mean, itâs just what I heard,â you said, shifting slightly on the bed, feeling the heat of his stare burn into you. âI thought it was funny.â
Rafe set the lighter down with deliberate slowness, rising to his feet. âFunny?â He scoffed. âYou think thatâs funny?â
You bit your lip, suddenly unsure whether you should keep playing or start backpedaling. But it was too late. Rafe was already moving, crawling onto the bed, hovering over you. His presence alone made the air thick, suffocating.
âGuess Iâll have to prove you wrong then,â he muttered, his lips ghosting over your jaw as his hand slid down your stomach. âAnd since you think itâs so funny, youâre gonna count every fucking inch.â
Your breath hitched. His fingers traced the hem of your shorts, playing with the waistband, teasing, making you squirm beneath him.
âRafeââ
âShh,â he hushed, lips grazing your ear. âYou wanted to run your mouth, now you deal with the consequences.â
Your heart hammered against your ribs as he pushed your shorts down, his touch rough, demanding. His fingertips ghosted over your inner thighs, drawing soft shivers from you. The way his touch shifted from teasing to controlling made your head spin.
âYou know,â Rafe continued, his voice low and dark, âitâs kinda cute how you act like a little brat. But you forget who youâre dealing with.â
Your fingers curled into the sheets when he pressed against you, the sheer size of him making your breath stutter before he even pushed in. His smirk deepened at your reaction.
âStart counting, sweetheart.â
Your voice came out breathy, almost desperate. âO-One.â
Rafe let out a low chuckle, gripping your thighs tighter. âThatâs right. Keep going.â
You inhaled sharply as he pushed in deeper, stretching you, making you feel every inch he swore youâd regret doubting. The fullness was overwhelming, a slow, torturous stretch that had you digging your nails into his shoulders. Each number left your lips in a moan, and by the time you reached the last, your body was trembling beneath him.
âFuck,â you whimpered, your head lolling back onto the pillow. âRafeââ
He grinned down at you, his hand moving to grasp your chin, forcing your gaze back to him. âNah, donât start whining now,â he mocked, dragging his lips over yours without fully kissing you. âYou wanted to run your mouthânow you finish what you started.â
You moaned as he snapped his hips forward, forcing a strangled sound from your throat. His fingers traced down your body, gripping your hips as he rolled into you with an unrelenting pace. He wanted to make sure you felt him, that you understood exactly what he was proving.
âThink youâll be spreading any more rumors, huh?â His breath was hot against your ear.
You shook your head weakly, your body completely wrecked from the overwhelming pleasure. A cocky smirk tugged at his lips as he pressed a bruising kiss to your lips, swallowing your breathless whimpers.
âDidnât think so.â
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Simon Riley is a stubborn bastard
Always has been
Likely always will be
His parents told him so
His teachers told him so
His commanding officers told him so
Whether itâs how he prefers to take his teas or how he listens to no one but himself, there is no doubt that Simon Riley is a stubborn bastard, if not the most stubborn person he knows, with a long list of references to confirm it
That is, until he meets his match
Until he meets you
A firecracker housed in the body of a woman nearly an entire foot shorter than him, you were reaching new heights of strong headedness that would have left any other man reeling, but he wasnât any man
Your unshakable determination and his relentless tenacity landed the two of you in more spitting matches over the next few months than a boys locker room, often ending up chest to chest and toe to toe as two unmovable forces collided
You clearly had no qualms about the differences in stature as you never failed to step up to the man who soon was finding any reason to pick fights with you, if it meant you ended up close enough for him to smell the adrenaline radiating off of you, to see the smaller details in your irises as they flamed with untamed passion
Like they say, it takes two to tango, but eventually someoneâs toes are bound to get stepped on
It takes over half an hour after the debrief for you to convince the behemoth of a man to grow a pair, roll up his shirt and let you see his injury already, the both of you practically fuming but the time you get your hands on his pale flesh, pointedly choosing to ignore his slowly dwindling protests as you clean and dress his wound
As stubborn of a bastard as he is, as the minutes tick by and you remain in his orbit, he canât help how his gaze softens the longer your soft fingers are poking and prodding at touch starved skin no one else has even seen in years, canât help how his breath catches as he watches his favourite spitfire take care of him with a gentleness he never knew she possessed before
Heâs thankful for the mask hiding his reddened cheeks every time you lock eyes with him, your gaze checking in on him in a way your words would never dare to
Heâs almost starting to wonder if heâs been too harsh with you, if he should be more lenient, but then you go and open your mouth and say-
âYou like me.â
âFat fuckinâ chance.â Heâs grumbling all too quickly, eyes now looking anywhere but at you or your hands on his abdomen that are so close to inching towards his-
âYou definitely like me.â
âNo.â
âYes.â
âNo.â
âYes.â
âThere a fuckinâ gas leak in âere? Lucky I even bloody tolerate y-â
âOkay.â You cut him off, snapping your first aid kit shut and coming to stand, forcing him to meet your gaze head on. âIâll just go get Johnny then. He can help you finish up wit-â
âSit down.â He manages to grind out through clenched teeth, hands reaching out to pull you back in your seat, if not a little closer than you were before
âThought so.â
Two of, if not the two most stubborn people theyâve ever met, the rest of the 141 are already placing bets as to when the wedding will be, Soap willing to put a 20 down betting that youâre both too bullheaded to be the first to say I love you until youâre at the altar
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Sylus wants to comfort you but someone interrupts
thoughts thoughts random hurt/comfort scenario
[gender neutral MC/reader]
it is one of those moments where you need to search for him. fear is creeping in and your trembling voice cannot stand a call, so a few messages asking for help and his location would have to do. sylus knows you well enough to get the message, and walks towards the entrance of the base to try find you in the city's dark. he'd offer you a ride to his home if you needed to, because it is also yours in a way, especially when you need to escape, be it from physical or mental enemies.
you can run into his arms when you see himâ he'll catch you. he always will.
"let's go inside, it's cold out here. you need something warm and for me to take care of you. I can carry you inside if you want."
if you start crying against his chest, there's no way he's moving away. sylus pulls you in a relaxed embrace, wrapping you in his arms and slowly letting his head rest on yours. you needn't speak, you needn't explain. he'll take you somewhere safe and quiet, somewhere you'll get to lie against him until words come back to you.
and yet in this occasion, the comfort doesn't last for long. perhaps it was a client, or a visitor you didn't know sylus had at the base. your thoughts start racing again when you hear angry footsteps followed by a voice asking for sylus in a demanding tone. perhaps I'm exaggerating it, you think about your own perception. but then sylus sighs.
"stay here, love. I need to... clear up some things to someone. I'll be back in a minute, I promise."
he takes a good look at you before even drawing away, and for a moment you think he was going to kiss your forehead. he doesn't, and you are suddenly left alone with the dim lights of his bedroom. the flame of the scary thoughts he was blowing away starts to reignite very against your will. but that's how struggling works, right? what can you cling to now?
you catch glimpses of the conversation, which slowly turns into an argument, and realise you might actually be part of what's caused it. unable to stand the atmosphere and the thought of bringing trouble to sylus, you try to put yourself together as decently as possible and get out of the base.
when the door closes on you, you start to run. you need to get awayâ from the noise, from trouble, somewhere safe, somewhere you no longer know where. the moment sylus realises you've left, he ends the argument in the middle of it, clearly pissed off at the other person's attitude. he rushes to get his jacket and also leave, hoping to still find you near the building.
the panic and its emotions didn't let you get far, and sylus approaches you with his motorbike. it's started to rain. you don't know if you've been crying or if the sky's been doing so for you. but sylus' first reaction upon seeing you is to take off his jacket and put it over you, and his care hits you like the strongest wave against your wall of insecurity.
"I'm gonna drive you home, and I'm hoping you don't mind me staying over this time. I'm sorry things got complicated in there. you'd never, ever, cause me trouble for needing me, and I'll make sure to make that clear to others, no matter who they are. now, hold on tight. I still owe you tonight."
if there's someone you can call when things aren't right, it's him. the one whose presence makes any place feel like a safe home.
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CIRCULATING. QUEUING. SCHEDULING FOR NEXT YEAR AND THE YEAR AFTER.
Do NOT let anyone tell you that its all in your head or that you dont have it because you dont act the same or look like your in the same pain as them!!!!
I have a not so fun story! My ex and his mom (while i was dating my ex and living with him and his parents) did believe me when i said my cramps fucking hurt and that when they hit i had to lie down and just fetal position and cry. BUT the second i started talking about endometriosis they refused to believe i had it and seemingly started to downplay my cramps ENTIRELY.
I do not remember how i came to the thought of "oh this could be endometriosis" but the second i did. I started looking into it. And i was talking to my ex's mom and brought up how i was reading about endometriosis and how i think i might have it but didnt know where to begin to get diagnosed. His mom was casual about the conversation she told me how she has endometriosis and they would have her bed ridden for a solid week. In pain the ENTIRE time and she was miserable until she got her tubes tied. Im standing in the kitchen like "THAT WHAT." im horrified, this could happen to me!! But the conversation ended with something along the lines of:
"Well since you arent like how i was. I dont think you have it."
And at the time i was like "oh okay. Maybe it isnt endometriosis, just bad cramps!"
This was 4-5 years ago.
I got surgery for endometriosis last year. I have been formally diagnosed with endometriosis. Its a mild case, but that does NOT mean that my pain is invalid. It could have gotten worse. It still can get worse. The surgery is not a cure, it just helps reduce some pain. My pain is now INCREDIBLY MORE manageable than before surgery and some months it still is bad!
So please do not be quiet about this!!!
It is NOT normal to have extremely painful periods!!!
Ask questions! Talk to health professionals!
Yes its nice to talk to others who have the same health issues but do NOT let them downplay your pain!!!!
hey so itâs march now aka the beginning of endometriosis awareness month and i feel obligated to remind you that debilitatingly painful periods are not normal. if you or someone you know is ending up sick or bedridden every month, you are not crazy and deserve medical attention from someone who will take you seriously
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until i found you â ryomen sukuna.
"I figured youâd be into something more... aggressive music." you admitted, watching as he leaned back, arms crossed, listening intently. He scoffed. "What, you think I only listen to music that makes me wanna fight people?" "...Yes?" "Tch. Idiot." He turned his attention back to the music, tapping his fingers idly against his knee. "This oneâs alright. But Tchaikovskyâs better." Your jaw dropped. "Wait, you like Tchaikovsky?" "Yeah? And what?" You shook your head in disbelief. "I just... I wouldnât have guessed." "What, you think I don't have taste?" "I know you donât have taste."
Genre: Alternate Universe â College! AU;
Warning/s: Short Fic, General Rating, AFAB! Reader, Use of She/Her, Use of Female Centered Identification, Pet Names (Babe, My Love, Etc), Romance, Fluff, Humour, Love, Comfort/No Hurt, Established Relationship, Lovers, Dating, Feeling, Light-Hearted, Slice of Life, Idiots In Love, Domestic, Domestic Fluff, Teasing, Healthy Relationship, Friendships, Profanity, Swearing, Violence, Depiction of Violence, Mention of Violence, Volleyball Captain! Sukuna, Boyfriend! Sukuna, Girlfriend! Reader;
Words: 8.6k words.
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IT WAS NOT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT LIKE EVERYONE THINKS IT IS. Not all love stories were meant to be that, after all. But it was interesting nonetheless that it was how you got to know about him for the first time.
The first thing you heard from where you stood was that rather brutish hit of impact. A dull, sickening thud followed by a sharp grunt of pain.
The loud and rowdy crowd that had gathered near the school gate was already thick by the time you arrived. At the back where you stood, their voices a mix of eager whispers and nervous gasps.
A fight wasnât uncommon near the school, there were quite a lot of delinquents in your school. Even the teachers were wanting to stay clear of it. But the sheer energy in the air told you this wasnât just any fight.Â
You pushed up on your toes trying to see above all these tall figures, craning your neck to see past the wall of uniformed backs. And thatâs when you spotted him. Your eyes couldnât help but widen at the sight you were seeing now.Â
That pink haired standing tall above that guy.
His name escaped you, but youâve heard of him. His name carried weight even in places he had never stepped foot in. If anything, it brought chills to peopleâs spines. The goosebumps were always felt just at the mention of his name, just as much as fear echoes when you catch his darkened eyes. Youâve never seen him before, that was for sure. But youâve heard of him. And he had quite the name.Â
This is what your friends were talking about. This is a delinquent in the purest senseânot the kind that smoked behind the gym and skipped class for fun, but the kind who sent people to the hospital and still walked away with that damned smirk on his face. And he was smirking now.
Even with the blood bellowing down on his lip, the brutally raw scrape on his knuckles ensuing through each punch, the loose tie hanging off his collar. You could tell he just really looked bored.
That had surprised you more than anything, if you were being honest. You thought that this would at least feel like a thrill for him. Violence usually feels like that. You would have thought a delinquent would feel that way.
Yet it was like he was toying with the guy in front of him, who was hunched over helplessly, clutching his ribs and struggling to breathe at the act of being beaten down by the fiend in front of him.
And still, it was the most uninteresting thing heâs ever found himself doing. This fuschia haired young boy seemed so bored at the prospect of this kid not being able to fight back, or be interesting.
âOi.â Sukuna drawled, tilting his head as he wiped his mouth with the back of his hand. âYou done already? Thatâs pathetic.â
The other guy barely managed to lift his head before the fuschia haired kid movedâfluid, effortless, the kind of speed that made it clear this wasnât just some reckless brawl. His fist collided with the guyâs jaw, sending him staggering back into the school gate with a loud clang.
âI thought youâd have more fun fighting, huh? You were having so much fun staring at a girlâs skirt just a bit, werenât you? Come on, you prick. Get up!âÂ
Somewhere in the crowd, someone flinched.Â
Someone else muttered a curse under their breath.
And youâyou just stared at what was happening in front of you.
It wasnât just the violence that had you frozen. It was the way he carried himself, the sheer audacity in every motion. He wasnât just winning. He was playing over and over again like it was a game, even if it wasnât. Like a predator dragging out the inevitable just because he could. And he wanted to hunt, he wanted to eat the weak from down under his feet.Â
Then, his scarlet gaze lifted.
For a single, breathless second, your eyes met.
A slow, deliberate shift came about him. It was like he had known you were watching the entire time but only now decided to acknowledge it. The corner of his mouth curled upward, something dark and knowing twisting in his expression.
He had noticed you.
A strange heat crawled up your spine, a mix of adrenaline and unease. You werenât sure what unnerved you more. The fact that he had seen you, or the fact that you couldnât look away.
 His gaze had been fleeting. It was just a flicker of recognition before he turned back to his opponent. Yet, the fight wasnât over.
And for some reason, you got the feeling that this wouldnât be the last time Ryomen Sukuna looked your way. The thought made something tighten in your chest. Then all that was left was a a sharp crack.
A dull, sickening thud as his beaten opponent hit the pavement, groaning in pain. You barely had time to process it as you held your breath, before someone beside you finally snapped out of their stunned daze.
âSomeone there, please go and call the teachers to break up the fight!â
The voice jolted you back to reality. A murmur rippled through the crowdâsome of the students were panicked, the others seemed to be too excited, some already pulling out their phones and calling help, some were taking a video.Â
But that pink haired kid?Â
He just laughed.
Low, rough, full of something almost thrilled as he rolled his shoulders and cracked his neck, like the fight had barely warmed him up. The poor bastard groaned, barely managing to lift his head before slumping back down.
âYou done?â he asked, gaze dropping to the guy on the ground.
The pink haired kid merely scoffed, brushing dust off his uniform before turning away, completely unbothered. Then his gaze flickered up again. Right at you. It barely lasted only a second. But it was intentional. Like he was acknowledging you. Marking you.
And just like that, with teachers finally rushing onto the scene, that kid with the pink hair turned on his heel and walked off, slipping through the growing chaos like he hadnât just left another name to fear in his wake. You exhaled, stomach tight, fingers curled into your sleeves.
You should forget this. Forget him.
But you knewâdeep down, you wouldnât.
And something told you that he wouldnât, either.
ââââââââââââââââââ
YOU WERE SURE THAT THIS WAS GOING TO BE YOUR PEACEFUL TIME. After all, the school rooftop was supposed to be empty during lunch time. Lately, it has been your sanctuary after a long morning of back to back classes.
It was the one place you could escape to when the noise of everything became too much, when the dull routine of school felt suffocating. Up here, the wind was sharp, the air felt clearer, and for just a little while, you could be alone.
But today, someone else was here.
Someone wasnât supposed to be there.
Yet you can tell someone up there from just the slit of the door.
You quickly noticed him the moment you stepped through the rooftop door. It was a figure sprawled across the concrete near the fence, arms behind his head, one knee bent, the other leg lazily extended.
Even before you fully registered who it was, your body tensed, instincts screaming at you to retreat. But then your eyes landed on his face, and your breath caught in your throat. That kid from the fight on the first day.
Wait, what the hell? You think to yourself almost panicked. Why is he here?
You tried to remember his name for a moment, racking your brain.
Thatâs right! You gasped quietly to yourself. Itâs Ryomen. Ryomen Sukuna. Thatâs what his name was!
Even asleep, he looked like trouble. His uniform was rumpled, the first few buttons undone, his tie discarded somewhere beside him. A faint cut graced his cheekbone. It seems to be fresh, like he had gotten into another fight earlier but couldnât be bothered to clean up before crashing here. He must have been exhausted from the fight.
You should leave. You really should. The last thing you needed was to get caught in his orbit. But the thought of giving up your quiet retreat made frustration coil in your stomach. So, with careful, measured steps, you sat down a few feet away, placing your lunch in your lap and making sure to keep your movements silent. Maybeâjust maybeâif you were lucky, he wouldnât wake up.
You werenât lucky. It happened in an instant. A low breath, a subtle shift. Then, his scarlet eyes snapped open. A cold, sinking weight settled in your chest as your gaze locked with his.
It was the first time you had ever seen his eyes up close.Â
They werenât just sharp, they were dangerous. It was like a blade that glinted under the light, beautiful in its lethality. There was no haze of sleep in them, no confusion. Just silent, unwavering awareness. A predator waking to find someone in its space. His gaze flicked over you, slow and deliberate, before settling back on your face.
ââŠ...The hell are you staring at?â His voice was rough from sleep, low and edged with irritation.
You stiffened, fingers tightening around your chopsticks. Your brain scrambled for a response, something that wouldnât make this worse. ââŠNothing.â
His thick brow twitched. For a second, you thought he might call you out on your lie. But he seemed too tired to even care. Ryomen Sukuna let out a lazy scoff, stretching his arms over his head with a bone-popping crack before settling back down.
âTch. Whatever.â
And just like that, he closed his eyes again.
You blinked. That was it?
No sneering remarks? No challenge?
The tension in your chest didnât ease, but the kid didnât seem to care about your presence anymore. Like you werenât worth his energy. Like you were barely an afterthought.
The wind carried the distant sound of the school bell ringing in the distance, signaling the lunch break was halfway over. You forced yourself to exhale, slow and steady, before finally peeling open your lunch box.
Maybe, just maybe, you could still eat in peace.
But something told you this wasnât the last time your paths would cross.
And that thought was far more unnerving than you wanted to admit.
You tried to ignore him.
Tried to focus on your lunch, on the way the wind ruffled your uniform, on the distant sounds of students laughing below. Anything but the fact that Ryomen Sukuna was still there, barely a few feet away, resting like he owned the entire rooftop.
But no matter how much you tried to tune him out from the background as you ate, the weight of his presence lingered. It was like a storm cloud on the horizon, waiting to crack open.
The silence just continued to stretch through the blowing winds. Then, you felt a shift. A quiet, subtle rustling of fabric as the fuschia haired kid turned his head slightly, cracking one eye open in your direction.
âYou always eat up here?â
You faltered mid-bite. âHuh?â
His tone wasnât particularly interested in what you were doing or why you were here, but the fact that he was speaking to you at all was⊠unsettling. Everything about this moment just felt too tense, it was making your stomach spin. A moment passed before you swallowed and forced yourself to respond.Â
ââŠYeah.â You finally whispered back at him.
Sukuna made a low soundâhalf amusement, half acknowledgment. âTch. Thought so. You donât look like the type to sit with all the other idiots down there.â
You frowned, unsure whether that was supposed to be an insult or not. But he didnât elaborate. Instead, he shifted onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow now, watching you with an unreadable expression. It made your skin prickle.
ââŠWhat?â you muttered, feeling the need to break the silence.
His smirk curled slow and lazy, like he was enjoying something only he understood. âNothing.â
Liar. You think to yourself, gripping your chopsticks too hard. This kidâŠ..
His scarlet gaze stayed on you for a second longer, then, without another word, he flopped back down, arms behind his head once more. A breeze passed between you, carrying the faint scent of metal and sweat. It was as though the remnants of whatever fight he had been in earlier bristles past you both.
You should have been relieved that he lost interest, that he wasnât prying any further. But something about the way he had looked at you left an uneasy weight in your chest. As if, despite everything, despite the distance you had tried to keep. He had just decided you were interesting.
You tried to keep eating, but your appetite had taken a hit. Something about the way Ryomen Sukuna had looked at you unnerved you. It was that look, that lazy, knowing, look. It was like he had already decided something about you. And that had more than ever made it hard to focus on anything else.
The rooftop had always been your place.Â
It was your quiet retreat to begin with.Â
But now, with him here, it felt different.Â
Everything just felt like it was off-balance, occupied.
You stole a glance at him. He was still lying there, arms behind his head, eyes closed again like he hadnât just made your skin crawl a moment ago. His breathing was steady, his expression unreadable, but you knew better than to think he wasnât aware of everything around him.
He was too sharp for that. The last thing you wanted was to let him think he had you rattled, so you forced yourself to eat. One bite. Another. Just ignore him. You were going to finish with your meal soon enough.
You can go back and take a walk after this. You busied yourself with finishing the meal, letting the silence reign over. But the silence didnât last long, as you would like to hope.
âSo?â
You paused mid-chew, blinking. âWhat?â
Sukuna didnât move. âHow long are you gonna sit there pretending I donât exist?â
You stiffened. His voice was laced with amusement, but there was something else underneath it. You couldnât help but think that there was something unreadable in there. It was mysterious, it was a pandemonium you could never know escape from. It was like he remains that sphinx who wants your attention to solve his enigma.
âIâm not pretending about anything.â you muttered, keeping your gaze on your lunch.
âYeah?â A soft chuckle, low and lazy. âThen why do you look so tense?â
Your chopsticks froze in place. You werenât tense. Were you? That had made you sit still, even more frozen than before as you start to question yourself. Before you could answer, Ryomen Sukuna finally moved, rolling onto his side to look at you again. The way his sharp eyes dragged over you made your spine go rigid, and you hated that he noticed.
âTch.â he scoffed. âYou really donât talk much, huh?â
You swallowed down your irritation. âI donât see a reason to.â
That made him smirk. âSmart.â
You didnât know why, but the word felt like a backhanded compliment. Then, as if he had already lost interest, he flopped back onto his back, exhaling like he had all the intention of that being his last breath to you.Â
This whole interaction was nothing more than an afterthought to him.Â
You should have been relieved all about it.Â
But somehow, you just werenât.
Because for some reason, Ryomen Sukunaâs presence lingered in your mind like a storm you couldnât quite ignore. Even as you left that place, knowing heâd fallen back asleep, you found yourself in a quagmire of him. Your lips pressed into a line as you walked back into the hallways. You had a sinking feeling that this wasnât the last time youâd find him up here.
And you were right to feel it.Â
A few days passed.
And just as you feared, Ryomen Sukuna did in fact keep showing up.
The first time that happened, you thought it was a coincidence. Maybe he was just skipping class, maybe he liked the solitude too, though nothing about Ryomen Sukuna screamed quiet loner.
But by the fifth time, you knew better.
You pushed open the rooftop door one afternoon, lunch in hand, only to find him already thereâagain. This time, he was sitting up, arms resting on his knees, a cigarette dangling between his fingers, the smoke curling lazily in the breeze.
You hesitated in the doorway. âThatâs illegal for a kid to do, you know?â
âDoes it matter?â He glanced at you, expression unreadable. âYouâre late.â
Your grip tightened on your lunchbox. âI didnât know we had a schedule.â
A lazy smirk pulled at his lips. âWe do now.â
You didnât respond, just walked past him and sat in your usual spot, a careful distance away. Ryomen Sukuna didnât say anything after that, just went back to watching the sky, flicking ash from his cigarette with a slow, practiced motion.
It was almost peaceful, you would say. Well, almost. But even in silence, he was there, taking up space, shifting the air around him like gravity itself bent to his will. And you hated that you were starting to get used to it. It was starting to get a little bit more comfortable to you, the concept of being together.
Halfway through your meal, he spoke again. âWhatâs your deal?â
You blinked. âWhat?â
He turned his head slightly, looking at you with a lazy sort of curiosity. âYou. You always eat alone, you donât talk much, and you look like youâd rather be anywhere else.â
You frowned, ignoring the prickle of irritation at how easily he had read you. âMaybe I just donât like people.â
Sukuna chuckled, low and amused. âYeah? Same.â
He flicked the cigarette away, watching the embers burn out as it hit the concrete. Then, before you could think of a response, he leaned back against the metal chain linked fence, stretching his arms out over the metal railing, and exhaled like he had just decided something.
âGuess Iâll keep you company, then.â
You nearly choked. âExcuse me?â
Sukuna grinned, sharp and cocky. âYou donât like people. I donât like people. We can not like people together.â
You stared at him, searching for some kind of punchline, some hint that he was messing with you. But he just looked at you, completely at ease, like he had already made up his mind and your opinion didnât matter. Something about that made your stomach twist.
You narrowed your eyes. âI didnât ask for company.â
He shrugged. âToo bad. Youâve interested me.â
You frowned. Interested in him?
That wasnât something you wanted.Â
Not from Ryomen Sukuna.
Your chopsticks hovered over your lunch as you tried to pretend like his words didnât bother you, but you could feel his scarlet gaze still on youâwatching, studying. Like you were a puzzle he was in no rush to solve, content just to poke at the pieces and see what happened.
âThatâs not my problem, Ryomen.â you muttered, stabbing a piece of food a little too aggressively.
Sukuna only chuckled, the sound low and amused. âYouâre acting like you have a choice.â
That made your eye twitch. You set your chopsticks down with a quiet click, turning to finally face him. âI do have a choice.â
He smirked, head tilting slightly. âDo you?â
His confidence was infuriating. And you hated how smooth it was. You hated how he just knows heâs right. He wasnât asking you. You knew that. He was stating, dictating as if he had already decided the outcome, as if whatever you thought didnât really matter. And that irritated you more than anything else.
âYou canât just show up here and declare that weâre friends or something.â you snapped.
Sukuna scoffed. âWho said anything about being friends?â
That threw you off. ââŠThen what the hell do you want?â
He grinned, sharp and wolfish, like he had been waiting for you to ask. âDunno. Youâre interesting. Thought Iâd stick around and see what you do.â
Your stomach twisted at that.
Like you were some kind of entertainment.
God, how much you wanted to curse just now.
Your lips pressed into a thin line. âIâm not here to entertain you.â
Sukuna leaned back against the fence, completely unfazed. âGood. Thatâd be boring.â
You exhaled through your nose, trying to wick away the irritation bubbling under your skin. There was no point in arguing with him. The more you pushed, the more he seemed to enjoy it. So instead, you picked up your chopsticks and ignored him.
A breeze swept through the rooftop. Ryomen Sukuna didnât speak again, but you could still feel his presence lingering beside youâheavy, unwavering, unmoving. It wasnât a threat. Not exactly. But it wasnât nothing, either.
And deep down, you had the unsettling feeling that no matter how much you resisted, no matter how much space you tried to put between yourself and him. Sukuna had already decided. And he wasnât going anywhere. Just like that, that conversation was over.
You watched as Sukuna leaned back against the fence again, tilting his head up toward the sky, completely unbothered, like he hadnât just decided to insert himself into your space without permission. Like it was inevitable. And deep down, no matter how much you wanted to deny it as you ate your lunch, you had a feeling he wasnât wrong.
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YOU REALLY SHOULD HAVE NOT LET HIM DECIDE THIS âFRIENDSHIPâ YOU BOTH HAVE. You really should have known when to put your foot down. But you just really were not that good at getting it across as he has. This is why you were stuck in this situation. You glared as you sat there and decided that Ryomen Sukuna was an absolute menace.
Your new friend was someone who was a feared name across campus. A natural-born fighter. A troublemaker with a cocky smirk and a sharp tongue that could tear people apart just as effectively as his fists.
And yet, here he was irritating you to death with that smirk on his lips as he quipped you a new joke you absolutely hated. Here he was, sitting on the rooftop like some stray cat, drinking a strawberry milk carton and eating anpan like a child at recess.
You like to think that if he was just not making those annoying jokes and just sat down and let you watch him eat in silence, mayhaps you would be more mildly amused as he took slow sips of the sweet drink.
âYou look like youâre thinking too hard, hm?â Sukuna said, voice full of that lazy, smug amusement that made your eyes twitch.
You didnât respond. Just glared. Ryomen Sukuna, looking unfazed as always, took another obnoxiously slow sip of his strawberry milk, the straw making an irritating slurping noise that set your teeth on edge.
âLet me guessâŠ..â he continued, tapping his chin in mock thought. âYouâre wondering how the hell you got stuck with me, arenât you?â
You set your lunch down with a sharp click and gave him a look. âI wasnât wondering. I know exactly how. You forced it.â
Sukuna grinned. âDamn right, I did.â
You wanted to throw his anpan off the roof.
It was insufferable, how much he enjoyed this, how much he enjoyed riling you up. Lately, it was like it was his new favorite pastime. And the worst part? You werenât even sure if he was doing it on purpose or if he was just naturally this unbearable.
âYou could, you know.â he mused, watching you with an almost amused curiosity.
You frowned. âCould what?â
He smirked. âTell me to get lost. Put your foot down. Give me a real reason to leave.â
Your fingers clenched slightly, grip tightening around your chopsticks. He was daring you. Testing you. He wanted to see if youâd actually do it. And the problem wasâyou should. You really should. But the words wouldnât come out.
Because despite how much he irritated you, despite how much you wanted to not be in this situation⊠there was a part of you that knew: Ryomen Sukuna wasnât just a delinquent. He wasnât just a troublemaker or some violent, cocky bastard who liked to fight.Â
You knew that he was a force of nature, one that has overwhelmed you more than anything else. And trying to push him away was like trying to tell a storm to stop blowing. So instead of answering, you just scowled and turned back to your food, hoping heâd drop it.
Sukuna chuckled, shaking his head as he took another sip of his drink. âYeah. Thatâs what I thought.â
Menace. Absolute menace.
You were never getting rid of him.
And worst of all? You werenât even sure if you wanted to anymore.
You could only sigh as the long reach of his fingers lazily crinkled the carton. The contrast between his usual rough demeanor and this absurdly peaceful moment never failed to amuse you. More often than not, after these little breaks, he would stretch his legs out, lean against the railing, and pass out. Like clockwork.
And somehow, without either of you ever talking about it, it became a routine. You would sit beside him, pretending to read or scroll through your phone, only to glance at him as he inevitably dozed off, arms crossed, head tilting slightly to the side.
There were times when heâd wake up with a soft mutter. "Well, well, well. Youâre still here, arenât you?"
And you would always reply the same way. "Well, yeah. Someoneâs gotta make sure you donât roll off the roof and die."
At first, he just scoffed at you.Â
But over time, it changed.
The thanks he used to mutter under his breath became a little clearer. The hesitation in his voice lessened. And then there were the nights when he wasnât just tiredâhe was beat. Bruised knuckles, scuffed knees, a split lip that heâd wipe with the back of his hand as if it was nothing.
You had quietly started bringing bandages for him from time to time. The first time you handed him some, he stared at them like you had just offered him a kidney. It was really a pitiful sight, that look in his eyes, both of you knew that.
And yet all at once, it was interesting. That warmth you never expected to see in his eyes. One that he had never expected to feel, one that you had never expected to know.
âDonât need âem right now.â he muttered.
You just stared back. âSure you donât.â
He clicked his tongue, but after a moment, he snatched them from your hand anyway. âTch. Youâre so damn nosy.â
That continued for a while. And somehow, that too evolved. At some point, mealtime got involved. It started with him watching you eat one day, his gaze flicking between you and your food like he was debating whether or not to ask.
âYou want some?â you finally said, raising an eyebrow.
He scoffed. âNo.â
Not even five minutes later, his gaze still hadnât left your food.
You sighed. âYouâre a terrible liar, goddamn. All you eat is anpan. Of course you want this.â
âShut up.â
You ended up splitting your lunch with him that day. At times, you realized he had a bigger appetite. So you pack more and more, so you both can share more food to last you the day for energy.Â
You thought it would be a one off thing, but then you kept packing more and more every day. And then the next. And then the day after that. And somehow, before you even realized it, lunch breaks together on the school rooftop became another routine, like a picnic made for the two of you. Some days, youâd talk about random things between bites.
"Have you ever thought about how weird the school anthem is? Like, who wrote that?"
"Probably some dead guy, stop overthinking it." He snickers, eating the lunch you made for him.Â
On the other mundane days, youâd find yourselves caught up in a very serious competition over stolen playing card games he brings to school. Well, card games he finds somewhere you didnât even want to think about.
"You pocketed these off a junior?" you asked in disbelief, shuffling the deck.
Sukuna smirked, leaning back against the railing. "Dumbass lost a bet."
"You bullied a much younger kid for this?"
"Tch. He knew the stakes."
You shook your head but still dealt the cards.Â
Because at this point, why not?
So, you just go with this flow, yeah.
The feared, notorious Ryomen Sukuna was a force to be reckoned with. But somehow, between all the rooftop naps, strawberry milk cartons, late afternoon bandages, and card games, you had carved out a space in his life. And whether he admitted it or not, he didnât really mind.
And itâs even more weirdly freaky that you and Sukuna ended up sharing a habit of listening to music whenever you had free time. You had your own preferences, of course, but one day, when you passed him one of your earbuds, you were shocked to realize that he actually liked classical music.
"I figured youâd be into something more... aggressive music." you admitted, watching as he leaned back, arms crossed, listening intently.
He scoffed. "What, you think I only listen to music that makes me wanna fight people?"
"...Yes?"
"Tch. Idiot." He turned his attention back to the music, tapping his fingers idly against his knee. "This oneâs alright. But Tchaikovskyâs better."
Your jaw dropped. "Wait, you like Tchaikovsky?"
"Yeah? And what?"
You shook your head in disbelief. "I just... I wouldnât have guessed."
"What, you think I don't have taste?"
"I know you donât have taste."
He flicked your forehead. That was the day you realized Ryomen Sukuna wasnât just a brutish boy. If anything, he actually had opinions on things outside of fighting and being a bad boy. And, as it turned out, music wasnât the only thing.
One afternoon, while you were sitting on the rooftop as usual, Ryomen Sukuna casually pulled out a book and flipped it open, acting like this was completely normal. Your whole mouth was agape to the floor, you were sure of that. Â
You blinked. "You read?"
He shot you a deadpan look. "No, I just stare at pages for fun."
You rolled your eyes, watching as he turned the page with the ease of someone who had definitely done this more than once. "...Whatâre you reading?"
"Something you wouldnât get."
You raised an eyebrow. "Try me."
Instead of answering, he tossed the book at you.Â
You barely caught it before flipping to the cover.
"...Iâve never heard of this one."
"Figures." he smirked, leaning back against the railing. "You read the boring stuff."
You scoffed. "Excuse me, but I read classics."
"Exactly. Boring."
You gasped, clutching your chest in mock offense. "Oh how dare you?"
He snickers. âIâll lend you my books, donât worry. Now sit down and break my ear from your screaming.â
âOh shut up!â
From then on, lending each other books became a thing. Sometimes, it was casual. Other times, it turned into heated debates over themes, characters, and why the hell Ryomen Sukuna thought the antagonist was right.
But the best part?
Every time he lent you a book, you always found little notes scribbled in the marginsâmuch or less half of them insightful, half of them just him being an ass.
("This guyâs an idiot. Donât be like him.")
("Bet you didnât see that twist coming, nerd.")
("I already know youâre gonna argue with me about this part, so donât even start.")
And you did argue.
But somehow, you wouldnât have it any other way.Â
What started as a random book exchange had slowly become something bigger. It wasnât just about lending each other books or debating over plot twists anymore. It was the way youâd catch Ryomen Sukuna leaning back in his chair, flipping through a book youâd recommended, his brow furrowed in thought.
Or the way heâd glance at you while you read one of his books, waiting for your reaction whenever you hit a major plot point. It was subtle, but it was there. And the teasing, of course, never stopped. You caught him very obviously staring at you while you were finishing one of his books.
You turned to him, raising an eyebrow. âSomething on my face?â
He smirked. âNah, just wondering if you finally get why I was right.â
You huffed, snapping the book shut. âYouâre not right.â
âI am.â
âYou arenât!â
âOkay, okay.â he drawled, stretching his arms over his head. âLetâs hear it then, Professor. Enlighten me.â
You scooted closer, pointing aggressively at a passage in the book. âAlright, listen, in this partââ
And that was how you both spent an entire afternoon, passionately arguing over fictional characters like it was a life-or-death situation.
Then came the day you discovered something else. Something about yourself.
And all it took was another day, another afternoon spent on the rooftop.
The sun was warm but not unbearable, the breeze just strong enough to rustle your hair as you leaned against the railing. Beside you, Sukuna sat cross-legged, nursing his beloved cold and fresh strawberry milk carton like it was some kind of divine nectar.
He tilted his head back, taking a long sip before letting out a very satisfied sigh. âDamn, this never gets old.â
You side-eyed him. âYou sound like an old man reminiscing about his youth.â
âTch.â He shot you a lazy smirk. âBetter an old man than a nerd who stays up all night studying.â
You gasped, dramatically clutching your chest. âHow dare you insult my commitment to academia?â
Sukuna chuckled, reaching into his pocket before casually pulling out a deck of cards. âAlright, nerd. Put your commitment to good use and try to beat me today.â
You narrowed your eyes. âWhy do I get the feeling you cheat at this?â
He raised a brow, feigning innocence. âWould I ever?â
âYes.â
Before he could retort, the rooftop door slammed open, and a very familiar, very exasperated voice rang out. âThere you are!â
Both of you turned to see one of your classmates panting at the doorway, hands on their knees.
They pointed an accusatory finger at you. âYou skipped the study group!â
Sukuna turned to you, eyes twinkling with amusement. âOh? Nerdâs skipping study group? Scandalous.â
You groaned, rubbing your temples. âItâs one session.â
âYou never skip.â Your classmate shot a pointed glance at Sukuna, then back at you, suspicion creeping into their features. âWait. Are you guys dating?â
You froze. âHâhuh? What theââ
Ryomen Sukunaâbecause he was Ryomen Sukunaâimmediately grinned like the menace he was.
âDamn, caught in the act, babe.â he drawled, draping an arm over your shoulder. âGuess the secretâs out.â
You smacked his arm away, face heating up. âOh my god, shut up!â
Your classmate screeched. âYou didnât deny itââ
âBECAUSE HEâS AN IDIOT!â you practically shouted, shoving Sukuna off as he cackled at your suffering.
âUh-huh.â they said, clearly not convinced. âIâm telling everyoneââ
Sukuna smirked. âGo ahead. Maybe then everyone will finally stop flirting with her and I wonât have to glare at every idiot who tries.â
Your classmateâs jaw dropped. âOh weâre at that level now, huh?â
You, on the other hand, were about two seconds away from exploding. âSUKUNAââ
âTch, what? Iâm just saying what we both know.â
âWE BOTH KNOW NOTHING.â
But even as you yelled at him, he just leaned back, smug as ever, sipping the last of his strawberry milk like he hadnât just casually dropped a bomb on you and everyone with his stupid conversations.
And somehow, despite the absolute chaos he always brought into your life, you wouldnât have it any other way. You would choose to be by his side if you were given the choice. Both you knew it too.
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HE NEVER REALLY THOUGHT IT WOULD GO THIS FAR. But he doesnât think he can enjoy going to school without seeing you on the rooftop with him. This is what entices him to even want to go to school. Slowly but surely, Ryomen Sukuna began to enjoy himself in your presence like this.Â
At first, it was subtle. So subtle that even he barely noticed it. The way his shoulders loosened when he was around you. The way his scowl softened when you teased him. The way he didnât mind sharing his space, his food, his time with you.
Slowly but surely, he found himself eager for your attention more and more. It started with little things. Like how heâd glance at you first when he finally made a really good joke, just to see if you were laughing.
Or how, even in a crowded room, his eyes instinctively sought you out. How heâd nudge you with his knee when he was bored, just to get you to acknowledge him.
It was annoying. This thing he felt whenever you werenât near. But you were the only true constant he had, you were the only one that he could find as permanence in the life lived with change. The only one who hadnât turned away. The only one who didnât look at him like he was some monster.
And one day, that thought made him stop in his tracks.
You werenât looking at him badly at all.
You never had, even when you first met him.
Which made no damn sense.
One late afternoon, as you sat together on the rooftop, the sky a deep shade of blue hour in its peak indigo, Ryomen Sukuna found himself blurting out the question that had been gnawing at him for weeks.
ââŠWhy do you stay by my side?â
You looked up from your book, blinking at him. âHuh?â
âI donât get it.â He leaned back, arms crossed, frowning. âWhy the hell do you hang around me? Everyone else either avoids me or wants something from me. But you justââ
"What?" You asked him.
He scowled, struggling to find the right words. âYou just stay.â
You tilted your head, smiling slightly. âBecause youâre interesting.â
He stared at you like you had grown a second head. âThatâs your reason?â
âYup.â
Sukuna scoffed. âYou saw me beat a guy half to death on the first day.â
You laughed, shrugging. âBut didnât you do that because he was looking under a girlâs skirt?â
He paused at your words.
Suddenly, it was just a click.
Something in his chest clicked in place.
He hadnât even thought about it back then. It wasnât like he had done it to be some noble hero, he just didnât like creeps. It was as simple as that. But the fact that you saw it that way? That you had been watching him just as closely as he had been watching you?
It made his ears burn hot red.
âTch.â He looked away, clicking his tongue. âStill dumb of you to stick around for that.â
You grinned, nudging his arm. âNah. I think I made a pretty good choice. I mean there were other things that came with that.â
And damn it, he hated how much he liked hearing that.
From that moment on, something shifted between you and Sukuna. Well, at least for him. He wouldnât say it out loudânot yet, at leastâbut he had stopped questioning why you stayed. Maybe it was because you werenât afraid of him.Â
Maybe it was because you always had a way of looking at him that made him feel like he wasnât just some guy people feared. Maybe it was because, for the first time in his life, he didnât feel like he had to prove himself to someone. You were just there.
And somehow, that was enough for him.
But of course, he wasnât about to get all sappy about it.
He doesnât dare be that loud about it.
âAlright, genius.â He leaned back, arms crossed, watching you scribble some scientific formula on your massive notepad. âIf Iâm so interesting, whatâs the most interesting thing about me?â
You didnât even hesitate. âYou pretend to be meaner than you are.â
Sukuna scoffed. âTch. Pretend?â
âMhm.â You smirked. âYou act like you donât care, but you do.â
âNo, I donât.â
âYes, you do.â
âNo.â
âYes.â
âNo.â
âYou literally gave that stray cat your milk carton last week, Sukuna.â
He groaned, dragging a hand down his face. âYouâre still on about that?â
âBecause it was cute, wasnât it?â you teased, grinning. âYou wanted to take it home with you and nurse it back to health!â
âI will throw you off this rooftop.â
âNo, you wonât.â
âTry me.â
And maybe it was the way you were always ready to challenge him, the way you never backed down. Maybe it was the way you could see through him like no one else ever had. Either way, Ryomen Sukuna was doomed.
He was already losing the battle.
Because as much as heâd never admit it, he liked that you stayed.
He liked that you were there with him.
It wasnât often that Ryomen Sukuna hesitated, that in itself was a fact to everyone you dare ask. But in the moment after that as he watched you continue to scribble on your notepad, he found himself struggling even more. He couldnât help it.
He wasnât the type to second-guess himself, to stall, or to act shy about something he wanted. When he set his sights on something, he took it, it was as simple as that. But now, as he sat beside you as he watched you, hands shoved in his pockets, lips pressed together in an almost pout, he looked⊠hesitant. Which was weird.
You tilted your head. âWhatâs up with you, Sukuna? You were just fine earlier. I mean you were alright with the banter. Now youâre stunned to silence again.â
Sukuna clicked his tongue, eyes flickering away. âItâs nothing.â
âLiar.â You snickered, not looking up at him. âYou donât lose your words with it being nothing.â
His furrowed brows twitched, and you could see the gears turning in his head. He wanted to say something. You just had to be patient. ââŠIâm gonna try out for the volleyball team.â
Your eyes widened. âWait, really?â
He gave a slow nod, avoiding your gaze. âYeah. I justâŠ.thought I need a new leaf.â
âWell, thatâs good on you, Sukuna! Less fights, more rightsâbut on court!â
âHey, Iâm left handed!â
You giggled. âJust kidding.â
And now that you really looked at him, you noticed the way his fingers fidgeted slightly at his sides, how his usual sharp expression was replaced by something almost⊠uncertain. You could see the red echo all over his face and neck and even his ears.
That was when it hit you.
He wanted to ask you to come.
He wanted you there.
You opened your mouth, but before he could get a single word out, you grinned and butted in. âIâll be there.â
Sukuna blinked. âHuh?â
âYou were gonna ask me to come, right?â You nudged him playfully. âSo, yeah. Iâll be there. Front row seat.â
For a moment, he just stared at you, lips parting slightly like he was searching for some kind of response. Then, he scowled, clicking his tongue. âAnnoying.â
You laughed. âYou love it.â
âDebatable.â But despite his grumbling, you swore you saw the corners of his lips twitch into the smallest smile.
And just like that, Ryomen Sukuna, someone who never asked for anyoneâs approval had finally found something he wanted even more than volleyball. He wanted you to see him win. He wanted to see you there when he got his uniform and his place on the team.
âYouâre really cute right now, do you know that?â
âHuh? Who are you callinâ cute?â
âSukuna, give me back my notepad, you tall jerk!â
âReach for it, shorty!â
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epilogue
It started as a normal post-practice dinner, like it always was. It was normal, meaning loud and chaotic thanks to Gojo and Geto and how they roped Yuuji into their antics. The seven of you were packed into your usual corner booth, plates stacked high, drinks half-empty, and conversation buzzing with easy banter.
Then Itadori Yuujiâbless his pure, curious heartâasked the question that sealed Sukunaâs fate. âSo⊠how did you guys even meet?â
You paused, chopsticks mid-air. âOh, uhâŠ. What do you wanna know?â
The bright-eyed junior smiled at you. âAs much as you wanna say, senpai!â
Captain Ryomen Sukuna, who had just taken a bite of pork cutlet, froze. He slowly chewed, scarlet eyes darting toward you like he was calculating whether he should trust you with the answer. Big mistake.
Gojo immediately leaned in. âOh-ho-ho, now this I wanna hear.â
Geto grinned, leaning back at the white haired vice-captain. âYeah, you guys never really told us the full story.â
Megumi groaned. âAnd you really donât need to.â
Nanami merely sighed, but there was a tiny flicker of interest in his otherwise indifferent expression. You turned to your boyfriend, Ryomen Sukuna with the smuggest look ever. He turned to you, panicked and horrified.
You smirked. âWanna tell them, my love?â
His eyes twitched. âI hate when you say it like that, so damn mischievous.â
Gojo gasped, delighted. âWait. You call senpai babe, but she canât call you babe? Oh my god. This is so good.â
Sukuna shot him a deadly glare. âDo you want me to stab you with my chopsticks? And again, we talked about this. I like being called my love by my girl or nothing.â
"Aw, I'm your girl?"
"I'm going to sleep on the couch later with your stuffed bunny."
"My love, that's just cruel!" You pouted.
His eyes falters as he lowers his head and blushes. "Goddamn it."
Megumi snickers, leaning back. "Are we just gonna skip over the captain liking bunny plushies?"
Sukuna looks up. "I'm going to throttle you."
Gojo shrugged. âWouldnât be the first time someone tried.â
Geto snorted, turning to you. âAnyway, go on and spill, senpai!â
You grinned at him, leaning into the table. âWe met in middle school. Sukuna was a menace.â
Sukuna scoffed. âWas?â
âFine, is.â
Megumi muttered, âGlad weâre acknowledging it, senpai.â
Ignoring them, you continued, âThe first time I saw him, he was absolutely wrecking some guy in a fight.â
Yuuji choked on his drink. âHUH???â
Megumi sighed. âOf course senpai was a delinquent.â
âBut, butââ You raised a finger. âThe guy was really horrible. Sukuna saw that he was looking under another juniorâs girlâs skirt and it was making the girl feel horrible, so he jumped in and he started a fight.â
Gojo cackled. âOh my god, senpai! You saw him commit to beating a guy in a fight and thought, âwow, what a prince.ââ
Sukuna groaned, dropping his forehead onto the table. âI knew this was a bad idea.â
You patted his back, grinning. âHe didnât get into fights without reason, donât worry! Anyway, I stuck around. And before he knew it, he couldnât get rid of me.â
Sukuna grumbled, âYeah, you were annoying.â
âWere?â
He sighed, already regretting his entire existence. âFine. Are.â
Yuuji grinned. âSo basically⊠you made the first move?â
Sukuna sat up, looking deeply offended. âNo.â
Nanami, who had been quietly sipping his tea, suddenly added, âYou were the one who asked senpai to come to your volleyball tryouts.â
Sukuna turned to him, betrayed. âI thought you didnât get involved in stupid conversations, Nanami.â
âI donât.â Nanami set his cup down calmly. âBut this is funny.â
Gojo howled. âOh, this is fantastic. Loverboy Ryomem Sukuna actually invited senpai first! Was, he blushing, senpai?â
You grinned. âHm, he was!â
Geto smirked. âYou know what that means, right? That means you made the first move, cap!â
âI DID NOT.â
âYou definitely did, captain.â Megumi muttered.
You grinned, resting your chin on your palm. âFace it, my love. Like it or not, you love me with everything youâve got.â
Sukuna grumbled, looking away, ears red. âTch. Tolerate is a better word.â
But the way he let you lean against him, the way his fingers brushed against yours under the table?
Yeah, you grinned.
You knew the truth.
And thatâs why Sukuna was suffering.
Physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
All because you couldnât keep your mouth shut.
And he loved you for it, more than anything.
Gojo and Geto were thriving off his pain, Megumi looked like he wanted to die just by being associated with this conversation, and Nanami, the one person who usually had self-control, had actually joined in on roasting him.
Worst of all? You were sitting there, all smug and grinning, as if you werenât the reason his dignity was being publicly executed.
"Okay, okay." Yuuji laughed, leaning forward eagerly. "So when did you two actually start dating? Who said I love you first?"
Sukuna groaned, rubbing his temples. "Why are we still talking about this?"
"Because it's hilarious, captain!" Gojo said, sipping his drink with a shit-eating grin.
"You guys are acting like this is some historical event!" Sukuna muttered.
"You being in a relationship is basically a historical event, you know that, right?" Megumi deadpanned.
Nanami somewhat agreed. âItâs hard to know how to keep you settled, captain.â
âThatâs going to earn you both more burpees!â
You giggled, reaching over to flick Sukunaâs ear. âCome on, tell them how you said it first.â
Sukuna scowled at you. âI didnât say it first.â
"You so did, huh?" Geto smirked, drumming his fingers on the table.
Sukuna shot him a murderous glare. "No, I didn't."
"You absolutely did." you chirped, grinning.
Gojo perked up like he lived for this drama. "Wait, wait, waitâso the captain said I love you first?! Oh, this is damn gold."
Nanami took a sip of his drink, looking mildly interested. "How did this happen?"
Sukuna crossed his arms, looking like he wanted to crawl out of his own skin. "It was not a confession. It wasâ"
"A moment of weakness?" Megumi guessed dryly.
"A lapse in judgment?" Geto suggested.
"A divine miracle?" Gojo threw in, wiggling his eyebrows.
Sukuna clicked his tongue, looking at you like you were his final lifeline. He then looked at the other boys. âMultiple running laps on Monday.â
You, of course, were having too much fun. "Oh, it was so cute."
Sukuna groaned. "I swear to godâ"
"Okay, okay!" You laughed, waving your hand. "I'll tell the story."
Sukuna immediately collapsed onto the table in defeat. âJesus Christââ
"So, one night after one of his games, Sukuna was exhaustedââ
"As one is after carrying an entire team, mind you." Sukuna muttered.
You ignored him. "And he was so tired, he wasnât really thinking before he spoke."
Gojo gasped dramatically. "The captain? Not thinking before he speaks? Shocking!"
You continued, undeterred. "So we were just sitting there, and I handed him a drink, and he just sighs and goes, âMan, I love you.â"
An echo of sudden silence.
Then the entire table erupted into chaos.
"NO. WAY." Yuuji nearly choked on his drink.
"AND IT WAS CASUAL? JUST LIKE THAT?" Gojo cackled.
"Disgusting." Megumi muttered, sipping his drink like he wasnât deeply entertained.
Geto wiped a fake tear from his eye. "Damn. Our boy is whipped."
Sukuna, face fully buried in his hands, groaned. "I was tired!"
Nanami, who was enjoying himself far too much, nodded. "Ah. So it was an accidental confession."
You giggled, patting Sukunaâs back. "And then when I stared at him, all shocked, he tried to walk it back and was like, âWait, no, I didnât meanââ"
Sukuna slammed his forehead on the table. "I HATE YOU."
"Love you too, my love." you cooed sweetly, kissing his cheek.
Gojo nearly fell out of his chair laughing. "OH MY GOD, CAPTAIN! YOUâRE A LOSER."
Yuuji wiped tears from his eyes. "Man, I love this."
Megumi sighed. "This has been the worst meal of my life."
"Best meal of my life." Geto grinned.
Nanami sighed. "This shit makes me want a girlfriend."
Sukuna looked up, glaring at everyone. "I regret ever meeting you all."
"You love us." Gojo said, waving him off.
"No. I love her. Even if she's a fucking menace." Sukuna jabbed a finger at you. "I tolerate the rest of you."
You beamed, leaning into his side. "See? That was an intentional confession."
Sukuna groaned as the table roared with laughter again. âWhy are we going through life like this?â
You smiled at him, leaning in and kissing his cheek. "I love you!"
Okay, maybe tonight was worth it.
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Something More
Summary: Bucky Barnes x fe!Reader -> Since you met Bucky, he's always looked at you with...something more. And you never knew why. One day, you finally find out what he means by it.
Disclaimer: mentions of cheating and swearing, revenge on cheating ex. Bucky deals with said cheating ex. Descriptions of naked/slightly naked Bucky though nothing too explicit. Fluff, found family vibes, Sam and Bucky bickering. Use of nicknames (specifically 'doll'). Not Proof Read.
âWhat are you still doing here?â
Bucky had just passed your lab. As far as he was aware, you should have left work hours ago. You should have been getting ready, listening to whatever playlist youâd compiled with Wanda, picking your outfit with that perfect smile on your face as you looked in your mirror to fix your lipstick.Â
So why were you still here?
You looked up, looking for him and where his voice had travelled from. Your gaze found him standing back in the doorway. The lights behind him were dimer than they usually would be. After the clocks turned six in the evening, they did that to save on energy â even then, theyâd only come on if they sensed someone. Before heâd walked down the corridor, the only lights on had been inside your lab with you.Â
âOh, hey.â You turned back to your work. âJust wanted to get some things finished before tomorrow. Hoping Tony might give me half a day.â
Bucky felt himself chuckle as he walked inside. âYou do the work of three people. If you asked him, heâd tell you to take a week off.â
You chuckled because you knew it to be true. But you also didnât like taking too much time away from work. You actually liked your job and the people you worked with. Some more than most.Â
âBut that still doesnât answer my question. Shouldnât you be on your date right about now?â
Bucky looked at his watch. 9:20pm.Â
âOh, uh,â You tried your best to avoid his gaze as you looked away from him. âYeahâŠyeah, probably.â
Bucky studied you. And you could feel him doing so. The way he stood there, clipboard loose in his hand and by his side, his eyes fixed on your body, noticing how your shoulders tensed, how you tried your best to hide away from him despite you both being the only two in the room.Â
âWhat happened?â
âNothing. Everythingâs fine.â
Bucky shook his head and pulled up one of your rolling stools until he was sitting down and facing you. âWhat happened?â
âIt doesnât matter-â
âYes, it does.â
You forced a smile, still not looking at him but rather at whatever contraption youâd pulled apart only to rebuild again.Â
âNo, it-â
âIt does because you never hide anything from me.â
âMostly because I canât,â you muttered to yourself but by the soft chuckle from Bucky, heâd heard you.Â
âWhat is it? Whatâs going on? Why are you still here?â
It took you a moment but eventually you put down the motherboard and finally looked at him. âIf I tell you, it doesnât leave this room. I donât need the questions and I donât need a plethora of super-humans marching or flying down to defend my honour.â
He didnât like where the conversation was heading but Bucky reluctantly agreed.Â
âIâm not on the date, but Matthew is.âÂ
Matthew was your boyfriend of three years. Bucky had met him a handful of times and he seemed nice enough, but there was always something Bucky didnât like about him. How he talked, how he walked, how he seemingly didnât realise how lucky he was to have you.Â
âWhat are you-â
With your hands folded in your lap, you continued to explain. âThe date that I told Wanda about, the one that was meant to be for tonight?âÂ
Bucky nodded.Â
âWell, what I thought was meant to be a surprise for me was actuallyâŠa surprise for my best friend. Ex-best friend,â you corrected yourself. âMatthew didnât think I would find out, but when I asked him if I should take any days off work soon, he said no. I thought it was just a fluke, but it wasnât.â
âY/n-â
âMatthew broke up with me a week later.â
âWhat?â
You saw the subtle changes in Buckyâs demeanour as you told him. How his gaze and eyes grew darker, how his shoulders became stiff and alert, how his fists clenched on the table.Â
You took a breath. âMatthew broke up with me three weeks ago, but Iâm okay.â
âOkay? Okay? Iâll kill him.â
You shot out of your seat and rushed ahead of him, stopping him in his tracks.Â
âBucky Bucky, Bucky, stop. Stop, okay. Look, Iâm fine. And I promise, I am okay. Guess finding out that your boyfriend has been sleeping with your supposed best friend for six months kinda softens the aftermath of the break-up.â
âSix months?!â
âJustâŠsit down? Please?â
It took a little longer than a minute, but eventually he sat back down and you picked up the clipboard that had been dropped to the floor and handed it back to him.Â
âHow can you be okay?â
You smiled, even if it was still a little sad. âBecause Iâve dealt with it.â
âHow?â
âPoured glitter into their new washing machine, as well as onto all of their clothes,â you admitted. âStole the plate out of the microwave, took the hand pumps out of the soap, threw out the car wax from his cleaning kit. You know, just small things that will cause them a nuisance for a lifetime.â
Bucky felt himself laugh. âRemind me never to piss you off.â
âDonât have to,â you smiled. âYou know better.â
âYeah, I do. Iâm sorry, Y/n.â
You just shrugged, trying to ignore the sting in your heart. âItâs okay.âÂ
Buckyâs eyes followed you around the table until you sat back down in your seat. âNo, itâs not. Iâm sorry he didnât know how good he had it.â
You looked up at him. âThanks, Buck.â
âI mean it, Y/n. I know you loved him. He didnât deserve you.â
You felt his words wash over you and settle into your bones. Youâd been dealing with the break up on your own. You knew you didnât have to, but it was easier. Simpler. But hearing him tell you thatâŠit was worth its weight in gold.Â
You tried your best to place that familiar look in his eyes as he looked at you. It wasnât pity, or sadness. Well, maybe a little. But there was something else there. SomethingâŠmore. Youâd noticed it before but even then you couldnât have given it a name. It was justâŠ
Something More.Â
Like he knew something you didnât. Like he was trying to tell you something he didnât have the courage to say out loud.Â
âWant me to take you home?â
You shook your head, âNo, itâs okay. I can-â
But then he gave you that smile that always made your stomach do a little flip. The way his lips curved in the corner on his mouth, a slightly sassy but genuine look in his eyes.Â
âCome on, Iâll take you home.â
With a grateful smile, you smiled and stood up. On the way out, Bucky helped you remove your lab coat before helping put on your actual one. From there, he waited for you to lock up before you finally reached his car and hopped into the passenger seat.Â
Youâd placed your new address into the carâs GPS and explained to Bucky why you had a new one.Â
âEven if she hadnât moved in, I wouldnât have wanted to stay there on my own. Knowing everything theyâd done together?â You shook your head. âI would have moved, anyway.â
Bucky seemed to adjust himself in his seat, one hand on the wheel as the other rested in between himself and you.Â
âMaybe itâs a good thing you didnât tell the rest of us.â
You chuckled, already knowing what he was thinking. You knew youâd have to tell them eventually. And you would. Preferably in a place where they couldnât all suddenly disappear on you or wouldnât see the masked pain behind your expression which would only lead to more questions.Â
Youâd become friends with the team not long after youâd joined Shield. Tony had studied your work, produced in Shield labs and instantly had given you an offer to work with him on a permanent basis. Before you could finish spending the day thinking about it, you had orders from Hill telling you, you were to become the new resident Lab Tech at the Compound.Â
Youâd worked along-side Tony and the rest of his science team, fixed equipment for the team and eventually found a friendship with them all individually.Â
Wanda had been the first one; sheâd been looking for someone to talk to since Clint was out for the day for Training new recruits. The next had been Tony and Natasha and very soon after had been Clint, Bruce and finally Steve.
Steve had been away on back-to-back missions which resulted in him being one of the last. Within a week of him returning, youâd met everyone else since Tony had decided to throw a party.Â
You had asked why, but Pepper had just told you that to Tony it was âjust becauseâ but sheâd worked on a mission plan. Charity Gala. Sheâs planned the whole thing with Peterâs Aunt.Â
It was at that gala that Bucky had first met your boyfriend. At the time, youâd both only been dating eight months.Â
âDid you buy a renovation?â
You dug into your bag for your keys but nodded. âYeah. Itâs kinda been a nice distraction.â
âDo you know what youâre doing?â
You looked at him, a little offended. âIâm an engineer.â
âI know.â Bucky was still taking in the property. âIâve met you. Are you sure you know what youâre doing?â
Bucky had seen you build some of the most complicated tech in the world. A handful of times, even Shuri had been shocked and impressed. But heâd also seen you try and build a bookshelf from Ikea on your own.Â
âIâll be fine.â
âIâve got some weekends free.â Bucky told you. âIâll help you.â
âYou donât have to-â
âI want to.âÂ
You were taken slightly aback as you saw the smile on his face. But you smiled back anyway. Heâd always had that effect on you.Â
âOkay.â
The following six weekends were filled with stripping old paint, pulling out and replacing rotten floors and beams, plastering walls and securing the foundations. The building had been with the bank for almost thirty years. Nobody had ever wanted to buy it.Â
Youâd guessed it had been built in the forties, or thereabouts. A covered porch had been added on to equal the starting point of the front steps, the shutters on the front windows had either been missing or hanging on by a rotten nail so they were soon replaced. There were three matching windows set at equal distance from each other upstairs. One in the middle and one on either side of it â all facing the front of the home. The garden was overgrown to the point where wildflowers had over run themselves and probably created a new breed.Â
The back was much in the same way; a covered porch, windows, shutters, and a larger back garden perfect for an allotment and space for kids or dogs to run around.Â
Eventually, those six weeks turned into six months.Â
You did what you could within the week and Bucky helped with the rest at the weekends. When Sam found out Bucky was helping, he pitched in, too. Though, he was more helpful when placed away from Bucky and at the other side of the house. That had been something youâd learned quickly. They worked well together but the amount of hours they spent arguing about how to paintâŠ
It was safe to say youâd taped out their own spaces in the house and they were not allowed to cross the tape unless they needed a bathroom break or a snack.Â
Wanda had been more than helpful on the days where theyâd both decided to sneak past the tape and judge each other's work.Â
âHey, hey, hey, would you- Wanda, put me down.â
âStay in your tape.â
After the first three months, you were finally able to go out and buy new furniture and return the rented ones.Â
âLeft a bit, left a bit.â
âWe need to go right.â
âNo, we need to go left.â
Wanda leaned over to you. âHow long have they been like this?â
âTwo hours. I have tried.â
You sighed and crossed your arms, watching as Sam and Bucky tried to take your new sofa inside.Â
âRight, right. Now go up.â
âUp?â
âYes, up?â
âWhat are you gonna do? Make it fly?â
Sam just started at Bucky.Â
âOh, for the love of-â
As you threw your arms into the air, Wanda laughed and started walking towards them. Eventually they dropped the furniture and she moved it herself. It fit through your door simply â just as you had expected before the double comedy act decided to take charge.Â
Finally, after six long months of stripping, plastering, painting, repainting, rearranging, building, and everything in between, you were finally done.Â
You and Bucky lay on the floor together, staring at the ceiling, your beers sweating with condensation onto the placemats.Â
âThank you for helping me.â
âDonât mention it.â
âAs much as I love my new kitchen, I think Iâm just gonna order in. What do you want?â
âWhere are you getting it from?â
After twenty minutes, you and Bucky had decided on a place and ordered two pizzas with a side of fries. âHalf an hour. Right.â You stood from the floor. âIâm going for a shower. You can hop in after me.â
Bucky was glad your back was turned from him since he could feel the heat spread across him.Â
âWhy?â
âBecause you stink.â
You heard him laugh. Since day one, youâd never held back from telling him what you thought. It was one of the things he loved about you.Â
Upstairs, you turned the shower and stepped inside only to watch the dust and paint flakes fall down with the water and into the drain. Twenty minutes later, your hair was washed for the third time that week â white paint from your skirting boards following the suds of the shampoo.Â
And then Bucky walked up the stairs.Â
As he reached the top of the staircase and turned his head down the hall, he called out your name.Â
âShowerâs free! Just getting dressed!â
âHey, uh, I-I left you something downstairs. Feel free to open it!â
âReally? Okay.â
Bucky smiled before walking into your bathroom and closing the door but leaving it cracked open slightly. The steam was still leaving the room and he couldnât open the window just yet.Â
However, what he didnât notice as he carefully got undressed was you walking down the hall. Fresh in your pajamas which consisted of an old t-shirt and shorts, you towel dried your hair except in the defogging mirror in your bathroom, you caught a glimpse of Bucky.Â
Naked Bucky.Â
His back was turned to the mirror, his muscles lightly flexing as he moved to draw back the shower curtain and step into the shower. You tried to ignore the way your heart fluttered in your chest or how your legs unconsciously clamped together as you looked at him.Â
But as the curtain was drawn back, hiding him from sight, you took in a small breath before hurrying down the hallway, down the stairs and into the living room.Â
You were thankful Bucky was in the shower at that moment in fear of him seeing and knowing what the embarrassed and heated look on your face meant.Â
The image youâd just witnessed, it was safe to say, was burning into your mind.Â
It was the knock on your front door which startled you out from your daydream about Bucky and the way he-
âHey, two pep- Matthew.âÂ
What should have been the pizza guy with your pizzas was your ex.Â
âWhat the fuck?â
âPlease, please just hear me out,â he begged. âI am so sorry for what I did. I shouldnât have slept with your best friend but I thought that was what I wanted. But-â
âGoodbye.â
âWait! Please!â
His hand landed on the door. âPlease. I-I thought that was what I wanted but these months apart have made me realise something.â
âLook, I donât know how you found me but please leave.â
âIâm still in love with you, Y/n. I always was. And Iâm ready for more, if thatâs what you want.â
Down the hall, you heard your name being called. But Matthew didnât.Â
âI should never have cheated on you, but I promise I never will again. It was good, right? You loved me? I loved you.â
âPlease leave.â
âI will spend everyday making it up to you because I realised, I am worthy of you. Please, just give us a chance. I promise-â
In the space of about three seconds, you saw Matthewâs face change from begging to terrified and shocked at the same time before the door you were holding onto tightly opened wider from behind you.Â
Then you found yourself met with a freshly showered, completely naked save for the towel wrapped around his waist, Bucky. You felt the heat spread across your entire body as you tried your best to not make it obvious how you were trying to remember the moment for a lifetime.Â
The definition of his muscles, the way his arm flexed as it remained on his hip, the metal arm behind you, holding the door securely. The way the beads of water dripped down his neck and tracked down his body and into the top of the towel. The way his eyes burned with a kind of darkness youâd only ever seen in him when he was ready to attack, but somehow still remained soft when they fell on you.Â
âHoly-â
âWhat are you doing here?âÂ
âI-I-I came to get Y/n back.â
âOh, really?â
You felt yourself smile up at Bucky, for more than just the reason he was making your ex crap his pants.Â
âY-Yes. Iâm worthy of her.â
âYouâre not worthy of shit.â
Matthew tried his best to ignore Bucky as he turned back to you. âPlease. Y/n. Iâm ready. Just come home with me.â
âI have a home. A new home. Very, very far away from you.â
âHow did you even find this place?â Bucky asked.Â
Matthew had to look at him and eventually spat out that your ex-best friend had seen your car turn down the avenue a few weeks back when she was heading to work. So, he looked out for it and hoped for the best.Â
It was in a sudden motion Buckyâs right arm reached out and held Matthew up by the scruff of his collar. âYouâre gonna forget you ever learned this address and leave Y/n alone. Do I have to repeat myself, or are we clear?â
A clearing cough came from somewhere behind Matthew.Â
The pizza guy.Â
âH-hi? S-Sorry about the wait. Theyâre working on the road at the top of the street so-so I-I had to double back.Two pepperoni?â
You nodded and the guy told you the price that had been exchanged over the phone.Â
âThanks.â
âI hope you resolveâŠwhatever this is. Bye.â
Hopping back on his pizza scooter, he headed towards his next address.Â
Matthew finally looked back at Bucky whoâs stare hadnât left him since he picked him up.Â
âI donât like repeating myself, Matthew.â
âBut she still loves me.â
âNo, she doesnât.âÂ
That much had been made clear to Bucky over the last six months. He watched you put whatever anger and sadness youâd bottled up and put away into how youâd pulled out rotting beams and how you stabbed and yanked dead weeds from the ground with all your might.Â
He also saw it in your quiet moments after that. How you built yourself a home without any reminiscence of Matthew or your ex-best friend, how you found freedom and love in what was around you and how you let yourself date again. The dates didnât last too long but they always ended mutually â not one sided.Â
âShe does.â
You practically rolled your head with your eyes. âI really donât.â
Bucky just smirked.Â
âB-but what about our life together?â
âThe one you torched when you fucked my friend? Yeah,â you heard yourself laugh. âThat will never exist.â
As you went to walk away, leaving Bucky to deal with Matthew, he called out.Â
âYou canât seriously be fucking him?â
Turning on your heel, you looked at both of them. Bucky seemingly didnât react. Until a sliver of unrecognisable courage came pouring forward.Â
âAnd what if I am?â
Bucky reacted to that. Not that Matthew noticed.Â
âNot that itâs any business of yours,â you added.Â
âBut-â
âGoodbye, Matthew.â
As you walked into the kitchen and laid out the pizzas, it was a few minutes before you heard a cry from Matthew, followed by a crash of plywood from the skip that was ready to be collected the next day.Â
Finally, the door closed and Bucky walked back into the kitchen, towel still around his waist.Â
Walking out from your laundry room, you took the last mental image of a practically naked Bucky, standing in your home, looking sun-kissed and all kinds of handsome.Â
âYou left some clothes here the last time you stayed over.â Standing in front of him, you handed him his clothes.Â
âThanks.â
Taking them from you, Bucky smirked as he caught your gaze scanning his entire body.Â
âHow are you feeling?â
Your gaze flicked back to his, acting as if you hadnât just been checking him out, but the heat on your face gave you away.Â
âGood.â You smiled. âActually, really good. Kinda shocked me when it was him and not the pizza guy- thank you, by the way. For dealing with him. Iâm sure thereâs some speech I should give you about threats of violence but it was nice to see him scared after everything he did.â
âClearly he didnât get a new washing machine.â Bucky held up his hand, small flecks of glitter on the palm. You laughed.Â
âYou canât escape it.â
Bucky chuckled, too. âGuess you canât.â
It was in the silence that followed, your hand holding onto his from when you moved it to see the glitter, that you saw that look in his eyes again. That something more look. Heâd looked at you like that since the beginning.Â
For a while you thought that was just how he looked at people. But you saw the way he looked at Steve and Sam and Natasha and Wanda. You saw the way he looked at strangers on the street as they walked past him, you saw the way he looked at kids when they walked up to him and asked for his autograph, you saw the way he looked at reporters when they asked about the 40s or asked a question he didnât like.Â
You saw the way he looked at everyone else.Â
And then there was the way he looked at you.Â
Something more.
You felt yourself step forward a little as he dropped his hand and held onto yours. It was a subtle difference. The way he looked at you, the way he held you, the way he spoke to you.Â
It was his turn to step closer.Â
Carefully placing his clothes down on the kitchen island beside you both, his other hand reached out for you, brushing the hair from your eyes.Â
And for a rare moment, you shocked him. Usually, he knew everything with you. It was rare you had to actually tell him something. He spent that long looking at you, it was almost as if his gaze could stare directly into your soul and know what you needed.Â
But this.Â
This he didnât see coming.Â
No matter how long heâd hoped for it.Â
You kissed him.Â
And for a moment he was still, feeling your lips against his. Then it was like he was brought back to life. Feeling your hand in his, he squeezed your hand and you squeezed back. Finally, he kissed you back. His hands came to hold your face as he stepped into you, his kiss matching yours.Â
In a few turns, your back was against the counter of your kitchen island, your hands sending goosebumps throughout him as they trailed down his chest, sides and held him closer by his neck and back.Â
It wasnât long before he lifted you onto the counter and your legs spread open for him to step closer. Slowly, the kisses peppered away until you were both left gasping for breath, feeling his forehead against yours.Â
âShit.â Bucky eventually breathed, a small laugh escaping him. And you giggled, holding him closer.Â
âYou better get dressed before you give my new neighbours an exclusive.â
Bucky looked behind him, realising you were both in a semi-clear view of the blind-less windows. They were getting delivered and installed on Monday. For now, you just had curtains and the panels on the windows.Â
Then he looked down. The towel was slowly coming loose from his hips. Then he swore for a different reason.Â
âYou might have to give me a minute.â
It took you a second to realise what he was talking and blushing about. Then you tried to hide your laugh. âEither you put on some shorts or you give my neighbours an original welcome to the neighbourhood.â
Bucky gave you a look before looking around. Finally, grabbing his clothes, he surprised you with a quick kiss to your lips which made you smile and distracted you enough to let him go. Behind your kitchen island, he slipped on his shorts before removing the towel.Â
âThought I might get a show.â
Bucky gave you another look. âIâd rather save that for when itâs just you and me, doll.â
You hummed, your arms coming back to his shoulders. âFair enough.â
A shorter silence came over you both as Bucky looked at you again.Â
âWhat? What is it?â
You just kept looking.Â
âYouâre looking at me like Iâve got two heads.â
âYou always look at me like that.â
âLike youâve got two heads?â
You shook your head. âNo. Like IâmâŠsomething more. Iâve noticed it for a while but I donât knowâŠwhy do you look at me like that?â
Bucky just smiled, already knowing what you were talking about. âBecause you are something more, doll. Youâre more than something more to me.â
You searched his face for what felt like hours, trying to decipher his cryptic message until it finally clicked with you. His message hadnât been cryptic at all. It had been staring at you, quite literally, for years.Â
Bucky watched as the expressions changed on your face; trying to find his meaning, wondering if youâd found the right one, convincing yourself it wasnât possible, coming back to your original conclusion, accepting it though not fully, hoping it was true, not wanting to embarrass yourself if you were wrong, being certain you were right, and then not, until finally youâd found the courage to ask him if you were.Â
And he just smiled. Freely, and without hesitation, he answered.Â
âIâm in love with you, Y/n. Thatâs why youâre more than something more to me.â
âWhy didnât you say anything?â
âYou already had someone.â Bucky said, a little defeat in his voice.Â
âHad being the key word.âÂ
He smiled and looked back at you. âI didnât want to rush things. WeâŠwe both needed time.â
Unconsciously, your body moved closer to his touch as his hand traced down your arm before he held onto your hand. Fingers danced around each other before he finally pulled your hand close to his lips and kissed your knuckles, then your palm, and finally your inner wrist.Â
Finally, your head touched his. Eyes closed, breaths taking in and let out in sync.Â
âI am in love with you, Y/n. I have been for a long time and I donât wanna rush this.â
You leaned up and looked at him. âThen we wonât. Like you said, we both needed time. And, Bucky?â
He looked at you, again.Â
âYouâre more than something more to me, too.â
Then he smiled, that genuine if slightly sassy grin. âI know, doll.â
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