#how does one know theae things

[illegally-blind-and-deaf]

So I might be ace?

[famousfilmsfan]

(This takes place in my Zombie Au)

TW: Mentions of trauma, death and handling of firearms

Bryan and Gregory we're in Freddy Land

Bryan: Now Gregory you’re ten years old. Now i’m gonna teach you something my surrogate father taught me when I was ten.

Gregory: What was that?

Bryan: *Pulls a pistol out of a hidden holster* how to fire a gun.

Gregory: Wow! Aren't I too young?

Bryan: You’re never too young, besides i’m a licensed trainer I can teach anybody.

Bryan set up some bottles on a railing near the hotel.

Bryan: Now, *puts a pair of headphones on gregory* Theae will protect your ears got it?

Gregory: won't you need some?

Bryan: Nah i’ve been surrounded by gunfire, my ears ring all the time i’m basically immune at this point. Now.

Bryan gives Gregory the weapon and stands behind him

Bryan: Relax your arms, and aim just slightly below where you want to hit.

Gregory: Then I pull the trigger right?

Bryan: No, no, you gently squeeze it. Now *holds his shoulders firmly* You might feel some recoil, so shift your right foot in front of you and turn it slightly to keep your balance.

Bryan: and....now!

Gregory shoots, and the bottle shatters

Gregory: *Super proud* I did it!

Bryan: Yeah you did. Now, aim for the one on the fountain, a little range this time.

They repeat the process but Gregory doesn't get the bottle he shoots the fountain.

Gregory: Oh no i’m so sorry!

Bryan: It’s fine, Gregory; it’s just a mistake, aim a little higher.

Gregory does so and makes it yet again.

Bryan: There we go, now I think that’s enough for today, how about we try something else?

Gregory: Like what?

Bryan and Gregory are both in a hotel room. There's a large amount of objects laying on the bed.

Bryan: Now i’m gonna teach you how you to pack a bugout bag. Now since your backpack is quite small you’ll have less things to fit in it. So what do you grab?

Gregory: Hmm. The...first aid kit, the can opener, swiss army knife, and the flashlight.

Bryan: Good, but then you’ll have little room for clothes, so it’s always good to carry different clothing on yourself, wrap a jacket around your waist when your hot and no matter the weather wear jeans, you’ll be a bit uncomfortable but that’s better then death.

Gregory: Uh..dad? I'm not complaining but why are you teaching me these things?

Bryan: Well, I just think you should be taught these things instead of learning the hard way if an outbreak happens again.

Gregory: An outbreak? What do you mean?

Bryan: Well, I think you’re old enough to know, but if you want me to stop just say so okay?

Gregory sits cross legged on the bed.

Bryan: When I was around your age, the city I lived in Elkridge was hit by a zombie outbreak.

Gregory: Zombies? I thought those weren't real.

Bryan: Oh they were real alright. And real scary...and I was your age, my parents went on a trip over spring break and left me with my babysitter Michael, neither of us knew what was going on at first, nobody did. We tried to escape the city but his car broke down. We had to walk but we got confronted with a horde...luckily these nice people inside a department store let us in.

Gregory: That’s good.

Bryan: Yeah, the leader of the group Doug was super mean though, he screamed at the guy who let us in, said he meant that door should stay shut no matter what.

<Flashback>

Doug: When I say that door stays shut no matter what I fucking mean it!

Andrew: He has a kid Doug.

Doug: so do I! You can't just endanger us to save these guys!

Boy: Dad calm down please.

Doug: Jon please stay out of this.

Younger Bryan: *Tugs on Micheal's sleeve*

Micheal: What is it?

Younger Bryan: I..I need to pee. *shaking*

Micheal: In a moment, Bryan.

Doug: Stop ignoring me!

Micheal: shut up! You can't just yell at people who ignore you

Bryan: *Narrating* I really needed to go so I silently snuck off. Which I kinda regret.

Younger Bryan: Come on it’s gotta be somewhere. *Enters a room* Oh it’s a closet...um

There was a Zombified Janitor standing there with his back facing Bryan.

Younger Bryan: Uh..sir?

The zombie turns around.

Younger Bryan; *Screams and runs out of the janitors closet

Micheal: Bryan!

Doug: Jesus!

Micheal ran over to Bryan and pulled the zombie away from him, kicking him into a cabinet. They proceeded to struggle.

Bryan: Then that’s when everything began to ring.

Younger Bryan: *Holds his ears* Ahh!

Micheal pushes the dead zombie off of him.

A man with glasses in a sweater vest is standing holding a revolver.

Man: Is he okay?

Micheal: *holding his ears* What?

Man: Oh right, sorry, you might need to see a doctor after all this.

Then the barricaded door to the building begins to budge, the gunshot attracted the nearby horde they were hiding from.

Doug: *Whispers* Everyone down.

Everyone hides behind the counter.

Younger Bryan: *Shaking* Mikey i’m scared.

Micheal: *Holding him close* So am I bud.

Then the sound of a siren going by filled the room.

Man with a gun: Is that the police?

Younger Jon: Thanks for whoever it is.

The zombies at the door left well, the majority of them.

Doug: Ugh! We almost died because of this bastard and his itchy trigger finger! That was so stupid! You could have killed us! You-

Man with a gun: Shut up, Doug, for once.

Doug: *Gasps offended*

Man: I‘ve known you for over an hour and i’m super annoyed.

Doug: Ugh! Whatever! *Storms off and sulks in the corner*

Micheal: Thank you so much uh..

Sebastian; Call me Sebastian, I’m a reporter for CNN.

Micheal: Cool, didn't know that this thing was on the news.

Sebastian: It kind of was, but the crew abandoned me and took the van. Bastards.

Younger Bryan: Language.

Sebastian: Sorry kid.

Micheal: Bryan why don't you go talk to that Jon kid, and I think there's another kid in here.

Younger Bryan: Okay. *walks off*

<Back in the present>

Gregory: That was pretty cool, then what happened?

Bryan: I uh...don’t wanna talk about it right now.

Gregory: Oh..well can I ask something?

Bryan: What?

Gregory: Did you wet your pants when you saw the zombie?

Bryan: *Embarrassed* Uh...I don't know.

[babybatscreationsv2]

Ive always wondered about something regardingfic writers. Im not sure every author out there is aware, or if its the exact reason they write what they write because they may view the actions as flattering… But, does it make you uncomfortable to know that some people out there may be using your big lemons as masturbation material? A oittle inspiration for their fantasies to help turn themselves on before having some time to themselves? Im honestly curious as to how this would make you feel. But i dont really have the courage to ask the starker community directly on how theyd feel about this. For me, i have some pretttyyyy dark and whore-y fantasies im dying to even act out in real llife, let alone wrote. I myself am not sure how id feel if i knew people would get sexually aroused by my writing or imagine themselves in the place of one of the characters. (As a system, most of what i write comes from one of us directly, like, our own experiences and memories via headspace) My apologies in advance if ive upset you or made you uncomfortable with asking theae questions. I wasnt really sure how to go about it. Something about me feels a little bit guilty about reading peoples lemons and then well..getting aroused, on the potential thought that may make the authors uncomfortable.. is that weird?-🌹

This is 100% okay to ask and I dont think other writers would mind if you wanted to get their opinions as well.

I think all of us assume that readers are generally getting off on our fics. In fact it wasn't until recently that I realized that some readers felt the way that you do, it just never crossed my mind. When you put things out into the world that are sexual in nature, its feels safe to assume that people will respond that way.

As for how I actually feel about it, honestly I feel flattered. In fact a good majority of my fics were written with the intention of getting people off. So if people are jacking off to my fics that means I did my job well. There was a time when it was pretty normal to get asks from people saying things like "omg your fic gave me the best orgasm ever" but people have become so concerned with consent that everyone is afraid to cross a line accidentally, which I think is perfectly reasonable tbh, but most writers, especially folks like me who are older and from the before ao3 times, we know what you're doing when you read our fics and we're kinda into it.

And if anyone is wondering, you absolutely have permission to tell me when I wrote something that got you off, you don't have to embarrassed. It's what most of us are doing I promise.

I have trauma myself and 100% write it into my fics, I find that it helps me process my feelings and to feel more in control, but I wouldn't suggest putting your trauma or experiences out there in fic form if you aren't comfortable knowing that people will absolutely get off on it. It doesn't matter how personal it is or if it's violent or disturbing, there is someone who will use it get off on. So don't put it online if you're uncomfortable with that.

Tldr; I don't think you're weird for feeling the way you do and you don't have to feel guilty for feeling aroused by or getting off on my fics. In fact, I encourage it.

[yahwehscholar]

Proverbs Chapters 1-5

Hello friends. I started reading Proverbs this morning, and would like to share a few points and a few scriptures with you, if you'd like to take the time to read.

Wisdom is the first word that stands out to me, in Proverns 1:2. Wisdom is given a voice, and is trying toge tevwryone's attention. Wisdom is why the woman let the serpent deceive her, because she came to the conclusion that it would make her wise. Look at Genesis 3:6. Wisdom is a keyword, and this bible groups it with insight. "To know wisdom and instruction, to understand words of insight." We should pay attention. Proverbs 1:7 "The fear of Yahweh is thw beginning of knowledge, fools despise wisdom and instruction." So that's where we need to start, with his great name יהוה.

Verse 8 continues, listen to your father and mother. Good advice. Proverbs 1:19 "Such are the ways of everyone who is greedy for unjust gain, it takes away the life of its possessors."

Wisdom is personified here, and she is crying out in the street. She wants to be heard. She's looking for people to listen to her. Proverbs 1:23 "If you turn at my reproof, behold, I will pour out my spirit to you, I will make my words known to you." Spirit is another keyword for me. What this is saying though is to be humble and accept discipline and use it to improve yourself, not to become bitter. We all are imperfect. But we can improve, if we listen, and it goes on to describe what will happen to those who do not listen.

Chapter 2 starts out by telling us that we need to listen to wisdom, if we seek insight and understanding diligently, good things will happen. Proverbs 2:6 "for Yahweh gives wisdom, from his mouth come knowledge and understanding." Wisdom comes from Yahweh, along with all other good things.

My ex who I parted ways with recently was my spiritual advisor, and he didn't like the word wisdom very much. He associated it with the choice to eat the fruit, and that both were bad. I disagree. He'd say "Don't eat the fruit!" When I tried to weigh the options to make my decisions and look at it from all the angles. Which I encourage everyone to do, to think things over and make the choices for yourself of what is good.

Proverbs 2:9-11 "Then you will understand righteousness and justice, and equity, every good path, for wisdom will come into your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul, discretion will watch over you, understanding will guide you." These things are what is good, and we should strive for them. Equity, discretion, righteousness, and understanding. Even if everyone else in the world is living however they want, I will keep these with me. The reward or the consequence, hopefully at the end of the days, is recorded at Proverbs 2:21,22 "For the upright will inhabit the land, and those with integrity will remain in it, but the wicked will be cut off from the land, and the treacherous will be rooted out of it." It's about our life, and the quality of it. It's our decision what side we're on.

Chapter 3 brings up steadfast love and faithfulness as being important enough to "bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart." Proverbs 3:5-7 "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes, fear Yahweh, and turn away from evil." Theae are some well known verses. Trust is very important, almost another keyword but I haven't really looked for it much before.

I like the scripture at Proverbs 3:11,12 "My son, do not despise Yahweh's discipline, or be weary of his reproof, for Yahweh reproves him whom he loves, as a father the son in whom he delights." We need to be able to accept criticism and le tit make us better. We can't see ourselves as clearly as other people can. Think about it for yourself always first, but be willing to listen to the advice of others. It doesn't mean you have to act on it. Knowledge is power, right?

Chapter 3 goes on further to discuss wisdom. Proverbs 3:18-20 "She is a tree of life to those who lay hold of her, those who hold her fast are called blessed. Yahweh by wisdom founded the earth, by understanding he established the heavens, by his knowledge the deeps broke open, and the clouds dropped down the dew." A tree of life, how could this not be talking about rhw end of the days? It brings up a "tree of life" also in Genesis and Revelation. And that's basically the end reward, to have a land to inherit and a life to live. Yahweh is the one who has the power to give us those. Which we have know, sort of, but I want things to be so much better than they are now. It starts with us all as individuals, though.

Proverbs 3:27 "Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to do it." That's good advice. I am a giving person, and I believe that's how God-fearing people should be. Do what's right because it's the right thing to do. Proverbs 3:29-32 "Fo not plan evil against your neighbor, who dwells trustingly beside you. Do not contend for a man for no reason, when he has done you no harm. Do not envy a man of violence, and do not choose any of his ways, for the devious person is an abomination to Yahweh, but the upright are in his confidence." A few "Do Not"s, which make complete sense to me. Don't stir up trouble for no reason. Don't be devious.

Chapter 4 starts off with more exhortations to listen. Proverbs 4:18,19 "But the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn, which shines brighter and brighter until fully day. The way of the wicked is like deep darkness, they do not know over what they stumble." That's the truth. Proverbs 4:23-25 "keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flows the springs of life. Put away from you crooked speech, and put devious talk far from you." Jesus also talked about the spring of life welling up inside of us, when he talked to the woman at the well in John chapter 4. Don't lie, Yahweh is the God of truth. He expects us to live in the truth and to be honest in all our dealings. Don't try to make people believe things that aren't true, don't be devious.

Chapter 5 gives a good explanation against adultery, Proverbs 5:20-23 "Why should you be intoxicated, my son, with a forbidden woman, and embrace the bosom of an aduleress? For a man's ways are before the eyes of Yahweh, and he ponders all his paths. The inequities of the wicked ensnare him, and he is held fast on the cord of his sin. He dies for lack of discipline, and because of his great folly he is led astray."

There's another verse in Proverbs 6:32 "He who commits adultery lacks sense, he who does it destroys himself." Isn't that the truth. But I don't want to go into chapter 6 yet. I will later.

I pray that if you don't already, you know the difference between Jesus, who called himself the "son of man," and Yahweh, who is God and the one who sent Jesus to save the world from sin. The name Jesus even means "Yahweh is salvation." Why would God name himself after himself? The trinity does not make sense, it only causes more problems trying to make Jesus, who was a man (even though he had a prior existence), into God.

Yahweh is the only one I pray to. And I know he answers my prayers, like with this job. Maybe he doesn't answer all my prayers right away, but that's why I try not to ask for much, just to have his help doing what needs to get done. It's a struggle out there, life is complicated, this world is still upside down. We need all the help we can get, and the cool thing is Yahweh wants to help us. I pray for wisdom for all of you, and myself. Each of us individually has to seek it though. Don't be quick to judge other people ad treat thwm harshly, but judge for yourself what is right and wrong and hold yourself up to high standards. Live like you're the example, the one doing g a good job.

Depression is hard to handle, I know. I've been there, I'm still kind of in a funk. Writing this is really helping me focus on that good things of Yahweh, and I can't wait for the promises to be fulfilled. To live in a world cleansed by Yahweh the One True God of love, truth, justice, righteousness, and wisdom. To have his blessing back on this world. I'm looking forward to that.